Good evening everyone and happy Father's Day to all. I hope everyone's doing well. Well, this marks the hard part, where a bunch of people have to walk away with nothing and the winners take the blessings of the Random Number Gods. Anyways, I'll make this short to make sure the excitement/disappointment is dished out swiftly. Here are the winners:


Raffle Prize Winner: Entry #14,   Shadowraiser , congratulations! You and your OC have won the YCH slot!

Silver Prize Winner: Entry #4,   Spartanben , congratulations! You have won a £10 discount on your next cel-shaded commission by Sigoogle!

Timestamped proof can be found here:
Raffle Prize Winner
Silver Prize Winner

Both winners will be contacted through note with further details.

And for everyone who leaves empty-handed, don't worry. More raffles will be held in the future. Stick around and enjoy the art for now, and as soon as a new raffle is held, you, my followers, will be told first.

I hope you guys all have a great night!

Finally, the moment many of my followers have been waiting for has arrived! Starting today, you could win a picture with your favorite strawberry-loving mouse herm, Cassie Gliese! To much of the rest, this is probably just another formality to try and get free art, am I right? Hah, I wouldn't blame you, to be fair. STILL! This is an exciting event for little old me. I finally get to hold a raffle! Also, to anyone that knew my birthday passed on May 25th, sorry for this raffle being a little late. But finally, we can all have just a tiny bit of fun (and I a bit of tedious work), and hope for more in the near future.

So without further delay, here are the details.

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RAFFLE!

I am holding a YCH raffle, where your OC can win a chance to have a little fun with my OC, Cassie Gliese! You can view Cassie and the YCH sketch here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20230182/

Raffle drawing will begin on Sunday, June 19, at 12:00 AM, PST(GMT-8)


How to Enter:

1: Must be a watcher of both   Pylat and the respective artist,   Sigoogle . All new watchers are welcome.
2: Provide a colored reference of your character. Character must be anthro. All genders and species are allowed. Characters without a penis will use a strap-on.
3: In your entry, provide the correct validation word. The word will be highlighted somewhere in this document. Be sure you use the correct word, as it may change from time to time.

Once that's all done, you will be given a ticket number, and you can be on your merry way until the drawing starts! There's also no need to post raffle advertisements in pictures or journals or do anything additional. If you feel like doing so, I'd be very thankful, but I won't require you to.

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Fine Print:

_{One entry per person. Each person will get one number and only one number. One Silver Prize winner will also be chosen. Additional Silver Prize drawings will be added depending on the number of valid entries. Silver Prize is a £10 discount on your next cel-shaded commission from Sigoogle. Silver Prize Winner(s) will be given a confirmation code to give to the artist during their commission. The Grand Prize winner, and any Silver Prize winners, will be chosen at random through https://www.random.org/. Any entries that do not follow the guidelines will not count as an entry and may be skipped until they follow all guidelines. Your username may be recorded and monitored for delinquent activity pertaining to the conditions of this raffle. Delinquent activity includes but is not limited to: harassment, offensive and/or gratuitously creepy speech, and deliberately unfollowing any of the required FurAffinity members needed to enter the raffle. Delinquent behavior is punishable by blacklist or by removal from the current raffle. By participating in this raffle, regardless of whether or not you read this sentence, you are agreeing to all terms of entry and waive your rights to contest these conditions.}


I wish you all good luck in this and many other raffles to come!

I can actually do that, unlike the drawings most other people make. I'm slow at it, because I have to use a mouse, but if I keep at it, I'll probably be able to do it without much hassle. I'll definitely be doing more sprites of my OCs and the sketches I've recieved. And once I feel comfortable with drawing and doodling on my own, I'll make sprites of those as well.

It's not what I thought I'd be doing as far as art, but it's still fun, and something to keep me occupied. Until I can get the mental clarity to write.

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This is one of the few times I support something on Change.org. Ususally, it's a bunch of pissants whining about this or that, thinking that if enough people whine, they can get anything done, but this petition has agency. This petition has true importance in the world.

The Young Turks, if you haven't already learned, is an online news podcast group with a very pure, progressive message. They don't lie, they don't stretch the truth, and they give you their opinions as opinions. Nothing is sacred, and they call it like they see it.

The Young Turks have been very great in covering the current primary election, and because of their huge viewer base, a petition was made for TYT to get Senator Bernie Sanders on the air for an interview, even though he hadn't considered it before. The petition was a great success, to say the least.

Well, now viewers have created a petition to have The Young Turks host the next democratic debate on their show. If successful, TYT may sway even more undeclared voters, and even some pro-Clinton voters to swinging towards Bernie Sanders, because nothing is sacred on TYT. They will play hardball, which is exactly what these politicians need to be doing more.

Vote on this petition if you want to give Bernie Sanders the power he needs. This debate, if it does happen, could change a lot.

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Because I'm too broke to buy art, that's why...
I'm actually trying to teach myself how to draw. You know... Shapes and stuff... So far, so good. Drew my first pair of tits and everything! lmao

Hopefully, I git gud at it. If I do, I can draw a ton of ideas I have... And even if I don't, I still always have writing to turn to! xD

ok, but enough playing around with my pencils and paper... I said I'd finish the second portion tonight, and dammit, I'm gonna at least TRY! ò Có

Either the antidepressants I've started have begun to take effect, or I've been in a pretty good mood today.

Regardless, I did like I always do and sidetracked myself with a random idea today. I ran with the idea and came up with a little anecdotal backstory for Cassie, written in second person (so you can enjoy the sexy awkwardness of Cassie Gliese up close).

After giving a blind pitch to a few anonymous readers, it was well-received, so I'll go ahead and complete it and post it up here before bed. Then tomorrow, I'm gonna get to work on that elusive second portion of Chapter 1...


Trust me, I'm not this slow on purpose. I'm just trying to work around some life crap. I'll get into full stride soon enough, so don't fret just yet!

  Sigoogle is running a ych right now, and lemme tell you, if I had money, I'd claim it before any of you. But since I'm broke and I wanna support a nice artist..

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19339206/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19339206/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19339206/


Max of 2 slots.
GRAB IT WHILE YOU STILL CAN!!

The internet is not run through satellites like TV, but rather a network of cables that run across continents and even through the ocean to reach other continents.

These cables are obviously subject to tampering by a number of things, most notably sharks, who may curiously try to eat the cables.

In preparation for this contingency, internet cable developers sealed the wires in several layers of very tough, very durable material that can withstand the force and pressure applied by the jaws and teeth of a great white, effectively making them shark-proof (or at least shark-resistant).

Cuz, you know, of all the things to fuck with the internet-- trolls, hackers, terrorists, we gotta keep our priorities straight and keep the sharks out first. xD

I have a lot of these as I go through the day.

1. If Caillou were Bane

The intro would go like this:

Mom: "You're getting to be a big boy!"
Caillou: "...for you.~"

2. Why is chivalry bad again?

Invented by the French queen Eleanor_of_Aquitaine in the 1100s to tame her husband, the king, who would force himself upon her constantly out of insatiable lust and reckless abandon of dignity. Other noblewomen took the concept and turned it into a social norm that GOOD men were to practice restraint to preserve the dignity and integrity of women.

Now, some see it as is a way for men to further dominate women and unworthy of existing. What?

3. FORKS

by 2033, the fork will have been in style as the iconic western eating utensil for 500 years. I'll be 37 by then, and you bet your sweet ass I'm gonna go around celebrating it like a dumbass. "YEAHH, 500 YEARS OF FORKS!!"

I fucking hope forks don't become obsolete by then...

4. Geometry and Physiology
The Gyrobicupola sounds like a bone, or a joint, or something like that... It's a 3-dimensional shape.

This one doesn't sound like a body part, but it's got a long name, and I like that shit.
The Great Cubicuboctohedron. It's an insanely complex 3-dimensional shape. Look it up.
There's also the Great hexacronic icositetrahedron. Pointy!

Also, a Frustum, another shape, is basically a cone or pyramid with the tip truncated parallel to the base.

I'd hate to calculate for volume on these fucking things, but if I could make them in a game, like Space Engineers, I would...

5. Assholes
Just for the record... The ANUS is the asshole, and the SPHINCTER is the muscle that opens and closes said asshole. Likewise, the duodena (singular: duodenum) in your digestive tract are controlled by duodenal sphincters. Those are the flood gates that keep food from passing down your gut too quickly. Sphincters are also found in the heart, blood vessels, and the urethra. Wouldn't be surprised if the throat had one and the same with the vagina/uterus/cervix.

We've got tons of sphincters, man...

So when you say sphincter and you're not talking like a stick-up-the-ass doctor or med student, you're probably using it wrong.

6. Fucking with pronunciation
The word "light" has a silent gh in it. Doesn't matter what you do, you still pronounce it "light".
So lighght is also pronunced "light."

Psychologically, you'll believe it's pronounced differently, but it's still "light."
Hope I was able to shed some lighghghghghght on that conundrum.

Same goes with the word "queue" by the way. I remember I used to play Disney's Virtual Magic Kingdom. Anyone else remember that? _{god, I loved the go-kart game and the fireworks game... and the DJ game... And building rooms with waterslides that would go though 69 different rooms... That was the best.} Well that game was the first time I ran into the word "queue". I was about 10, so I couldn't pronounce it. I'd say "KWEEWEE". Then, a few years later, I learned that I could just fucking google how to pronounce it. My mind was blown. So blown that I bragged about it to everyone I knew. I'd write the word out on a piece of paper, ask fellow students and even teachers to read it out loud... And aside from a couple teachers, no student got it right. Not even the honor roll students. I felt smart, cuz I could pronounce a word no one else could.

But in 4th grade, I entered a spelling bee and misspelled illiteracy in round 1. OF ALL THE FUCKING WORDS...

Anyways, Queue works the same, because the ue at the end is silent. Some Tumblrinos say it's Q followed by 4 silent letters... But you don't normally say the sound of the letter Q by saying "cue" so I don't agree. Queueueueueueue might as well be pronounced "cue" unless someone can explain otherwise.


Oh, and one more thing... If you want to say the entire alphabet in one word "Abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz", It's pronounced Ab-Ka-Def-Gi-Jikul-Ma-Nop-Kur-Stuv-Wix-Is. Vsauce taught me that one. It's very hard to say, but not as hard as that long-ass name in this ghetto-dub of The Sims 3 known as "Keisha Fabo." The name's as follows: Ashawanabufontonquibalafondelarequandralaquishabunishatishabufontrellaniquan­drea

That's Ashawana Bufonton Quiba Lafon Dela Raquandra Laquisha Bunisha Tisha Bufon Trellani Quandrea




So yeah, that's all the random shit I've been thinking about for the last couple of days. I was supposed to not be stupid and distracted, but I forgot to take my pills again.

So you know what my question is already. Has anyone ever made a transparent goo girl before? Not translucent. There's clearly color in it, and anything in or behind them is tinted. I'm talking about transparent. Transparent like water. Transparent like glass. Transparent like this clear gelatin. Very difficult, I know, but has anyone ever done it?

The answer is a 'Toriel Latte'.

Smoked Butterscotch Latte
Added Cinnamon Dolce syrup

I'm writing this as I sip on my... 'Toriel Latte'.

It tastes like Goat Mom ~ w~

'Toriel Latte', made by a crappy company, but I know some people can't resist trying. Neither could I. So, get one at a Starbucks near you!

_{Pylat is not a sponsor of Starbucks or Undertale.}

[Edit:] Oh, right. I'm also writing more of Pecking Order, cuz I'm out of the house...

[Nother Edit:] If you order this drink, take one of those little straws or the stirrers and mix that thing up, because Starbucks won't, and all your tasty syrup will be left at the bottom. That's an issue especially in this case, because even though I like butter more than the next guy, swallowing a giant mouthful of cinnamon and straight BUTTER is not the most appetizing, especially when it's unexpected.

Toriel... Didn't know you were so forward.~ Just gonna shoot cinnamon and butterscotch into my mouth without warning..?

That.. That scares me.

Got some great shit going on (FOR O N C E . . .) and it's pretty nice (but lowkey still drains the life out of my currently utilitarian existence). A change of surroundings is always uncomfortable at first, but ends up being very rewarding.

I'm just gonna cover the basic details. If it still looks like a lot, trust me, it probably could've been longer.

1: I now live in a different place. It's a duplex apartment, which is good, because my 4 year old brother jumps to no end. It's also good because we used to have a roach infestation. It's dwindled down to 'outbreak' level at least. Manageable. And because we have all new stuff in a nice looking home in a slightly better neighborhood, I get to have friends over! They can go fuck themselves if they want to find parking, though... Seems like every spot has a car all the time for all hours of the day forever.

2: I have been busy moving furniture to this place for the last week and a half. Not to mention waiting for the moving crew to ship everything here, assembling IKEA furniture, etc... It fucking sucks, but my legs haven't felt the burn this good in a while. That reminds me... I CAN DO PLYOMETRICS NOW!!

3: Still got jack shit going for me, so it's hard to stay entertained daily. I can't really work when I'm not happy and clear-minded, and also when I'm swamped with crap work assigned by my mother... It's all a matter of time until I get my big chance, though, and I'll make sure I'm prepared before I take it...

4: Aside from the sketch art for my public OCs, I have more art I've yet to share. Part of it's a bit of fan art to a semi-abandoned game Idea I've had(it's too big an idea to jump on right away, and it's too big an idea to just drop), and another is to a gemsona I recently made (a month after all the doubt I spoke about gemsonas, even). First one's drawn, and the second one was inked&colored by   Sigoogle. I might post them here as well. Still debating on it.

That's about it. Thanks for reading, and have a good day!

HAH. I PUT A MOGA ON MY PROFILE.

I also colored it green. To anyone who actually knows what a Moga is and hates me for coloring it green... Stop hatin'. Dude looks pretty happy to me!

Gonna be to the point:

I didn't have pills for a week and a half. It sucked. Now I have pills, so I won't be spending every day in bed!



K, Gonna get to writing now.

And I'll try my hardest to have something to show by Saturday.

Ignore my signature this time. This journal wasn't brought to you by ADHD.
Pylat out.

So I've been following My Very Own Lith for a while now, and though I thought it was a great idea, It started in a sort of niche-ey way. Of course, because of the sexuality spread FA has, it didn't exactly affect the hugest demographics, but still, people would urge the creator to help accommodate their tastes as well. That's a pretty daunting task, mind you. Changing the character's gender identity might not have been, but to write and code in every scene to include or exclude things like 'intimate bits', it's definitely a large task to start and keep up.

I admire how Lithier was able to do that. Mad props!


My Very Own Lith is a text-based game with a simple premise: You're in a blank room and you now have Lithier as a companion. Actions range from friendly to lust-driven, and what you do affects how your Lith sees you and acts in the future, so it's very simple and to the point there. But the further you go, the more mystery and backstory gets revealed. The game almost has a sort of self-aware mystery to it, which makes it interesting and even a little eerie at times.

Definitely play the game if you like to discover story through character development, or just want to get naughty a cat.

Link here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18869186

Always face your computer away from your door, especially if you live with others. It saves you plenty of hassle.

I wish I'd realized that earlier, lmao.

Hello to all. I woke up in an energetic mood, so I'm going to just write about how everything's been. Feels good, but sometimes it feels like I'm just whining, so I don't do it often. Anyways, here's how everything's going so far.


Shit fucking sucks, but what ever. Ever since the start of the Fall semester in maybe August, my mother would repeatedly screw my life over. First, she messed up my financial aid by not signing the paperwork until the last day it was due. When this happens, the school I go to removes all the classes you sign up for. So I had to 'crash' all my classes—I had to show up to a class, sit through the entire thing, and then inquire about if they had any free spaces for me. That was the plan I had set up.

A week before school started, my mother woke me up from a nap and asked if I was enrolled in any classes yet. I told her I wasn't. I was just being honest. I went back to sleep, ignoring the issue for a while. Two days later, I realize my mom decided to take a day job instead of working nights like she usually would. This was the worst news I could have gotten, because of my family setup. My mom recently had a child (he's four years old now, three at the time) and because he wasn't in school or daycare, it meant I had to babysit him when my mom wasn't around. Because my mom wouldn't be around during the daytime, it meant I couldn't go to school.

It was gonna be okay, though. My mom promised me I'd get paid, handsomely, for my efforts. I'd get paid regularly, and over the course of the next four months, she'd pay for a bunch of nice things, like a car, and a new computer. The car I knew wasn't going to happen. Even if it was a crappy, used car, it would still take a thousand dollars or more to buy. Not to mention registration, insurance, maintenance, and gas... It wasn't realistic, but I knew she was hamming it up for me. The computer was my priority, though. If I'd be spending 4 months at home babysitting, I'd like some way to keep myself entertained. I told her all that, and she said she'd handle it soon—it wasn't going to be an 'October/November thing'. November rolled in and I had only seen about $550.00. Half went towards paying off my credit card. To sidetrack, yeah, I have a credit card. I had to take classes over the summer and had to pay for transportation and food while I did it. I was going to pay it off using financial aid that I'd get by the fall. It was planned out well, but then my mom happened. Anyways, I got $550.00 over three of the six months I was going to be 'working' for my mom. I told my friends I'd probably get the computer by Christmas, because it would have killed two birds with one stone: paying me and getting me gifts. December rolled in- still nothing. For Christmas, I got nothing too special besides a new vape. It was my older brother's idea. January passed, and I didn't see a cent then either. It was clear my mom wasn't going to pay me, and it was clear she wasn't making any large payments for the family or the house, since nothing changed at home; we still got the same cheap food and the same late bill payment consequences(cable/internet cut in and out, and for a month, gas was cut, too). My mom was making tons of money for her line of work, though. So what was she doing?

My mother spent all her generous earnings on three things: renting luxury cars, paying off offenses committed in those cars (speeding tickets mostly, and one car she crashed), and fueling an affair she kept going one weekend each month.

See, my mom's a narcissist. I didn't realize it until I had to go through all this, but yeah, she's a narcissist. My family's income has never been bad per se, but because of my mom's spending habits (pay the bare minimum for the family so they don't whine, and whatever she saves she spends on herself), the family lives like they go from check to check to survive. All the extra money she spent just went to herself, like usual, and the 550 she gave me was to keep me from whining more than I did.

Now, we're into the next semester, and nothing's changed. My mom's working at a high school, so they employed her for the school year. I still can't take any classes, and I'm not going to see a cent until I get a real job. Why that's harder than normal is a story for another time. Part of it's because I'm the only one around to watch my little brother during the day.

Anyways, that's what school and my immediate family have been like in a nutshell.



As for me personally and online, I've been pretty down, but part of that is due to medication.

I take medication for ADHD. It's the minimal dosage, but it's very effective. It's not the only reason why I lack productivity, though. Depression is a factor (or dysthymia as my therapist would put it), and stress on top of that usually makes it harder for me to put effort into the things I enjoy doing, like writing. Seriously, I have the hardest time writing when I'm at home around my family. Sometimes, because I don't want them anywhere near the crap I'm writing, and other times, I just can't get into the mindset I have for writing when I'm around them all. I get around it sometimes by taking a trip to the nearest Starbucks (4$ for a drink and all the wifi I could want for a few hours. Please and Thank you.) and write to my heart's content. Of course, this takes money to do, and other times, I'll forget my medicine and spend the entire time talking online or doing other things.

And if I forget to take a dose, things start to spiral downhill, especially with my current lifestyle of doing virtually nothing. Not taking my medicine puts me into a horrible, depressive mood. I'll spend the day sleeping, which causes me to miss my dosage times, which keeps me in a bad mood, causing me to sleep throughout the day again, and so on... I basically lose the will to take my medicine if I forget to take my medicine.



Things aren't 100% terrible, though. I have little nuggets of sunshine throughout my time at home. For example, I WAS able to get out of the house once and watch Star Wars VII with a friend. That was a ton of fun. Not only that, but I've been able to enjoy a slight bit of actual alone time, which is what I use to write, usually. And because I'm a pretty big fan of Yugioh, I've followed the updates pretty closely, especially the updates regarding cards called Deskbots. Konami slowly released Deskbots for about 3 years now, only showing 1 or 2 cards each set. The first 4 cards (Deskbot 001, Deskbot 002, etc) were released with each major set released to the TCG. There are only 2 or 3 sets released each year, so it's a very, very slow process. But as soon as the second card was released, I knew from then on it was going to be the archetype I'd back. Oh, and just a few days ago, I found out about a 'Gemsona maker'. It's just like any other custom fan character maker, but it's really close to the art style of the show, so I decided to give it a try. I've made, like, 3 so far, and I'll probably make more just for the hell of it. Someone even offered to make a sketch of one, and it turned out really well. If I can get it inked/colored, I may put it up or something, just to show it off, lol.

I'm also moving in 2 weeks. It's not a very huge move—it's only a mile west— but it's a new, clean slate as opposed to the crappy apartment I've lived in for half my life. This place was actually pretty low quality lodgings even when we moved in. Roach issues were hidden away so we wouldn't be able to tell at first, turned out the gas lines to the stove was never up to code, there were a ton of problems with the place, but it was a step up from the area we had before, so we took it. The only reason we're moving is because tenants have started to complain wildly about my four-year-old brother's tantrums. Seriously, he's a juggernaut of a baby. The only times he isn't going crazy is when he's not around my other little brothers. One of them, #4 of 5, likes to challenge authority to an unnecessary degree. He doesn't see me as an authority figure, and he tries his best to boss around the little tot, and the little guy clashes back so hard sparks could fly. It eventually melts down if I don't tell them both to stop and just avoid each other, but any second I'm not on them like a stoner on a donut is a second lost to the madness. I'm not even getting paid anymore, either. I stopped caring about whether or not the kid stomps or jumps, too. It's like what happens if you don't pay your electricity bill. Oh, your food's gonna rot because you can't pay for two weeks? Sucks. We're not turning it on until you do. So yeah, now we have to move. xD

Anyways, life's just being slow. Everything I have to do is planned out pretty clear for me. I just have to wait for my opportunity to start. Once I can, I'll finally start moving again to where I want to be this far in life. I'm a little late so far, but it's honestly never TOO late.

In the meantime, I'm gonna do the crap that I have to, and every moment I can, I'll be writing more of this story out. Again, it's going slow, but it never actually stops. I'll be getting back to it even now.

You guys are great, btw! Have a good one!

_{This was gonna be a second article about Steven Universe gems (I thought I found ONE that no one's used: Wurtzite), but after I realized Wurtzite isn't REALLY a crystal, let alone a gem, I dropped it and decided to ramble about why I decided to talk about dumbass sulfide minerals in the first place, instead of taking out the trash. Seriously, I've been dressed and ready to go take it out for nearly 3 hours. It's 5:55 AM... Holy fuck.}

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Once, a few years ago, I was hunkering down for finals. I was a full-time student who was also babysitting a toddler on the reg (without any actual pay or compensation; my mom takes advantage of the fact that I have no choice but to trust her), so I didn't have a whole lot of time to study. Still, I knew I wanted to. I had to. If I didn't, I'd have likely failed.

The moment I had the chance, I cracked open my textbooks, pulled out my pens and stuff, turned on some music, and then grabbed some screen cleaner and a cloth.

Then I cleaned the screen of my laptop. Then my TV, and eventually every other TV in the house.

This continued until finally, I asked myself "Why the fuck am I scrubbing the floor right now?"


Lol, ADHD is a bitch. Aside from the basic 'can't pay attention in class' issue, I have issues fully committing to any one task, grew up hating the act of reading anything—novels, textbooks, articles—because of how focused I'd have to get in order to read and retain anything, I can't search items in a list without going through a mental lock-up for some reason, oh and I babble in off-topic tirades ALL THE TIME. I actually have difficulty with getting to the point. I kinda find that hilarious. Read on, and watch me prove it!

The one COOL thing about my ADHD is that it helps me come up with ideas very often. Some are small, like fanfiction ideas or whatever. And some are year-long ponderings turned into large-scale projects. I've got 3 so far, and The Pecking Order is the newest, lol. Sometimes, I'll have ideas for things I don't even have the skills to produce. I think plenty of us have been there. You get an idea for a song but oh wait, you have to KNOW how to produce music in order to... produce music. Oh, and you spend nearly 4 years developing the overall concept, theme, and plots of a videogame, but wait... You have to be able to code, and create textures and draw/shape character models... Wait... Can I draw? Hmm... Kinda, but not really, and not even WELL. WELLP, time to brush up on Fruity Loops, Paint Tool SAI, RPG Maker VX Ace, and Ruby coding tutorials! Lol, or just shelf it for now. XD

To be honest, my ADHD is pretty benign as a mental disorder. I know there are others that are much more life-hindering, and some that put lives in danger. Honestly, though, This, and the other crap up with my noggin have ended up becoming a part of my identity. Fully rejecting that part of me would be like letting a piece of myself go. So I'm actually kinda thankful I have the issue. It's something I've been able to control, harness, and make essentially me.

And maybe with the help of meds and some extra self-discipline, I can finish what I start and show everyone what the fuck goes on in this head.

Too many things, honestly... I want them to be more than just ideas, though.

Hello friends, strangers, and people who may generally dislike me. I've been doing jack shit because of some pretty bad ADD and stuff busy lately with trying to work out school or work- which ever I can actually get into this spring... So my blog and my writing have been stymied just a bit, but not on pause completely. I'll be finishing up Chapter 1.2 soon, which kinda means 'before the next month rears its ugly head in already,' but still. Soon. Anyways, onto what I wanted to say.

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Steven Universe is a really nice tv show. I mean, yeah, the creators sometimes shoehorn anything they can into the story to make tumblr cream its gender-fluid undergarments, but on the whole, it's good. Great plot, nice action, and [most of] the characters are lovable as fuck! Personally, I've got a pantheon of my favorites. Amethyst is my OG favorite, since she's been with the squad since episode 1. She's funny, and though it's hit and miss, the art on her can be really good. Best fusion is Sardonyx. As for cutest, it's obviously Peridot, but she was basically designed with that in mind. I also love how she has a bit of a 'Napoleon' complex. She's gotta compensate how naive and powerless she is in any way possible. With her robot limbs, she was useful at least, but without them, she can't do much, and that's why a couple of paint cans made her feel so good about herself, even though she didn't want them at first.

All the complex, layered, and kickass gems on the show can really make a creative mind want to come up with something of their own in line with the show. Actually, tons of people did this sort of thing really early on in the series' airing. Gemsonas took Tumblr and likewise domains by storm about 2 years ago. Anyone with an idea and any ability to draw would make their dream gem. This isn't foreign to fandoms at all, of course. Bronies make their own fan-made ponies, Homestuck fans make their own... what are they, trolls? I don't know; Sonic fans make their own... hedgehog-animal-creature people... It's a fact of life that fandom members make OCs.

But when someone makes a gemsona, they're bound to come to a couple of realizations. And the first of those huge realizations is the fact that there is only a limited number of gemstones that can exist. We may or may not know them all, but that doesn't matter. There are only so many. So when you pick a TOPAZ, you're bound to run into 10 to 15 other TOPAZES. The biggest issue with that is it makes you and your work feel less genuine. You fail to get validation that your gemsona is THE gemsona, and that's because 30 other people had the same idea to take that same gem and make a gemsona as well. For me, that fact alone is enough to make me not want to make a gemsona, but I ended up having an idea for some with a friend. Sunstone and Moonstone, who'd fuse to make Zirconia. Just seemed like a neat little idea. But of course, it's not a purely ORIGINAL idea, since tons of other people have made the same gems, or even made them as fusions.

That doesn't deter everyone, of course. People make gemsonas at will. But when they do, there'll be another, much more deadly issue that the artist and their bundle of crystalline joy will have to face. Even after they're fully fleshed out and everything, the fact still lies that once a gem is shown in Steven Universe, all gemsonas of that same type can no longer co-exist peacefully with the canon story. It doesn't even matter if you wanted your gemsona to not be an actual part of the story or not. Once Jasper and Malachite were revealed to the world, all other Jaspers and Malachites got a nice big "NON-CANON" sticker slapped onto them, to make it obvious that they don't even belong in the story.

At first, I believed there was a huge number of individual gems, and that each one was unique, but by Season 2, Episode 22 "The Answer", it was established that all gems of the same type basically hold the same general characteristics. All Rubies look like the Ruby we know, but with their gem located elsewhere on the body. All Jaspers look like the one Jasper we know now. If Lapis Lazuli has any additional members of her type, they'll all basically look alike. The only difference so far is in Pearls, who differ in color, detail, and personality, but it's now set in stone that Pearls are butler-esque servants who all take on a ballerina theme. Blue Pearl goes to Blue Diamond, Yellow Pearl goes to Yellow Diamond, and as some speculate, The Crystal Gems' Pearl, or 'White Pearl' most likely belonged to White Diamond, since their gem placement and colors match, just like the other two. Yes, another anomaly would be Amethyst's small size, but it still limits the number of ways you can make a gemsona if you wanted it to fall in line with the story.

Every time a new gem is revealed, it's like a game of Russian Roulette. Who's gonna get knocked off the list next? Emerald? Tourmaline? Jet? Onyx? They might all make an appearance sooner or later. It's a matter of when and who. And if your gemsona's number is called, what then? Keep it? Scrap it? Amend it so it no longer clashes with the canon plot? It's a horrible experience for anyone attached to their creations, seeing it supplanted with the 'real' gem, and de-legitimizes what you worked hard at coming up with.

Overall, it's a cruel process to have to go through, especially if you're playing in the range of birthstones. Garnet, Amethyst, Pearl, Diamond, Ruby, and Sapphire have already been taken. You know they're going to make more off of the birthstone list alone. The best thing anyone can do is go for it if they want, and just not think of what might happen.

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I finally submitted the first part of my story! The overall story is called "The Pecking Order". It includes Cassie, Tandy, and a few other Anthro Characters I've come up with over time.

It's only 1700 words or so, but that's because I wanted to make sure people could easily read it in one sitting. Let me know how it is. Support will help me make more, and (good)criticism can help me get better at writing. Publicly hate on it if you want, but don't think I take that shit to heart, lmao.


Read the first chapter here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18618532/

That's also the best voice acting for Undyne I've heard so far...

And if you listen close towards the end, you can hear the words...
"_{hoOoI IM TeMMIE!}"

SO. That was a long little 'break' I had...

Alright, break isn't really the right word.

I'll put it blunt and vague: shit's gone downhill for me, and I'm somewhere near the foot at this point. My internet's been cut for months, and I haven't had work or pay in a while. It's been bearing down bad, and I kinda disappeared everywhere- here, facebook, I tried F-list out to practice writing in my down time, but then I disappeared there too... Whenever I'm going through some sort of depression, I just dull myself down until things change and the low point's over.

It's nowhere near over, I'm just able to work with the problem, now. But that's not important

For whatever it's worth, I'm back- really back. I actually have been writing too, if that interests anyone. I know I haven't actually posted anything more than a couple quick-writes on my commissioned pics, but I finally figured out how I wanted everything to go with my little characters.

I accidentally turned it into a book-sized story idea. Whoops. Now that makes four large-scale project ideas: A video game that stresses the idea of free will, two different novels, one being George R. R. Martin scale, and the other being a silly sci-fi concept given a somber, pseudo-realistic take; and this sort of... I guess you could call it a novel if it were to get big enough.

Anyways, my smut stories are actually a little bland in terms of content if you were to compare them to a lot of the stories on FA. If you want outlandish fetish-injected smut, it's everywhere. I'm keeping it subtle for now. The story's an actual story. It's not "Once upon a time, the protagonist and his folly got horny, and then they fucked. The end", there's supposed to be plenty to it. I'll probably go into detail about the whole idea later. I do like explaining things.

For now, I'll say this: It's a daily life type of story following the lives and adventures of Cassie Gliese, Tandy Tundra, and a few other characters as they fictitiously claw their way up the financial food chain. It's called: The Pecking Order. There is plenty of lewdness, because that's the main purpose of the story- to be lewd, but there's plenty of other stuff happening as well.

I'll post the first bit of story here in a couple days. I'd like to get enough of it down before I share any of it. Expect it soon, though. Things are going rather well with.


So for certain, I'll actually be doing stuff again- or at least trying. Stay tuned.

http://graphicpolicy.com/2015/07/20.....fore-congress/

Long story short: It was all a sham.
Chill.
Maybe get a drink or something. That'll help... maybe...