Made it through another year alive! Beats the alternative X'3

Wanted to thank those who actually took time to say Happy Birthday. So first of all, thanks to m'Wuff... Alyx he's still making sure I smile day in and day out and showing me that there's still more to this existence than pain and suffering! Thank you to Totalus, who hasn't given up on me in close to 12 years now coming this April, m'Timelord Partner in Time. Max who still pops in lets me know he hasn't forgotten! Shadow, a wolf that still calls this tiger a brother! And Ojika who was kind enough to remind me, I don't look anywhere near m'age yet X'D

Only suffered one loss and that was m'RL brother last year 3 days after m'birthday. I know he would have wished me a happy birthday and will use a birthday wish to let him know I still think about him.

Thanks everyone.

It's very rare that I meet someone that I connect with on so many levels and feel such a strong need to have them in m'life that reason no longer plays a role and I can let emotion... for a change... come out and present itself.

Those who are reading and remember... Max is still m'little kitty son... so don't go trying to BBQ m'ass over this. X'D

However... m'Wuff has shown me a dedication and a love that's much different to me and he tells me the same about how I love the little fluff... m'Prince. I can wrap him up in m'arms and help him melt into me and let him forget the world for just a moment... I can make him feel just how special he really is, even if he doesn't believe he is to anyone else. I can make him feel loved... because he is utterly loved by me. And the amazing thing is... he does the same in return. To feel him hold m'paw... or wrap his arm around mine as we walk around... laugh at m'terrible jokes, even the dad ones and the bad puns... to go out and see him smile at the fun we have out on the town... To even going to give him a hug after work if he's having a really bad day... He knows I'll be there at a drop of a hat to take care of him as his Big Tigs should.

Just seeing him smile... makes m'hearts swell... to feel his touch makes m'fur stand on end from the tingles of his fingertips across m'pelt. The sound of his voice and when he sings... is a rich treat to me. The hugs are amazing... And I can go on and on. He may be a little shy... but he's still m'Little Prince Wuff that I would cherish and treasure.

I just feel bad that when we first started talking in Jan... that I felt someone as cute as him... wouldn't be interested in a big mean tiger like me. He didn't stop trying... I didn't exactly get the hint till August. How silly I was...

It's been one whole year without being on Methadone for m'spinal issues and I really couldn't have done a lot of it without  reaver666 being there as a support Kitty.

I did a rather rapid detox when I visited him last time this year and I got through it just fine without P.A.W.S. but... with paws... but... without... but... with... erm. HI!

P.A.W.S. in the medical field means Post Acute Withdrawal Symptoms. Which when you've been on methadone for as long as I have for spinal issues... was a serious concern especially with heart issues on top of that. 1 year clean and the EKGs show that it was without a doubt, the methadone causing the Long QT Syndrome and without the medication, things are back to their normal Tachycardic state and I'm back to the same level pain I was in, solely due to the fact that the opioid receptors burnt out long long ago and was causing other complications. Since there's no other pain management option for me available, I make do the best I can.

The previous deleted journal was in reference to when this all happened. Nothing overly emotional... I just didn't want to remember it... but I still have to acknowledge it because without having experienced what I've experienced and being where I am today... regardless of all the bullshit and the mire of utter nastiness I've had to tread to get here and the people that have left and or parted ways amicably... or otherwise... I wouldn't have met, formed this amazing bond and be a part of m'Kitten's life. For that... no matter what pain I've had to endure in the past to get here... it was all worth it to be here now.

He never gave up on me. Little guy spent over a year online to get me even out of the house after everyone had left me in the local area, or I pushed them away due to pride and not wanting them to see me in pain. Almost all of them willingly left. Everyone of them stopped talking. When it came to not being able to give money out as much, pay for dinners, take people out to movies, buy games for them, spend money for gas for them to come see you, perform sexual favors or whatnot... you stopped being useful. And one thing you learn in chronic pain clinics... No one likes sticking around people who are in pain all the time. Depression almost always starts a vicious cycle.

Once Max glommed onto me... he didn't let go. He got me out of the house and I got to be who I was again. I felt alive and he gave me some of the best years I could have ever asked for from someone. And the silly thing is... he still wants me around. X3 M'Little Kitten is growing up and I've been there for him, even tutored him through a rather rough class in his college days... and I visit him to give him a break while at University. He'll always be m'Son... M'KittyLover. And I'll always be his DaddyTiger... His TigerLover. I'll get to see him grow up... be a part of his family as he makes one of his own and for that... I'm glad he never let me go.

Through all the pain, blood, sweat and tears... through the laughter, the silliness, the serious and the mindless moments... through everything I am and will be... I'll remain thankful... and forever your Daddy Tiger... M'Sweet Max.

The pain that brought forth our chance meeting... has bore me a Son and a Love that I cannot ever replace. No matter what happens, I'll be by your side. We can weather anything together.

You always were and will continue to be m'Greatest Gift.

== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==

100% Primal (Hunter)
97% Dominant
95% Voyeur
95% Owner
95% Master/Mistress
93% Exhibitionist
92% Rigger
84% Experimentalist
81% Daddy/Mommy
79% Degrader
77% Pet
77% Switch
74% Brat Tamer
41% Ageplayer
36% Vanilla
35% Submissive
34% Non-monogamist
33% Degradee
28% Sadist
23% Slave
16% Rope Bunny
15% Primal (Prey)
9% Masochist
8% Girl/Boy
6% Brat

See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=1509627

Today I hit another anniversary. For those who don't know, don't remember, or don't care XD

March 2009 started m'spinal issues in the worst way... I've been on morphine for it till it stopped m'intestines in August 2009 and was sent to ER with severe pain on top of m'already existing spinal pain. A secondary infection set in and a change had to be made.

March 2010 showed that being home for almost an entire year... m'spinal condition worsened. The next disc up failed, bulging inwards to the spinal cord... Further proof of Spinal Central and Foraminal Stenosis. And things aren't going to get better.

March 2015. I made a choice to get off of Methadone. It was never supposed to be a long term solution for pain management but the common thread when talking to m'doctors and the chronic pain clinic (which was a giant waste of time)... They were trying to make me as comfortable as possible... but methadone did come at a cost. From its own host of issues and slowing of the intestines, while to a smaller degree than morphine... but taking such a small dosage wasn't really addressing the pain... it didn't even dull it. Repeated tests and EKGs, ultrasound of the heart... showed that the methadone was causing issues. Heart function was down around 50-55% and was in the red for Long QT Syndrome... a heart rhythm issue where the heart's beat is elongated during part of the pumping process... any higher dosage of methadone would have ran the risk of stopping the heart altogether.

As of the time of writing this... I've stopped m'last dosage 84 hours ago. All the horror stories of people getting of methadone, didn't really leave me with the best view of stepping off of it but... when you have been on synthetic heroine for 6 years... and you're not getting any relief from it and you have no options for another long term pain killer... You re-evaluate your options. Continue taking it for as long as you have insurance at a potential risk of your heart stopping down the road? Or step off and deal with your pain in a different manner and safe yourself the further complications that can arise from a treatment that was never meant to be a long term solution and risks involved weren't really made clear as there isn't enough data to make factual claims.

Keep in mind... for those who do search for the possible withdrawal symptoms... that I've already done the work m'self. The cases you will read, the individuals who have the hardest time with it... are taking anywhere from 10 - 20 times greater of a dosage I was on. We're talking about people who take in excess of 150 - 300mg DAILY. I already had a bad reaction to just going from 15mg to 30mg daily... and have been at 15mgs for the majority of those 6 years. Doctors say I don't have the "addict" personality type. I routinely tell them to stop prescribing me oxy because I have an allergy to it in the hydromorphone class of opiates and oxy class kinda makes me feel like there's something wrong. It's hard to swallow, I constantly worry about breathing... respiratory depression sinks in and I panic which only exacerbates the whole situation.

For those who think that surgery is an option... it isn't. The complicating risks from it and the possibility of coming out of it with lesser pain than I'm currently in, is too much a factor for them to even entertain unless it's an emergency situation and I lose full use of m'legs. They can't even do epidurals guided or blind because there's no space for them to inject the medication. The spinal column is that tight.

So here I am! Hoping that things work out for the best. And Thank You all preemptively for the birthday wishes that will soon follow this day colonthree emoticon

For the most part, I'm doing well in the grander sense of things. Pain levels are getting higher and the tolerance for the normal bullshit is getting lower because of it. It's just the nature of the beast I'm afraid. With the constant background noise of a typical level 8 pain... the little annoyances become a little too much to bear with and the obvious irritation of that causes a lot of snapping and growling. I have some wonderful close friends that accept me and help me through the days... If it wasn't for them, life would be a bit more difficult to deal with. And I'm beyond thankful for them and m'Kitten who keeps me smiling. And regardless of his busy schedule, he makes time for me with welcoming arms and snuggles. I even got to have sense of a family when I had him over for holidays and cooking for more than just me and m'Boyfriend. Best holidays of m'life.

I had an unfortunate run in... albeit brief, with a blast from the past. 2 years ago... damn, in furry time when you drop contact with someone for 2 months, they are considered dead and gone, 2 years is like... ancient history. Pretty much those who were part of m'life back then had moved on or I moved on from because of drama, toxic friendships, jealousy, bad memories that just couldn't be let go of, or I couldn't let go of... yeah I'm well aware of the fact that I tend not to let go of negative things when someone purposefully attacks me not just personally but through others... ESPECIALLY through others... And if that's a bad thing... I don't care if I'm labeled as a douche bag publicly for it... The immediate response was "I know what has transpired since I've walked away... And I don't care if you're RP sexually with someone who meant the world with me. But read that statement carefully... "MEANT" a lot to me. If you're aiming to hurt me... you're so well off the mark that it didn't even register as and "eh..." it was more like... oh well... goes to show that those you thought you knew... you really didn't know at all."

I understand that conflict is what was sought after by doing this, trying to rattle m'cage, looking for a dialogue to launch an attack and tear me apart once again because that's all we seemed to do in the past. Even just typing this out means I'm giving it more thought than I should because of the personal attack made due to m'avoidance of letting a toxic person back into m'life. But looking back through m'journals show that it's been a while since there was a real update.

M'spine is slowly deteriorating. The pain is getting worse. There is no "Hope you get better" because even m'doctors tell me "We're just trying to make you as comfortable as we can till you're at the point you can't walk anymore or emergency surgery is your only option because even surgery has a high potential of making matters worse. But given all the time in the world now... I can concentrate more on the individuals that matter to me instead of someone or someones trying to trade barbs with, for the sake of self-elevation and oneupsmanship.

To m'good friends who read this, I love you guys and appreciate you're sticking with me through m'trials of life. The saying goes:

“If you’re absent during my struggle, don’t expect to be present during my success.”

You were there for me during some rough times... I tried to confide in you but each time, you used it as ammo to try and piss of those I cared about then or to piss me off by going through them to hurt me. I don't know if you were trying to drive them off to have me to yourself or whatnot, I might even been full of m'self to think so but it's how it was... Trust was given but it sure as shit wasn't earned. I gave too many chances, wanting for things to work out but it was obvious you just needed a punching bag or a clawing post.

There's no sense in calling you names in the end. You are, and have always been, you.

Some of you may be a little lost as to why Thane, the black lion, has been showing up as of late. Thane is actually an old character of mine that started off as part of me/Arsen. Way way back when... I started off as Liger who is a Timelord. Long story shortened... An accident happened and I was split from Thane in the Genetic Looms used to create the next generation of Timelords as they are a sterile race due to a curse. (Another long story).

Thane was harder to control as he was pretty much the embodiment of all m'Lust and darker desires and well... they didn't separate from me... just I have a better control over it and he ended up with none of that control. We were always psychically linked (as Timelords are telepathic) and shared experiences when in close proximity. He was someone I always kept around for fun times like the pictures you've seen around. He's been a wonderful story stand in and since he's still a part of me and m'personality... the draw was there to have him as part of the relationship with me and Max.

This isn't a gateway for people to try and step in and worm their way into what we have... So cool your heels and just enjoy the story tidbits and commissions as they are intended... windows into our life, not an open window for you to try and crawl into, in hopes to cause problems for your own jollies. While I can appreciate that it turns people on to see these hot images, I don't appreciate the whole creeper comments, insinuating that this is a means to their own ingress into something precious to the both of us. You can watch but you're fapping in the corner alone, untouched.

As cheesy as posting songs is for those who you care for or other emotional reasons... Quit yer bitching that I'm doing the same thing ya'll XD

Background: It took over a year for him to get me out of the house because I was still going through a rough time with all m'local friends disappearing because of m'disability and lack of funds to pay for them to come and visit me or not being able to afford to keep friends by paying for games for them to play with me, paying for movies, dinners, lunches... even gas.

Max -never- let me go. He insisted over and over again that I visit... I saw an end before there was even a beginning... I was scared of getting hurt again and get let down, left for someone else, being the bench warmer in case there was someone more interesting and able came along. You know, the typical fur thing to do. Bounce to something/someone bigger and better.

I worried m'self into a massive anxiety attack and IBS kicked in hardcore on the very day I was slated to see him. I was waffling a little bit between putting it off till m'nervousness passed but I didn't want to be the typical fur either... hyping it all up and then... disappearing or constantly waffling and flaking out.

This song has 3 major parts to it (I'm a lyrics kinda guy)...

1) Fear of rejection, fear of attachment.
2) The push to actually give things a chance and enjoy what's there
3) Acceptance of love and attachment.

Royksopp: Only This Momement

https://youtu.be/ze9Oei__Vvg

Lyrics:

"Only This Moment"

Only this (moment)
Holds us (together)
Close to (perfection)
Nothing else (out there)
No one to (guide us)
Lost in our (senses)
Deep down inside I know our love will die

Only this (moment)
Holds us (together)
Lost in (confusion)
Feelings are (out there)
Scared of (devotion)
Doubting (intentions)
Deep down inside I know our love will die

Stay or forever go
Play or you'll never know
What heaven decided
You can't deny it's
All you've been waiting for

Stay or forever go
Play or you'll never know
Your spirit's divided
You will decide if I'm
All you've been waiting for

Clouds in my head have been parted with grace
By the voice of an angel revealing her face
And her words they make sense 'n' I do understand
Falling in love isn't part of the plan

Forces within me mix reason with lust, but
I'll try to accept it and not make it worse
'Cause I know I might lose it by taking the chance
(But) love without pain isn't really romance

Only this (moment)
Holds us (together)
Close to (perfection)
Nothing else (out there)
Always (beside her)
Trusting my (senses)
Deep down inside I know love will survive

Only this (moment)
Holds us (together)
Close to (the other)
Nothing else (out there)
Always (beside her)
Trusting my (senses)
Deep down inside I know love will survive

It's getting closer and closer to when m'Kitten will be in university and I couldn't be prouder of him. He'll be out on his own at Uni... and to me, that's when I started understanding the world outside of the view of m'previous home's window. I know this is a new chapter for him but for us as well. I know it's one I'll be a part in because, like his school work... he didn't give up on me. With him understanding that we have a hell of a foundation and shaped things to being part of each others future for the time to come... it will just be a hell of a story to tell as we stay as close as we've always had.

You never quite understand yourself until you start living and working on your own. That knowledge there and the confidence that stems from it is utterly priceless. Still I won't lay and say "It's not going to suck that he's more than an hour away!" Yeah, it will but that's what going to make our times together that much more memorable.

You've earned it and I'll always be here for you in any and every way I can. I know you'll never forget that <33

Love you always Kitten. I know you'll grasp it and won't let go <33

I dreaded being the one to say this very phrase... it made me feel old as if I'm 60 or something talking about things that the younger generations have never heard of. It wasn't until I met m'Kitten that it started being that "Old People" saying and I finally embraced it. There are so many things I've seen, heard, done that I get to pass on another world to him. Music, tons of useless knowledge, where certain things came from and it feels fulfilling. While there are some things that are trivial or just plain silly (Since we both like silly things)... I get to show m'world and past with someone special.

It's... beyond fulfilling. :3

They say that you really don't gain a perspective on life in general until you do something for someone else or a cause that's bigger than you. I had a chance to do something meaningful, something that will benefit someone's future and will help them gain the life they wanted... and a start towards their future. It started off as being a distraction... helping to break up the tedium by being a reliable Tiger that will always be there should they needed shelter, and provide entertainment to help mitigate stress. It's turned into helping with school and studying to help pass a class needed to get into a university to finish their degree.

While it scared me to no end that upon them moving out of state, I'm proud and gratified to know that I'm helping them move forward with their life. I know I'm not moving out of their lives at all. Just the opposite really... Being there to help when they need it most, being there at the beginning and being there as support just makes it that much more special for when they do succeed in life and have a family of their own. I know I'll be there always, I'll be remember fondly and I know it sounds selfish but that makes me feel that much better about things as well as give me some sense of accomplishment.

If I ran away from this because I saw the end before even there was a beginning, I would have missed out on someone's life and never would have been able to see them grow and be independent... free to live how they want. After hearing a quote that makes things pull to center... "If you're absent during my struggle, don't expect to be present during my success." - Will Smith Can't just be there for someone when they are happy at the time... You have to be there for them when needed or wanted. Hell, even if you aren't needed... just showing support does wonders in the end.

Anyways... just makes me smile that I can help and be there for an amazing individual with so much potential. I can't wait to see what he makes of his life. I'll be there every step of the way <33

First of all... There won't be naming of names here nor signaling anyone out as an individual as the reason for this journal; so don't ask for specifics.

This has been a major pet peeve of mine for many many years now:

People who don't read profiles and/or anyone who believe that profiles and personal "please don't do" lists do not apply to them.

There have been years where I have dedicated m'self to one or a small number of really close friends and in profiles I would make abundantly clear that I didn't wish to be persuaded to allow someone else into the circle to break m'own dedication to the ones that I made a promise to. I spent the time to write it out... Take the damned time to read it and respect it.

Doms or subs that believe they can muscle in on a relationship.

Whether it is RL, IC, RP or any combination thereof... Don't muscle in/step on someone's tail by blatantly ignoring the significant other and disrespecting then. Whether it is via a commission, RP or other unwanted advances by RP or tempting someone by paying for a commission or other favor... Take the time to observe and check for obvious signs that clearly state they aren't interested and/or signs that show that someone else is significant in their lives before interjecting.

Trying to prove you're better capable or better looking/bigger and better than whomever an individual someone is with

I get that it is a turn on to prove yourself worthy of another's attention over the person they are with but you have to understand that if it is clearly stated there is no interest... Bugger off. It's not always flattering rather, insulting you didn't do your homework before trying to get your dick in to ruin things.

Seeing a lot of commissions with a single individual with your target and the comments are clear as day they are dedicated to each other.

That should be common sense... As uncommon as that is. Just remember, take a few moments to read and observe before tripping over someone's dick to worm your way in.

It's just a commission, it's meaningless!

For some... Maybe this is true but not for everyone. I would dream of being in a commission with someone unless they mean something to me. If I wouldn't be with them iRL... I wouldn't be with them in a commission. People take their avatar seriously and it isn't done character they play while online...

First 3 post starting a one sided RP

This one bugs me a lot. On Skype or SL... I will get someone trying to full on RP with me and they get pissy if I didn't give them the RP they wanted regardless of what I was doing or if I'm even remotely interested.

Believing you're the exception

That should be very self explanatory... If you were... You'd know without aiming l assumption.

This list isn't all inclusive but a good idea of m'grumps. I do respect those who reelect me in regards to understanding relationships but trying to muscle in even though I trust m'partner... I've growth to seriously mistrust those who just interject because they want to...

Most of you who know me by now... understand that I'm physically disabled due to a degenerative spinally condition with no possible surgical option. Lots of m'friends pretty much helped themselves to the door and for the most part, all of them left but a small few. Life had been pretty shitty for a long while... had to ask for help and some of you did come to m'aid which I'm eternally grateful for, even if it meant showing some RL Cock pictures in order to get money for medications. XD

I've met someone really dear to me... who has helped me with the more emotionally supportive side of things and if he wishes to be identified... he'll be welcome to do so. He's helped me clean m'house of which... I can't do alone due to m'restrictions and physical limitations. Helped get me out of the house to at least explore life a little more and has been an amazing individual all around. He's showed me what I would have missed out if I kept m'self shut in m'den of bleh and just only exist behind a computer... While I still have some strong trust issues and the whole burnt fur mentality about the rest of the fandom... we still find ways of enjoying ourselves and just... making due with what we have.

Thank you... It's nice to see life didn't give up on me after it threw me into a thresher. <33

New years time and I had to make a toast
So here's your fucking obligatory post.

Happy New Years XD

Now shut your happy yappy asses up and enjoy yourselves, be safe.

Eh... not going to make this a day thing... I don't see the point in slapping this down to only ONE day. Ask anything you want, if you want cock pictures, I can show those too. Everything is up on XTube XD

1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2) Tell you a color you remind me of.
3) Tell you my first memory of you.
4) Ask you a question.
5) Tell you something I like about you.
6) Tell you the object that is in front of me.
7) Dare you to do this yourself in your Journal

Dared by  MrTweek

A new year has come upon us and in pagan beliefs (m'beliefs) that these past few months from Oct 31 till Dec 31, are considered the darker time of year. A time of death, loss and mourning. I have had some really good friends and "family" members slip away from me (not in death but in breaking relationship status) and it was expected... just never thought it would have ended as soon as it did for some. People left for various reasons but the end result is... they are gone from m'life forever.

I wanted to thank everyone who has been there for me, even if you aren't able to walk beside me on m'path in life any longer. And I want to thank everyone who continues to be there for me regardless of all the hardships that I'm going through now as I know it's not going to get any better from here due to m'medical conditions. You have all shaped me to be who I am today. While some of you may not like who I have become... that's fine in m'mind... and I understand why you've all left. Not everyone is capable of helping each other and it has gone to show me that the strongest person in m'life... is me in the end. I'm still able to carry on despite the pain and continue to live even if some wish I don't.

Those who continue to be there for me... you're a blessing, you are all amazing to me. You're m'support group, m'friends, m'family, m'lovers and much more. Jasonkarr, Atragon, Xafi, Tom Kitty aka Sethy cakes (with Mr. Cupcake-san), TK (even though we went our separate ways, I know you still care for me) and lastly m'Boyfriend to whom I've spent over 13 years of m'life with (to date) and we're still going strong. To those I didn't mention, doesn't mean I don't appreciate you, care for you, or think you're amazing to me...

Those who were mentioned have been with me for many years now and I still wonder why they DO hang around me after all X3 I'm fully well aware with knowing that I'm far from an easy person to get along with. I suffer a level 8 out of 10 constant pain level... and I tend to hate everyone but a pawful of people for a lot of reasons... most of them wish to do nothing but hurt me or those I care about in the end. I never understood why people are so fucking vindictive and childish when parting ways. The latest issue was rather apparent as I ranted about it in the previous post.

I do have a few fringe friends that just randomly message me from time to time... I know they care somewhat... but only when they are thinking of me at that time. It's a shame people are all "Out of sight; Out of Mind" types of individuals. But either way... I wish you all well, I hope that the next year will bring you all happiness and comfort. As one of m'favorite songs during the giftmas time of year states:

If I cannot bring you comfort,
Then at least I bring you home.
For nothing is more precious
than the time we haven't sold.

We all must learn from small misfortunes
Count the blessings that are real.
Let the bells ring out for Christmas (giftmas X3 )
At the closing of the year.

<snip>

This is a time to be together
And the truth is somewhere here.
Within our love for people.
At the closing of the year.

https://youtu.be/R9geCS0v7w8




Yeah yeah... I'm a romantic at hearts... but it doesn't come out that often... I'm really hardened by those small misfortunes, which seem to hit hard, fast and unforgivingly. But as I've said before... Never Forgive and Never Forget. Pain is pain... even the body understand we must move away from toxic individuals... we just need to identify them faster and remove them from our lives.

CLOTHED

* Before you stands a 8'5" tall, quarter ton, White Amur Ice Tiger Timelord. Starting from the top and working down, his right ear is pierce with three 4 gauge circular barbells coloured from top to bottom, Blue, Red and Green. His headfur is black with blue tips. Bangs hang over the muzzle and get longer towards the sides of his broad face with the back of his head with shorter choppy hair. His eyes are a bright sapphire blue that catch the and reflect well. From time to time you can see them glow on their own power to indicate a hidden power within. His full cheekruffs show his regality and his maturity as well as the extra tuft of white fur on his chin. Upon his forehead is an intricate runic circle... a mark of an old religion shrouded in secrecy.
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* His thick neck is adorned with a mystical blue crystal in an intricate metal design of wire around it and a small locket that is sealed forever. In addition to that, special collar that does not seem to have any visible method of removal or a seam for that matter. It pulses a bright blue as it keeps the Ice Tiger's body a cool 50 degrees Fahrenheit externally. With every breath he breathes out, a cold blast of air fogs from his mouth or nostrils. His shoulders are broad and muscles are thick, dense on top of his thick bones. His striped arms show off a raw power down to his big forearms wrapped in 1 inch wide leather straps in a lattice type configuration with studs at each cross. His hand are broad and pawlike with thick, short fingers and living metal claws out of the tips that are almost always retracted.
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* His chest is defined as the pattern of his stripes were blended with a tribal tattoo that permanently dyed the fur. It starts with circle along his chest with hard angled branches up towards his neck and longer broader strips down towards his loins. Either side of his softly defined abs are two blue tribal paws angled up and towards his hips slightly. His back is marked with blue tribal wings and down the center of his spine, written in red chinese characters... originally professing love for someone of someone who came and went but literally reads "Tiger Loves Lion", burns brightly against his colourations. His tail is thick and long, giving hints that there's something more to it than just a tail, is little over 5 feet which he barely keeps off the ground as it seems to glide behind him as he walks.
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* Looking down upon his lower half, you see a rather sizable black leather codpiece bulge in his side laced leather shorts. The codpiece is barely held in by a series of snaps that look as if it could give way any moment, spilling forth the sheathless pride and heavy orbs within. The shorts hang low on his hips which expose a bit of the tiger's blue and black pubic fur. From what can be seen through the thin soft leather codpiece is the Tiger's balls worthy of a virile Tiger who could last all night and onto the break of dawn.
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* His thighs are well muscled as well as his broad, dual headed calves on his digigrade legs before leading down into his heavy, broad hindpaws adorned with the same claws as his handpaws. The claws are always out, thicker, shined and polished. His pawpads are pinkish, soft and well taken care of as you notice that his claws are shaped well to indicate they are professionally maintained. This Tiger spares no expense for his appearance and hygiene.

NUDE

* Before you stands a 8'5" tall, quarter ton, White Amur Ice Tiger Timelord. His right ear is pierce with three 4 gauge circular barbells coloured from top to bottom, Blue, Red and Green. His headfur is black with blue tips. Bangs hang over the muzzle and get longer towards the sides of his broad face with the back of his head with shorter choppy hair. His eyes are a bright sapphire blue that catch and reflect well. From time to time you can see them glow on their own power to indicate a hidden power within. His full cheekruffs show his regality and his maturity as well as the extra tuft of white fur on his chin. Upon his forehead is an intricate runic circle... a mark of an old religion shrouded in secrecy.
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* His thick neck is adorned with a mystical blue crystal in an intricate metal design of wire around it and a small locket that is sealed forever. In addition to that, special collar that does not seem to have any visible method of removal or a seam for that matter. It pulses a bright blue as it keeps the Ice Tiger's body a cool 50 degrees Fahrenheit externally.
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* His chest is defined as the pattern of his stripes were blended with a tribal tattoo that permanently dyed the fur. It starts with circle along his chest with hard angled branches up towards his neck and longer broader strips down towards his loins. Either side of his softly defined abs are two blue tribal paws angled up and towards his hips slightly. His back is marked with blue tribal wings and down the center of his spine, written in red chinese characters. His tail is thick and long, giving hints that there's something more to it than just a tail, is little over 5 feet which he barely keeps off the ground as it seems to glide behind him as he walks.
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* You see a patch of blue and black pubic fur that decorates his mostly white loins before it gives way to a large thick cock base. The heavy pole of the Tiger's Ebony Pride stands up proudly from his form, pointing upwards despite of its own weight, giving the sense that the massive feline cock is achingly hard. Starting with the large, full bellshaped tip, you see a large gauge prince albert in electric blue coloured titanium. Already, pre begins to drool from the cumslit and the sight of the piercing under the head of the visibly circumcised cock. The thick crown ridge stands out regally as this is wider than his own 11" around girth. The overall length of his pride is a little over 18"-20" depending on his level of excitement but has been known to increase a little more for special occasions.
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* The broad back of his beast shows off that the cock itself is wider at the sides and belly than the back... giving the appearance that his cock's top surface is flatter than the rest. The veins stand out heavily underneath the stretched thin skin of his cock. They pulse with the power of his twin hearts, which causes his pride to bob slightly with every heart beat. The large urethral bulge that decorates the underside of his cock, gives the impression that the Tiger could unload great volumes from his overproductive orbs which hang heavily below.
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* Along the throat of his cock (The area behind the glans and above the foreskin line), as well as down either side of his urethral bulge and in a few rows at the base of his cock, shows little nubs of flesh that would normally be reserved for feline barbs. Instead of hairs that are meant to scratch, these are fleshy bumps... similar to erect nipples in comparison, that almost act like a "French Tickler".The Tiger's striped, grapefruit sized, balls worthy of a virile Tiger who could last all night and onto the break of dawn. They almost always ache due to his need to unload them daily.
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* His thighs are well muscled as well as his broad, dual headed calves on his digigrade legs before leading down into his heavy, broad hindpaws adorned with the same claws as his handpaws. The claws are always out, thicker, shined and polished.