hey yall. i feel yall need some explination once again for my big disappearin act... im really sorry to everyone who has been chattin with me and all that such. i honestly feel bad. and the real of it is too much for me to talk about. the short of it... relationship failures and failing hard. ive been dealing with depression over it and i realy dont feel comfortable talkin about it. i appreciate the warm thoughts and all but please dont message me to ask about my ex. im trying to forget that chapter in my life.

anyway, i will say that this all started with a failing computer. i dont rely on my computer a whole lot so i put off gettin a new one for some time. actually i never bought a new one, my parents ended up gettin me a new one for my birthday. anyways the new computer didnt have any of my login info for any of my accounts. email included. not bein the huge tech savy person i just never bothered gettin access to everythin. in that time i was spendin more and more time with someone who i was gettin really close to. i really fell hard for this guy and... ya... im sorry i really cant think more about it. the pain is still pretty deep. and for the past few months ive been stugglin with alcohol abuse because of the breakup. i dont feel like myself anymore. and i feel like comin back here and lookin for some happy folks to converse with again might help me back on my feet.

with that said, i hope i can keep comin back regularly. might be harder some days than others but im going to try and make an effort to log in at least once a week.

and for those who ive talked with on telegram and discord. i think ive completely lost those accounts. im gonna try and get them back but i cant make any promises. for now im just limited to notes here.

if yall read this whole thing, i appreciate it. i dont expect much from anyone. but i at least feel a little better havin writtin this out.

oh and many thanks to everyone new to watchin me and for all the faves i received in my absense. theres a lot to go through and i just dont have the motivation to go and personally thank each and every one of you. so i hope this will be okay.

hey everyone. so sorry again for the absence, yet again. i feel so horrible for disappearing on everyone like this i wish i could have more free time to chat and catch up with everyone.

anyway a quick update from me. i recently just got back from anthrocon. it was my first time back to anthrocon sense 2013 so it was great to see how much the con has changed and grown. sadly though i didnt have my suit so no pictures of me unfortunately. the suit is back in for another revamp. the hooves are being redone as well as the bodysuit which i wasnt 100% happy with.

but aside from the lovely vacation ive been busy workin out moving to a new job a bit closer to columbus. the real challenge however is finding a new place of residence. long story short, banks are being bitter and some places are moving faster than the banks.

otherwise things have been just as busy around my parents place as normal so not much to report from there.

anyway. i hope i can stop this whole disappearing act as soon as i can get myself re-situated in life.

well after so many requests i guess i decided to download telegram for my computer. so far i like it but i havent got anyone to chat with so if yall want to add me my heres a link https://t.me/Provalone

edit, plus i kinda wanted to get rid of that last journal from my fa page from many months ago hehe.

its been quite some time for me here hasnt it?

so i dont have much time here so ill keep this thing short... life on the farm has been getting a little crazy the past few months, new horses, new stable hands and the possiblities of new land have been the major points. but to top that all off our computer went on the frits a few months back as well and that was just somethin that got thrown on the backburner and was only recently fixed.

so im back and am slowly finding a few photos of me from the latest convention i was able to attend up in columbus, oh, anthrohio. so i plan to upload a few of those as time goes on.

but heck the biggest shocker was finally login in to find almost 3000 new submissions. yall been busy it seems with the art. its gonna take me ages to get through all that!

anyways hope yall have a lovely day and hopefully we can chat some more in the near future!

hey yall!

figured i post a brief experience from furreality from last weekend. i was only there for saturday as work on in the stables needs more attention right now with the family and such. but anyways i had a good time. got to suit some bit before the parade. after the parade there wasnt much to do it seemed so wondered around a bit before headin out to dinner with some friends i havent seen in a while and then left shortly after.

all in all i did have some fun but i dont think ill be goin back. the space there was pretty small and it felt a lot like morphicon but not as welcoming it seems. the security staff there was the biggest issue. they just never seemed to be happy they were there and from what i heard they were bein pretty picky about things.

but thats about it. wasnt much of a con it seemed. perhaps will see yall at another event. am hoping to get up to midwest furfest but the way work in the stables is goin here it doesnt look like thats goin to happen. but ohayocon in columbus will be a bigger definate so maybe ill see more of yall there? will be my first time attendin!

so if yall didnt know, i got myself a new suit from furred out kreations, a remake of my old one seein as my old one started to fall apart an what have ya.

but....... today i went in for a final test fitting and a photo shoot and it was super awesome! im so happy with how it came out and fits me. most of the seems are gone and the head is super cool compared to the last one, even has a workin fan in it now. the hair on it is a huge hassle but it looks so awesome and pretty. ah man and i get to wear it to indy fur con, will be my first time to a convention in such a long time im super excited yall!

but ya, i cant wait to see the picture that were takin. hopefully ill get to see them tonight and post a few of them here for yall!

once again i been pulled away from here for such a long period of time. i feel terrible about it all, but life got me in a bundle once again. but this time its for good things. a couple of our mares had given birth over the past couple months and i been out in the barns keeping the new yearlings well cared for. the oldest is a fine looking colt who we've named Yours Truely and the second younger is a pretty little filly who we have yet to name. both come from the same stallion but different mothers and are very happy and healthy. we expect great things from these two!

but other than the cute young additions to the farm, not much else has happened. life goes on i guess and i promise to be back into the mix of things here, especially now that i see my new suit is getting close to being finished. i am so excited to have my suit back, i've really been missing out on much fun (that isn't here on the farm).

wow, ah cant believe i have forgotten about all yall here on fa. but hey life is funny like that yea.

but if yall were wonderin about some sorta life update well here yall go.
been back an forth from home and school the past month or so. one of our family horses aint do so well so ive been tryin to help out any best way i can. shes gettin to be pretty old so we suspect shes developed some arthritus in her rear legs. shes still pretty happy as all just not very willin to move a whole lot these days. its really sad for all of us. we all might be haven to put her down any day soon. i dont want to see her go, shes been with us sense i was just a little girl and shes been nothin but a sweet angle to me and my family so its gonna be a hard thing to say goodby. its puttin a lot of stress on myself with all my school work, especially this year bein my last year. hopefully i can pass my last few classes and graduate in the spring.

so ya, thats about where i am at and am really sorry i havent been around as much as yall might like. hopefully i can get back into the swing of things, especially with my new suit in the works.

my good ol friend husky is holdin a free raffle. yall should go check it out here:

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4540491/

so yall get a chance to be in a cute picture with

go n check out the details in his journal yall!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4279182/

im so sorry i havent been around very much yall. school was such a burdon on me that past few months, but now that its over and im back at home with my lovely horses, things are finally calmin down for the summer time.

so expect to see a bit more of me from now on. i aint dead yet hehe

in case yall were wonderin, i got myself a room done in the omni this year. me and some of my gal friends will be held up there for the weekend. just thought yall might wanna know. see yall there <3

so i been told theres this anime convention thing goin on next weekend. i aint to big the anime stuffs so i dont know if i really wanna go. lots of furs i know will be there but i been told theres lots of people too. more than mff i been told. im still pretty skitsh around lots of people and i just dont know if i can handle it. anyone got any tips that might help out a mare like me?

well im back from midwest furfest now and what a blast it was. got to meet up with some old friends an made a few new ones as well. i got so many pictures taken of me i hope i get to see em all.

with that said, if anyone finds some pictures of me, let me know, id love to repost them <3

Stolen from

1.)What's your name?

Provalone


2.)Do you know why you were named that?

cas i love provolone cheese!


3.) Are you single or taken?

single ah guess


4.)Have any abilities or powers?

i dont know. i could lasso a bull on bareback does that count?


5.) Stop being a Gary-Stu >.>

?


6.) Uh...if you were to get in a fight with a strong wrestler, do you think you'd win?

get me some rope and i might have a chance.


7.) Riiiight... Have any family members?

nope


8.) Oh? How about pets?

nope


9.) Cool, I guess. Tell me something what you don't like.

them upper class folk with all their prissy little words and fancy talkin. makes me wanna clock em one right in the kisser


10.) Something that you do like?

provolone cheese!!!!


11) Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?

i love to ride bare back and run some barrel races. love the carnivel season!


12.)Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?

oh ya, kicked a guy once cas he pissed me off.


13.)Ever...killed anyone before?

nah


14.)What kind of animal are you?

i been told im called a snowflake, but i dont know much about that, so i stick to ma palomino-paint mix


15.)Name your worst habits.

gettin hot headed over small things, bittin my nails and tappin my hooves when nervous.


16.)Do you look up to anyone at all

not really, other than ma dad


17.) Gay, straight, or bi?

bi


18.)Do you go to school?

currently attending the ohio state university.


19.) Ever wanna marry and have kids one day?

would be nice i guess.


20.)Do you have any fangirls/fanboys?

i dont know, maybe.


21.)What are you most afraid of? I promise I won't laugh.

live fish


22.)O_OUUU Ok, ok. What color is your hair?

blonde


23.) Eyes?

changes with ma mood. usually are purple tho


24.) What do you usually wear?

my usual farm outfit.


25.) Ok. What's your religion?

christian.


26.) Do you wish this quiz is over?

kinda sorta


27.) Well, it's still not over. xD

...


28.) Anyways, where do you live?

currently on campus in columbus OH


29.) What class are you? (Low class, middle class, high class)

i dont care, middle class i guess


30.) How many friends do you have?

a few, most aint furry. then again they dont know im furry either.


31.) Wow. If you could change anything about you, what would you change?

dont really like being shy at conventions. i try to get to know people but its hard for me.


32.) If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?

id start my own horse ranch out in the great plains of colorado!


33.) What is your thoughts on pie?

pie is good


34.) Alright. What's your favourite food?

provolone cheese!


35.) Favourite drink?

sprite


36.) What is your favourite place?

on a farm in the foothills of the great rocky mountines <3


37.) Least favourite?

big city and tall buildins


38.) What will make you really mad?

actin all prissy and know-it-all. yall know the type, them folks that think they got all the money in the world an rub it in your face. hate them folk so much


39.) Are you still wanting the quiz to end?

kinda


40.)Yeah. Well, it's over. D:

...

41.) One more thing.

this here aint a question, nor was the one before this.

well it's not exactly being reconstructed, its more of just for the hooves and the head.

sense anthrocon, my head has lacked a fan and the hooves were completely obliterated. i'll try and get some photos of the aftermath to post here later. husky was not very happy with what happened, nore am i too happy with him letting others were my suit on that sunday, but thats a different story.

for now tho, the hooves are being redone and supposedly they will be stronger and lighter than before. i dont know what husky has planned exactly but he's told me they'll look exactly the same as before, just built differently. he's been sending me progress pictures of the work so i'll get those posted here as well. and as for the head, it needs a new fan so nothing big there other than me not getting so hot inside.

thats all for now
thanks for readin darlins <3

Furlaxation is looking for donation art for their website. (http://test.furlaxation.org)

More specificly, banner art, logo, and some random picture arts/pinups.

The payoff? A chance to get your name out into the vast public eye and references back to your website of choice. Further offers may be available depending upon level of cooperations, donations, and further discussions with managing divisions.

Contact  husky657 for more inforation if intrested.

If you feel you cannot donate art but still wish to help, repost this journal and get the word out... any help we can get is greatly appreciated.

I been really wantin some art of me, but I havent got a glue of who to go with for some commissions.

Any suggestions?

Oh and BTW, I havent got a paypal either. So any ideas there as well?

Took this here meme thing from Knightwolf

Have you ever really thought about all the things you've done in fursuit? Here's a list of questions to help you figure out just how much fursuiting you've engaged in ;3

No rules (apart from having fursuited at one point or another), just answer the questions any way you'd like!


Posed in front of a mirror?
ofcourse

Been shopping/to a supermarket/store in fursuit?
I'm to scared to do that

Been group suiting?
does a convention count as group suiting?

Ever put on your fursuit for no reason and worn it for an extended period of time?
not really

Have you walked around your hometown in fursuit?
no

Fursuited in a different state?
yep

In a different country?
no

Fursuited at a con? If so, how many times?
Morphicon and Anthrocon

Drank in fursuit?
yep

Eaten something?
no

Put on someone else's fursuit?
no

Ruined the magic in public?
well not exactly public, had to take off my head a few times at anthrocon

Gone to a furmeet in suit?
havent been to any furmeets sadly

Been in a moving car while in suit?
no

Been glomped while in suit?
i think so, cant remember

Glomped someone while in suit?
applejack at anthrocon ^.^

Made a child smile?
I think so, maybe once or twice

Danced?
oh yeah, love to dance

Been in a fursuit dance competition?
no

Done something that attracted a large group of people while in suit?
no

Experienced a hater?
no

Longest time in fursuit? (what counts as being in suit is up to you)
ummm, 5 hours i think

And finally...
Most memorable moment in fursuit?
when i got to meat dustythemare at anthrocon. I was totally shy and nervious to say much to her at all.

well i gotta say AC was fun. got to meet a whole mess a new folks and got to suite about as well. my left hoof did shatter into peices just before the fursuite parade started. Luckly Husky was there with me to help repair that SOB, but sadly missed the entire parade.

anyway, Husky says he'll be makin me a new pair hooves intime for the next con, which hopefully will be Indifur Con. but yes, if yall saw me at AC or got pics of me, please let me know.

Ya, well it looks like I see peoples postin about this anthrocon thingy and figured id make some sorta note about it. not really sure what to say really other than I will be going. I'll be there roamin the halls of anthrocon from friday to sunday so yah see ya'll there.