I would like to say thank you for the friends that have been there for me this year. So far this year I have rebuilt my friend group that I am happy with and even considering making an official vrchat group just to have friendly get togethers. Who know I might start a small community.

So here are my thoughts. After this year I am putting myself back in the 33yr dating pool. I am going to start to plan out a group or small community group for awesome people to hangout in. Who knows what adventures await. If interested in hanging out in vrchat send a note. As a side note you need to be 18+ please.

Later on today I'll be uploading some commissions that I have received in the past few months that I forgot about.

Are there any artist that like to / wouldn't mind take commissions of characters with unusual anatomy? List your recommendations down below in chat. Thank you all

The context:
At the start of the year I had my world turned upside down and had my friend group basically destroyed, due to some circumstances. Not going to get in to detail about it because it not really the scope of this journal.

The best part:
So far after going to a few meetups, and basically rebuilding my friend group, I have found a comfortable community and supportive group I can be apart of.

The appreciation:
I would like to say thank you to all the new friends and communities that accepted me in my darkest time, and I would like to thank all of my friends that I have know for a very long time that stuck with me this whole time.

Conclusion:
At this point in time I have been working hard to get myself in a stable position, I would also like to add that I have been hanging out in vrchat more so I can focus on the friends that are showing effort and interest in the friend group. Eventually I'll see what I can do, if it's practical, to start you a new friend group server on discord and vrchat group. We will see.

PS:
Again thank you all for sticking with me through my darkest of times and helping me find a place that is comforting and has that feeling of security.

I am thinking about spend some time on Vrchat during the week days when I can. The reason is because I want to spend more time with friends. That being said I'll be on today (5/12/2025).

I am thinking of making a friend group, or just a group, on vrchat just because I want to. What do you think, Should I?

Sweet snacks or salty snack, what do you pick?

An appreciation:

After thinking a bit about my situation and how trust, and for some lack their of played in to things, I have realized a few things. I know I have talked about my ex and last night he proved to me he wanted to mend things, that’s all I wanted to hear. The next step is to show, through with action, and interest in rebuilding that trust, and it’s not easy or fast to rebuild trust. I would like to say to him that I do appreciate that first step.

The next step:

That being said it’s a long journey to trust him again and even if rebuilding things will never be the same. When trust is broken and rebuild the scars still remain as a reminder. Even though those scars remain and I can’t fully trust him I do forgive him for destroying my world, my everything. Today as a show of good faith I will be deleting some journals that was upsetting him. I don’t have ill will but I do need him and others to understand that trust is like a vase, once broken it will never be the same.

Conclusion:
So after all that, here are some bullet points. The first I am deleting journals that don’t reflect how I feel currently, those just cause issues and its out of good faith. The second, he has to rebuild that trust he broke with his actions not just words. Thirdly, there are things I can’t forgive him for but I will forgive him for somethings in good faith. I am on a long journey to recovery and I want others and him to respect that.

PS:
Don’t go after people due to drama or BS. Be respectful to everyone even if you don’t like the person. Respect is the foundation on which the world is built, don’t forget that.

"As kids we loved the heroes, as adults we understand the villains"
~unknown.

If anyone knows who said this let me, is a good quote.

At some point I might make a vrchat group for friends, I don't know it will turn out. we will see.

So after wait for a long time Trias finally refunded the commission the I ordered around two or more years ago. There should me no reason why a commission should take two years with no updates or some kind of direct messages explaining why.

Wish you all a happy New Year, lets make 2025 a better year.

I would like to say thank you for artofjinx99 for a charming idea and commission, keep up the good work. If anyone else is interesting they do have som ych commissions as well.

Click here for an example of one of their ych commission.

Sorry for me being inactive on FA for a few days. my BF broke up with me and it was the most painful kind of hurt I have ever had. Currently I am doing ok and just wandering around mostly. So yeah piecing my life back together and just hanging around on vrchat, etc. I would like to thank all my friends for being there for me in my time of need.

Update 11/18/24 -
I am doing a bit better now, I'm going to focus more on my health and personal projects.

So I have had a bunch of artists come out of the wood work asking if I would like a to commission them, I ended up doing too much at one time. Most of the artists that I met are very nice and I was able to make payments. so here are some lessons I learned recently.

The first lesson is to check the gallery and any socials they have. The reason is that I trusted an artist by the name of Andrea Santos, only to later on looked into the person and even looked on his twitter and realized that he might have scammed others including me. To make sure, I showed my boyfriend, which is a actual professional artist / "popufur" and he agreed to what I was thinking as well.

The second lesson is to make sure you time out the commissions properly to insure that you have the money or if the artist let you make payments then make sure you keep track of that. a good application that I have used to do this task is borg calendar, google calendar also works.

The third lesson is to never accept a commission when a artist asks if you want one. this is what I should have said, " I'll commission you when i am ready".

The fourth lesson is to stick with artists you trust.

In short this week has been one very big lesson in to managing the commissions I have ordered and to be more carful. Thank you all for reading my short , but dumb, experience. I felt kind of dumb about all this, lol.

Giving a friend a shout out because I like what he does. He has a charming art style and I think giving him a boost is well deserved. If anyone would like a commission he is open as of 10/11/24. love your art work annormal and hope you don't mind the shout out.

click here if you want a commission from annormal.

Tomorrow is going to be that first time I'll be see Furality, even though it's going to be in desktop mode.

Check this toaster out. Click here

Came across this youtube channel called Dylan's Cooking Diaries and I am addicted to watching his video and shorts.

There are some commissions I haven't be able to upload. So today I'll try to upload some commissions I forgot to or have been up able to upload until now.

I hope that every one will have a great new year. Lets learn from the year 2022 and hope for a better 2023.

What artists do you all recommended getting art from ? Because I have characters with foothands / foot wrists. Lol

A few months back I have asked phantomshotgun about the species. After that conversation I am still thinking about making one. So should I make kalasian oc ?

As a Linux user and a big advocate of open source software I would like to give my opinion about open species. In my opinion open species are important, due to the fact that it gives an artist or the creators of the open species an opportunity to bring people together under something they have in common, giving fans of the open species a sense of belonging, community, and unity. It's just something I thought about. What do you think ? Feel free to comments respectfully.

Shower thoughts.

Well have no electricity or phone line so everything it being done or posted through my phone.

UPDATE : I got internet back yay !!!!