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General | Posted 15 years agoYea well lets make it simple. Im SORTA back.
Long story
not sure i wanna talk about it
yadda yadda boring life junk
So HI
Long story
not sure i wanna talk about it
yadda yadda boring life junk
So HI
Dream sweet repose
General | Posted 16 years agoHere I lay in sleep’s gentle repose
My mind at needed rest
Misty dream to decode
Forever shifting, forbidding shadows
Standing before The Ember’s Passion
Dancing Shades obscure soft curves
Passionate lips capture my thoughts
Willing Bondage, Delighted Slavery
In you wake my knees become weak
Master becomes the Pet watching Rhythm
Binding chains a soft Punishment
Heart racing, breath quickening
Reaching out to touch silky skin
Entranced by line and symmetry
Phasing though intangible material
Reality Crushing, Sorrow enveloping
The truth being nothing more
Dream foggy path of imagery
Trailing tendrils of hope in the mind
Hopeless Craving. Hunger unstated
Light piercing not just my eyes
Lingering mist from waning memory
Tears of Joy fall onto smiling cheeks
Tremendous affection. Overwhelming confidence
In the end Knowing it a lie
Forgiving the conscious void
For the night return with it
Love forthright, demanding Nothing
On wings of silent musing
Weighted eyes return to slumber
Waiting you will remain until
Returning essence, reviling spirit
just a little dream i had about a really cute bunny( in my gallery named lilly) its been a while since i dreamed about her and...here how i feel
simple as that really >.> i wish i had more of her though
My mind at needed rest
Misty dream to decode
Forever shifting, forbidding shadows
Standing before The Ember’s Passion
Dancing Shades obscure soft curves
Passionate lips capture my thoughts
Willing Bondage, Delighted Slavery
In you wake my knees become weak
Master becomes the Pet watching Rhythm
Binding chains a soft Punishment
Heart racing, breath quickening
Reaching out to touch silky skin
Entranced by line and symmetry
Phasing though intangible material
Reality Crushing, Sorrow enveloping
The truth being nothing more
Dream foggy path of imagery
Trailing tendrils of hope in the mind
Hopeless Craving. Hunger unstated
Light piercing not just my eyes
Lingering mist from waning memory
Tears of Joy fall onto smiling cheeks
Tremendous affection. Overwhelming confidence
In the end Knowing it a lie
Forgiving the conscious void
For the night return with it
Love forthright, demanding Nothing
On wings of silent musing
Weighted eyes return to slumber
Waiting you will remain until
Returning essence, reviling spirit
just a little dream i had about a really cute bunny( in my gallery named lilly) its been a while since i dreamed about her and...here how i feel
simple as that really >.> i wish i had more of her though
walk through hell and come out the other side
General | Posted 16 years agoThough i walk though the hell itself i will not fear the demons for i have a charm to keep me sane
well where to start...i can't say my life is down the tubes because i have a few bright points if i can just REACH the damn thing. what really is bothering me is the fact that every night (or possible a night of piece) my stepdad and my mother fight about some STUPID site called IMVU yea i went there didn't like it much but...my mother has taken it to an obsession and its honestly tearing the family apart.
Im a very very big beliver in family and its really pissing me off to no end. She used to take my advice when it came to things. now she won't stop and lisen to me at all. When i talk about my day or i ask her about hers. The only thing she wants to talk about or these...PEOPLE on the site. I mean i don't mind at all really about her wanting to talk about them. I mean i talk about one or two people here or a few artist im into here. Though its not all i want to talk about >.<
Just to give one incident that lead to the ultimet straw. One day not to long ago i was out job hunting and decided to stop by my mothers work while she was at lunch. I found her with her computer and on IMVU the whole time i was there trying to talk to her she paied more attention to that damn site then me. she looked at me ONCE the whole time until i asked her for some pocket change -_-
This all leads up to her completly ignoring the family when we talk to her we get nothing at all. i've tried to talk to her till one day i started to yell at her myself once my dad started to yell. I told her once that she could strighten up and fly right or she could leave the house like she planned. if she did i told her that i would never talk to her again. that seemed to have slapped her in the face enough to know her oldest son the one that stuck though thick and thin with her saw her as His...Superhero for all the shit that she went through with me and i helped her though...would disown her as a mother
It seemed to work for a while...now its back to what it was and another large fight i had enough. We live in the same house and i don't see her as a mother. she birthed me thats all to me now. Its hard to see in those eyes that...she didn't care anymore. that this damn computer program is more importent then her family. She claims she tired of giving things up because of my stepdad but this is no longer about him anymore. He changed and i actualy LIKE him enough now. Yea he got his faults but who dosn't?
the only bright part of this whole thing of being jobless...having NO family of blood anymore. Having fights about not being abile to find a job with my step dad and...honestly having no outside life outside this damn house. is that during this summer a couple weeks back well i found a childhood sweetheart. We dated in middleschool and then we had to move...i havn't seen her since until a month and a half back. we fall back together like puzzle pieces and now...were together again. sadly she has to leave back home soon but we promised we would meet again when i go to college in her town ^-^
I only really writting this because...im not a very good people person. I really have no friends IRL anymore because i trusted them and they just used me to get something out of me. the ones i HAD online don't talk to me now exept a handful here. I really have noplace to turn to for advice...im so used to giving it just never seeking it. I have no older person to talk to...So i hope somebody will see this...and idk give me some insight because i have none. the only thing keeping me sane is her.
Idk if its karma that all the junk has levled out in her maybe its not. Im just happy that i have her now.
SO thanks for reading this crap im spewing out and please i hope it didn't make your eyes bleed
well where to start...i can't say my life is down the tubes because i have a few bright points if i can just REACH the damn thing. what really is bothering me is the fact that every night (or possible a night of piece) my stepdad and my mother fight about some STUPID site called IMVU yea i went there didn't like it much but...my mother has taken it to an obsession and its honestly tearing the family apart.
Im a very very big beliver in family and its really pissing me off to no end. She used to take my advice when it came to things. now she won't stop and lisen to me at all. When i talk about my day or i ask her about hers. The only thing she wants to talk about or these...PEOPLE on the site. I mean i don't mind at all really about her wanting to talk about them. I mean i talk about one or two people here or a few artist im into here. Though its not all i want to talk about >.<
Just to give one incident that lead to the ultimet straw. One day not to long ago i was out job hunting and decided to stop by my mothers work while she was at lunch. I found her with her computer and on IMVU the whole time i was there trying to talk to her she paied more attention to that damn site then me. she looked at me ONCE the whole time until i asked her for some pocket change -_-
This all leads up to her completly ignoring the family when we talk to her we get nothing at all. i've tried to talk to her till one day i started to yell at her myself once my dad started to yell. I told her once that she could strighten up and fly right or she could leave the house like she planned. if she did i told her that i would never talk to her again. that seemed to have slapped her in the face enough to know her oldest son the one that stuck though thick and thin with her saw her as His...Superhero for all the shit that she went through with me and i helped her though...would disown her as a mother
It seemed to work for a while...now its back to what it was and another large fight i had enough. We live in the same house and i don't see her as a mother. she birthed me thats all to me now. Its hard to see in those eyes that...she didn't care anymore. that this damn computer program is more importent then her family. She claims she tired of giving things up because of my stepdad but this is no longer about him anymore. He changed and i actualy LIKE him enough now. Yea he got his faults but who dosn't?
the only bright part of this whole thing of being jobless...having NO family of blood anymore. Having fights about not being abile to find a job with my step dad and...honestly having no outside life outside this damn house. is that during this summer a couple weeks back well i found a childhood sweetheart. We dated in middleschool and then we had to move...i havn't seen her since until a month and a half back. we fall back together like puzzle pieces and now...were together again. sadly she has to leave back home soon but we promised we would meet again when i go to college in her town ^-^
I only really writting this because...im not a very good people person. I really have no friends IRL anymore because i trusted them and they just used me to get something out of me. the ones i HAD online don't talk to me now exept a handful here. I really have noplace to turn to for advice...im so used to giving it just never seeking it. I have no older person to talk to...So i hope somebody will see this...and idk give me some insight because i have none. the only thing keeping me sane is her.
Idk if its karma that all the junk has levled out in her maybe its not. Im just happy that i have her now.
SO thanks for reading this crap im spewing out and please i hope it didn't make your eyes bleed
Whoa Its meeee once again.
General | Posted 16 years ago Well here i am in all my mage like glory lol. Its been again a while since i been on the sight and to be honest it wasn't ALL my fault. Blame my computer for quitting on me and having its damn harddrive break...I guess the amount of furry porn and other sublime ethical problems i been writting and or reading on the thing finaly caused it to give me the all knowing " does not compute" and shut down for good.
After much hammer smacking and yelling i finaly took it to somebody that knows whats going on. XD anyway its good to be back now on admitedly my fathers computer so i won't be on ALL so much now that school out for all the little kiddies. Not until my other computer gets back from its vacation at the Geek's up at HP >.<
SO if you are reading this or still reading having not lost intrest as the keystrokes keep runniing on and on and on Then drop me a note i want to see whats up with everbody ^_^ cause im to lazy to read over 300 journal thingy's
After much hammer smacking and yelling i finaly took it to somebody that knows whats going on. XD anyway its good to be back now on admitedly my fathers computer so i won't be on ALL so much now that school out for all the little kiddies. Not until my other computer gets back from its vacation at the Geek's up at HP >.<
SO if you are reading this or still reading having not lost intrest as the keystrokes keep runniing on and on and on Then drop me a note i want to see whats up with everbody ^_^ cause im to lazy to read over 300 journal thingy's
Ritual sacrifice
General | Posted 16 years agoIn the silence of the overcast sky
bound by cruel chains of fate
thrown into the flames of hate
Smoldering Flesh, oppressing silence
Sunk into the pit of despair
The Eyes reflecting the fire
Your eyes Forsaking my essence
Frigid steel, heartless stone
Actions unbearable to speak
a travesty devastating my mind
Forcing ritualistic sacrifice
dripping rubies, droplets splattering
Cutting out my heart BEHOLD
The wrong you have done
The actions Foretold
Unyielding guilt, Lifeless emotion
Look into my eyes and see
Emptiness possessing me
gut wrenching sorrow
Sickening me, festering wound
Here I stand before you dead
You Uncaring lies devastating
Here lies the one who cared
Suffering eternal Forever sleeping
bound by cruel chains of fate
thrown into the flames of hate
Smoldering Flesh, oppressing silence
Sunk into the pit of despair
The Eyes reflecting the fire
Your eyes Forsaking my essence
Frigid steel, heartless stone
Actions unbearable to speak
a travesty devastating my mind
Forcing ritualistic sacrifice
dripping rubies, droplets splattering
Cutting out my heart BEHOLD
The wrong you have done
The actions Foretold
Unyielding guilt, Lifeless emotion
Look into my eyes and see
Emptiness possessing me
gut wrenching sorrow
Sickening me, festering wound
Here I stand before you dead
You Uncaring lies devastating
Here lies the one who cared
Suffering eternal Forever sleeping
Hallow Existince
General | Posted 17 years agoFlooded tears on my window pane
solid steel heart
nothing feels the same
holding out my arms
and spinning round
feeling a thunderous crash
as I hit the ground
my soul is spiked
with absinthe dreams
the scary kind
that most never see
I long for peace
and quiet
and solitude
where I can quietly scream
and my inner-self can exude
the things I have been hiding,
the truth I have been confiding
in you,
you laugh at my pain
you don't see me
you hide when I come
you don't see me
you call me names
and think i don't hear
you break my heart
and think I will cheer
My heart is now stone
i am hollow inside
how many more years
must I face these wretched lies
you torement my soul
til there isnt but a drop
you use my body
like a movie scene prop
stop the madness
leave me alone
one day you'll come
and I'll be gone
a vegetable
nothing more
so when you leave
think of me no more...
YES i am alive. Just life got me running around in circiles trying to get things done. Work completted Ect. Its been a really low point in life really. I don't honestly want to go into details.
NO offince to anyone still watching me. Or will even look at this. I come here and there is ALOT of good works from my fav artist.(you know who you are) And im so sorry i haven't been around to enjoy them. Just know i will look over them slowly may not comment or fav but know i look over them. Things are finaly winding down and seeming to look up for once in this hellhole we call a world
Anyway i can't wait to hear from you all and catch up with you all. Drop me a Note anytime. I get to them ASAP. OH for those i said i get stories done...Well i got one near done no two. The rest i haven't even worked on IM SO SORRY.
I will try and get to them but dosn't expect it anytime soon(as if you did recently lol)
Life is to fast SLOW DOWN
General | Posted 17 years agoHere we are dashing like a cockroach with the light on
Scurrying wily nilly to get our things done.
Ignoring each other as we watch our feet.
any food that is fast and easily sucked through a straw
Health is declining fast as we get rounded ass.
our common courtesy dying Chivalry taking its last breath
Oh world what have we become.
Nothing more then mindless drones?
Have we all declined to introverted mindsets?
Consumed completely by our work and woes.
Come take a moment and remorse
We have all died inside
yea not really good still BUT hell its how I feel. I certenly feel like Im the only crazy person that notices this stuff anymore. *sighs* Yea I know NOT everyone is like this but...A large amount is. We rush about and never really take time to breath anymore.
My photography touched lightly on the heart of time itself. Frozen water and blurred motion to indicat speed as we lived life. Though I had planned a shoot in the mall to gather more motion shots>< those renta cops kicked me out cause I didn;t have mall permision to do my art in there cause of something about the logos on the stores or something. Blah whatever so gotta think of some other place to do it at
Yet why this has got me so upset recently? I saw Flippen Rice TO GO. A little tiny packet of rice that you can cook on the run >< I saw peanut butter Koolaid singles. All sorts of things that can be munched down quickly and without stop. Have we gone so far into the hole that we never stop anymore?
Thats why I hope to get my art on the go again. I want To make people see whats going on...well I guess it will never hit mass amount of people but meh. who knows. I got a new mini camra YEY not the clunker I lug around whenever I wanna take pics. Its handy little thing
Scurrying wily nilly to get our things done.
Ignoring each other as we watch our feet.
any food that is fast and easily sucked through a straw
Health is declining fast as we get rounded ass.
our common courtesy dying Chivalry taking its last breath
Oh world what have we become.
Nothing more then mindless drones?
Have we all declined to introverted mindsets?
Consumed completely by our work and woes.
Come take a moment and remorse
We have all died inside
yea not really good still BUT hell its how I feel. I certenly feel like Im the only crazy person that notices this stuff anymore. *sighs* Yea I know NOT everyone is like this but...A large amount is. We rush about and never really take time to breath anymore.
My photography touched lightly on the heart of time itself. Frozen water and blurred motion to indicat speed as we lived life. Though I had planned a shoot in the mall to gather more motion shots>< those renta cops kicked me out cause I didn;t have mall permision to do my art in there cause of something about the logos on the stores or something. Blah whatever so gotta think of some other place to do it at
Yet why this has got me so upset recently? I saw Flippen Rice TO GO. A little tiny packet of rice that you can cook on the run >< I saw peanut butter Koolaid singles. All sorts of things that can be munched down quickly and without stop. Have we gone so far into the hole that we never stop anymore?
Thats why I hope to get my art on the go again. I want To make people see whats going on...well I guess it will never hit mass amount of people but meh. who knows. I got a new mini camra YEY not the clunker I lug around whenever I wanna take pics. Its handy little thing
Story Reqest? How do you get one from mees?
General | Posted 17 years agoHiya folks that are actualy watching me and activly keeping track of my novice progress in life ^_^
I want to first THANK YOU ALL for your support in my endevers from photos to my short term at drawing and now hitting up my writting talents.
Ok so as you may have noticed something been put in my gallery *le gasp* yes they are stories I started on as sorta a random idea base you know. One is the story of my VERY complex sona the other is with a awsome friend of mine and his shape shifting sea serpent. Wiggly little dragon can never deicide if it wants to be a fem or a male. Yet more to cum on that one ^_~
I also have updates to share WHOOT I started two storeis now in colaberation with two other artist here.
NayanLittle Your story is almost finished and I shall be sending you a copy ASAP for you to look over
The other is a secret hush hush ^_^ though she knows who she is and YOUR first chapter is already done sugar
Anywho the deal is this. I write the stories of there Char's and they wanted to illistrate some of the fav parts in them. Nayan a bit busy so don't expect anything to soon from him
But the other I will show as soon as She gets her lovely rear back online for me to talk to real quick about details on the pic she already done as an opener on the story ^_^
SO heres the deal yo I want to keep up my writting and am putting my own stories on the back burner ^_~ cause well Isa lazy and stumped. So if you wanna story all you got to do is ask me nicly in a note. I will then ask you for some information to detail what goes on with the one or two people you pic. I trying to get better and need some help from you all to get it there haha. I love to give my loyal fans a nice story for there time.
the story dosn't have to be smut (though the two already im doing is or leading to smut) It can be a comidy or a romance whatever you choose.
I also don;t mind if you want me in there... actualy it would be loverly to enteract like that ^_^
yet enough of that junk and stuff. If you want just give me a note and we can talk it over okay. I do try to get on things quickly because when I get excited about something I GETS BUSY XD
I want to first THANK YOU ALL for your support in my endevers from photos to my short term at drawing and now hitting up my writting talents.
Ok so as you may have noticed something been put in my gallery *le gasp* yes they are stories I started on as sorta a random idea base you know. One is the story of my VERY complex sona the other is with a awsome friend of mine and his shape shifting sea serpent. Wiggly little dragon can never deicide if it wants to be a fem or a male. Yet more to cum on that one ^_~
I also have updates to share WHOOT I started two storeis now in colaberation with two other artist here.
NayanLittle Your story is almost finished and I shall be sending you a copy ASAP for you to look overThe other is a secret hush hush ^_^ though she knows who she is and YOUR first chapter is already done sugar
Anywho the deal is this. I write the stories of there Char's and they wanted to illistrate some of the fav parts in them. Nayan a bit busy so don't expect anything to soon from him
But the other I will show as soon as She gets her lovely rear back online for me to talk to real quick about details on the pic she already done as an opener on the story ^_^
SO heres the deal yo I want to keep up my writting and am putting my own stories on the back burner ^_~ cause well Isa lazy and stumped. So if you wanna story all you got to do is ask me nicly in a note. I will then ask you for some information to detail what goes on with the one or two people you pic. I trying to get better and need some help from you all to get it there haha. I love to give my loyal fans a nice story for there time.
the story dosn't have to be smut (though the two already im doing is or leading to smut) It can be a comidy or a romance whatever you choose.
I also don;t mind if you want me in there... actualy it would be loverly to enteract like that ^_^
yet enough of that junk and stuff. If you want just give me a note and we can talk it over okay. I do try to get on things quickly because when I get excited about something I GETS BUSY XD
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
General | Posted 17 years agoOMFG i totaly forgot what today is( its after midnight) Its the day of my dads big support the troops rally and I GET TO BE MICGUFF THE CRIME DOG WHOOT
my first suit wearing XD and i am a well know figure and loved.
Sweet I can't wait at all.
my first suit wearing XD and i am a well know figure and loved.
Sweet I can't wait at all.
Been up way to long O_O
General | Posted 17 years agoEVERYONE CHEER MELONS ARE HERE
FULLED WITH SEEDS THAT GROW YOU"RE REAR
WE EAT MELONS EVERY DAY
DROP YOUR PANTS AND BURN THE SEEDS AWAY
BURN BURN THE SEEDS AWAY
MAKE MY ASS SO SORE TODAY
BURN BURN THE SEEDS AWAY
MAKE THEM MELONS DIE
http://www.weebls-stuff.com/toons/Melons/
Yea just something I found on this site... If you watch it long enough the song starts to run faster then the animation itself
Lol I raelly need to get to be sooner or more to the point write my stories I keep telling myself each night I will do XD
Come dance with me
General | Posted 17 years agoCome to me and let me sever your strings of fate
Let me shield you from flames of hate.
Tug you, pull you
I am the Puppetmaster Let me be your dream
Come unto me and let us dance.
Strings tangle willingly entrance
Come let me be Your Master of fate.
Lisen to my sweet words of enlightenment
Let me tie you to my nimble fingers
Will you be My puppet tonight?Well I can't say its very good... I sorta like it and I always loved calling myself the puppetmaster. (something I not proud of in Highschool) BUT i a kind master... who will be my toys?
Fire in her eyes
General | Posted 17 years agoLike a gift from the stars she came to me in a dream.
Hips saying to the beat as every soul in the room kept the beat on there hands.
her eyes burned in the night coming after me. Slowly she dance to the center of the ring.
Grasping my hands she drew herself to me. the space between us filled with moonlight.
all the pieces of the puzzle fall into place as are fire burns through the night.
Swet dripping off our brows. Step for step we dance.
center of attintion we lose areself in each other. Love from above that could save this tarnished soul.
Demons vanished from my side as her hips moved through the light.
a alluring stranger how can I forget. you memory fades into the night.Yes IT seems alot of my insperation comes from my dreams. Yet lately the strange female Vixen has brought me good tidings I would think.
Normaly I would dream of bunnies>.> if I was to get intemint with one such as this poem hints at XD
Yet its weird I do like vixens but not alot. At least not enough to dream about them like that and in the way they would probly ook IRL as well
dance with me
General | Posted 17 years agocome along follow me, take my hand let us stand
In the center of it all let it fall all around
hear it all hit the ground as the world spirals down
hold onto me as the song starts to play
look into my eyes and know it is me
take the step that will bring us to our knees
Let us dance to the sound of the wind
Come now hush love nothing is wrong.
just the earth weeping. The land bleeding.
Come lisen close love you can hear it
the pain she feels as the world comes crshing down.
SO let us dance to its sound forever and ever.
Such sweet sound death and chaos.
Always know I love you stranger. to be honest I not sure what this is>.> I think its some horrible mutant hybrid of a poem/song lyric I made up. I guess if your carful you can hit a rythem in it for a song *rolls eyes* this really steams from a dream I had last night. Kinda sweet and morbid at the same time
It all realy starts with some female waking me up. I not quite sure what she is. I thought vixen (yea I know sue me) and well though she was nude it didn't bother me. It was as if it was normal. I took her hand and she sent me away to a place. Where We held each other watching *points to discription in poem* that going on. The world degrading bleeding weeping.
All we had was each other holding on tightly to love. Yet there was more to it but not many would want to know the smutty details XD
I hope that I expressed in the poem what I was trying to get across
Whoa what a rush
General | Posted 17 years agoman its been WAY To long. I had vanished for a while on a trip to see someone I met online. Wanna hear the story well tough >.>
psh nah I'll tell you all later ((those who care enough)) anyway I come back and BAM FA is down I was kinda shocked unable to understand the horror for a few days.
Well I had a ton of new submissions to look through and I only glanced through most of them. IF any of those artest are looking at this Keep it up. I;ll try to loook more closly at them at a latter date.
Hmmm as for my trip it was good though didn't end how I planned. Yet thats luck for you I guess.
Man I so scattered right now I feel as if I could burst. OH big news here. I givin up trying to draw. YEP you heard me. Instead of a drawing I decieded to paint with my words. I doing my best to get better at my writting so I can hit my goal as a published auther *waits for collective gasp* i have on hold two things I started to really get into. Yet since my father is home I haven't been abile to work on either of them. Evil bastered saw me writting smut he would have a christien like meltdown spewing fire and brimstone on my sinning ass *rolls eyes*
anywho WELCOME BACK FA and all my buds and chikas here
psh nah I'll tell you all later ((those who care enough)) anyway I come back and BAM FA is down I was kinda shocked unable to understand the horror for a few days.
Well I had a ton of new submissions to look through and I only glanced through most of them. IF any of those artest are looking at this Keep it up. I;ll try to loook more closly at them at a latter date.
Hmmm as for my trip it was good though didn't end how I planned. Yet thats luck for you I guess.
Man I so scattered right now I feel as if I could burst. OH big news here. I givin up trying to draw. YEP you heard me. Instead of a drawing I decieded to paint with my words. I doing my best to get better at my writting so I can hit my goal as a published auther *waits for collective gasp* i have on hold two things I started to really get into. Yet since my father is home I haven't been abile to work on either of them. Evil bastered saw me writting smut he would have a christien like meltdown spewing fire and brimstone on my sinning ass *rolls eyes*
anywho WELCOME BACK FA and all my buds and chikas here
The Grim
General | Posted 17 years agoFear me For I am your worst nightmare.
I am the Bump in the night you crave.
Run for your life for the Grim has arrived.
he will take your Being leaving you a husk.
here I come Better be ready for us,
the dead and death itself are on the prowl.
Flesh still warm the inside dead and stitched
Blood on my hands Death my lonely companion.
Here I walk the empty streets of my mind.
Trying to gather the shreds of my humanity.
failed in my pursuit I grasp my scythe,
To Grant The everlasting slumber of life
Over my shoulder the grinning skull
In my hand the means to kill life
Looking at the fear in your eyes
I smile as The blood flies
Are you breathing now?
The last flitters of your heart.
Look at me as you die and know
It was I who brought you slumber.
I am the Bump in the night you crave.
Run for your life for the Grim has arrived.
he will take your Being leaving you a husk.
here I come Better be ready for us,
the dead and death itself are on the prowl.
Flesh still warm the inside dead and stitched
Blood on my hands Death my lonely companion.
Here I walk the empty streets of my mind.
Trying to gather the shreds of my humanity.
failed in my pursuit I grasp my scythe,
To Grant The everlasting slumber of life
Over my shoulder the grinning skull
In my hand the means to kill life
Looking at the fear in your eyes
I smile as The blood flies
Are you breathing now?
The last flitters of your heart.
Look at me as you die and know
It was I who brought you slumber.
Unknown reasons
General | Posted 17 years agoLet our dreams become reality
Let reality change are insanity
Wipe those tears from your face
All is not lost we have only fallen from grace
Pick yourself up from the beaten path
take the chance and take my hand
Walk with me in the forest of dreams
Let the moonlight wash away our fears
dance with me under the stars
let us make love by our stream
Are passion only surpassed by love
Come to me and let us be forever changed
Wow IDK what spurred this but its nice lol I like it actualy though steamed from the relationship of me and one said bobcat I think I talked about before... Meh we ar enot going on well 4 months now? so I thought I whip together something nice to remeber this(haa I;m on top of my game X3 you ladies always trip us guys up with suprise things like that)
OMG I AM ALIVE >.< though I think at times I lucked out. I told you all(those who care) I wreaked and messed my shoulder up prety bad. NOW yesterday I fell down a flight of stairs O_o I mean WTF is wrong with me? did fate decide to pick on me for a while. Cause I done tons of clutsy thigns lately that have hurt me or possibly could have killed me.
MEH anyway I AM SORRY to all those I watch and those I talk to alot really I truly am sorry I haven't been around to comment on your work or lisen to your life.
So I hope to be not as busy really so I can post my pics and look at ya'lls
Let reality change are insanity
Wipe those tears from your face
All is not lost we have only fallen from grace
Pick yourself up from the beaten path
take the chance and take my hand
Walk with me in the forest of dreams
Let the moonlight wash away our fears
dance with me under the stars
let us make love by our stream
Are passion only surpassed by love
Come to me and let us be forever changed
Wow IDK what spurred this but its nice lol I like it actualy though steamed from the relationship of me and one said bobcat I think I talked about before... Meh we ar enot going on well 4 months now? so I thought I whip together something nice to remeber this(haa I;m on top of my game X3 you ladies always trip us guys up with suprise things like that)
OMG I AM ALIVE >.< though I think at times I lucked out. I told you all(those who care) I wreaked and messed my shoulder up prety bad. NOW yesterday I fell down a flight of stairs O_o I mean WTF is wrong with me? did fate decide to pick on me for a while. Cause I done tons of clutsy thigns lately that have hurt me or possibly could have killed me.
MEH anyway I AM SORRY to all those I watch and those I talk to alot really I truly am sorry I haven't been around to comment on your work or lisen to your life.
So I hope to be not as busy really so I can post my pics and look at ya'lls
Duck taped heart
General | Posted 17 years agoI place this mask on my heart
Watching you walk out of my life
The wound to great for me to accept'
Forever seeping, Never ending
screw it I can't even make anything poetic I so messed up
YEA i bitch alot get over it>.< If I didn;t do this I think I would end up doing something stupid (more so then I normaly do)
I man today was good until someone from my past walked right up to me at my job. A girl I though I would never see again had brought me to my knees once again like she did when she left me
here is a piece of the convo with my Bobcat
*curls up slightly*
Sheep! says:
lol
Sheep! says:
*cuddles against your warm body*
Sheep! says:
don't worry
gale says:
smile Weakly* I am not worried. I just saw someone I hoped to never see again. Then again I really wanted to at the same time
Sheep! says:
what?
Sheep! says:
what's going on sweetie?
gale says:
*winces* do not get the wrong idea or anything ok. Yet I not sure I want to talk about it. I don't want you to think that I found someone else or that I wanted to be with that person
Sheep! says:
no no, its fine
Sheep! says:
I'm just wanting to make sure your ok
Sheep! says:
what happened?
gale says:
Well ok in a way then not*sighs* well I was at work today and such and going about things like I normaly do. A smile and my hard work. When Who should walk in. One of my exes that I had ended on good terms with. I mean we moved that was all that kept us apart.
gale says:
When I saw her I felt myself jump inside my heart got all jittery. *curls up tighter* and she seemed happy to see me as well. As I talked to her a bit all my "What ifs" were closed in two hard statments.
gale says:
Well not really. I saw the ring on her hand and the telltale signs of the mirical of life. For some reason I felt myself crash into a wall. Then again I also felt as if a weight lifted from my shoulders.
gale says:
it was so hard not to run to the back of the store and just hid myself in a tight ball. IDK I just felt like shit to be exact and I just rolercoastered the rest of the night
gale says:
*sighs* So thats the story.
Sheep! says:
aww
Sheep! says:
*hug* that's hard
gale says:
the funny thing is I never been like that. I always gotten over things fast. Some called me unemotinal when THings came to relationships. OR told me that I hid them to deep and I would get cancer. YEt when I saw her all that just bubbled up and really screwed me up
Sheep! says:
*nods* its understandable
gale says:
thanks for lisening. tich I feel pathatic
Sheep! says:
whenever you have strong feeling for someone stuff like that happens
(ignor her screename sheep X3 but yea she is sounderstanding)
Watching you walk out of my life
The wound to great for me to accept'
Forever seeping, Never ending
screw it I can't even make anything poetic I so messed up
YEA i bitch alot get over it>.< If I didn;t do this I think I would end up doing something stupid (more so then I normaly do)
I man today was good until someone from my past walked right up to me at my job. A girl I though I would never see again had brought me to my knees once again like she did when she left me
here is a piece of the convo with my Bobcat
*curls up slightly*
Sheep! says:
lol
Sheep! says:
*cuddles against your warm body*
Sheep! says:
don't worry
gale says:
smile Weakly* I am not worried. I just saw someone I hoped to never see again. Then again I really wanted to at the same time
Sheep! says:
what?
Sheep! says:
what's going on sweetie?
gale says:
*winces* do not get the wrong idea or anything ok. Yet I not sure I want to talk about it. I don't want you to think that I found someone else or that I wanted to be with that person
Sheep! says:
no no, its fine
Sheep! says:
I'm just wanting to make sure your ok
Sheep! says:
what happened?
gale says:
Well ok in a way then not*sighs* well I was at work today and such and going about things like I normaly do. A smile and my hard work. When Who should walk in. One of my exes that I had ended on good terms with. I mean we moved that was all that kept us apart.
gale says:
When I saw her I felt myself jump inside my heart got all jittery. *curls up tighter* and she seemed happy to see me as well. As I talked to her a bit all my "What ifs" were closed in two hard statments.
gale says:
Well not really. I saw the ring on her hand and the telltale signs of the mirical of life. For some reason I felt myself crash into a wall. Then again I also felt as if a weight lifted from my shoulders.
gale says:
it was so hard not to run to the back of the store and just hid myself in a tight ball. IDK I just felt like shit to be exact and I just rolercoastered the rest of the night
gale says:
*sighs* So thats the story.
Sheep! says:
aww
Sheep! says:
*hug* that's hard
gale says:
the funny thing is I never been like that. I always gotten over things fast. Some called me unemotinal when THings came to relationships. OR told me that I hid them to deep and I would get cancer. YEt when I saw her all that just bubbled up and really screwed me up
Sheep! says:
*nods* its understandable
gale says:
thanks for lisening. tich I feel pathatic
Sheep! says:
whenever you have strong feeling for someone stuff like that happens
(ignor her screename sheep X3 but yea she is sounderstanding)
Fuck with me
General | Posted 17 years agoCome on you think you got
The Courage to end life
Step up and find out
that it will take all your not
Fuck you sit down Pup
You don't have the guts
To pull that trigger
And finish what you started
Setp to me and you wil find
That I am Completly blind
I can't see death nothing to fear
Looming behind me skelital and cold
Feel your Demise as I cut you down
Get out of my way not in the mood
I'll end you now my little Pup
Step down and know your place
Or end up in a driffrent Hell
Hmmm Yes I pissed at some moron who thought htey could start a fight with a cripple*grins* showed them up thats for sure.
I not sure if I am finished with this piece yet. I may add more as I lisen to my rock X3 or fix the schem of things
The Courage to end life
Step up and find out
that it will take all your not
Fuck you sit down Pup
You don't have the guts
To pull that trigger
And finish what you started
Setp to me and you wil find
That I am Completly blind
I can't see death nothing to fear
Looming behind me skelital and cold
Feel your Demise as I cut you down
Get out of my way not in the mood
I'll end you now my little Pup
Step down and know your place
Or end up in a driffrent Hell
Hmmm Yes I pissed at some moron who thought htey could start a fight with a cripple*grins* showed them up thats for sure.
I not sure if I am finished with this piece yet. I may add more as I lisen to my rock X3 or fix the schem of things
I HATE TRUCKS *winces*
General | Posted 17 years agoyea I said it. I FUCKING HATE TRUCKS. and other large cars like the damn hummers and SUVs whatever
Manly my reason is they killing us even aster then need be. The other thing is they think they own the FUCKING road(I am not saying aeveryone who owns one is like that)
today litraly Most of the morning I sat in the ER to get x-rays. why you ask? Cause some truck driver driving the big ass truck with the extra set of wheels in the back? making it have six wheels. meh enough
Well I was driving to work my normal rout and as I was driving I saw the truck Ok yea so I was just driving and IDK what passed through his pea sized brain he desides to pull out to get into the lane Going the other way ><
So yea I see this and try to swerve but well I ended up pulling a Movie stunt and slidding on my side and rolling off my scooter. My scooter slides UNDER the damn truck and gets stuck in the undercarrige thing.
So my ride is ruined. I fucking bleeding from my scraps from the road. Oh yea my nose to somehow That happened. THANK GOD I was wearing my helment.
THE guy had the adastity to get out of the truck and BLAME ME for this saying Iw as going to fast. My scooter only gos to 40 miles and hour. Or 65 kilomiters.
My back fucking hurts like hell and I getting chewed out by this dude. WTF
Psh so I take my helment and hit him across the head>.>
HA I was lucky the police know me. Otherwise I could have been in trouble.
Manly my reason is they killing us even aster then need be. The other thing is they think they own the FUCKING road(I am not saying aeveryone who owns one is like that)
today litraly Most of the morning I sat in the ER to get x-rays. why you ask? Cause some truck driver driving the big ass truck with the extra set of wheels in the back? making it have six wheels. meh enough
Well I was driving to work my normal rout and as I was driving I saw the truck Ok yea so I was just driving and IDK what passed through his pea sized brain he desides to pull out to get into the lane Going the other way ><
So yea I see this and try to swerve but well I ended up pulling a Movie stunt and slidding on my side and rolling off my scooter. My scooter slides UNDER the damn truck and gets stuck in the undercarrige thing.
So my ride is ruined. I fucking bleeding from my scraps from the road. Oh yea my nose to somehow That happened. THANK GOD I was wearing my helment.
THE guy had the adastity to get out of the truck and BLAME ME for this saying Iw as going to fast. My scooter only gos to 40 miles and hour. Or 65 kilomiters.
My back fucking hurts like hell and I getting chewed out by this dude. WTF
Psh so I take my helment and hit him across the head>.>
HA I was lucky the police know me. Otherwise I could have been in trouble.
I am Me
General | Posted 17 years ago I am me hear my cry
The pain of the jeers from the mouths of multitudes find no mark in me
I am unique!
I am me! Hear my cry
I give thee my hand and marry you to the cause.
Rise up and stand your ground.
We are one we are unique!
You my brothers and sisters carry a note unique to all ears.
So fear not and cry out with meNever forget that you are who you are.
Never forget that you anwser to nobody by yourself
never let anyone change you
love your friends love your family yet above all love yourself
Hear the call down the wind blown streets.
Barely adubile be still it greets.
People call us all the same.
But they are in the box alone playing the game.
We are all different all races not the one.
Have to bear the scorn of hate that is truly undone.
People may laugh at you and see you in hate.
But just remember my people.
They may their selves be over rate.
We are one, but in the same...
We are unique!really to those that have been looking out for me in this still admitily dark chapter in my life. Thanks
If anyone wonders why I wrote this. Its really cause I tired just really tired of everything I done or have to do. I changed so much not because I wanted to. Because I had little choice. I not proud of it in the least and if I can go back I would. Yet I can't now and I can only hope that things look better soon for me and My friends.
Never ending rain
General | Posted 17 years agoLet the rain fall upon this broken soul
Wrap me in its frigid embrace
Drown me in the painless Depths
Forever broken forever forsaken
let the rain fall upon your broken soul
Rinse away the hate and shame
That has arisen in your eyes
Stabbing me, breaking me
let the rain fall upon my broken soul
here it hides my eyes Betrayal
As I Weep under this dark sky
Forever suffering, Forever regreting
Let the rain fall upon this broken soul
Envelope me In Your relentless grasp
Sufficate me In the pityless Oblivion
Stealing thought, Stealing breath
Well... to say the least this reflects my mood at the moment.
Will probly reflect it for a while. One never really gets over what has happened today. Yet Do not worry for those who I know and have even a shred of caring for me.
I will press on and thrive off my pain. It only makes me stronger. SO if I post more of this poetry dispite how bad it really is. Do not get worried about hw dark it may get. Its my simpile way of coping
also sorry for the spelling errers
Wrap me in its frigid embrace
Drown me in the painless Depths
Forever broken forever forsaken
let the rain fall upon your broken soul
Rinse away the hate and shame
That has arisen in your eyes
Stabbing me, breaking me
let the rain fall upon my broken soul
here it hides my eyes Betrayal
As I Weep under this dark sky
Forever suffering, Forever regreting
Let the rain fall upon this broken soul
Envelope me In Your relentless grasp
Sufficate me In the pityless Oblivion
Stealing thought, Stealing breath
Well... to say the least this reflects my mood at the moment.
Will probly reflect it for a while. One never really gets over what has happened today. Yet Do not worry for those who I know and have even a shred of caring for me.
I will press on and thrive off my pain. It only makes me stronger. SO if I post more of this poetry dispite how bad it really is. Do not get worried about hw dark it may get. Its my simpile way of coping
also sorry for the spelling errers
Mwahahah
General | Posted 17 years agoGot this from a artist hehe THIS is stricly Fursona to FUrsona
meaning WOULD you do this with MY Arcane wolf hehe(sorry I taken ladys and germs IRL at least)
1. Who would be in control?
2. Would you pull my hair?
3. Would you whisper in my ear?
4. Would you talk dirty to me?
5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?
6. Would you say my name?
7. Would you go down on me?
8. Would you let me give you a hickie?
9. How many rounds would we go?
10. What would you wanna do afterwards?
11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly?
12. Would you lick and bite me all over?
13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point?
14. Would you want me to take my time?
15. How freaky are you, 1 - 10?
16. Would you want fast or slow?
17. Where would you wanna "do it"?
18. Would you be loud or quiet?
19. Would you want me to be loud or quiet?
20. Would you mind if i liked you?
21. Do you like me?
22. Would you call me the next day?
23. Would you scratch me?
24. Would you let me scratch you?
25. Would you have to be drunk?
26. Would you date me?
27. Would you do it today?
28. Would you do it tomorrow?
29. Do you think that we would go any further then just sex?
30. Are you going to re-post these so I can answer them for you?
31. Would you make love to me or fuck me?
meaning WOULD you do this with MY Arcane wolf hehe(sorry I taken ladys and germs IRL at least)
1. Who would be in control?
2. Would you pull my hair?
3. Would you whisper in my ear?
4. Would you talk dirty to me?
5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?
6. Would you say my name?
7. Would you go down on me?
8. Would you let me give you a hickie?
9. How many rounds would we go?
10. What would you wanna do afterwards?
11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly?
12. Would you lick and bite me all over?
13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point?
14. Would you want me to take my time?
15. How freaky are you, 1 - 10?
16. Would you want fast or slow?
17. Where would you wanna "do it"?
18. Would you be loud or quiet?
19. Would you want me to be loud or quiet?
20. Would you mind if i liked you?
21. Do you like me?
22. Would you call me the next day?
23. Would you scratch me?
24. Would you let me scratch you?
25. Would you have to be drunk?
26. Would you date me?
27. Would you do it today?
28. Would you do it tomorrow?
29. Do you think that we would go any further then just sex?
30. Are you going to re-post these so I can answer them for you?
31. Would you make love to me or fuck me?
Request for artistic help
General | Posted 17 years agoAlright now This isn't so request for Free art or anything so Don't get your tails in a knot xD
Not many of you know (well maybe two) I have been trying to draw. Well I posted some of that in a thing called "doodles" hehe thats about the mastery of my artistic talent of any form of art stuff-__-
What I been doing lately is looking at art from here. Normaly just sketches you know trying to look at the prosses in witch most of the artist I see use.
Outline in sketch Then Ink(however by computer or ink pen
Then they color it.
Yet what I need OR what I been doing is well. Drawing limbs. arms legs torsos. Feeble attemps at Female torsos-_- meaning Breast on them
Thing Is I can't seem to bring it all together, I mean its not hard to draw a leg. Its adding the foot thats the problem THough I have gotten good at dragons claws O_o
Anywahy what I could use is some help like a basied sketch from start to finish. (end of sketch Thing)
OR if you happen to know a good website that can help that would be awsome
Not many of you know (well maybe two) I have been trying to draw. Well I posted some of that in a thing called "doodles" hehe thats about the mastery of my artistic talent of any form of art stuff-__-
What I been doing lately is looking at art from here. Normaly just sketches you know trying to look at the prosses in witch most of the artist I see use.
Outline in sketch Then Ink(however by computer or ink pen
Then they color it.
Yet what I need OR what I been doing is well. Drawing limbs. arms legs torsos. Feeble attemps at Female torsos-_- meaning Breast on them
Thing Is I can't seem to bring it all together, I mean its not hard to draw a leg. Its adding the foot thats the problem THough I have gotten good at dragons claws O_o
Anywahy what I could use is some help like a basied sketch from start to finish. (end of sketch Thing)
OR if you happen to know a good website that can help that would be awsome
A privet musing a helping hand
General | Posted 17 years agohere I sit upon this chair and ponder
Thoughts of peace, caring, troubelsome
I kneel I pray I cry out to a god that here me no longer
silence repressing, deafining, madining
I bear with me the scars of a troubled past
Chained to the stings of fate
cast into the fires of hate
I kneel, I pray, I cry out for salvation
Here I lay in this pit of darkness
Beaten, broken, abused, molested
THe light has gone yet I remain
Sunk into my pit of dispare
Hark what is that I see
a light a wondress light
From where does it come?
I strain to see what could possibly
The warmth of a loveing heart
glows upon this tear staind face
My will returnes My fate undone
Love eternal for all and one
random I know. Yet not really ment to be poetic in the laest. though I put it into sorta didn;t I
I walk the streets and see all the pain in the faces of the folks. It is really strange to see. Most of them act happy as can be yet under it all I see most of them with some form of pain or are upset.
A stray word a hand motion can give you insight into alot.
Yet why I wrote this really was to let you all Know. I am here for you.
you may not know me. Nor care for me if you do
Yet I am the shoulder to lean on and cry
I am the friend to vent and rant to
I will be there to pick you up when you fall
I will be the one to wipe your tears away
I will be the one to guy who you can confide in
I am the ear to hear your problems
Anything you had done to you in your past... I more then likely have had some sort of the same. My poem is true. I been beaten I been broken and much more... inclueding molsested.
My past is my own and I do not expact you to tell me anything you do not wish. Just know if anyone needs that one person to lisen to you... I am that guy.
Thoughts of peace, caring, troubelsome
I kneel I pray I cry out to a god that here me no longer
silence repressing, deafining, madining
I bear with me the scars of a troubled past
Chained to the stings of fate
cast into the fires of hate
I kneel, I pray, I cry out for salvation
Here I lay in this pit of darkness
Beaten, broken, abused, molested
THe light has gone yet I remain
Sunk into my pit of dispare
Hark what is that I see
a light a wondress light
From where does it come?
I strain to see what could possibly
The warmth of a loveing heart
glows upon this tear staind face
My will returnes My fate undone
Love eternal for all and one
random I know. Yet not really ment to be poetic in the laest. though I put it into sorta didn;t I
I walk the streets and see all the pain in the faces of the folks. It is really strange to see. Most of them act happy as can be yet under it all I see most of them with some form of pain or are upset.
A stray word a hand motion can give you insight into alot.
Yet why I wrote this really was to let you all Know. I am here for you.
you may not know me. Nor care for me if you do
Yet I am the shoulder to lean on and cry
I am the friend to vent and rant to
I will be there to pick you up when you fall
I will be the one to wipe your tears away
I will be the one to guy who you can confide in
I am the ear to hear your problems
Anything you had done to you in your past... I more then likely have had some sort of the same. My poem is true. I been beaten I been broken and much more... inclueding molsested.
My past is my own and I do not expact you to tell me anything you do not wish. Just know if anyone needs that one person to lisen to you... I am that guy.
OMG MASSIVE NEED OF HELP
General | Posted 17 years agoOMG *runs arounce like crazy* this very very lovely bobcat I been talking to for a few days now just told me last night that today was her B-DAY LIKE OMFG she could have given me more warning you know
NOW i am running around like mad trying to think of something I can do for her and I turning up blank @__@
I wanna draw her something but we all know how well I do at that at the moment. NOT really good though I admit now that I put some will behind it I am getting slowly better.
*flushes* lets say me and her have a game going on hehe and its my turn to up the heat in some pics were throwing back and forth.
I already though up a plan for this mwahah I just have to wait for the cupcake to cool xD I think she will love the candle *winks*
So LIKE can anyone help me just throw together a little pic to wish her a happy B-day *gives massive puppy wolf eyes* PLEASE
NOW i am running around like mad trying to think of something I can do for her and I turning up blank @__@
I wanna draw her something but we all know how well I do at that at the moment. NOT really good though I admit now that I put some will behind it I am getting slowly better.
*flushes* lets say me and her have a game going on hehe and its my turn to up the heat in some pics were throwing back and forth.
I already though up a plan for this mwahah I just have to wait for the cupcake to cool xD I think she will love the candle *winks*
So LIKE can anyone help me just throw together a little pic to wish her a happy B-day *gives massive puppy wolf eyes* PLEASE
