Kinda long overdue on making this poll :o
Ideas by patrons, made into public poll, go forth and pick.

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Just a journal of a thought :u

Attempting to actually finish Fallout new Vegas again.
Never got far 5 years ago and never got far 10 years ago.
And goodness, having the game not crash every 5 minutes, along with understanding english now, really makes it more enjoyable.

FONV has been a nail on my gaming list for the longest time,
cause back then idk why but it just really love crashing on me.

Lost the motivation and quit then.
That and the story didn't capture me MOSTLY because my english was super bad back then.

>> http://poal.me/b9pfid <<

Something to determine and solidify my mind.
I am doing better tho, thanks for sticking here with me.

This might be a long read, stick with me kindly.
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I need advise.
With the current Ptrn and PyPl and cards problem going around, I've been on collapsing anxiety for the past few days.
I'm afraid that at some point in the future, I might get axed for the smallest thing.
For the past few days I've been on dread that I may not be able to earn anything anymore to live.
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For backup, does anyone know how SubscribeStar works?
Would it be difficult for people to pledge? I also assume there's only direct bank-in's when withdrawing?

And what about commissions? I could potentially survive on it, if I'm willing to bend and open Animations for comms even.
250$~300$ for a standard full piece maybe still?
If I'm willing to charge 600$ for a 6 frame animation? Not sure about this, I need more reference of pricing.
But what alternative to PyPl? Has anyone used Wise or Payoneer? I'm not from US btw.
And if those two don't work then what else y'all would recommend?
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I am fortunate that my family is willing to listen in on my concerns and issues, loans and insurance and bills and all that,
if the worst of the worst were to happen, we'll still live. Knowing that, least puts me at ease a bit.

Tho health wise, it's a wreck. Been having the anxiety starvation and weakness again, very slowly eating, slowly recovering.
Too many bad things are happening at a short timespan.
Admittedly I'm not the most mentally strong individual, maybe I'm worrying too much over something that I could adapt.
I grow anxious on vacations tbh.
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What about VPNs? Was thinking about NordVPN but some people recommend against it.
My friend recommends Mullvad VPN, anyone got any opinions on those?
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Do kinda wanna draw more fanart for artists I look up to again,
but ever since last time some people have unfavorable opinions of the people, and may throw flak at me,
I am afraid.
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I will kneel and thank you all again.
Thank you for supporting me throughout all those years, thank you for taking interest in my work,
thank you for commenting, thank you for sharing, thank you for even just looking at my work.

I want to continue drawing still, I'll exist.

Settlemoon
Ayy a game my friendo and buds made is getting a big update!
> https://store.steampowered.com/app/.....80/Settlemoon/ <

Check'em out here! It's a cozy lil' town building idle game.
There's cute bug people! You can throw them .w.)b

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Rimworld Mod
Not sure did I announce this here before, but I did made another mod other than the Anthro Race mod.
It features characters from SnootGame/GVH and a few Animal Crossing villagers, more specifically Southbird's iteration of Animal Crossing

I don't think I can upload that mod on Steam Workshop, mainly cause it's like a certain fandom thing .w.)
So I'll keep it between us via catbox
Planning on expanding the mod with more Animal Crossing villagers, some sonic characters maybe?

Along with a lotta people been asking for, some I Wani Hug the Gator characters.
Tho not gotta do that just yet, haven't played the game so I hardly know who's in it, other than Inco and Olivia(Gotta cause some naming structure conflicts :U)

Again, not gotta go forward with it yet,
the newest expansion Anomaly is around the horizon and it might mess up Anthro Race again, which is what this mod is recycled from.
That and the bug fixes from the recent Anthro Race was not carried over soooooooo more bug fixing yay.

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Animations
Oh boy I'm just putting more and more animations into the backlogs again
There's still Reshinerd x Sweet Braixen animation, and then there's Absol Bartender one
Meanwhile I'm making another short animation right now that is almost done.

Thank you all for supporting me, while also thank you all for being patient with me sidetracking.
Been burning a lot for the past years.

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Commission Price
Commissions are not open! Just gotta state this one first .w.)

Just putting up a price tag cause a lotta people has been asking for it
It would range around 250$~300$+ depending on the complexity, always full render(price scales based on which style of render), backgrounds and all.
I don't really have a price range for fullbody/halfbody so I'll just scale it by how hard is it still.

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Games
Nothing important here, just game rant :u
Goodness I'm very bad at finishing up games, Death Stranding is still on going for me
I stopped somewhere in Cyberpunk2077, and now I'm on Stardew Valley
And now I got the urge to play maybe Sekiro, bought it, didn't even start on it .w.)"

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Thank you for reading all this these.
Gets my mind off of things, hope y'all are hangin' there .w.)b

Anyone here have knowledge on how Stardew Valley modding would work?

I just really like putting my own character in Rimworld for the funsies
and thinking if I could try retexturing stuff in Stardew as well when 1.6 is out.

Tried to do that with Terraria but oof, effort :U
That and terraria got some very weird texture naming structure.

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Extra note actually, does anyone know any games that allows import custom portraits?
Like Legend of Grimrock 1 and 2 where I have my OCs in just because.
Lunacid is another game that allows custom portraits. I just like looking at my dumbo OCs

http://poal.me/b2h5xf

Aight still super sick, help me make decisions cause I barely got the braincells .w.)

Just a general newsletter update :u

June Oppai Mousepad Regular version
> https://www.etsy.com/listing/134067.....oppai-mousepad <

June Oppai Mousepad XL version
> https://www.etsy.com/listing/137219.....ai-mousepad-17 <

Don't exactly got any plans for any mousepads yet sadly
Ginger plushie is still prototyping .w.)b

Planning on potentially opening comms but SFW only for now
160~ USD maybe? :o

What are y'all thoughts

Welp let's get this outta the way to clear my mind :o

[MOTIVATION WRECK STEERING]
My motivation has been kinda everywhere and sidetracking like no tomorrow still.
And I need y'all help to maybe pin point me a bit more.

What should I draw more of? And who should I draw more of?
As much as I appreciate "Do what you want" I kinda need people to help steer this for now
before I burn myself out by going ultra sidetrack mania .w.)"

So, yeah! Just comment and reply to comments that seems to fit what interests you with +1 or something
More June? Undertale stuff? Krystal Renamon Loona? More Smex? More cumflation or just general more boobs or butts.
Narrow it down for me so I can readjust.
Please and thank you .w.)b

[HEALTH]
Been doing better with health now :D
Putting a whole lot more fruits into my regular diet, sitting straight also helps, less coffee too
The heart issue is basically gone-ish? From the doctors and all that, might've chuck it down to anxiety being the biggest kicker.
Tho it still happens from time to time but to an extremely super ultra lesser extend, it's more of a single flatter from time to time usually after eating meals, and then it just never happens ever for a few weeks
So crisis avert? I am also putting some investment into getting a more ergonomic chair and a better bed + bed frame for once
Just sleeping with a queen mattress on the floor .w.)
Expensive but eeeeeh for the better of my wellbeing.

[ARMORED CORE 6] Just random talk bout AC6 y'all can skip this if you want .w.)b
I beat Balteus :D
Oof had to quit out on my 1st run of the mission :V
Considering I also had troubles with Sulla before then, means my mech is outdated
So I do what every respectable Ravens do, I bully the hecc outta the Tester AC pilot for money .w.)
We need to give him a callsign, has the community come up with one yet for that poor soul?
Anway, got me a plasma cannon and plasma missiles and the most important pulse gun for the stupid shield :V
Wiped Sulla without much effort so I knew I was on the right track, still took me a solid 30 minutes of trying before actually getting Balteus tho.
That stupid flame sword range :U

Sea Spider next and oh boi I'm seeing the Elden Ring bullshettery kicking in with the melee tracking
The amount of times it hit me anyway if I dodge or just fly up high enough, them trackings be super magnet on you .w.)
Decided to monkey with shotgun and burst rifle, realizing I potentially could just full blown DPS it makes it a lot easier.

I am not looking forward to NG+ and ++ ing this game, do I even got the time or skillz for it :V

[DAWN AND JACK]
Really need to try and get back into the writing, guess I'm just stuck on what kind of format or method do I wanna do to tell a story :o
I really do like writing the whole thing like a play rather than the usual "I say this word first" said the person who said it before you knew.
Full honesty Dawn and Jack is basically just rebrand Fang and Anon from Snootgame :U, guess that's why I got ultra inspired to do something about it.
I still really really like them tho, they're cute in my head canon atm.

Just need a solidified format that fits both ends, easy for how I want to tell the story while easy for the readers to understand how it flows.
Off note Goodbye Volcano High is finally released! Gooooo get'em, reviews are either 4/10 at worst or 7/10 at best so pick your salt o3o)

Meanwhile I'm also trying to learn RPGmaker, failing miserably .w.)
I need the power, or rather the stars to be align for me to get that drive to work on it again.

[MORE GAME THOUGHTS] You can skip this .w.)
Starfield is out, Imma wait on it a few more month for the mods to roll in I guess :o
Where them furries at
Baldur's Gate 3, thinking of maybe I should restart cause I got some ULTRA bad rolls and just failing everything, kinda reminds me of why I can't get into Disco Elysium cause I pretty much can't get the body down till day 3 I think?
I got Spongebob Battle for Bikini Bottom and Cosmic Shake, fun game :D, Kassandra hot .w.)
Still Warfarming, there's a lotta grind still .w.)
Powerwash Sim is getting more crossovers, still waiting on the WH40K DLC tho >:L
Terraria just kept updating :V
I was waiting on a "Ok they finally tied everything up, Imma play it-oh nevermind new update Imma wait a bit longer"
Wish Slime Rancher 2 was a finished game, I don't like just playing on early access, ruins the magic .w.)
Still waiting on Goat Simulator 3 on steam

Come to think of it there are some minor similarities between Daemon x Machina's story/world and AC6?

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Anyway I think that's bout it of what's on my mind
Thank you for reading!

Welp I think it's about time I try Newgrounds :o
So here!

> https://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/896027 <

You can watch the whole video of
Arte's Fuckin' Night right here!

Also planning on going forward posting my stuff there as well, here's hoping no bad faith outta nowhere.

I fckin hate pressing enter also publish the journal :V
But what I was about to say is YUP!
The 2 year ago animation that I put on hiatus is finally going to be done, well it didn't take 2 years, like a month of burning on drawing
But yes we're on the final stretch of video editing and audio, maybe a final final final scene for lols

So yeh, get excited .w.)b
The worst part being idk where can I upload the full thing without file limits being a bother
FA doesn't support vide I don't think, twitter is doodoo on video quality, dA no porno, e621 got file size limits too
Optimizations yay.

Well might as well update y'all on my health conditions, so far the heart problems are gone hopefully.
So it really is chucked into me having a bad anxiety episode and me worrying till my body is all wack :o
I am still feeling the effects of the anxiety tho, don't have issues eating but I can't stomach extra large meals.
From time to time I still get the "I'm sad for no reason" feeling.

Now new issues are cropping up, and it's mostly sleep related now.
Ever since the heart problem I've been getting a weird fear of sleeping, mostly cause the past few symptoms corp up during my attempts to sleep.
And that has lingered with me for a while, despite getting the all green by the docs.
I'm sorry for my worrisome-ness is making me wreck myself .w.)

So far my attempt to recover involves me doing extra light cardio and stretches, get them glutes moving.
And eating a hella lot more fruits that I've ever do in my life ever :V
Really really helps with slimming down honestly, my guts are a bit more tucked in now.
Also cutting down on coffee, or rather trying to not take more than one coffee a day, and not past 4pm.

My motivation and horny power is back, shame that THAT means I might burn myself again with sidetracking.
Again sorry for sidetrackin'

Testing out more stuff in RPGMaker MZ, there's a lot you can do but also very few without some proper plugins.
Not sure should I start putting effort into it now with all my backlog and stuff going on still.

Been playing a lotta Warframe as well, probably a bad decision to do so alone :U
Oof there's a lotta bloat content.

Prolly should try and get back into animating more too, been doing a lot this year but kinda not good enough as well?
Idk, that and fanarts for peeps, aaaaaaaa.

Anyway, thank you all of the kind words and good wishes, thank you all for sticking with me through this .w.)b

I like writing journals, I like listening to y'all comments :D
Anyway, blood test came in, my everything is normal, no hyperthyroidism or any ailments, cholesterol was sadly borderline high so need to rework my lifestyle a bit.
So it's seem to all been chuck up to me having a bad anxiety episode that's causing my body to go wack, I'm cooling down now, having small frights there and here but cooling down.

I guess the little heart flutter at night are just from workout over exertions?
Let's give it a week more to recover and see where we go from there :o
Maybe a ping with a cardiologist should be in hand.

Thank you all for the kind wishes and advice, kept me intact for the last few days.

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Now for random bits
Ever since this episode, my horny engine has been out of wack as well, so I guess Imma ask what y'all are into???
Idk y'all seems to really really like pudgy girls or cumflation, honestly still surprises me :o
Or thin girls? Shortstacks? idk I'm still a bit wack.
Who should I draw?

I always wanna play Divinity Original Sin 2 but never really got to it much
Never left FortJoy :U, I think it was just the combat sometimes being too hard or too easy at times.
Need to commit at some point

I also should finish up Botw, I got Tears of the Kingdom for like a week now but I didn't even touch it cause I wanna wrap up my Botw's 2nd playthrough :V
Also sorry for the lack of Audie Botw comics before TotK came out, not sure are y'all still interested in it or should I skip to TotK Audie :o

Really need to stop treating games like a chore, prolly what's contributing to my anxiety.

For no reason at all, here read Blacksaw's Monster Hunter parody comic! English translated!
> https://mangatoto.com/chapter/2108664 <
> https://mangatoto.com/chapter/2181725<;
I freakin' love this, the way he draw the males and Somnacanth looks super cute.

Also we got a sample build of a June Plush!
It's adorable and I can't wait for it to be prime and ready :D

Well that's all in my thought for now, again thank you for the kind words and sticking with me through this.

Went to a clinic for evaluations, had my blood pressure and sugar tested and doc says it's normal, had an ECG to test the pulse and it came out normal as well during that time.
Had a blood test but the results isn't coming back until a few days to a week.
Honestly troubles me a tad, doc said it might be hyperthyroidism
For now they've only gave me something for my gastric to help me eat as I was also having troubles eating.

So far the last few nights has been almost impossible for me to sleep, lying around for about 2-3 hours before my body decided to cool down with the random jumps and drops
Waking up super weak. Also found out that melatonin might not be helping at all.
Had Doc and my family contacting friend's advice, believed it might've been the intense gym workout weakness + my anxiety kicking in are causing me to shoot myself in the foot
I don't feel the drop during the afternoon, it's mostly close to sleep time is when I felt those jumps and drops.
I will fight through this, for now Imma attempt to go to bed again but like, on a plastic lazy chair :u

This might be a long one so I thank you for reading :o
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I'm coming down with some weird fatigue/anxiety and hopefully not heart problems

About a week ago I decided to have a gym coach to help with work out some more, but I think I might have overexerted myself super bad.
Spent the better of 5~ days recovering from the very strained muscles and soon after some symptoms started popping up.

Trying to sleep is extremely difficult cause from time to time I felt a weird drop on my chest, after a few nights I decided to see what's up and tried testing my pulse by wrist and found that it is skipping beats, or "holding onto a pulse" feeling, I can't exactly accurately determine is it actually that or just a super weak pulse.

Family thought it might've been my over consumption of coffee so I stopped, the other night I still had problems sleeping with heavy heart pounding or just sudden fear of is it sleep or am I fainting.

Didn't help that for the last few days I've been just thinking of whatever is wrong with me and being super worried about everything. Which just kicks my anxiety to it's peak again.

Honestly my lifestyle is not really helping with this, I tend to sleep at 4-5AM and wakes up at 2-3PM , recently been eating quite a lot of burgers and fatty foods, coffee everyday, sitting and drawing all the time with only the occasional squats and riding the exercise bike my brother got from his friend's lottery.

Currently I'm feeling super anxious/? and exhausted, gave myself a check and my blood sugar is floating on 80mg/dL and blood pressure 134~/75~ SYS/DIA, peaking at 150~/75~ after eating

The issue became super apparently during sleeping time, when lying down is when I can feel my heart pounding and I'm not sure how to describe this but it's like a "light headedness" or "feeling like everything's super still" kind of feeling.

I've had this issue before back during my anxiety attack episode 3 years ago, treated with some meds and honestly the biggest treatment was consulting with my family at that time, a huge weight off my back. But now idk is it anxiety kicking my butt or some more serious problem boiling underneath. Or was it really just me overexerting while exercising and it's taking me 2 weeks to recover and I'm just worrying too much.

Already got some appointments but it's gotta be a few more days till then, I'm hoping this issue doesn't worsen over the next few days.

What are y'all thoughts? Anyone had this issue before and had any advise?

[EDIT]
Accidentally checked the wrong box :U

This might be a long one so I thank you for reading :o
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I'm coming down with some weird fatigue/anxiety and hopefully not heart problems

About a week ago I decided to have a gym coach to help with work out some more, but I think I might have overexerted myself super bad.
Spent the better of 5~ days recovering from the very strained muscles and soon after some symptoms started popping up.

Trying to sleep is extremely difficult cause from time to time I felt a weird drop on my chest, after a few nights I decided to see what's up and tried testing my pulse by wrist and found that it is skipping beats, or "holding onto a pulse" feeling, I can't exactly accurately determine is it actually that or just a super weak pulse.

Family thought it might've been my over consumption of coffee so I stopped, the other night I still had problems sleeping with heavy heart pounding or just sudden fear of is it sleep or am I fainting.

Didn't help that for the last few days I've been just thinking of whatever is wrong with me and being super worried about everything. Which just kicks my anxiety to it's peak again.

Honestly my lifestyle is not really helping with this, I tend to sleep at 4-5AM and wakes up at 2-3PM , recently been eating quite a lot of burgers and fatty foods, coffee everyday, sitting and drawing all the time with only the occasional squats and riding the exercise bike my brother got from his friend's lottery.

Currently I'm feeling super anxious/? and exhausted, gave myself a check and my blood sugar is floating on 80mg/dL and blood pressure 134~/75~ SYS/DIA, peaking at 150~/75~ after eating

The issue became super apparently during sleeping time, when lying down is when I can feel my heart pounding and I'm not sure how to describe this but it's like a "light headedness" or "feeling like everything's super still" kind of feeling.

I've had this issue before back during my anxiety attack episode 3 years ago, treated with some meds and honestly the biggest treatment was consulting with my family at that time, a huge weight off my back. But now idk is it anxiety kicking my butt or some more serious problem boiling underneath. Or was it really just me overexerting while exercising and it's taking me 2 weeks to recover and I'm just worrying too much.

Already got some appointments but it's gotta be a few more days till then, I'm hoping this issue doesn't worsen over the next few days.

What are y'all thoughts? Anyone had this issue before and had any advise?

Aaaaaaugh aight so I decided to have a short gym coach course yesterday.
And oof my body is hella burning, thigh mostly, I can barely stand, using the toilet is my biggest obstacle :V
So yeah gotta take a few to recover

Meanwhile check it!
June XL Mousepad (Nippleless) is now restocked!
> https://www.etsy.com/listing/137219.....ai-mousepad-17 <

Also remember we got the Lopunny MILF standee ready too!
> https://www.kitsuprints.com/products/coffee-bun <

I really need to get back into the more mousepad and plushy idea
And maybe stickers idk are y'all into vinyl stickers, gimme your thoughts!

Sorry for the ultra long way, the list goes on :U
But yeah to test the waters, our first standee is now available!
Big thanks to Kagekitsune for making this!
You can grab it here

> https://www.kitsuprints.com/products/coffee-bun <

If all goes well, we might do more hopefully :o

> http://poal.me/wse8x9 <
Patron suggestions list .w.)b
Go forth and pick what makes you happy :D

Anyone got knowledge on this?
Fill me in, what happen? :o

> http://poal.me/51yaeo <

Ok this poll for watchers here :o

What y'all follow me for?

And nah this is just collecting opinions so I can think on stuff

https://www.etsy.com/listing/137219.....ai-mousepad-17

We got 20 more now!
Grab'em while it's hot .w.)b

https://www.etsy.com/listing/137219.....ai-mousepad-17

Come grab'em! We only have 20 in stock sadly :o
Makin'em takes a long while .w.)b

Random mobile game thoughts outta no where but like
I kinda miss that age of mobile games back around 2010?

Games like PvZ, Where's my Water, Cut the Rope,
Angry Birds even. Fun little innovative games.

Y'all got any fond games from back then?
I kinda wanna dive in and see :o