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General | Posted 14 years agoOPEN FOR COMMISSIONS!Details here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2835922
Please don't forget to watch my new account!
Thank you all!
WATCH ME HERE PLEASE! :D :D :DART THEFT
General | Posted 14 years agoPlease be on the look out for and notify me of any posting of this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1722495/ or any other of my art on any websites you might find. I will be posting this notice of art theft on every art site i post to, so if you don't see this on a site where you find this image http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1722495/ it has been stolen.
If you find it on a site and believe it was stolen PLEASE ALERT ME PROVIDING A LINK so I can handle this matter. Thank you!!!
If you find it on a site and believe it was stolen PLEASE ALERT ME PROVIDING A LINK so I can handle this matter. Thank you!!!
Kivva: $5 Sketch Day! Emergency Fundraiser for Alyssa!
General | Posted 15 years agoDO NOT COMMENT OR NOTE THIS ACCOUNT!
Please go here! --> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1712767/
I will begin actually drawing tonight after work! (Estimated 6pm EST)
$5 Sketch day is when I set a time and take $5 sketch commissions to be drawn AS YOU WAIT. I will try to keep drawing times to 30 minutes OR LESS per picture.
I'll do these for as long as I can/as long as there is interest!
Sketching begins as soon as I receive payment, in order of payment.
IN A NOTE:
1.) Mood/Theme/Idea
In very few words, provide a brief theme, mood or idea:
EXAMPLE:
My character looking daydreamy.
My character being derpy.
My character doing something exciting.
If you want me to just run with the sketch, let me know! I'll use ideas from your FA page or gallery to think of something unique for you.
2.) Provide a reference link. Or two. Or three. No more than three, please.
VIA PAYPAL:
3.) Send me a payment. Remember to use your FA name in the comments/notes/message section so I know who has paid. :3 kivvakaosu[at]gmail[dot]com
Please see: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1082565/ for past examples!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4471451
My mother wrote this on Alyssa's CarePage on Sunday:
"Update on Alyssa
Posted 2 days ago
My Name is XXXXX I am posting for the Righters. They are at Maine Med with Alyssa, and can not get on line. Alyssa had surgery on Sept.9 it lasted about 4 hrs. She looked really good and did not need to be put on a respirator. The two tumors were removed the third area was scar tissue.They did find more, a tumor on her brain stem(the same place as before). They took what they could but the tumor is invading her spinal column. It is inoperable.We do not know what kind of action will be taken yet.
On Friday Alyssa was doing so well she was sent up from ICU to the Barbara Bush ward. Friday night Alyssa had a set back-- she stopped breathing. She was rushed back to ICU they did a CAT scan to see what is going on. They found no real abnormal swelling. Lyssie is back in ICU and the Righters are there with her. I talked with Alyssa's Grandma last night she told me Alyssa is not responding. They have her on just only tylenol because of all the problems with her breathing. At 6 pm they started steroids they said it would take at least 24 hrs.
Just got off the phone with Grandma again, Alyssa had a better night last night. She is still breathing on her own. Very weak but opens her eyes when Grandma speaks to her. The cancer is much worse then they thought. It did not show up because it is in the spine. Please pray we need a miracle.
I'm not sure now if Alyssa will even make it to St. Jude. I'm heartbroken... I have no idea what's been going on over the past two days. Knowing my mother no news could be good news... or it could mean she's trying to brace herself to notify me...
I am also accepting donations via paypal kivvakaosu[at]gmail[dot]com."
Please go here! --> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1712767/
I will begin actually drawing tonight after work! (Estimated 6pm EST)
$5 Sketch day is when I set a time and take $5 sketch commissions to be drawn AS YOU WAIT. I will try to keep drawing times to 30 minutes OR LESS per picture.
I'll do these for as long as I can/as long as there is interest!
YOU MAY SEND PAYMENT VIA PAYPAL: kivvakaosu[at]gmail[dot]comSketching begins as soon as I receive payment, in order of payment.
IN A NOTE:
1.) Mood/Theme/Idea
In very few words, provide a brief theme, mood or idea:
EXAMPLE:
My character looking daydreamy.
My character being derpy.
My character doing something exciting.
If you want me to just run with the sketch, let me know! I'll use ideas from your FA page or gallery to think of something unique for you.
2.) Provide a reference link. Or two. Or three. No more than three, please.
VIA PAYPAL:
3.) Send me a payment. Remember to use your FA name in the comments/notes/message section so I know who has paid. :3 kivvakaosu[at]gmail[dot]com
Sketches for single character images only, please.Please see: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1082565/ for past examples!
100% Proceeds will be donated to the Righter Family for 3 year old Brain Cancer Patient Alyssa:http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4471451
My mother wrote this on Alyssa's CarePage on Sunday:
"Update on Alyssa
Posted 2 days ago
My Name is XXXXX I am posting for the Righters. They are at Maine Med with Alyssa, and can not get on line. Alyssa had surgery on Sept.9 it lasted about 4 hrs. She looked really good and did not need to be put on a respirator. The two tumors were removed the third area was scar tissue.They did find more, a tumor on her brain stem(the same place as before). They took what they could but the tumor is invading her spinal column. It is inoperable.We do not know what kind of action will be taken yet.
On Friday Alyssa was doing so well she was sent up from ICU to the Barbara Bush ward. Friday night Alyssa had a set back-- she stopped breathing. She was rushed back to ICU they did a CAT scan to see what is going on. They found no real abnormal swelling. Lyssie is back in ICU and the Righters are there with her. I talked with Alyssa's Grandma last night she told me Alyssa is not responding. They have her on just only tylenol because of all the problems with her breathing. At 6 pm they started steroids they said it would take at least 24 hrs.
Just got off the phone with Grandma again, Alyssa had a better night last night. She is still breathing on her own. Very weak but opens her eyes when Grandma speaks to her. The cancer is much worse then they thought. It did not show up because it is in the spine. Please pray we need a miracle.
I'm not sure now if Alyssa will even make it to St. Jude. I'm heartbroken... I have no idea what's been going on over the past two days. Knowing my mother no news could be good news... or it could mean she's trying to brace herself to notify me...
I am also accepting donations via paypal kivvakaosu[at]gmail[dot]com."
URGENT! PAYPAL SCAM ALL READ (also Help Bambie!)
General | Posted 15 years agoForward this email to spoof[at]paypal.com it is a phishing attack.
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Date: 2010/8/27
Subject: *update*
To: 42809[at]servr.com
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So last night after work I went and hung out with
I had posted on the Yahoo! Group for Jacksonville Furs to try to get some interesting socilization going on while I'm away from home, and I accepted her offer to come hang out at her place.
I was delighted! I really enjoyed talking with her. I had brought my drawing supplies but we talked alot. I did do a light sketch of my character that turned out pretty nicely (let's face it, furries are my muse) so you can expect to see that up at some point.
We snarked a bit on furries, which is always refreshing! I don't like it when furs will sit and defend the fandom with all their might just because they're a member of it.
I really felt bad for her because she has a wonderful little dog named Bambie. Bambie is very old but in AMAZING shape for her age. She is trying out some herbal remedies to try to help her with congestive heart failure. She said that the medicine will pretty much eliminate the major symptoms of the heart failure within about a month of treatment, and it's apparently a one-shot deal... once the medicine is finished, Bambie's quality of life will have increased dramatically. I think she's in the right to, in spite of Bambie's age she was a happy little dog and is very very sweet. I'd have done the same of my ol' boy Sammy, but he was in far worse condition and his onset of symptoms was much quicker (he was near death in 24 hours).
If you're interested in helping Bambie out, here is her journal about the laptop she wants to sell. It's very much worth the price, she let me see it! Windows 7!!! :D
Knowntobite: Bambie's Situation
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Date: 2010/8/27
Subject: *update*
To: 42809[at]servr.com
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So last night after work I went and hung out with
I had posted on the Yahoo! Group for Jacksonville Furs to try to get some interesting socilization going on while I'm away from home, and I accepted her offer to come hang out at her place.
I was delighted! I really enjoyed talking with her. I had brought my drawing supplies but we talked alot. I did do a light sketch of my character that turned out pretty nicely (let's face it, furries are my muse) so you can expect to see that up at some point.
We snarked a bit on furries, which is always refreshing! I don't like it when furs will sit and defend the fandom with all their might just because they're a member of it.
I really felt bad for her because she has a wonderful little dog named Bambie. Bambie is very old but in AMAZING shape for her age. She is trying out some herbal remedies to try to help her with congestive heart failure. She said that the medicine will pretty much eliminate the major symptoms of the heart failure within about a month of treatment, and it's apparently a one-shot deal... once the medicine is finished, Bambie's quality of life will have increased dramatically. I think she's in the right to, in spite of Bambie's age she was a happy little dog and is very very sweet. I'd have done the same of my ol' boy Sammy, but he was in far worse condition and his onset of symptoms was much quicker (he was near death in 24 hours).
If you're interested in helping Bambie out, here is her journal about the laptop she wants to sell. It's very much worth the price, she let me see it! Windows 7!!! :D
Knowntobite: Bambie's Situation
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General | Posted 15 years agoWHYYYYYYYYYYYYY ARE YOU READING THIIIIISDSSS?????
GOOOO HEEEEEERRRREEEEEE:
GOOOO HEEEEEERRRREEEEEE:
MOVED!
General | Posted 15 years agoNot gonna update here anymore.
Gonna be awesome to have a login that actually makes sense, lol!
Gonna be awesome to have a login that actually makes sense, lol!
AH MA GAW
General | Posted 15 years agoI like, lumpin' love my lumpin' job, you know, like, it's awesome and stuff.
I have this weird desire to draw myself as Lumpy Space Princess.
Not the it would be terribly difficult, though. XD
I have this weird desire to draw myself as Lumpy Space Princess.
Not the it would be terribly difficult, though. XD
EEEEEEEHHHHHHH STUFF!
General | Posted 15 years agoWorking, Moving into an apartment with 
, working and stuff...
bbl!
, working and stuff...bbl!
Thank you!
General | Posted 15 years agoThanks for all the well wishes for my birthday, I appreciate it! <3
LAWL
General | Posted 15 years agoIt's always hilarious to me that, during a look through the ol' online newpapers, I find me ex has yet again been arrested.
It was earlier this year, and considering he was arrested on Main Street at 1:30am "in violation of conditions of release"...
HA HA! XD
Texas seeks to make Homosexuality a Criminal Offense
General | Posted 15 years agoNo joke.
This is obviously so over the top it'll never pass.
Texas is the little ignorant asshole kid of the class. By all means, spread this article around!
The more people who know about this the less likely it will be to pass.
The ignorance of that state baffles me. It's not like they have anything more pressing to worry about, like a massive oil spill or illegal immigration, right?
FoxFlux
Taking a page from
bucktowntiger's book and giving my not cool award to: The Texas Republican Party
The GOP in Texas is wanting to pass laws shot down by the Supreme Court in 2003 that would make sodomy and being homosexual criminalized. If found guilty of being a homosexual people would face 5 to 15 years in prison. Supporters of gay rights would face similar charges. It would also ban all porno shops and strip clubs. It would also give 20 year sentences to anyone who issues a marriage license to same sex couples even though it is already not allowed there. I honestly do not think this will pass it is going to far and would be salem witch trials all over again. Homophobia at it's best....or rather worst.
What do you guys think?
here is the news story and searches for keywords will bring up other similiar stories:Texas GOP to Ban Homosexuality
This is obviously so over the top it'll never pass.
Texas is the little ignorant asshole kid of the class. By all means, spread this article around!
The more people who know about this the less likely it will be to pass.
The ignorance of that state baffles me. It's not like they have anything more pressing to worry about, like a massive oil spill or illegal immigration, right?
FoxFluxTaking a page from
bucktowntiger's book and giving my not cool award to: The Texas Republican PartyThe GOP in Texas is wanting to pass laws shot down by the Supreme Court in 2003 that would make sodomy and being homosexual criminalized. If found guilty of being a homosexual people would face 5 to 15 years in prison. Supporters of gay rights would face similar charges. It would also ban all porno shops and strip clubs. It would also give 20 year sentences to anyone who issues a marriage license to same sex couples even though it is already not allowed there. I honestly do not think this will pass it is going to far and would be salem witch trials all over again. Homophobia at it's best....or rather worst.
What do you guys think?
here is the news story and searches for keywords will bring up other similiar stories:Texas GOP to Ban Homosexuality
FYI
General | Posted 15 years agoI have an account I've been chiseling away at to try to get my account transferred from this account.
So no, there isn't someone on here trying to steal my art, "http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kivva/" and will hopefully be my future account.
Don't worryif I ever get around to it when I do switch my account over I'll have a big flashy journal all about the big move. :3
I REALLY appreciate everyone who emailed or noted me with your concerns, it means a lot to me to know that I got furs watchin' my back.
Much love to you all!
So no, there isn't someone on here trying to steal my art, "http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kivva/" and will hopefully be my future account.
Don't worry
I REALLY appreciate everyone who emailed or noted me with your concerns, it means a lot to me to know that I got furs watchin' my back.
Much love to you all!
What should I do?
General | Posted 15 years agoI see what you did there, but I'm not sure how to react.
... And so, I can be happy. :3
General | Posted 15 years agoSometimes it's nice to hear something good... for a change.
So here goes.
I'm very happy. I'm not exactly where I want to be, not exactly, but I can see it in the distance. And so, I can be happy.
My body is not exactly how I would like it, but with some effort, it can be. And so, I can be happy.
I am not as wise as I would like to be, but I can learn. And so, I can be happy.
Many of my friends and loved ones are far away, but they are healthy. And so, I can be happy.
It's important to see what you have, versus what you want. Sometimes it's nice to have those moments of strong desire when you're so eager for the next thing to come. Savour those moments, while they can seem long and agonizing at times, it's important to remember how much you want something just as you get it.
That way, you know you aren't taking anything for granted.
It's also important to realise what you've accomplished as well as see in your mind what you will accomplish in the future.
There has been much done.
There is much to do.
...And so... I can be happy.
So here goes.
I'm very happy. I'm not exactly where I want to be, not exactly, but I can see it in the distance. And so, I can be happy.
My body is not exactly how I would like it, but with some effort, it can be. And so, I can be happy.
I am not as wise as I would like to be, but I can learn. And so, I can be happy.
Many of my friends and loved ones are far away, but they are healthy. And so, I can be happy.
It's important to see what you have, versus what you want. Sometimes it's nice to have those moments of strong desire when you're so eager for the next thing to come. Savour those moments, while they can seem long and agonizing at times, it's important to remember how much you want something just as you get it.
That way, you know you aren't taking anything for granted.
It's also important to realise what you've accomplished as well as see in your mind what you will accomplish in the future.
There has been much done.
There is much to do.
...And so... I can be happy.
Art
General | Posted 15 years agoI will have art going up soon, I swear.
The rest is just sand.
General | Posted 15 years agoA philosophy professor stood before his class with some items on the table in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks, about 2" in diameter.
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles, of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.He then asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "Yes."
"Now," said the professor, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The rocks are the important things - your family, your partner, your health, your children - things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter - like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else. The small stuff."
"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued "there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take your partner out dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal.Take care of the rocks first - the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles, of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.He then asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "Yes."
"Now," said the professor, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The rocks are the important things - your family, your partner, your health, your children - things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter - like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else. The small stuff."
"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued "there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take your partner out dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal.Take care of the rocks first - the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
Oh Furries!
General | Posted 15 years agoYou and your drama.
For serious.
For serious.
Rest In Peace K.P.
General | Posted 15 years agoMisgiving of a melancholy mind... food for thought, really.
General | Posted 15 years agoThere's a lot of things I wish I could explain.
But if I reach out and try, my intentions will be misunderstood. Will. There's no confusing that.
So I question myself, why do I feel the need to explain? Maybe it would make me feel better, to openly justify some of the choices I've made.
But if that is the case, it would be a pretty selfish reason to explain something, wouldn't it?
I'd hope my explanation would bring some kind of comfort to whomever may be involved, to give an opportunity to show what motivated me to act as I have.
Is it a sign of being jaded to doubt that the true intent would be overlooked, even if mistakenly, for some other driver?
Or maybe it's a sign that other people are jaded, because I don't truly think I'd be believed.
...
I've had people beg me not to become hard, and you know, I honestly try very hard to retain some of the hope and ability to trust others that we are all born with.
But it seems like every day that gets more difficult to do.
No matter how good your intent is, sometimes there are people in your life you simply cannot help. Maybe they won't listen, or maybe they just are blind to what you are trying to help them with.
Or maybe they misunderstand kindness for feelings that are not what they may seem to be.
Lately, no one seems to be what they seem to be. Is the world, or more accurately, our society, being devoured by chaos?
Do we distrust others so much that we must make our own lives, ideals and morals liquid and ever changing to prevent others from hurting us?
Do we dislike ourselves so much that we cannot stand to see our own reflections in the morning?
Because I refuse to cave.
For instance, today I did something I am very proud of. I made a big difference in several lives.
They don't even know it.
But recognition isn't why I do what I do. It's the satisfaction in knowing that these people never have to think about what happened today. They can think about their tomorrow.
Of course I met resistance.
I met insecurity.
I made people nervous.
But what I did made sure everyone got to go home safely today.
I refuse to put people in harm's way over petty insecurities. Even if the danger doesn't seem real to others.
The unexpected can happen.
...
Because of me, we all knew what to do if the unexpected happened.
That is why I do what I do.
And if being true to myself means seeing danger where others can't... which in turn means everyone goes home safe... I can celebrate that, even if it's privately while in the face of adversity.
Shouldn't that apply figuratively as well?
If I see my friend punching themselves in the face... am I much of a friend to just let them?
If they are using my hand to do it...
Does it make me a bad person to remove myself... to remove the weapon with which they hurt themselves?
Yessiree, Bob... one day I'll save the world.
*sigh*
But if I reach out and try, my intentions will be misunderstood. Will. There's no confusing that.
So I question myself, why do I feel the need to explain? Maybe it would make me feel better, to openly justify some of the choices I've made.
But if that is the case, it would be a pretty selfish reason to explain something, wouldn't it?
I'd hope my explanation would bring some kind of comfort to whomever may be involved, to give an opportunity to show what motivated me to act as I have.
Is it a sign of being jaded to doubt that the true intent would be overlooked, even if mistakenly, for some other driver?
Or maybe it's a sign that other people are jaded, because I don't truly think I'd be believed.
...
I've had people beg me not to become hard, and you know, I honestly try very hard to retain some of the hope and ability to trust others that we are all born with.
But it seems like every day that gets more difficult to do.
No matter how good your intent is, sometimes there are people in your life you simply cannot help. Maybe they won't listen, or maybe they just are blind to what you are trying to help them with.
Or maybe they misunderstand kindness for feelings that are not what they may seem to be.
Lately, no one seems to be what they seem to be. Is the world, or more accurately, our society, being devoured by chaos?
Do we distrust others so much that we must make our own lives, ideals and morals liquid and ever changing to prevent others from hurting us?
Do we dislike ourselves so much that we cannot stand to see our own reflections in the morning?
Because I refuse to cave.
For instance, today I did something I am very proud of. I made a big difference in several lives.
They don't even know it.
But recognition isn't why I do what I do. It's the satisfaction in knowing that these people never have to think about what happened today. They can think about their tomorrow.
Of course I met resistance.
I met insecurity.
I made people nervous.
But what I did made sure everyone got to go home safely today.
I refuse to put people in harm's way over petty insecurities. Even if the danger doesn't seem real to others.
The unexpected can happen.
...
Because of me, we all knew what to do if the unexpected happened.
That is why I do what I do.
And if being true to myself means seeing danger where others can't... which in turn means everyone goes home safe... I can celebrate that, even if it's privately while in the face of adversity.
Shouldn't that apply figuratively as well?
If I see my friend punching themselves in the face... am I much of a friend to just let them?
If they are using my hand to do it...
Does it make me a bad person to remove myself... to remove the weapon with which they hurt themselves?
Yessiree, Bob... one day I'll save the world.
*sigh*
Still on Hiatus
General | Posted 15 years agoBut I wanted to give people an update.
I've finally got a great job, likely a permanent one, in my chosen career field. :)
I'm very busy now, but once I get established in my position I'll probably have more time for arting.
I hope everyone is well.
Ta for now. ^_^
<3
I've finally got a great job, likely a permanent one, in my chosen career field. :)
I'm very busy now, but once I get established in my position I'll probably have more time for arting.
I hope everyone is well.
Ta for now. ^_^
<3
On Hiatus until Further Notice
General | Posted 16 years agoWith the help some someone I love very dearly, I was able to have quite a few revelations this past weekend.
I cannot thank you enough, you know who you are. I feel my debt of gratitude to you cannot be ever filled, but I'm going to do my damnedest to at least give you some idea of how important, huge, and meaningful what you have done for me is.
I had already decided recently to tone down my internet presence, and I sure people following me have noticed my disappearance from Twitter and FA.
Basically I have a lot of internal issues to deal with, most of them are rooted very deeply. It's going to take a lot of effort to do what I need to do, and I really hope my friends can understand my need for space and privacy during this time.
Thank you.
I cannot thank you enough, you know who you are. I feel my debt of gratitude to you cannot be ever filled, but I'm going to do my damnedest to at least give you some idea of how important, huge, and meaningful what you have done for me is.
I had already decided recently to tone down my internet presence, and I sure people following me have noticed my disappearance from Twitter and FA.
Basically I have a lot of internal issues to deal with, most of them are rooted very deeply. It's going to take a lot of effort to do what I need to do, and I really hope my friends can understand my need for space and privacy during this time.
Thank you.
Formspring! Ask me stuff!!!
General | Posted 16 years agoWant to get to know me better?
Want to ask something but you're scared to? You can always ask me anonymously! :D
ASK ME SHIT GAIS!
http://www.formspring.me/Kivva$5 Sketch Days?
General | Posted 16 years agoI'm thinking that for the next one I should open up 10 slots right before I got to bed, then begin the Realtime work after work the following day.
Last sketch day didn't work out so well because of the time I chose, I think.
What do you think?
Last sketch day didn't work out so well because of the time I chose, I think.
What do you think?
Ask away! :)
General | Posted 16 years agoHeart of Tiger, Mind of Dragon
General | Posted 16 years agoFirst...
Now, a story.
The story of Tiger and Dragon, as I remember it (I was told this 10 or so years ago, so bear with me), is as follows:
Tiger is a very fiery ambitious creature. He is fast and he is strong. Tiger was envious of Dragon, who was highly revered for his power as well. Tiger went to Dragon, and challenged him to fight.
"Why do you want to fight me, Tiger?" Dragon asked.
"I want to know how strong you are." Tiger replied.
"I see," said Dragon, "What will you do when you find out?"
"That depends one who wins," Tiger said, "If I defeat you, all will know that I and indeed a powerful warrior and they shall revere me as they do you. If you defeat me..." Well, Tiger hadn't really thought about that. If Dragon defeated him, he would look quite silly for challenging Dragon. However, Tiger was very passionate about winning against Dragon, and this made him stubborn. Rather than finish his thought, Tiger simply charged are Dragon with his quickest move.
How surprised Tiger was when Dragon so deftly dodged him, his movement quick and yet elegant, as though Dragon had simply chosen to move and Tiger simply charged past him by chance.
Angered, Tiger attacked Dragon again, this time with a powerful strike. Again, Dragon, almost effortlessly avoided the blow, the momentum making Tiger stumble.
Embarrassed and frustrated, Tiger continued to attack Dragon again and again, and each attack failed due to Dragon's agility, he was simply dodging and blocking all of Tiger's moves with seemingly little effort. It was not long before Tiger found himself too tired to attack anymore.
"I cannot believe you defeated me, Dragon. I am so disheartened!" Tiger cried.
"Do not be disheartened, Tiger. I have not defeated you, as we never truly fought."
At first, it might seem that Dragon's last line is arrogant, however, it isn't. It means that as hard as Tiger tried to fight, Dragon never attacked, so it was not a battle.
This was meant to illustrate the symbolism of the Dragon and Tiger.
While Tiger is all passion, emotion, and physical strength, Dragon is balance, cleverness and level-headedness. The most effective warrior is one who uses the traits of both Dragon and Tiger.
I have a point here with all this prefacing, and it is this: I feel very much like Tiger. I have been driven by very powerful emotion in the years past, as I always have been a highly emotional person. I have a volatile temper, and I thought I had overcome it. This lead me to let my guard down, and many, many times I have let myself be blinded by raw emotion.
I ran myself into a huge painful series of walls this year past. Rather than think things through, I let my emotions get the better of me, and I hurt a lot of people I care about. I'm very ashamed of that. I lost some friendships, one or two I felt undeserving of abandonment... until now. In retrospect some of those people were quite wise to distance themselves from me.
Anyway, I am lucky enough that many people love me so much that they stuck around anyway. <3
I wanted to write this, to let people know that I'm seeing so much of my wrongdoings and actions that were simply in very bad taste. My most important resolution this year will be to force myself to be much more conservative with my emotions, online as well in person.
No more kneejerk reactions. No more jumping down people's throats.
A very special thank you to
and two people who have been brave enough and kind enough to be honest with me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOS!!!Now, a story.
The story of Tiger and Dragon, as I remember it (I was told this 10 or so years ago, so bear with me), is as follows:
Tiger is a very fiery ambitious creature. He is fast and he is strong. Tiger was envious of Dragon, who was highly revered for his power as well. Tiger went to Dragon, and challenged him to fight.
"Why do you want to fight me, Tiger?" Dragon asked.
"I want to know how strong you are." Tiger replied.
"I see," said Dragon, "What will you do when you find out?"
"That depends one who wins," Tiger said, "If I defeat you, all will know that I and indeed a powerful warrior and they shall revere me as they do you. If you defeat me..." Well, Tiger hadn't really thought about that. If Dragon defeated him, he would look quite silly for challenging Dragon. However, Tiger was very passionate about winning against Dragon, and this made him stubborn. Rather than finish his thought, Tiger simply charged are Dragon with his quickest move.
How surprised Tiger was when Dragon so deftly dodged him, his movement quick and yet elegant, as though Dragon had simply chosen to move and Tiger simply charged past him by chance.
Angered, Tiger attacked Dragon again, this time with a powerful strike. Again, Dragon, almost effortlessly avoided the blow, the momentum making Tiger stumble.
Embarrassed and frustrated, Tiger continued to attack Dragon again and again, and each attack failed due to Dragon's agility, he was simply dodging and blocking all of Tiger's moves with seemingly little effort. It was not long before Tiger found himself too tired to attack anymore.
"I cannot believe you defeated me, Dragon. I am so disheartened!" Tiger cried.
"Do not be disheartened, Tiger. I have not defeated you, as we never truly fought."
At first, it might seem that Dragon's last line is arrogant, however, it isn't. It means that as hard as Tiger tried to fight, Dragon never attacked, so it was not a battle.
This was meant to illustrate the symbolism of the Dragon and Tiger.
While Tiger is all passion, emotion, and physical strength, Dragon is balance, cleverness and level-headedness. The most effective warrior is one who uses the traits of both Dragon and Tiger.
I have a point here with all this prefacing, and it is this: I feel very much like Tiger. I have been driven by very powerful emotion in the years past, as I always have been a highly emotional person. I have a volatile temper, and I thought I had overcome it. This lead me to let my guard down, and many, many times I have let myself be blinded by raw emotion.
I ran myself into a huge painful series of walls this year past. Rather than think things through, I let my emotions get the better of me, and I hurt a lot of people I care about. I'm very ashamed of that. I lost some friendships, one or two I felt undeserving of abandonment... until now. In retrospect some of those people were quite wise to distance themselves from me.
Anyway, I am lucky enough that many people love me so much that they stuck around anyway. <3
I wanted to write this, to let people know that I'm seeing so much of my wrongdoings and actions that were simply in very bad taste. My most important resolution this year will be to force myself to be much more conservative with my emotions, online as well in person.
No more kneejerk reactions. No more jumping down people's throats.
A very special thank you to
and two people who have been brave enough and kind enough to be honest with me. 