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First let me start off by saying hello all, its been a while since iv been on or talked to any of you. Life has been busy! This past Saturday i got a job. Its been busy but subway isnt really that hard lol Also Batman went home today so its kind of lonely here without my friend here. But any who, i may or may not be able to make any fur meets anytime soon. It all depends on what shift i am on. With Rosco saving up money he doesnt wanna go leaving me with no ride also. But i do promise good news. I will be having a Halloween party in October. Not sure on the date just yet but i will have one for you guys soon. Other than that i hope all is well and life is good for you guys. ^_^ P.S. THERE WILL BE TACOS AT THE HALLOWEEN PARTY SO ALL TACO LOVERS ARE WELCOME!!!!!!

Id like to start out by telling you a story.
The year is 2013 and i was homeless at the moment. I was camping around town with 2 friend for a while now and one of them 'well use initials' AG and JD said lets go see a friend of his. So we go and there i saw her, the girl that stole my heart. I talked to her mom and got to know her and now to this day she is mom. She was a high christian and i even got baptized for her, didn't know me for anything, gave me a place to stay and food to eat. She treated me like family, like nobody ever has. So i moved in and lived with them for 6 months, in those 6 months my heart slowly opened back up to this girl 'Not her mom, just to clear the air' We spent 6 months together and i couldn't of been happier, and i wasn't looking for sex because its been 8 years since and its not a priority to me. In the 6 months we both hurt each other but we always came back to the same house. Well after the 6 months we had a hard split, i got her a ring, a promise ring and told her i wanted to be serious and she said yes, but she wasn't ready. "Its 2014 now" So i talked things out with my dad and moved back in. I didn't talk to anyone let alone my best friend  Leewarrior2010 I was hiding just staring at the 4 walls of my room driving myself insane, thinking about what i did wrong. "Opening up here" If it wasn't for one of my closest friends and his fiance just walking into my house and into my room i wouldn't be here. I had a knife to my throat and ready to end it, but he jumped on me and saved me. It was at that moment i saw who i became. I was a monster, i treated everyone like my father treated me, like everyone was dirt under my shoe and i could do what ever. So from there on i started bettering myself, i started to rediscover who i was. but God said her and i were not threw yet. I get a phone call from her saying our trailer caught fire, there was a pin hole in the pro-pain lines and the trailer should of exploded... but it didn't. She was scared and needed a friend, and i am not one to turn down and friend in need. So i go to where she is staying, with some friends. That same night we had a moment of weakness and kissed. This was the summer of 2014 and we spend till the fall together. I felt happier than the last time because i didn't miss treat her, i grew up. Well the fall hit and the trailer was livable for the moment, so we all moved back in. Not even 2 weeks after that she said she was moving to Florida with her father and leaving me here. I asked why and in tears i begged her to stay. I even asked her mom what i had to do to keep her here with me in my arms, But nothing was enough. She left me here to rot, and so i did. I started to revert back into the depression. The darkness once again ate me alive, i couldn't see what way to go and how to get out. "Its 2015 now" Than i saw a hand, breaking threw the shrouded darkness, It was Rosco helping me on my feet. He showed me that the world has changed and everything would be ok. Though i still missed her i accepted his help. He introduced me to the fandom, and some great new friend. I finally felt like i belonged somewhere and was as happy as i was with her. So many hugs and so much fur lol i couldn't stop smiling. Well i was just informed she is back from Florida and is staying at her moms, and is in a relationship with JD who i haven't talked to since all this went down. Iv had almost a year to think about this,my former friend is dating my ex. That's all that ran threw my head and i was angry, and i wanted them to know. But while she was living in Florida i kept in contact with her mom, like i said she is like my own mom. So i opened up to her about everything and how i feel, and she help me realize something. Everything happens for a reason and life is a lesson we all need to learn. So Rethinking everything, a part of me wants to fight for her because growing up i was always told to fight for what you love "Thank you Dragon ball z" but the other half says if you love something let it go, if it comes back it was always meant to be. So i maned up for the first time in years and message JD on facebook, we talked for a little caught each other up on the years and i said something that i never thought id say. I told him that as much as it kills me to say this, i am happy for the both of them. They make each other happy and have both helped each other change for the better. He makes her happy and that's all i care about. So i think i am finally ready to move on, get closure and be happy with another. My heart is finally in recovery mode and almost ready to move on.
So my questions to you all is, how do you move on from someone you gave 100% of your life to? How do you let go of the past and close the door? Why am i so scared to do this? Can i even muster up the courage to do this? Ho do i move on? I want to.

So its about 2:30 PM here and im just chilling on Facebook Pandora and FA and i was just helping a friend with a relationship issue and it got me thinking. Its been a really long time since i was in an actually "nonsexual" relationship. The last few girls were not real relationships. They were just place holders so i didnt feel so empty. i know that sounds kind of bad but they didnt fill the void that i needed to be filled. I have issues with both my parents so im trying to fill a pretty big void. I mean everyone walking this earth cant say that they are just looking for love, we all are. Some of us have found someone "male or female" and im happy for you all. I dont know what you have been threw and im not one to pry into personal business. But if one is upset the mate, partner,boyfriend, or girlfriend what ever you wanna be called, you should help one another, be there for one another. My last real relationship was in high school, i put everyone and everything on the back burner just to be there for her. Yes in the end i screwed up but i was a kid than and i have come a long way from who i was in 2007. I have set new rules for me when it comes to relationships now. I must get to know them before we start talking about dating, i must have a job, will not allow them to pay for everything, and i need to be getting my life right. Though i really want someone to call mine im still slowly peacing everything together. I know whats holding me back and iv been working one fixing that.
But anyways thats all i really wanted to say,
Cant wait for the Beach trip tomorrow with some friendly furs ^_^

So my father just threatened to kick me out because I almost took a nail to the eye. I don't have a great relationship with him ànd he said I was a peace of dirt under his shoe. I'm sick of letting him push me around and every time I try to stand up for myself I get pushed down because this is "his house" and I have nowhere else to go. And people wonder why I ended up the way I did

So as i stated before i just got fired from a Subway in delaware after 2 days and not being trained to do anything. I just called the district manager and she didnt even know i was working there. So i explained what happened to the district manager and she said she was going to look into it. She said she will be calling me back in a few days after she is able to talk to the 3 employees i worked with and asking them what happened. All i know is i worked for 2 day a total or 7 hours and i better see pay for it!

So today was my second day at subway and i did really good.... untill the boss "my ex" decided it wasnt working out at the store so i got fired.... on my second god damn day!!!! I am so upset its not even funny.... upside, i will see you all at AC ^_^

So i start my first day of work today at 2 and id be lying if i wasn't a little nervous. This is my first job since 2012, i went from working for a pool company that went under to working at subway. This is all new to me so im hoping this first day goes well.

So iv been looking for a job since 2012 and finally something has come threw, i am a subway employee and i start this thursday. The problem with that is i just found out i am working during AC so i will not be making it. So i am very sad about this but i know what is more important right now for me and that is this one shot i have at freedom and i have to take it. SO pleeeeese give big hugs to my friend because he is going alone and he is going for me.

So there is a fur bowl this saturday in delaware, and i was wondering, who is going? I cant wait for it ^_^

So these past 2 weeks have been very aggravating for me. I currently live with my father and 8 people in 1 small house, i have no job, no drivers licence and very little friend "IRL" and i don't live near anyone so im always cooped up in this small house. I don't get along with anyone here, they are always pushing me down and making me feel bad. Every time i get somewhere in life, someone in this house is pulling me back. Iv done everything in my power to get out of here but i always end up back in this prison. Hell i know its fathers day but iv been calling my father a slave driver for the way hes been treating me. He treat my brother in law more like a son than he does me. I dont have a relationship with my mother due to her being more attached to my sister. There is not much that i look froward to other than hanging out with one of my best friends  Leewarrior2010 I dont get out much and i am currently waiting to hear back from subway about a job "my brother in law works for one in the area" and he may of ended up coasting me that just because he only cares about his family that lives here. My father turns a blind eye to everything wrong that happens in this house and 99% of the time it all comes down on me, even if i had nothing to do with it. So i try to zone out by playing Fallout on PS3 or Minecraft on PC and just ignoring the world but its all temperary. My best friend is getting married and never has time to see me anymore and i feel like im alone again. Iv been doing everything in my power to stay positive but there are days where it takes a tole on me. All i want is to be able to be my own man and have my own life with out someone putting me down on a daily bases. I lack motivation, i suffer from depression, and its all because of how much iv been put down. I feel like a second class citizen in my own home. Like i said, i just needed to vent. Maybe one day my time will come and ill be on my own and out of this house but idk how much longer i can take it here. Every day is a new battle for me in this prison.

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I intend to fill Furaffinity with cute baby animals to fight the saturation of all the negative journals and hate.

This is how it works!
Comment below and I'll assign you your animal!
Find a cute gif/picture/video or drawing of your assigned animal and post a journal
Tag who assigned you, your baby animal (not necessary though)
Continue the game by explaining the rules and assigning a baby animal to everyone who comments on your journal!

Simple!
The animal i was given was a snake by  MintyAmbitions so here it is
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16824022/

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Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz "Meaning “lifelong treasure of destiny.”" is not something that develops over time. It is something that happens instantaneously. It courses through you like the water of a river after a storm, filling you and emptying you all at once. You feel it throughout your body, in your hands, in your heart, in your stomach, in your skin. Have you ever felt this way about someone? If you have to think about it, you have not felt it. Everyone does eventually. You just don’t know when or where.
I thought i had this so many times but now watching this scean form How I Met Your Mother, iv been so close. Watching this scean helps me think alot, it gives me hope that even though things look bad right now there is someone out there, somewhere waiting for me.

So i just finished my first interview, it was pretty good. They seem really into me. I have 2 others to go by but ill get there when that happens. Im so happy that im finally catching a break ^_^

So i have a job interview tomorrow! Also i was offered a job at a subway ^_^ I hope this goes threw, i really need the money. This would be the first job iv had since 2012. But i did volunteer at a store called Gods Way "Its like a goodwill" I was there for 3 months and they were about to hire me, but my dad said it was a waist of time and money on him because i dont have my drivers license. So i REALLY need this to work so i can finally start my life right.

I go by the name of Randall. I officially became a furry May/30/2015 at Fur The 'More. My ref sheet is being created so i shall have pics up soon. But let me tell you a little more about who i really am. I am 24 years old, i still live with my parents at the moment, im unemployed "but still trying" i am a very caring and kindhearted wolf to those who show me the same back. I love helping people, it makes me feel good about who i am. I have suffered loss, i deal with destination on a daily bases, but most of all i am just looking for acceptance and alot of you have as of this past weekend at the con. Everyone said after my second fur meet id become a furry and i didn't believe them but now its clear, i was meant for this. All my life iv been surcharging for a place where i belonged and i liked being that lone wolf for a while but its time for me to find a home to stay and it looks like i have found my home.
There are times where i am misguided, i stray away from the path and iv needed that push to move on with my life and get back on my feet and this feels like it maybe just what i needed. I can be shy at first and im not good at talking to people IRL because of the fear or rejection. So i do tend to keep to myself if i dont really know you. So if you would like to help me with that, just come up to me and hug me. You dont have to ask because i love hugs and it will make me feel safe. I can be an odd wolf at times and i dont fit in but for the pack i run with i know they are there when i need them. I suffer form a severe lack of motivation due to constantly being put down by the family i live with so i try to get out as much as i can because outside of these walls i am so happy.
I love making new friends because new friends always see the brighter side of who you are. This fandom has been so accepting of me and i cant thank you all enough. You dont have to fit a certain mold or be a certain way or dress like everyone else. I lot of groups say they take you as you are but they really dont, as from what iv seen, this fandom, being a furry, you dont have to be someone else, i can just be me and ill be accepted.
So if you were not scared off by this and you want to be my friend, i dont care who you are or what you have been threw, i am here and willing for new friends. As for my old friends, thank you for putting up with me and i love you all.
P.S. Thank you  leewarrior2010 for showing me this.

I know im not on here much, but i hope to be on here alot more. Its not that i dont have the time, its i never really get around to being on here. But i dont want to neglect my new found friends, so i promise to be on here "or try" a little more often.
Randall