So it's been a while since I've actually posted anything, journal, art, etc. I just had no drive or urge to do so. But last year I started dating a local fur...around October/November. I had stopped looking honestly but he was so persistent, that I decided to give him a chance. Well....the more we spent time together, the more the wall I had built around my heart began to crumble. I felt like I could finally let someone in. So at the stroke of midnight news years, Jan.01, 2020 I made it official. And we have been together since. I'm so happy with my decision because he makes me feel so wonderful and loved. And we have so much in common. He's my purrfect mate and I love him. He's given me a new outlook on life, he is my muse, my inspiration.

*sighs* Well....let me tell you my story....I had met someone at Chili's where I work. He came up to me and gave me his number. and of course I responded. that was the last sunday in October and we had been seeing each other ever since. I liked him....and of course we had certain intimate moments, not penetration mind you. Big mistake on my part because as a wolf fursona, any intimacy means I get attached quickly and easily. And technically we weren't together....he was deciding whether he wanted to be with me or not. A complicated relationship if you will. Well for the time being I was happy. I loved hanging with him, we had so much in common, and having a little fun was a plus, no one had ever gotten me outta my shell so fast. Things were going fine until Friday night. I went 8 hours without hearing anything from him. very unusual. same the next night. Today was better, random texts and chats. until tonight, when I found out he was hanging out with a girl....out of randomness I just asked "she's not a threat is she"? next text I get is "I think we should just be friends". I immediately go into panic mode and call him. I then find out that he met someone Friday night. the night I didn't hear from him. and he said he didn't feel anything for me. I'm so upset right now. I feel so used. And the one thing I'm gonna miss..is all the kisses and cuddles..and the way he made me feel. He made me, a plus sized overweight woman, feel sexy when I used to be ashamed of myself. So this hurts me terribly. And I'm not even sure I can get involved with anyone again.

Go check her out and watch her. She's does an amazing job on her fursuits. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14566318/

These kittens are in dire need of surgeries. If anyone has the ability to donate any little bit please do. As a person who has seen so many animals die in her own backyard this is something that touches me deeply.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/140...../#cid:85477298

Thought I'd give this a shot and see what happens.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5702944/

1. Is there anyone on your friend's list you would ever consider having sex with? Quite a few

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night? - anytime is sexy time

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on? dead center

4. Do you masturbate? Of course. its quite healthy

5. How often? Lately? Not as often as I would like. no

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? - No

7. Do you prefer showers or baths? - Shower. More room for the smexings

8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath? - Nope

9. Do you watch/read pornography? With others? Yup I do. and yes

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? both I guess

11. Do you love someone on your friends list? - Yes

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list? -No but a lot of the furs i'd love to meet

13. Would you choose love or money? - how about a bit of both

14. Your top three favorite kinks in bed? - Candle wax, ice play, and nipping

15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually? - Yes

16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex? - out in the woods on a blanket

17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex? - stairwell at my old college

18. Have you ever been caught having sex? - nope

19. Have you ever been to a strip club? - no

20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex? - no

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons? - No

22. Ever been picked up in a bar? - no

23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex? - Nope

24. What's your sexuality? - Straight

25. Had sex in a movie theater? Gave a blowjob in there

26. Had sex in a bathroom? - yup

27. Have you ever had sex at work? No

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store? - tons of times

29. Bought something from an adult store? - yes

30. Do you own any sex toys? - not enough

31. If yes, how many and what are they? at least 10 and vibes and dildos

32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film? - i'm sure they do *blushes*

33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name? - No

34. Have you ever had phone sex? - yes

35. Have you ever had cyber sex? - yes

36. Do you think oral sex constitutes a form of intercourse? - yes

37. What's your favorite sexual position? Doggiestyle and cowgirl

38. What's your favorite sex act? not sure

39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time? no

40. Who do you think has the guts to re-post this? - Have to wait and see.

Go visit the journal to see what i'm talking about http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5219749/  Toni_Serinn is an awesome artist and I love her to death.

This raffle is from  hybridstudios

So in this event i'm gonna pimp out their journal which can be found here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4908633/

Please Check out  Dyani_Caracal journal. She's an awesome artist and fursuit part maker

Journal is here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4984603/

Ok so my dad just let me have the old xbox360 and hooked me up with a gold membership. Just wondering who out there plays. if ya do note me your gamertag or comment with it. Mine is RaineRedwing

Pimpin' out this talented girl for a chance at paws. yay!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4592644/

I am pimpin' out this page. go here and try your st.patty's day luck! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3209253/

Go check this out folks ^^ Try your luck http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3099806/

*sighs* so yeah only been broke up with one month and he calls to tell me he may have found someone else. Oh yeah..that makes me feel real good. *curls up feeling really lonely* It hurts to know he got over me so fast when i haven't even begun to get over him. I wanted to wait and see if he would come to his senses. To see if he would come back to me. considering and i quote "to be honest i may end up with you" and "no one will love me as much as you did". *sighs* What's the point in making lifelong plans. And besides...who's gonna want me....not many people would love me for who i am, my weird quirks and kinks. I just don't want to be lonely.

well....its over.....the love of my life.....left me. *buries my head in a pillow to stifle my tears*

Go here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2733532/ and test your luck!

Chance for free arts. LOOK HERE!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2697017/

Go check out. She;s a wonderful artist!!


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2538707/

YOU JUST WOKE UP NAKED IN BED NEXT TO ME...

While using only three words, what would you say if this were to happen?

Note: If you comment, please copy and paste this as your journal, so I may comment on yours as well. Be a good sport. ;3

stole from  Toni_Serinn

Ignore the title....stupid pun. But anyway i got a Wii for christmas and am in need of some friends. So if you own a wii please let me add you or you add me. Drop me a note if you don't want anyone else to see your wii number ^^

A wii is no fun without friends.

1. Shoorters
[x]I've played at least one FPS
[]I like Realistic FPS! ( Call of Duty, Rainbox six, ect. )
[]I like SciFi FPS! ( Halo, Metroid, ect. )
[]I've played all three Halo games
[]I've played all the Call of Duty games
[]I've played at least one 007 game
[]I've played 007 Golden eye, and beaten it!
[]First Person Shooters are my Favorite game genre!

1/8

2. Horror / Survival
[x]I've played at least one Horror Survival game
[x]I like Scientific Horror Survival games! ( Resident Evil, ect.)
[x]I like Fantasy Horror survival! (Manhunt, ect. )
[]I've played all four Resident Evils!
[]I've played all four Resident Evils in order!
[x]I know what Green Herb + Red Herb + Yellow Herb means!
[]I'm a forensic scientist with alchohol problems!*
[x]Horror Survival games are my Favorite game genre!

5/8

3. Racing
[x]I've played at least one Racing game!
[x]I love EA sports!
[x]I like Street racing games! ( Burnout, Fast and Furious, ect. )
[x]I like Professional racing games! ( NASCAR, ect. )
[x]I own at least one Steering wheel controller
[x]I've played an Arcade Racing game!
[]I prefer first person racing games!
[x]I prefer third person racing games!
[x ]Racing is my Favorite game genre!

8/9

4. RPG / Adventure!
[x]I've played at least one RPG / Adventure game!
[]I own every Final Fantasy game
[]I've imported a RPG / Adventure game
[x]I prefer Fantasy RPG / Adventures ( Tales of, Final Fantasy, ect. )
[x] prefer SciFi RPG / Adventure games! ( Lost Oddesy, ect. )
[x]I have a prefered weapon class for every RPG / Adventure game I play
[x]Pokemon <3
[x]Rpg / Adventure is my Favorite game genre

6/8

5. Tactics
[x]I've played at least one Tactic game
[x]I like fantasy tactics ( Final Fantasy Tactics, Fire Emblem, ect. )
[x]I like realistic tactics ( Advanced Wars, Battalion Wars, ect. )
[]I never let any of my army die(in applicable games especially fire emblem)
[x]I balance out my army
[x]I worship Intellegent Systems
[]I worship Blizzard
[]Tactic is my Favorite game genre

5/8

6. MMORPG
[x]I've played at least one MMORPG
[]I prefer FPS/Tactic MMORPGs
[x]I prefer Adventure MMORPGs
[]I prefer (other) MMORPGs
[x]I've become addicted to an MMORPG at some point
[]I'm still addicted to an MMORPG
[]I met a best friend on an MMORPG
[]MMORPGs are my favorite games.

3/8

7. Rhythm Games
[x]I've played at least one rhythm game
[x]I prefer DDR
[x]I prefer instrument games
[]I bought Donkey Konga (I have both)
[x]I've played a Guitar Hero
[x]I've played Rock Band
[]I've played an Import rhythm game
[x]Rhythm is my favorite game genre

6/8

8. Trading Cards
[x]I've played a TCG
[x]I love Yugioh
[]I love Duel Masters
[]I love Magic the Gathering
[]I've sold personal possesions to buy Trading cards
[]I've sold Trading cards
[]I own at least one baseball card team
[]I love any other TCG
[x]TCG are my favorite game genre

3/9

9. Other
[x]I own at least one "Pet" care game
[x]I own a Sims game
[x]I own a Puzzle game
[]I've made my own video game
[]I've played a game I made with a friend
[]Chess is better than any other game
[x]I would do a Chocobo

4/7

Total~! 41/73

-5 ~ Not a Gamer
5-10 ~ Sheltered Child
10-15 ~ Novice Gamer
15-20 ~ PreGamer
20-25 ~ Gamer
25-30 ~ Veteran Gamer
30-35 ~ Expert Gamer
* 35-40 ~ Professional Gamer *
40-50 ~ True Gamer
50-60 ~ Gaming God
60+ ~ LIAR!

*sighs and tries to fight back tears* I hate to post journals like this but i'm going crazy. My Silva, my beautiful loving cat silva may have to be putp down and its about to kill me. About two years ago he had to have a bowelectomy to remove part of his gut so that he could potty and now he ha a blockage. He's my miracle baby. Two years ago x-mas eve he was scheduled to be put down. I cried that entire day thinking my cat was gone. We had gotten a call the next morning saying he was still alive, the veterinarian couldn't put him down because he was nuzzling all over the cage and purring. And we found out one option and that was the bowelectomy. My x-mas miracle kitty.

It seems near x-mas i always have to suffer in some way. Then last year my boyfriend left me (two months later Syden came into my life and he truely makes me happy). We also were nursing three abandoned kittens and two died of pneumonia. That destroyed me, one had died in my arms.

And now this. I don't want to lose my silva. I don't want to have to suffer like that again. Please, whether you believe in god, buddha, allah, whatever, any prayers and thoughts would be appreciated. I would give up everything i own just to save my baby.