I hardly ever post here but here's an update for me!

For months I have had congestion, spitting up gross stuff and antibiotics did not clear it out. I saw an ENT Dr. And my septum is all kinds of messed up. Today I had a ct scan to see what is happening inside my sinuses and they found seepage/blockage in my maxillary sinus. Those sinus caves on either side of my nose. The plan of treatment is to go in, widen the openings, widen the set above that, shave the bone at the entry of my nose and correct my septum. They are optimistic that will correct my chronic sinusitis issues. The Dr talking to me is telling me all the low chance risks since they will be up by my brain and eyes. Chance for bleeding and scaring etc. Honestly though just being able to breathe clearly and less or no sinus congestion is really weighing against most of those negatives.

Haven't written an update in a fair bit. I'm not sure how many of you know I live in Texas, and yes in the area impacted by Harvey. I am fine, my property is as well. My family and friends are mostly fine. A few of my friends have to be evacuated by boat. Over all we are grateful for the minimal damage, and for the speed in which local businesses have turned to giving to those who have lost.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7612707/

My friend Etain is in a bad situation at home, please help or spread the word.

Sometimes when I watch a scary movie, and it's coming up to what I am expecting to be a jump scene, I picture there is another me, watching me. It's waiting for me to turn my head, to look away from the movie. There is something..slightly off about this other me, the limbs perhaps..too long, the head canted at a strange angle..a jangling irritation like chewing on foil..If I look at this other me it'll get me!

My imagination makes what may have been an okay movie much more terrifying.

http://www.generatorland.com/userge.....r.aspx?id=7427

yep totally going to do some doodles based on this, I hope you people who read these things do too.

Sephren is my dogtar buddy from the great white north and is offering some art deals to help pad their bank account during a time of financial hard ship http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6437496/ please consider throwing money or signal boosts at this awesome hunk of reptile-canine.

this time there is an included charity auction to help this young man who has lost so much from losing more
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6355473/ if nothing else, consider spreading the word.

I know it's hard to give that little extra during the holidays, but consider doing what you can for this guy who is homeless and lost his father recently http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6334406/

I NEED THEM ALL http://www.brynnart.com/store/shark.....sktop-calendar look at the fatty great white..and the goblin and the whale shark cat..oh god..oh god..

I don't know personally, and normally I would not post this sort of thing. I found out about their mother's plight through another artist I do know. If you can donate or spread the word please do. I cannot imagine a life with out the love and support of my father, and it sounds like Necro's mother is of the same mold of putting all they can towards the support and growth of their family. Please do what you can to help.

http://www.gofundme.com/ee1gcs
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6105704/

Left my heart in Brissy..also my other half, I am sorting my pictures now and being totally lame and avoiding going to my bedroom as my bed is big enough for two but my roo isn't in it *lame lame lame* I had just the most amazing time, his family loved me and I cannot wait to go back. We went to Sea World, a couple of museums, a couple of botanical gardens, a rainforest, glow worm cave. Saw the Lion King Stage production, Uluru, the arms of the Milky Way over the bush <3. Ozz and I were pretty much comfortable around each other at once, which was a load off our minds for sure aha..long distance whewww....we also saw some movies together in bed and the cinema.

Tomorrow I board the plane that will take me to Australia. I'm having some problems figuring out what to do for the time period of waiting for my rental to be ready to check in..basically "what to do at 6 am until 10 am on a Sunday?" I am nervous, excited, nervous still. I have repacked maybe 4 times..really trying to keep my carry on in permitted weight range. I can take two 50 lb bags as check in, so if it comes to it when I come back I can buy another bag to bring back to Texas.


I'll post when I land..and have internet aha. <3 you all

oh man..how is it 11 days away already, oh jesus..do I have everything..croc repellant, anti-spider armor, poisonous rabbit handling gloves?! aaah..I am excited/nervous/excited..oh jesus..11 days till I fly over to see Ozzaroo..*flail* big ass trip and first meeting jitters are GO.

I dropped off my application at the plant nursery I have wanted to work at for ages on Sunday, and today was the earliest I expected to hear back as the assistant manager comes in on Weds. I got the call when I was at my gym, and had just finished bullshitting with my trainer...I got the job..oh man oh man..I was like a puppy, bouncing all over..I called Ozzy and just could not focus on my work out routine for all the AAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaieeeee happy happy happy. They are aware that I am going to Australia in June/July. I start tomorrow!

plants
plants
plants
oh lawdy look out pay checks

is all kinds of open for cheap, possibly Easter themed commissions. You should pay him to draw them *nods*

Please disregard if you do not feel like reading a meandering journal on my :personal improvements
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First let me say that this is not a journal fishing for compliments. I DO NOT WANT, NOR KNOW HOW TO HANDLE GETTING THEM. I will be posting pictures that make me uncomfortable, but they serve a purpose in framing my thoughts and questions.

Over 2 and a half years ago..closer to three by now, I had gotten out of a bad relationship, I had stopped caring for myself and frankly not realized how unhappy I had been. I had stopped caring for or taking myself. When I snapped out of the funk I did not like who I had become and took steps to make me feel better about myself and for my own health. Both my emotional and physical health. I got on an eating plan, improved not only what I ate, how much but when. I am still guilty of skipping breakfast from time to time, but I try to at least drink a protein shake when I get up. I lost some weight there and from working refinery turn around jobs. The total from those two factors being around 40 to 50 lbs of the weight I have lost. I signed up for a gym membership and a trainer so I felt accountable for working out. I go to the gym when back home at least twice a week, but average three times. I lost another 40 to 50 there. I have lost weight here as well on this turn around, and my eating has been really off the wagon as I lack a kitchen where I am staying. I feel really greasy and disgusting from the amount of fast food I have had. *coughs* back on track. I have lost 95 lbs at the very least in the span of 2 years, most of which was this last year. I don't see it, people compliment me who have been there the whole process..and I get shy and self conscious when they do. They tell me I look great and have blossomed. I do feel better, healthier and stronger..but I just don't see it when I look in the mirror. I hardly ever do, I have never liked looking at myself in mirrors or pictures heh..but when I look at myself in a full length mirror..I just see the parts of me I don't like still. My flabby parts, my lose skin from weight loss etc. When will I see the girl everyone else does? Will I ever?
Now for the pictures I don't like, but I feel I should share
https://www.dropbox.com/s/vw2d5q1ue.....1980100631.jpg
this is the same shirt
https://www.dropbox.com/s/60hcg7g42.....409_182734.jpg

I may not be able to see what has people complimenting me, but I do know I am never going back to being the girl in the first picture. I refuse to, it is not an option for me..and I am a hard headed individual.

From an emotional stand point it is night and day for me. I am so much happier, calm, less stressed and sooo many fewer bad days. For those of you who have seen me go off on others..that is how I go off on myself. I won't go into detail about the particulars, but we will go with I have some major self worth issues and my negative internal monologue aims for that. My baggage is smaller, but I still have it.

*Ozzy does not care if I am bigger than I am or smaller, he just wants me to be happy, and the feeling is mutual, just in case anyone thinks he or I am on my diet/working out for his benefit*

ramble done
Sorry for the crazy formatting, kinda stuck on a phone for a month or so.

I am fine, my car is...sort of. I was heading for work, making good time, not late and rushing, no cars ahead of me etc.I glanced down to check my speed, glanced up to the rear end of a truck with it's break lights on about 200 feet away. They had preformed a sudden stop due to the truck ahead of them sudden stopping to turn. I hit my breaks, but was still coming up too fast and dead on, so I aim for the shoulder. I clipped his rear bumper, my car spun around totally facing the other way before coming to a stop. I repeat I am fine. The guy was very concerned about me being okay and not all shitty about his truck being hit. I have called the insurance people about it, but I am working 12 Hour shifts atm, so I will have to speak to them some more tomorrow..er..later today..about what all needs to be done. I am hoping iI have enough put by in my "oh shit emergency" account to handle this with out killing too much of my paychecks in case my insurance does not cover much..or more is wrong with my car than dent plus possible alignment being off.

https://www.dropbox.com/s/w54nwsqhx.....183047_302.jpg poor car

Once I return to Texas I will be running a raffle to take someone's doodle/sketch and flesh it out into a traditional/painterly style drawing. Example: https://mobile.twitter.com/OzzyKang.....e=OzzyKangaroo turned into http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12942813/ . The rules for the drawing submission will be-
1) No more than 3 characters
2) I will not draw scat, vomit play, incest or cub.
3)You must be the original artist of the drawing 3B) you can post a description of the drawing if you feel it will make it more clear as to what the illustration is.

I will post again when running the raffle, this is a heads up for people interested and feel free to share if you wish. I am not sure how many people iI will pick, I am going to be doing this as an excersize to increase my speed in producing a piece I am satisfied with, so something like 1 to 2 hour drawings.

Still alive, have a training class tomorrow at the work site.

Unless they call me again..in the next few hours...I'm heading out tomorrow after breakfast with my dad to head up to my next refinery job. I'm trying to keep from being anxious and stressed out about the whole deal..this has met with mixed results. On the plus side, I made a cake for my sister's birthday! yay cake! https://www.dropbox.com/s/49srk6i52.....171535_041.jpg sample piece for quality control https://www.dropbox.com/s/rws5rg1ea.....171810_349.jpg recipe http://www.preventionrd.com/2012/07.....rry-clafoutis/ *I used meyers lemon*

ugh..blughhh...heh.. I won't be up on the job site until the 16th...I have already changed my reservations*grumble* and I guess it's not too bad since I was originally slated for the 10th..but god I hope the job goes at least a month so I'm not basically "breaking even" by going up there. *grumble* I freaking hate the inconsistencies of these sort of jobs.

I will be driving up to Illinois for my next refinery job, which starts on the 6th. I'll hopefully be working 12s..haven't heard back on that. I'll miss you all.

Yus! Cheap! for the low low starting price of three dollars you can own a doodle page of three doodles of whatever you'd like!
BUT WAIT..THERE'S MORE
You can add more doodles for a dollar per doodle!(up to 6 total)
HOLD YOUR TITS..THERE'S EVEN MORE!
All of these doodles can be colored or refined for .50 cents per doodle and service.
WHAT THE HECK DOES THAT MEAN?
It means if you got 3 doodles and wanted them all colored and refined then it would be $6 total, but if you wanted them just refined or colored then it would be $4.50

NOTE OR COMMENT FOR A SLOT AND WHAT YOU'D LIKE DRAWN.THESE THINGS WILL BE SILLY/CUTE DOODLE-SKETCHAMAJIGS

1.Bane
2.Eon 3-refined/colored
3.Seito 3-refined/colored
4.Kangae 3-refined
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I've been back a few days, but had to get the house in order and cook a couple of things for gobble day. I hope everyone is having a great day, holiday or no.

Made it to Ohio, but my car may have transmission problems. The duplex I am staying in is really nice, as is the owner and it is in a little town were people stroll around in the evening...so that is pleasant.WOR starts monday