a newest I draw last night can't submit here for 'not allow cub porn' but I still need to put on show.
here the place I put it in https://inkbunny.net/submissionview.php?id=614599

hopefully you enjoy the view, see ya next time.

I'm still alive just so busy with a various stuff.

I still can't find any good (and cheap) tablet for replace the broken old one, that thank to my nephew (that little fucking bastard threw my electric pen as if it was a rocket) so I draw my stuff in paper pad but it not satisfy my taste for not colors it.
If you want to see my new complete work it's not possible for a while but still can see normal drawing in scrap section.

I'll say it again 'I'm still alive'

So funny and silly that I think I can do somethings important to save a social I love the most and turn it back to the way it use to be.
And see, I'm another fucking failure and everythings seem crushing on me now.
A work not good just fine with it.
A love life was suck I knew he just found someone else behind my back, fine..go ahead with that new fucking slut. I'm not important to him much to see if he not wanted just get his rock off.
A friends I have are not worth my trust anymore.

What a life I have, full of shit or something?
I lost my goal, my trust, my faith.
It's all gone...and I will never look back when I start to walk away.

I'm not felt good lately.
Sort of not satified on somethings.
It's like....'there no any place for me' when I'm in chatting or around a group of friends. No one really pay attention when I said or ackhowledge and just leave me alone.
I walk away from every place I felt like I'm can't be there even how hard I try and it just make me felt much more sick and tried. But what? Why They just not leave me alone as they already did and continue this fucking cycle again and again.

Lately I'm busy with a work and not wanted to stand and watch them enjoy themself.
Hope I can leave them completely not cause I'm not intend to sick my mental too after I'm so tried with work.

Not a new year yet but I mean my birthday.
Even I'm getting older but look like I'm not old as my age.(a habit too :P)
For this year I'll go WILD.

Prepare yourself my buddy, I gonna ride you till you cry for stop.

Yes, if you looking for a bookmark or a things to play with for kill a time just don't count me in.

Wanted a fuck buddy.....that fine for me.
Use a 'Love' word to get me into it.......that just kill a mood and my feeling.

Please, next time to every one who just only want a sex just stop tell me love just to get me bedding with you. Tell me what you want from the start and you will get it if I can give.

PS. To 'You' if you come and read this.
I knew it you not lie about your life but you lie a love you just said to me cause I got a key to piece a
line and reveal a true now. I'm not your bookmark.

So don't afraid to give me some advice or comment. I want to be better and your comment can improve me so much.
Don't be so shy or worries you will start some drama cause I like to see your feeling for my pieces and as I said I'm not biting.

As I told you before I'm in the closet and never coming out for sure. I knew my family not take it very well cause they're short of anti-gay.
When they ask me why I'm not got a girl already I just told them 'I'm not in rush' or 'No find a good one' but in my mind I had a reason for myself.
Why do I need to live with a lie that gonna hurt not just myself but every one if I'm pretend to be straight, yes keep lie to be straight for solve a small problem but will got a very huge problem coming at door step. How it can hide longer and when a secret was leaking isn't it hurt my mate to be use as a cover my own sexuality not counting for my kids feeling too. and more importantly it will eat me alive to be someone I don't want to be as well.
Homosexual or at least bi not a bad things but this make me got a hard time now.



PS. I like Lady Gaga and my folk told me I'm so gay,Why?

If you ask me what I wanted...well.
Hot...Hard....and Wild.

Why I never find the right one to be my BF or GF?
Mostly they just want to get into my pant then walk away like nothing happen, where is the love?
If they want me to change for them I must say a big 'NO' instead cause if they really love me then they should accept for who I was, beside I never go into bad habit so why I need to change.

Now I'm start to afraid to find someone if it mean not to be who I am.

Any request I take will done a little late cause I got some problem about Photoshop.

Damn the weather, what happening to it?
In my home town we knew our summer longer than any town in country but this year seem like it never ending yet. If temperature keep raising like this I'm sure to take off my cloth and walk around just a short for sure. :P

Very bad luck for a week.
First skidding from doorstep to mid-road when I took my belove motorcycle out.
And now some idiot talking a cellphone while riding bump into my motorcycle and make it totally broken.

F**king God, If you don't like me just kill me instead.
Why you doom my wallet so much.(not count a minor injure)

Owww....please made it go away.

เจอมรสุมชีวิตจนได้เพลง ทะเลใจ มาให้เข้ากับอารมณ์
จากที่แค่ทะเลาะกันเล็กๆน้อยๆของพี่น้องที่เป็นเรื่องปกติ
กลายเป็นลุกลามใหญ่โตจนถึงขั้นลงไม้ลงมือ
แล้วคนที่ผิดก็จากไปโดยไม่ได้สำนึกผิด ถึงจะดูน่าสงสารแต่ก็สงสารไม่ลงอีก
กลืนไม่เข้าคายไม่ออกจริงๆ

หลังจากนี้คงจะไม่ได้เจอกันอีกแล้ว มันน่าเศร้าที่คนในครอบครัวกำลังเดินทางผิดแต่ช่วยกันหยุดยั้งไม่ได้จนเลยเถิด
ตอนนี้สิ่งเดียวที่ทำได้แค่ ขอให้ไปดี ถ้าหมดหนทางก็กลับมาอย่างปลอดภัยเท่านั้น
นี่คือสายใยของครอบครัวที่มีเหลือแล้ว


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 tigersad
Thank you for drawing a Christmas theme for me little bro.
For a next year is.....rabbits.
Hope I can do it just in time (I mean not too late for the season :P)

I'm never felt so free with anti homo of my folk.
They always forced me do what they want than what I want to be.
Now every one see me as a good boy but inside I wanna scream like "F**k you all'.
I just want to wear any coat I want, do any hobbies I like, Screw with my secret boyfriend with out fear to kick out, And more than anything just be myself.

OMG, Hope the day of freedom coming asap.

I'm free from duties now.
Just retried from military but it not end too good.

Got an injure while sending in a battlefield.
not much damage but made me uncomfortable a bit.

And after mission ending I'm retried.
Wow that day I'll never forgot it for the rest of my life.
It was my birthday.

Thanks god for a gift.

After join a military for a good fucking 5 months.
I have to guarding an important person and well...get a bomb.
Lucky that seem not enough to kill me.
But a boring must.
Just waited and waited and at November I'll be free.
Thanks god.