Space...

Curse...

Smash...

Magic...

Shoes...

It's gonna take a lot longer to catch up than I thought as I still have 13 descriptions to add and 3 stories I still owe... But on the positive side, I finally added the description to A Room-Filling Reek in case anyone wants to give that a read. I'm gonna update this journal as I'm catching up, but for now, here's the list:

Missing Descriptions:
* A Room-Filling Reek ✔️
* Foul Fox Feet and Sour Skunk Soles
* An Overwhelming Odour
* Hypnotic Huffs of Skunky’s Socks
* A Relaxing, Reeking Rub
* Fruity and Foul Fumigation
* The Deal...
* Fighting the Foot Trance (and failing)
* “Ewww! What Reeks Like FEET?!?”
* “BLECH! How’re Those CLEAN Socks?!”
* “Woah... Those feet are HUGE!!!”
* “Seriously, those socks are ALREADY soaked?!”

Owed Stories:
*  SkunkKitsune1
*  Redsuns433
*  goblinvoid

Hhhhh..... nothing’s gone right for me this year.

Between my grandma’s continuing bout with Alzheimer’s, my friend basically giving up on his mom who’s been spiralling downwards for a while, my dad’s ex’s drinking STILL being a constant issue, the fears of me and my mom possibly losing our place because we stuck our necks out for her best friend (friend’s mom) and now we’re basically getting screwed over because of it, the never-ending bouts of miscommunication and arguments with my dad, having to wait and wait and wait to get paid while my dad’s bragging about all the shiny new truck parts and other stuff he’s got while STILL showing no initiative to pay me on time or help me get the computer I was promised when I graduated in fucking 2009 while dad’s ex who also works with us gets paid almost immediately and talks about her new glasses/phone/dentures/etc to me, oblivious to the fact that my dad has literally spent more time and money on helping her and her family than his own biological son and doesn’t seem to grasp that she’s essentially bragging to me that she gets whatever she wants, despite the 50+ times she’s been drunk enough to cause problems or property damage..... Where was I even going with this?


Yeah, I’ve got like, no motivation for anything anymore and it’s been getting worse and worse as time goes on as shit in my life keeps going downhill. I still owe my half of a trade with  goblinvoid , still owe a story to  SkunkKitsune1 and my boyfriend  Redsuns433 , there’s like, 14 pics without descriptions. I still have a beautiful commission from  Noctibus that  Eclipse32 got with me and  flibolimay that I need to post along with accompanying description. I wanted to do something special for reaching 420 Watchers a couple months back, but that was the day my grandma wandered out by herself and got lost for 3 hours while me and my dad were scouring all over the city in a panic! So much shit I wanted to do that I either have to keep putting on hold or can’t even attempt to do because there’s always some sort of bullshit going on irl for me. Which fucking sucks, because there’s just so much shit that I’ve missed out on that it feels like there’s no point even trying to keep up.

Even if I got my computer this very second, I’m still looking at a minimum of a year before I’ll be even somewhat competent enough to make a 5 second animation.


Any knowledge I’ve had about computers over the years us basically non-existent at this point because there’s been so many new programs and changes to programs over the years. Meanwhile the only computers I ever owned were refurbished, preused bricks that’re already loaded with so much malware and bs that it takes 10 minutes just to load a blank Google page. Any pictures I draw and photograph with my phone just turn sideways and the thumbnail is just permabroken as a result, can’t use my dad’s dying, obsolete laptop to upload things because “he doesn’t want me giving the computer a virus from playing games™️“ while he’s clicking on flashing banners on porn sites and not updating shit. Hell, DeviantArt stopped working for my phone recently so it’s only a matter of time before FA follows suit, so maybe it’s for the best.


I want to apologize for all of the people who I’ve failed to fulfill my promises to (especially  goblinvoid! Seriously, the number of times I’ve tried to add to your story only to have some sort of crazy bullshit me away was too numerous to count. I should’ve just buckled down and focused on finishing it for you but I wanted to be in the proper mindset to deliver you a quality story instead of a mediocre one, but even something terrible is better than nothing at all, I suppose... 😔). I honestly don’t know what’s going to happen going forward, I just.... I don’t know anymore.

I’m sorry...

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to one and all!!! 🎄🎄🎄🎄🎄

Here’s hoping that you have a very Merry Christmas this year no matter who you’re celebrating with or what you’re doing. 😊


I also added a Christmas story to my most recent commission if you wanna check it out.

Forgot to mention that. I’m gonna try and be more active on it. But yeah, here it is: https://twitter.com/psycoskunk1

There’s a free art raffle being done by  LittleClown and if you make a journal post about it, you get 2 entries! Wish me luck or join in as well. 😯

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10724258/

Woke up to a slight stinging pain in my chest that hasn’t seemed to go down for almost a half an hour now. It’s not difficult to breathe, but it does sting slightly. I’ve been sitting at a 90 degree angle, drinking cold water, elevating my position, but it only seems to be a temporary fix before it starts again. It feels like it’s in my heart, but then it occasionally drifts to the other side of my chest. It’s mostly focused on the left side of my body though...

I’ve been noticing these little moments have been happening a lot more often recently whereas they’d sometimes occur occasionally for a little bit (maybe once or twice every couple of years for about 5 minutes) to now having them occur more frequently and for longer at around 2020 (maybe once or twice every 3-4 months, for up to 10 minutes). It’s a shame that I probably can’t even discuss my theory as to why this is due to the current trend of cracking down on ‘alternatives to mainstream medicine’ (“Horse dewormer” is considered by the WHO as an ‘essential medicine for treating viral infections in humans as well as animals,’ but shhhh... Don’t tell anybody that or else you’re a “right-wing conservative nutbag who voted for Trump and is secretly working with Russia to undermine the values of freedom and democracy, you n@zi commie fascist bastard!” 🤫🤫🤫)

Used to be that when you noticed an uptick in chest pains after a certain period of time after a specific treatment you got, you’d be able to notify your doctor about said changes and you’d be able to get a differing opinion on the matter. Now, men only about 8 years older than me and nearly 17 years younger are all starting to have similar chest and heart problems flaring up out of the blue.

Healthy people suddenly getting heart attacks, athletes passing out on the field more often, spontaneous fainting... That’s not normal. A lot of people who ended up getting the shot (myself included) are somehow more susceptible to and are getting sick more often by the same thing the shot was supposed to prevent while those that didn’t aren’t getting reinfected at the same rate, nor are suffering as many adverse effects... That’s not normal... When Dr. Faucci was telling people that this virus is different and somehow “you can’t rely on your own antibodies/immune system to help you get through this, end of discussion!” ...That’s not normal. Especially when he used to be a firm believer in exactly that not even 15 years ago.


I honestly don’t know where I’m going with this... All I know is I’m getting chest pains way more frequently and for much longer than usual, and this wasn’t happening as much pre-2020. I’m aware of my body’s own quirks and ‘feels’ and this does NOT feel right. I don’t think I’m heading to the hospital, but if this worsens I may have to. Fingers crossed everything improves though. It seems to be going down now, but I still feel it. Nowadays we gotta look after ourselves a lot more, so we have to try and stay safe. Take care of yourselves everyone. 🙂

P.S.: If this journal randomly vanishes, it might be because of the stuff about alternative medicines and whatnot, which would only further solidify my point about attempting to silence differing opinions. 16 years ago, you wouldn’t get ‘deplatformed’ for telling folks to do their own research into things, but here we are. FA seens like a pretty chill place though.

It’s my birthday today, as well as  FeetyMcFoot and RZ54’s too! So a big happy birthday to everyone who shares a birthday with me! 🥳🥳🥳

What about you guys? Anybody share any birthdays with any other members too?

I’ve had birthdays before where I was just coming back from Kamloops or friends and family have just been busy or had other plans from months ago, and normally I don’t really go overboard with celebrating anyways. But.... I dunno, just something about this year feels kinda ‘off.’

I already had plans for this year of what I wanted to do and how I wanted to move forward with my life, but it seems like I’ve actually gone backwards. The whole issue of me not getting paid in Kamloops, along with all of the nonsense that happened up there feels like it aged me almost 4 years. I just feel like I have barely any motivation to do much and it’s still taking me a while to just decompress and try to get back into the swing of things. Honestly, I’m still trying to figure out what my next step should be. I need new work shoes, clothes, computer, phone, etc..., but I don’t have the money right now. It’s basically me waiting for who knows how long for me to actually get paid when my dad hopefully gets the check that we’ve been waiting longer than 2 months for.

Things were supposed to be different this year. 😕

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Okay... So check this out!!!

Discord started working out of nowhere on my phone for the first time in almost 3 weeks and I’m finally able to tell people I’m on. Works for a bit, but then I make the mistake of opening a link to a Youtube video and then suddenly it starts crashing again upon booting up. Been meaning to get a new phone for a while now but I haven’t because I haven’t been paid fully yet for the last 5 months of work I’ve put in among other things, so I can’t get one anyways. So I’m locked out of Discord again.

Now most of you are asking yourselves, “well why not just use the computer?” Because I don’t have one. I’m visiting/working with my dad at his place and the only computer is his old work laptop that’s slowly dying/losing OS support, which I’m not even really allowed to use because of how paranoid my dad is about losing all his files (even though he’s made 0 effort to try and get a new computer, or an external hard-drive, or new OS, but I can’t mention this without him thinking I’m bringing it up solely to start an argument for some reason) and as a result, I can’t use Discord browser, or Steam, or really anything on the computer that isn’t checking my bank account without him thinking that his computer’s gonna get a virus. This is when I mention the fact that if I had a computer that I was originally promised back when I graduated high school, I wouldn’t even have to ask him, which only makes him come up with a slew of excuses about why he somehow couldn’t afford a computer right now or back then... I digress.

Due to the literal shit month it’s been for us, it looks like Dad won’t get paid for the last job we did, so that means I won’t get paid either.... Welp, guess I can go fuck myself. It’s been 6 months of anger, arguments, gaslighting, condescension, malice, passive-aggression, active-aggression, depression, anxiety, regret..... So much shit I missed or couldn’t participate in properly. I practically missed #Musk Month, a new month devoted literally to my favourite kink, and yet I’m stuck with a shitty phone that’s losing more and more function every day, no computer so I can start animating/drawing, no money in the bank, nothing... And that’s not even the WTF part.


The WTF part: My dad feels a bit guilty about me not getting a new phone, so he offered to let me use his phone to download Discord so I can message people.......






So..... My dad, who doesn’t really know what a furry is.... thinks I’m kinda weird/gross for being interested in stinky feet when I was a kid....... kiiiiiiinda isn’t the most understanding about certain aspects of LGBTQ+ stuff......... is willing to let me use his phone to download fucking DISCORD onto it, which y’know... clearly no way, shape or form that could ever possibly backfire! 😃😃😃

I could just picture the questions:
“Who the fuck is ‘SpicyDergBoi UwU’?!”
“Seriously, why are you a skunk?”
“Holy shit! Why are so many people begging to sniff your feet? You never change your fucking socks!”
“You’re gay?”
“Lemme guess, you fantasize about getting fucked by Pepe Le Pew?”
“The fuck does ‘blep’ and ‘mlem’ mean?”
“(Random pop-up from an NSFW channel on a server I forgot about depicting a kink I’m not into) Eww! Why the fuck does she have 4 dicks?!”



It’s like the universe really, really likes fucking me around. 😂😂😂

Man, don’t you just love it when you constantly put your own interests, plans and goals on hold to help out a disgruntled family member who constantly bitches and complains about practically everything you do because “I could’ve done it better” or “You should’ve done it like this” or “That’s not how you’re supposed to do it” or any other excuse to ridicule/belittle you when you’re literally helping the ungrateful jackass despite it being glaringly obvious that he doesn’t give a shit about your interests and yet you’re still expected to go along with it regardless because he’s your dad?

And isn’t it great when your money that you’re owed from working for over 5 months is being ‘withheld’ because despite owning a painting company, my dad doesn’t have or know how to set up a payroll for his employees and instead pays out of pocket, which even despite being paid directly out of pocket somehow means I don’t get paid on time because he has to spend money on other, “more important” things, like spending $7000 on a fucking boat and at least $7500 to date on a combination of truck and boat parts over the past few months (which is more than enough to pay me back 4 times over)?

Yeah, I can see how paying back your own fucking son is not considered a high priority. Especially when you fucking promised that I’d have a new phone by May, but literally didn’t even start paying me until late July! Meanwhile I literally put my life on the back burner all the fucking time for a miserable bastard who acts like he gets zero help and constantly bitches and complains about the stupid shit that he gets himself into and then forces others to fix his problems (e.g: getting me to drain the planter after he accidentally flooded it, putting the boat covers on the boat that he removed earlier as it’s pissing rain outside, literally trying to force the blame on me if we’re running late to work and dad needs to talk to a customer). And after doing so much for him on a daily basis, I can’t rely on him for anything. Something as simple as asking if he can grab something to help make it easier to carry everything else is just met with a dismissive ‘you can just make two trips’ or something similar.... Thanks. 😕

And now I can’t even use Discord on my phone anymore because of this. Wonderful... It’s a shame I never got the computer I was promised after I graduated high school almost 16 years ago... Maybe I’d actually be a somewhat decent artist. Would’ve at least had a portfolio of some sorts showcasing some of my pic/animation ideas. I’ve had so many come and go over the years that it’s genuinely kinda depressing to think about all of that wasted potential. And if you’re wondering why I didn’t just buy one at some point, it’s because any and all money I had was going towards our rent/food/emergencies. Literally every single one of my computers I’ve owned in my life have been second-hand or refurbished, preloaded with programs and data that had them moving slow-as-balls even back then. I’ve never had a computer that I actually “worked on.” And at this rate, I never will.


TL;DR: Discord doesn’t work on my shitty phone anymore. Still don’t have money to get a new phone or computer as I’m still waiting to get paid after 6 months of work with my dad. Stressed and depressed.


I’m sorry for not getting back to you sooner about this,  Redsuns433 I’ve been having a really shitty couple of days, but I just want you to know I’m safe. I love you so much, sweetie and I’m sorry for making you worry... 🥺

Weird. I have like 9 new comments, but I can’t find them anywhere. Checked my journals, my page, my gallery, but I can’t seem to find them. Odd. 🤨

Hey everyone, I need your help with something.

It looks like I’ll finally be able to get a new, actually functioning computer soon (for contrast, my ‘current’ one is a refurbish laptop running Linux Ubuntu that runs like shit and requires me to go into the command console and type in commands to make the trackpad work every time I start it up!). It’ll be great to finally be able to do some animating and drawing after nearly a decade of trying to do so. I’m also looking forward to actually being able to play some of the more graphically demanding games on the market, such as GMod, VRChat, and of course, Vampire Survivors. It’ll be great to finally be able to be a part of the 21st Century. 😂😅

Here’s where I need some help though: I’m not super knowledgable with computer hardware, so I’m not too sure what brands are the best right now, so I’m trying to figure it out. I’m not necessarily looking to build a computer right now, more just looking to get a decent one I can use for animating/drawing, and also gaming. I’m probably not gonna play any AAA titles on it, but I want it to be good enough to play most games.

If you have any suggestions for brands I should check out or if you wanna tell me a bit about your build, I’d appreciate any and all feedback. Thanks everyone. 😁

It’s old and I haven’t done much with it in years, but expect a lot more uploads that FA no longer allows on here. This includes:

• IRL feet pics
• Macro/Micro pics
• Pics involving Pokemon/AC/Sonic characters, like this one here... 😏

Expect more in the future. Just on my way to work right now. See y’all soon.

So... despite not having uploaded any pictures of my real feet on FA ever since they added that stupid rule against posting real pics last year... I just got a notification that practically all of my rl feet/sock pics from before the rule happened got removed for violating the policy. And to top it all off, I now have a Level One Offence because of it...? 🤨

Okay, message received FA. In addition to not posting feet pics on here (which I already wasn’t doing), I’ll also go ahead and remove literally every other picture that’s not a drawing too! Because with something as vague and idiotic as ‘lacking in artistic merit’ as one of the policy violations, that means literally every single real picture I posted could be subject to the same scrutiny.

Cherry blossom petals arranged into the word ‘LOVE’? *Buzzer noise.*
Food and drink recipes depicting the finished product? *Buzzer noise.*
A photo of the gosling that I literally carried through 2 different cities to take him to a bird sanctuary? *Triple Buzzer.

So no worries, FA. Message received. No real pictures of ANY kind anymore. Guess I’m spending the rest of my day frantically going through and reuploading all of my real pics over to DeviantArt. Definitely what I wanted to do the moment I got home after a long day of work, thank you! 😃

UPDATE: Removed all real feet pics off of FA. You can find them on my DeviantArt account, as well as other pics I’ll probably put on over there too. Will probably transfer other rl pics too.

Happy Weed Day, everybody! Hope that you enjoy whatever it is you’re doing today. Tonight I plan on doing a stream on Youtube of Dead Island 2 at around 9pm PST, which is just as much of a surprise as the actual game casually dropping without much fanfare. Last thing I heard about this game was that really old trailer of the guy jogging who gradually turns into a zombie and that was like 8 years ago. I honestly thought they forgot about it. 😅

The original was and still is easily one of my favourite games of all time. I need to play through the remake again, although they really screwed up a few things with it (seriously, why are more than half of the chests intangible? You can see the chests, but cannot unlock them or interact with them at all. Why? They were supposed to be rewards, but now when you go to the spots that had the Lv. 2 and 3 ones, most don’t work anymore. Oh well, hopefully 2 will be different. It takes place in LA this time around, so that’s pretty cool.

My Youtube is psycoskunk if you want to check out my weird gaming stuff. I’ll be online around 9:45pm if you wanna tune in.

https://www.youtube.com/live/z0LOcE.....?feature=share

Heya funny, furry foot friends! 😃

Sooo... I got one of the slots for a recent  Cyborg-Steve YCH and I wanna know... Anyone brave enough to be the one sniffing my feet? 😋

The rules for this raffle are simple:

1) You MUST be a Watcher as of the time I made this journal post! (So  BeepBoop77 juuuust made the cutoff.) However! This leads into...
2) You MUST have at least an icon, character art, a reference sheet, etc... Something to show that your character physically exists. I will also accept detailed descriptions of your character from stories, but not if they’re just three-word responses/half assed. (e.g: “Troy’s a 5’7” Alaskan Husky with a stocky build to him. His neon green eyes and matching frosted tips immediately draws the attention of everyone when he enters a room” vs. “Troy is a dog. A husky. His eyes are green. Parts of his fur are green.”) I don’t mean to sound like a dick, but I need a good sense of what your character is like and the more details the better, usually.
3) 1 entry per person. No multiple accounts nonsense either! I’m trusting you guys on this...
4) Comment in this journal with the exact following phrase: I would love to smell your feet.

As long as you include that phrase in your post, it will be counted after I reply to you and give you your number. After that, you can comment on the journal by replying to the proper area. Any comments made in the wrong area (phrase in the comment area/non-phrase comment in phrase area, yadda yadda.) It may just be easier to combine your comment with the phrase, it’s up to you. I trust your judgment.

The draw will be done by one of those online wheely spins with the screenshot posted to my Scraps. UPDATE: The draw will happen next Saturday at noon PST! Depends on the interest in this. Good luck, and happy sniffing! 😁

*Props my bare feet up and fumigates my own journal post.*


We have a WINNER!!!

Congratulations,  DoodleTheWolf! You’re the lucky winner! 🥳🥳🥳 Be sure to message me your reference sheet so I can send it off to Steve.

Thank you so much to everyone who participated!

I love how FurAffinity, for whatever stupid reason, has a habit of rotating pictures that I take of drawings that I make, but only for those ones. Doesn’t rotate my commissions, doesn’t rotate most of my photos, but literally all of my drawings, yeah! Just tilt them 90 degrees for NO FUCKING REASON!!!

And then when I go into the settings to fix the picture (with the only option available being ‘Rebuild thumbnail from picture,’ which USED to work but now doesn’t), of course it doesn’t. Why would anything work like it’s supposed to? Take a picture and post it? Here, let us rotate the picture for you! “But I didn’t want the picture ro-“ Oh, no need to thank us, it was our pleasure! 😁

“You ‘fink dat just because you stabbed me in da ‘art, exploded boff my kneecaps wiff ghost arrows, sliced off me ‘ead, kicked me down a flight of stairs and surgically removed all my organs that I wouldn’t come back for the nineteenth fucking time in the same mission? And you still call yourself the Lightbringer?” ~ Bloodfart the Unkillable

“Shut up about that sthtupid Lightbringer bullshit! You’re worse than OneyPlaysth!” ~ Linkara

It’s been a New York minute since my last journal, but I want everyone to know that I’m still around and kicking. RL is taking a serious toll on me right now, so I’m trying to slowly finish up descriptions/mini stories I’ve been working on. Just finished the ones for Skunk-Attracting Feet and Can’t.... Stop.... Huffing!!!

Hopefully I’ll be able to get the others finished too, plus I have new art soon too.

Well shit. It looks like my phone (iPhone 6S+) is too old for the newest update of Discord, despite there not being any major changes that would make it incompatible, but until I get a new phone I won’t be able to really use Discord. So if anyone chats with me regularly on Discord, then Notes will unfortunately be the best way to get in contact with me until I get a new phone. Sorry for the inconvenience. 😅

I’ll keep this as the Featured Journal until I can use Discord again so everyone knows.

Clicky!

Any rl pics will be on DA, just a heads up. I plan on updating it eventually too..

Isn’t it great when you’re told to ‘follow your dreams’ and ‘I’ll support you no matter what you do,’ but then you’re also expected to put your life and interests on hold to help out others who don’t even appreciate the help in the first place? That’s been my life since around May this year working with my dad.

It’s truly amazing how he thinks he’s ‘helping me’ by criticizing everything I do and essentially trying to shut down my interests and personality. Now you may be thinking “But Skunky, that statement makes no sense. How can one shut down someone’s personality?” Oh, if you’re my dad it’s fairly simple, I’ll explain:

First, you gotta have an unshakable belief that everyone else is stupid and wrong, even when they’re in the right. This includes second-guessing any thing you say (“Hey, we should probably get some toothpaste, we’re out.” ”We’ve still got another tube left.” “I already checked, that was the last tube.” ”Check again, you probably didn’t look hard enough.” “.....There’s none there, we need to grab more.” “Then why don’t you go hop on your bike and grab some then? You don’t need me to do everything for you, do you? “What’s the point of going to just grab toothpaste when we were gonna grab other groceries later today? I was letting you know s-“ “Jesus Christ, why the fuck does everything have to be an argument with you?” “*Deep sigh.* ....You’re right, I shouldn’t have brought it up... 🤦🏻‍♂️“

And then when we forget the toothpaste when we go out for groceries later, whose fault do you think that is? 😃)

Next, you gotta constantly rip on/be critical of other people for no other reason than to be a dick. If you don’t like how someone’s hair looks, tell them it looks like crap. If one of your workers is about to start painting a wall, immediately rip the roller out of their hand and show them the ‘proper way’ to paint, despite the fact that you haven’t even touched the wall yet.

And if by some random chance you meet a Scoutmaster at a local hotsprings, immediately mention how people only associate Boy Scouts with pedophilia and fingering kids! Seriously, I couldn’t fucking believe what I was hearing when he did that. Like, what the actual hell is wrong with your head when you essentially accuse someone you just met that they probably fuck kids. Even a person who has never interacted with another human in their life would have more common sense FFS!

And last but not least, take zero interest in what other people say or think. You watching something he might not like? He’ll say it’s a stupid show. Watching TV in general? You’re wasting your life away. Mention that you wanna get into model-making/crafting, he’ll think it’s cool until you mention doing something from a game or show and he’ll instantly backtrack and say it’s childish and dumb. Oh, and video games? The BIGGEST waste of time ever!!!........Unless it’s World of Tanks. Then that’s somehow the best thing ever.

A bit of an addition to the last point too is his uncanny ability to interrupt and completely deflate a joke you’re trying to tell or a recent thing that happened to you. And he’ll say it under the guise of ‘I’m just trying to help.’ Really? By completely killing the flow of the conversation and telling me to get to the point when I’m setting it up? Yeah, very helpful! Constantly being interrupted and critiqued about my story-telling WHILE I’m telling my story is nothing but beneficial for me. You can tell by the way I stumble over my words whenever I try having a conversation with you that your constant nitpicking has done nothing but help me!

At this point you’re probably wondering why I don’t just pack up and leave? Because he really, DESPERATELY wants me to work with him so he doesn’t have to work with C anymore. (Cliffs Notes: C is an ex of my dad’s who he’s known for a while. Nice woman, has really terrible issues with alcohol and prescription drugs, now has a ton of health issues as a result. Dad’s had to bail her out constantly and has been a large source of his anger and frustration over the years, but it doesn’t stop him from getting pissed off at people unrelated to the current issue).

He wants to get an RV, and a toy hauler to pull behind that so we can go around BC to different job sites and work from there (he does construction/painting) and then just be able to camp out constantly, which yeah, I think would be a cool idea. He also was thinking about getting property for the same idea. I like it, I really do. But I also have my own plans.

I wanna get back into animation. I’ve got a ton of recorded footage from games that need to be edited and posted. I need to finish not only my drawings, but my stories too. I have my own plans that I want to get rolling, but they constantly get pushed back in favour of helping my dad with his endeavours. And then when I so much as even try to look at my phone now, he tells me to get off it.

Hell, I’m not even ‘allowed’ to have it with me in my room anymore, which is gonna be fun when I try to VC on Discord or do anything remotely private. It’s funny, I thought I was 32 years old and not 3 or 2. His reasoning is because “being on your phone when you’re in your bed is a sign of depression,” which is ironic because he literally falls asleep on the couch to Youtube videos talking about ‘War this, Ukraine that, America bad, blah blah blah,’ and that shit is literally nothing but bad news, which I know is directly affecting his mental health because as much as he loves preaching to the choir, he believes he’s above his own BS (“This stuff is important, I like being informed about what’s happening in the world.” Oh yeah? Then why are you watching the SAME THING that was just discussed, but from 5 different channels that’re all saying the SAME THING? Yeah, I know that there’s currently a dirty bomb in Ukraine, I’ve been watching the exact same videos you have for the past 3 hours! Can I go do something that I find interesting now? No? Alright, let’s rewatch another video telling us about how there’s a War going on in Ukraine).

It’s gotten to the point where it seems like he just doesn’t listen to me anymore, unless I’m agreeing with him. And he claims that he wants me to be a partner in his business, which essentially means that he wants me to figure out payroll, building a website, doing the accounting, etc... You know, all the stuff I actively avoided in high school because it didn’t interest me? If I wanted to study aspects of running a business, I would’ve. You can’t just force people to do jobs outside of their actual interests because it’s convenient for you. Hiring someone with actual experience would be a lot better instead of someone who’s just learning.

I mentioned to him that I plan on heading back home after this job, but he keeps saying there’s other ones lined up and he keeps wanting me to stay, but I have my own issues back home that I wanted to be able to deal with. Plus I’ve been up here for 6 months. I wanna head back. Shame that just wanting to head home and work down there is met with him telling me that I just wanna come crawling back to mommy, despite the fact that he constantly calls his mom every day and wants to get a house with her. 🙄

To be fair, my dad has had to deal with a ton of bullshit over the years, which he likes to remind me of whenever we get into arguments. About how it seems like he doesn’t have anyone watching his back or looking out for him when he’s constantly bending over backwards for others.

At the same time, I’ve been around for at least 65% of the bullshit when it happens and a decent amount was brought on by himself. And really, there’s nobody helping you? Despite the fact that C does practically all of the house work on our days off while you’re napping on the couch? Or how I’m constantly asking if you need help or am actually assisting you in some way despite your sarcastic tone and condescension? This is a guy who has literally hasn’t had to wash his own dishes for years because either me or C are doing them, but yeah, you get no help or support.

Do you guys and gals and others want to know why it takes me 2 weeks to add a description to one of my commissioned pics? Or why it seems like I’m never on Discord? Because after an entire day working with my dad, or doing stuff for him, I have literally nothing left. I feel like my body just shuts down, my mind wanders to places I don’t want it to go and all I can think is how many people I’m letting down by not responding or fulfilling their requests.

FFS, I STILL owe  goblinvoid a story for an art-for-story trade we did almost 2 fucking years ago!!! They have been insanely patient, but at the same time I know they’re pissed off at me for not being able to do my part of the trade. I’ve got a decent chunk done, but it should’ve already been done by now!! 😞😞😞

Fuck it, I’m just gonna commission someone to do the story they wanted. By the time I get it done, the newest Pokémon game will be out, which is sad for me because the story was about the Galar region, so it shows you just how reliable I am right now...

I haven’t written a proper story since the one I did for  WaylonKillerCroc which ALSO took way longer than it should’ve. Back when I did that “Pop Quiz, Hotshot!” journal, I figured it’d be fun to secretly offer a short story for everyone who got a wrong answer and a full-length story for those who guessed right. Thank God only 3 people responded, but the other two (  Redsuns433 and  SkunkKitsune ) are still waiting, and it pisses me off that I’m letting them down by being unable to fulfill my obligations because I’m too busy catering to my dad who pretty much wants nothing to do with me if I’m not doing shit for him.

I need a change in my life. I can’t keep doing this shit. I just want to be able to do what makes me happy, but I feel like I don’t have it in me anymore to put out my own stories or art because I don’t have the energy or sanity to do so. That’s why with the exceptions to the feet pics before FA’s rule change and the random photos I’ve taken, all of my posts after Feet Dreams have been bought commissions.

I don’t even remember the point of this journal anymore. I just don’t know what the fuck to do anymore. Not that it really matters because we’re all gonna die in World War 3 once the fucktards running our countries decide to nuke each other.

I dunno... If I had a say in anything, I’d just wanna throw a massive party and invite all of the friends, watchers and ding dongs I’ve met over the years and just have one day where we didn’t have to worry about stupid bullshit. That’d be a lot of fun.



Oh yeah, and thanks to the 300+ Watchers on here who’ve been enjoying my stanky feet and general weirdness! Even though according to my dad “They’re just pixels, their lives don’t matter,” (which is stupid because of course your life matters, ya sexy so-and-so 😉), it’s nice to know that there are still people out there who think I’m doing something right.

So thank you. From the bottom of ny heart... Thank you for giving me the confidence to try and keep going. 🙂

So, a certain user over on DeviantArt has started posting again and my God, easily one of my favourite artists around. Not just the art, not just the beautiful depiction of foot odour, not just because of the kinky scenarios, not just because of the descriptive dialogue and captivating... captions, hell, not even for having such ridiculously hot descriptions to go with the pictures! All that alone is reason enough....

But then you learn that a lot of the captions are based on actual experiences that happen to her on a daily basis!


For those who don’t know SockyChan, you’ve now got a new smelly foot artist to enjoy. And for those who might say “That’s cool and all Skunky, but I don’t like girls,” you should know that her feet have outstunk the feet of every guy she’s compared her foot odour to. That alone is worth a sample whiff, wouldn’t you say? 😏

BUT! What the staff at FurAffinity don’t realize that there IS creative context behind it.

It’s a celebration of the passage of time told through a visual and olfactory medium that many take for granted. Seriously, how many people without foot fetishes think about our socks and how we treat them? Our feet are the most abused parts of our bodies (aside from our eggplants and clams, but that’s a different story altogether!) and are our most often overlooked appendage. Coupled with the fact that our underclothing are the only garments we can’t see, their suffering goes largely unnoticed.

Against all odds, those socks survived more than 3 months of constant, everyday wear and came out of it relatively intact, aside from their newfound colour and aroma. Imagine all the hard work, dedication and sweat that has gone into turning them into their current state. Picture the steamy, musky humid hell that they must’ve been trapped in every single day, suffering in silence from such extreme conditions just so that its story could be told to the world. Constantly trampled underfoot and weary from the constant strains of everyday life... couldn’t the comparison be made between the suffering of the common sock and the suffering of the common minimum wage worker? Scraping by day after day in a soul crushing environment that they despise because they have no choice, and their only respite is at the end of the day when they can drag their tired bodies home, shed their restrictive shackles and actually, finally be allowed to breathe?

How can you say that there is no ‘creative context’ behind that photo, knowing full well what those socks went through? I was being creative when I calked the piece ‘Rustic’ Socks because they not only look like they’re rust-coloured, but they even have a disheveled appearance like they were a found artifact. Maybe a pair of socks back in the times of the old West? Or perhaps 14th Century Mongolia? I’m sure you could put them in a museum somewhere so that future generations will understand their cultural relevance.

And besides, what if I wanted to use the photo as a reference in the future? I find real photos of feet and socks to be great inspiration in drawing them and having them on an easy to access site like FA really helps streamline the process.

In conclusion, while I don’t agree with the decision to remove ‘Rustic’ Socks, I’ll respect it and will refrain from uploading any feet/sock/shoe pics to FA in the future. Even if it relates directly to the furry community (such as a pair of custom Skunky socks I wanted to get done), I don’t want to risk another warning, so better to be overly cautious than sorry.