Howdy everyone, so Idk how many of you still watch this account HOWEVER I am back on  mirofennec New account where I have decided to start over, only because I wanted to go ahead and hit the reset button on the website, from now on this account will be permanently inactive, so if you would like to still keep up with me and what I have been up to my new account is now  mirofennec I'd love to see some of you again so please check out the new account, it IS still under construction but I am working on getting some commissions made for it to get it looking right! so please check it out

Today is my b-day x3 I'm now 17 hurray!!!!!!!! I love all u ppl xD

I'm so excited I'm turning 17, but I'm In New York right now on a band trip and I'll be going to the racquets tonight on Broadway if anyone's curious. I won't be home for my birthday though :(

My birthday is on Saturday 😄 I'm turning 17 and I'm excited I'm all jittery hehe :3

I-I don't know anymore... My life took a sudden turn for the worst....

As most of you may already know I've been drawing foxes a lot lately, I just posted a sketch of one and I plan to take it down but I would like your thoughts on something I've been stumped because I can't pick a good color scheme and I would really appreciate what you think would work

I have been here for exactly one year now, and I gottq say I've enjoyed every moment I've had thanks to you guys, all the progress I've made im so happy ;w;. I intend to stay here a while :3 so I can make more friends with all of you.


THANKS FOR AN AMAZING FIRST YEAR :D

I've been busy with school and all, I haven't been on too often and I kinda feel bad for being away from all you guys, I'm going to try to be on more often and hopefully make friends with more of you guys :3

I wish all of you the best in life and let this day of giving, love and joy be a reminder of what's good out there, I love all of you guys. Have a warm one

I hope you all have a good winter break,


And I'm open for talk if your interested (I could use the company)

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Esyfps7MumI

Listen to it it's friggan awesome

Ok my journal that I posted like an hour ago I had to delete because I didn't word it right and it turned out in the wrong way in really sorry to those of you who saw it I'm really embarrassed right now and I feel bad about it

Hadn't really bothered much, because of school and a lot of work to be done, so anyways how are all of you?

I like to win, it's satisfying, like I'm playing shadow of mordor and I'm actually really good at the game, it's really satisfying, or when your playing chess and you make the winning move, I kinda just love winning XD

Ok over the past 2 months or so I've been getting stressed and or sad easier and I didnt know why, but recently with the help of a friend I found out I have a mild case of depression.... I'm honestly scared, but I know I can get past this with help. I already know who to talk to already, because I paid attention in class, but I want help from you guys first. Ok so umm I get this sudden feeling of dread sometimes it's not severe but it ruins a day sometimes, and I'm scared. I know that depression is like a bottomless pit and I'm standing at the edges of it and I want to get away, but I need you guys's help... Please I'm scared and I want this to go away

I wanna go into making some music, like techno and stuff but I don't know what programs to use if you guys know any programs I could use please tell me

You guys can ask me anything and I'll answer as best I can

I'd love to hear what your curious about me

Ok....where to begin, well I guess I'll start by saying all furs I know now are good ppl with a lot of talent and are putting it to good use, improving everyday and I love seeing that...... But I'm a little envious about that.... Seeing another improve where as I myself don't improve... At all. Since I joined this site I've met people I've come tho think of as family and seen the talents of each... All seem to have the motivation, the persistence to trial and error, determination and general control... That I lack.. I'm not motivated, or determined enough... I'm just lazy and not improving which.. I-I really want to improve but I'm just... Not my anxiety is acting up lately and I'm frustrated with myself for working so hard on stuff like my Loyalty piece which took days and getting nothing to show for it... I'm just indifferent now I can't improve with my values.. I know this sounds like whining and it is,but how could I not when I haven't improved in over a year. I'm saddened that I haven't, all these amazing people making this amazing things and here I am wallowing in my own imagination with all this creativity but I can't funnel it well enough to create something you guys all will love... My photos, traditional sketches, digital pieces, and others seem to be a waste of my resources now....... I'm just beginning to shut down... With it being the most stressful year in school and me needing an outlet which is art for me... I'm just failing to impress you guys now... I'm even jealous of my best friends here with how they improved.... I'm just sad now that I can no longer find improvement.... I thought for a moment that.... I could've been.... Unique...

I have notices lately that I'm not improving at a rate that I'm happy with and I would like some help and/ or support in my improvements like someone who can link tutorials, articles, or share their evict after reviewing my work. I really need this, I'm getting stressed with my lack of improvement, sure everyone who sees my stuff at school is impressed but I'd like to start impressing all of you because I feel I've let you all down somehow. And I want to fulfill a dream to become one of the best. So please if you have anything or know anybody who can help please let me know.

I actually think I would like some help getting rid of some of my problems. I get stressed when change happens to someone I know on this site. Like when I see some friend of mins has like 700 watches when they used to have like 500 for some reason that legit stresses me out I think it's because I fear they may change in a bad way, and let that stuff get to their head and treat me like shit... I don't know why this happens it just does and I'm legit afraid of this happening... If any of you could help me fix this I'll be in your debt

Ok over the last 3 months I decided it was time I tried to deviate away from the internet, why? Well I guess I fear that I may get sucked in too much to all this and I don't want to end up being closed minded. Plus I wanted to start using the social skills I picked up here out in the world. I'm sorry for being gone so long I honestly missed all of you especially my friends which is all 356 of you. And I hope you know that even if I don't talk to all of you guys you are all friends of mine.


So what will this return bring... Well I don't think I'll be posting as much because of my junior year in high school but there will be a sudden appearance of digital works for a change, and I will continue traditional works because that's how I wanted to do all this.
I'm really greatful for your patience and hope that you understand what's going on.


So I hope that we can continue this for years to come. It's good to see all of you again!

Subject: 279

Subject name: jax

Age: 18

Origin: saturn, moon, Titan

Description: a male anthropomorphic wolf, med build, intellegent, pitch black fur and blue skin underneath.

Abilities: abnormal adaptation rates, incredible intellect, and remote manipulation of machines and organisms

Containment: large steel confinement.

Threat level: red (extremely dangerous)

Captured: August 29th 2014

Overseer quotes: whatever you do do not look into his eyes

I'm going to take a tech art class this year in school which will allow me to begin doing what everyone else does so yeah

Today I had to watch my brother go off to college and even though we had our problems I'm really gonna miss him.



It's tough to see someone you have known all your life go on to their next step in life. I should be happy but... I'm just sad :(

I can't take this insanity much longer alone ;-; my mind is spewing with these dumb opinions of mine and it's driving me insane I can't take it DX it's like a war in my mind and I'm helpless to stop it ;-;