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Posted 10 years agoSo, I posted my first furmeet video today and I am really happy with how it turned out. It has me excited about doing some more videos of upcoming furmeets and cons that I will be attending and I think I may have found something that I really deeply enjoy. I have updated my FA page with my youtube account so I am hoping that there will be more people that enjoy the videos that I make as much as I enjoy creating them.
My time for change!
Posted 10 years agoSometimes, the words that you say to another has a more lasting effect on yourself than it does on that other person.
I have been ignoring problems that I have been dealing with the past 4 years and it is about time that I stood up to those problems and make some changes. I would say that I am not the type of person is afraid of change, if anything, I love it. It opens up new doors and allows a change of environment and way of life but these past few years would prove that not to be true. I have been battling depression on and off for a long time and have been able to get a better hold of over time but I have kind of hit a wall and started to backslide. So my way of dealing with that is to improve my way of life and gradually ease into newer and happier ways.
I have been at my current job for close to 3 years now and have never been happy there. I accepted the job without realizing what this job would actually do to me, leave me feeling like I had no escape and no chance of leaving. I needed the job at the time that I started for the purposes of getting money and having something to keep me from home and my family. During my time at this job, I ended up getting a car and moving out from my family's house and living out on my own. Those were two major steps in my life and looking back it shows to be the best things I have been able to do for myself so far. My dad purchased me a car back during high school back in 2010, but due to my stupidity and youthful thrill seeking, I ended up wrecking that car. I spent months beating myself up over that situation but that was not the only thing that was keeping me down during that time. I began college and was not prepared in any way for the dedication that school required. My motivation for things was non existent and I only went for one semester. Depression, school, and my car wreck which happened during my first semester of college really put me down and I had no real friends around to help me get back up and going. After a threat from my step-mom to kick me out of the house, I finally decided to go looking for a job and ended up working at a restaurant for a few months. While I was at that job, I was driving my dad's vehicle and serving customers with a fake smile. This was by far one of my lowest points. Very few things made me happy, I was quick to get frustrated and stressed, anxiety was at it's worst, and my family was not helping. I eventually was picked up by my future boss after I served his table at work and began working full time. It was what I needed at the time and was able to get me back on my feet to try and dust myself off and take a few steps forward. As I said, it was at this point that I was able to get myself a car and move out on my own. The car was a great move and the house that I moved to was not so great of a choice.
I ended up moving into the house that I spent a crucial part of my childhood at. It was where we lived during my elementary school years when my family was still a complete family. I had two parents and one brother and had no cares in the world for what the future was to hold. I was the usual young kid that was happy-go-lucky, loved to cheer people up, spend time with my family, and thought nothing bad could happen. I eventually realized that not everything can continue that way as my mom passed away in 2002 when I was 9 years old. I didn't really catch on much to what was really happening when my brother and dad would tell me that she was sick and that we would be going to the hospital a lot when I got off from school. She was diagnosed with Leukemia in 2000 so I spent two years of my life going from school, to the hospital, and then back home almost daily but I was too innocent to understand why. I look back at those days and think about how happy I was with the toys that I was able to take with me and play with. I didn't know what was going on... I try to remember as much as I can of the fun times that I was able to spend with her but they are so rare now. My memories are so far gone from that time that I have to look back to pictures to even remember what she looked like. This is one of the major things that I need to change. This house brings back those memories. The nights of coming back home with my dad and brother and wondering where my mom was. Why wasn't she with us? When was she going to be back home? I don't want to leave behind my past life but I can't move on to the future here. My family has shown me that everyone in your life has a purpose and that their impact is everlasting, no matter how long or short amount of time that you spend with them. I have to be able to look forward but I must be able to make the changes that I need to make. I can't be scared of what will happen to others when I make these changes. I have spent so much time worried that I was making a negative impact on friends and family with the choices that I make, that I can't make a choice in my life and think about the positive impact it will have on me personally. It is time for me to change that. There is so much else that I need to change but a change in my housing situation is what will make the biggest impact for me to make my next changes.
I have been ignoring problems that I have been dealing with the past 4 years and it is about time that I stood up to those problems and make some changes. I would say that I am not the type of person is afraid of change, if anything, I love it. It opens up new doors and allows a change of environment and way of life but these past few years would prove that not to be true. I have been battling depression on and off for a long time and have been able to get a better hold of over time but I have kind of hit a wall and started to backslide. So my way of dealing with that is to improve my way of life and gradually ease into newer and happier ways.
I have been at my current job for close to 3 years now and have never been happy there. I accepted the job without realizing what this job would actually do to me, leave me feeling like I had no escape and no chance of leaving. I needed the job at the time that I started for the purposes of getting money and having something to keep me from home and my family. During my time at this job, I ended up getting a car and moving out from my family's house and living out on my own. Those were two major steps in my life and looking back it shows to be the best things I have been able to do for myself so far. My dad purchased me a car back during high school back in 2010, but due to my stupidity and youthful thrill seeking, I ended up wrecking that car. I spent months beating myself up over that situation but that was not the only thing that was keeping me down during that time. I began college and was not prepared in any way for the dedication that school required. My motivation for things was non existent and I only went for one semester. Depression, school, and my car wreck which happened during my first semester of college really put me down and I had no real friends around to help me get back up and going. After a threat from my step-mom to kick me out of the house, I finally decided to go looking for a job and ended up working at a restaurant for a few months. While I was at that job, I was driving my dad's vehicle and serving customers with a fake smile. This was by far one of my lowest points. Very few things made me happy, I was quick to get frustrated and stressed, anxiety was at it's worst, and my family was not helping. I eventually was picked up by my future boss after I served his table at work and began working full time. It was what I needed at the time and was able to get me back on my feet to try and dust myself off and take a few steps forward. As I said, it was at this point that I was able to get myself a car and move out on my own. The car was a great move and the house that I moved to was not so great of a choice.
I ended up moving into the house that I spent a crucial part of my childhood at. It was where we lived during my elementary school years when my family was still a complete family. I had two parents and one brother and had no cares in the world for what the future was to hold. I was the usual young kid that was happy-go-lucky, loved to cheer people up, spend time with my family, and thought nothing bad could happen. I eventually realized that not everything can continue that way as my mom passed away in 2002 when I was 9 years old. I didn't really catch on much to what was really happening when my brother and dad would tell me that she was sick and that we would be going to the hospital a lot when I got off from school. She was diagnosed with Leukemia in 2000 so I spent two years of my life going from school, to the hospital, and then back home almost daily but I was too innocent to understand why. I look back at those days and think about how happy I was with the toys that I was able to take with me and play with. I didn't know what was going on... I try to remember as much as I can of the fun times that I was able to spend with her but they are so rare now. My memories are so far gone from that time that I have to look back to pictures to even remember what she looked like. This is one of the major things that I need to change. This house brings back those memories. The nights of coming back home with my dad and brother and wondering where my mom was. Why wasn't she with us? When was she going to be back home? I don't want to leave behind my past life but I can't move on to the future here. My family has shown me that everyone in your life has a purpose and that their impact is everlasting, no matter how long or short amount of time that you spend with them. I have to be able to look forward but I must be able to make the changes that I need to make. I can't be scared of what will happen to others when I make these changes. I have spent so much time worried that I was making a negative impact on friends and family with the choices that I make, that I can't make a choice in my life and think about the positive impact it will have on me personally. It is time for me to change that. There is so much else that I need to change but a change in my housing situation is what will make the biggest impact for me to make my next changes.
Update of my story
Posted 10 years agoOk, so a while back I said that I was going to make a story including a few teamspeak regulars. I have kind of slacked off on that but have just recently looked back at my outline and regained a good bit of inspiration and have been able to get back on top. I am going to try and stick with it and complete it before I get to releasing any more chapters. I am starting to get into the detailed part of the story line and will be working on it for a while so I hope to get it out and that you guys will enjoy it.
One part of the story that kind of gives an interesting idea of the story:
"A lady is quite the reason for time to make a treason, but when you see the crown you can’t look around ‘cause once the time is come you may be left to run but with all the royals dethroned there is nothing left atoned."
One part of the story that kind of gives an interesting idea of the story:
"A lady is quite the reason for time to make a treason, but when you see the crown you can’t look around ‘cause once the time is come you may be left to run but with all the royals dethroned there is nothing left atoned."
I am thinking about trying something new
Posted 10 years agoOk, so the past week at work, I have been getting ideas of how awesome it would be to have a story created using TeamSpeak friends as characters and basing the personalities of the characters in the story off of the personalities of the TeamSpeak group. After a few hours, I have a story and a majority of characters are set. I don't want to release information about the story because I kind of want it to be a surprise. Just be aware that if you are a TeamSpeak regular you may end up in it. Depending on how this turns out, I may try for some more stories.
Artwork
Posted 11 years agoI am learning how to draw and everything so please provide feedback and don't be too harsh. I am wanting to get more digital stuff to work on drawing on my computer. I don't have a computer scanner available so I have had to use my phone to even upload anything.
Hello!
Posted 11 years agoWhat's up? I am Pyper and I am a Wolf Leopard hybrid and have finally decided to join up with the furry fandom. I have been browsing for a few years now including when I was in high school but never got the courage to embrace this part of me. After finally confessing my interest to my closest friends and girl friend, I have gotten to the point where I am happy to be a part and say hello to some new people.
