Today (Journal's Date), it is the 4th cat I've lost in my life. The 1st 1 was only looking for my father, he didn't really cared about the others, but my dad was the 1 he was always looking for, he was full black with green eyes, but after my father's death in a full individual car accident (the vehicle had lost all controlls by itself), he succomb to depression, and died some years later by isolating himself, because ever since he disappeared, he never covered the idea of the others humans, even though my sister and I were always looking for him, same for my mother. The second has been brought to us by a cleaner lady my mom contracted to clean our former house in the Oise department, as a contribution for how we interacted with her. At 1st he was very easely scared, but adapted very soon to us, and always purred even for slight strokes, and even goes for licking our hair by hisself, but he got neutered a bit too late, as sometimes he took clothes and was like masturbation. But he contracted a fatal Pancreas illness at 14 years old, the entire family agreed to euthanasia, to allow him peace, he became a foster father after the 4Th I've just lost was a stray who took refuge to our home and got impregnanted and release kittens and came back to our house with 2, he quickly accomodate his former territory to the new comers, and he got loved by all of them, and he teached them how to behave toward us, and the male kitten was very close to him, that he maded a big and loud meowing to pay his tribute to him. The 3rd was was this male kitten, but we have no idea of what really happenned to him, at 1st, he was easely scared by anything and his mother had to comes to his rescue, even toward huge dogs who were just barking trying to get just a closer look to them, a 1st idea spreaded by a rumors was a psycho looking for black cats and abducting them, or he did get lost by the background who lead to a huge field, but yet, no Idea, but considered dead anyway, as he was with his elder, the 1 who loved strokes. The 4th I've lost today was his mother, she was around 17-18 years old, she was accomodated to allergy, but when I've arrived to the vet clinic, there were delays because a pregnant dog had birth troubles and had to get an operation, and an inburts emergency when 3 peoples dragged their dogs who had troubles and a blue tongue, we were like, did it got bitten or sting by mosquito, wasp or snake ? And turns out it succomb to an extensive exposition to sunlight as he has been kept on an exposed balcony, and we have high temperature here too. But anyways, she meowed in pain during the night that I had troubles to sleep (and it's understandable), yet she kept meowing at the same pace, but after she has with a vet, it was already a lost case: lesions, kidneys and liver deficiency, dehydrated (even though she tried to drink) and couldn't wash herself, no more strenght for real. I still have the 5th, her daughter, but she turn out 16 this year, so, only a matter of years (for the best) before she might also goes for the final road. I shall take some time from SFM working to recover from this lost, because she was (the 4th loss) a real attaching cat, anyone that will lay it hand to her, she mainly goes to it, especially if she is accomodated to them: my mother, my sister, my great-aunt and me (as I am the 1 who gaved her her name), as she was also looking for sitting on people's thights and bags. I'm not sure if when the last 1 will pass away I'll take any new, maybe time will tell me if I shall do so or not.

End of the message.

Tonight (from the Journal's Date), I was about to fullfil another sharable work for you, an animation with a famous (and cute character) which awake with a boner in bed. A little short 1, but still, I think you'll at least like it. The model used is 1 by  MrWarfaremachine someone that I haven't yet shared something with him. But it will be a pretaste for a full horny release I've got all the day, that I'll work for real. But I had a little unfortunate incident with a storm who struke above my home, rendering a fucking blackout while my cloth dryer and my Computer were working. But for now, I still have usable plugs to keep my computer wired, so I'm still able to work, yet, I'll see to spare my job's gain to make a full electrical restoration of my house. I'm sure some would like to actually do something to help me, but yet I'm pretty sure almost all of you (and for very good standings) would advise me to not open (for now) either a "Patreon" or "Subscribestar" page, because 1st I'm not actually very productive (because of my job and some part of lazyness), and also because I don't have enough visibility to pretend opening such pages. But tomorrow (from the Journal's Date) I'll share you this animation, just so bad that I'll have to make resolution higher than my actual screen resolution, because SFM doesn't consider for "Movie Export" the 1440 P resolution.

Saturday (from this journal's date), I had an unfortunate kitchen accident. Using a Slicer on potatoes, I unfortunatly had my right hand's Index who got cut by the tool, I've lost 0.04 inch, or 1mm of flesh of my Index's Tip, and bled pretty bad at the time. But thanks to some bought I've done the previous day, I had the right bandages to isolate the bleeding with compress and cream. The bleeding stopped during the night, and the next day, it was only safe for not bleeding anymore, as long as I don't press the finger's tip on something. Now, the wound is sealed, no more risk of open it accidently, but yet it stills sensitive, so I'll have to be careful for at least this week to be sure that it will not bleed anytime soon. In the meantime, it's been about almost a week I've got "Resident Evil 4 Remake". And what is my opinion on this game ? I love it. "Resident Evil 4" was my 1st game of this franchise I had in hands (I know, shame on me for passing away those famous games since the PS1, especially that I still have this console), and I've loved it, but yet how did I discovered the previous games ? Well, with parody, but I know how much Capcom won with those games, especially the 2 and the 3. But the 4th was impressive and refreshing from the previous titles in terms of gameplay, and I also found the context quite great. When "Resident Evil 2 Remake" got out, I've followed a Youtuber to see how the game seems to performed, and by the look of it, it was an impressive game, and also a great Remake, the 3rd, well, got more bad stuff, but still do the job right. And what about the 4th ? I've played the original on PS2 with many, many, many, many "New Game+" with both "Limited Ammunition Arsenal" and "Infinite Ammo Weapons", especially with "Leon's Gangster Suit" and "Ashley's Invincibility Armor", and also complete the game with the highest difficulty availlable to unlock the supreme weapon: the "P.R.L. 412". What were my favorite Limited Ammo Arsenal weapons ? Here: Fully upgraded Silver Ghost, Fully Upgraded Riot Shotgun, Fully Upgraded, Fully Upgraded Bolt Sniper Rifle, and 7 Magazine Killer7 with others upgrades full, because it was leaking exclusive upgrade, so I prefered keeping the basic magazine on this gun. On this remake, do my arsenal changed ? No way. What do the game did great ? The Village Section is almost perfect, why ? Because there were at the fortified place 2 choosable path on the original game, in which you either face an "El Gigante", or a full ganado platoon with "Bella Sisters" on the other path, so bad that it has been removed, but other than that, I've loved what they've done with "Bitores Mendez", a serious improvement compared to the original, and it "UnderTaker" (As a Joke, I compare him to an humoristic character played by Louis de Funès: Rabbi Jaccob) Attitudes makes him more BadAss. The Castle, this part, is perfect, fully improved, and also that Salazar is more sadistic than childish, which makes him more charismatic, we don't have the quote "No thanks, bro", but it is a "Success", so Capcom didn't forget that line, and the Island, fully improved compared to the original, and "MG 08" as "Ganado's Machine Gun" ? I say yes, just so bad that the initial J.J. as been unfortunatly replace with a brute wearing a Boar Head armed with an automatic Bolt Thrower, while the original was an Overmuscled Rambo armed with a Minigun. That is the only things that the "Remake" did bad: "Animal Headed Brutes", just why ? Not just having "Overmuscled Ganado" instead ? They are supposed to look like normal person while being bugged. But other than that, I've loved what they did with all of the characters, especially Krauser, Leon and Ashley. For Krauser, better backstory for why he became awful and how things ended with Leon. As for Leon, he is more marked after the events of Raccoon City than in the original, he seems a bit depressed, but do what he can to not witness what he happened before, and how the "Plaga's Eradication" script has been done, I've loved how they've done it. And Ashley ? She is more proactive and very much less a dead weight than in the original game, unless you finish the game with the "Extra 2 Clothes with her Medieval Armor", she is more capable, can climb down, do more moves to protect herself, try to stand away of the ganado, so there's struggles between her and them, and she have more will against the "Plaga", in overall, you really care for her, because she do the best she can to not be hopless. While the arsenal has brought back almost all of the weapons of the original game, the P.R.L. 412 unfortunatly is not include, there's only 1 drawback, and it is the Iconic HandCannon, nerfed too much, it Firepower is useless compared to the "Broken Butterfly" and the "Killer7", because it got too much recoil and no "Lasersight" to compensate. But what about the new 1 ? Well, the "LE5" can do the job: tighter spread and "Armor Capacity" makes it better than the initial "TMP who got Higher Firepower and Magazine size but higher spread, and also can be equip with Optic, maybe useful. And the "CQBR" ? Well, maybe on "New Game+", it got full potential for full use, because it is using "Rifle Ammo" and they are not very abundant, but with very good sparing and multiple try, or "Trigger Discipline", can turn good, but I did liked that with the rifles you got an FPS aiming instead of TPS crosshair aiming, which is really interesting, especially when facing enemies at certains distance with blur distances. What I would like to see from either the devs, or the modding community are: a Leon WW1 US Soldier's outfit, as we got the "Red 9" and the "Springfield",a good aesthethic matching for visual pleasure, a Leon Modern (2004) US Army Woodland Camo gear with helmet, flack jacket, knees and elbows pads allowing Leon to takes overall less damage with an unbreakable jacket, and as new weapons, first the come back of the P.R.L. 412 as a reward for a "S+ Rang Professionnal New Game" along with the "Cat's Ears", but I would like to see a real "M16" Rifle, either an "A1, A2, A4", any of those, but with the carry handle, and full size rifle, not carbine sized, because we already get the "CQBR", and with which performance ? All but the Firepower stats improved from the "CQBR", like having "4.2", and having the Damage multiplier by 1.5, and occupying the same lenght as the "Springfield" but with 2 squares instead of 1 of wideness. Why that ? Just because as an american rifle, you don't see it in almost all "Resident Evil" games or movies in action, a bit unfair, as the M4 is too commonly represented as an assault rifle while it's a carbine, and also if no "Foregrip" accessories "M16" could be done, I know it is supposed to help getting better handling on weapons, but it does also impact the weapon size, making it also not very confortable in every situation, I would love it. Anyway,," Resident Evil 4 Remake" is really great, I've enjoyed playing it: higher backstories for everythings, rework of every places, almost all marvels, and perfect gameplay. I would like to know your opinion on this game if you did played it, and how you feel the "Remake" towards the original.

 Judy_Judith released a journal about a mass shooting who occured very recently and got feedbacks of political belief, and also the presence of an conspirationnist asshole,  fk12420 . My opinion about this shouldn't be important because I'm french, and also in meantime I do more focus on the actual garbage situation that occurs in my country, I still let my eyes and ears about what's going on everywhere else I could know something. The shooter had an account here, but it is now deleted by the staff (and given the situation, is explainable) and was known as being a 28 years old Trans. But what is my position about this kind of news, I'm complex because I prefer getting all, or if not possible, most of the information to get myself my opinion about this. Mass shooting, especially at schools have to be watched with the right eyes and the right datas to maybe understand the act, but only understanding it, because nobody should forgive a such brainless action.

-There could be a possibility that the former shooter was a former bullied student and got exhausted to suffer up while nobody cared about it, there has been an Ad who shows that, where you had a lovely student couple on the front screen, but the real matter was behind, making the watchers watching the Ad again with what should have been watched instead, and leading to such results if bullying stills stands in the dark of the interest of everybody, even though it is not only excessive, but also irrationnal, because it is wasting more than what you've already suffered.

-But if the bullying was not the main reason (which could be the case considering the targeted building and the age of the shooter), then it was surely a psychiatric disorder, and in that case, there could be wonder of how people believed to let him have access to unsafe weapons, Matt Groening did a "The Simpson" episode where Homer buy a gun and got hisself fully irrationnal and abusive with the use of it, and showing the NRA member not confiscating his gun for unsafe usage and possession. What Groening wanted to condemn with this episode is that weapon sales is maybe too free and let anybody getting some of those, while the customer had prejudice with either justice or psychiatric institutions, or both. In France, any prejudice forbid the bought of weapons, but then how Mass shooting happens there then ? Black Market, if the USA have free range for weapons Sales, in France, we don't anymore since over 20 years, only sport license allow gun buy for people, and if they are too restrictive, then, Black Market, and some of those motherfuckers openly sell their illegals items to the public infront of everybody.

My position about Gun Ownership is the following, Gun Safety Education is and MUST be granted in schools and in public Forum to give better understanding about what it is, and why not everybody should claim to get 1 if it had any prejudice which involve possibly an open violent mind, and also granting for the possible customers professionnal lessons for weapon storage, safeties and usage, allowing the owner to become part of national or local defense actor, but always getting appointment for keeping tracks of his guns and where and when they've been used, and for which reasons they've been used at the 1st place. I know it is a bit polemic, but Kyle Rittenhouse's case is the perfect example of professionnal gun usage, and his behaviors shall be a real example of how weapons should be used, and in which circumstances it should not be condemned. But this Mass Shooting affairs is unfortunatly not going to be the last, because thanks to brainless "freedom speakers" believing that any freedom is right, some degenrate people pretending to be part of a community execute brainless irrational actions, which lead to the community in question to get harrassed and attacked by anger driven mobs, just like in the George Floyd's Case where Black mobs attacked white peoples freely and openly, but Floyd was a mob, a gangster, not a martyr, and that the same for the Tennessee's Shooter, but idiots do only look for the surface of the characters and takes position that is just nonsense to rise it figures and without understanding of their past, believe to rise a symbol for the right stuff, but unfortunatly, rise the perfect opposite figures of their fights.

But yet, United States of America is unfortunatly, and I'm not from the only country believing it, since the Vietnam War, a collapsing country, leaded by brainless morons pretending to gather the world's knowledges, while not even gathering the ones of their own country and share anything they believe to be right, while in most cases, nobody cares, like the "Police Violence's Victims" of Africa, where almost the entire continent where like "Why do you fucking care ? It's like this here because this is how we settle our belief here, just move off.". Since this war, the country has been striked by the National Spirit of "Broken Pride", Kennedy tried the best for the world, but after him, all goes wrong, and Obama did too, but not in the bright way for everythings. And let's not forget that the childish brainless George W. Bush let the CIA do what they wanted just for fun, especially for the "Second Gulf War", before you make judgement about France, gather the right data about what US officials shared to it people, and what where really discovered after the war, and what the CIA, the White House and the Congress spreaded about France, you'll see that they've taken you as brainless obedient garbage, because they want you to be it just for their own pleasure, just watch how your country has turned after Obama's mandates, and how Biden is doing now. There are americans how wants change, but none arrive because of lobby and political struggles for irrationnal gains.

It's not about me I'm talking about Retirement, but my old trusty Laptop: 10 years of trustfull and loyal service for everythings. But my new tower is fully operationnal and works more than well, even thought "Darktide" do heat up my graphic card (but it is because the game have unbalanced settings). But what did I really get with my new tower ? Everythings: faster, smoother and higher Hard Drives capacities, in Total, I got over 10 Tbits of storage, because I wanted to dedicate each of them for specific tasks: 1 as local, the other for games and the last 1 for everythings related to 3D. Now SFM run so smooth that I've never witnessed such smooth operations from my side due to the age of my laptop, it is yet so bad that some models do unfortunatly consume memory. But yet, I'll seek the right time to re-adapt myself from "SFM" to "Blender", as now I'm up to date in terms of compatibility, yet I'll have to get the right link to crack up a "Sony Vegas Pro 18" software and same for "Photoshop", because they do still sell their keys too expensive for what they are, even at 150 $, it's still too much, but I'll get those in the right time, because I'll need "Vegas Pro" for video rendering in better way than using Blender itself. If you got useful links for safe video procedure to hack both "Sony Vegas Pro18" and "Photoshop" and even "After Effetcs", my ears and eyes are willing to get your answers. At first I thought I would not adapt myself on my new tower because of how long I've been on a Laptop with end 2012 configuration, but turns out highly better. I might share a new work soon from my new Tower. See you soon.

I'm 30 years old today. The 23rd of Feburary is my birthday, but after what happenned to me now 3 years ago, you might understand why I don't celebrate it like many do it. We all got a way to celebrate our birthday, but for me, after loosing my Great-aunt the Eve of 1 of them, due to a stroke, and also because many years ago, we did loose interest to make any kind of celebrations with cakes and others fancy stuff, we do decide where to eat just as a formality for the event. Yet, 2023 might not stop to surprise us, but let's not talk about actual news. I'm on edge of finishing building my new tower, and after the news of  Petruz new release, I already had in mind a porn projet concerning the "Rabbit Clan Leader", even though it will be altered from it cannon wiriting, but I'll not say too much, will be too bad to waste the pleasure of discovering. Anyway, have a safe/nice day anywhere.

The site from where I've made a bought for a second hand graphic card reconize the scam and refunded me, in the meantime I've bought a new 1. I know that Nvidia is actually getting in bad shape due to "miscalculation" of their products toward people: either by their card's prices, or by stating the leaks of ressources for new shipment, and due to that people tends now to get more AMD for both graphic cards and core/processor. But I still prefer reference brands, even if it can get expensive, because for updates it can be better and faster, even though Microsoft should hit the brakes with their "Windows 11". But I get my new graphic card, I'm very proud to finally get something new, and the rest is coming, I still need to get Hard Drives, but I'm not sure of which brand with great reading/writing speed and not too espensive to take for 4 TB of storage, as I'm looking for 3 Hard Drives with very high speeds, while I'll get a fourth 1 of 240 GB as a trashbin for "Temporary Files". All of this to say that I'm actually about to put myself on a new computer set, and so, my trusty "MSI Notebook" will finally get a very deserved retirement after 10 years of services. On it career, it only suffered 2 return to the pro who delivered it to me: 1 due to Hard Drive damage who got changed and got better after that, and the last 1 due to Fan malfunction that did get resolved by changing it directly. 10 Years of Services, only 1 Windows Crash, only 1 time he unfortunatly suffered of a "Blue Screen of Death", and to make it worst, he suffered multiple forced shutdown due to Instant Black Out either by weathers, or because of outside sources. And if you wanna ask... NO! I'll NEVER sell it; or throw it to the trash. While he tooks over 10 to 15 minutes to completly boot, he still works and still be able to launch games and browsers fine, and I shall keep it, as it is my very 1st personnal computer ever, and he served me very well.

I know that with our actual worldwide crisis, it might not be a suitable thread to talk about. But Today (from the Journal's Date), I've watched a little Gem: Super Mario Bros. - The Great Mission to Rescue Princess Peach! This movie is what a Video Game adapation should be, it is funny, entertaining and trustfull to the video game. Such a shame Nintendo ignored to reset for public show the movie, it is aged, but yet, still entertaining today. Such hard work from 2006 to reset this movie for public awareness, we could be only thanksfull to the dedicated peoples who make this 4K restoration possible, this link will get you to the movie: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vzl.....0Q&t=1021s . I also have to say this, during a "Video Game Hero Trial" from "Gamespot", I've recieved an ad from Steam, and I've voted for Gordon freeman at this time, but if this movie was accessible from it initial release and released later for Video Tape and Movie Theater's marketing, it could have make me doubt about my Freeman's Choice, even though I've known "Super Mario" only by a N64 marketing Video Tape at the very 1st time, I've been aware later of how mythical is the franchise, while without noticing it, I've played a SNES "Super Mario Kart" game, from 1 of my uncle's place. You love Mario, you wanna see a movie with him while dodging the awfull Direct-Live movie with Bob Hoskins ? This movie is for you. I've liked it, maybe you'll too. Other than that, stay safe.

Another artist is in panic, here the journal's link: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10338220/ . Do what you can, spread the word and share if you can.

This morning,  angelef sent me a panic message for asking help, here is the link of the journal about it panic: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10333971/ . I can't do much because I had taxes that passes this month, and I have to watch my funds to prepare the bought of the new CPU, even with my current job, I do sometimes miscalculate the expenses, besides we had some increased bills for some services: Gas, Electricity and some others expenses I couldn't withdrawn. If you are already a watcher of it works, then, do what you can, or spread the words, if you are not, you might like it style and support her.

So, I don't have Covid anymore, so I feel very much better, but why nothing more ? Well, sometimes at my workplace we get highly charged with command with customers who send many alloy pieces for painting, and I do get sometimes tired after work. I've also retake times to play "Dawn of War Dark Crusade" with "Titanium Wars" mod, especially with "Imperial Guard" faction for the campaign, because I love the tanks variety they got, and also a "SFMLab" Pack is giving "DoW 1 & 2" models, and I'm making test about how to make face posing with some, but due to how they work, it's not that great, but still makable. But lately, I have again another struggle with my online girlfriend just like in "October" for the same mistakes she is doing very recently, so again, I'll not talk to her for a month, because tomorrow (from the journal's date), my employers prepare a Barbecue, and I want to unwind my anger against her, by not talking to her, because anytime, she got away with what we've said, and do the same mistakes we've agreed on. I know that I can sound harsh like that, and some of you would say that I would ask her too much, but understand me, have you ever been in a discussion with someone, you've stated something that is really important for you, and then, it says things about that thread you considered closed ? And also not understanding it mistake until you finally get them understanding what they've did wrong ? That's exactly what she has been doing for the past 2 days (from the journal's date, again), making promise to not talk about my "Conjugal Past", because there's nothing to talk about, and then, asking question about my "Conjugal Past" like that. If you are, or have been in a relationship, is your fellows have been like that ? Promising to not talk about what you've stated, and then asking a question about that ? She is unfortunatly loosing me, because she does it too much time, and I always have to remind her mistakes, and I'm tired of doing this, but she got a beautiful body and face, and I really want her, as she really wants me in return, as she had 3 boyfriends who were toxic for her, but with me, it's like she is making the same mistakes in intention to loose me, and so, I'm falling in bad mood. Yesterday for example (from the journal's date), at my workplace, I had some trouble: 1st, 1 of our equipment fall in troubleshooting with me multiple time. 2nd, the amount of work is very high, because we had an employe in interim period who had an abusive outburst last Friday, and hasn't came back, and turns out that he is in a bad mental state. 3rd, before my workshift got over, I've cut myself with some of pieces at my leg. I'm asking you this, have you been in a relationship with someone who failed to keep tracks of all you've talked about ?

Yep, I'm covided, after all yesterday my fever rised to 39° C and this morning I was sore and having cold sweat, plus I still have some back pain. So I'll have to stay at my home for the rest of the week, and I'm not sure if I could still be able to focus on stuff for sfm.

I've watched my temperature with my thermometer who can read heat either on the forehead, in ear or in anal, I've done the ear one, as it is the most accurate reading option, and turns out I have a light fever, at 37.9° C, yet I'm not feeling too bad, even though from this morning I have sore throat, and was worried to be be covided, but yet, I've done auto-test: Negative. I'm sometimes having some very light bone pain in my back, nothing that immobilize me on either bed or chair, but I'm getting quick tireness that however are not heavy to put me quick to bed, but I think that because last night I've launch my bedroom's air conditionner and the temperatur was a bit too low for me to sleep out of my duvet. But that not really too alarming since I've been able to make more than 4 miles (6 kms) from my home to some place I had to go for today without troubles, so that's not a big deal, but It could lead me to not focus enough on SFM to work on, while I also had to work on my swimming pool and my ground, but with this, I had to only focus on my s.p. as I have for the 23rd of july a barbecue with my sister and cousin with their relatives, so I have to clean it up before they arrive, and thanks to my workshift, I can work on it during my week work, but unfortunatly for the following 1, I'll have to work on OUR National Day, the 14th of July, because it is a thursday and friday it shall be a work day, but my workplace directives changes the public holiday place to allow us to gain a 3 days's week-end. Other than that, I'll see to be more focused on this Warhammer 40,000 stuff I have in my mind to share it with you. I know that I have other stuff to be done, but this 1 I'm pretty sure I can do it with my actual stuff, the others 1 will have to wait from me to have a new computer set.

Update: I've done another test with my thermometer, and I've reached 39° C, yep, my temperature rised, and I feel a bit weaker than yesterday (9 of July), but yet, I do't feel too sore or too heavy, as I can still rise up and do stuff, but my body is slower and sometimes I feel that I wanna get to bed immediatly, and seeing times passing by very slowly.

 RacerDragon released a journal of sadness, because it says she was about to quit. After that, some people came by and makes order, but I make this journal to spread worlds of her/his sales, because it is her/his way to support her/his family, so, if you may help by looking and buying YHC if you can, or spread words. The former journal is no longer here, but I have the note I've written to proove it.

Yep, from what we've heard, russian artist and other kind of users were threatened of PayPal shutdown, and from what it was supposed to be, they got it down before the planned date by the company, which is outrageous, weren't they supposed to prepared a time to shutdown the service at a certain date to let the users having to finnish business ? Well, looks like they don't care. But that shutdown is a perfect example of Stupid Western Sanction, what would really happen with that shutdown ? NOTHING! It will not help about the war, as shutting down the service is a complete mistake, Putin is not a big user of the platform, and do he really need it to perform his wealth ? And for his government, do they really care about keeping or loosing PayPal ? OF COURSE NOT! THEY DON'T FUCKING CARE! They don't need it at all cost for their personnal wealth, but russian artist however need it, as like in the rest of the worlds, there are peoples who can't do others things than drawings and selling them, because they have medical troubles, either physical or mentally, so shutting down the service is a complete jerky worthless political/economical sanction. And for the ones who would say: It will motivate the russians to overthrow their leader. You have no Idea of the real level of Putin's Power over the country. Plus, let's make some appointment about Russian's History from those 30 years.

-1: After the USSR fall, Chechny became independant, and what happen after this ? The new State leadership decided to show it by striking a terrorist attack at Moscow, just after their independance, resulting in a counter-attack by Russia, which was a disaster due to bad military leadership. Even after agreements between the 2 states, Chechnya stood still too arrogant for their Independance, keeping being somehow an annoyance for Russia, that Putin decided to cross the step, and annex the State, and he did it, sure it has been condemned, but it was a respond against annoyers who sticked their baton against the bear's butt believeing he will still be quiet, but he swallowed them to make it stop.

-2: Crimea has been annexed by Putin because NATO kept growing against the constitution after USSR's fall to not threatening Russia by including Ex-Soviet countries in their alliance, but USA have the worst leadership of the Western Powers, why ? It's simple, the Second Gulf War was illegal, and all of the clues showed by the CIA against Iraq were fakes, and the worst was Bush and the Congress tried to make involved France and UK in this mess, but only France stood against it with a "No", and so what happen after that ? We suffered from a stupid brainless bashing with irrelevant and disformed history fact, especially about WW2, and yet today, there are still brainless people who believed that this war was legitimate, but after it, the inspection prooved that we were right, and that put USA with a bad mark, which it still bear it today, and Biden is not doing things to clean for good, because US government is leaded by Warmongers and others Idiots who have no knowledges over foreign countries, culture and people. There has been statements to prevent threats against Russia after USSR falls, but Western powers decided otherwise after the years passing by.

-3 Now about Ukraine, Yep Putin decided to cross the step, even if he got some reaons, I don't support what he did, even though after seeing a document from the UN about "Fighting Nazism Ideology Over the world", prepare yourself, because what I've seen ,is outrageous, and also shocking for many of you United States and Ukraine Signed No, while many european countries standed for Abstention, including France. Plus the fact that there's has been agression towards people for their belief and origins, but that happen for both sides, either for Pro-Europe or Pro-Russia, both sides people suffered from rapes, agressions and murder, but the latter 1 is smaller, so Putin though that he had to do something about it, while Ukraine already suffered from a Civil War in 2014 about what ? NATO inclusion of Ukraine, the most step crossing of the statements against Russia, and so, it is unfortunatly ongoing from there.

All of this to say that Putin Crossed step because he feeled threaten by Western Powers, and seeing how much NATO grows over the years, it could be understandable, but it still not a reason to start a war, but the shutdown of PayPal will NEVER impact the ongoing conflict, and will only Devastate russian just for nothing.

It's been some days, about a week, that I can't stop coughing for no apparent reason, as I dont have Covid, my throat is really sometimes a jerk. Also, it is the following day of my birthday, I don't really celebrate it, because 2 years ago, my great-aunt contracted a stroke prior to it, while we've planished a good day for it, such a good reason to not make it celebrate, besides, when we have birthday in our family, we sometimes got delays to do things about it. And about the Russia-Ukraine War, Putin decided to cross the step, but unfortunatly, everythings is by his side: His army got more experience, especially due to its initial conflicts following the Grozny Humiliation; he knows that if any foreign countries intervene, it will be an escalation to a world war, and he knows that no actual occidental leaders are willing to do so, especially because us french we are going to presidential election this year, and that no candidates will really do things against him, because the retributions will be too much for anybody who intervene there, but we have to, we really have to do something against him, and what could be really interesting is Intervention of the "Légion Étrangère" with both russian and ukrainian soldiers in their manpower to defend the country from the invasion, even if it will be a bloodshed. The UN unfortunatly prooved again it worthlessness, as it is supposed to prevent armed conflicts, but it didn't worked from those long 70 years. Another advantage of Putin is the fact that his targeted country already suffered from inside troubles, weakening it further against him. Even with the actual pandemic, looks like the Russian Armed forces stand still, while Ukraine really need external supports, but how ? Like in WW2, Land-Lease for Ukraine by every NATO countries, since we are their closest neighbors, and reminding Putin about our position towards him, and what should be done to remind the world about Power Balance ? The Rise of France, but it's been too long that french people doesn't really believe in her power for worldwide geopolitics, but De Gaulle granted Nuclear Weaponry for France to make her able to step on either Soviet, or USA foot if they decided to go too far, and if we were kept educated this way, Putin wouldn't even had his hand on Chechnya, because french people would have been able to support high retribution against Russia, forcing Putin to stop its conflict. We need a real third world power, and France was, as De Gaulle trusted that every nations and people have their rights, and that no foreign countries could judge if some could be assimilated, or just slaughtered for demonstration. Like in the Eve of WW2, Occidental nations can't do anythings because there's too much to loose, and they are afraid of those loses, but that's why we became weak, not daring results in worse loses, especially today with the actual Network operation that could be done, like having a direct hack against russian military leadership, or even a hacking operation against the government, but no countries dare, but we have to try things to stop this worthless conflict.

It's been some times that I've warned you about my Cold, now I'm alright, plus the fact that I get the third shot since 2 weeks now and got nothing bad since. There are reasons of why I haven't upload stuff yet:

-1: My actual computer is old and not sturdy anymore for the project I'm about to share, because SFM is too limited in terms of Memory Usage, even though it got 8 GO, I'm always reaching the software limit very quickly, because Petruz models are somehow for some, memory guzzler.

-2: My actual professional life is having a very good turning point, as I'm working as a temporary worker in an industrial installation, and the staff is glad about me, so I'm going to get a real contract, with duration at first, because they'll have to move to an full owned place of their own later, and I'll have to see if my fuel consumption is still efficient or not, as the shifts are not bad, even though I'm there 9 hours per day. So I'll get a good income, even though some workdays exhaust me.

-3: The actual System of my Laptop is the outdated Windows 8, making use of actual versions of Blender and Audacity unable, because it don't have the right systems files to read them, and manual installation of those new files is not working too, but I'll not give him the 8.1 update, because I've already did it before, and turns out some games I really likes were not working anymore. So I had to get it to the Computer Specialist I've bought it to turn it back to Windows 8, and so I've kept like this. With my actual work, I'll seek something new, in a tower with higher memory capacity, either 32 or even 64 GO, if it is indicate, Dual Ranks. Why that much ? Here's the explanation.

I had since some weeks ago a project Idea, that I've started to experiment with some incomplete SFM projects involving ADVENT from XCOM 2. So here is the project in question:

-Setting: Half-Life Timeline and some others merged elements; The main question people were asking in theirselves is: Are we alone in the Universe ? Or Not ? The Black Mesa's Events were never maded public, because mankind was not prepared to face the truth: Alien's existence. But some years later, Earth is invaded by Extraterrestrials forces, an Alliance of 2 powerful psychics beings: the Etherals and the Advisors. But Earth prooved to be a real worthy trophy for them, as in their history, nobody ever resisted over 1 day, but humans manage to hold on for 7 months. Both of the Aliens Rulers concluded that this kind can actually be useful for their projects, and instead of planify a genocide, decided to spread on all of their previously conquered worlds mankind to minimize their rebellious strenght, but also showing that they are not mercyless being wanting to just insure their own survival by exterminating the others kind. While humans are spreaded, Earth became a project place for racial contest, seing if many differents races may live peacefully in the same place, while being watched by their forces: ADVENT from the Etherals and the Combine from the Advisors. But it is not a loving projects, as oppression is indeed applied to remind to all kind WHO are, the Universe's Masters. But earthins proove to be more moraly resilient against foreign occupation, even though only small isolated seditious act are reported and quickly resolved. But for how long the Earth's occupiers will keep their full hold on the world ?

-Main Characters: As Half-Life Timeline it is, Gordon Freeman is 1 of the main protagonist of the story, even though, he will not be the lone 1 responsible for both forces to fully mobilize their tools. The Second Protagonist is my Avatar; Rafe McCawley, a former but with something behind his conversion, ADVENT soldier; as after he resolved an isolated weapon shipment misappropriation, he began to get some remorse for what he did there, something that has never been reported before by ADVENT and the Combine. And the last 1 for the Heroes; Adrian Shephard; the lone HECU Marine's survivor from Black Mesa, and surprisingly, the first of the trio to manifest itself before the tense situation with Rafe, and Gordon arrival. The main antagonist is not Wallace Breen, even though he play an important role in the Half-Life 2 chronology before it demise; but an ADVENT officer, and the 1 that both Advisors and Etherals trust, and might also cherish: Dwayne Harold, the direct superior of Rafe, in which, after his event, he get quickly promoted, to become the most important Human officer for the Occupiers, and their forces. Other than that, there will be some changes in the chronology, not because I find it unpleasant, but because there were some stuff I prefer to put, as you'll see it later, when I'll get the right equipment and good use of Blender, as this project cannot be done on SFM, due to Memory it will need, especially lighting. And the GMAN then ? Well, I'll give, in my point of view, some explanations by myself, like for who is he working for real and why do he had interest in Gordon and Adrian, and why Rafe became interesting for him too.

-Factions: -1 Combine: Earth Police/Military Forces developped by the Advisors with specifics genetics modifications of their taste to match their belief of foot soldiers. All masked with hazardous protections, even the basic Civil Protection, lightly armed in generals, with some specialities in terms of light weaponry, like the AR-2, and some mechanicals units, like the Striders and the Hunters.

-2 ADVENT: The Etheral's Foot Soldiers conception, mainly armed with Magnetic weapons, making them more powerful than the average Combine Soldier, and making them on par with Combine's Elite in Firepower. But the Magnetic Rifle can turn itself to use less lethal means when needed, as it can throw ammo to disable the threats without killing them, as it is the main setting by every ADVENT soldiers, as it is ordered to minimize the full lethality of the weapon. However, if they are setted for higher means usage, they could deploy some multirole antigrav fighting vehicles, as the Etherals withdrawn the walkers idea for their armed forces concept after the 7 Months War.

-3 Conscript: Unspecified human manpower for assisting both of the Occupier's forces. Armed with Pre-War weapons and fitted with Pre-War Armored vehicles, they have the highest raw firepower over everybody else, but their vehicles are tightly watched by the others forces to get sure than none of the powerfullest equipment in their hand is either hijacked, or redirected without surveillance. As having no modifications, and they are very basic humans, but could get promoted to any side by their choice after some career times. While many are against the Occupiers, there are Conscripts Regiments that however serves them with full willing, granting them faster promotions and considerations, and also being allowed to oppress people when they feel it, against anything.

-4 Rebellion: Like in every timeline when a place is occupied by a foreign being, there's always a rebel network against them, and in this timeline, it do not make exception, the main brain behind the Rebellion is Eli Vance, assisted with his daughter Alyx, the Black Mesa Scientists Isaac Kleiner and Arne Magnusson, The Double Pro Rebellion Agent Judith Mossman, and Barney Calhoun. As being an underground entity, their weapons are very mixed, and same for warfare knowledge and tactics, but with the race variety, some natural abilities turns effective for them, such as the great smell ability of the Canines, Dexterity for the Scalies ect...

What will be the future post ? I'll seek time and motivations to share a prequel Episode of the main timeline, as I've said before, my actual equipment is not adequate for the project. But normally, if I've calculated everythings right, I can complete it, but I'll see how to render it right, because either Catbox cannot make direct media reading for .AVI Video format, so I'll make a test with an MP4 file, just something unrelated to see If there'll be media reading in this format, or either I don't get it how to use the media file reader of the site. I'll seek the time to make a very good teaser poster to share later on to give you a good view of the incoming stuff. Anyway, keep care of yourself, later on.

Well, Monday we had a big rainy day, all day long it was raining, and not just some light fall, a real rain, and I was at work, so I caught Nasopharyngitis. During the week work, I've manage to get enough strenght to complete it until my temporary contract was done. However, some colleagues warned me that there are people who caught covid, while having the same symptoms as this 1, so Wednesday, I've bought an auto-test, and goes Negative, so I was relieved for a moment. But Yesterday, 1 of our work colleague was founded positive to Covid, and it was since the beginning of the week, and we only got warned the last day of the week work. The Company's Direction asked all of the remaining workers to get a fast as possible a new, but official Covid-Test, to determine who are hosters, and who are not, and some of my colleagues would like to be asymptomatic positive, to gain free time. After the work, I've directly goes to a Covid Dedicated Center I've already been for both exams and inoculation, as the place allow free Covid-Test. I've just got the result this morning (In France, It was at 5:15 AM), and I'm negative, but my actual illness has increase it intensity: more cough and higher nose troubles, so I had a real bad sleep, and I'm wondering if I could get back to work Monday, but I really doubt so. I'll let you know about my health later, but thanksfully, I haven't got Covid yet.

Like others people in the world, my New Year Eve is not getting well. My laptop's Fan is finally Out of Order, I've noticed it while I was playing XCOM: Enemy Unknown, a game that doesn't require much configurations, my Laptop can handle it with ease. But just after I've complete a mission, I've just heard something weird coming from my Laptop's Bottom, and immediatly, I've understood that it was again the Fan having malfunctions. But unlike the previous, when he goes overspeed for no cooling, it is now spinning with less strengh, and with higher noise, so it doesn't cool down the Laptop anymore. Thanksfully, I've readed that I could make it work without it, even though I do really care about it, but I have something to help him prevent overheat, because I've made an expanse for a cooling board some years ago, to improve the initial cooldown, and now it is serving as the main cooling down system. But I'll not count on it for a long period of time, I'll make another expanse and buy a new fan for it, because the Board is not powerful enough to cool it down for extensive or high usage, especially SFM. And about the SFM works, I've started new projects involving ADVENT, but in varied ways, and they are all meant to be animated, but I have 2 things to clarify about the leaks of contents from me this year: -First; I do start project that match my thought, but I've understood that It does however need more practice from me, as some animations require some specific animations sets with specific precise contact, walking and running, because I want those animations to be more than decent in terms of both motion and contact. While you might just say, you know, even those animations, however hard they could be, it can still be done quickly, and here the second thing: Distraction; Yep, I have some king of Attention Disorder, because even when I've started things in good ways, there's always something else, completly unrelated that push me away of my current work, and making a stop on it for no reason other than just stroking myself, even when I've already jerk multiple times on the day. I do have this struggle, because I do take pleasure making animations, but my Attention Disorder push me away, but I can't really say why I'm affected, and especially only on my Computer, when I was on the other, nothing, when I'm at work, I have good focus there, so I don't really understand why when I'm on my laptop, I have this Disorder. But for how long will I pause the SFM works ? Until I get a new Laptop's Fan, but I restart the Job the following Tuesday, and I don't trust the common Hardware shop to got what I need, especially that tomorrow it is the new year, and that most of the time, Shops are closed, so no way for me to get there and check by myself, but if they are open, I do hope they got what I need, because until then, I'll not play game or either working on SFM, as they do heat my Laptop, and he is in no condition to support it.

I do wonder if all of you had a good christmas, I do share my feelings if you need to be remoralized if it wasn't that good, or somethings bad happenned to you. I also share my greetings for the New years to every 1. I have something to tell you. Yesterday, I've started to make a new SFM animation, but it is completly unrelated to christmas or the new year, it is a bloody animation in which I had some urge in me. But my current Laptop settings, as it is the same for almost now 9 years, is unfortunatly low, even though SFM doesn't consume more than 10 to 18 % of my CPU, even when it is consuming more than 3 GO of Ram. The thing is, while Poster rendering do only takes to max at maximum rendering settings 3 to 6 minutes, the Movie Rendering however is heavier, as the actual movie rendering is about almost 17 Hours, for not even a clip of 30 seconds. There are users who are harrased for having 6 hours of rendering for 5 minutes, my situation is highly worst, because I only got 8 GO of Ram in terms of memory, but I've read that even with higher Memory Power, the rendering times of SFM will still be low. But for the 1 who are saying that SFM workers are lazy people, they have to understand that Poster and Movie rendering aren't the same, while Poster doesn't required too much times effectively to be complete, Movies however are more time consuming, especially with the actual computer's components of each users. So, what is the actual project on road ? Well, since my last "Gay stuff" has been really appreciated, I've setted myself to start this project about the "Petruz's Clan's Setting", but it is a bloody clip, and my last bloody stuff hasn't been much watched, and so you'll be asking, why starting with this then ? Because I had urges inside me that were unbearable, and I had to calm them, but is just a part of the actual clip, the 1 that was giving me the heaviest urges, the others parts will be done later, since this rendering might be only complete until 3:00 to 5:00 AM. But I'll not post it yet, I'll wait to post it at the right time for chronological order, would be a waste to show something earlier than the planned time.

Everyone, read carefully, Even though I'm not a very productive content maker, but for October Month I've explained why I've made only a little comic just about the Catch I've done, but after getting this from my watching submissions list: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44755877/ ; I've directly fall to the charm of this, as if you have readed my Journal about my Fetishisms, "Cock and Balls Torture", belong to my taste. And to tell you the truth, I've already did a little teaser with the similar setting with both  Petruz and  Mrwarfaremachine Fox and Bug models, but Fox didn't just get stinged, he already is, but the Bug do also inject venom in his cock. But you migh ask me, why would you need our opinion if you have already complete what you wanted ? Well, the truth is, I wanna share it, but much more complete, I had after some though dedicated to this stuff, rendering it for "public" share, as a fight; but I've thought of differents outcomes, 2 to be exact, and I want your opinion for this, as there's 3 choice.

Would you like to get:

1: Fox Defeat with Cock stinged and Venom Injection ?

2: Bug Defeat with Fox pressing the Bug's Balls ?

3: Both of them ?

And I already know what you might think: with those choices, the fights will only be in favor of the victor characters ? The answer is no. I'll make sure to create a balanced fight, but leading to the decided outcome with a reasonnable turning point. Having Fight choice leading to only the selected character getting no hit is a lazy stuff, even though  basati did real similar stuff, in order to show good spectacles, even with some Snuff stuff, but don't worry, mine will not lead to Snuff.

This Opinion ask will last for a week, to prepare myself for the upcoming outcomes.

Yep, I get my Gaming Laptop back, meaning that I'll get back to SFM works very very soon. Did it cost you anything ? Nothing, just a simple service done. But I admit however that it is somehow desorientating to going back from a big PC screen to the Laptop. But I'll do what I can with this untill I can get myself what I need as a PC tower, with very big performances. But I'll see which project I'll finish soon. So, what do this Laptop is doing better than the other Computer you've been on for the time being ? Performances, really quicker than the other in many aspects, because with the other, I've climbed to 85-90 % of processor usage, while my Laptop is having better performance usage.

A Job ! Yeah, after having some short missions and only being able to substain myself with only the Active Solidarity Income (Revenu de Solidarité Actif in French), I may finally get a real job this time, after 1 year of job struggling. So, what am I doing now and how is it ? I'm working at an "Aluminium Treatment Facility", it not a site where we produce the metal, but a place in which we sand and paint the aluminium pieces we receive. All I have to do is just sand the aluminium pieces and stick them on rail prior to their paint treatment. It is not overly hard as I was worried, but still tough though. Hoever, I got some harsh shift with the start at 5:00 AM, but I do however have my ending shift at 2:00 PM, giving me almost the entire afternoon for myself, and I'll work from Monday to Friday, leaving me with my week-end free too. So it's mean I'll get a 45 hours/week contract, but considering I'm starting at really soon of the morning, I have a total of 5 Hours of Night Shift, increasing the incomes. But does it means that I'll stop doing SFM or maybe later making Blender rendering ? Of course not, but this job will give me the sum I need for my needed CPU, plus the fact that I could arrange myself with the free afternoon and week-ends too to relax. But I doreally hope that everythings goes fine, as I really need a real job, and with this, it will overly help me. Some of you might ask me if I'll keep this job or if I'll get something lighter in terms of shifts, I'll keep it, because not many jobs allow free afternoon and week-end, sure, I'll have to wake up from 3:00 AM for those 5 days, but at least the road is fully clear for both hours, plus the fact that it is close to my home, and I have a direct roadway to get there. All I hope is just that I'll be kept for the site, because otherwise, It will end at this Friday. But I do still keep my feelings to people who are struggling in terms of Finance or some Affairs, I do still share my hopes for them.

I'm making this journal to warn all of you that my Gaming/SFM working Laptop have unfortunatly a big troubleshooting: His fan, and maybe ( I do unfortunatly think so too ) the Internal Hard Drives are having malfunctions. What are they ? The fan is spinning, but not cooling down the Laptop, and also it became noisy and vibrate my desk like an electric dildo. And what about the Internal Hard Drives ? Well, the Laptop have big performance issues, it running slow like an old 80's computer, or even worst. How it did happenned ? I have absolutly no Idea about that ! It happens like that, suddently. At this day, I've felt that my computer had a cooling issue, but I've fixed it, as I know how to deal with this. But with all of this, happening like that, it is reminding me that a some point, like 6 or 7 years ago, I had the same issue, but I have absolutly no other choice but to contact the same person I've contacted before to fix my Laptop, who is also the 1 who also brought it to me in 2013. But what could have done that ? Overheating ? Well, there's a been a time it did goes on overheating, but it was long ago, and also I've get myself since some times now a cooling plate for it to be sure to help it prevent overheating. Some external hit on the Laptop ? Nothing that could really damaged it. I don't know why and how it happen, but it did, so I'm contacting that informatic expert to tell me when I can drop it to him, and waiting to see how long it will take to fix it, in hoping it will, I don't have other Gaming computer in reach, and the current Computer I'll be on is absolutly not made for gaming, so I can't trust it to make SFM run normally, or installing some games, for a 2017 CPU, it performances are really too low for this, even though it is fitted with Win 10. So, all to say that ALL SFM projects are on hold for an Undetermined Time, untill I got a moment to drop it to him, and untill I could get it back fixed, while on, I'm gonna try saving all I'll consider important from it actual state, hoping I could get what I need from my "Downloads" and "SFM Sessions" folders before dropping my computer to him, as I'll surely ask him to clean everythings up, unless like the other time he has been able to save all of my files. So, For an October month, nothing more from me alas.

Some might wonder why I didn't upload anything since the "Preview" I've done ? You might ask yourself: is he still working on SFM ? Or does he fell again in lazyness ? This time, it is not Lazyness that hitted me, because I've made new animated projects, and worked a bit on them to see how I handle the animation, I'm doing better, but not yet extraordinary, not yet fully decent for public share. But then, why didn't I upload anything them from a month ? The reason is; I'm having a struggle in a started relationship. Since 9 months, I'm in contact with a girl on a meeting website, in which I would believe she would turn into a girlfriend, and possibly becoming more. But since 4 months, I'm having struggle with her, and what kind of struggle is it ? Is it a leak of contact ? Is it some arguing ? It is somekind both of them. The thing is, I'm still a virgin for my entire life, I've never mated, I've never had any physical relationship that really goes anywhere, and I've never dated any girl in my entire life, I'm still single. But since 4 months, she is doing the Absolute same fucking mistake: asking me how many girls I've fucked before and how long it takes. I hate having to repeat myself for a closed thread, my conjugal past is entirely empty, but she did, for 18 FUCKING times in 4 months, asking me this, while at first, prior to June, I've never had to repeat myself over this, she already did assimilated that I had no Conjugal Past. But since June, she didn't stopped asking me this, she didn't stopped asking me things about girls in my past, for 18 Times, I've repeated myself with the same fucking answer: I have nothing. And for the past 2 weeks, she did make me repeat this 3 fucking times, by also breaking a promise by those 3 times, she told me that she will never ask this again, and for the past 2 weeks, she absolutly did the fucking mistake, I already had 2 wrath outbursts, forcing me to hold contact for some times untill I'll get back to her. And the worst is, I knew that she had memory problems because we've already discussed it prior to June, and I did remembered it, that for the past 2 weeks, I haven't stopped advising her to get a fucking journal or reminders to keep tracks of everythings we've discussed before, because I did retain that she have memory problem, but NO! She absolutly didn't do anything related to this, she haven't writted anything to keep tracks of everythings we've discussed, she only decided to do it only yesterday, after 2 weeks of full reminders write a journal or reminders to NEVER ask me anything about my conjugal past, she only got to it yesterday, when she was supposed to loose her last chance, because the worst is; she have broken the same promise on the same rate twice: from one day to the next. She did this twice in a matter not even a FUCKING WEEK. Why am I saying this... She did this twice THIS WEEK, since last Sunday, I had a hold from monday to wednesday, meaning that Tuesday I haven't got to her, because of the broken promise and wrath outburst. I've warned her Wednesday that she had only 1 last chance, and it was going fine; but Yesterday, SHE BROKE IT AGAIN! She begged me to still by her side and that she is doing efforts for that, she put me in a wrath that I haven't got, because it's been so long the last time I've been in this state. I gave her her last chance for the new Monday, but since those months, I'm having a feeling that I've been stupid to go back on this dating website, that I'm wasting my time on it, having thoughs for a girl that cannot do things right. And also, because for the past 9 months, we haven't been able to have a physical meeting, due to her job. I was hoping to finally mate, and she hoped to get a nice guy for her life, I've spent over thousands of € to keep contact with her over those 9 months. If she ever broke this promise again Monday; websites credits left or not, I'm done, because I've hold myself too much, I'm too kind, she ruins everything because she haven't listenned to my advises to be sure to not broke it, but now, there is only 1 very, very, very thin bond to realize our relationship untill our waited physical meeting. I know what some of you would say: why did you hold up on her if she upset you by not listenning to you ? You wouldn't have been the 1st to take me on this, my deceased Great-Aunt would have said the same thing, as she would also have advise me to stop everythings. But I'm gaving her, her very last chance, and she did upset me so much, that I'll hold myself for a full month for any naughty discussion, as she will also only a portion of discussion time with me for a week, until I'm sure she finally do what I've advised her. So, this explain why I haven't posted anything since the last Preview, I couldn't work on SFM correctly due to the wrath I had for some times now.