Well since things have gotten pretty busy in my life I haven't had much time to even visit the site for more than a few seconds. I guess for starts I have a boyfriend now. After meeting we started meeting up almost every night since then. We both felt strong feelings for each other and are trying to make it work which isn't easy because he's much older than me and I don't live on my own. I started staying over a lot at his apartment which of course was going to look really strange to my parents since I lived with them. They also don't know I'm Bi or that I was dating another guy. So I decided it was time to tell them.

Coming out to my parents was by far one of the most emotionally draining things I've done in my life. Couldn't even look at their faces for a long time afterward because their faces always looked disappointed. After a week it started getting a little bit better, but that didn't last long. I was trying to get of my anti-depression med Paxil and I heard by text from my mom that my dad has cancer. She didn't mentioned what kind of cancer and both of his parent's died of cancer. So I had a complete mental breakdown for a day or two. Started taking Paxil again to help.

After going in we found out it was bladder cancer and that it never spread past the bladder. So they took it out a while ago but we found out that it's an aggressive cancer and has about a 50% of coming back. He's going back soon to see if it's come back and if it hasn't yet then he's going to start chemotherapy.

It took a couple of weeks but while waiting to see if it comes back I finally got off Paxil.

Came out to my parents as Bi.

Finally finished moving accounts completely. Had to go through my entire watch list and choose whether or not I wanted to continue watching. Took a lot of wasted hours of my life.

Well ever since graduating high school I haven't really worked out all that much. I did a little my first year in college then got really lazy. Didn't help that I was drinking a lot of bear that year as well. So now I'm really out of shape right now.

Just got signed up for a membership for a gym yesterday and worked out with a friend. Pushed myself a little to hard thinking I could still do the same stuff as when I was in shape. Oh well, we plan on going twice a week at least so after a couple of months I hope to start seeing some progress.

Well I ended up going through the search history on my family's iPad. Although it's mostly used by my younger brother. Anyway there were searches for "furry fursonas" and "furry coyote". I looked at the searches and it was all either ref sheets, sfw drawings, and fursuit pics. Right now he doesn't know I'm a furry so the fact that he's discovering it on his own really surprises me. I think I'm going to drop some hints that I'm also a furry to him since he probably won't want to talk about it at first.

Oh boy, I stopped playing league a couple of months ago since I started taking speedrunning a bit more seriously. Now I'm a little tired of running Resident Evil 4 again so once again I'm getting into league. Seems like no matter what I do this game always brings me back in.

Well by the end of this month I'm going back to doing college classes. Only have classes on Tuesday and Thursday which will probably be nice. As long as I don't slack off again, but I feel prepared.

Hopefully I meet some cool people don't have a lot of friends I see IRL since moving back home.