I'm prolly going to delete all my art of this blog and post commissons on here

also


even though I don’t speak to theses two people I used to know dearly and they made me mad about saying stuff about friends I had made.

Is it bad I still check them out every so often? Like I look at there tumblr and FA now and then just to make sure they’re doing okay.

I’m glad there happy without me being there anymore~ But I can’t help but worry about them every so often and check up on them.

Is that a bad thing?

wweh

if anyone even gives a shit anyway lol I needed a fresh start please message me if you want my new account name.

I'm gonna touch all your butts

Okay as some of you know I do catering in college welll basically I was told I was doing really well and I had a good chance of getting on to do the second level in september, well I went for my meeting and they basically turned around and said they don't think I am caple of moving up next year. It was like a kick to the fucking face, they basically said it because I have a thing aginst this girl in my class and so does everyone else but they really like her and think she's the best ever. And they said I shouldn't move up next year because I struggle and I dislike that girl. I got pissed but refused to cry in front of them and old them it was my first year of course I was going to struggled, I just came out of a school that treat me like shit and I come in to college and nothing fucking changes. I'm so angry and upset but someone is going to try and get a six week trial for me but I'm also thinking about changing courses because I refused to be treat like that.

My hay fever is acting up pretty badly and I'm kind of bed ridden most of the day, and I went to collect my pills today which is a controled drug and if someone gets there hands on it they can sell one pill for 1000 pounds on the black market. And I found out today that someone has been coming in either pretending to be me or the people who work in the chemist has fucking been stealing them.

erghh okay whatever rant over the only good thing that happend is I found someone special to me and she is keeping me happy

My compy is going in to be fixed... agian e3e;; also I'm dating someone on tumblr now /ollies in to the sun

I'm on my frieds comp atm but on my own one it's messing up pretty bad, I can't change my icon or any of my settings and I can't even put up a journal and it's not fa it's my own comp it's messing up pretty badly sooo e3e I need to get a new one soon

OH NO PROBLEM!

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:I yep

I CAN NO LOGNER TPYE

BED.

NIGHT.

/DIES.

I'm having a rough morning... and I can't stand college anymore, I'm getting beat up nearly everyday, teachers don't give a fuck and I can't even tell my parents because no one would belive me because the kid that beats me up is apprently the good kid.

I don't want to fucking be around anymore yeah selfish of me to go over something stupid like this but I really don't care...

I PASSED MY THREE COURSE MEAL COOKING EXAM SO NOW I CAN MOVE UP NEXT YEAR IN TO VQR 1 QUQ

I'm super happy mostly because it was a three hour exam and we had to make the things in order: Leek and patoto soup with crutons, Chicken kebabs with couscous and rita sauce and then apple crumble with whipped cream. I finished within an hour and half 8) and everyone was just putting there soup out to be tested by the time I had finished everything /happy screams/

It's hot as fuck and I think I'm coming down with something.

Also I went to my job interview today I'm either gonna get a call this week or the start of next week to come in for the day so the head chef can test my abiltys, it's just working saturdays but he's happy I said that I can work full time on the first of june if I get the job.

Also some people came to interview me today about moving out, they told me the area where they can prolly put me and they said I would be living with another family, not as a foster kid or anything but a lodger. But... It's hard to explain, you go and live with this family and you can still do whatever the fuck you want but they help kids out like me just until they think that I am able to live on my own without needing any help.

I take two buses to get to college, one if it's a nice day because the town center is a 15 minute walk away, I mean it's a big town as well and there's loads of shops of near me and it's half an hour away from where I might be working. I'm basically close enough to go into town but far enough away that I won't be bugged by drunks or people I don't really want to know.

That's about it I guess /ollies

/slowly dies of the heat/ man I wish it was cold weather so I can huddle in my blanket and get some decent sleep uwub

And also I'm a little upset :c the fun fair isn't going to be on this year for some reason so yeah that sucks balls.

I'm getting my hair dyed tommorow and the day after some lady is coming to see me about moving out of my house in to a new home for myself, but with like living with two people the same as me so my plans to go to America next year are cancled because I have no money and I want to get settled in to my new home because I think I'm moving the start of 2013 idk yet. It's just a test to see if I'm okay to live on my own... Gonna get a cat for that as well :I

Okay not much else to say cept Rippler if you read this make plans to come visit me at christmas bro c: we can go xmas shopping and see a movie and shit?

FUCKING PERIOD WEEK

OMFG I JUST SNEEZED AND IT WAS LIKE I JUST GAVE FUCKING BIRTH HOLY SHIT THIS WHAT HAPPENS IF YOU DON'T HAVE A PERIOD FOR A WHOLE YEAR

/screams, pounds chest and eats ice cream

God damn Greed-ler cosplays are so hard to find D: and commissiong one is to expensive fdewsfvgreds

It seemed tumblr went down for a bit it's back up an running now but the funny thing was the posts that people made

All I can see is people going "OH NO TUMBLR WENT DOWN I HAD NOTHING TO DO!!111" "TUMBLR WENT DOWN MY LIFE WAS MEANINGLESS FOR 5 MINUTES!1!" and there was me sitting there like "Welp can't distract myself anymore better go to college"

okay I gotta head of now /ollies out

NVM

MY COMPUTER IS BEING FUCKING WIRED I CAN'T EVEN ACCESS TUMBLR OR MSN IF YOU WANT TO TALK NOTE ME ON FA

I really want this shirt but I don't have the money and when I get money in paypal that is to get a gift for Ichi (the gift I got her got sent back and I gave the money I got back to my dad for his birthday)

http://www.redbubble.com/people/geo.....ks-mind-palace it's this shirt, and I really want it uwub so do you guys like $1 chibi commissions?

The bags under my eyes are huge, it’s like I have two black eyes =A= all I’ve done is sleep all day since it has being raining for three days straight so my depression is acting up pretty badly and I’m getting angry at everyone, and getting huge head aches so mom told me to just sleep it off today, and I did but Jesus Christ I look like death.

To just feel like you want to push your friends away? Idk... I've been feeling like it for the past week, I've just felt like I don't want to talk to anyone anymore, that I don't want friends anymore and that I just wanna be some kind of lonley hermit :I

Idk what's wrong with me, I mean I get all excited waiting for my friends to come online but when they do I just get this feeling in my gut and I just feel like I really don't want to talk to them.

And before anyone says "take a break from the computer" don't, because it's not the fucking computer, I'm even doing it to offline friends.

I mean I still wanna talk to people but when they talk to me I get bored... I guess it's because they don't even try and talk to me I guess I just get bored with the stupid replies of "XD" or "D:" instead of acutal words and sentences and we never have acutal proper fucking conversations.... Yeah I guess that must just be it, I'm just getting bored of the same fucking replies every single day, it's the same routine everyday it never changes...

Meh whatever I've ranted enough, I'm going to get some sleep.

First exam before college finishes is done I now just have to do

Entry Level 1 English
Entry Level 1 Maths
Entry Level 1 ICT
three course cooking exam, got cook a starter, main and a dessert under three hours.

After that I'm done with everything and I just have to wait for my results to see if I can go onto VRQ1 catering and Hospitality.

For maths I have to study like a bitch though because it's the one lesson I struggle most with so I'm going to have extr lessons and maybe go to night classes that are on near me :I

Now I'm going to get some hot chocolate, watch the Blair witch project and try and get some sleep, it was a hard day today hnng

/ollies out

I want to say I hate you, I want to say it so fucking bad, I want to say how much I hate you and explain in every little detail why I hate you. But you know something? I can't, because no matter how much I say and think it, it won't be true, it'll never be true.

You upset me tonight, you have no idea how much you've upset me but for me to think that I hate you, you've upset me pretty bad, don't tell me you're going to do something, don't tell me your going to stay and talk to me and then you just up and leave me in pain, my arm really hurts... I've never done it that hard and fast before, I've never made it that big on my arm before it's just usally little scratches, but it just proves how upset I am right now.

I came of hard on you on msn, I'm not gonna say sorry for the message you recived when you came back online, I know I was wrong for saying that but I'm not gonna say sorry because I really don't want you speaking to me for awhile, I don't want to chat to you on msn until I feel comfortable, until we get both of our fucking acts togther. So yeah hate me all you want, hate me saying what I did but I'm not going back on it, not until we can stop this stupid arguing all the time.

so sleepy, so sleepy ahh I need to sleep... I wish I was a zoura so I could curl up in Zoroarks fur and sleep...

/shit holly says when she's sleepy