OMg I am litraly at work as I write this to you-__-

AND I flippen have nothing to do.. I done it all... I have nothing to do*falls over * X__X

I have nobody to talk to... to busy with finals other work extra whatever activites-__-

SO i sitting here and like.."damn I got no life"

I need something to so And don't say draw something>.< I suck at that and everybody I talk to knows it.

So anyone wanna talk... OR think of something to help this poor wolf out.(that won't get me into trouble with my job and or police>.>)

Thank you.. You loveing
Puppetmaster

Gah I hate it when I can't sleep-__- damn nocturnal WOLF><

yea yea most of you are like WTF. well to be blunt wheither you belive this or not. I am a therainthrope(sp?) Yes Its a wolf. Timber wolf if I got that much out if him.

BUT well I live in day he likes the twilight hours through the night till morn-__-
SO me and him get into fights
Yes he is at times like another being inside my head and others we are as one.

So blah blah belive be or not I can;t sleep. YEt I am also bored as hell. ALOT. I mean video games and reading only take up so much time before my eyes bug out and wanna kill me.

I trying to think of something fun... sorta a contest thing. For me and my watchers. Or hell anyone xD I can't draw so thats out
My photgraphy is on the halt till my mother gives me back my camera><

AND IDK what to do fir a prize for the one deemed the winner>.>

I could use some help lol. Maybe some feedback on what I can do at least for a prize. IDK maybe I do some stupid funny pic for the winner xD his/her choice of pose or something and I have to let them post it or something. *shrugs* I doubt that would be good at all but blah-__-

I got pleanty of ideas for Contest just need some help with a prize... hmmmm

When all hope is lost
When all faith is gone
You are still not alone
No, you are never alone
For a single light still shines bright
A single beacon in the dark
As long as you still have me
You'll never be alone

Whenever your life seems to hard
and you start crying yourself to sleep
remember me, smiling at you
remember me, laughing with you
remember me, crying with you
the pain will pass, but my smile will remain
forever

Well this was made for a friend who is going through a rough time. Yet I send this to all the people who are having a rough time. IF anyone ever needs to talk or just someone to rant to. I am here

Wow me thinking now thats scary lol

ANYWHO I was sitting here at work witch at the moment I still am as I write this lol. I sipping my energy drink as if anyone cares about that so I am hyper.

I always looking for someone to draw me something cause I have NO TALENT when it comes to drawing. At the moment I am so broke its not funny. Yet what money I do have to spare is going to what I like to call " The Get out of this hell hole money" *dose a spin* anyway So I can't commision anything though I hope to in time.

SO onto my point if anyone still reading at this moment. NOt already guessing what I am about to ask.

I would love to ask some Artist to draw me a pic or two>.> I not going to put details here cause its useless if I don't get anyone intrested.


NOw I not one to Ask and not be willing to give something back. I am a photographer so I take lots of pics. If I can I do something for you with my camera IDK what I can do but if its within my power to do it I will.

or something else we can agree on*shrugs* So If anyone still reading this and or intrested in giving this a shot then eirther comment here or shoot me a Pm or something

well not many know me here for I guess I am relitivly new to submiting either journals and or pics of my photography.

Yet I feel as if I have to get this off my chest or I may well just break down and cry once again.

Well to be honest to both you the reader and my friend who is taking me in when I finaly move(thank you My dragonking xD)

I have to say my relationships SUCK ASS. I mean I been through.. alot and I hit one finaly that lasted a good almost three years maybe a little under three... Then suddenly.. it was just over. NO fight
no wrning
no nothing
Just one day we were about to go to a movie and she just after told me it was over... at first I thought she was joking cause she had that smile on her face you know a joke like things so I laughed and just said " ok sweetie yea its so over" in my sarcastic vioce then she stopped me and went all stony on me and told me no for real it was over

Of course I was dumbfonded and went through the stages of " what did I do. What the Fuck . And Then tears" (yea real mans man me Crying in public)

anywho its been three months er a little more now... and I found the most amazing person I think I met in a long time. ME and her hit it off off the bat really. (lol seconed persnol msg to her and I felt something right)
and we talked a long time. well I had a few things on the side you know nothing much and well Then we finaly decided to say "cool were together you know"

Anywho to make a long story short before i JUST BORE YOU ALL TO DEATH sorry>.> Though to wake you up
*cough* We.. can't be togetherr for reasons I don't wish to get into
YET this space apart (planned on meeting her IRL soon but) is really justtesting how we feel about one another to see if are love is well true and such

BUT we are both very phiscal people(furs whatever we think we are at the moment xD)

SO me and her agreed to see other people and just enjoy the closness of others and basicly yiff who we want so to say(though limited to close close friends)

Yet.. I really don't have any friends once I told them what I was and showed them the fandom.... *sighs* They think I am a freak now... and just tolerate me. I used to well be abile to sit in a room with my girly friends and they would undress in front of me ect and sometimes more when they were horny. (still virgin >.> just fingers and toung I used)

now well.. I got nobody other hten my friends who just otlerate me. THEN I about to move soon to my friend in Canada (again thank you fro getting me out of this hell hole) BUt to be frank the only person I know is him... and He is great and all but.. I going to be just a s lonely there as I am here... *rubs head* I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't be with the one I know I love.
I don't have anyone that I close enough to anymore to basicly even consider yiffing or doing anything of the sort(yea I sound really male right there but blah)

so there is my rant/ whatever tear staned page of diary you want.

So *shrugs* IDk if anyones got advise for a broken heart or lonelyness but if you do I be glad to hear it

lol WELL anyway as my title says its really earily here... only 8am right now. Though I been up since 6am. God I hate my stepfather.
YEt lets not get onto that>.>

Well I not a person to do many journals so to say though never having one might have been the problem. I may or may not do some more of this.

BUt really onto the main point of why I writting this*rubs head * what was it....... Oh yea basicly to say hi to all of the people who are watching me now*winks* Just keep things clean... or not lol

All the people who added some of my pics to there fav list. I so happy that you all enjoy them also. So hmm I guess a little about me is in order

Alrighty If you haven't looekd at my profile or what not I am
name: Aaron Though prefur Velacruise or Puppetmaster xD
age: 19
hobbies: to damn many. But READING comes out on top and photagraphy are my top to
sex: male. Single.
Likes: friendly people, pasta, anime xD and many more
dislikes: to much sweet things (like candy) my brothers>.< And being human

Well thats me. If you have anything you wish to ask me go right ahead and do so. I a very open wolf