More like a kigurumi Meet and Greet and FC :P

Friday night (1/22) at 8pm in the Market Street Foyer at the Fairmont Hotel in downtown San Jose! :D I'll be passing out flyers on my Table

Also My Birthday party this year! I'm totally having a Pokemon themed party. Costumes Welcome! :P

I'm going to make a pokeball cake for it :D
I'm gonna make a few party favors as well.
I'm thinking of making the invites look like pokemon cards.
Also Wal-mart and party city usually have pokemon party supplies.
I'm still thinking of more pokemon theme ideas.
I'm aiming to make another Meowth Kigu for it :3


Also, I totally want this Bento Box:
http://cgi.ebay.com/Japanese-Bento-.....item2c524624a6

Or any pokemon bento really.
Also, like a million of the Meowth things on eBay, I totally saw a meowth lucky cat plush! :O Like two of my favorite things combined :D

What the hell is wrong with my art? Why am I no where near as good even though practically all I do is draw. Why doesn't anyone look at it? Or barely anyone besides my friends commission me? I can't even get any critique! I would kill to know what I can improve on. But everyone just goes "Oh your art is so cute and good and blah blah blah" they pat my ass and move on. I don't want ass pats, I want someone to come up to me and say "Oh hey, there are some problems with your X that can be improved, like this, this or that." I even went to concept art to get critique but no one even looked at anything I posted. The few people who did respond gave me crap for advice like "Oh, this character looks really sinister, you should try using more round lines blah blah" Well the character is supposed to be sinister looking, he conspires to kill his boss and steal his fortune. Why don't you tell me something useful. >:[


Anyway, if you have any advice, I'd love to hear it... Please be honest with me, please tell me what my art lacks, please tell me what you think could use improvement. You aren't going to hurt my feelings...

I have two spaces available! They are airmatress spaces and not hotel bed spaces so keep this in mind.

If you're interested shoot me a note! I'll tell you what the prices are and some of the things you need to know to room with me.

Where are you staying?
Main hotel!

Who will you be with?
I'll be rooming with Zigg <3, Jana and Marc

Do you do trades?
Whenever I'm in the artist lounge, hell yeah :3

What suits will you have?
None right now, they are still being made.

What is your gender?
Female :3

How old are you?
23

Can I touch you?
Only friendly gestures please, otherwise you will be met with my scorn and my Asian bodyguard (Zigg).

Can I talk to you?
Absolutely! I canbe shy, and have a hard time starting a conversation with new people, but once you get me talking good luck shutting me up. Don't be discouraged if I don't appear social. XP

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
Maybe, maybe...

Can I give you lots of money?
Sure, i'll even give you art for it! :D

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
You can hug me, so long as it's friendly. I allow a little more snuggliness to people in fursuits, but please nothing over the top, for your own safety XD

How tall are you?
5'4, kinda short and chubby XD

You look pissed off out of suit can I come up to you?
I look pissed off? Rarely heh. If I do look pissed off it might be better to be wary. I'm generally pretty laid back looking

Are you nice?
Yes, at least I think so, I try to be, unless you really weird me out or something by being too touchy feely or something.

Can I stalk you?
Please don't, either come talk to me, or don't but lingering around without talking is weird. I promise I won't bite. :3

How long are you going?
Probably Thursday Afternoon until Monday Afternoon, maybe tuesday i don't know.

Do you have an artist table?
Yes, Table 44 in-between Touch my Badger and Aurora! :D

Do you like parties?
I like the klingon party, it's my favorite :3 I used to like the evil genious party too, but I hear that it is no more :(

If i see you, how should i get your attention?
Tap me on the shoulder, or come up and say hi! :D (Just let me know right away if we've met before please, I feel bad but i sometimes forget people I've met at previous cons or talked to online, so if we've met before and I don't automatically remember, just say online or at FC I'm sorry XP)


Also, who's going who's going???!!!

No seriously.... >.>



>>>>>>>>>>>>>  sleepelement

If you like my "adult submissions" They're gonna go over there, as well as some other stuff. But this will be a clean only gallery. Like, by the end of the week, anything adult posted here will be reposted over there.

DO NOT REPLY HERE.

Head on over to my live journal here:http://pandemic-panic.livejournal.com/4315.html

Sorry, you have to do a little work to get your free art :P

I won't start posting them for about a week, when I have access to a scanner again, but I'll be working on them as i get them.


(P.S. This is also a stunt to officially announce my new alternate FA page/Fursona. <.< >.>)

Oh my god it was so amazing! Okay, but let me go back to the beginning.

Yesterday morning I realized that I didn't really have anything to wear because I'm at my mom's house, and not at home, but I did have my mario pajam pants, and a plain black t-shirt. So I took the t-shirt and wrote DethKlok on it with bleach and a paint brush, and my mum helped me set it by checking when it was dry enough to throw into the dryer for a little while. I liked how it looked, and I got a lot of compliments on it at the show. :3

Zoren picked me up (Jeff didn't go because he had to work) I was a little apprehensive about being in a car for so long, but the daytime trip turned out okay. It was un eventful and there was relatively no traffic.

When I got to Jana's I helped her make an early dinner for everyone. :D I felt useful! For like the first time since the accident. I made the chicken, and jana made some tortellini, and everyone liked everything. It was all really good. :3

Then we went off to the show, but we got there way super early, so we ended up walking to the starbucks, and Jana and marc took turns pushing me in the wheelchair. I think Jana had the most fun since she would push me and ride the back for a bit. XD

Most everyone we ran into at the show was super nice, and I got a bunch of high fives and fist bumps for coming with my broken leg. Also! I got to play Brutal Legend too! Also, the people in line at the merch counter helped me get in and out of line, and I had to let a few people know I was behind them, I didn't want them to back up into the leg rests on my chair and hurt themselves. I met a few cool people during the second act hanging out by the Brutal Legend booth. I met a cool chick during the Mastodon set too when I went to go take my medication to the drinking fountain.

The first band, High on Fire was pretty good, we all really liked them. Zoren even went back and got merchandise for them, and we're all thinking of looking to download them or something.

The second band was AWFUL. They were called Convergance or something like that, but they sucked to bad they got boo'd XD We were laughing at them for days. That's when we went to play Brutal Legend, since they didn't have a speaker back where the booth was set up so we wouldn't have listen to them.

Mastodon was pretty good too. By then though all of my meds were in full affect so I was kind of tripping out on all that stuff, and staring slack jawed at their screen. I admit, I kind of dozed off a little bit, since I had earplugs and one of the pain meds make me real sleepy. >.< But I liked them.

DethKlok was o course AWESOMER. I didn't know they were going to be playing in sync with video of the cartoon it was so freaking rad! Oh man. Also They had some cool animation that wasn't music videos and stuff, and they had a little cartoon with Dethklok and Eddie from Brutal Legend. Toki was so cute in it. "He's likes a father's to me" awwwww. Not a bumble bee.

Anyway, after the show we all got in the handicapped elevator and circled the event center looking for their tour buses. Then we got the help of a stagehand to get me and Zoren backstage, but we got caught by a security lady, and we told he what happened, and that I had busted my ass in Physical therapy so I could get out of the hospital in time. She told us that we couldn't wait there because the band as going to come off and we would be trampled, so she told us we could wait outside, and that she would ask the band if they would sign my cast.

Well, we waitewd outside for like 10 minutes, first Gene came out, lit a cigarette, saw me in my wheelchair then came over and said "hi, I'm Gene" and shook my hand and I introduced myself with my little sharpie in my hand, and he;s all, "You want me to sign that?" "Yes, Please". She he signed it "Mandy! Ur Leg is Metal.-Gene H." I thanked him and he asked how it happened, and I told him, and then more fans came up and got autographs (it was the guys I had met earlier, and I let them borrow my pen) until this big bald guy comes out and he looks around, sees me comes over, and asks "how many people are with you?" and I showed him, and he's like, "Okay, one of you who can push her come with me to meet Brenden." So he takes me and Zoren back stage over by the Dethklok dressing room, and Brenden comes out of the room and he shakes my hand and introduces himself to me, and then while he's signing my cast he asked me what happened. He thanked me for coming and hoped my leg healed up quickly. he signed my cast "MANDY! YOU RULE!-BRENDEN SMALL" in like huge giant letters all across it. I thanked him like six times and told him to keep dojgn what he does best, and then he had to go and so did I. Everyone was so nice. It made the pain of being in the car for so long all hella worth it.

It was so freaking awesome. Jana got a bunch of pictures, including ones of my cast and stuff, but she hasn't sent them to me yet. I'll post them when she does. :D

Final summation, I AM SO GLAD I GOT TO GO.

Also, the vibrations from the show felt so freaking good on my leg, holy crap. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

On the downside, the trip home really freaked me out a little bit. I think it will be awhile before I am comfortable driving or riding in a car at night again.

I'M GETTING OUT TODAY!!


Fuck yeah. I can't wait to get out of hospitals!


On the downside, this morning Jeff has to be trained to put a shot in my abdomen everyday :( Sadface.

BUT I'M GETTING OUUUUTTTTTT! Yeah!

I'll be at my mum's house in rocklin until we finish moving to a downstairs apartment next week. :3

Hey ya'll!

So, my surgery went great, I'm healing real well, I'm off of any tubes and wires and all the horrible things they stuck in me, and am now only havng to rely on oral pain meds! Yay! Which means, that I was transferred to a really nice physical therapy rehabilitation hospital for a few days. Until I am self sufficient enough to be sent home. The good news? Thsi place has computers and internet for patient access. Awesome. They also insist I spend most of my day out of bed and in a wheel chair so I am a bit more mobile and don;t ghave to chill in my room all day. This place is a lot more like a hotel than a hospital. I'm really glad. I was starting to get super depressed in the other place, not only because I had to be in bed all day, but my very loud roommate was an alcoholic exotic dancer with baby mama drama and hella ghetto friends coming and going all the dang time. I have a room to my self now, and dn;t have to wear a hospital gown anymore. HECK YEAH! I never imaginied I would miss clothes so much. Or using a real toilet for that matter. I will probabyl sill need to see someone to talk to when I get out of the hospital, because I was crying a lot, and I can;t imagine I'm not traumatized from being trapped in a car for half an hour that may or may not be on fire, and feeling glass grit between my teeth while I wait for help.


tl;dr I'm back online a bit, and I'm feeling a bit better, but still in the hospital. I'm looking forward to ditching the pain meds they make me feel weird.


Thanks so much for all the well wishing, and texting, and people who visited me in the hospital! You guys really helped keep me from going crazy, and from getting too depressed. I <3 you all and I'm also lucky to have such suppostive friends. :3

So, some of you know, and some of you don't, but last wednesday, November 4th at about 12:30 in the morning I was in a car accident. I was driving home from a friends house on I-80 Westbound when I looked up and there was a car stalled in the lane in front of me, not visible until they were in my headlights. I slammed on my brakes but it was too late and I ran right into the back of the car, we spun out of control and I hit the center divider. When the car stopped I was stuck in the car, and I couldn't move my leg and the smoke coming from the dash board and there was a lot of heat on my legs. I tried to get out of the car but to no avail. I then called 911 and tried as best I could to tell them what was happening without screaming or being hysterical (easier said than done). I then called jeff then my sister, told them what happened. After more futile attempts to get out of the car I saw the guy from the other car up and walking about and tried to call out to him that I was stuck, and thought my leg was broken and my car was on fire. He turned around and walked in the other direction. The emergency people arrived and had to cut the driver's side door off in order to pull me out.

I'm going to fast-forward through the more gruesome hospital-y bits, my foot is broken in two places and I had to be in surgery for 8 hours to get it fixed. Luckily I had one of the best orthopeadic surgeons in the the country working on me, so I am very thankful to be alive and healing well. I'm at UCDavis Med Center, but I hear I'm being transferred to Sutter Roseville in the morning, and should only be there for a few days before they send me home. I'm on enough pain meds to keep me comfortable most of the time, and I have my cell so if you want to talk feel free to call. I'm borrowing ashley's laptop to post this, so I won't be reachable via internet until I come home, but if you leave me messages I'll try to respond to all of them when I can :3

Oh yeah, for the curious, here are some pictures my mum took of my car when she went to the towing place:

http://photos-f.ak.fbcdn.net/hphoto....._5909624_n.jpg

http://photos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/hphoto....._1942831_n.jpg

http://photos-b.ak.fbcdn.net/hphoto....._7671650_n.jpg

So, have you heard of this thing?

http://www.bluetaboo.com


I'm already a member of the forums there and once it's up and running I plan to host a mirror gallery over there.


Basically it's a new gallery website with some very intuitive and revoulutionary ideas kicking around. I think Ya'll should check it out

DETHKLOK AND MASTODON. ME, JEFF, JANA, AND MARC. NOV.21. I just bought tickets. Who wants to touch me? I SAID WHO WANTS TO FUCKING TOUCH ME?!








Also, whoever gets the reference gets a jump high five whenever I see them next <.< >.>

I'm selling my meowth kigurumi so I can make another one. You can check out my ebay auction here:

http://cgi.ebay.com/Meowth-Pokemon-Kigurumi-Pajamas-Handmade_W0QQitemZ260485219222QQcmdZViewItemQQptZLH_DefaultDomain_0?hash=item3ca6210396&_trksid=p3286.c0.m14

Starting bid is 50$ and it comes with a care instruction sheet and a doodle of Meowth.

Okay, so I've had to return TWO laptops to fry's already. :/ Apparently, in the digitizers they used to register the tablet controls were not compatible with the ones photoshop and other such art programs need. So! I finally did even more research on the internet and found the model I need.... only problem? No stores in my area carry them -_- So, On the first we'll be ordering it straight from the manufacturer's website. Can't order it until October 1st, won;t get it until 1-2 weeks after that.

Bleh, half of my commissions are digital right now, but without a tablet I'm dead in the water. :(

What in the world do you do when you become so dissatisfied with everything you draw, so much that you have just stopped altogether. I'm so unsatisfied with my style, my poses lack anything dynamic, everything about my art is flat and formulaic. Especially my color and style.

I've stagnated, but what do I do? I've tried to draw but everything I do just makes me more and more frustrated and repulsed. What do I do if I can't start drawing again? Everything I've done has been to insure I make my living in drawing and art.

I feel so...lost.

I got a new AIM SN: limeotter

I'm bored, so, if you ever wanted to IM me, but were too afraid/shy/busy whatevs., now would be a good time :3 Just please introduce yourself if you message me, let me know where you got my SN, and maybe link me to your FA page or something. It helps start a conversation if not only being polite :3

Hope to hear from ya :3



I'm hoping to bust out of arrt block, which is where the time on my hands in coming from. e,e

Yaaaaaaaaayyyy! I am excite. Now all I have to do is track down a copy of adobe cs3 or 4. :3
It's an HP touchsmart Notebook PC. :3
It's got multi-touch functionality. 500GB of hard drive space, I am now writing this entry by hand: 3

Hey, I'm offering two of these and two only! 5 dollar sketch to be completed this evening and posted tomorrow (e.g. sometime after midnight tonight). This is my last set of commissions for probably a few months (probably not opening again until the semester is over).

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Comment here if you'd like a spot.

Okay, so, in regards to the image i posted last, I guess I'm kind of in an art rut, and unhappy with my work at the moment, and most of what I'm producing, just seems to be more of the same. So, in an effort to break out of this, I'm looking to take requests. So, if you've ever wanted art from me, but you aren't like my I dunno BBF JILL, and you don't have money, or even if you are my BFF JILL, now would be a good time to talk to me.

I'm looking for my friends, watchers, and random people to post ideas, characters, situations, color combinations, emotion, etc, or any combination above that i can pick and choose and draw from.


Posting won't guarantee I'll do it, just post your idea, and if I like it, I'll whip it up and post it whenever. Don't worry I'll credit you for ideas, characters etc, and give you a shout on your page if I do use your idea.

Thanks dudes!


As for commissions, here is my current queue and status:
5p1ic3: Paid: Initial sketch complete (there is a hold up as far as painting it due to the move, sorry, will work on it as soon as I can)
Raxmei: Not paid: 0% complete
These are back-burnered for a few reasons, this dissatisfaction with my art among them. If you have any questions feel free to note me.

And I will be posting more art and being more alive a promise, i just have to get all this moving bullshit out of the way first.... my scanner isn't even plugged in. <.< >.>

Ugh also, I may be lying about being more activ because school starts tomorrow... HOWEVER! I am going to be involved in like.... two shows, and since I crew mostly I'm going to have some downtime for the happy drawing time then there yes. So....


Also, still no luck on the job front, I hope to go out after school tomorrow and look for more stuff, but this place is hell to be in, there isn't even factory jobs I could slave away in. Ugh. I'm hoping my mums friend will tell me she has any job openings, but when I was there for the first part of the summer they were getting ready to axe heads, so probably not. I might just hit up the taco bell down the street after school tomorrow, hopefully my combined experience and kiss-assery will win me a job.

Also, my mate and I have suspended engagement until further notice. It was mutual and we're hella not ready for marriage, so we're gonna wait a bit. In related news, our one year anniversary is coming, he said we could get us a fancy cake :D Also movie, and dinner. I'm so excited :3 The first time I've ever celebrated an anniversary. Maybe instead of a movie I can convince him to go see Jekyll and Hyde at the school since it will be reminiscent of our first date when we went to go see "Dracula" with my friend George as Renfield. :P

So, in summation, some good, some bad, art forthcoming, more later.

So, despite my efforts I'm still unemployed for the time being, and I'm starting to feel the crunch. I'm offering commissions to help pay some bills until I find a job. Any help would be appreciated, even if you can't buy one, some spreading of the word would be most awesome! Thanks for looking!

I'm open for:

Badges:
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Icons:
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And Sketches:
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See my price guide here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/852936/

So, my boyfriend is watching the new HULK movie....again.... This is like the 6th time this month I swear. I want to SMASH it.


That is all.

I move to my new apartment today yay :D But that also means I won't have internet again until like late Friday or Saturday. I also won't have computer for arting for awhile because my laptop DIED. Ugh I need a new power cord.

Would anyone be interested in watching me draw on live stream? I'll probably take requests for whatever gets drawn and generally chat and such. Would anyone be interested?

Also, if you are interested, what time are you normally online, and thus most likely to see it?

So, I've been feeling a lot lately the urge to write letters, but most of the people I know are within visit range, and I think trying to come up with a correspondence will probably fall by the wayside of actual face to face communication. Dangit, I just wanna be able to use all my cool stationary. :/ I have so much of it, because I love stationary. Speaking of that I wanna go to Japantown in SF and get some more....

Anyway, so is there anyone who doesn't live real close to me, who maybe goes to Further confusion, who would want to be my pen pal?

I might post this on the FC lj, but I dunno. I'd like to get someone from here or DA.