Another year is heading to a close, starting with Christmas.

I know I havent been the most verbal or talkative anywhere , but I just want to sa this to you, all my friends and fans.

it's been a very chaotic year for me and at times it has felt like my strength and sanity has been on the brink of total meltdown.
But here i still am, still standing, still going, still trying to be better.

Whatever life may throw at you, never lose hope. Never give up what's important to you. And never underestimate the importance of family and friends. I'm here thanks to you, your continuous support and understanding.

Thank you. From the bottom of my heart. <3

So without wasting your precious time further, Go have a pleasant, warm and safe Christmas, and safer new year, people.
Here's hoping 2025 I can return to art properly again. I am making a recovery, so, there's hope.

This is ReactorGuardian, Signing out.
See you next year, people. <3

Hello fans, friends and everyone else who comes here for my content.

I dont expect anyone to read this but i'll put it down anyway...

I must apologize for my massive lack of content lately...

I'm... currently going through a phase where i question my ability to create and entertain...

I feel like everything i do is wrong somehow or doesnt look good. That im not a good artist and cant do anything correctly. And its eating me from the inside.

So bad that i get anxiety just by picking up my pencil. And immediatelt get hit by anxious self doubt and feeling of "wrongness"...

I dont know how to combat this doubting... andbi hate where i am.... but as long it keeps going... i cant create. Entertain... to produce worksbyou people love so much.

I dont feel like the aetist im supposed to be. And i lack the self-confidence to believe i am.

If you read this far, thanks for hearing me out.

Sincerely apologetic...

~RG

Ladies and gentlemen, Friends and colleagues, everyone who follows me.
I have an important announcement to make...

some of you know about my mental health struggles. recently it's gotten much, much worse.
I've grown unstable, unable to control my emotional outbursts, escalating from laughter to a complete rage filled berserk within minutes.

for two years I've been trying to stay as the artist you know and love... artist who you started following... but i have been unable to deliver... attempts were made.... and most of the time failed.

one project has trapped me to a prison... Project that I've been working on for two years nonstop on top of my 8h employment shift 5 times a week.
i have reached my limits... i can't go on...

so.... i'm gonna put my art galleries as well as projects on ice for undetermined amount of time...

this means i cannot post new art or finish promised projects...

i apologise from everyone...
and honestly... my biggest fear is that i turn obscure and fade out if i don't post anything in ages....

but this madness needs to stop. for the sake of my own mental capacity.
I've blown my fuses without a reason on innocent people, bystanders... even friendly people who just said "hi".
i don't know when i can return to normal art again... when i'm free from this nightmare project that's taken 2 years out of my life and my sanity....

i'm sorry i haven't been the artist you started following. Artist you admired... loved...
I've taken a hard fall...
and i cannot go on....

i hope you people forgive me.

~RG

Yeah, I've been asked about these and I just have so much stuff on my plates right now I honestly cannot handle any more work on my current load.

Maybe in the future when I get my sh*t together again.

Thank you for your support, and I shall see you later.

Good day, I'm out.

-RG

2018 LIST OF WINNERS

The-B-Meister (Discord) (WINNER: COVER)
PrimevalDK (Derpibooru) (WINNER DAY 1)
BlazerFury (Inkbunny) (WINNER DAY2)
Terrie Wingheart (Discord) (WINNER DAY 3)
AlphaVI (Discord) (WINNER DAY 4)
WhiteWolf (Discord) (WINNER DAY 5)
Umimikoesu (Deviantart) (WINNER DAY 6)
BubblePet (Discord) (WINNER DAY 7)
Lizzy (FurAffinity) (WINNER DAY 8)
RR27593 (Inkbunny) (WINNER DAY 9)
Dewott (Discord) (WINNER DAY 10)
SandyN (FurAffinity) (WINNER DAY 11)
Jabbie (Discord) (WINNER DAY 12)
Daemont92 (Discord) (WINNER DAY 13)
Flare (FurAffinity) (WINNER DAY 14)
TekuSP (Discord) (WINNER DAY 15)
ElectricSkull (Discord) (WINNER DAY 16)
[Anonymus by request] (Inkbunny) (WINNER DAY 17)
Timothy Jenkinson (Telegram) (WINNER DAY 18)
Toothy (Discord) (WINNER DAY 19)
Finnlad11 (Discord) (WINNER DAY 20)
Rowan Fenkit (Telegram) (WINNER DAY 21)
Mephonix (Inkbunny) (WINNER DAY 22)
WarbornTaco (Discord) (WINNER DAY 23)
Exxor9108 (FurAffinity) (WINNER DAY24-1)
Prince Axl (Discord) aka. Sinthas (Furaffinity) (WINNER DAY 24-2)
DraftedDragon (Discord) (WINNER THANK YOU CARD)


COngratulations for the winners! And to those who didn't win?

Those who didn't win, will be added to 2019 calendar!

Thank you all so much for joining.

Hello everyone!

OC Aqutic Christmas Calendar Signup will end on May 31st

Those wishing to get a chance for their OC's to be involved you still got some time left!

-RG, the Crazy Calendar Artist

Not taking any, for now

Prices and info can be found here

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21104489/

Note me in the comments if you are Interested of getting one

May your Holidays be filled with happiness and love.

And please, behave yourselves!

ReactorGuardian, signing off to spend Christmas and New Year with Family!

Missed me?

No?

Good! Carry on!

-ReactorGuardian#2

My army service hinders that for 6 months...

Ah well... keep yer hopes up, readers. Might go request rampage afterwards...

See you in 2015

Hopefully...

ReactorGuardian 2

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1fTt4K4Cae4