so as i sit here alone i start to think why does life have to be so hard and lonly? always pulling u into a rut u cant escape from.. why cant things be easy like when we all were kids .just to be awake and smile and love being alive .it seems i wish for the opposite i want to die slowly watching the world pass me by being thrown aside and ignored curled up and crying wanting to die instead of dealing with the pain of being alone anymore. ive had it all and lost it all ive had the best of time and the worst of times. i miss my friends like juka and frost why cant times just be simpler ? please somebody just give me a answer thats all i ask for anymore. i can watch the clouds pass me by and wonder where they go wishing i was on one just floating away from my pain and hatred for all.. someone please save me....

as i sit here and look into my mind ive come to realize alls im good for is roaming .I have no family, and my friends ignore me. ive only asked for help but my words go ignored. I sit and wonder why my life has gone so horribly wrong i had a great mate and i miss him he would have done anything for me. Now it only seems i dig my own grave and tare at the sky.. Can anyone tell me why this is? Can anyone tell me what im supposed to do? Do i lay down and let life pass me bye, or do i try to keep going?

I know no one will read this but this is where im at. Im very depressed and need a friend.

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well im finally happy i gots me a mate that wont quit on meh ^_^ hes 23 and is ex armyserved in iraq and everything . im just bubbling over right now im going back today on the bus I CANT WAIT!!!!! i know not many people on here will read this so im not worried but hes sweet caring and he actually loves me i cant wait to be back over there