Check out these and these.


Oh... And these too I guess.

I'm feeling considerably better now that I'm on antibiotics. My throat pains are 95, 96 percent gone, and although my nose and throat were clogged with mucus for the past day or two it's cleared up this morning. I did have a few bad nosebleeds but that was because I was blowing my nose so much I guess; not a problem now that my nasal passages have cleared. X3

In other news on Monday I officially started working in the deli at my local grocery store. The work's not bad, it's mostly customer interaction - the only possibly disappointing thing is that they've got a few too many folks assigned back there at any given moment, and so it kind of occasionally gives me little to do. I suppose it's because they're simply readying for the holiday rush.

Regardless, I'm earning money now! And I've re-opened my bank account.

Also, on Sunday a minor thunderstorm blew through. Not at all bad compared to what we usually get but one well-placed lightning strike has blown out cable and internet for the whole neighborhood. I can still access using my iPhone 3G (thank god I got this thing recently), but I'm a little limited on my activities until we get it fixed. I wanted to cut back on my net usage anyhow, and freaking Charter has yet to send a guy. So much for customer service. XP



So yeah. Hope y'all are doing okay!

So it's official, the doctor says I have strep throat.
I also had a complete nervous breakdown, with panic attacks and everything.


=_=

I can't do this anymore.

I have literally worked until I have gotten physically and mentally sick now, and nobody appreciates it. I feel so miserable and ill that I can't even cry or scream. My throat feels like it's been lined with shards of glass, I'm nauseated, my head is spinning, I'm exhausted, and my head is spinning. I can't even manage to work up any tears or the energy to scream.



At this point, I can either choose to RP, I can choose to work on my art, or I can choose my job, my schoolwork, and the rest of my life. I can't do more than one at a time, because when people online bother me to role play, I don't have any time to draw or to relax. And because of my piece-of-shit parents, I can't work on my art out in the open, so I only have a few hours each day when I can actually get anything done. If I so much as sleep in, the whole day's fucking blown. If I try to stay up late at night to draw in secret, I'm so exhausted I sleep far too late the next day and fucking waste it. If I want to RP, I'm so inundated with people who want to play that I can't simply log out without hurting someone's feelings, and I end up spending eight or nine hours just placating them instead of enjoying myself like I originally wanted. Why the hell should I bother logging onto YIM or Skype anymore if that's the case?

Yet if I don't constantly produce anything new, nobody will even give a second look at my page here. My view counts, comments and faves stagnate, while everyone else's just continues to shoot up and up. And when I do post, I'm deluged by requests for free art. And when I try to take some time for myself, and not work on someone's request or respond to their IM online, they act like I'm ignoring them out of meanness or intentional neglect.



People who commission popufurs and stuff get three times as many views, watches and comments as I do no matter what. Why should I even bother drawing when nobody cares? Nobody ever draws the things I want to see anyway, and I can't possibly draw it all myself. I try my best, but it's not enough, and it sure as hell doesn't bring in any new watchers or comments.


I don't see why I should even bother. I want to give up on FA. I want to leave the fandom. I can't take the stress.

I can't even look at things that I should be enjoying, like 's newest comic, without being overcome by jealousy and anger. Who is that commissioner, that he has the money for something like that? What has he done to deserve it? He'll get as many views and faves with that nine page sequence as the entirety of my gallery combined. Fuck him.





So yes, I'm going to be a selfish asshole from now on. Fuck your needs. I will draw what I want to draw. No more requests. I will RP when I want to RP, with who I want to RP. If you so much as say hello without being invited I will fucking block your ass and never speak to you again. If I want to RP I will come to you, and if I "poof" without saying goodbye it's because I've enjoyed myself, had my fill, and now it's time to get on with my day.









So thanks for making my life a living hell, FA. FUCK YOU, AND HAVE A NICE DAY.

Fuck you, Masashi Kishimoto.

Fuck your manga.

Fuck your terrible writing skills.

Fuck your stupid, moronic fans.

Fuck your plot twists that you pull straight out of your ass.



I am done with Naruto. No more. I quit reading it. I have no interest in seeing where it goes from this point on if it's going to be this fucking stupid. You couldn't think of a more logical person to secretly be the villain?

Fuck you, fuck your family, fuck every single person who has anything to do with making your manga.

You are worse than M. Night Shamalayn.

I woke up this morning with a really sore throat. I better not be getting sick, dammit. >_<



Anyways... I was fiddling with my iPhone when it hit me.

Why doesn't someone specifically make commissions that are meant to be iPhone or Android wallpapers? @_@

Because Rykela is hopelessly out of the loop when it comes to video gaming.



Anyway, I hear this Guild Wars 2 thing is kind of a big deal, hmmmmmh? >8I

I'm kind of interested in trying it out especially since from what I'm hearing there are parts of it that are free. But when I go to Metacritic to see what people are saying about it, it's basically useless. No reviews by actual magazines or blogs dedicated to this sort of thing, and of the 100 or so reviews submitted by the general public, 75% are giving it 9's and 10's without really saying much about the content, and the rest are giving it 0's based on (from what I can tell) butthurt over getting banned for foul language or butthurt due to issues that tend to happen with new MMORPGs like laggy and overflowing servers. They also say the game is overhyped and accuse everyone who doesn't give it a low score of being a moronic fanboy.


So like I said, Metacritic is fucking useless. Is this game really that goddamned polarizing?




AT ANY RATE, do any of you guys play it? Is it complicated? How fun is it? And how difficult is it to get started in? Like, how hard is it to learn the game mechanics and such...

Also I hear there are furries. 8U

http://www.cnn.com/2012/08/25/us/ne.....html?hpt=hp_t1

The world lost another hero today.

*sigh*

Doc Watson, Ernest Borginine, Phylis Diller, Andy Griffith, and now this. It's a shame...

Okay, guys, this one's a bit complex.  GreywolfBlacksock is about to hit her 100K kiriban, and is holding a massive contest to celebrate! Not only is there the whole kiriban snapshot but there's a raffle too, for art and as runner-up prizes, Steam games!!!

:3




http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3781515/ <-- Enter Nao!

Holy cow! I didn't realize the dimensions had been reduced so much.

:c

I'll go back and fix them in a few days. Until then, fave away, I'm not going to delete them...

So, unfortunately, I kind of got interrupted in the middle of scanning a dozen or so pics in.

I wasn't able to scan everything in, nor was I able to upload anything.

For the most part y'all are going to have to wait a few more days for all my new stuff. And I was so proud of it too!




I'm sorry everyone

Yay! I'm gonna have so much to upload this evening! <3

I already have two of them right now, so take a look ^ω^

Oh, and also, unfortunately although was able to scan some of my pictures in the scans aren't really of great quality, so I need someone to ink about six or seven pictures. Since he is unable to do it, would anyone be willing to? Please?

*Bambi eyes*

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3772179/

Once again, I curse my iPhone's inability to run livestream. Those fuckers want me to get a Failbook account just to participate?

Fuck you, and fuck your social network! XD

I'm over at the college anyways working out my financial aid.


But for anyone who's interested, check him out! He does neat stuff...

and it's free...!!!

I'm still quite sick. It's not as bad as yesterday, but it's still keeping me from fully functioning. It's difficult for me to move around too much, but I've got plenty of time to think and fool around online and with art!

I was just speaking with and he mentioned something that gave me a hilarious idea.

Everybody's familiar with the classic cop scenario where someone's holding a bunch of people hostage in a bank with a bomb or something, demanding money for their safe release.

Everybody's also familiar (I think) with the capability of many hypers to flood rooms and more with their spunk.



What if one day a disgruntled hyper took a bunch of hapless furries hostage and demanded money not to drown them in a sea of splooge?

Well, my kidney stone pain has moved into my... Erm, teste, which means that although it's about to be passed the pain is at its worst, and incomprehensibly bad...

In addition I had a terrible sleepless night last night after trying to get to bed, and now I feel tired and crummy and nauseated, like imminent-puking bad.

This sucks! I was all inspired by 's art and Wog's drawing of me to get all this neat stuff done today, but now...

I feel miserable and guilty. Why do I have to be sick now, of all times?!

And a 55-gallon drum of breastmilk from a species of your choice ;3


Would anyone be willing to take a crack at coloring one of these? I'd provide the information on any colors and where.

*puppy dog eyes*

Guilmon Booty

Sea Salt and Cream

Rykela is Pregnant

Pina

AAAAA

https://youtu.be/UfbvpJ1l_KI






http://twitter.com/Rykela0/status/2.....225857/photo/1
http://twitter.com/Rykela0/status/2.....357441/photo/1
http://twitter.com/Rykela0/status/2.....250816/photo/1

I feel really depressed, and I need cheering up. Do y'all think I should post a photo of some of my sketches on my Twitter and then link to them here? If I did, would y'all even look at them?

=(

>_<

While I was laid up in bed from the pain, I was looking on e621.net today, and I realized that I don't enjoy it as much as I used to.

For one thing, ever since they banned the creepy sexting comments, the only other people who feel strongly enough to comment on anything are haters and critics. And boy do the folks at e621 HATE musclefurs and hypers. I have yet to find a piece of work involving one of those themes that's not flooded with insults and exclamations of disgust. It's no fun to browse there, and I decided I'd rather not upload my art after someone called my drawing of Faye "nightmare fuel." I was proud of that drawing, dang it!

The thumbnails on tag pages also tend to fail to completely load most of the time for me. To be specific, maybe the first half will appear, but the rest show up as blank icons of buffering rings, and since there are no tags or titles to gp with the icons, there's no way to tell what the pic is if the icon doesn't load. So I have to refresh the page at least once for all of them to show, and anytime I flip to a new page I have to repeat the process all over again.

*sigh*

I kind of wish someone would make a booru that caters mostly to hyperfurs. Goodness knows, there's more than enough art to fill one!

August 11, 2012

House Budget Committee Chairman Paul Ryan (R-WI) has sadly taken his own very promising political life by agreeing to accept former Massachusetts Governor Mitt Romney’s offer to serve as his Vice Presidential running mate in the November general election.

Ryan, who first recklessly jeopardized his career in 2010 by proposing a budget that would, among other things, turn Medicare into a voucher program as well as cut discretionary domestic spending by 20% without specifying from where any of the cuts would come, was the favorite of many in his party to not only have run for President in this election — but when it became apparent that every serious Republican candidate chose to concede the election to incumbent Barack Obama by leaving the field of prospective candidates open enough for a lightweight like Gov. Romney to secure the nomination — was expected to be one of the GOP front runners for President had he chosen to run in the 2016 election — in spite of his tender age.

Congressman Ryan was eulogized on both sides of the aisle as a shining star who burned brightly, but for far too short a time.

“As low as I’ve ever felt, and as low as I’ve ever been accused of being, I’ve never felt lower than I feel today,” lamented House Speaker and Tan Man John Boehner, “His budget had obviously been a cry for help — and we all missed it. As leader, I must accept responsibility for the tragic loss of such a promising young man, and someone who may very well, had he lived long enough, have carried the mantle in our Party’s crusade to return to the Gilded Age of the late 19th century.”

The Big Orange Crybaby continued, “As Republicans, our concern is not so much with Paul’s family, but rather with the future of the party. The loss of one of the very few credible candidates that we might have been able to put up in 2016 is absolutely devastating, and I for one ask the entire nation to join me in prayer to help preserve our two-party system.”

Many leading Democrats were also effusive in their praise of Rep. Ryan while expressing their mourning of his loss.

“Paul was never afraid to express his views, and unlike others in his party, he made his disdain for the elderly, the poor, and minorities clear in both his policies and in the budget he proposed in his role as chairman of the Budget Committee,” said Rep. Kathy Hochul, who was propelled to victory in her 2011 special election over her Republican opponent by the Ryan budget. “I think I speak for all Democrats when I say that Paul, and what he consistently brought to the table and Congressional deliberations, will be sorely missed, particularly over the next couple of election cycles.”

August 11, 2012: Defying the predictions of every pundit this side of Birther-ville, Mitt Romney announced at a press conference this morning that he was officially giving up on reaching out to middle class American voters by picking Paul Ryan as his VP candidate.

When asked about his reasoning for making such an incredibly stupid decision, Mitt commented, "While sitting in my car elevator last night I had a revelation. GOP voters are so terrified of a black man in the White House that they'd vote for me no matter what I do. And Democrats and Independants with any sense whatsoever have already decided to vote for Obama, 'cause he actually cares what the peasants think. So I resolved to show my donors (by the way, Sheldon, last week's yacht party was off the hizzy!) that my promises to enrich them even further weren't just empty words. And who better to do it with than the author of the 1%er's budget himself? He knows as well as I do that the only way to save our great nation is to give even more tax breaks to billionaires."

After taking a moment to stifle his sniggers, he continued. "When I vowed to abolish taxes that would directly result in an 80 million dollar profit to myself, I meant it. And America, tale note; a vote for Romney and Ryan is a vote against the middle class."

Ryan, who is most well-known for two failed budget proposals that would have gutted Medicare and social programs while offering tax breaks to millionaires and corporations (and tax increases to everyone else), had this to say: "I owe all my success to Charles and David Koch. Those two brave billionaires are willing to spend as much as it takes to own America, and without their selfless selfish acts, no Teabagger in their right mind would even think of gutting the safety nets that make this nation so great and prosperous. Without their guidance, why, I daresay we might already have pulled out of this recession! Let's give them a hand, folks, and remember: THE MONEY'S ALWAYS RIGHT!"

Members of the Obama campaign could not be reached for comment, as they were out partying in the streets.

I'm super depressed right now, mostly because of my stupid fanily. I'm working on the art I promised folks, but I really don't feel much like talking to anyone at the moment.

Sorry, guys.

Well, I've been feeling kind of listless/sad/lonely lately, so I hope seeing y'all's reactions to some gift art I got will cheer me up. I haven't been able to post them up to now because I've had no access to a desktop computer.

*sigh* I don't know whether it's my sister getting to go to Seattle, or that my folks are getting impatient because of financial aid and a loooooong wait to find out about my hours at the new job, or maybe it's that my mom is really upset because she's got a week and a half to move all her stuff into a brand new classroom. Whatever the case, these past few days I've been kind of moody. *wilts* I just wish I had someone I could snuggle and spend time with, and be away from my family by myself. I wish I had RL friends I could count on to snatch me away when I was down. v_v

I'm headed to the courthouse today to tale care of the first step in getting my license back. ^^~

No, I actually don't. But a divisive title will get clicks, no?

Anyway, I saw a coulple journals talking about this this afternoon, so I'll throw my two cents in.

What I hate is what they've become. As an idea, they're lovely! Getting countries to compete as well as cooperate... There's no better ideal, is there?

But nowadays it's all about money and winning. Countries compete to see who will get hosting rights, often winning nothing but a short few months of glory and then a bunch of oversized, nigh-unusable buildings and a MASSIVE debt afterwards. Plus nowadays it's an excuse to further militarize already extremely over-equipped police who learn to view EVERYTHING as the enemy. Like in Anaheim, where folks are getting shot in the back of their head, and a peaceful protest against police brutality ends up facing attack dogs, tear gas, and paramilitary SWAT teams in camoflage and armored humvees.

I digress. What I really and truly despise is how the corporations have the run of it now. NBC has the only airing rights over here in the US, and we all know how that's going. An anti-NBC tweeting reporter was singled out by Twitter employees, who brought it to NBC's attention and then guided them through the process of filing a complaint to get his account removed. Visa, McDonald's, and a host of other companies pay to ensure their products are the only ones available at the games. Get caught using a competitor's product and you're thrown out, no questions asked. And seats that SHOULD go to the public are reserved for sponsors and celebrities (who, as we saw in London recently, don't bother or can't fill them).


(CUE ACTUAL RANT)


Also... in an unrelated note, but what's REALLY bothering me, we don't have a Chick Fil A here in Lenoir (we're THAT goddamned poor) but today I happened to go to Hickory for an orthodontist appointment, blissfully unaware that today was the day that asshole Santorum had called for all of god's chosen children to show everyone just how much bigotry and hatred and hypocrisy can pay off. The line of cars was a fucking HALF MILE LONG. Cars were pulling over on the shoulder and in other parking lots and people were RUNNING ACROSS SIX LANES OF TRAFFIC to get their fucking Jesus Chicken fix.




I don't want to live on this planet anymore.