*dusts off journal*
Another year older and not much wiser. Been through a bit of stuff, mental struggles, but I’ve survived another year. Yay.*Sarcastic finger twirl*
Not expecting much or planning to do much for my birthday today.

Y’all carry on now and thanks for reading*vanishes*

I’m now 31 without only a couple changes. Them being a new job and a now 9 month relationship with my boyfriend  tenabra
Here’s to another year of this planet and a hope that next year I can celebrate with him in person.

I turn 30 today and begin the wonderful 30s…..I’m not a greymuzzle though right? 🤔
Hopefully the things I hear bout being the 30s aren’t true

Been a while since I made one of these.
I am now officially in the last year of my 20s aka 29 today. And I dread next year’s already, cause I got so much that I wanna do before it.
Welp*chugs a wine glass down*back to work now

Level up complete. How lvl28 of ??.
Wisdom +
Experience +
Intelligence +??

So I'm older and not much wiser. And this year my biggest birthday wish this year is no longer be single, so...any takers?
*looks out for anything*guess not :/

Have one. Mine's Ravenite#9835 if anyone wants to message me there.
Also anyone know any good servers on it by chance?

The one. Figured I'd try this since I haven't. And I'm lonely af
I'm single looking for a nice guy between 21 and 38 y/o. Species doesn't matter, would prefer a chubby or buff guy though.
I got a discord if interested in me , it's Ravenite#9835.
I give cuddles and am a nice pillow I'm told.
So...any takers?

And merry Christmas*dons a form fitting red suit* mine wasn't great but maybe next year I'll have a mate to help me overfill this suit like my little bro does.
Cheers*raises a glass of milk*

Got myself a Nintendo switch lite when it came out. I only have fire emblem three houses, lets go Pikachu, ni no kuni, and the link's awakening remake.

My code is SW-8308-7295-3213. I'd like to have some friends like I did on my 3ds if possible. So please add me

I feel like the longer I'm alone, the harder it'll be to find love with my lonely desperate heart *heavy sigh* no one will ever want me I feel. And since the colder months are coming, it's just gonna get worse.
Others say there's someone out there for you or ya haven't found the right one, what if the one is already dead or that I'll be near dead by the time we meet. I'm just been feeling more hopeless as time goes on. Like I wanna change but don't want to. I can pull myself together enough to fake it and no one notices. I just want it to end-my suffering not my life. I don't hurt myself physically or do something to bandaid it like drink or smoke, but mentally I'm wearing myself down. I went to an event recently and instead of having fun the whole time I wound up just alienating myself and shutting down at times. I know I need to open up more but I don't want to. Fear and doubt rule me too often.
I just wanted to get it off my chest even if I don't feel any better.

to me. I'm 27 today. Bit wiser and i'm in retail now.
Wanted to get myself a switch but stuff came up.
So..cake for all*feeds slice of cake to all who read this*

to me. yay me..
Not much to celebrate though, so much bad. plus my car accident and ticket've tapped me out financially.
Ah well. Time for cake. ^^

Here's hoping 2018 is a better year than the last one was.
So to better things and a bright year.

Finally the end of the year has arrived. This damned year is over. With all its shitfests and bad news*sighs*and deaths.
I'm looking forward to the new year and hoping it brings better things. Sayonara 2017, hello 2018.

i'm glad the holiday's here finally cause now we can all get back to real life. call me a grinch if ya want but i'm done with christmas and all its crap. what did i get this year- a laptop i'm paying off and two dead cats who didn't make it to today.
I'm glad the year's almost over. it's been a shitfest, maybe 2018'll be a halfway decent one*sighs*

So far it's been nothing but one piece of bad news after another.
Receded gums, crown, cat has a benign cancer growth on neck, cat has cancer, cat euthanized, cat gets buried at grave tree with all the other pets. got new kitten, family friend dies, kitten gets bad infection after living with me little more than a month, kitten gets put down, kitten gets buried next to last cat.
He was only 5 months old too. I can get a new feline in 3 months but I don't have the heart left for one I feel.

This year is just been painful and heartbreaking. I just wanna sleep the rest of it away and start next year free.

A beloved feline was put down to end his pain.
My cat Samson was 10 y/o. I took him in yesterday because he had lost weight and wasn't eating. They found fluid round his lungs, they were able to drain enough that he ate and drank some when he got home. But he was in pain and hid himself away. He was loved by all , and everyone cried over the fact he was being put down. he was surrounded by love, torment, and comfort. I stayed with him until his heart stopped beating at 10:50 this morning. He was buried alongside the others at our burial tree. He's in heaven with tiger and the others.

RIP
Samson
5-16-07 to 11-14-17

At his request, the gofundme page was taken down. To all who shared it, please remove those journals. To any who donated, thank you for trying.
Stuff like this is why my faith in humanity is so very low. I mean here's a guy down on his luck struggling to survive, i make him a gofundme, and what happens- only 2 donate. the rest rest either spread the word, do nothing, or kick him while he's already down. Some are still bitching to him about art. What part of he's broke and in a shelter doesn't click for you dodos. ugh...
Humanity is sad and pathetic, myself included. There is some good i will admit but the bad outweighs the good lately it seems.
Sad thing-many will either skim over this or ignore it. i'm no one important or popular, so my voice doesn't count for much. Our world is one where those with power(be it money, fame, or talent) rule and those without suffer in some way. there will be those who do read this and comment, those are the few good here. i know i'm fated to stay in the shadows without real power, but i'll soldier on cause it's all i can do. Because I know a few hard truths about life. One of which the only one you can truly count on..is yourself.

So far i've found out i have receded gums, my cat's needed surgery to remove a beign cancer growth, i've hit another car(barely damaged it-a smalldent), i have a veggie for an aunt thanks to a combo of things, and today i was told i not only needed a new filling but that a tooth i have a filling on needs a root canal and a crown. They said it's not my fault and that this happens occasionally. i'm gonna be more filling than teeth at this rate*sighs heavily* This after cutting of a sliver of my index finger on friday.
Bonus i've got $18 left and i need gas and money for a copay needed on friday..
ugh FML!!!
why do i bother anymore...

i'm now a quarter century old.

In this past year, i've learned new stuff and gotten a bit wiser and a bit more broken. Here's to another birthday that'll come and go like all the rest. Wish i had someone to spend it with.

Thank you to any and all for the birthday wishes.

May 2017 be great for all. And bring many good things your way.
And for some*smacks my bigger belly*may it find you bigger.
I plan to try and update my sona this year. So yea ^^

2016..what a crap year you've been. Reaper's been busy this year taking celebs, furs, and regulars. War crime, protests and election. Glad it's over.
it's had some decent points albeit minute. i got me a car but no lover. Ah well...

Here's to 2017*raises glass*may it be better than 2016 was.

Merry christmas and happy holidays to y'all.
Hope you get your heart's desire. Maybe next year i'll get mine...
*raises a glass*here's to y'all

In light of recent events, i've decided it is time to close this chapter of my life and begin a new one.
So...*changes clothes and dons a knife at the hip*
Raven is back with updates. New images to follow.

:Occupation-Wanderer/MageKnight;Personality-Distant to those new, warm to those familiar:

And my heart boys*removes it before sealing it away*is off the market.

Apologies for the venting. i just needed to get it out.
i'm feeling better now. I know life has ups and downs, and today was a down. I realized how small my circle has gotten.
It's time to reforge old bonds and make new ones. So let loose the comments and notes.
*sits back expecting very little of either*