Packed, moved, and shipped out to a destination not far from here:

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Where is everybody?

EH FATTY BOOM BOOM, HIT ME WITH THE CHING CHING.

DOES ANYONE REMEMBER ME??? CALLING ALL FAGGOTS>> LETS PARTY.

Oh wait...

Sorry for missing PS guys! hope you enjoyed your weekend, cause I did.

Anyway, should be hearing from UCLA within the next couple weeks, then I'll be able to make decisions on moving up to LA or LB county. Should be a fun summer, but first I have to focus on my classwork. I am behind and it is only getting worse as this month flies by. Hopefully I'll get my work done without risking my GPA. But at least I'll be accepted into a university anyway. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I was accepted to CSULB. haha. kooly. I'll be busy the next few weeks, but hopefully you guys haven't completely forgotten about me! :3

I'm pretty sure I just realized how uncomfortable some fur suits make me. I don't want to be around those.

What do you want? What can i give you that will make you understand? I want your money, I want your love, I want you to rally everyone and sing my name in praise. Give me your fucking time and I will give you your just reward.

:P

So there are a bunch of parties and shit going down lately, my pocketbook is gonna be pisssssssed.

but i find myself on this damn website instead. I'm bored as fuck.

i'm over fa guys! :3

*long breath and sighs* ... yup :)




Sometimes its hard to find what you are looking for. Events, ideas, and other people will influence the decisions we make, but ultimately it is our choice to do what we see is necessary for our enjoyment/happiness/solemnity.

When it comes to other people, I've always been adaptive towards personalities. I take on the attitude and behavior of the people I am around, making it strikingly easy to get along with most of these people. In some cases, this makes me biased when conflicts arise. If two friends of mine are interacting and having a problem, it is usually hard for me to pick a side (as long as one isn't completely unreasonable), since I can typically agree with both on certain aspects of the conflict. For about a year I have had this very passive commitment to defending my beliefs or thoughts. It has taken me a bit of time to finally grow that sense of confidence - I guess you could call it. But at the same time, I can't help but feel like I will only hurt more people this way. All I feel is confusion when I am put between two people, their conflicts, my inner-conflict of not making a beneficial decision, and the chance that I might lose a friend. Losing friends is what I dislike most. Thus, I tend not to have conflicts with my friends. It just irks me sometimes that there is nothing I can do to help them be friends again. But then again, why do I even worry? Can't I just go on living while being friends with both of them? It's not like I have to deal with their issues about each other since they will no longer be in contact. For me, it is knowing that there is a problem. They say time heals everything. But, in my mind, the thoughts are unyielding. I am cursed by my need to please everyone around me. In order to cope, I suppose I just go with what happens, hoping that one day these friends will somehow miraculously reunite and remember exactly why they were friends in the first place, dropping the argument - or possibly not even remembering it. I just need some way to make everything right once more. Or maybe... Well let's think.. Maybe what was right can never be the same again. It's an unfortunate thought to propose that they can never be friends from this point. But, if that is the only result, then it's not a matter of fixing them, but a matter of changing my own perception on how things will be rather than how I want them to be or how they used to be. That would be the most selfless thing to do, anyway. But something deep down inside of me doesn't want that to be a viable choice. Deep down I want to stand up; I want to shout out at them to drop their fucking problems so that I can finally be at peace. I want to join forces with them, both on my side, together in thought and feeling without a care for what comes next. I just want everyone to get along. Is it really that hard to ask?


All it takes to change your fate is an idea. Once it is in your mind, you can use it to drive your actions, you can use it to tailor your speech, or you can misguide the idea towards your own destruction. The choice is yours, and we wish you the best.





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UPDATE ON LIFE: I am really enjoying my time with my foundry work. Making molds, bronzes, sculpting, faux painting, and SHIIIIIT.

THAT ASIDE----

I am going to start drawing stuff for someone. Send me a link for a reference and I'll draw something up.

I miss you guys.

By my tv. School has got me busy. Carving a plaster egg. I'm cold and shaky.

I'm in a weird mood right now... And I don't think I like it :/

I'm watching the history channel... And I don't understand why there are so many different specials on 2012, apocalypse and such... I mean I have now seen one saying that there will be horrible things happening near Dec. 21. I've also seen a special saying the Mayan calendar is merely the end of this cycle for the world. And we will start a new cycle. It pisses me off when they correlate things like Merlin, Napoleon, and 2012. The most intriguing one to me was this Chinese prediction method known as "I Ching". ANYWAY!!! I am having a good time this weekend for the most part. Hope everyone is doing the same. Stay positive.

Classes are gonna be easy for the most part. I actually enjoyed doing my art project tonight which was a good change of pace from my weird feelings lately. I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!

/melodrama.

it felt like i was gonna pop. but its okay now. phew... anyway.

Having a good day so far, practicing a lot of things since I want to be purrrfect and such. umm doing things like singing, drawing, and videogames at home on my free time.

BUUUUUUUUuuuuuut...

PARTYING TONIGHT WOOO!! SMOKIN DRINKIN PONGIN YELLING LAUGHING... ummm... singing drawing videogames AND SLEEEEEEPINGGGG HARD!!!



:3 gonna be fun.

How is everyone? :)

Go here an vote for this dude.... Like now:

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:20947284

Kthxbye!