Hello to everyone who ended up on my profile, but this message is more for subscribers who have been watching me for a long time and waiting for art.
I'm here to say that...I've been feeling bad for the past few months. It seems to me that my psychological problems have begun to worsen. But I am not observed by any doctors or psychotherapists - alas, I do not have the opportunity for this. And money. Besides, now I have moved very far, to the south. I don’t have a normal job here yet, only the financial cushion that I have left saves. What I was saving for eye surgery. Alas, I was denied the operation after the examination, and this also crippled me emotionally. My hands drop, sometimes I don't want to get out of bed at all. Sometimes I have a burst of energy that I can't control. But for the most part, I'm depressed, whiny, and detached. I gave up self-harm at 16, but its echoes still remain (what I considered a common bad habit, it turns out, is also considered a form of self-harm, wow). I get distracted by video games, I replay fallout and this thing really makes me smile. I feel like a helpless child who cannot help himself.
What I want to say all this? In no way am I pushing for pity or anything like that! No. I want, probably, to warn in advance that I can disappear, do not publish anything for a long time. And that you don't need to lose me. Sometimes I don’t have enough energy for full-fledged pictures, but - I have a tumblr where I post some sketches and fanarts; I have a patreon that I replenish with exclusive sketches and art. There is a group in the Russian-language site, where I conduct my main activity. There are art and live profiles on instagram where you can see my activity. As long as I'm active somewhere, don't worry about me, at least I'll still be alive.
Also, I do not accept commissions for full-fledged art for an indefinite period of time (the exception is portraits). I just don't have the strength for it. Everything else - as usual. I need money, so I can’t completely close the slots (although nothing has been ordered from me for a long time).
I think that's it. Also, take care of your loved ones. You, and sometimes even them, may not be aware that they have serious problems. Please don't ignore those you care about. Perhaps this will seem to you staging, laziness or need of attention. But what if that's not the case at all? And then it might be too late.
Thank you.

Краткий пересказ для рускоязычных подписчиков.
В жизни пиздец, в голове пиздец, я рисую, но весьма хуево, так что не теряйте.

Recently my work laptop broke down and so I fell out of online for a while. A couple of days ago, I took it from the repair, but it did not give a lot of joy, rather, it gave another reason for worry. Having bypassed two services, in one of them I was told the verdict of the laptop - this is its last repair and there is no point in repairing it with another breakdown. It is also impossible to upgrade it, since it is made on outdated technology. And his age is already venerable - 12 years. Therefore, they did not give me the exact terms, it can stop functioning at any time, even in a week, even in a year - if you are very lucky.
Therefore, I start looking for new equipment and at the same time open digital commissions, all the money from which I will save for a future purchase, plus save from my salary, since I already have a fairly large amount of money for eye surgery.
It's hard for me to work lately, after the fracture I go through constant pain, and I have to walk a lot. I am a little scared that due to financial problems I will have to greatly crush my health at job and, after several leg injuries, I will not be able to fully recover. But I cannot leave from there, as well as find another alternative.
If you have a desire to help for free, namely to donate, then here is my paypal: paypal.me/ragerermare
I will be incredibly grateful to every customer or person who has donated! Thank you for your attention ♥

Hi guys!

I had a not very pleasant life situation, for the first time in my life. In general, at work, I broke my leg, got into the driving mechanisms. I have a closed fracture and so far I do not feel very comfortable in terms of the fact that my art workplace was not prepared for such incidents, hahah ^^"
But! It's not about that. At the moment it is much easier for me to deal with traditional art, but in terms of quality it is much lower (while I am only sketching). Therefore I will don't to post them to my general gallery. I made a decision that the traditional art will fast in my VKontakte group, and for the English audience - in my art Instagram in stories and posts (all links are on my page).
I will try to adapt to the circumstances and return to digital art, but so far I can’t say for sure whether there will be art often or vice versa, rarely. But I will try (honestly try!) to start maintaining a consistently constant activity on Instagram.
In general, everything will depend on my general health.
As for the commissions, they are open, but I will not collect a lot of debts. And besides - at the moment my deadlines are unlimited, since I have no idea how circumstances will change tomorrow. This is just about digital art. I can also take traditional commissions, for sketches or lines, besides, they are lower in price

I think I said everything. Thank you for your attention and be more discreet and orderly than me, especially in dangerous work! :)

Recently, the situation has gained an unpleasant turn - we all know this from news reports.
As a result of this, I can’t find myself a job all this time, so as at least not to be a burden in my family. In my small town, it was difficult even before the pandemic, now it has become worse.
Well why am I saying this. Now I am experiencing detachment and devastation, it’s hard for me to create new artworks and I don’t know how often something original will come out. But, despite all of the above, I am always open to commissions. Your support, material or verbal, will make me very pleased ♥
If you are interested in a commission from me - write me a notes and I will answer all your questions!
Thank you for the attention :)

Guys, I have openly unlimited number of slots for absolutely ANY kind of commissions.
Serious, I'll do whatever you want for a certain price with pay on PayPal.
Help unemployed student ♥

Hey there! An unpleasant thing happened - my laptop broke the motherboard. I need money for repairs, so I open an unlimited number of slots for traditional art! I take any kind of work, except for the background (no or simple)
The price is several times lower than on digital art.
The price will be negotiated, from $ 10 to $ 35 approximately.
I would be very happy for help
Thanks!