++++++ATTENTION TO FREE CUSTOM ADOPTS++++++
General | Posted 12 years agoI am sad to say that I lost my notes for the custom adopts u~u so I need to know who had the owl+moth and what your colors were...I'll be doing the lines today so if you could let me know asap that would be awesome. Again I am so sorry that I lost your note T.T
Affexion, I am almost done with yours, I'll be posting it soon. So sorry for the extremely long wait.
Avin (I have to get used to your new name now xDD) I'll do your sketch after the lines for the owl+moth.
Free Art Raffle [by Vjorgen]
General | Posted 12 years agoWAW [Watcher Appreciation Wednesdays]
General | Posted 12 years agoHow does that sound to everyone? Smells like free art right? xD Well your nose is correct! I want to start a free sketch day for my loyal watchers that keep me company and make me feel good like I have friends and that my art is being appreciated~ So if you make me know who you are by commenting more or sending me a note to chat then I might draw something for you ^^ Depending on how fast I sketch or what I have going on that day I'd probably pick 1-2 people. The same person cannot be picked more than once in 2 months, I will keep a list of who I drew for and when. So start talkin tah meh! >^<
Watcher Questionnaire
General | Posted 12 years ago
Please answer truthfully~ Critiques are nice.
- Why did you watch me initially?
- Why do you still watch me?
- What's your favorite thing to see from me?
- What's your least favorite thing to see from me?
- What would you like to see me do that I've never done?
- What do you think I should improve on?
YEAY!!!
General | Posted 12 years ago
Dylan's going to be back tonight!!
Friend Crushes Rant
General | Posted 12 years agoSo on Monday one of the friends, Brandon M., I made this semester that I have been spending a lot of time with told me he wanted to date me and I told him I have a boyfriend, he was upset, but took it well (so it seems right now, he hasn't changed the way he acts towards me and he might be very good at hiding it =/ I'm not sure..) and now another friend, Brandon A., just told me today that my other friend Austin has a huge crush on me and bashes Dylan while I'm not around...this is very upsetting to me...1 he's never met Dylan so he has no right to bash him for being my boyfriend just cause he's across the country right now, love knows no distance and we would wait forever for each other; 2 today was the last day of school so I don't know when I will see him next, I want to confront him about it to see if it's true and to tell him to stop; and 3 he talks his crap to all my other friends we play magic with and I don't know how awkward it's making everyone feel when they know that I have no idea and he's bashing, I mean they are all nerd guys so they are already awkward so it's hard to tell if they are bothered or they are indifferent and are just being their normal awkward selves.... How many more of them feel the same way about me? Should I stop making male friends? Should I stop being a nerd?! Dylan is not a jealous person, he knows I am very friendly with my friends, but he trusts me because he knows that I only love him and would never hurt him by being with someone else; I am very grateful for that because it is just easier for me to make male friends, I just get along better with them, especially being a nerd and playing magic I'm around about 30 guys all day long. Seriously, for every female friend I make, I make 3 guy friends.
I just need someone to talk this out with...I think I'd rather talk with someone who doesn't know them before talking with a friend that does and might not know about the situation. I'll probably end up asking Gage if he's heard any of this.
I just need someone to talk this out with...I think I'd rather talk with someone who doesn't know them before talking with a friend that does and might not know about the situation. I'll probably end up asking Gage if he's heard any of this.
I got a job! ^.^ And Awesome Ideas!!
General | Posted 12 years agoSo I got a job as a Health Coach for Herbalife! I'm an independent contractor that sells herbalife products, promotes healthy living and an active lifestyle by hosting group workouts. I want to see if I can get an hourly job with them somehow so I'm not relying on the sale of the products. But I would like to pose a question; I know most of you don't live in my area, but just to see if it's a good idea.
I just thought of today an idea that I think is really good and would help lots of people and myself. I want to host a group workout called Herbalife for Cosplay. It will be a beginner level workouts for those cosplayers that don't get out much and probably don't have muscles to do the more intense workouts that Herbalife provides like Level 10 (which I attended and I'm still sore 3 days later). This is to help individuals build muscle, lose fat and tone their body for those dream cosplays that show a little more than you would like. I know there are people who cosplay want to work out, but never stick with it (myself being one of them), this will provide a friendly energetic environment for people to come and have fun and enjoy working out with others that have the same goals, plus we'll be surrounded by fellow otakus and other nerds. It will make you want to come back and continue getting fit for that next big con! The workouts will be completely free, no requirement to continue, it's your own choice to come back, what will be charged is for the products that enhance your workout sessions like delicious post workout shakes that replenish your bodies nutrience and snack foods to help curb your hunger. No purchase of any products is required to join in the workout sessions, only a positive attitude and the will to be fit and healthy.
I want to hold these workouts 2 times a week at Fair Oaks park behind the library for people living in the Citrus Heights, Fair Oaks and Orangevalle areas. Since Level 10 hosts in Rocklin, I figured to host one somewhere different to get a different set of faces, and I know there are a lot of cosplay enthusiasts in that area, because I live there xD!
I also want to sell some herbalife advertisement in art form, like buttons, keychains and patches for 'For Cosplay!' to help spread the word and fellow cosplayers to join and workout together.
This would also extend out to the local furries of course! I would love to meet some in my area! But please don't wear your suit during the workout xD I don't want anyone to die.
I am going to talk to my recruiter about this idea on Tuesday (because that's when we have class and I would rather do it face-to-face).
Also another awesome idea I had yesterday while on the Komen Race for the Cure is that we could have a furry group do the walk in full fursuits or partials!! Furs for the Cure! or if anyone else can think of a more clever name that would entertain people that would be great. I want to gather people to participate in the walk next year and join me in fursuit! I'm still debating whether we should do the 5k or the 1 mile. It gets really hot on the 5k (just over 3 miles), but I figured full fursuiters would be used to it or well prepared, plus we would get better advertising if we did the full 5k.
I'm really excited about these ideas guys, like you have no idea, even though I just thought of these this morning! (gotta love shower epiphanies) I hope others get just as excited as I am. I really want some feedback on these, even if you can't participate if you have an idea I want to hear it! Please help me make this experience the best one for people!
I just thought of today an idea that I think is really good and would help lots of people and myself. I want to host a group workout called Herbalife for Cosplay. It will be a beginner level workouts for those cosplayers that don't get out much and probably don't have muscles to do the more intense workouts that Herbalife provides like Level 10 (which I attended and I'm still sore 3 days later). This is to help individuals build muscle, lose fat and tone their body for those dream cosplays that show a little more than you would like. I know there are people who cosplay want to work out, but never stick with it (myself being one of them), this will provide a friendly energetic environment for people to come and have fun and enjoy working out with others that have the same goals, plus we'll be surrounded by fellow otakus and other nerds. It will make you want to come back and continue getting fit for that next big con! The workouts will be completely free, no requirement to continue, it's your own choice to come back, what will be charged is for the products that enhance your workout sessions like delicious post workout shakes that replenish your bodies nutrience and snack foods to help curb your hunger. No purchase of any products is required to join in the workout sessions, only a positive attitude and the will to be fit and healthy.
I want to hold these workouts 2 times a week at Fair Oaks park behind the library for people living in the Citrus Heights, Fair Oaks and Orangevalle areas. Since Level 10 hosts in Rocklin, I figured to host one somewhere different to get a different set of faces, and I know there are a lot of cosplay enthusiasts in that area, because I live there xD!
I also want to sell some herbalife advertisement in art form, like buttons, keychains and patches for 'For Cosplay!' to help spread the word and fellow cosplayers to join and workout together.
This would also extend out to the local furries of course! I would love to meet some in my area! But please don't wear your suit during the workout xD I don't want anyone to die.
I am going to talk to my recruiter about this idea on Tuesday (because that's when we have class and I would rather do it face-to-face).
Also another awesome idea I had yesterday while on the Komen Race for the Cure is that we could have a furry group do the walk in full fursuits or partials!! Furs for the Cure! or if anyone else can think of a more clever name that would entertain people that would be great. I want to gather people to participate in the walk next year and join me in fursuit! I'm still debating whether we should do the 5k or the 1 mile. It gets really hot on the 5k (just over 3 miles), but I figured full fursuiters would be used to it or well prepared, plus we would get better advertising if we did the full 5k.
I'm really excited about these ideas guys, like you have no idea, even though I just thought of these this morning! (gotta love shower epiphanies) I hope others get just as excited as I am. I really want some feedback on these, even if you can't participate if you have an idea I want to hear it! Please help me make this experience the best one for people!
I need to art more T.T
General | Posted 12 years agoAs soon as school ends I want to art like crazy, I've only been doing school projects this semester...there isn't really time for any other arting because of school. My poor markers haven't even come out of their case because I haven't drawn anything to color T.T so sad.
Sick + Art Awards
General | Posted 12 years agoSo I've been sick with apparently the flu the last couple days and stayed home from school on Monday and Tuesday. I went to school today though, part of me wishes I hadn't, but I like school and don't like missing it, especially to stay home in bed doing nothing :/ I went to the doctors yesterday and he gave me 3 medications to take xP
I got 2 of my art pieces into a student gallery held at my college =3 In the Dark & Art Block Suicide. I won an award for both pieces! ^^ Systech Displays Award for In the Dark for $100 =D and Best Mixed Media for Art Block Suicide for $50 ^^ I'm so happy and surprised xD I wasn't expecting awards for my art xD
I got 2 of my art pieces into a student gallery held at my college =3 In the Dark & Art Block Suicide. I won an award for both pieces! ^^ Systech Displays Award for In the Dark for $100 =D and Best Mixed Media for Art Block Suicide for $50 ^^ I'm so happy and surprised xD I wasn't expecting awards for my art xD
Adopted Kitties
General | Posted 12 years agoSo Dylan's dad and step-mom are moving out of their house next week; I'm gonna go back over before they go so I can say good bye, I'm going to miss them T.T and staying at the house...I really like it there, it just feels like a safe place for me, it always hurts to leave.
I brought Ninja home on the 12th and he's been great this week. I just brought BeeBee home tonight. I'll post some pix when I get some~
On to the more exciting news. I know, what can be more exciting than adopting 2 kitties? Dylan is coming home soon. He's not an athlete and couldn't handle the physical demands of the Army training so their sending him home. HE says he's gonna be home in 4 weeks, but that doesn't really make sense, oh well. I'm not 100% happy with that, but I am mostly happy that we'll be together again and I won't have to wait til November. It's not turning out how I thought it would, but it never does so I'm not too surprised about that =/ We're just going to have to work harder to start our life together, mostly him, he's gonna be a hard worker when he gets back.
I'm looking forward to our future. I like hard work and it will be worth it so we can be together always.
I brought Ninja home on the 12th and he's been great this week. I just brought BeeBee home tonight. I'll post some pix when I get some~
On to the more exciting news. I know, what can be more exciting than adopting 2 kitties? Dylan is coming home soon. He's not an athlete and couldn't handle the physical demands of the Army training so their sending him home. HE says he's gonna be home in 4 weeks, but that doesn't really make sense, oh well. I'm not 100% happy with that, but I am mostly happy that we'll be together again and I won't have to wait til November. It's not turning out how I thought it would, but it never does so I'm not too surprised about that =/ We're just going to have to work harder to start our life together, mostly him, he's gonna be a hard worker when he gets back.
I'm looking forward to our future. I like hard work and it will be worth it so we can be together always.
More Crunchy Updates
General | Posted 12 years agoLol, see what I did there? >w>
Anywhosals I've gotten quite a few more letters from my beloved. He's still doing pretty bad :( His feet are in constant pain and he has to take some pain killers, but it doesn't help. His night terrors are still afflicting him, he said they are about him getting his unit in trouble in the middle of the night and them all having to do push ups. Pretty standard as far as night terrors go in military life I guess. He's going to see a doctor for them on Thursday, he is really hoping for a medical discharge, which I doubt he is going to get, but he has is heart set on it, he thinks it's going to happen. I've wrote him a few letters when I get news like that from him that he shouldn't hope for that, if he comes home now he will not have a home to go to and he will have no way to pay for a place to live and no job :( I'm really worried about him. He's not going to pass the fitness tests and they are going to restart him and he'll have to do boot camp all over. He won't be able to handle that and I definitely will not stand for him to get a bad conduct discharge from him trying to get kicked out. That goes on your record and it will be even harder for him to find a job. If he could just get enough sleep and let his body recover I know he would be able to train enough to pass, but with him not being able to sleep it's impossible to do that kind of work.
He also mailed me that he thinks we should get married. Now don't get me wrong, I am all for that, but just not right now. I told him I want to wait a couple years when we have settled in our own life, have our own place, jobs, done with school (for the time being) and are stable. We can get engaged whenever, but I want to wait to get married. I also want my parents to like him, I want him to spend more time with my family and let them get to know him. I want my parents to know that I found my true love and that I'll be happy. My sister told me that my mom told her that she's afraid that I will marry him too soon and we'll have all these life problems. I'm smarter than that. She's paranoid because of my cousin who is making all of these wrong decisions in her life, my mom is her guardian, she thinks I'm going to end up like her, a slut, lazy, a quitter, pregnant, single mother, party animal; I don't know why she thinks I would do any of that, she doesn't trust that she raised me right. Even if she didn't raise me right I did learn for myself what life is supposed to be like and how to be truly happy, and I found the person who will take me there. I do love him, I am only complete with him, without him I am only half of me, the half that everyone knows because I was only living half a life, half a love, half of happiness; my friends have seen how happy I can be before I met him, and that's only half of how happy I feel when I'm with him. I know we will live a long, happy life together, I have no doubts about that, so I have no problem waiting until the time is right.
He has these plans about where we are going to live together when he gets back, but none of them are very realistic. I'm going to be at my college until the end of 2014 when I graduate with a couple certificates and my associate's degree. We need a nice, cheap place that allows cats and it close to the school and work because we won't have a car and I don't really want to take the bus...my friend does that and I think it's really time wasteful. Same friend's girlfriend lives in an apartment that is down the street from my school, I could walk or ride my bike every day. There are also a lot of businesses around the school and in the area, easily walk-able or bike-able. Also I am applying for an internship at a local business to my college area, I could possibly get hired after the internship if I get accepted. The internship will be a created position for me to work with a Project Manager there =3 since they've never had anyone intern on the management side, only artists and developers. I will be the best intern they've ever had >:3 I am more than perfect for this career and I will get my chance to prove it. If I don't get the internship I will keep going back and trying. I'm going to take a few computer science classes and game development classes so I'll have both game design and art backgrounds to help mitigate between the two departments I will be dealing with. So back to the topic of where to live, the company is close to my school and Dylan could also work there as a game/guidebook tester, if he ever applies. I mean, getting paid to play video games (which is what he does all day anyway) would be good for him I think, and this company promotes from within so he could work his way up from tester to editor =3 and if I get hired from the internship I can put in a word for him. The apartments are cheap and really nice, they allow cats and they have a pool, walking distance to everywhere.
I'm not going to get the money to buy a plane ticket to go see him next month in time so instead I am going to save up to pay for my next semester classes. I really wish I could see him, but I don't know if that would hurt him or encourage him. I'd only be able to visit for a day and a half at least, it would never be enough.
In other news:
I'll be uploading a bunch of pictures this weekend~ I will be finishing up my pastel landscape of Vulcan and I will have a bunch of speed color sketches of nature for my english assignment, because I can xD
My In the Dark and my Art Block Suicide got accepted into the student gallery at my school =D!! But my Dirty Little Secret did not :( Too bad, but now I have a nicely framed work that I can hang up ^^
Anywhosals I've gotten quite a few more letters from my beloved. He's still doing pretty bad :( His feet are in constant pain and he has to take some pain killers, but it doesn't help. His night terrors are still afflicting him, he said they are about him getting his unit in trouble in the middle of the night and them all having to do push ups. Pretty standard as far as night terrors go in military life I guess. He's going to see a doctor for them on Thursday, he is really hoping for a medical discharge, which I doubt he is going to get, but he has is heart set on it, he thinks it's going to happen. I've wrote him a few letters when I get news like that from him that he shouldn't hope for that, if he comes home now he will not have a home to go to and he will have no way to pay for a place to live and no job :( I'm really worried about him. He's not going to pass the fitness tests and they are going to restart him and he'll have to do boot camp all over. He won't be able to handle that and I definitely will not stand for him to get a bad conduct discharge from him trying to get kicked out. That goes on your record and it will be even harder for him to find a job. If he could just get enough sleep and let his body recover I know he would be able to train enough to pass, but with him not being able to sleep it's impossible to do that kind of work.
He also mailed me that he thinks we should get married. Now don't get me wrong, I am all for that, but just not right now. I told him I want to wait a couple years when we have settled in our own life, have our own place, jobs, done with school (for the time being) and are stable. We can get engaged whenever, but I want to wait to get married. I also want my parents to like him, I want him to spend more time with my family and let them get to know him. I want my parents to know that I found my true love and that I'll be happy. My sister told me that my mom told her that she's afraid that I will marry him too soon and we'll have all these life problems. I'm smarter than that. She's paranoid because of my cousin who is making all of these wrong decisions in her life, my mom is her guardian, she thinks I'm going to end up like her, a slut, lazy, a quitter, pregnant, single mother, party animal; I don't know why she thinks I would do any of that, she doesn't trust that she raised me right. Even if she didn't raise me right I did learn for myself what life is supposed to be like and how to be truly happy, and I found the person who will take me there. I do love him, I am only complete with him, without him I am only half of me, the half that everyone knows because I was only living half a life, half a love, half of happiness; my friends have seen how happy I can be before I met him, and that's only half of how happy I feel when I'm with him. I know we will live a long, happy life together, I have no doubts about that, so I have no problem waiting until the time is right.
He has these plans about where we are going to live together when he gets back, but none of them are very realistic. I'm going to be at my college until the end of 2014 when I graduate with a couple certificates and my associate's degree. We need a nice, cheap place that allows cats and it close to the school and work because we won't have a car and I don't really want to take the bus...my friend does that and I think it's really time wasteful. Same friend's girlfriend lives in an apartment that is down the street from my school, I could walk or ride my bike every day. There are also a lot of businesses around the school and in the area, easily walk-able or bike-able. Also I am applying for an internship at a local business to my college area, I could possibly get hired after the internship if I get accepted. The internship will be a created position for me to work with a Project Manager there =3 since they've never had anyone intern on the management side, only artists and developers. I will be the best intern they've ever had >:3 I am more than perfect for this career and I will get my chance to prove it. If I don't get the internship I will keep going back and trying. I'm going to take a few computer science classes and game development classes so I'll have both game design and art backgrounds to help mitigate between the two departments I will be dealing with. So back to the topic of where to live, the company is close to my school and Dylan could also work there as a game/guidebook tester, if he ever applies. I mean, getting paid to play video games (which is what he does all day anyway) would be good for him I think, and this company promotes from within so he could work his way up from tester to editor =3 and if I get hired from the internship I can put in a word for him. The apartments are cheap and really nice, they allow cats and they have a pool, walking distance to everywhere.
I'm not going to get the money to buy a plane ticket to go see him next month in time so instead I am going to save up to pay for my next semester classes. I really wish I could see him, but I don't know if that would hurt him or encourage him. I'd only be able to visit for a day and a half at least, it would never be enough.
In other news:
I'll be uploading a bunch of pictures this weekend~ I will be finishing up my pastel landscape of Vulcan and I will have a bunch of speed color sketches of nature for my english assignment, because I can xD
My In the Dark and my Art Block Suicide got accepted into the student gallery at my school =D!! But my Dirty Little Secret did not :( Too bad, but now I have a nicely framed work that I can hang up ^^
New Writer Open for Commissions!!
General | Posted 12 years ago
Hey guys!
astralblaze is open for short, written commissions! For $5 he'll write you anything, and he means anything ;3 so go get some awesome stories written with your sona!
I Got Blocked?!
General | Posted 12 years agoI paid for a badge 2 months ago and I sent 2 notes and 1 comment just asking what's going on because I want to know the progress or delay of my commission. And she blocked me :I what? She didn't even have the decency to reply or even tell me what's going on! I paid for it already! What am I supposed to do?
Edit: I just noted her on BattyArts so hopefully she reads it and not block that account as well. I sent screen shots of my paypal transaction and our FA notes, hopefully she will remember.
Edit 2: She refunded my money with no explanation. I still have no idea why this happened...
Edit: I just noted her on BattyArts so hopefully she reads it and not block that account as well. I sent screen shots of my paypal transaction and our FA notes, hopefully she will remember.
Edit 2: She refunded my money with no explanation. I still have no idea why this happened...
Crunch Sadness
General | Posted 12 years ago
I just got some disturbing news today regarding Crunch. He sent me some letters from Friday and Sunday (22 and 24) about how his training is going. Seems like in a week and a half it has changed drastically. He's been getting night terrors that wake him up every 30 minutes and doing full days of extensive physical training is getting impossible. He's been getting frustrated lately and he yelled at one of the drill sargents....They threatened to kick him out. He found out he's not going to get kicked, but they might put him up for a restart which means to do extra weeks of boot camp. He said that if he gets restarted he's going to try to get kicked out... He can't stand it there, which I know that's what everyone says at boot camp, that's what they want, they want you to hate it, they want you to hate them. With everything that's going on, he needs to stay there and finish all his training, it's what's best. He wants to be back home with me and I want him back too, but it just doesn't feel right to me, I think he and we will struggle if he comes back now. I hope I can make him understand and get his strength back to finish. He wrote his mom and dad as well letting them know what has happened and how he feels, his mom got the letter today as well so I assume his dad got it as well, I will be visiting on Friday so we'll be able to talk about it... His dad knows a lot about this and was expecting it so I can predict what he is going to say about the situation.
I'm going to write back to him in a couple hours so if anyone comments with me before then, I would appreciate it.
Anteater Design Contest
General | Posted 12 years agoUpdates
General | Posted 12 years agoSpent some hours at Dylan's house today. It was nice.. I really like it over there, so nice, I talked with Rick for a an hour or so just about stuff, he has lots of great advice and he makes me feel so welcomed into their family T.T he said I am responsible and he knows I'm a good person and that I will do fine in the world, I have a clear plan for my future; the words I wanted to hear from my own parents. Anyway Rick got the job in Hawaii so he's started packing, he's just waiting 30-40 days for his background check to be completed. So when he moves I will be taking in Ninja. Also I'm not really sure what will happen when Dylan comes back since his dad will be in Hawaii. But there are some cheap, nice apartments down the street from my school that allow pets, I think that might be our best shot because I want to finish up my AA at Sierra before moving somewhere else and I still have 2 years maybe before I graduate. He will be getting $300 a month from the army so we'd just have to pay $400-500 a month from our own pockets. I'm going to get a summer job to start saving up so we can have at least a couple months rent ahead of time so he has a few months to find a job. I have a friend that lives in those apartments and I've been over a few times, they are really nice little apartments, I think they will be a good place to stay until I graduate
I also took a pattern making class and my mom bought us some really nice tools owo so I can now make custom fitting clothes and patterns!! Men's, woman's and children's~ >W< I'm going to make myself some nice suits so I have more than one. And also we bought these cool books on how to alter patterns for style xD it's freaking awesome! Also how to fix commercial patterns because some of the instructions are wrong o-o I agree and I found this information eye-opening. I'm going to have so much fun with all my new toys >W<
Also battyarts is open for 20% discount commissions until the 30th! All purchases are funding my ticket to visit Dylan in May.
I also took a pattern making class and my mom bought us some really nice tools owo so I can now make custom fitting clothes and patterns!! Men's, woman's and children's~ >W< I'm going to make myself some nice suits so I have more than one. And also we bought these cool books on how to alter patterns for style xD it's freaking awesome! Also how to fix commercial patterns because some of the instructions are wrong o-o I agree and I found this information eye-opening. I'm going to have so much fun with all my new toys >W<
Also battyarts is open for 20% discount commissions until the 30th! All purchases are funding my ticket to visit Dylan in May.
Going through a redesign of my characters!!
General | Posted 13 years agoI'm redesigning Toast and Quips this week =3 It's going to be exciting~~ If you have seen "I'll Wait For You", my newest submission from school, then you may have noticed Toast now has the typical american short haired markings, she seemed to plain for my liking so I added dark blue stripes and she looks 1000x better and Quips is getting a makeover to look more bat-like He his not a canine-bat hybrid as some bat lovers might assume by looking at his reference sheet....so! I am giving him more bat-like features =3 fun fun. Also I will be making some examples of possible commissions using Quips's and Toast's new designs, they will be posted on battyarts so keep watch for awesomes xD
Got My Letter!!
General | Posted 13 years agoSo it looks like it takes 3 days to receive a letter after sending. TAT he made me cry, so sweet. He said I am his only motivation to get up in the morning <33333 He only gets 30 minutes every night for break, but it gets taken up from washing so he doesn't have a lot of time. I don't know how he's going to have time to read my book I'm gonna send him xD I never realized just how much happens to me in just a few days. He said that a lot of the people training with him don't care so the rest of them get punished. He made some friends which I'm so happy for, it would be miserable without friends there :( and he got on the bad side of one of the drill Sargent because he sucks at drills and marching xD and he got the nickname "Monster Masher" which I think is a pretty awesome nickname considering he's in the army, I thought they would be calling people maggots and stuff x.x stupid movies
So now I get to write to him all the important things that happened to me these last two weeks. I want to finish my lineart project tonight so I can send him a print of it, I don't know where he'd be able to keep my letters though, I'm sure he can keep them where he keeps his clothes or something. But he's my greatest motivation, I don't know if I would be where I am today without him, he's helped me realize a lot of things about my life and about myself that I don't think I would have noticed without him. I'm not gonna let him surpass me while he's gone though xD we're gonna grow together even though we are apart. I'm going to do better in school (which I am) and improve myself in general, while he's off becoming a man I'm going to become a woman.
By the way, all the money I make is going towards a plane ticket to go see him when he gets his break in May, that's why I'm kinda really pushing on the adopts.
Well I'm off to finish those first batches of adopts and write my letter and finish my project.
So now I get to write to him all the important things that happened to me these last two weeks. I want to finish my lineart project tonight so I can send him a print of it, I don't know where he'd be able to keep my letters though, I'm sure he can keep them where he keeps his clothes or something. But he's my greatest motivation, I don't know if I would be where I am today without him, he's helped me realize a lot of things about my life and about myself that I don't think I would have noticed without him. I'm not gonna let him surpass me while he's gone though xD we're gonna grow together even though we are apart. I'm going to do better in school (which I am) and improve myself in general, while he's off becoming a man I'm going to become a woman.
By the way, all the money I make is going towards a plane ticket to go see him when he gets his break in May, that's why I'm kinda really pushing on the adopts.
Well I'm off to finish those first batches of adopts and write my letter and finish my project.
Is it sad that
General | Posted 13 years agoSorry for the rants guys, it's just it makes me feel better to type it and know that someone reads it. No one I talk to can help me but myself, but there is nothing I can do and this is my only way of keeping sane and not get into a fight with my parents.
Is it sad that I feel more at home at Dylan's house than at my own house? I mean I live here, but I don't belong. Had this sudden realization today while on my way home from his house. I was visiting Rick and Tiff and the cats, they treat me like family and I am so grateful to them for accepting me into their family TT~TT My greatest wish is that my parents could be the same way. They think that it's creepy that I wanted to visit Dylan's parents while he's gone, they are my family too, why wouldn't I go visit them? I don't want to not see them for 7 months. I know and understand that my parents grew up in terrible situations and that made them grow up tough; I do not live in the same situation that they did, they raised me well, I know my right from wrongs and I don't put myself into bad situations. I mean flip! Yesterday I went to Owen's birthday, there were 4 other people there, 3 were guys and his girlfriend, they are all 15-16 mind you (yes I know a 20 year old hanging with 16 year olds, weird? Idc, I forget how young Owen is because he is very mature for his age), anyway, I stayed the night and even got permission from my parents *key point* and I got in trouble today :/ My mom decided to give me a lecture. She said she doesn't want me to become "one of those people that doesn't know when to leave" what? I really don't understand where she got this from, it really does not apply to the situation I was in. Also she was afraid that I was gonna get raped. Really? By a nerd 16 year old that I could kick his face? She said there could have been a date rape drug in my drink and I wouldn't even know. What kind of parties does she think I go to? What kind of friends does she think I have? Seriously, she gives me this lecture after/before every party I go to. For the record, my definition of a party is a gathering of some friends, maybe 10 at the most, and we sit around and eat junk food and laugh at each other and play games. The worst part is that she always does these things at the worst times. She gave me this lecture while we were out picking up my grandpa from his care home. Another time I was on my way out the door to go on see a movie with Dylan and his mom and my mom asked me if I was still a virgin; really? right then? was that necessary? I honestly can't have a nice conversation with her to save her life, it will be nice at first, but then she twists it around and instantly drops me to the floor. She only cares about grades and studying and getting a good job or just the logical stuff in life. She doesn't have any interest in my personal life or my private life, I wouldn't even mind telling them everything, if they would listen or even care. My dad doesn't even want to hear that Dylan and I cuddled on the couch while we watched a movie. They never ask questions that actually mean anything, they are just making small talk to get to the only thing they care about. Today my mom asked me how Rick is doing and I said fine, the only reason she asked was as an ice breaker to find out if he got the job in Hawaii or not, she doesn't care about him, why would she? I don't even think they've met.
I told Owen today that the way I can describe my life is that my parents build a glass box around me, since I couldn't see the walls I thought there were none. I played happily in the center of the box, never straying toward the edges, but now that I'm older I can see the world outside the box and I desperately want to be on the other side of the glass, I run to each edge over and over trying to find a weak spot. The only way I can be free is to smash through with a money hammer and be rid of my parents and live my life with Dylan, and work through our struggles together and be happy. If my sister can get he driver's license this summer then I can move out when Dylan comes back and I can take the bus or find a car pool with someone. I don't think I've ever been so serious about moving out ever. This needs to happen soon. I need that job over the summer.
Also at the party I lost the bracelet Dylan gave me for christmas (AGAIN) About 2 months ago the clasp got jammed during an intense 40 minute long tickle session, it's been fine wearing it around until last night. Sad part is I took Owen to Target so he could buy Borderlands 2 and I don't know if it fell off in his house, outside his house, in my car, in the parking lot or in the store.... I left a description and a drawing of it and my phone number at the lost and found, hopefully a honest citizen finds it and turns it in for me T.T or it's in my car or Owen's house.
EDIT 3/11: I found my bracelet T.T Turns out I never wore it to the party at all....
To end with good news, Dylan finished orientation, he got his uniform and his head shaved xD He also listed me as his beneficiary :'3 It's just another thing that makes our relationship more solid for me, I mean not that I have any doubts xD but it still makes me really happy just knowing that. I should be receiving my first letter from him soon <3 My visit with Rick went well, he said I could come over anytime I want to escape my parents xD I don't even talk to him about that really and he knows I hate it here! And Tiff gave me a real mango, first time I've eaten one =3 I only got to spend 2 hours over there because I had to be back to take my grandpa home, but next week, maybe Friday I can stay longer.
And that's all from me for now.
And on a side note my room has gone from smelling like maple syrup to fruit loops.
Is it sad that I feel more at home at Dylan's house than at my own house? I mean I live here, but I don't belong. Had this sudden realization today while on my way home from his house. I was visiting Rick and Tiff and the cats, they treat me like family and I am so grateful to them for accepting me into their family TT~TT My greatest wish is that my parents could be the same way. They think that it's creepy that I wanted to visit Dylan's parents while he's gone, they are my family too, why wouldn't I go visit them? I don't want to not see them for 7 months. I know and understand that my parents grew up in terrible situations and that made them grow up tough; I do not live in the same situation that they did, they raised me well, I know my right from wrongs and I don't put myself into bad situations. I mean flip! Yesterday I went to Owen's birthday, there were 4 other people there, 3 were guys and his girlfriend, they are all 15-16 mind you (yes I know a 20 year old hanging with 16 year olds, weird? Idc, I forget how young Owen is because he is very mature for his age), anyway, I stayed the night and even got permission from my parents *key point* and I got in trouble today :/ My mom decided to give me a lecture. She said she doesn't want me to become "one of those people that doesn't know when to leave" what? I really don't understand where she got this from, it really does not apply to the situation I was in. Also she was afraid that I was gonna get raped. Really? By a nerd 16 year old that I could kick his face? She said there could have been a date rape drug in my drink and I wouldn't even know. What kind of parties does she think I go to? What kind of friends does she think I have? Seriously, she gives me this lecture after/before every party I go to. For the record, my definition of a party is a gathering of some friends, maybe 10 at the most, and we sit around and eat junk food and laugh at each other and play games. The worst part is that she always does these things at the worst times. She gave me this lecture while we were out picking up my grandpa from his care home. Another time I was on my way out the door to go on see a movie with Dylan and his mom and my mom asked me if I was still a virgin; really? right then? was that necessary? I honestly can't have a nice conversation with her to save her life, it will be nice at first, but then she twists it around and instantly drops me to the floor. She only cares about grades and studying and getting a good job or just the logical stuff in life. She doesn't have any interest in my personal life or my private life, I wouldn't even mind telling them everything, if they would listen or even care. My dad doesn't even want to hear that Dylan and I cuddled on the couch while we watched a movie. They never ask questions that actually mean anything, they are just making small talk to get to the only thing they care about. Today my mom asked me how Rick is doing and I said fine, the only reason she asked was as an ice breaker to find out if he got the job in Hawaii or not, she doesn't care about him, why would she? I don't even think they've met.
I told Owen today that the way I can describe my life is that my parents build a glass box around me, since I couldn't see the walls I thought there were none. I played happily in the center of the box, never straying toward the edges, but now that I'm older I can see the world outside the box and I desperately want to be on the other side of the glass, I run to each edge over and over trying to find a weak spot. The only way I can be free is to smash through with a money hammer and be rid of my parents and live my life with Dylan, and work through our struggles together and be happy. If my sister can get he driver's license this summer then I can move out when Dylan comes back and I can take the bus or find a car pool with someone. I don't think I've ever been so serious about moving out ever. This needs to happen soon. I need that job over the summer.
Also at the party I lost the bracelet Dylan gave me for christmas (AGAIN) About 2 months ago the clasp got jammed during an intense 40 minute long tickle session, it's been fine wearing it around until last night. Sad part is I took Owen to Target so he could buy Borderlands 2 and I don't know if it fell off in his house, outside his house, in my car, in the parking lot or in the store.... I left a description and a drawing of it and my phone number at the lost and found, hopefully a honest citizen finds it and turns it in for me T.T or it's in my car or Owen's house.
EDIT 3/11: I found my bracelet T.T Turns out I never wore it to the party at all....
To end with good news, Dylan finished orientation, he got his uniform and his head shaved xD He also listed me as his beneficiary :'3 It's just another thing that makes our relationship more solid for me, I mean not that I have any doubts xD but it still makes me really happy just knowing that. I should be receiving my first letter from him soon <3 My visit with Rick went well, he said I could come over anytime I want to escape my parents xD I don't even talk to him about that really and he knows I hate it here! And Tiff gave me a real mango, first time I've eaten one =3 I only got to spend 2 hours over there because I had to be back to take my grandpa home, but next week, maybe Friday I can stay longer.
And that's all from me for now.
And on a side note my room has gone from smelling like maple syrup to fruit loops.
Update on Crunch (Dylan)
General | Posted 13 years agoSo as many of you know my boyfriend joined the Army Reserves a few months ago. Over the weekend we had a goodbye party for him on Saturday where some of his family came over and we had some drinks (yes I drank xD). Rick (Dylan's dad) wanted to have Dylan hurl by the end of the night since it was his first time drinking a lot, because he turns 21 while he's gonna be gone so he wanted him to know how much he can drink before he can't handle it anymore so it doesn't happen while he's at the base, because those guys will fuck with you xD anyway he got pretty drunk, he likes to lick a lot when he's drunk xDDD and I had to hold him up quite a bit cause I didn't want him to fall, but he still ended up doing when I wasn't holding him. Anyway he didn't end up vomiting but he got pretty close. I just had a Mike's hard cranberry lemonade and the last bit of his rum&coke (pepsi) so he won't drink it xD so I was ok. Anyway after he fell and hit his head on a stool I took him to bed to sleep it off at around 10:30 or something idk, I wasn't watching the clock.
I kind wish he hadn't drunk so much because we couldn't really snuggle all of his last day because his stomach hurt, but he was having fun and I'll have plenty of time over the rest of our lives so I was able to not be upset about that which I'm happy for, I didn't want to spend our last day together upset. It was really hard not to bawl my eyes out every time he touched me, cause I knew that I wouldn't feel it again for so long. I didn't want his last image of me to be crying so I tried to smile a lot, it's not that hard when he's there, but I didn't want to cry.
My parents were being assholes as usual with our relationship and wanted me to be home at 11am on Sunday, pff like that was going to happen, I came back for like an hour so we could pick up my grandpa, because since my dad had surgery on his foot he can't help my mom get him into the car and my car is easiest to get him into. They were upset I wanted to go back. e.O what?! yeah and then my mom said to stop giving her lip when I was asking what time I needed to be back to take my grandpa home, which I wasn't, I bet she felt like a bitch when she was talking to me like that and she found out that it was his last day for 7 months, mhm, kinda felt good a little, but still. Also I can't believe that my parents don't talk to each other. I tell my dad important things and he never tells them to my mom, I have to tell her separately which is hard because she's gone at work all day and I'm gone on the weekends. Pff. Their marriage is weird, I don't get it, but whatever, not my problem. And then my dad kept getting pissed at me when I told him I wasn't going to be home by 6 or 9 like he wanted :/ really? He truly expects me to willingly come home to this crap instead of spending the last few hours I have with my love? I would think that they would know by now that they can't restrict me when it comes to Dylan, I always stay later, because their curfews are ridiculous. Some of my friends think they are treating me like this because they are afraid that I will move out soon and they will be left with my sisters. HA!! Yeah! I would be too! Dylan says I should set them up with a boyfriend so they'll get off MY back when it comes to Dylan, because I found a good man and he loves me and will stay with me forever, he's said that since the beginning and he means it, even more now than before, which is how it should be. Just meh. They are still trying to parent me when they should be advising me, not directing me but guiding me and teaching me; they will never listen to me, they are good with kids, but not adults.
Anyway I left his house at 1am and he slept until 4 and had to be at his recruiter's office by 5 so he could get a ride to the airport. He got on his first plane flight at 7:30 this morning and landed safely in Texas by 11 and arrived at Georgia by 4 and waited for the bus and got on an hour later, he hated the flight xDD Now he's on his long bus ride to South Carolina. He's been texting me his travel updates through the day, but when he gets to the base he can't keep his phone. He's gonna mail me when he can so we can write to each other for the first 10 weeks. I had my friend take some nice photos of me so I could get them printed for him to take with him http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10061408/ I had 2 wallets and one 5x7 that I framed, but he couldn't take the framed one with him. He really likes them, he was upset that I had a nice photos this whole time that I just now gave him lol, but I just had them printed that day.
I thought it was really weird that I didn't cry after I left or today at all, it might hit me later this week, but I think I blocked that part because I know I still have to live on while he's gone and I know every thing's gonna be ok, that we're going to be ok, I know we will be. Love is a strong motivator and I won't let it slow me down just cause we are apart. I'm going to better myself while he's doing the same. I wanted to take a summer semester, but all the classes offered I've already taken or don't need, they aren't offering anything that would further my degree units/classes, just be a waste of money and time, so I'm going to get a job over summer instead. and of course do commissions. Speaking of, I will be selling $6 and $2 adopts these next couple months to raise funds for a plane ticket to go visit him, just saying, you'll be seeing a lot of cuties for sale soon.
I don't really know who this journal is for since no one reads them. I guess it's for me lol. It helps me sort things out I guess. I'll be keeping updates later for those who care to follow. It's homework time now.
I kind wish he hadn't drunk so much because we couldn't really snuggle all of his last day because his stomach hurt, but he was having fun and I'll have plenty of time over the rest of our lives so I was able to not be upset about that which I'm happy for, I didn't want to spend our last day together upset. It was really hard not to bawl my eyes out every time he touched me, cause I knew that I wouldn't feel it again for so long. I didn't want his last image of me to be crying so I tried to smile a lot, it's not that hard when he's there, but I didn't want to cry.
My parents were being assholes as usual with our relationship and wanted me to be home at 11am on Sunday, pff like that was going to happen, I came back for like an hour so we could pick up my grandpa, because since my dad had surgery on his foot he can't help my mom get him into the car and my car is easiest to get him into. They were upset I wanted to go back. e.O what?! yeah and then my mom said to stop giving her lip when I was asking what time I needed to be back to take my grandpa home, which I wasn't, I bet she felt like a bitch when she was talking to me like that and she found out that it was his last day for 7 months, mhm, kinda felt good a little, but still. Also I can't believe that my parents don't talk to each other. I tell my dad important things and he never tells them to my mom, I have to tell her separately which is hard because she's gone at work all day and I'm gone on the weekends. Pff. Their marriage is weird, I don't get it, but whatever, not my problem. And then my dad kept getting pissed at me when I told him I wasn't going to be home by 6 or 9 like he wanted :/ really? He truly expects me to willingly come home to this crap instead of spending the last few hours I have with my love? I would think that they would know by now that they can't restrict me when it comes to Dylan, I always stay later, because their curfews are ridiculous. Some of my friends think they are treating me like this because they are afraid that I will move out soon and they will be left with my sisters. HA!! Yeah! I would be too! Dylan says I should set them up with a boyfriend so they'll get off MY back when it comes to Dylan, because I found a good man and he loves me and will stay with me forever, he's said that since the beginning and he means it, even more now than before, which is how it should be. Just meh. They are still trying to parent me when they should be advising me, not directing me but guiding me and teaching me; they will never listen to me, they are good with kids, but not adults.
Anyway I left his house at 1am and he slept until 4 and had to be at his recruiter's office by 5 so he could get a ride to the airport. He got on his first plane flight at 7:30 this morning and landed safely in Texas by 11 and arrived at Georgia by 4 and waited for the bus and got on an hour later, he hated the flight xDD Now he's on his long bus ride to South Carolina. He's been texting me his travel updates through the day, but when he gets to the base he can't keep his phone. He's gonna mail me when he can so we can write to each other for the first 10 weeks. I had my friend take some nice photos of me so I could get them printed for him to take with him http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10061408/ I had 2 wallets and one 5x7 that I framed, but he couldn't take the framed one with him. He really likes them, he was upset that I had a nice photos this whole time that I just now gave him lol, but I just had them printed that day.
I thought it was really weird that I didn't cry after I left or today at all, it might hit me later this week, but I think I blocked that part because I know I still have to live on while he's gone and I know every thing's gonna be ok, that we're going to be ok, I know we will be. Love is a strong motivator and I won't let it slow me down just cause we are apart. I'm going to better myself while he's doing the same. I wanted to take a summer semester, but all the classes offered I've already taken or don't need, they aren't offering anything that would further my degree units/classes, just be a waste of money and time, so I'm going to get a job over summer instead. and of course do commissions. Speaking of, I will be selling $6 and $2 adopts these next couple months to raise funds for a plane ticket to go visit him, just saying, you'll be seeing a lot of cuties for sale soon.
I don't really know who this journal is for since no one reads them. I guess it's for me lol. It helps me sort things out I guess. I'll be keeping updates later for those who care to follow. It's homework time now.
Fuck All Yall
General | Posted 13 years agoFuck everyone that uses ideas I JUST FUCKING TALK ABOUT BEFORE I EVEN GET TO COMPLETE THEM!!!
This happens to me quite frekwently, it hasn't in some time until now DDx tobiah suggested I make owl/dragon hybrid adopts over 4 weeks ago and look what just popped up from several different artists I watch, that's right, fucking dragon/owl hybrids!! -does a sarcastic dance- Pfff Now I can't do one because my sketch looks too similar to everyone else's and I will be the one blamed for copying. :I
Sorry, the dragon/owl hybrid was not my idea, it was Tobiah's and I'm not saying he was the first, but I haven't seen any on FA since the time I have joined and then all the sudden after it's suggested to me it blows up and everybody's gotta use it. I'm just tired of this happening to me.
Edit (a few minutes later):
FFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!! Now flipping the moth/owl hybrid was submitted 3 days ago, at least this time I drew one before. But HOLY FUCK! Are you freaking serious?!!
This happens to me quite frekwently, it hasn't in some time until now DDx tobiah suggested I make owl/dragon hybrid adopts over 4 weeks ago and look what just popped up from several different artists I watch, that's right, fucking dragon/owl hybrids!! -does a sarcastic dance- Pfff Now I can't do one because my sketch looks too similar to everyone else's and I will be the one blamed for copying. :I
Sorry, the dragon/owl hybrid was not my idea, it was Tobiah's and I'm not saying he was the first, but I haven't seen any on FA since the time I have joined and then all the sudden after it's suggested to me it blows up and everybody's gotta use it. I'm just tired of this happening to me.
Edit (a few minutes later):
FFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!! Now flipping the moth/owl hybrid was submitted 3 days ago, at least this time I drew one before. But HOLY FUCK! Are you freaking serious?!!
Character Auctions start tomorrow
General | Posted 13 years agoI don't wish to double post so this is my only post about this here.
As you know I have created 4 unique, female characters for cinnanom's contest, it ends in about 5 hours. I will be putting the non-winners up for auction starting at $8 with a minimum increase of $2 with a buy-out of $46 on battyarts.
These are the girls:
Sherbshire - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9891073/
Floofmapoof - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9936759/
Areania - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9938241/
Katie & Olive - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9953056/
The auctions will end on Saturday so you will have 2 and a half days to bid/buy. If you wish to own one of these lovely girls don't miss your chance! ^^
As you know I have created 4 unique, female characters for cinnanom's contest, it ends in about 5 hours. I will be putting the non-winners up for auction starting at $8 with a minimum increase of $2 with a buy-out of $46 on battyarts.
These are the girls:
Sherbshire - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9891073/
Floofmapoof - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9936759/
Areania - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9938241/
Katie & Olive - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9953056/
The auctions will end on Saturday so you will have 2 and a half days to bid/buy. If you wish to own one of these lovely girls don't miss your chance! ^^
Weasyl [not leaving]
General | Posted 13 years agoWelp I thought I might make myself a Weasyl. It looks pretty cool. The system is a bit confusing, but I'll get used to it.
Personal: https://www.weasyl.com/profile/quips
Business: https://www.weasyl.com/profile/battyarts
Stay cool guys
Personal: https://www.weasyl.com/profile/quips
Business: https://www.weasyl.com/profile/battyarts
Stay cool guys
Color Competition [[cherryvimto]]
General | Posted 13 years ago
cherryvimto is holding a coloring contest, lineart provided.
End date is March 5th
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4334820/
Looking to commission
General | Posted 13 years agoI really want a necklace similar to this one - http://www.etsy.com/listing/1220773.....4k?ref=storque
If anyone can suggest someone to me or you can do it I would love to hear your ideas. Note me! Or comment your suggestion.
Btw $20 is the most I will spend on jewelry :I that's a lot for me. But I will wear it every day. Maybe 25 if the design is perfect. I want something simple, but also beautiful.
If anyone can suggest someone to me or you can do it I would love to hear your ideas. Note me! Or comment your suggestion.
Btw $20 is the most I will spend on jewelry :I that's a lot for me. But I will wear it every day. Maybe 25 if the design is perfect. I want something simple, but also beautiful.
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