f**k... i hate this bull shit that ive been doing to my friends... you know it true when people say that the number one on a persons priority list is thenselves... you know i try soo hard to make other happy before myself.. that it ends up being about me... i try helping people with their problems before my own and it ends up they are helping me enstead.. when is that going to stop... like f**k... its soo stupid.. yah i try doing stupid things so people will like me but its up to them if they do... i try being myself but that never works... its all so «F**KING STUPID....

i am having the worst week of my life... i got dumped by someone that i put a lot of time tryin to keep happy.. i told one of my ex-bestfriends that i dont want to be there friend anymore.. have burned and cut myself.. because i prefer to take my pain out on myself than other people... and i really dont know what else to say.... omg *starts to cry*

well here are some things about me:

im 18, i have brownish hair, kinda tall, medium build (not so sure bout that one actually) i have no longer a love to share in my joys of life with... and my new life im will soon be living in 9 months...