What's the difference of never knowing at all?
When every step I take is always too small.
Maybe it's just something I can't admit but lately,
I feel like I don't give a shit.

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don't know how to take them.
Inspiration's getting hard to fake it.
Concentration's never hard to break it.
Situation never what you want it to be.

Motivation's a b i t c h.

So I've been pretty down lately.
Been having relationship troubles; go figure.
That and I've been job hunting, just got a new one.
Just been all around busy since the last time I posted here.
Took my final GED test today, hopefully I passed so I can move on in life.
I'm enrolled into Animal Behaviorist College for a certificate in grooming.
That's supposed to start the 20th of this month, so that'll chew up even more time.
Especially since I need 100 hours of on-the-job training. /gag/

I've hardly been able to get around to drawing.
We just got the computer desk back.
And every time I try get so disappointed.
I just have such a lack of motivation.
I start something and never finish it.

I have like 10 unfinished SAI files.
/sigh/

Well hopefully when I have some breathing room,
I can try to work on my art projects (my vast overdue ones).
It's hard cause my boyfriend and I share the computer.
We're both taking online college courses. Gross.

My 21st is in like, 2 weeks too. Ugh.

Until next time.
- Rache.

So like, I have a lot of characters that I never use, or have only used a few times;
So like, i'm going to be selling them; for cheap obviously.
If the original artists who I bought them from don't want me to sell, but to give them back; then I will
and if I have already sold said character, I will give you the owed money for it. Deal?
I just need to clear stuff out. Here's my character list, some come with pictures, some don't.

Robin. - SOLD.
Iorek. - FREE.
Nnoma. - $3.00 USD.
Caramel. (Comes with 3 other images) - $8.00 USD.
Jason. - $3.00 USD.
Mange. - $1.00 USD.
Carson. (Comes with several images)- SOLD
Ezhno. (NOT SAFE FOR WORK, comes with 3 other images.) - $25.00 USD. - I have a huge attachment to him. He was one of my long standing RP characters, so he's going to be expensive. Plus I also bought commissions from other people that you would be getting of him. Still battling with selling him though D:

So. It's been quite the while since I last posted anything here.

Things have been rough since the move, what with people trying to start shit and all.
Our stay here is short-lived also because my boyfriend lost his job some few months ago, so at the end of this month we're moving out. Luckily we get to stay together. His family doesn't have the room, so he's coming to live with me and mine.

He is in the Air Force still, but he's being shipped back down south for new job training for unsatisfactory work, i guess.
We still don't know when exactly, but at this rate it might not be until sometime in fall/early 2014. Who knows.

I haven't really done much artwork since I moved out, hence the lack of updates.
I'm trying to change that, but yeah. Just been really sick and lazy lately.

I've also updated my profile and am starting a new on this site.
Once I get my current batch of (over-due) commissions done, things will be run differently.
You'll have to wait until then to see. I'm still offering refunds and might choose to do so to a select few.
There's still some art pieces that I just cannot finish and it's becoming stressful.
Hopefully I will have a job soon, so I can refund those who have been waiting so patiently.
If not, when I open back up all my earned money will go to those who deserve it first, before I use it on myself.

Any who, that's about it.
Peace.

Refunds:


Commissions:
- Commission - Not started.
- Commission - Lost work, restarting.
- Commission - In process.
- Commission - In process.
- Gift - Not started.
- Gift - Not started.



If i'm missing anyone else, please let me know.

Passed away the other night.

Sadly, she ended up taking her own life.
As a person who's struggled with the thought of suicide, i know hands on how hard of a feeling it is to overcome and how much pain said person has to be in to want to end it all like that.

I'm deeply saddened to see that she chose that path and my warmest condolences go out to her friends and family. It's never easy losing someone and though i did not know her well, i had met her in a livestream once and she seemed like the most sweetest person, so to see her go; i can't even wrap my brain around it. It's as though it never happened, though i know it did. I just don't want to believe it.

The overwhelming hate and skepticism on her page, disgusts me. People want proof, people are complaining that her page hasn't been marked as deceased. IT FUCKING HAPPENED YESTERDAY. Shit just doesn't change over night. Obituaries aren't published in a day. It's pathetic how stupid and naive people are. True, there are some sick fucks out there who do fake their own deaths, but i personally know that BOTH and would NEVER lie about a friend's death like that. I for one, take their word and everyone else's who were close to Aheria who have FIRST HANDED PROOF.

People need to stop hating and get on with their lives. If you trolls don't have anything respectful to say about her, then fucking MOVE ON. Don't spread your self-loathing hate on her wall.

Imagine how YOU would feel if someone close to YOU died and YOU saw people saying shit about them on their page. IMAGINE HOW HER FAMILY FEELS.

Honestly, i envy the dead, because they don't have to put up with unneeded hate. Especially from a place where everyone is supposed to be "ACCEPTED."

This is why, furries can't have nice things.......
/endrant

It's sad to see you go so soon, but rest easy hun, for we all know you're in a much better place now and for as long as we're here on FA, we will continue to fight the hate ♥