fuck this, fuck that, fuck everything
Posted 14 years agoI've had it, I can't take it anymore, I seriously give up.
I am sick and tierd of being depressed all the time, I've tried everything to get over it but it just seems to make things worse. I am sick of not being able to hold a conversation with my friends without being a drag and being depressed all the time. I am sick of losing my friends all the time because they don't understand... I've lost nearly everyone cuz of this stupid depression... I hate it, I just want to die so it will go away, I don't care if people keep saying "don't say things like that, you'll be missed" I don't care anymore, I just want it to go away... I just want to be how I used to be before this stupid depression came along... Why can't I just be anormal teenager... I hate this...
I am sick and tierd of being depressed all the time, I've tried everything to get over it but it just seems to make things worse. I am sick of not being able to hold a conversation with my friends without being a drag and being depressed all the time. I am sick of losing my friends all the time because they don't understand... I've lost nearly everyone cuz of this stupid depression... I hate it, I just want to die so it will go away, I don't care if people keep saying "don't say things like that, you'll be missed" I don't care anymore, I just want it to go away... I just want to be how I used to be before this stupid depression came along... Why can't I just be anormal teenager... I hate this...
Just some news
Posted 14 years agoSo I have a bust nose |D not broken just pretty damn sore >A<;; kind of my own fault really e3e;;
And I might be needing glasses =u=;;
And I might be needing glasses =u=;;
FFF erghh
Posted 14 years agoIt's so dead tonight .A. I mean I've been hopping on and of for a few hours and it's still been so quite >A> like everyone died or something.... Oh well, Guess I'll just write some random steam punk shiz till I go sleep ~=u=~
.n.
Posted 14 years agoYou guys ever felt like really lonley before?...
Idk I went to sleep, but I couldn't and when I woke up... Well I've just never felt so alone before .A.;; it's kind of creeping me out, espically since I don't know why I feel like this...
Sorry guess I just needed to get this of my chest...;;
Idk I went to sleep, but I couldn't and when I woke up... Well I've just never felt so alone before .A.;; it's kind of creeping me out, espically since I don't know why I feel like this...
Sorry guess I just needed to get this of my chest...;;
Fursona meme
Posted 14 years agoStolen from 
1.)What's your name?
Holly :V
2.)Do you know why you were named that?
Because it's me? <|D;;
3.) Are you single or taken?
Taken~ (Irl, single)
4.)Have any abilities or powers?
....Eating fried chicken?
5.) Stop being a Gary-Stu >.>
I'm a girl <:
6.) Uh...if you were to get in a fight with a strong wrestler, do you think you'd win?
Nope, but I might tear his stomach open and eat him ouo
7.) Riiiight... Have any family members?
My wifau >//u//< and kids :V
Mama
Papa
8.) Oh? How about pets?
....Demitri? e//u//e
and Regen.
9.) Cool, I guess. Tell me something what you don't like.
Idk, it's 2am I'm a very sleepy hybrid... I don't like being woke up for one, Spiders .A. that horrible pit feeling you get in your stomach when you've hurt a close friend :c
10.) Something that you do like?
Fried chicken... Demitri... and Shun..... Demitri and Shun togther e//u//e
11) Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
computer, drawing, cooking.
12.)Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Yes 8U
13.)Ever...killed anyone before?
A few, they tasted quite devine~
14.)What kind of animal are you?
Fox/Cheetah I'ma Hybrid c:
15.)Name your worst habits.
Getting angry :V genarlly being moody 24/7
16.)Do you look up to anyone at all


17.) Gay, straight, or bi?
Bi <3
18.)Do you go to school?
Lololol nope
19.) Ever wanna marry and have kids one day?
I already have done, with my wife, Shun =//u//=
20.)Do you have any fangirls/fanboys?
Hurr durr I wish
21.)What are you most afraid of? I promise I won't laugh.
No food :c
22.)O_OUUU Ok, ok. What color is your hair?
Black
23.) Eyes?
Greennnn
24.) What do you usually wear?
*runs around naked* CAN'T BE TAMED!
25.) Ok. What's your religion?
Don't have one D: don't belive in any 8I
26.) Do you wish this quiz is over?
yes, it's 3am now |D;;
27.) Well, it's still not over. xD
=A=
28.) Anyways, where do you live?
Englandddd
29.) What class are you? (Low class, middle class, high class)
lolwat.
30.) How many friends do you have?
... 3 :c not sociable irl either.
31.) Wow. If you could change anything about you, what would you change?
...not that I can think of right now, I like how I am .3.
32.) If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
Buy a house <|D;;
33.) What is your thoughts on pie?
It's delicous and nutrious
34.) Alright. What's your favourite food?
Fried chickennn
35.) Favourite drink?
Cherry coke <:
36.) What is your favourite place?
My bed... asleep =u=
37.) Least favourite?
Anywhere loud =n=
38.) What will make you really mad?
People who think there smarter just cuz they can spell better :V
39.) Are you still wanting the quiz to end?
Yes .n.
40.)Yeah. Well, it's over. D:
awesome =u=
41.) One more thing.
Sex is good kids!

1.)What's your name?
Holly :V
2.)Do you know why you were named that?
Because it's me? <|D;;
3.) Are you single or taken?
Taken~ (Irl, single)
4.)Have any abilities or powers?
....Eating fried chicken?
5.) Stop being a Gary-Stu >.>
I'm a girl <:
6.) Uh...if you were to get in a fight with a strong wrestler, do you think you'd win?
Nope, but I might tear his stomach open and eat him ouo
7.) Riiiight... Have any family members?
My wifau >//u//< and kids :V


8.) Oh? How about pets?
....Demitri? e//u//e
and Regen.
9.) Cool, I guess. Tell me something what you don't like.
Idk, it's 2am I'm a very sleepy hybrid... I don't like being woke up for one, Spiders .A. that horrible pit feeling you get in your stomach when you've hurt a close friend :c
10.) Something that you do like?
Fried chicken... Demitri... and Shun..... Demitri and Shun togther e//u//e
11) Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
computer, drawing, cooking.
12.)Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Yes 8U
13.)Ever...killed anyone before?
A few, they tasted quite devine~
14.)What kind of animal are you?
Fox/Cheetah I'ma Hybrid c:
15.)Name your worst habits.
Getting angry :V genarlly being moody 24/7
16.)Do you look up to anyone at all


17.) Gay, straight, or bi?
Bi <3
18.)Do you go to school?
Lololol nope
19.) Ever wanna marry and have kids one day?
I already have done, with my wife, Shun =//u//=
20.)Do you have any fangirls/fanboys?
Hurr durr I wish
21.)What are you most afraid of? I promise I won't laugh.
No food :c
22.)O_OUUU Ok, ok. What color is your hair?
Black
23.) Eyes?
Greennnn
24.) What do you usually wear?
*runs around naked* CAN'T BE TAMED!
25.) Ok. What's your religion?
Don't have one D: don't belive in any 8I
26.) Do you wish this quiz is over?
yes, it's 3am now |D;;
27.) Well, it's still not over. xD
=A=
28.) Anyways, where do you live?
Englandddd
29.) What class are you? (Low class, middle class, high class)
lolwat.
30.) How many friends do you have?
... 3 :c not sociable irl either.
31.) Wow. If you could change anything about you, what would you change?
...not that I can think of right now, I like how I am .3.
32.) If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?
Buy a house <|D;;
33.) What is your thoughts on pie?
It's delicous and nutrious
34.) Alright. What's your favourite food?
Fried chickennn
35.) Favourite drink?
Cherry coke <:
36.) What is your favourite place?
My bed... asleep =u=
37.) Least favourite?
Anywhere loud =n=
38.) What will make you really mad?
People who think there smarter just cuz they can spell better :V
39.) Are you still wanting the quiz to end?
Yes .n.
40.)Yeah. Well, it's over. D:
awesome =u=
41.) One more thing.
Sex is good kids!
stupid period =n=
Posted 14 years agoFUCK YOU PERIOD FUCK YOU *flips tables*
IT DOSN'T HELP THAT I HAVE'NT HAD ONE FOR LIKE A YEAR *cryroll* so much pain >'C
I am not in the mood to be dealing with anyones shit today, I already got freaciously mad at someone today without meaning to =A=
IT DOSN'T HELP THAT I HAVE'NT HAD ONE FOR LIKE A YEAR *cryroll* so much pain >'C
I am not in the mood to be dealing with anyones shit today, I already got freaciously mad at someone today without meaning to =A=
Cheating SAI
Posted 14 years agoI found a way to cheat SAI < u >
Just until I gotta pay fo it anyway e3e
Just until I gotta pay fo it anyway e3e
I'm so depressed
Posted 14 years agoSo apprently I was only on a trail with SAI |c no one fucking told me that;; they just kept saying it was free wferfgrfe
I have to pay £31.04 to get in my laptop... fuck that's expensive .n.
I won't be drawing for awhile... Not until I get the money to download it on to my computer, that will be prolly december time... Not that long away when I think about it, but it sucks, I got so used to using it;; I don't want to go back to crappy ms paint
Well it gives me some time to write stuff I guess .n.
Oh man I'm so depressed now ; 3 ; I know you guys will be all like "stfu get over yourself, it's just a paint shop" but to me it was my only comfort from reality really ; A ; feqgerw Just gonna mope to myself.
It's bad enough I don't have a job either wsdeqdf
I can't open commissons either (not that anyone buys) unless someone wanted a writing comish |c
just gonna mope to myself now
I have to pay £31.04 to get in my laptop... fuck that's expensive .n.
I won't be drawing for awhile... Not until I get the money to download it on to my computer, that will be prolly december time... Not that long away when I think about it, but it sucks, I got so used to using it;; I don't want to go back to crappy ms paint
Well it gives me some time to write stuff I guess .n.
Oh man I'm so depressed now ; 3 ; I know you guys will be all like "stfu get over yourself, it's just a paint shop" but to me it was my only comfort from reality really ; A ; feqgerw Just gonna mope to myself.
It's bad enough I don't have a job either wsdeqdf
I can't open commissons either (not that anyone buys) unless someone wanted a writing comish |c
just gonna mope to myself now
could be better
Posted 14 years agoI'm feeling a little better, could be better but at least I don't want to kill myself anymore 8I
So some happy art should be up soon.. idk when .3. I still feel like I'm under a dark cloud;; but the sun is starting to show little by little.
So some happy art should be up soon.. idk when .3. I still feel like I'm under a dark cloud;; but the sun is starting to show little by little.
No Subject
Posted 14 years agoI'm still hurting, I'm still angry, but I still love you both, Ialready said that will never change.
I went of because I needed a break, it was hurting me even more when you kept saying you were sorry. I've had so many relationships, it'shard to accept you're telling the truth.
I came back online though... to talk... and you both went...
I went of because I needed a break, it was hurting me even more when you kept saying you were sorry. I've had so many relationships, it'shard to accept you're telling the truth.
I came back online though... to talk... and you both went...
Meme
Posted 14 years agoFirst off.... Rules!
1. You must post these rules (Very Important indeed).
*2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create eleven new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you are reading this." You legitimately (AKA, really, truly, with all honesty) have to tag 11 people.
Tagged by
1. If I followed you home, would you keep me?
Prolly |D I would feed you and love you and call you mister snuggles :V /shot
2. What is your favourite kind of unhealthy food?
Special chow mein with egg fried rice and curry =//7//=
3. Whats your flavour?~
*thinks* Well Ichi is a strawberry, Aressa is a banana hummm I guess I would be chocolate |D
4. How much wood would a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?
*eats wood chuck* none once I've finished with him eue
5. If You had to sacrifice either your writing hand...or your genitals to survive. Which would it be?
My writing hand |D I hate writing anyway.
6. Whats your worst fear ever?
My two main ones are spiders and losing thoses close to me :c
7. Dom or Sub?
I am confused at this question D: is it like an American thing?
8. Where would you put bacon to make things better?
In my mouth :V
9. Have you ever had a moment in your life where you had to be a temporary ninja? If so...Why?
Aha I guess you could say when I skipped maths in school eue
10. Fav sex position?
Pfft I'm still a virgin XD Ichi and Aressa said they can't molest me till I'm 18 :c butttt Anal looks intresting o3o butt sex hurr
11. What would you do to Red's long-ass tail?
chew it :V
1. Why do you watch me?
2. Do you like my art? ouo If so critic one of your favourite pics in my gallery, I don't bite :V much~
3. What's better, reading or playing computer games?
4. What was the most bad ass thing you did as a kid in school?
5. favourite animal?
6. What made you become a furry?
7. Did you hate furries at first?
8. Favourite cartoon charcter?
9. First video game?
10. have you ever kissed someone in an akward area? (I.E a toilet)
11. LET ME LOVE YOU!?
lol I tag any of my watchers that can be botherd to do this =u=
1. You must post these rules (Very Important indeed).
*2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create eleven new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you are reading this." You legitimately (AKA, really, truly, with all honesty) have to tag 11 people.
Tagged by

1. If I followed you home, would you keep me?
Prolly |D I would feed you and love you and call you mister snuggles :V /shot
2. What is your favourite kind of unhealthy food?
Special chow mein with egg fried rice and curry =//7//=
3. Whats your flavour?~
*thinks* Well Ichi is a strawberry, Aressa is a banana hummm I guess I would be chocolate |D
4. How much wood would a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?
*eats wood chuck* none once I've finished with him eue
5. If You had to sacrifice either your writing hand...or your genitals to survive. Which would it be?
My writing hand |D I hate writing anyway.
6. Whats your worst fear ever?
My two main ones are spiders and losing thoses close to me :c
7. Dom or Sub?
I am confused at this question D: is it like an American thing?
8. Where would you put bacon to make things better?
In my mouth :V
9. Have you ever had a moment in your life where you had to be a temporary ninja? If so...Why?
Aha I guess you could say when I skipped maths in school eue
10. Fav sex position?
Pfft I'm still a virgin XD Ichi and Aressa said they can't molest me till I'm 18 :c butttt Anal looks intresting o3o butt sex hurr
11. What would you do to Red's long-ass tail?
chew it :V
1. Why do you watch me?
2. Do you like my art? ouo If so critic one of your favourite pics in my gallery, I don't bite :V much~
3. What's better, reading or playing computer games?
4. What was the most bad ass thing you did as a kid in school?
5. favourite animal?
6. What made you become a furry?
7. Did you hate furries at first?
8. Favourite cartoon charcter?
9. First video game?
10. have you ever kissed someone in an akward area? (I.E a toilet)
11. LET ME LOVE YOU!?
lol I tag any of my watchers that can be botherd to do this =u=
guys ouo
Posted 14 years agoI love you guys you know that right? eue so if you have some cash to splash go and splash it on
strawberry-kitten she needs some help atm ; u ; and could use your help~

; u ;
Posted 14 years agoI'm.. kind of really happy you guys ;//u//; ermm you can call me watever but i don't really care .//u//. I'm to happy to care.
But
strawberry-kitten and
aressa decided they wanted to be in a relationship with me .//u//. I was confused at first because I've liked them both for a long time and I thought they would find me wierd or something >: but after a long discussion I decided, were gonna try a threeway relationship <//:
But


No Subject
Posted 14 years agohttp://www.livestream.com/sheepyichigo get your asses in and buy some stuff from her :D she's doing 2 dollar comishes.
ouo
Posted 14 years agoI'm in a good mood c: I just made a batch of fresh bread rolls, my first time making them by myself and they came out nice and fresh <333
So if your on early tonight Ichi I'll show you how to make them o:
So if your on early tonight Ichi I'll show you how to make them o:
Follow me c:
Posted 14 years agocome follow me on Tumblr
http://rainbow-fox.tumblr.com/ Normal blog c:
http://rainbowfoxarts.tumblr.com/ Art blog <3
http://fuckyeahsexyocs.tumblr.com/ and one for your sexy Oc's < u >
http://rainbow-fox.tumblr.com/ Normal blog c:
http://rainbowfoxarts.tumblr.com/ Art blog <3
http://fuckyeahsexyocs.tumblr.com/ and one for your sexy Oc's < u >
My to do list < u >
Posted 14 years agocause i'm busy these days and forgetting what I'm doing >c
1: Open commissions for Tard icons.
2: finish new fursona oc
3: finish smut pic that I'm doing for a friend.
4: get starded on gift art for Ichi and Aressa - smut?
5: finish fic that's be sitting on my laptop for half a year;;
6: start Karl and Danny's fursona pics.
7: hopefully buy a drawing tablet ; 7 ;
Just ignore this guys XD It's just a remider list
1: Open commissions for Tard icons.
2: finish new fursona oc
3: finish smut pic that I'm doing for a friend.
4: get starded on gift art for Ichi and Aressa - smut?
5: finish fic that's be sitting on my laptop for half a year;;
6: start Karl and Danny's fursona pics.
7: hopefully buy a drawing tablet ; 7 ;
Just ignore this guys XD It's just a remider list
Don't bwahh
Posted 14 years ago1:
fenris5856 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6541449 - DONE
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devdaul http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5674011/ clean drawing. - DONE
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rocker43 https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6544250/ - DONE
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zaelzolnir http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5209943/ going to attempt to draw in mid backflip. - DONE (but not a back flip otl)
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rayo_elgatubelo http://forums.furaffinity.net/threa.....erville-Family A pic of Eddie - DONE
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chuchianci http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5253645/ a standing pic. - DONE
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adoptableluvr http://adoptableluvr.deviantart.com/#/d4ansph
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nyakune-yami pic of her fursona - DONE
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chakattailswisher http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6153698/
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applegummy pic of oc
Okay I'm flying through these requests at the moment so don't bwahh if they look shitty ;c I'm wanting to finish these so I can start some comishes :V

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Okay I'm flying through these requests at the moment so don't bwahh if they look shitty ;c I'm wanting to finish these so I can start some comishes :V
quick question?
Posted 14 years ago1:
fenris5856 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6541449 - DONE
2:
devdaul http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5674011/ clean drawing. - DONE
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rocker43 https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6544250/ - DONE
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zaelzolnir http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5209943/ going to attempt to draw in mid backflip. - DONE (but not a back flip otl)
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rayo_elgatubelo http://forums.furaffinity.net/threa.....erville-Family A pic of Eddie
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chuchianci http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5253645/ a standing pic.
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adoptableluvr http://adoptableluvr.deviantart.com/#/d4ansph
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nyakune-yami pic of her fursona
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chakattailswisher http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6153698/
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applegummy pic of oc
Okay after I done this lot I wanna ask, would you guys comisson me if i drew D: It's just were struggling with debt and bills and I really wanna help my mom out with it;; I'm not saying you have to but it would be nice if you guys wanted to;;
If you do please ask me about prices, the more detailed the charcter the higher the price.

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Okay after I done this lot I wanna ask, would you guys comisson me if i drew D: It's just were struggling with debt and bills and I really wanna help my mom out with it;; I'm not saying you have to but it would be nice if you guys wanted to;;
If you do please ask me about prices, the more detailed the charcter the higher the price.
omg you guias QAQ
Posted 14 years agoSo many requets;; I'm a little overwhelmed y u guys want my shitty work |D;;;;
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fenris5856 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6541449 - DONE
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devdaul http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5674011/ clean drawing. - DONE
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rocker43 https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6544250/
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zaelzolnir http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5209943/ going to attempt to draw in mid backflip.
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rayo_elgatubelo http://forums.furaffinity.net/threa.....erville-Family A pic of Eddie
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chuchianci http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5253645/ a standing pic.
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adoptableluvr http://adoptableluvr.deviantart.com/#/d4ansph
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nyakune-yami pic of her fursona
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chakattailswisher http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6153698/
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TOOTHLESS PLUSH
Posted 14 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2733532/ GO HERE MOFOS
My day
Posted 14 years agoHOLY SHIT GUYS I GOT AN INJURY AT COLLAGE TODAY BWAHH GIVE ME SYMPATHY ART.
okay enough joking now |D pfft yes i did cut myself today in collage, nearly most of the skin on top of my thumb is now gone;; orz but that's nothing |D I'm prolly going to lose a finger or something by the end of this catering course <strike>there was fucking blood like everywhere</strike>
Anyway yeah, fuck I've never been so tired XD my whole body aches yet i feel bloody fantastic, came home and took a nap... thought i had only been out 5 minutes.. woke up it was 4pm ... i went to sleep at 2pm;;
Tomorrow I'm working with fish and Meat... I think we have to gut the fish 8I;;; idk;; i hope we don't orz i hate fish as it is.
okay enough joking now |D pfft yes i did cut myself today in collage, nearly most of the skin on top of my thumb is now gone;; orz but that's nothing |D I'm prolly going to lose a finger or something by the end of this catering course <strike>there was fucking blood like everywhere</strike>
Anyway yeah, fuck I've never been so tired XD my whole body aches yet i feel bloody fantastic, came home and took a nap... thought i had only been out 5 minutes.. woke up it was 4pm ... i went to sleep at 2pm;;
Tomorrow I'm working with fish and Meat... I think we have to gut the fish 8I;;; idk;; i hope we don't orz i hate fish as it is.
Good news that is of no intrest to you.
Posted 14 years agoBut I'm going to write it anyway 8I cause I feel like it.
So for the past few weeks I've been in a foul mood 8I it got worse over the past three days because I took Ill |P anyway.
I've been in a mood because I haven't seen my cat for a few weeks.. a couple of days is fine but a few weeks I began getting upset and panicking in case he had been hit by a car or something, I tried looking for him a few times but in the end I gave up. So I've done nothing but take it out on like.. everyone :c
But this morning I opened my back door to let my dogs out and there was my little baby sitting on the garden shed meowing at me for food ; 3 ; acting as if he hadn't been away, I spazzed and brought him in the house ; ^ ; and he's been in my room all day getting huggles <3 the little bastard worried me to know end otl.
Stupid cat...
So for the past few weeks I've been in a foul mood 8I it got worse over the past three days because I took Ill |P anyway.
I've been in a mood because I haven't seen my cat for a few weeks.. a couple of days is fine but a few weeks I began getting upset and panicking in case he had been hit by a car or something, I tried looking for him a few times but in the end I gave up. So I've done nothing but take it out on like.. everyone :c
But this morning I opened my back door to let my dogs out and there was my little baby sitting on the garden shed meowing at me for food ; 3 ; acting as if he hadn't been away, I spazzed and brought him in the house ; ^ ; and he's been in my room all day getting huggles <3 the little bastard worried me to know end otl.
Stupid cat...
dfeafrerefer
Posted 14 years agowants to RP like NAO >8(
*has been going to long without an rp* bwahhh *dies*
on a side note.
I'm back mother truckers~
*has been going to long without an rp* bwahhh *dies*
on a side note.
I'm back mother truckers~
Ichi D:
Posted 14 years agoI got your Fabrics bish... there so soft hurr