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Posted 3 years agoHello, been a really long time since I've posted a journal. Nearly 2 years, damn.
In that time I've gotten a real job, one which I work a lot of overtime on, and I frequent the gym now, 6 days a week typically. Sure you can see where this is going. I have like, no free time anymore.
Would be really interesting to see how many people are still interested in see new art of Nerif, as that's my last driving force to post here. I've gotten a couple commissions that I havn't uploaded, I like writing up a nice description and everything, I feel it adds a lot. Takes a long time though, and I'm always so tired by the time I get home. So I just keep procrastinating and putting it off.
Expect a couple notifications from me as I russle through discord DMs to find the pictures, I finally have time with 4th of July weekend to catch up a bit, these pics are going to go into my scraps. The last thing I have to upload is a new ref for Nerif, but it'll be a bit. Got some things to do first
Hope you've all been well,
Nooduhl
In that time I've gotten a real job, one which I work a lot of overtime on, and I frequent the gym now, 6 days a week typically. Sure you can see where this is going. I have like, no free time anymore.
Would be really interesting to see how many people are still interested in see new art of Nerif, as that's my last driving force to post here. I've gotten a couple commissions that I havn't uploaded, I like writing up a nice description and everything, I feel it adds a lot. Takes a long time though, and I'm always so tired by the time I get home. So I just keep procrastinating and putting it off.
Expect a couple notifications from me as I russle through discord DMs to find the pictures, I finally have time with 4th of July weekend to catch up a bit, these pics are going to go into my scraps. The last thing I have to upload is a new ref for Nerif, but it'll be a bit. Got some things to do first
Hope you've all been well,
Nooduhl
Quick Update To Nerif!
Posted 5 years agoHeya! I did a quick update to his ref :3 Not sure why he didn't have it before, but It's now canon that he has foreskin! Woo!
I'd like to hear your thoughts on something
Posted 5 years agoHeyo!
I've been saving up money for a new computer, working, doing adult stuff, as you do. Though, falling into this routine each day has given me a lot of time to think about random things. Namely, my retreating youth, and how my perspective on life has slowly shifted. What I mean to ask you revolves around that.
For as long as I can remember, I've always played video games. I can always look back on those times with that childhood wonderment, where everything was magical and new, interesting. I could play them for hours and hours, all day even! If given the opportunity. I never got tired of them, smiling and having a good time.
When compared to how I see games now, It's almost a harrowing thought for me. I play them much less often, I derive less fun from them, and I can't stand to marathon them. I feel like I'm slowly turning into a husk, as they were one of the view things I could rely on for a good time. They made for a fantastic escape from day to day life.
When I look at my steam library now, I almost view it as a time capsule of the kid that I used to be, and how I'll never get those times back. I would get so excited to play them, which is an intangible feeling to me now, It's been so long since I was excited like that.
In the abstract, I must look like an idiot when I come home and stare at my computer, unsure of what I actually want to do. Just looking at my game library, or pacing around my house without a real purpose. Nothing's going on inside my head whenever I do these things, my conscience just seems to escape into limbo for a while.
My question to you guys is if any of what I've described sounds relatable, and if so, do you have a way with coping with feelings like this?
I really don't want to become a moping, boring adult that just comes home, turns their brain off, and watches tv for 3 hours before passing out. That sounds like a horrible existence, I'd like to avoid that at all costs :v
Thank you sincerely for taking the time to read this, I hope you have a good rest of your day <3
- Nerif
I've been saving up money for a new computer, working, doing adult stuff, as you do. Though, falling into this routine each day has given me a lot of time to think about random things. Namely, my retreating youth, and how my perspective on life has slowly shifted. What I mean to ask you revolves around that.
For as long as I can remember, I've always played video games. I can always look back on those times with that childhood wonderment, where everything was magical and new, interesting. I could play them for hours and hours, all day even! If given the opportunity. I never got tired of them, smiling and having a good time.
When compared to how I see games now, It's almost a harrowing thought for me. I play them much less often, I derive less fun from them, and I can't stand to marathon them. I feel like I'm slowly turning into a husk, as they were one of the view things I could rely on for a good time. They made for a fantastic escape from day to day life.
When I look at my steam library now, I almost view it as a time capsule of the kid that I used to be, and how I'll never get those times back. I would get so excited to play them, which is an intangible feeling to me now, It's been so long since I was excited like that.
In the abstract, I must look like an idiot when I come home and stare at my computer, unsure of what I actually want to do. Just looking at my game library, or pacing around my house without a real purpose. Nothing's going on inside my head whenever I do these things, my conscience just seems to escape into limbo for a while.
My question to you guys is if any of what I've described sounds relatable, and if so, do you have a way with coping with feelings like this?
I really don't want to become a moping, boring adult that just comes home, turns their brain off, and watches tv for 3 hours before passing out. That sounds like a horrible existence, I'd like to avoid that at all costs :v
Thank you sincerely for taking the time to read this, I hope you have a good rest of your day <3
- Nerif
Birthday On The Horizon!
Posted 5 years agoI've already let a few of my FA friends now, but my birthday is coming up on the 12th :3 Basically a week away!
Nothing especially interesting changes from 18 → 19, but I'm excited regardless. One step closer to a new computer :v Hopefully I can counteract my commission addiction with extra gift money from relatives.
Thanks for taking the time to read this!
You all have a good rest of your day! <3
- Nerif~
Nothing especially interesting changes from 18 → 19, but I'm excited regardless. One step closer to a new computer :v Hopefully I can counteract my commission addiction with extra gift money from relatives.
Thanks for taking the time to read this!
You all have a good rest of your day! <3
- Nerif~
Just had my wisdoms out!
Posted 5 years agoI want to say firstly that I appreciate all the nice things that i've gotten about Nerif, it's really cool to see that you guys like him so much! I sincerely appreciate all the kind words!
With that being said though, it may take me a bit to respond to notes, comments, shouts and the like, Since i'm being told to avoid activity right now, and i'll likely stay bedridden for the next few days at least. Drinking protein shakes and eating applesauce, with the occasional lob of ice cream mixed in :v
Love you guys! I'll respond to all your nice messages asap!
-Nerif
With that being said though, it may take me a bit to respond to notes, comments, shouts and the like, Since i'm being told to avoid activity right now, and i'll likely stay bedridden for the next few days at least. Drinking protein shakes and eating applesauce, with the occasional lob of ice cream mixed in :v
Love you guys! I'll respond to all your nice messages asap!
-Nerif
