I feel horrendous making a post like this where I sound very beggy

I'll be honest, the past holiday week has not been good. I already had a nasty cough from being slightly ill the week before, and then Wednesday morning I come to find out that I'm *really* sick and have basically a new thing going around. So not all that fun of a day.

This has prevented me from going about my usual way of getting money for cover bills for the upcoming month or ahead for a good week or two. As you can imagine, that's not good lol.

To add insult to injury, I just got denied food stamps into the new year for reasons that I don't fully understand, nor do I fully agree with. It's like I'm always getting the door slammed in my face right when I get assistance from any government program.

This has sent me into a mental downward spiral of self doubt and fear for the future. It's left me feeling like I can't do anything for myself. It's why I'm now this desperate. I need help.

I need more commission work, it might exhaust me but at this point I can't afford to my waste or relax mentally. I've always been available to ask for a commission, but I am practically begging for work, and I am sorry for having to.

I am also considering a possible small patreon account. Nothing would be locked behind it, and I don't even know if there would be any benefits, it would solely be made first as a little spot if you're the sweetest person imaginable lol. Let me know what you think of the idea

TL;DR been sick, haven't been able to get money like normal, downward spiral of my mental headspace from it, I'm desperate and asking anyone interested in my art to consider buying a commission from me if they want, and considering making a patreon

Again, I apologize for this rambley message. I don't know if I should even post this, but here it goes.

Made a strawpage for lil anonymous doodles or questions, along with a decently sized list of tf moods of mine. Check it out if you'd like~

https://randompersonindeed.straw.page

Heya, I really do feel dirty asking on here, but I have a bill due on the 8th of this month, and need about $70 USD still to pay it off before then. Like usual, I take Pay What You Want commissions, but work has come in very slowly the past while. If you can share this around or maybe be interested in helping me out in any sort of way, I would appreciate it more than you could imagine <3

Heya! Ive been doing it for a while but I shpuld mention here, I am taking commissions! The price is whatever you would like to pay~

If youre interested, feel free to message me!