Uploaded some {now old} stuff.
Considering my last journal was 2 years ago, I figured I'd update that too.

I'm 20, holy shit.

Gnarls barklet keeps getting stuck in my head.

P.S. Art grounds is a go-go.

Boredom..so much of it.

Have to be.
I feel like my brain is shutting down.
My speak pattern have gotten so bad, I'm having trouble getting words out when I talk.
Some days I think I do something but can never find the proof afterward. It's like living in Deja Vu.

My body is slowly breaking down. Right behind my mind.

It's pretty bad to think that I'm probably only alive because I have Tyler.
I think I'd honestly be dead otherwise.
I just don't care anymore.

I've been drawing for the past few days,everyday. It doesn't happen often.
Perhaps I feel the need for practice.

Contemplating cutting my hair, considering it's past my shoulder blades and I normally don't grow it past my jawline, shoulders at most. But it's getting cold and I don't know if I wanna cut it for winter now. It's definately a hassle.

For not having anything to do, I have alot going on. And no one to share it with, at least during the day.

I feel like I need a friend to just hang out. One who's not busy all the time.

And why is my mood this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5i0o3JRaF2g

drawing right now.
Oasis 4.

A bit of sadness I might add....naked sadness.

WEIGHT LOSSSSSSSSSSS~......Yea.

Half way to normal weight. Can't bring me down.

Tea season.

I've been feeling weird since I've stopped drinking soda. While I know it's healthier, it's also more expensive. I've been drinking those life waters instead... they're the same price as a two liter. Sigh.

Though I haven't weighed myself yet, it kinda feels like I've stopped inflating. Hopefully I can get back down to a previous nice weight.
I'm just tired all the time.
And I've finally run out of money, so I have to start doing alot more within the next 2 weeks.

There are some songs that I shouldn't and can't listen to during fall. Too much stuff to drag out.

On a different note: Cloaks are harder to make then they seem. So much material. So much.

Black Bulter + Black Butler II = Fucking awesome.
Little Trancy is an Ass however, and I shall rejoice when he's eaten.

Oh Sebastion, how I drool over you. Much like Grell...but less creepy.



That is all.

I've watching Soul Eater....Excalibur is a douche.

I've been roped into driving all the way out past Malinta and McClure twice a week because my mom is a snob. So basically, since my mom doesn't like my sister's boyfriends mom, I get waste gas and time to take Triston to Preschool when I have no money.
Fantastic.

3 weeks til Amanda's Wedding & RenFest. Exciting.

Been starting to draw more, once I get a descent program I'll probably do way more.

Comment with any request.

[I made a topic on Solia where I literally asked people to tell me what to draw....it was interesting]

Can't stop listening. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8eN9kiyIv-Q [ignore the immense amount of clapping at the beginning]
Some how I've managed to go from Indie to Classical in one swing.

BTW, The dog is ok, he got into something he wasn't supposed to and needed to throw it up. Unfortunately, now they both have fleas.

sickness.
Do not want.

I need to replace my watercolors. they're seriously lacking.

Also, tomorrow is gunna suck.
My basset hound is also sick, and I'm the only one available to take him to the vet.
I don't want bad news.

Yes,yes I can.

I got my under-bust frilly skirt yesterday.
I just wish the zipper wasn't such a pain in the ass.

First of all, Scott Pilgrim vs The World was awesome.
Plain and simple, and lots of good music.

Anway, I need to get sewing. Ren Fest is swiftly approaching. Plus the wedding at ren fest, it should be eventful this year.

Should be putting up a few drawing after this.Just Little sketches.

... Tomorrow it will rise again.

I'm tying to find an audio file converter at the moment, and maybe someone will be want to hear me sing.

If I do end up putting up "music", it'll probably just be snippets of songs. A capella. Because i don't play anything.

I'm also gunna try to start painting again.

Within the next few days, I'm gunna show you how much my hair has grown in a year and a half.

Right now.

Oasis 1

It's been 3 years today.

I should call grandma.

I need to get a scanner. Like fucking now.

Blarg................................

I know, I must be sick.
Although I think I am because my kidneys fucking hurt right now. It's diet time.

Anywho, I feel the need to update more often now.
So I think I'm going to do " doodle of the day" updates.
I'm goig to try and draw/doddle something everyday, and no matter how horrible it is I will post it here.

And if anyone actually reads this, you may suggest something and I will try to do it. If I really like the idea I will probably dedicate it to you and write your name on the actual doodle.

Cheers mates!

Sigh....I don't think I've ever wanted to break something more then that damn Xbox.

He'll notice when I'm not here all that much anymore.

I have to start sewing for RenFest sometime soon if I'm going to get everything finished in time.
I don't really update all that much anymore, so I'm gunna try to do that.

..Is my birthday!

;D

I'm getting my tattoo at noon, should be interesting considering anthony's doing it.

Tyler and I are going to start looking for new apartments.I have my new car,so that's all good.

I'm probably going to upload some sketches here soon. And no,not CG doodles, ones from my sketchbooks.

I need to get dye soon also, this mermaid shit's gotta go.

Since Tyler is now laid off I'm going to start going out more.Reconnect with friends.
I know most go through phases of liking me to doubting me. That's ok.I'm still here.
And for those just hell-bent on hating me, good luck with that and you know where to shove it. You know, where the stick is.

Bon voyage.

When people(who shall not be named) start conflict,and simply run away.
If you're going to do that at least have the balls( or vagina) to see it through. Don't be damn coward about it. keep it to yourself or confront.

/end rant.

In other news, I have purchased a new car, although I don't have it immediately in my possesion.

AVENGA!

It's pretty funny,not gunna lie.

Slut
Freak
Bitch
tease
pathetic
obsessive
Caniving
And a whore.

Which honestly, like all things said in hurt or threat, is just a projection from the slanderer.
Only two of those are actually somewhat true.
I can be a bitch,every woman can be a bitch.Some men can too(sideways look).

But really, Can't be a slut, I've dated 3 guys, and none were at the same time.Freak,that one's easy,no one is 'normal'.
A Tease, well you'd have to be dating me to know.
Pathetic,Please I'm stronger then that. I wasn't spoiled as a child, I know the value of things including myself.
Obsessive, that was the funny one.Needs no mention.
Caniving, only when I need to be. I don't derive joy from stabbing others in the back.Despite polpuar belief.
Whore is possibly the most amusing. I can honestly say I have never explicitly had sex for money. Doesn't happen,I don't need to.

I know this journal may sound a bit .....I like I'm full of myself. Unfortunately, that's what journals are for.
Personal thoughts, no matter if they are self glorifying.