Well, I didn't meet my personal goals due to burnout but I did at least stick it out longer than I originally thought I would! And honestly, I feel like i did pretty darn good for as disorganized as I was going into it. I didn't really have a big stockpile of ocs on my hitlist so I relied too much on finding new ocs to hit day by day, which burnt me out moreso than if I'd had a stockpile. Next year I'll plan on stockpiling ahead of time.

As for what's next? Not sure just yet. I plan to post some art real soon, because I want to share more stuff of my cuties hehe

Definitely gonna be more active on discord AND telegram as my main 'social' spots, and for the time being, I will not be very active on Bluesky. With all the censorship bullshit going around, I need to avoid places where that stuff is basically on repeat, so for now, Bluesky is on pause for me. I will return to it tho, before too long

Hope to see you all again! I've missed being able to hang out n share stuff


Really excited to resume lore and world building and the like, too.

I wanna give a quick thank you to all of you that commented on my journal and showed you're still seeing me. I don't have the motivation to reply to you all right now, unfortunately.

In other news, I will be out of town starting tomorrow evening, thru Sunday. That doesn't really affect my presence here right now, but a lot of you know me on discord and so this serves as heads-up that you won't see much of me while I'm away.

I'm *really* hoping some time away from home will help me out. I'm starting to go a bit nuts from all the mental crap going on with me x.x


For now tho, that's all I have, stay tuned for further updates

-Floof

Just checkin' to see who all is seeing when I give updates here. I'm not really feeling mentally well currently so maybe seeing others still care here will help

I'm sorry I haven't been myself and I haven't been real 'on the ball' lately

Just tryin' to keep pushin' through at the end of the day

I don't know when I'll resume posting. It hasn't been a priority obviously

I feel like I've let myself slide too far and most everyone's just kinda moved on.


Idk. I'll see y'all around.

Now that the dust has settled around here, I plan to get back in action with posting stuff and I might even start posting my own art n writing stuff again.

I sound like a broken record saying that but I have every intention of making that happen this time around. No more bullshit disappearing for several months


I also have decided, I *will* participate in ArtFight this year. I need to start getting my characters sorted and ready to go, but that's the plan.

However, unlike last year, I don't think I can quite handle doing 1-2 attacks per day. SO, my official goal for 2025 is to do at *least* 1 attack every other day. I'm hoping that if I take the pressure off myself as far as getting an attack uploaded every single day, I can remain productive and get enough done in the long run

I also want to attempt to branch out and try some new species and I really wanna do what I did last year n' experiment with simple artistic ideas. I had the MOST fun developing little simple ideas like that.

That's all I got for now, stay tuned for more to come soon!

Hi everyone!

Firstly, apologies for not keeping you all informed as well as I intended. The past month or so has been majorly chaotic as you'd imagine.

Those of you who have me on discord and/or are in my server there will already know all this.

First and foremost: we pulled it off! We found ourselves a decent apartment and amazingly enough, we managed to pack and move in a week's time!
Granted, half our stuff got put into a storage unit to help speed things up, but still, we got a new place and moved in a week. Took a couple weeks to get wifi but we got that too, so we're set.

Now, as you can imagine, there's still a lot to do. We both work during the week (my schedule is lighter, but still), so we don't have tons of time to focus on unpacking and etc. It's a gradual process and we're expecting it to take probably at least til the end of May.

This brings me into my second point; although I am back online now, and able to hangout and play games and etc etc, I am still MUCH busier than normal, and likely will be at least until June. HOPEFULLY not longer than that, but who knows.

As such, please, please, please be patient and understanding with me if I'm not as communicative as I usually am or try to be. I will be back in full sometime this summer, and I even have plans to get back into drawing again, tho as I've said many times over the past year or so, I wanna do it purely for fun and for my own enjoyment. The dream I had when I first came here of being a big famous commission artist making money, that dream is no more, bit I'm okay with that. It just wasn't for me

I also wanna start writing stories and my universe again, finally. Really wanna get back into that kinda thing a lot more now than I did in the previous place.

And see, that's the interesting thing, and something that makes me feel kinda excited; this move has kiiiinda given me my motivation for creativity back. I wanna draw more, I wanna write more, I wanna game and hangout and maybe have a small YouTube gaming channel. All this stuff I could never find energy or motivation in me to do at the old house, now that I'm in an apartment and it's a much smaller space with less spaces to sit around doing nothing in (plus the couch I used to spend half my free time laying on had to be left behind due to lack of space for it here), I actually really wanna get up and do these things again.

And I think once we get things more straightened out and unpacked, I'm gonna do exactly that. I'm gonna take my life back, make it MINE again, and start doing everything I love to do, again. No more sitting around bored and feeling unmotivated to do anything.

I've also healed from a lot of bad past stuff from last year, finally, and I'm to a point where it really doesn't hurt anymore. I still have the people I really truly care about and so long as I have all of you, I think I'm in good shape. I do wanna make more friends but I'm less concerned about that.


In short, tho, we have moved, are still in the process of getting settled and unpacked, and I'll be back in full sometime in the next couple months. I might post an art piece here n' there to keep things freshened, but otherwise, don't expect TOO much of me until I update further ^^

We are SO back, y'all

And I wanna thank all of you who've stuck with me (even if you don't comment below on this, just know I appreciate ya all the same ^^). I wouldn't be here were it not for my friends, each and every one of you.

See you guys soon

-Floof

Hey everyone, just a formal heads-up to all that I will be almost entirely unavailable online for at least the next couple weeks.

Instead of having a month to move out still like we THOUGHT was the case, turns out we needed to be moved out by TODAY (and that's not a April 1st joke).

Which, as you can imagine, COMPLETELY screws us over. We don't even Have a lease signed and ready to move into Dx

We're gonna make things work somehow, but as you can imagine, things have been thrown into complete chaos and uncertainty

I don't know if I should like ask for help with expenses and all that at this point. I was half tempted to do a gofundme but I'm not sure about it being successful enough to be worth it.

I will keep you all posted as best I can, and I will return in full when we are in a stable spot again.


Thank you all for your support over the years. It really means the world to me.

Please spread the word around for me if you can, I want everyone to be informed and I'm FAR too busy to go dm 500 people x.x

Firstly, wanna wish everyone a belated happy new year! Hard to believe it's now 2025 tbh.

I have a big, all-encompassing journal I'm still drafting up that will address things in more detail but one thing I do wanna point out is that this year is gonna be BUSY for me. I'm in the process of getting a full-time job now and on top of that, we're planning to move in a few months. Expect online activity to be somewhat lessened as a result

That said, I have optimism for the future, and a few plans for what I'd like to do.

First, expect more posting on here, going forward! I'd love to get back into sharing stuff with others on here.

Mainly, I'm gonna get back into my lore-writing and world-building endeavors, try to flesh out some stuff finally. Been wanting to for YEARS now lol

Creativity-wise, I'm still gonna draw here n' there, but my focus is shifting over to story writing , and that'll be my main focus for the foreseeable future, until I build my art abilities up more. Thanks to A/I garbage, a lot of my passion and ambition for doing art has died off, and although I'm not gonna let it stop me from doing stuff altogether, I don't think I'm going to pursue it nearly as hard as I used to want to. I'll touch more on that in the big journal when the time comes.

On the bright side in all of this, thankfully, I'm finally starting to feel okay again and I'm ready to come back out of my shell, but I also think I'm probably going to cut back on some of the places I frequent, for my own sake. I fear no one, really, but this year has helped me realize how bad social media has been affecting me and I need to pump the brakes and quit trying to expand so much.
As of now I still plan to be active on here, on discord, and on Bluesky (I'd say Twitter but I'm only on there for the artists I follow there). All other sites will be for lurking purposes, mainly.
Additionally, fa will be the only spot I'll post any of my fetish are, vore or otherwise, with the exception of in my lil' discord server or in trusted spaces on discord. I just don't really feel comfortable broadcasting my fetish side EVERYWHERE at this time.

I have a LOT more to say but I'll keep it brief with this for now. Stay tuned for a full journal on this in the next few days, hopefully

Wow, man, I am speechless rn.

I knew he was having health issues but dang, didn't expect him to pass away so suddenly.

It's honestly fair to say that without him, I wouldn't be part of the community. FurAffinity is and always has been my 'home base'

RIP Dragoneer. Thank you for giving me and so many others a place to call our own

ArtFight has kept me pretty busy but now that it's winding down I have some GREAT news!

I am *officially* making my return to being an active member of the community once again!

I'm casting off all the haters and focusing on my friends and those I *want* to be around. No more tryin' to be something I'm not.

I'm also aiming to get more immersed in the vore scene again, cuz GOD how I've missed being a part of the vore world xD


I do have a few things to make note of:

- I plan on being MOST active on Discord and Telegram, and FA is pretty much still my 'home' of operations

-Twitter and all other sites i am on will MOSTLY be used for following artists and people I like or might wanna befriend.

-I have a discord server I am in the process of renovating a bit, it will be reopened to the public hopefully by the end of August
-I had plans to make a new server focused around a specific interest of mine, but said server is canceled at this time. May revive the idea in the future

Now as for my art and content;

-My discord, once revamped, will become my main content hub at least for now. I have no plans on uploading my content to 15 different sites at this time, since my art is purely for hobby and enjoyment right now.
-I WILL post my content here on FA as well, I'm thinkin'.

-I do have a little tidying up to do here, some old junk to get rid of, the like, but for the most part this account is fine for my needs. I will resume posting art of my characters and etc this coming month

-I do plan on working on personal lore/worldbuilding/ocs a lot more going forward, too. Hope to find a good balance with it

-at this time my YouTube plans are on indefinite hold, along with my plans to become a streamer. Just too much on my plate to dedicate time to those areas.

-I would LOVE to get more into gaming with friends and *possibly* doing streams/YouTube content based off that, but again, we'll see.


I think this just about covers it tho, so stay tuned! I'm so happy to be back in the game!

Gonna give it a go, anyhow! Not yet sure how much I'ma wind up doing but ye

https://artfight.net/~CalloftheRaptor

Welp, now I'm 27! XD

Kinda crazy to think I'm almost 30 lol

Don't really have any big plans today, just gotta go to work as usual but I'm honestly fine with that.

This weekend we're gonna celebrate my birthday alongside that of my brother and mother as we all share birthdays within two weeks of each other xD (my father does too, but my parents are split so it'll be my mom's side of the family we celebrate with mostly)

One of my dear friends has opened commissions for the first time ever and I'd like to spread the word on it!

He's still learning and building up skills but he has the talent in him, I can sense it (plus he's done dozens of oc refs for himself and others , which you can find in his gallery)

If you're interested, check him out!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10876678

Part 1: Status report

Finally, after ~6 months or so, I am coming back to reality at large, I feel like.

Yesterday was the day I finally stopped being so afraid of being seen as I am and instead have become more determined to continue to be the authentic, *real* me!

Now, I will probably keep the accounts I have the way they are, as I'm already invested and it just makes sense for my sake of organizing and etc.

But, going forward, I will be 100% the real deal, no hiding or faking who I am anymore.
I also have made significant cutbacks related to my activity on Twitter and although I am not discontinuing being there, it's going to be much less of a focus for me.

I am *almost* fully done organizing my ocs and their art, I just have to finish some final detail work and then I'll be all set to start shifting to creativity once again, which I'm super excited for.

Irl stuff continues and actually has been going decently. We did decide to postpone moving so I'm no longer in a big "gotta look through our stuff and whittle it down!" Mentality, although I still plan to continue with that in *some* capacity as it's engaging and somewhat fun for me.

We also have started getting back into gardening again and i am actually SUPER excited about it. We stopped trying to garden probably around like 2011-2012 once things got too busy for us to keep it up, but this spring, on a whim, we decided to pick it back up again and we have things underway. I might share things related to that in the future, we'll see. All I know is, last Saturday was the first time in forever I've *really* felt accomplished and HAPPY with myself, cuz we got soooo much done with the prep work and all that.

Part 2: Looking ahead

Firstly, I have some healing and self-repairing to do thanks to trauma and drama over the past 6 months. It's been really hard and I'm sorry to anyone who has seen any of it or has seen how I've been. Really not a happy time for me, but now that I'm focusing back on being myself again, maybe I can get over it all.

At the moment, I'm not *real* sure what the future is gonna hold. I plan to finish organizing and then I'm gonna get my characters on ArtFight reorganized and add in a few, then I'm gonna come over here n' tidy up, junk some stuff I don't wanna keep on here anymore, then from there, we'll see, I suppose. I do have a few main ideas tho:

-Discord, Telegram and FA are my primary 'hangout' spots, with Twitter being secondary. Toyhouse is basically my archive and all other accounts are most likely gonna be for lurking

-I have plans to revamp my discord server and get it up n' going again, and to create a second, all-new server that I am pretty excited about. Details soon on that

- I do plan to get back into art, sfw-only though (this does include vore and other non-lewd fetishes, tho, and I'm willing to do SOME nsfw themes, subject to my discretion.

-I also intend to return to doing writing and stories, both sfw and nsfw. We'll see.

-I've mostly decided against becoming a content streamer, at least not like a 'serious' one. I'd really like to someday but I don't think I can devote time to it rn. Same for YouTube content, I might experiment as just a hobby but we'll see.

What I Need from you all

The last part of this for now, what I am needing from all of you.

As you all have seen, I've been goin' through hell, to put it lightly. Spent a lot of time kinda hiding myself away n' dealing with a lot of negative experiences. I'm happy to be feeling better but I need a favor from you guys.

I need your help in building myself back up, putting myself and my ocs and life back on the radar again. I've been out of this for so long that I just get bogged down when I try to go and decide who to talk to or who I might wanna rp with, or what servers to hang out in.
I am trying my best to get back into the swing of things myself but it is *really* hard.

Some of the things that would help to have help with;

-finding new servers and spaces to hangout in (this is a big one cuz I keep trying to go to servers I'm in but I can never make up my mind, or the places I'm in are quiet whenever I'm around, or etc, which I know I can't control and it doesn't upset me *that* much, but still)

-chatting/meeting new friends (another big one for me, it's really hard for me to approach people at times because I don't have much to say or share with them. It would be a huge help having people come to ME sometimes, too)

-rp/etc opportunities (lately one of my biggest frustrations has been that I've gotten NOTHING done with a number of my rp partners.

The basic gist here is, I know *i* need to put effort in towards these things, and I do try hard to do so. The problem is I just keep bogging down and if I had you guys helping me, it'd be a HUGE weight off my shoulders, and maybe I could get back in the swing of things from there.

I just hate feeling like I'm stuck being the one who has to reach out to everyone, y'know?

Anyhow, Hopefully some of you can help with that. I would appreciate it


That should just about do it for now, so stay tuned for more coming soon!
I don't have any real timeline for when things are gonna happen and so on, I'm kinda just taking it piece by piece. I *will* have everything done by July tho, as I need to in order to partake in ArtFight this year.

For now tho, talk to you all again soon!

As the title says, I am FINALLY, after 4 years, FINALLY almost completely organized and ready to focus on creativity and the like!

I just have to finish naming the rest of my ocs on toyhouse, Upload all my ark ocs (which will go really quick cuz they're already all named), and then sort them all into their respective folders on there (which is also super easy cuz there's a mass-manager system on there)

Overall I *should* very well be done with all of this by the end of the month if i push myself to focus on it and get it done XD we'll see

Can't believe i'm finally almost completely organized

Figured I'd just let you all know that I have made TREMENDOUS progress in my organizing of all my characters and their art, and my aim is to start focusing mostly on lore and worldbuilding for my ocs and their stories, probably around late May or early June.

There has also been a change in our plans irl and as of now we have postponed moving ro a new house until sometime next year. It just isn't gonna happen this year.

Stay tuned, guys, I'll definitely have more to share soon!

I had a bit of an epiphany yesterday and I think this is something that would seriously help me out.

The basic gist of it is, I will be implementing a new system for how I balance out irl life and stuff I have going on, with my online life and wanting to hang out n' socialize n such.

What it all boils down to is; I will start alternating my focus on a week-by-week basis.

This coming week, for example, I will focus mainly on irl stuff, I'm thinking. I haven't 'fully' decided just yet

The week after this week (the week of the 29th), I will focus more on online stuff, hanging out n' organizing and etc.

The week after that I'll focus on irl stuff again, and so on and so on.

Basically each week alternates my focus and allows for more of a balance with what I want to do and what I need to do and so on.

This of course is just a overall model for how things will work. I will still be active as much as possible regardless of what focus a given week has, but obviously you can expect me to be a little less active in weeks where I'm focusing more on irl.

I'm still working out the kinks so to speak, but I do feel this system will help me balance my life and help me feel less like I'm neglecting any one aspect of life and what I have going on.

I'm honestly quite excited for this, can't wait to put it into action soon!

Stay tuned, I am back in action, big-time!

Just a real quick update for those I haven't told yet , my mental health is on the rebound and I am feeling great now!

Gonna be taking things a bit slow at first just to be safe but ye, I'm feelin' soooo much better ^v^

One of the worst things about being depressed AND autistic.

There's no way to slow down. Sure, you can take time away like anyone else would and should if they're feeling overwhelmed or depressed.

But the rest of the world just keeps right on going as normal.

Art gets posted. People chat n' share n' get ideas together all around you.

Life goes on.

And often, the things that go on while you're away serve only to make it feel worse and worse that you're not out there with them.

Missing.

You miss all of it because you just can't keep up, you can't handle being active AND trying to wrestle your sanity from the clutches of the dark clouds trying to take over.

You tell yourself that's okay, that you don't HAVE to be there for every little thing that happens, just as you don't have to when you're feeling fine and happy.

No effect.

But it doesn't seem to make things feel any less hard.

And you find yourself longing.

Longing to be able to be with others.

Longing to feel stable again, Longing for happiness.

Longing.

Wishing you could just take a breather without feeling like you'll miss something you love.

Wishing you could return without having 5 trillion notifications to catch up with.

Wishing you could just pause the world for 5 minutes just until you can regain your composure.

Tired.

Tired of feeling this need to keep going.

Once you're in it, once you're in it for the long-haul.

Quitting isn't simple when you have so much you'll leave behind.

Soldiering on.

All you can do is just keep going.

You turn to your own personal projects and plans, to try and at least focus on something enjoyable.

But even then, no matter what, you know once that's all said and done, you still have all the friends and acquaintances to return to and catch up on.

And thus the cycle will repeat itself.

Having friends is amazing and I'm sure we'd all prefer having friends to not having friends.

But it becomes tiring trying to keep up when you're dealing with stuff.

Moreso when most friends aren't always around to check on you.

Still you keep going on.

Hoping maybe the next day will be your big break.

Hoping.

Hopeful.


(I'm fine just venting)

My mental health has really taken a beating this week and quite frankly idk what to do at this point.

I don't even *really* know what's causing it. Things as a whole are going well, I'm getting TONS of stuff done on my projects and organizing myself and I'm honestly in much better shape on that front than I think I've ever been.

I'm not *really* feeling overwhelmed by my online life/having too many friends to keep up with/etc. I've done a lot of work to find a balance point for myself where I feel comfy and i feel like I can handle everything reasonably well.

I think if I had to guess, it's all the irl stuff and confronting the big changes in my life and so on, that's causing it.

Weekdays are basically completely wasted days because I'm basically busy from 10am to 6 pm every single day unless I'm off work or have a short shift. Combine that with other irl obligations and frankly, I just don't have time to be around really at all during the week. It really wears me down and it's been driving me nuts here lately.

I'm to the point where I'm having to consider ditching a lot of online spaces and friends I really don't WANT to have to leave, simply because I just do NOT have time anymore. I can't even bring myself to dm some of the people I really wanna chat with cuz it's been a while, for fear that I'll get busy again and then we won't chat again for a month or more. I really HATE being that kind of friend n' I wanna be able to hang out with more of my friends but I just simply don't have time.

I don't honestly know what I'm gonna do at this point. I'm not really overwhelming myself and I don't feel like I have too many friends and communities to handle. I just feel like I don't have time for anything or anyone anymore.

And it really makes me sad.


All I can do is keep pushin' forward tho, I guess.

Kinda just jotting this down while it's on my mind but I've had a good idea for the future of my account on here and my future as a whole

As of now, I am shifting gears and going back to doing art and writing PURELY as a hobby, probably permanently. I keep waffling back and forth on it but I've started to realize, especially here lately, that I just plain don't really *want* to pursue it as anything more than a hobby. It just causes too much stress, and I have too much else going on as it is.
I would still be open to doing trades and the like, but on a limited basis, dependent on my available free time and so on.

I'm also walking back my possible plans to become a streamer/game content creator. While I still wouldn't say no to the idea entirely, at this time it's not feasible and I'd be much happier just hanging out and/or partaking in the fun with other streamers, rather than trying to add my own unique 'brand' of content to the mix.

I'm considering scrapping my YouTube plans too, although I do still like the idea of doing SOME stuff on there, so I'm leaving that open

Basically in short; I'm scrapping much of my plans for content creation and I'm going to focus on those things as a hobby only. It's just more comfy that way.

As for the future of my account and so on; I still will be active on here and elsewhere. I still wanna share stuff I get and stuff I work on. However I am going to be making a change here too.

Mainly, I'm going to focus more on what *I* want to show off, and less on sharing every little thing I have. There's some stuff I personally would rather *not* show off for all to see.
Sometime soon I'm gonna go thru and clear out some stuff I don't wanna have public anymore, which isn't much, but still. Going forward, I'll post stuff now and then as I feel like it

I also have plans to take down a lot of my original posts of some of my ocs, and I wanna repost them as I work on actually fleshing them out and making them into unique ocs. I unfortunately used to post ocs with no real info or story given on them, and I wanna redo them. This will be a very gradual thing but you get the idea


I think this pretty much covers it for now, tho, so I'll leave it at that.

As always, stay tuned ^^ I'll hopefully have more to show soon

Hey guys, kinda just a random thought for a journal that I had lol.

I get a lot of teasing and commeting from some of my friends about how I have so many ocs and how I have MORE than enough and so on, and while I'm totally fine with that and it doesn't bug me THAT much, I kinda wanna explain exactly WHY I collect so many.

So for starters, for those who don't know, I currently have a massive collection of hundress and hundreds of adopted characters and adopted designs that will potentially become characters. I don't want to give an exact figure but you get the idea.

I've pretty much been collecting since I joined the community for real back in 2019. Back then, I actually blew a LOT of money adopting ocs and art and going kinda nuts with it. That's ESSENTIALLY how I got so many, as it was easy and affordable back then. It gradually did taper off of course, and following some irl events, I stopped buying them so crazily.

That said, even today I'm still adopting ocs now and then, money permitting. I don't buy tons of them anymore, mostly it's one here and there, that kind of thing.

But WHY is that? Surely I have more than enough already, right?

Well, yeah, I technically do. But I do have reasons why I continue buying.

1. I struggle with depression, and in recent months, it's gone waaaaay downhill for me, overall. It's been hard to find things to bring myself back up, but one thing that always works is going and adopting a new oc. There's just something so fun and wholesome about bringing a new dino into my collection and it always picks me up.

2. For those that don't know, I am a big-time loner irl. I currently have next to no one besides family that I do anything with irl. I did meet up with a friend from online recently who turned out to be somewhat local, and that's honestly the first time I've ever really done that with anyone besides my now-ex-gf. Anyhow, point Is, I'm a loner, I have no irl friends really, and I have a lot of social anxiety and am really socially stunted, so yeah, it's hard to make new friends. So I basically turn to my ocs and collecting them around myself, to help fill in for that. I don't treat my ocs like they're fake friends or anything like that, but there's something about collecting them that makes me feel less alone.

3. Much of the time, my ocs provide comfort and happiness to me. I can look through my folders and see all the dinos and such that I own, and I can feel proud and happy to have them all. I also often daydream when I listen to music, and a lot of the time my ocs wind up being in those daydreams, and it really makes me feel happy.

4. I do have a lot of ideas and plans for them. I'm still trying to get myself organized and to get things all buttoned up but I'm currently planning on making things into some kind of dino sanctuary, maybe, or something similar. I haven't had a ton of time to really stop and think about my ocs and the plan for them but I'd really like to have them all under one 'roof' if that makes sense. (Now of course, my ocs exist in a friends' universe too, but I have my own ideas too).

In short, I don't buy them JUST to buy them. I buy them because they're therapy for me, and because I have big plans and ambitions for all my ocs. I want to use em all eventually in SOME way, even if it's just a small part in a story or something like that, just something to be able to say I used them in.


Anyhow, I hope this helps give some context to my hoard, if you will. Hopefully you'll see more from me about my ocs and such, soon, but we'll see

Hey guys, I know I haven't been SUPER active on here so far this year, unfortunately my depression has been kicking my tail and on top of that, irl matters have come into focus that have kinda changed the trajectory of my life.

So I figured I'd make a little journal to touch on that and what you can expect out of me. There are some changes that are gonna be happening.

First, the BIGGEST update; we're going to be moving this fall. It's been well over a decade that we've lived in the house we're currently in, and it's finally time we move into somewhere new and potentially smaller. With this comes the reality that we have to execute a MAJOR downsizing of all our belongings and etc. I've started the process of this with cleaning up our basement which is mostly storage and the like, as well as downsizing my own collection of stuff and deciding what can go. Right now, this is kinda top priority since we have a LOT to sort through.

I'll keep you all posted as this progresses.

Since this has become sorta the top priority in my life right now outside of work, you may be wondering what my plans are for online and art and etc. I'll touch on that next.

1. Firstly, my organizing and working on ocs and the like. This is something I still very much would like to work on and get done with, and as of right now I do plan on continuing to do so. However, posts of my art and the like MIGHT be sporadic depending on what kinda time I have to focus on posting stuff up and working on characters. Ideally I would love to have everything sorted and setup by the end of the year, so we shall see.

2. Art: for the most part, all art and writing activities will be on hold until probably next year. I may play around with a drawing here or there just to keep in the habit, and I hope to do art fight this year if I have the time, but for now, most of this kind of stuff is gonna be put on hold so that I can focus on more important matters. I also wanna build my skills up before I decide whether to build a new name and 'brand' for it (though not commercially, but still). For now tho, expect some occasional stuff, but nothing big.

3. Writing: similar to art, this will mostly be on hold, but I have plans to get back into writing stories and doing worldbuilding stuff and the like. This will probably just stay a hobby though, instead of something I focus heavily on for sharing with others.

3. Photography: most of you wouldn't know this but I dabble in a little bit of photography now and then, mostly automotive-related more than scenery and such, but still. My current plan is to dust off my old and largely-unused DeviantArt account and use it to share that sort of content now and then. I'm not comfy posting art there cuz reasons, but I don't see an issue with posting my photos there. This prooooobably won't happen til next year, but we'll see.

4. gaming/streaming: I have had big plans to start doing gaming/streaming stuff in the future, and I honestly am pretty interested in this. I don't think I'll get this started up this year, but definitely next year I'd love to give it a go. Stay tuned on this

5. YouTube content: this is perhaps the biggest thing for me right now, in terms of things I want to do. Currently I have plans to do gaming content and videos on one of my two channels, and other unique content on my other (things like documenting the process of cleaning and downsizing, looking through old brochures and for sale ads that I have and need to throw out afterwards, looking through photos from my collection, and other interesting things). I'm still figuring this out and I don't know that I'll have the time or focus to work on much besides documenting the cleanup and going through old stuff I'm tossing out, but stay tuned on this too.

6. hanging out/rp/friends: this will probably be what I shift my focus to most as I work to organize and clean up and etc. I don't wanna spend a ton of time on all the creative stuff because it just creates more to keep track of. We'll see.


That should pretty much cover it for now, stay tuned for updates as things progress, tho! I'll be sure to provide links to my YouTube channel if anyone wants to follow me there since I'll be posting content soon probably.

Of all times, it comes to me at midnight while I'm sitting on my couch relaxing n' listening to music, but I've found some clarity.

To start with, I think part of my struggle has been the fact that things have changed a lot since I started being active. I keep getting nostalgia for the early days of my online life, back when it was more about finding my own enjoyment and meeting people and etc. I miss that. Like, it really got me through a LOT of rough times.

And it hit me; that's my problem all along. Instead of sticking with that and focusing on it, I've gone the route of wanting to be so many different things and trying to be a big creator and someone that everybody knows, when the reality is, I'm waaaay happier as I already am. I can be a creator and NOT have to be 500 different things or push out weekly content or etc.

Yes, I want to create. Yes, I do want to share and spread my ideas and creativity and all of that. But, I want to do what *i* want first and foremost. I don't want to go and make a big name as an artist then have to keep that up for a decade or more (and note, I'm not tryna hate on anyone or make others sound bad if THEY do that, I'm just giving my own pov on myself and how that's not what *i* truly want for me).

At the end of the day I want to JUST be *ME*, own myself, own my life and my ocs and bring people along for MY creative journey.

This whole past year I've struggled because what I kept telling myself I wanted wasn't actually what *i* wanted, it was what I thought I *should* do in order to build myself up and etc. Time to put an end to that delusion.

So basically, going forward, I will still be active. You'll see me around in various places, just as you have before. I might post less stuff here simply because I don't feel like I HAVE to share *every* last thing I have, but stuff I'm proud to have or happy with, you'll definitely see

But I am going to focus more on what *I* want to show the world and what *i* feel good creating and sharing. I still plan on doing art again and potentially starting a new account for that if I see fit to, for a fresh start. At least as far as content and sharing stuff goes.

I will still obviously care deeply for my friends and making new friends and so on will be a BIG part of my life going forward.

I feel like I keep saying this but this time it's set in stone. I have found my TRUE path forward, finally. And I am not letting anything get me down.


Stay tuned, I'll have more to share soon, hopefully. But, I'm gonna take my time and enjoy myself along the way. I love this community. Even for all the bad stuff and the haters and etc. You all mean the world to me, and I finally feel happy to be in the community again

Hey all, just wanted to make a quickie journal.

I'm currently tweaking my fa profile btw so pardon the dust lmao

But anyhow, as the title says. I have cleaned up my server list a bit and made some space for some new servers.

Anybody have any good server recommendations? I'm especially interested in dinosaur-related, chill hangout spaces and rp communities. Lemme know what's out there, I wanna hang with y'all ^^

More to come from me soon, I'm going to be focusing more on worldbuilding and character development for my ocs in the near future ^^

All reorganizing is now complete, I am set!

Still likely gonna take it easy as far as posting, until the end of the year. I need some time to get my ocs straightened out and everything, along with doing some other projects.


At this point in time I'm not real sure about my future, so I guess that's next on my list to figure out.

I've been thinking, and I'm not sure I wanna become a full-on artist at least not for a while. I kinda lost the passion for it I think. I do still intend to DO art, just not as a full-on "job".

On the subject of being an artist, if I do get that back off the ground again, I think I'm gonna stick to mostly sfw/mild fetish, with mild nsfw as an option but no full-on porn. I honestly get a lot more enjoyment drawing sfw than nsfw lmao which is ironic considering I do love nsfw.

In the future, like in a couple years, if I've stuck with it and improved enough, I'll branch out more, but right now, I've come to realize after thinking on it that I've been planning waaaaaay too much for myself to handle. If I'm to succeed and stick with anything, I gotta start with what I know already works for me.

I'm also seriously considering getting back into writing again. I used to have a ton of ideas I wanted to write about and bring to life, and I never went anywhere with it unfortunately. Maybe this time I can make it happen.

If I do get into writing again, expect to see a mix of sfw and nsfw, as I have many ideas for both categories lol

I also am toying with becoming a streamer or content creator in some way, but I don't know if I will take that path or not either. I don't have a setup for it unfortunately and I can't afford one lol


In the end, tho, whatever happens, I'm gonna prioritize my own enjoyment in what I do. I don't want to have to force myself to do something I'm not enjoying enough.

And in the end, the one thing I really want most of all is to spend more time with my friends and the community itself. I've been rather reclusive the past few months and I think it's about time I spend more time with others

Because if it wasn't for all of you, helping me through all the ups and downs life has thrown my way, I wouldn't still be here.


So in conclusion, thank you to each and every one of you for sticking with me. Dunno what the future holds but hopefully it's something good! XD

Have a good one, and ill see you all in the next one ^^