https://discord.gg/ASaYcjEdVw
Forgot to post this earlier LOL there be the new link!

^{*small as in there's not going to really be "that much" change on the surface, this is one of those "has deeper layers" kinds of changes}

So, those of you part of my Discord Server know the more intimate details; least to say I've been... going through a time lately, and I've been doing a lot of thinking, a lot of pondering, a lot of behind-the-scenes decision-making. After, I suppose, "praying" on it for some time... I'm finally ready to commit to the changes I want to make. Or at the very least, the start of them. Even I don't fully know what decisions lie ahead, but that's part of the journey, and the fun, I suppose.

This journal is, more or less, the courtesy "heads up" to avoid blindsiding you all as much as possible. Whilst that'll certainly be fun to do in the stories I want to write, that's not my vibe when it comes to me-stuff.

- Reclaiming the PYC-Art name.
So yeah, I went through... am going through, a, thing? With my usernames? I can't seem to settle on one, whilst the many I've trialed did feel good and sincerely reflected some part of my personality, they always felt like... appearances, not so much masks as... roles, I wanted to play? Not out of any desire to deceive, but rather just a genuine exploration of, well, who I am and who I'm not. My OG, so simple and straightforward and brutally honest- initials followed by the discipline- I suppose, after typing that, it does feel more true. More me. So... fuck it, old habits die hard or something I guess; my first step will be retiring the SnoopKatt name to an old alias and-or fun nickname. So that's step one.

- Establishing Bingusaurus as their own entity.
Bingusaurus (or, as they started out, "Snoop") the fun pink loveable shapeshifter, was sincerely made as an honest representation of myself. Or more accurately, aspects of myself, aspects I wanted to hone and highlight; sweetness, friendliness, openness, kindness... so on so forth. It was honest, but I've learned (or perhaps more bitterly, acknowledged) it is not the whole truth... or at least, not my truth. However, just because Bingusaurus was "another mask," doesn't mean I haven't grown deeply fond of them and what they symbolize, what they mean. So, I want to honor Bingusaurus by converting them into their own individual, unique character: like Donkey Kong, or Sonic, or any other myriad of 'simple honest character design' that applies: a fun, pink, bubbly shapeshifting dinosaur. It's a work in progress, but I'm glad to finally start.

- *New Mascot, *New Persona; New **Fursona.
*Revived is perhaps more accurate. Some of you remember the name, though I wager most of you are unfamiliar with my long standing Ego, my "I," the Dragon and the Castle, Pyke. (Courtesy-courtesy warning: crazy lady ramblings begin here, feel free to scroll/tune out.) She never left. She's always been there, the looming Shadow of consciousness, the Singularity of Me. All that I repress, all that I embody, all that I crave and all that I am. She may evolve, but she's never changed. Masquerades and lies are merely a part of her total, the surface droplets of a deep and all-capturing reflection of Self. The Voice of Temptation and Testament; are You ready for this? Can You walk through the fire? Are You ready to let the old burn? For the first time in years, I gazed into those pools of crimson, slitted like a Fox's, and I said yes. Pyke will be reinstalled as both the chosen Mascot for the PYC-Art name, and be reclaimed as the closest thing I would truly call, a Persona.
**Fursona isn't an entirely honest description of what it is, but, closest enough? I do have another face I intend to present, not as a "mask," but another sincere reflection of myself... just a little less, ah, Pyke-y. (That'll make sense in time, hahaha.) Some of you know I've been getting into Werewolf: The Apocolypse, and fewer of you yet know I've been a lifelong werewolf enthusiast. No, I was that weirdo werewolf chick as a kid; researching all the "forbidden lores" (kids fantasy books, yannow, for kids) so I could "learn how to become a werewolf" and all that fun innocent jazz... all this being a great big winding buildup to say: I'm making myself as a Garou. So you'll be seeing that too, and since she is just "me" in "another world," I'm very okay with her settling as my "Fursona." (9ft snarling Crinos form is passable enough for "furry," right?)

- Reclaiming my profile.
Whilst what is there was placed with a sincere and heavy heart... like a beloved plant twisted and overgrown, it smothers the potential for new growth, for change, and thusly must be uprooted. I haven't fully decided what I will do to honor my deceased loved ones, truth be told, I am not the sort who ever enjoyed or particularly drew comfort from public grieving. I don't think I want to make any public, accessible wall, or post, or feature for those I grieve. I may still yet end up doing so, but for now at least... I am content in my heart to simply cherish and hold the memories, the feelings, We shared together. I think, in my heart of hearts, those passed would feel joy at the notion of someone they once cared about still down here, moving forward. So, I will be wiping my profile, and reconstructing it completely to what best suits me. (This also means a complete wipe and redo of the personal information.)

- New Discord account, new Discord Server.
This should proooobably be higher up, but, I'm going to make an @/everyone post in the current (soon-to-be-former) server, so... I think I'm adding this one here more as a courtesy than anything. However, this does also come with: as some of you know, I have a "personal, non-business" account to the side as well. Both this account, and my current snoopkatt business account, will be abandoned. I won't delete them outright, but I want to break free of my old shells and shackles. I will end up making another "private" discord account, but that will only be shared with a select few, through invite-only.
Edit: because I realized I worded this a little badly. The new server WILL NOT be invite-only! Only my private second account will be invite-only. The business face is open to all! (Who are 18+ of course.)

- This will not affect commissions.
No more than my recovery period was going to already, which I consider this a critical part of. Thank you so much everyone for your patience. It's going to take me a some time to go about setting up the new server after publishing this journal, but I'll be keeping everyone updated on the current(-to-become-former) server as to what's happening and whatnot.

That's about the meat of it I think... Thank you all so so much for all the support, truly, I completely lack the words to express the gratitude I have for you all. Without you guys, none of this would be possible; not my personal growth journey, not my art business, nothing. You guys are the backbone of my life, and I hope I'll be able to return the favor through the many artworks I'm going to make through the years.

Until the next one! Drink water and take care of yourself!
~ PYC-Art

I'm honestly making this journal moreso for me than others, but I do feel a sense of duty and obligation to say this out loud, if not purely for transparency and honesty's sake.
I'm going to make some obvious statements in this Journal, but it'll feel better to finally have them out in the open, once and for all.

I can't draw fast anymore.
Truth is, I'm struggling to draw at all.
It's... a feeling, considering my entire career was established on my ability to be able to produce multiple artworks in a speedy manner.

I've been trying for months, and months, and months to regain my prior arting abilities. (Meaning, being able to draw for long consistent hours.)
It's not happening. In fact, the attempts are actively making my (drawing) arm situation even worse.
Each drawing session (when I'm trying to be speedy [i.e. my "usual" self]) has been gradually shrinking more and more. I can just barely, on a good day, draw for 2 hours. Before that horrid lightning bolt of white-hot pain shoots down my arm. (Part of me is suspecting potential nerve damage due to the nature of the pain - no confirmation though, and unlikely to get it.)
The pain, when it hits, is bad enough to scare me off drawing for several days at a time. I can doodle, and sketch, and loosely otherwise fuck around relatively okay... but the moment it comes to a piece that requires dedicated attention and quality standards (meaning, colored pieces, not easy scribbly sketches) I'm instantly on a time-limit. A time limit I have minimal control or say over, and it seems to be getting worse.

So... I'm throwing in the towel. You win, body. If this is what it takes to be able to keep drawing, so be it.

I am henceforth, officially and unquestionably, a SLOW ARTIST.
I no longer promise speed or efficiency, because I physically can no longer offer it.
I understand this is going to be a dealbreaker for some, and that's completely understandable. I sincerely hope you're able to find another artist who is able to deliver speedy, quality works.
That artist just will not, can not, be me anymore.

Henceforth, due to the fact I want to be able to keep making art without physically breaking myself, I will be approaching all artworks (paid or not) with a leisurely pace. Not out of laziness, but prevention.
This will result in me re-assessing my current commission prices and how I price them, as well as how I will generally take commissions/make openings. I have no solid details on these yet, but I will be as open and transparent about any decisions I make at the time I make them.

Well, ah... that's pretty much about the sum of it. :"D
Thank you if you've read this far, and I hope you're having a wonderful day/night!
Remember to drink water today! Until the next Journal! o/

What's the most attractive thing about art to you?
Is it [the] artist[s] style? Technical skill? Emotion/expression? Pose? Proportions? Colors? New/innovative concepts and ideas?

And tagging onto that, how does that tie in with which artists you choose to follow? If at all?
(And why?)

I'm very curious to read your answers! 👀🧐

I'm just putting this Journal up as a precaution.
If there ever comes a day where I need to provide my ID to access the internet, I will be disappearing until either: I've found a way around it, or, it's reversed.
Because, bluntly: fuck that. No, I'm not kowtowing to nanny state bullshit.

Now, do I think this will actually come to pass? Nah, not really. But with how stupid everything's gone... well, that's what this journal is for.

No other update otherwise. Just wanna make sure no one's left wondering in the worst case scenario.
Hope you're all having a great day/night!

I'm not deleting anything! Nor am I intending to; don't worry!!
It's all just going to be put in scraps, and current folders will be either deleted or reorganized.
Why am I doing this? Well, simply, I'd like a fresh start! I'd like to rebuild my gallery again into something that's more... me?
Don't worry, commissions pay my bills, so I'm still going to be doing those for a while longer at least.
I am, however, also going to be intentionally investing significantly more into personal and passion projects. I'm excited for it!