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FA Policy Update - Actual Discussion
Posted 8 months agoI thought about it a bit since yesterday and I figure that it's better for me to express my thoughts in more than just a knee-jerk, twitter style post about it. I'm not sure how many people will bother to comment on this but I honestly would like to hear some responses here.
To start out with, as I have been thinking I realized that I'm still harboring quite a lot of long-held resentment and frustration towards this site for being such a terribly run shithole. It's basically coasted off inertia for the longest time, with the main attempt at change in probably the last half a decade being the mod who went AWOL and decided to unilaterally ban a variety of kink art their puritan sensibilities thought should count as bad (at least, if you take the damage control excuse at face value). Thankfully this was walked back, and I'm not particularly into any of the art that was affected so I didn't personally experience any of the impact, but I can sure sympathize with the furries who were and did. But at any rate, for the longest time FA has lacked basic quality-of-life type functions such as a tag blacklist and suggestion feature. I mentioned back at the time that a large part of the reason I stopped posting here was because IB did have those features and I much preferred to patronize a site that valued its users... well, I also disagreed heavily with the inactive moderation here too (there may or may not still be nazi-sympathetic furs on staff, who the fuck knows at this point), and I doubt that'll change much anytime soon. I actually have been trying to search out posts where this new update is being discussed because I kind of want to read all the comments from fellow frustrated furries because I think this sensible indignation and bitterness is something a lot of people share... at least, if what I'm anecdotally hearing from friends is any indication. But in the end, we can all agree that an actual tag blacklist is a positive small step in the right direction.
So anyway, when I toggled the button to auto-hide submissions that lacked any tags whatsoever, which is to me a logical and obvious choice, almost immediately 40% or so of my submission feed vanished. This is on top of the tags I'd already auto-disabled using a third-party plugin to block hard fetishes that gross me out. I looked, and a decent amount of what was blocked were YCH/adoptable/auction reminders and stream notifications, which is fair enough, but there were plenty of normal art posts that got caught up as well and I realized that having such nonexistent moderation and tag enforcement for so long has created a culture of lax self-curation. You can obviously see this in the way that uploaders will post hyperscat, gore, and hard vore images with no spoiler thumbnails whatsoever, filing them under submission categories meant for much less hardcore content such as "hyper". Browsing those submission category pages by themselves without a tag blacklist is pretty much like walking through a field of landmines. You're going to be blasted in the face with several per page. It's basically guaranteed.
And I think, like, it's perfectly understandable for a typical user to not want to be flashbanged by literal shit pics when browsing their kink pages for new content?
However, seeing so many submissions vanish was an immediate wake-up call that this site still has a fucking long way to go to be more user-friendly. Let's be clear: the tag blacklist is a good start, but it's only a tiny first step and a band-aid solution that will not do much to solve the problem when currently the culture of FA tends toward nonexistent self-moderation and tagging to begin with. And on top of that, even if people did tag their art, not only are tags not unified or consistent (unlike IB, whose enforced tagging and auto-suggestions create a top-down effect that results in said unification for easy browsing, searching or blacklisting), FA's search system is actual garbage and not only gets broken by hyphens (which are often part of artist names) but multiword searches are less than useless too if one of the words is less than three letters long. This problem is compounded at just about every step of the way and resists both top-down and ground-up change since it has issues at both administrative- and user-level.
Someone I know described Furaffinity as "lawless" for moderation. I couldn't help but agree with the sentiment. It really is pretty damn lawless... and at this point, with how old and entrenched this site is, and because the typical murry purry furry only wants to consoom porn without giving any thought or care to it, I'm not sure there's any fixing that at all. But it needs to happen.
Despite all this... I still kind of want to resume posting here, for some reason. There was a tiny speck of me that was glad to have an excuse to do it. Even I have to admit that with twitter overrun by nazis this site has returned to being the default best place for furry exposure. And... at some point in the time I'd been inactive, I ended up passing 2000 followers, lmao. I don't doubt a number of those are inactive, but even then it's certainly more than I have on bluesky... and it would be nice to imagine people posting comments to my more (relatively) recent commissions. I know it's still unlikely to happen, since in the fifteen years since FA got started the culture of commenting and artist-follower interactions has largely been smothered to death outside of the 1% of the most mega-popular accounts. But the feeling of resentment that I noticed still lingers and it's making me hesitate. I don't know if I feel fully comfortable with coming back to the site as if nothing ever happened unless the changes are more major an improvement than this. Yet... I struggle with posting old commissions myself, letting inertia, laziness, and often perfectionist tendencies get the better of me, so who am I to criticize? If I continue to be bitter and let the perfect be the enemy of "just okay," then I'm probably just going to be waiting forever (especially with the glacial pace of FA updates anyway).
I dunno.
Maybe I can just be a tool and say, "I'll start posting again if I get enough comments on this journal" or something, haha. After all, a big incentive for me isn't attention or numbers going up, it's the possibility of actual interactions in the comment section, mutual horniness and bonding with like-minded folks. So that basis for judging interest would be exactly what I need.
What do you guys think? If I came back, I'd probably even be inclined to completely redo my profile page from the ground up as well, because lord knows that thing is ancient and outdated. Should I bother? Do you want to see me come back and start posting here again?
(also, why is the tag blacklist under PROFILE INFO and not... "site settings?" What weird and non-intuitive placement...)
-ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ-To start out with, as I have been thinking I realized that I'm still harboring quite a lot of long-held resentment and frustration towards this site for being such a terribly run shithole. It's basically coasted off inertia for the longest time, with the main attempt at change in probably the last half a decade being the mod who went AWOL and decided to unilaterally ban a variety of kink art their puritan sensibilities thought should count as bad (at least, if you take the damage control excuse at face value). Thankfully this was walked back, and I'm not particularly into any of the art that was affected so I didn't personally experience any of the impact, but I can sure sympathize with the furries who were and did. But at any rate, for the longest time FA has lacked basic quality-of-life type functions such as a tag blacklist and suggestion feature. I mentioned back at the time that a large part of the reason I stopped posting here was because IB did have those features and I much preferred to patronize a site that valued its users... well, I also disagreed heavily with the inactive moderation here too (there may or may not still be nazi-sympathetic furs on staff, who the fuck knows at this point), and I doubt that'll change much anytime soon. I actually have been trying to search out posts where this new update is being discussed because I kind of want to read all the comments from fellow frustrated furries because I think this sensible indignation and bitterness is something a lot of people share... at least, if what I'm anecdotally hearing from friends is any indication. But in the end, we can all agree that an actual tag blacklist is a positive small step in the right direction.
So anyway, when I toggled the button to auto-hide submissions that lacked any tags whatsoever, which is to me a logical and obvious choice, almost immediately 40% or so of my submission feed vanished. This is on top of the tags I'd already auto-disabled using a third-party plugin to block hard fetishes that gross me out. I looked, and a decent amount of what was blocked were YCH/adoptable/auction reminders and stream notifications, which is fair enough, but there were plenty of normal art posts that got caught up as well and I realized that having such nonexistent moderation and tag enforcement for so long has created a culture of lax self-curation. You can obviously see this in the way that uploaders will post hyperscat, gore, and hard vore images with no spoiler thumbnails whatsoever, filing them under submission categories meant for much less hardcore content such as "hyper". Browsing those submission category pages by themselves without a tag blacklist is pretty much like walking through a field of landmines. You're going to be blasted in the face with several per page. It's basically guaranteed.
And I think, like, it's perfectly understandable for a typical user to not want to be flashbanged by literal shit pics when browsing their kink pages for new content?
However, seeing so many submissions vanish was an immediate wake-up call that this site still has a fucking long way to go to be more user-friendly. Let's be clear: the tag blacklist is a good start, but it's only a tiny first step and a band-aid solution that will not do much to solve the problem when currently the culture of FA tends toward nonexistent self-moderation and tagging to begin with. And on top of that, even if people did tag their art, not only are tags not unified or consistent (unlike IB, whose enforced tagging and auto-suggestions create a top-down effect that results in said unification for easy browsing, searching or blacklisting), FA's search system is actual garbage and not only gets broken by hyphens (which are often part of artist names) but multiword searches are less than useless too if one of the words is less than three letters long. This problem is compounded at just about every step of the way and resists both top-down and ground-up change since it has issues at both administrative- and user-level.
Someone I know described Furaffinity as "lawless" for moderation. I couldn't help but agree with the sentiment. It really is pretty damn lawless... and at this point, with how old and entrenched this site is, and because the typical murry purry furry only wants to consoom porn without giving any thought or care to it, I'm not sure there's any fixing that at all. But it needs to happen.
-ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ-Despite all this... I still kind of want to resume posting here, for some reason. There was a tiny speck of me that was glad to have an excuse to do it. Even I have to admit that with twitter overrun by nazis this site has returned to being the default best place for furry exposure. And... at some point in the time I'd been inactive, I ended up passing 2000 followers, lmao. I don't doubt a number of those are inactive, but even then it's certainly more than I have on bluesky... and it would be nice to imagine people posting comments to my more (relatively) recent commissions. I know it's still unlikely to happen, since in the fifteen years since FA got started the culture of commenting and artist-follower interactions has largely been smothered to death outside of the 1% of the most mega-popular accounts. But the feeling of resentment that I noticed still lingers and it's making me hesitate. I don't know if I feel fully comfortable with coming back to the site as if nothing ever happened unless the changes are more major an improvement than this. Yet... I struggle with posting old commissions myself, letting inertia, laziness, and often perfectionist tendencies get the better of me, so who am I to criticize? If I continue to be bitter and let the perfect be the enemy of "just okay," then I'm probably just going to be waiting forever (especially with the glacial pace of FA updates anyway).
I dunno.
Maybe I can just be a tool and say, "I'll start posting again if I get enough comments on this journal" or something, haha. After all, a big incentive for me isn't attention or numbers going up, it's the possibility of actual interactions in the comment section, mutual horniness and bonding with like-minded folks. So that basis for judging interest would be exactly what I need.
What do you guys think? If I came back, I'd probably even be inclined to completely redo my profile page from the ground up as well, because lord knows that thing is ancient and outdated. Should I bother? Do you want to see me come back and start posting here again?
(also, why is the tag blacklist under PROFILE INFO and not... "site settings?" What weird and non-intuitive placement...)
guess I'm gonna start posting here again maybe
Posted 8 months agolmfao it only took them fifteen years but they finally added tag blocking so maybe it's gonna be worth using this site again
maybe
maybe
RIP Neer
Posted a year agoHis posts on bluesky for the past month or so had been extremely distressing in nature regarding both his health and money issues, not least in part because they were so extreme it felt like he could barely be helped. But his passing is shocking... I don't think that the fandom will have gone through something like this before, with the lynchpin (and, according to him, sole monetary support?) of the biggest gallery site passing on.
I hope whatever happens, the site will start to see some improvement and updating. Maybe then I'll start posting here again.
I hope whatever happens, the site will start to see some improvement and updating. Maybe then I'll start posting here again.
FA Policy Change
Posted 2 years agolmao FA admins finally managed to do something so completely braindead that I felt compelled to break my long silence on here
henlo!
Been awhile, hasn't it?
In short, I'm still not planning to ever upload here again. This poorly-thought-out, hypocritical, insulting move to ban a massive amount of content based on arbitrary vibes only validated my reasons for deciding to stop posting here almost six years ago. Not only are the admins and moderation totally shitty, but on a more practical and objective level, the site is desperately lacking in even basic user-friendly tools like tag blacklisting...
Well, anyway, I just thought I might post this journal to let anyone who's making the move to follow my IB account, which is far more current (although I admittedly still have a large upload backlog of stuff I've commissioned... oh well 6.9 ).
https://inkbunny.net/Rykela
See y'all on the other side, fellow travelers!
henlo!
Been awhile, hasn't it?
In short, I'm still not planning to ever upload here again. This poorly-thought-out, hypocritical, insulting move to ban a massive amount of content based on arbitrary vibes only validated my reasons for deciding to stop posting here almost six years ago. Not only are the admins and moderation totally shitty, but on a more practical and objective level, the site is desperately lacking in even basic user-friendly tools like tag blacklisting...
Well, anyway, I just thought I might post this journal to let anyone who's making the move to follow my IB account, which is far more current (although I admittedly still have a large upload backlog of stuff I've commissioned... oh well 6.9 ).
https://inkbunny.net/Rykela
See y'all on the other side, fellow travelers!
Today is Rykela's tenth birthday.
Posted 6 years agoYee, Convention Time!
Posted 8 years agoI'm off to FWA! Give me a shout if you see me there. c:
...I hope I can get lots of Gideon art!
...I hope I can get lots of Gideon art!
Going Back to FWA!
Posted 8 years agoIt's official, I was able to get enough money to pay for a room, and I've got a buddy who's able to drive me down, so I'm gonna be at FWA this year! Unlike last year, the con and my gem show are on different weekends, so I'm gonna be there almost the whole time. I'm planning to arrive roughly on Thursday around opening ceremonies and leave on Sunday evening.
Is anybody else gonna be there? :)
Is anybody else gonna be there? :)
FA's New Layout
Posted 9 years agoFA has become Weasyl now.
Personally, I'm unimpressed. The least they could do when overhauling the site layout is coming up with their own original design...
*sips milk*
Personally, I'm unimpressed. The least they could do when overhauling the site layout is coming up with their own original design...
*sips milk*
A Very Happy Birthday for Drgn
Posted 9 years agoI'm cross-posting this because hardly anybody will see it elsewhere. Fucking FA. Why can't this site die already.
It's my 26th birthday today, and honestly I don't have very much to enjoy about it. I just need to get this off my chest, I hope you guys understand if I have nothing happy to say.
As you all may know, I struggled with depression for several years, and that cratered any attempts I made at taking college classes. It's only been in the past year that I've been able to get anything meaningful done. I'm about halfway to a two-year degree, and I would like to transfer to a local four-year school for a geology degree. But I look at people like my younger sister, who's going to get her medical degree in 2017, and I just feel as if I'm being left further and further behind. I'll probably be thirty by the time I can graduate.
I have to depend on my folks for a lot of things since I'm still in school. Room, food, even spending money. My family's lower middle-class, so I don't get much of it. I did for a few months last year, but that was only because I was working a very comfortable and busy temporary job. The majority of my paychecks went towards jumpstarting my college semester in the spring. Anyway, thanks to the... aborted attempts at college while I was in that funk, I've left my family with nearly $8000 in student debt. Even if I manage to graduate, that's not going away. I honestly feel like the most enormous burden to them, and it feels as if my progress towards a degree has no end in sight.
On top of everything, since I've turned 26, I've now been dropped from my parents' insurance.
I coped with the growing dread by just taking things day by day, focusing absolutely on the present only and not even thinking about the future. But on Oct. 20th I was in a very violent car accident on the Interstate on my way to class. The sun was directly in my eyes, and thanks to being fooled by the traffic flow, I ran into the back of three other vehicles that'd stopped and gotten backed up on an off-ramp.
My truck was totaled. I got slammed into the dashboard so hard it bent the steering wheel in half. That old piece of shit truck my uncle foisted on me had no airbags and without my seatbelt I would've been launched out the windshield. It's a miracle nobody was hurt seriously.
Yes, I'm okay. I was very sore for awhile, but I'm doing better now.
But I'm likely to be found at fault for it even though I didn't do anything wrong, and my truck didn't have collision insurance on it. So that is even more money I'm draining from my family. I feel really awful about it, and I have no idea what to do.
The election was a shit show. I won't discuss it any further than that, except to say it made my emotions tank even harder.
At this point I'm feeling rather down and frustrated, and it's not a very happy birthday at all. My folks were gone all day, and my brother turned dinner into a shouting argument. There wasn't even any cake...
I'm struggling with hopelessness, having to push myself through the motions and being fussed at by my grandmother because she hates letting me borrow her car. If I went and looked for a job so I could have money to spend, I'd have to put my time into that instead of school, and I'd never have any hope of graduating or getting a decent career in anything but retail. And staying in school, well... It just seems as if the payoff for it is impossibly far away.
What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to deal with this? I just want to scream...
It's my 26th birthday today, and honestly I don't have very much to enjoy about it. I just need to get this off my chest, I hope you guys understand if I have nothing happy to say.
As you all may know, I struggled with depression for several years, and that cratered any attempts I made at taking college classes. It's only been in the past year that I've been able to get anything meaningful done. I'm about halfway to a two-year degree, and I would like to transfer to a local four-year school for a geology degree. But I look at people like my younger sister, who's going to get her medical degree in 2017, and I just feel as if I'm being left further and further behind. I'll probably be thirty by the time I can graduate.
I have to depend on my folks for a lot of things since I'm still in school. Room, food, even spending money. My family's lower middle-class, so I don't get much of it. I did for a few months last year, but that was only because I was working a very comfortable and busy temporary job. The majority of my paychecks went towards jumpstarting my college semester in the spring. Anyway, thanks to the... aborted attempts at college while I was in that funk, I've left my family with nearly $8000 in student debt. Even if I manage to graduate, that's not going away. I honestly feel like the most enormous burden to them, and it feels as if my progress towards a degree has no end in sight.
On top of everything, since I've turned 26, I've now been dropped from my parents' insurance.
I coped with the growing dread by just taking things day by day, focusing absolutely on the present only and not even thinking about the future. But on Oct. 20th I was in a very violent car accident on the Interstate on my way to class. The sun was directly in my eyes, and thanks to being fooled by the traffic flow, I ran into the back of three other vehicles that'd stopped and gotten backed up on an off-ramp.
My truck was totaled. I got slammed into the dashboard so hard it bent the steering wheel in half. That old piece of shit truck my uncle foisted on me had no airbags and without my seatbelt I would've been launched out the windshield. It's a miracle nobody was hurt seriously.
Yes, I'm okay. I was very sore for awhile, but I'm doing better now.
But I'm likely to be found at fault for it even though I didn't do anything wrong, and my truck didn't have collision insurance on it. So that is even more money I'm draining from my family. I feel really awful about it, and I have no idea what to do.
The election was a shit show. I won't discuss it any further than that, except to say it made my emotions tank even harder.
At this point I'm feeling rather down and frustrated, and it's not a very happy birthday at all. My folks were gone all day, and my brother turned dinner into a shouting argument. There wasn't even any cake...
I'm struggling with hopelessness, having to push myself through the motions and being fussed at by my grandmother because she hates letting me borrow her car. If I went and looked for a job so I could have money to spend, I'd have to put my time into that instead of school, and I'd never have any hope of graduating or getting a decent career in anything but retail. And staying in school, well... It just seems as if the payoff for it is impossibly far away.
What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to deal with this? I just want to scream...
I fixed the color levels on my Gideon pics.
Posted 9 years agoI think they look MUCH better now. There are still parts of the Cox drawing which are too light but that' just how Gideon drew them.
Go check out the new versions and tell me what you think! :)
Go check out the new versions and tell me what you think! :)
I'm back from FWA!
Posted 9 years agoI'm breaking my self-imposed vow not to post any more art on FA just this once. I still feel like this site just doesn't respond to its users' concerns well enough, and there's been enough questionable behavior with staff and mods that I really just want to keep activity here to a minimum.
That being said, this is still the site that almost everyone uses (uuuuugh), and I love these FWA pictures so much. I want as many people as possible to enjoy them too. So here they'll be, along with my regular haunts!
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I had a TOTAL blast at FWA. My roomies were awesome, I got to make a few new friends, I got a lovely new badge, and ate at some really amazing restaurants! I looooved the Varsity, I had heard so much about it I basically convinced Ceralor and Jaeson to come along with me, and while it turned out they'd never been either they both agreed it was awesome too. <3 <3 <3
I only sold two commissions. There was a lot of competition at Artist's Alley, and sadly but not unexpectedly since I didn't have any coloring options I didn't really catch many peoples' eyes. But I got a lot of feedback saying my lineart was nice. :) I sold a commission to
Jason-Tripps, and he ended up liking it so much that he got a second one from me on Saturday. I was really flattered by how much he told me he liked them!
I had to go back early, driving to NC on Saturday night, cause my rockhounding club's gem show was that same weekend and I wanted to at least attend for just one day. It was dark and a bit lonely but the drive back didn't seem to take as long as the drive down (the anticipation didn't help, I guess, haha), and although the wind was blowing like crazy it wasn't unsafe or anything. I got a few hours of sleep before heading to the show later that morning.
I spent some more money on gems. :3c and although turnout was WAY down compared with last year, I still had a lot of fun and took a lot of pics. I'm gonna try and compile a field trip report to share on reddit.
Anyway, I'm getting around to posting my art now. Four wonderful pieces by
Gideon and Jinti. I don't know when I'll be able to meet Gideon next, and I've ALWAYS wanted stuff from him, so I couldn't help but get as many pics as I could afford. They all turned out to be GORGEOUS. <3
That being said, this is still the site that almost everyone uses (uuuuugh), and I love these FWA pictures so much. I want as many people as possible to enjoy them too. So here they'll be, along with my regular haunts!
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I had a TOTAL blast at FWA. My roomies were awesome, I got to make a few new friends, I got a lovely new badge, and ate at some really amazing restaurants! I looooved the Varsity, I had heard so much about it I basically convinced Ceralor and Jaeson to come along with me, and while it turned out they'd never been either they both agreed it was awesome too. <3 <3 <3
I only sold two commissions. There was a lot of competition at Artist's Alley, and sadly but not unexpectedly since I didn't have any coloring options I didn't really catch many peoples' eyes. But I got a lot of feedback saying my lineart was nice. :) I sold a commission to
Jason-Tripps, and he ended up liking it so much that he got a second one from me on Saturday. I was really flattered by how much he told me he liked them!I had to go back early, driving to NC on Saturday night, cause my rockhounding club's gem show was that same weekend and I wanted to at least attend for just one day. It was dark and a bit lonely but the drive back didn't seem to take as long as the drive down (the anticipation didn't help, I guess, haha), and although the wind was blowing like crazy it wasn't unsafe or anything. I got a few hours of sleep before heading to the show later that morning.
I spent some more money on gems. :3c and although turnout was WAY down compared with last year, I still had a lot of fun and took a lot of pics. I'm gonna try and compile a field trip report to share on reddit.
Anyway, I'm getting around to posting my art now. Four wonderful pieces by
Gideon and Jinti. I don't know when I'll be able to meet Gideon next, and I've ALWAYS wanted stuff from him, so I couldn't help but get as many pics as I could afford. They all turned out to be GORGEOUS. <3FWA Thing.
Posted 9 years agoWhere are you staying?
The main hotel, I think!
What day are you getting there?
Hopefully, Thursday around noonish.
How are you traveling?
Driving my ol' shitcan down I-85 :D
Who will you be rooming with?
I am eternally grateful to the generosity of my friend
jaesond! I'll be rooming with him and a few of his friends.
What is the best way to find you?
My Twitter account is always good! I also have a Telegram, or you can contact me via notes on here or FA.
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I don't think I'll go to very many. The schedule didn't seem super interesting. There's gonna be an improv group that I hope to catch, though!
What do you look like?
Dirty blonde with glasses. I will almost certainly be wearing this hat.
Will you be suiting?
There is a Rykela suit, but I'm not the one who wears it, and shi won't be at FWA.
Do you do free art?
For close friends only, and not upon request. Trust me, if I'm gonna give you a gift, I'm gonna surprise you out of the blue with it. Requests just make me anxious and stressed.
Do you do trades?
I'll gladly do an art trade if I like your art enough.
Do you do badges?
I did my own badge, although I had to rely on a friend to color it (Thanks, Padu!). Since I'm not super comfortable with coloring things, I can't really do badges yet.
What is your gender?
Dude.
How tall are you?
6'1".
Can I talk to you?
Sure~ I just might not be the most conversational drgn.
Can I touch you?
I have Asperger's, so I'm really iffy about touching, if I know you well enough you can ask.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
See above.
Can I visit your room?
I'm probably not gonna be there...? Not really, no.
Can I buy you a drink?
I don't drink, but soda is welcomed. ^u^
Do you accept gifts?
FREE SHIT YES PLEASE!
Are you nice?
I'd like to think so!
Do you have an artist table?
If I can get a seat at the Artist's Alley.
Will you be going to parties?
If I get invited, maybe. I'm not much of a partier.
Will you be performing?
Bahahahahahaha naw.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Holler at the top of your lungs. HEY BIG DRAGONESS! /s I dunno I dun care
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Creeping around. Mostly Artist's Alley I hope.
What/where will you be eating?
Thursday night is Fogo de Chau night. Otherwise, it's whatever tastes good. I'm hoping to at least enjoy some iconic Atlanta fare at the Varsity, too.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If you're paying your own way, I don't see the harm. Just ask first.
Can I look in your sketchbook?
I don't really have one, but I'm trying to change that! You can feel free to look at my filthy doodles and things though.
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Velociraptor screech YESSSSSS
Can I take your picture?
I try to avoid having my face posted online thanks to a bad experience when I was just getting started in the fandom, but if you're a friend I guess I wouldn't mind. Please ask first.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have fun, socialize, do some furry networking! ART!!!!
The main hotel, I think!
What day are you getting there?
Hopefully, Thursday around noonish.
How are you traveling?
Driving my ol' shitcan down I-85 :D
Who will you be rooming with?
I am eternally grateful to the generosity of my friend
jaesond! I'll be rooming with him and a few of his friends.What is the best way to find you?
My Twitter account is always good! I also have a Telegram, or you can contact me via notes on here or FA.
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I don't think I'll go to very many. The schedule didn't seem super interesting. There's gonna be an improv group that I hope to catch, though!
What do you look like?
Dirty blonde with glasses. I will almost certainly be wearing this hat.
Will you be suiting?
There is a Rykela suit, but I'm not the one who wears it, and shi won't be at FWA.
Do you do free art?
For close friends only, and not upon request. Trust me, if I'm gonna give you a gift, I'm gonna surprise you out of the blue with it. Requests just make me anxious and stressed.
Do you do trades?
I'll gladly do an art trade if I like your art enough.
Do you do badges?
I did my own badge, although I had to rely on a friend to color it (Thanks, Padu!). Since I'm not super comfortable with coloring things, I can't really do badges yet.
What is your gender?
Dude.
How tall are you?
6'1".
Can I talk to you?
Sure~ I just might not be the most conversational drgn.
Can I touch you?
I have Asperger's, so I'm really iffy about touching, if I know you well enough you can ask.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
See above.
Can I visit your room?
I'm probably not gonna be there...? Not really, no.
Can I buy you a drink?
I don't drink, but soda is welcomed. ^u^
Do you accept gifts?
FREE SHIT YES PLEASE!
Are you nice?
I'd like to think so!
Do you have an artist table?
If I can get a seat at the Artist's Alley.
Will you be going to parties?
If I get invited, maybe. I'm not much of a partier.
Will you be performing?
Bahahahahahaha naw.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Holler at the top of your lungs. HEY BIG DRAGONESS! /s I dunno I dun care
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Creeping around. Mostly Artist's Alley I hope.
What/where will you be eating?
Thursday night is Fogo de Chau night. Otherwise, it's whatever tastes good. I'm hoping to at least enjoy some iconic Atlanta fare at the Varsity, too.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If you're paying your own way, I don't see the harm. Just ask first.
Can I look in your sketchbook?
I don't really have one, but I'm trying to change that! You can feel free to look at my filthy doodles and things though.
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Velociraptor screech YESSSSSS
Can I take your picture?
I try to avoid having my face posted online thanks to a bad experience when I was just getting started in the fandom, but if you're a friend I guess I wouldn't mind. Please ask first.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have fun, socialize, do some furry networking! ART!!!!
Hey guys
Posted 9 years agoI know, it's been awhile, right? xD
No, before you ask, my feelings regarding this site haven't really changed. I basically am only using this place to follow the people who haven't migrated elsewhere. I still mostly post on Weasyl or IB (which... well, I use only in a VERY limited way, so I don't have to deal with the vast swathes of awful art on it), and over the past few months have not been able to share much due to not having a scanner.
Since last fall, we've been renovating the house. Thanks to former renters refusing to repair the gutters, rainwater spilled directly off the sides of the roof and soaked into the foundation, causing a black mold infestation. As of now, it's probably about 95% of the way repaired, but to remove the mold they had to tear out two of the four walls in our basement. My room was down in the basement, so I ended up having to have most of my belongings packed away while I spent the months in my brother's bedroom. Ugh. So yeah, I'm REALLY glad we're almost done with that!
My old computer broke. RIP. My mom's stupid rescue dog knocked it off the table and the video card was fried by the impact. So I lost ALL of my saved pictures and things on it. I wanted to at least save the hard drive to be converted into an external one to get all the data on it, but my dad basically dropped the computer off at a repair shop and then didn't bother to keep in touch with them. I doubt it's still there, and I've more or less given it up for lost. Oh well! I guess I learned not to depend on my shitty parents for anything. Thankfully I had managed to get a temporary call center job, and with help from a VERY awesome friend (<3) purchased a new one. Windows 10 is a piece of garbage but it gets me from Point A to Point B, so to speak. x)
Anyway, those are the two biggies! Now you're up to speed. My question is as follows:
I'm going to FWA at the end of the month, and on top of that my rockhounding club's gem and mineral show is the same weekend. I'm fully expecting to use my entire savings on both cons. That being said, I could use all the money I can get...
So I'm considering opening commissions. Would anyone be interested in single-char drawings such as this one? If you're going to FWA I can deliver them in-person...
No, before you ask, my feelings regarding this site haven't really changed. I basically am only using this place to follow the people who haven't migrated elsewhere. I still mostly post on Weasyl or IB (which... well, I use only in a VERY limited way, so I don't have to deal with the vast swathes of awful art on it), and over the past few months have not been able to share much due to not having a scanner.
Since last fall, we've been renovating the house. Thanks to former renters refusing to repair the gutters, rainwater spilled directly off the sides of the roof and soaked into the foundation, causing a black mold infestation. As of now, it's probably about 95% of the way repaired, but to remove the mold they had to tear out two of the four walls in our basement. My room was down in the basement, so I ended up having to have most of my belongings packed away while I spent the months in my brother's bedroom. Ugh. So yeah, I'm REALLY glad we're almost done with that!
My old computer broke. RIP. My mom's stupid rescue dog knocked it off the table and the video card was fried by the impact. So I lost ALL of my saved pictures and things on it. I wanted to at least save the hard drive to be converted into an external one to get all the data on it, but my dad basically dropped the computer off at a repair shop and then didn't bother to keep in touch with them. I doubt it's still there, and I've more or less given it up for lost. Oh well! I guess I learned not to depend on my shitty parents for anything. Thankfully I had managed to get a temporary call center job, and with help from a VERY awesome friend (<3) purchased a new one. Windows 10 is a piece of garbage but it gets me from Point A to Point B, so to speak. x)
Anyway, those are the two biggies! Now you're up to speed. My question is as follows:
I'm going to FWA at the end of the month, and on top of that my rockhounding club's gem and mineral show is the same weekend. I'm fully expecting to use my entire savings on both cons. That being said, I could use all the money I can get...
So I'm considering opening commissions. Would anyone be interested in single-char drawings such as this one? If you're going to FWA I can deliver them in-person...
No Longer Posting to FA.
Posted 10 years agoHey, for the few of you who're still waiting on me to post stuff, you should go follow me on Weasyl. I'm only using this account for watching purposes.
If you really must know why, well, I've talked about it on length on Twitter. This site is just so terrible in so many ways, and the only reason it gets a pass is because status quo is god. Everybody uses this site because it's where the artists are at, and all the artists use this site because it's where the watchers are all at, and nobody wants to try any alternatives despite the site being an outdated, poorly-run mess. I've been leaning towards this for the past few months, but the whole IMVU thing sort of made me decide to make it official. I don't care if I lose viewers or whatever - if you don't like my work enough to support me on this, you weren't much of a fan to begin with.
Other sites: Inkbunny (barely used), Sofurry (barely used), Tumblr (not used as much as I'd like)
Especially considering that I'm still struggling to find a job, I won't be around much except for very close friends. I'm trying to save money for this summer, for things like Megaplex, and each day that passes by without getting hired decreases my chances of getting to go to a con, or to a gem show like Grassy Creek. It sucks being broke... I'd start up a Patreon, but I finish drawings so rarely that it wouldn't be worth it. I don't want to beg people for money without repaying them somehow. -_-
Good luck, FA! I hope you're put out of your misery soon, for the good of the fandom.
If you really must know why, well, I've talked about it on length on Twitter. This site is just so terrible in so many ways, and the only reason it gets a pass is because status quo is god. Everybody uses this site because it's where the artists are at, and all the artists use this site because it's where the watchers are all at, and nobody wants to try any alternatives despite the site being an outdated, poorly-run mess. I've been leaning towards this for the past few months, but the whole IMVU thing sort of made me decide to make it official. I don't care if I lose viewers or whatever - if you don't like my work enough to support me on this, you weren't much of a fan to begin with.
Other sites: Inkbunny (barely used), Sofurry (barely used), Tumblr (not used as much as I'd like)
Especially considering that I'm still struggling to find a job, I won't be around much except for very close friends. I'm trying to save money for this summer, for things like Megaplex, and each day that passes by without getting hired decreases my chances of getting to go to a con, or to a gem show like Grassy Creek. It sucks being broke... I'd start up a Patreon, but I finish drawings so rarely that it wouldn't be worth it. I don't want to beg people for money without repaying them somehow. -_-
Good luck, FA! I hope you're put out of your misery soon, for the good of the fandom.
No Subject
Posted 10 years agoI prefer using Google Chrome whenever possible. It takes up less memory than Firefox and I can open lots of tabs with no problem at all. Ever since this past summer or so, Firefox has given me absolute hell because it does not play well with Shockwave Flash, which means I always have trouble playing Youtube videos among other things. But FA has totally become unusable for me ever since their DDoS attack. Fortunately I haven't been one of the ones who've gotten malware from their Cloudflare protection, but for some reason the site has gotten so slow and laggy that it makes my computer freeze up even on Google Chrome! For some hilarious reason, just today the site seemed to suddenly stop responding to my right mouse clicks, refusing to bring up the menu so I can save pictures. I've checked, and other sites such as Youtube, e621, etc. don't have the same problem. So what gives?
I'm also having issues posting submissions and journals. I can fill in all the information, but for some reason the "finalize" button doesn't work at all when I click it. It didn't matter whether I was on firefox or chrome, but a few minutes ago I tested it out again and while Chrome's still not responding firefox seems to be okay so here goes. Let's hope this goes through.
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I'm completely burnt out on artwork. I've been trying to learn how to use the tablet I got from a friend (my one and only birthday gift that I enjoyed), but it's slow going, and progress on any sketches has just come to a complete halt. I'd been meaning to post the sketch pages from my notebook and that was a fun idea, but since FA has decided to arbitrarily fuck me over I've lost my enthusiasm for that as well. I can't even enjoy drawing anything for myself anymore because it just feels like tedious work. I hate it. I really do. Why should I even bother doodling anything when I don't enjoy drawing it, it takes far too long, and I'm such a perfectionist I don't think the finished product looks any good 95% of the time?
Part of the reason I draw what I draw is because regular furry art is so boring for me. I mean, okay sure, "normal sized" furs don't "excite" me the way hyperfurs do, but even so, why would you want to make your furries realistic? I thought the whole purpose of being a furry was so that you could enjoy the fantasy and do things you never could do in real life. If the only difference between you and your fursona is that your fursona is a fox, why not fucking go out and live life instead of just sitting around drawing pictures of your fursona doing it for you.
In addition, one of my chief complaints about the fandom has always been that we're drowning in lookalike fox-wolf-cat-dragon OCs and there are so many interesting species out there that never get drawn. Birds alone are an incredibly untapped market! But I've started to feel like hyperfurs have a similar but slightly different problem... Because there are so few hyperfur artists who're skilled and/or popular, they end up being monopolized and fought over for commissions. More often than not when I search the hyper tag on FA it invariably ends up being filled with the same half-dozen commission whores getting art of their OC, and seeing the same few characters constantly repeated is getting old. I suppose I shouldn't fuss but jesus christ would it kill these guys to change it up from time to time?
I guess it's a bad sign that I haven't drawn Rykela in going on half a year now. Shi's amazing, and I adore roleplaying hir, but actually drawing hir is so much work that the novelty has completely worn off and I've been having more fun drawing random things like hyper Rule 34 and making up new OCs like the pyrodragon and the argonian. I still want artwork of hir, though, and I feel kind of like I've neglected hir...
Which leads into the other thing.
I was HOPING to buy myself something small for Christmas, since it's looking increasingly likely that my family is not going to be getting anything for me that I'll like (getting something from my parents was like squeezing water from a stone, and my grandfather gave me a jacket which is the exact same color and style as two others I still wear. I'm grateful for the thought but he might as well have gotten me wool socks). However, I don't think that'll be happening either.
I don't begrudge artists needing a living wage. As an artist, I understand that all too well. However, I can't afford paying even $30 for a single character image. Even spending more than $20 at a time makes me hesitant. I live in one of the shittiest job markets in the US (worst metropolitan area in terms of unemployment at one point), and I wasn't even able to find seasonal work for the holidays. I must've submitted at least forty resumes at different retailers and not a single one called me back. So I don't have a lot of money to spend. I've had to stretch out $150 in birthday money since last month and make it last.
My money problems aside, the way the commissioning market works in the fandom right now is fucking horrible, even without the artists who spam YCH auctions and adoptable pages. I've become very picky when it comes to artwork and there's only a handful of artists who I'd really like to get a picture from, but even if I wasn't I'd still have the same complaints. Whenever anybody streams or opens up for commissions, it's never at regular intervals (like, say, opening up a stream at 2 PM promptly every thursday), and there's usually very little warning given when it happens so it's always a surprise. I don't have time to constantly re-fresh Weasyl and FA all day just to hope to catch one of my favorite artists opening up a slot!
The majority of artists BY FAR keep the "first come, first serve" rule when it comes to their artwork, which regardless of intent means that every single time I end up seeing the same old commission whores getting image after image after image because they're the ones with the time and money to do so. It was like that in this case, too - I saw pretty much the entirety of the hyperfur community in that stream, each and every name someone I recognized, and the majority of which are mostly popular because they just get a hell of a lot of artwork of their own OC.
Is it so hard to put everyone who wants a commission into a random number generator and give out slots that way? At least with that the people who hardly ever get the chance to get anything drawn or first-time customers at least have an even chance to get their opportunity.
(In case you are wondering, no. I didn't get artwork of Rykela. I wasted two hours of my life waiting for an additional slot because they were all taken within five minutes, and I wasn't able to make the payment up front. Fuck my bank.)
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I don't think I'm going to have a good Christmas this year. I'm probably just about to go into another one of my blue periods for about two weeks... it's kind of like being on a roller coaster about to drop off the first enormous hill. You can see it coming from way far away but there's nothing you can do to stop it and all you can do is wait it out. Depression sucks. Why does everything have to be so shitty?
This combination of art burnout, money troubles, FA troubles, depression, and so on is going to be difficult to get over. I'm trying to think of reasons to continue participating in the fandom beyond lurking but I'm hard-pressed to do so right now. I've spoken before (on FA, not sure about here) about how I believe that if I don't constantly churn out artwork I feel like I'll be forgotten and ignored by the community even though it's impossible for me to do so, and how stressful that is. Maybe it's for the best that I give up trying? Real-life just demands too much of my time, I hardly get any attention when I post things anyway, drawing has lost all its appeal, and I'm beginning to despise the rest of the fandom...
I'm also having issues posting submissions and journals. I can fill in all the information, but for some reason the "finalize" button doesn't work at all when I click it. It didn't matter whether I was on firefox or chrome, but a few minutes ago I tested it out again and while Chrome's still not responding firefox seems to be okay so here goes. Let's hope this goes through.
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I'm completely burnt out on artwork. I've been trying to learn how to use the tablet I got from a friend (my one and only birthday gift that I enjoyed), but it's slow going, and progress on any sketches has just come to a complete halt. I'd been meaning to post the sketch pages from my notebook and that was a fun idea, but since FA has decided to arbitrarily fuck me over I've lost my enthusiasm for that as well. I can't even enjoy drawing anything for myself anymore because it just feels like tedious work. I hate it. I really do. Why should I even bother doodling anything when I don't enjoy drawing it, it takes far too long, and I'm such a perfectionist I don't think the finished product looks any good 95% of the time?
Part of the reason I draw what I draw is because regular furry art is so boring for me. I mean, okay sure, "normal sized" furs don't "excite" me the way hyperfurs do, but even so, why would you want to make your furries realistic? I thought the whole purpose of being a furry was so that you could enjoy the fantasy and do things you never could do in real life. If the only difference between you and your fursona is that your fursona is a fox, why not fucking go out and live life instead of just sitting around drawing pictures of your fursona doing it for you.
In addition, one of my chief complaints about the fandom has always been that we're drowning in lookalike fox-wolf-cat-dragon OCs and there are so many interesting species out there that never get drawn. Birds alone are an incredibly untapped market! But I've started to feel like hyperfurs have a similar but slightly different problem... Because there are so few hyperfur artists who're skilled and/or popular, they end up being monopolized and fought over for commissions. More often than not when I search the hyper tag on FA it invariably ends up being filled with the same half-dozen commission whores getting art of their OC, and seeing the same few characters constantly repeated is getting old. I suppose I shouldn't fuss but jesus christ would it kill these guys to change it up from time to time?
I guess it's a bad sign that I haven't drawn Rykela in going on half a year now. Shi's amazing, and I adore roleplaying hir, but actually drawing hir is so much work that the novelty has completely worn off and I've been having more fun drawing random things like hyper Rule 34 and making up new OCs like the pyrodragon and the argonian. I still want artwork of hir, though, and I feel kind of like I've neglected hir...
Which leads into the other thing.
I was HOPING to buy myself something small for Christmas, since it's looking increasingly likely that my family is not going to be getting anything for me that I'll like (getting something from my parents was like squeezing water from a stone, and my grandfather gave me a jacket which is the exact same color and style as two others I still wear. I'm grateful for the thought but he might as well have gotten me wool socks). However, I don't think that'll be happening either.
I don't begrudge artists needing a living wage. As an artist, I understand that all too well. However, I can't afford paying even $30 for a single character image. Even spending more than $20 at a time makes me hesitant. I live in one of the shittiest job markets in the US (worst metropolitan area in terms of unemployment at one point), and I wasn't even able to find seasonal work for the holidays. I must've submitted at least forty resumes at different retailers and not a single one called me back. So I don't have a lot of money to spend. I've had to stretch out $150 in birthday money since last month and make it last.
My money problems aside, the way the commissioning market works in the fandom right now is fucking horrible, even without the artists who spam YCH auctions and adoptable pages. I've become very picky when it comes to artwork and there's only a handful of artists who I'd really like to get a picture from, but even if I wasn't I'd still have the same complaints. Whenever anybody streams or opens up for commissions, it's never at regular intervals (like, say, opening up a stream at 2 PM promptly every thursday), and there's usually very little warning given when it happens so it's always a surprise. I don't have time to constantly re-fresh Weasyl and FA all day just to hope to catch one of my favorite artists opening up a slot!
The majority of artists BY FAR keep the "first come, first serve" rule when it comes to their artwork, which regardless of intent means that every single time I end up seeing the same old commission whores getting image after image after image because they're the ones with the time and money to do so. It was like that in this case, too - I saw pretty much the entirety of the hyperfur community in that stream, each and every name someone I recognized, and the majority of which are mostly popular because they just get a hell of a lot of artwork of their own OC.
Is it so hard to put everyone who wants a commission into a random number generator and give out slots that way? At least with that the people who hardly ever get the chance to get anything drawn or first-time customers at least have an even chance to get their opportunity.
(In case you are wondering, no. I didn't get artwork of Rykela. I wasted two hours of my life waiting for an additional slot because they were all taken within five minutes, and I wasn't able to make the payment up front. Fuck my bank.)
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I don't think I'm going to have a good Christmas this year. I'm probably just about to go into another one of my blue periods for about two weeks... it's kind of like being on a roller coaster about to drop off the first enormous hill. You can see it coming from way far away but there's nothing you can do to stop it and all you can do is wait it out. Depression sucks. Why does everything have to be so shitty?
This combination of art burnout, money troubles, FA troubles, depression, and so on is going to be difficult to get over. I'm trying to think of reasons to continue participating in the fandom beyond lurking but I'm hard-pressed to do so right now. I've spoken before (on FA, not sure about here) about how I believe that if I don't constantly churn out artwork I feel like I'll be forgotten and ignored by the community even though it's impossible for me to do so, and how stressful that is. Maybe it's for the best that I give up trying? Real-life just demands too much of my time, I hardly get any attention when I post things anyway, drawing has lost all its appeal, and I'm beginning to despise the rest of the fandom...
Happy Birthday, DragonAss! <3
Posted 11 years agoMy family has this sorta thing where we celebrate "birthday weeks," in that the week around someone's birthday is full of congratulations, kindness, and small favors like special dinners and inexpensive gifts. The main event is still really awesome, but it's even better with a birthday week because you get lots of build-up and anticipation. c:
Unfortunately this week my father was out of state at a tech conference (he met Steve Wozniak and the man's business card is the coolest thing ever I swear) so my birthday week is being celebrated now until Saturday, instead of this past week like it was supposed to. x3 I went with my mother and had a great lunch, and then came home and had a super chocolate birthday cake and Whoopie Pie ice cream. Tomorrow I'm not sure what I'll be up to but dad wants to buy me a book. I'll also be pre-ordering Omega Ruby as another present, yay! The money my aunt and grandfather gave me (along with a subscription to Audubon Magazine and a Columbia jacket) is probably gonna be squirreled away for future things. I might spend some of it next month at the rockhounding club's Christmas auction though....
The best news of all is that apparently despite my 3DS short-circuiting and freaking me out, the guys at the computer store turned it on and tested it for several days and nothing appears to be wrong with it. Apparently it was just temporarily inhabited by an explosive poltergeist. o.o I mean, it's amazing news, but I can't help but be weirded out by it... It's odd, isn't it?
This still means I'll be able to play Omega Ruby the day it comes out, though, so it's all good I suppose! <3
I'm working on a story trade with someone, so that'll be posted soon, as well as another diary entry. I don't know about artwork, because I, er, got a tablet, and learning how to properly wield that black magic will take some time. I'm thinking that because the drawing process for tablets and using paper and pencil are so different (you aren't actually looking where you're drawing, which is boggling my mind), I don't wanna mess up the learning process and I won't touch a pencil until I feel confident I can at least sketch on the computer. Here's to hoping it won't take long!
((All things considered, I suppose I should be a lot more excited about the tablet, but my birthday's been today and I'm tired. xD))
I got a lot of messages wishing me a happy birthday! Thank you, everyone, whether you were one of those well-wishers or not! I'm just glad I have so many awesome folks who care about me. I was feeling a little bummed earlier in the week, but y'all really did a spectacular job cheering me up. I owe you guys so much...
So I'll do my best to keep being a silly draggy and posting artwork and stories! <3 Again, thank you! Hope your week is gonna be as nice as mine will be.
Unfortunately this week my father was out of state at a tech conference (he met Steve Wozniak and the man's business card is the coolest thing ever I swear) so my birthday week is being celebrated now until Saturday, instead of this past week like it was supposed to. x3 I went with my mother and had a great lunch, and then came home and had a super chocolate birthday cake and Whoopie Pie ice cream. Tomorrow I'm not sure what I'll be up to but dad wants to buy me a book. I'll also be pre-ordering Omega Ruby as another present, yay! The money my aunt and grandfather gave me (along with a subscription to Audubon Magazine and a Columbia jacket) is probably gonna be squirreled away for future things. I might spend some of it next month at the rockhounding club's Christmas auction though....
The best news of all is that apparently despite my 3DS short-circuiting and freaking me out, the guys at the computer store turned it on and tested it for several days and nothing appears to be wrong with it. Apparently it was just temporarily inhabited by an explosive poltergeist. o.o I mean, it's amazing news, but I can't help but be weirded out by it... It's odd, isn't it?
This still means I'll be able to play Omega Ruby the day it comes out, though, so it's all good I suppose! <3
I'm working on a story trade with someone, so that'll be posted soon, as well as another diary entry. I don't know about artwork, because I, er, got a tablet, and learning how to properly wield that black magic will take some time. I'm thinking that because the drawing process for tablets and using paper and pencil are so different (you aren't actually looking where you're drawing, which is boggling my mind), I don't wanna mess up the learning process and I won't touch a pencil until I feel confident I can at least sketch on the computer. Here's to hoping it won't take long!
((All things considered, I suppose I should be a lot more excited about the tablet, but my birthday's been today and I'm tired. xD))
I got a lot of messages wishing me a happy birthday! Thank you, everyone, whether you were one of those well-wishers or not! I'm just glad I have so many awesome folks who care about me. I was feeling a little bummed earlier in the week, but y'all really did a spectacular job cheering me up. I owe you guys so much...
So I'll do my best to keep being a silly draggy and posting artwork and stories! <3 Again, thank you! Hope your week is gonna be as nice as mine will be.
A literally shitty situation ._.
Posted 11 years agoWell, our septic tank busted, and it's gonna cost $2000 to replace it.
Now my mom's really taking it out on me because I haven't been able to find a job to help pay for it. ;_;
Why me...
Now my mom's really taking it out on me because I haven't been able to find a job to help pay for it. ;_;
Why me...
Halloween is Dead!
Posted 11 years agoI had a good time, although because of the arctic blast it was super cold and windy and it kept trying to rain. We actually had a Winter Weather Advisory for our area! I had heard it was snowing about ten miles up the mountains, but I don't know for sure. It's just what I heard the trick-or-treaters talking about.
My birthday is on the 15th in two weeks yay. <3 I'mma ask for Pokemon Omega Ruby, and maybe try to weasel some money out of my folks to spend at the mineral auction our club puts on every December. I don't know what else I might plan for! I still don't have my 3DS repaired. xD
Also, if anyone's curious, I have a Tumblr Diary entry all about Halloween planned for tonite. It's a real doozy, even in comparison to other Diary entries, with several awesome cameos and a houseful of hyper partygoers. <3
Here's the link. It won't post until about 8:30 or so, but after then, enjoy! http://www.rykela.tumblr.com
My birthday is on the 15th in two weeks yay. <3 I'mma ask for Pokemon Omega Ruby, and maybe try to weasel some money out of my folks to spend at the mineral auction our club puts on every December. I don't know what else I might plan for! I still don't have my 3DS repaired. xD
Also, if anyone's curious, I have a Tumblr Diary entry all about Halloween planned for tonite. It's a real doozy, even in comparison to other Diary entries, with several awesome cameos and a houseful of hyper partygoers. <3
Here's the link. It won't post until about 8:30 or so, but after then, enjoy! http://www.rykela.tumblr.com
I'm back from the dead.
Posted 11 years agoBoy, that was fun, wasn't it? If nobody admits to the DDOS attack it may go down as the furry version of Flight 370 or the D.B. Cooper hijacking. Haha! While on break, I've been working on another story about Rykela's bakery for an art trade with someone awesome. So there's that to look forward to! I also finished... well, I finished one drawing I feel is merely "acceptable" and I'm working on another that's "pretty okay." I don't have too high an opinion of either of them... x3
My 3DS shorted out yesterday. I booted it up, and the power light started flashing, and there was a loud sound of sizzling wires coming from inside it. It gave me an error message, but even though I held down the power button it wouldn't turn off. I had to let the battery drain, which took forever because I'd just finished charging it to 100%. Ugh. I'm a bit upset because I just KNOW my Animal Crossing village won't recover from going without activity for the duration.
Tomorrow - er, well, technically today, I'm trying to persuade my folks to take the family up to go looking at the leaves on the parkway. There's a gem show in Spruce Pine, and I'm doing my damndest to get them to schedule a stop there, even though I have no money to spend. xD I hate not having a job... I've been looking since August and nothing's come of it.
In other news, my birthday's November 15th. I prooOoo0ooOoo0oobably will ask my folks for Hoenn Confirmed, if my 3DS is fixed by then.
My 3DS shorted out yesterday. I booted it up, and the power light started flashing, and there was a loud sound of sizzling wires coming from inside it. It gave me an error message, but even though I held down the power button it wouldn't turn off. I had to let the battery drain, which took forever because I'd just finished charging it to 100%. Ugh. I'm a bit upset because I just KNOW my Animal Crossing village won't recover from going without activity for the duration.
Tomorrow - er, well, technically today, I'm trying to persuade my folks to take the family up to go looking at the leaves on the parkway. There's a gem show in Spruce Pine, and I'm doing my damndest to get them to schedule a stop there, even though I have no money to spend. xD I hate not having a job... I've been looking since August and nothing's come of it.
In other news, my birthday's November 15th. I prooOoo0ooOoo0oobably will ask my folks for Hoenn Confirmed, if my 3DS is fixed by then.
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Posted 11 years agoI was chatting with a couple of friends (you'd probably recognize but shall remain nameless), and the conversation went from one asking what the fuck okra was to scuppernongs and muscadines, to the Lost Colony and a magic FWOOMPy grapevine, to the joys of being the designated Breeder for a new colony, to Rykela the hydra, who has a ditzy head, a slutty head, and a Tsundere head.
I very much enjoy having furry friends, yes :>
I very much enjoy having furry friends, yes :>
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Posted 11 years agoI was chatting with my dad a few weeks back - he's been all over the world, and I was badgering him to tell me stories because I hate how I don't know anything about his life before he met my mom. Well, for whatever reason, he told me about how he was stationed with the Marines in Hong Kong, and how to fly out there he caught a plane out of Alaska that just happened to be the first flight across after KAL 007 was shot down by the Russians. I said everyone must've been terrified, but he told me it was real lighthearted, cause everyone figured the Russians wouldn't be stupid enough to down two planes in two days, or else it was on purpose and then everyone would be dead anyway in a nuclear fire. Regardless, he said that the plane ran out of free booze before the halfway point...
I remember thinking that day how I couldn't imagine that sort of thing happening today... and now I hear news of a Malaysian jet out of Amsterdam getting shot down over the Ukraine by those paid Russian militants. 298 aboard, no survivors... and militants are boasting about causing the sixth-deadliest plane crash ever on social media.
There's no fucking justice in this world.
I remember thinking that day how I couldn't imagine that sort of thing happening today... and now I hear news of a Malaysian jet out of Amsterdam getting shot down over the Ukraine by those paid Russian militants. 298 aboard, no survivors... and militants are boasting about causing the sixth-deadliest plane crash ever on social media.
There's no fucking justice in this world.
Bldhlbleh
Posted 11 years agoIT IS ONE IN THE MORNING
I HAVE INSOMNIA
THERE IS A "GO TO GALLERY" BUTTON ON SUBMISSION PAGES NAO
It's as if Apple took eight years to add the sleep mode button to their IPhones. kek
http://rctgo.com/downloads/view/11430
http://rctgo.com/downloads/view/11366
http://rctgo.com/downloads/view/11432
I HAVE INSOMNIA
THERE IS A "GO TO GALLERY" BUTTON ON SUBMISSION PAGES NAO
It's as if Apple took eight years to add the sleep mode button to their IPhones. kek
http://rctgo.com/downloads/view/11430
http://rctgo.com/downloads/view/11366
http://rctgo.com/downloads/view/11432
Quick leave
Posted 11 years agoMy little sister stumbled in some hole in her friend's yard and broke her wrist. Like, to where the bone is poking underneath the skin.
I might be at the hospital for a bit...
I might be at the hospital for a bit...
Two requests!!!
Posted 11 years agoI want to get a badge for Megaplex at the end of the month but I have no idea who could do it. ;_;
Like, a double-sided thing that on one side is a pic of Rykela and the other side is a Rykela-colored can of GRO soda xD
Also, like, TF2 players, for some reason I'm having absolutely no luck with trading servers so does anyone happen to have a clean Chargin' Targe they'd trade me? xD yay
Like, a double-sided thing that on one side is a pic of Rykela and the other side is a Rykela-colored can of GRO soda xD
More goddamned bad news
Posted 11 years agoIt's almost like I'm not allowed to have a good life sometimes...
I only just now realized that I left my entire goddamned sketchbook at Holden Beach. It had over seven months of my most recent work in it, and without it I literally have to start over a half-dozen images from scratch; even worse, it's the only sketchbook I've been using all that time, so I have no idea how to get back to drawing without it. I had a bunch of poses and faces in it I wanted to use, and my sketches for several commissions, so that's all fucked to hell too.
I'm so upset and angry that I'm physically sick, and I'm probably backsliding right into another depression at the worst possible time right when I'm trying to find a summer job. I'm such a fucking useless piece of shit, that thing was the most important item I'd packed besides my wallet and phone and I can't even fucking remember to put it in my bag when I'm done with it. That house was a fucking sauna with no internet and doodling was just about the only thing that made me smile there; I was fucking wiping sweat from my brow as I drew. I hate myself so, so much, I'm so angry I've just about come full circle and lost the ability to feel anything besides exhaustion. What the fuck did I do to piss off God, huh?
I only just now realized that I left my entire goddamned sketchbook at Holden Beach. It had over seven months of my most recent work in it, and without it I literally have to start over a half-dozen images from scratch; even worse, it's the only sketchbook I've been using all that time, so I have no idea how to get back to drawing without it. I had a bunch of poses and faces in it I wanted to use, and my sketches for several commissions, so that's all fucked to hell too.
I'm so upset and angry that I'm physically sick, and I'm probably backsliding right into another depression at the worst possible time right when I'm trying to find a summer job. I'm such a fucking useless piece of shit, that thing was the most important item I'd packed besides my wallet and phone and I can't even fucking remember to put it in my bag when I'm done with it. That house was a fucking sauna with no internet and doodling was just about the only thing that made me smile there; I was fucking wiping sweat from my brow as I drew. I hate myself so, so much, I'm so angry I've just about come full circle and lost the ability to feel anything besides exhaustion. What the fuck did I do to piss off God, huh?
