What's up? So, a lot has happened, and I've met a lot of people.
I'm a changed man! Huzzah!
But yeah, good chance only three people will actually aknowledge this. So... Yeah, I'm back. Kind of. Not really. On a new account. Wanted a fresh start. So... If you still wanna be my friend, my new username is JayDragon07

Bye!

My bronchitis still persists.. and it sucks.

Alas, I have shingles, and it sucks and hurts like hell. And I mean hurts, like if you've ever had a knife stabbed into your body, anywhere, it's like that, only in my gut... And there is a probability that the pain could last for several years, even with the shingles gone...

I was rejected recently... It sucks.. I've already finished three things of triple chocolate mousse ice cream... Still not feeling good..

um... I'm still playing league of legends. If anyone would care to play with me...

And, that's all I can think of...

Just started playing. Have no idea what I'm doing. If anyone would be willing to play with, please do, I need help.

Username is JayDragon07, just so you know.

I am back from the beach, Baby! It was awesome! Got sunburned a lot, but did that stop me from getting sand in my shorts? Yes it did! But for most of the days I beached it up, got wet. (in more ways than one, yoho!)

So, how's been the peeps that are furaffinity members who watched me?

I am totally back into guys! He is awesome, and wonderful, and awesome, and cute, and awesome, and sweet, and awesome, and hot, and awesome, and smart, and awesome, and open-minded, and awesome, and sensitive, and awesome, and muscled, and awesome, and athletic, and awesome, did I mention he's awesome!?

Happiest day of my life, while also the saddest. Who the fuck needs perfection anyways!? I got perfection anyways, and his name is flipping KEVIN!!!!

Couldn't find a girl, and now the perfect guy won't talk to me. I'm just gonna give up on love.. I know what you're gonna say or think, I'm sooo young, too young. But I have experiance for my age, and I am thinking of just giving up... On love.

Excellent book in my opinion. Pleasant read. Well, it's sad, but still, a good read. Def recommend.

I really feel like going on there and mentioning I'm gay. Wonder what will happen.
jk

Okay, it's cool. I'm fine being gay. (fucking screw you...)

Will be graduation at my high school. I will lose three of the greatest guys I had ever met, and will forever love. And I'd say at least 92% of my friends. Gotta get through it though. If I ever want my love known, I must be strong, and tell him.

So, I apparantly have a severe case of bronchitis, and fluid has filled my ear canals causing pressure on my brain, giving me terrible headaches. I am going to have to see a specialist for the fluid. As for the bronchitis, I am taking an antibiotic. Would suck if I developed pneumonia.

And I had to miss out in performing in the district-wide chorus concert. That also sucks.

Hm... What else?

My father just gave his full views on my homosexuality. I want to do something rash, but is it worth it? Maybe...

I am so confident in saying that no movie has ever made me feel sadder. I could truly not stop crying for like an hour or longer. And sobbed. Excellent movie, truly superb. One of the best in my opinion. It's so well acted.

You really learn to love their relationship, and then your heart gets torn up into bits and boiled in acid... Hate ignorance. With a passion.

Great movie though.

I regret nothing! Jk, sorry to anyone who has a problem with this, voice it and I will take it down. (like M...)

LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Jason Alarovich
- Eye Color: Hazel
- Hair Style/Color: Um... Kinda short, natural black, longer on the top, shorter on the sides.
- Height: 6'1"
- Clothing style: The, what some people call, "feminine approach". I call it the "expressing yourself to the extreme" style.
- Best physical feature: My smile.

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: The dark, soooo much..
- Your guilty pleasure: Reading young adult literature. Kidding, watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, although I shouldn't be guilty about that.
- Your biggest pet peeve: When I say something, and I guess it was akward, and my friends get quiet and look away.
- Your ambitions for the future: To be married.

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: "I WILL tell him." And then I don't... XD
- What you think about most: A special guy, yeah, lately I'm all about the crushes.
- What you think about before bed: My day, what happened, who I met, what I did.
- You think your best quality is: Um.... That is tough.. I say, my loyalty, and my love. It is truly undying. So much so, you might get annoyed with it.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT'S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Single, I guess. Never been on one really, but I think for a starter, I would like single.
- To be loved or respected: Well, I have been respected all my life for the negative things I have handled. I want someone to love me, for the positive things about me. I say to be loved.
- Beauty or brains: Both. But average brains, as for beauty, so much so.
- Dogs or cats: Again tough. I say dragons.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: Yes. To hide my feelings. *blush*
- Believe in yourself: I have spent two years crushing on someone, and have not had the balls to say "Hi." I am the least self-esteemed person you will ever meet who does theater.
- Believe in love: Oh my goodness yes, SO MUCH SOO!
- Want someone: .......um.. well, maybe..

LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: I have been a part of three high school musicals, and I have acted in several plays produced in our towns theater. Plus, I have drama class in school, and we usually have class in the auditorium.
- Done drugs: Maybe... No, never.
- Changed who you were to fit in: I sometimes wish I did, maybe I could've had some friends, but after truly realizing how worthless it is to have hundreds of friends who don't know the real you, compared to three or four friends who do know you, I am happy with the way I am.

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Green!
- Favorite animal: Dragons.
- Favorite movie: Dragonheart.
- Favorite game: Final Fantasy VIII (8), the best FF. Screw VII (7). Maybe X (10), it was really good. But my fav is VIII (8) forever.

LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday you will be: Wednesday, otherwise known as "Hump Day". XP
- How old will you be: 18.
- Age you lost your virginity: 17, um...
- Does age matter: I wanna say no, but to be honest. Older guys intimidate me. I feel paranoid, thinking they look at me as some kid who's nothing. And younger people are just annoying.

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: Someone who is real, but they try to be as caring and considerate as possible.
- Best eye color: Blue. *blush*
- Best hair color: Blonde.
- Best thing to do with a partner: Just... holding each other. Loving each other. I don't know how to say it.. But like, just staring at each other, and wordlessly saying everything. Aknowledging that bond the two of you have, something a single envies.

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: someone, but I won't give his name till he either rejects me, or accepts me.
- I feel: scared, and yet somewhat excited.
- I hide: my love...
- I miss: the best guy I ever met, who loved me, but I made the biggest mistake, and now he won't ever talk to me...
- I wish: a lot of things, but I feel the wish I wish the most, is that I wish I had a reason.

LAYER ELEVEN: I TAG
- everyone. have fun.

I feel like ranting, but I don't know what to rant about... Hmm, funeral? Sure. So, I found it kinda rediculous when.. Nevermind. Um, well, I saw a cat today. He was crossing the road while I was walking to school. Crazy right? Anyway, when you hear this question, how would you answer? "Are you going to cross this line?" I will post a little prompt up here, and see how you answer, is that okay? I don't think it is. Few people ever really do comment on my journals. Heh, rejection on this site, that humors me. Or maybe... Anyway, so, that's your first prompt, I'm excited to see your replies.

Moving on, I don't know what to get my bffitwwwrtw (best friend forever in the world who will rule the world) for her birthday. She likes spontaneous things. Well, anyone have a spontaneous thought? Maybe...

You ever messed up so bad, you had no way of fixing the mistake, and so you must rely on the person you messed up on, to forgive you, but you don't think he will? I think I now just realized why you guys don't comment much on my journels!! To the idea closet!

When you like the guy who bullies you for your sexuality, and is a huge jerk?

What the hell is wrong with walking with good posture?

Finally, for once, Monday is gonna be the greatest day ever!

Anybody interested in hearing my latest story!?

In my government class, my teacher (THE most awesome teacher ever) moved our seats after taking a test.

And guess who I get to sit next to...

Kyle

This is what happened after I sat,
Me: (thoughts)"You must contain yourself." *jizzes pants* "Crap, that is not containing yourself..."

Kyle : "What's that smell?"

1.)
Thank you Tivo for recording Glee so I could watch it, for I was busy on Tuesday.

2.) Holy shit! Charice! She is amazing! Way to go Oprah!
Aww, and the football guy is the next gay guy, he's sweet, but way to make a wrong decision! Plus, Beiste, I like her. She's sensitive, but kick ass.

3.) Gonna be an awesome season!

I know what I'm doing over the weekend!

PLAYING KINGDOM HEARTS BIRTH BY SLEEP!!!

I have not played a new Kingdom Hearts since the second, so I'm a little psyched!! (big fan, obviously)

Also, I am sad, like crying sad, cus I witnessed my crush kissing a girl....

Equally conflicting emotions...Joy, and misery..

My ass has felt very weird since I had a dick go up it... Good weird, not bad.

..Don't worry, it's none of you guys. Just someone in my school. He's caught my attention only recently.

But I have no idea wether or not he's homosexual... I've known him actually for awhile, and by all I know, he's never had a girlfriend yet, so I don't know... I'm afraid to outright ask him!

But he's so dreamy... He's big, he plays football (or he used to, he quit cus of concussions), and muscles, murr... Everytime I see him, my pants get tight, and I oogle a bit. He's so masculine. Testosterone crazy. Blond hair, very handsome, well-built (in more than just muscle, I'm sure. ), not a total moron, like he ish kinda smart, very funny though. I love his humor, so clever... Also, he's kind, sensitive, but he's tough too, like, he is a very nice guy, but you should never get him mad. But I've never seen him mad, now that I think about it. He's into motorcycles, I actually thought one day of just looking up stuff on motorcycles, just to impress him, or have a conversation that will catch his interest.

I picture him in my mind so much, with a bit of drool when I get really into it (maybe cum, atleast, when I picture him shirt-less, or nude, more bare-chested though, cus the torso is what really attracts me, nice big biceps, massive pecs... I sometimes stare when we change for gym). I think he's been in my wet dreams as well.

Does this sound wrong? Thinking of a guy like this, am I being to stalkerish, or maybe too hopeful. I don't even know if he likes me. Nor if he's even gay. This crush might just lead to me getting heartbroken....

Maybe I'll just stick to a long distance relationship, without him ever knowing. Just to stare, and dream...



Sincerely yours,
Jason


# Oh, and his name is Kyle , if it matters to anyone.

Me have Yahoo! It's dragonlcver[at]yahoo.com
You don't have to care about this, nor even read it, which would be odd, cus the only way you could've known I didn't mind, is by reading it. You don't even have to look me up...