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Dabjai's Death.
Posted 2 years agoNot RL:DRing this, if you give a fuck, read it.
Some of you know about my cat, the wonderful orange tabby. He's been unwell for some time, was dealing with kidney failure for 10 years or so. The first time he needed a major surgery I put a picture of him here, and a note as to why i needed help. And i got that help, more than i needed honestly, and people told me to put it to his continued care.
I was fortunate enough to have midnight come into my life, and with her support, and drive, she improved not only my life, but that of our little boy. Over the years many things have been made possible by our growth, we didn't need help taking care of his base needs, we could give him the best we could find. And he lived well, but was slowing down.
Over the years he would play less, jumping started to cause him discomfort, so medications we gave him, and they helped. Then one day he vomited blood.
Sadly, when the emergency veterinarian came out, it was not a happy result. He has Lymphoma, quite advanced. His heart wasn't the best, his kidneys were moving into stage 3 failure... and now he would need more medications that would just make him suffer. We tried everything, thinking maybe it was just a infection. the vet gave us a 7-day antibiotic, and we pretended thats what we needed.
Day four of antibiotics... he was RUNNING through the house, stealing out kittens toys, going crazy and acting 7 years younger.
7 years younger...
We have video of him just letting loose. You can hear us crying it in, because as happy as we were to see him so energetic... we also knew what his life would go back to. He was happy, we didnt force him to stay with us too long, but we worried that rather than going back to being our old man... he would go back to being sick and weak.
And he did.. two days after the antibiotic, basically when it finally fully left his system, he didnt want to move, didnt want company... didnt want MY company. For those who knew Dabjai, that last one would be horribly telling of his condition. We talked for 3 hours... read articles... everything.
All of them agreed on one thing: If you think its time, its likely time.
It.. was time...
Sept 28th 2023 was the worst day of my life to date. Breakups happen, houses burn down, family dies, all of that matters. But Dabjai has been with me though... most of that.. been my companion always. I would cry and he was in my lap, i would wake up to a cold nose, and he was burrowing to lay agienst my chest for the night...
He was a fact of my life. And now that fact is gone. Midnight and i said good by, it was very very peacful. And we came home and spend the next 3 days in tears basically living in bed.
Its almost a month now, Midnight and I wear a vial of his fur around our necks, and he sits with Zuse my first feline companion. I walk by the room he napped in and i go to lean into tease him... I walk intot he kitchen and open the blinds on the doors for him to have better access to sunlight. Hell, i even "go to be" early and sit on the sofa and read.. all waiting for him.
I am more worried when i don't do these things, but... Thats healing. Sorry for rambling, i think i just needed to say it.
Some of you know about my cat, the wonderful orange tabby. He's been unwell for some time, was dealing with kidney failure for 10 years or so. The first time he needed a major surgery I put a picture of him here, and a note as to why i needed help. And i got that help, more than i needed honestly, and people told me to put it to his continued care.
I was fortunate enough to have midnight come into my life, and with her support, and drive, she improved not only my life, but that of our little boy. Over the years many things have been made possible by our growth, we didn't need help taking care of his base needs, we could give him the best we could find. And he lived well, but was slowing down.
Over the years he would play less, jumping started to cause him discomfort, so medications we gave him, and they helped. Then one day he vomited blood.
Sadly, when the emergency veterinarian came out, it was not a happy result. He has Lymphoma, quite advanced. His heart wasn't the best, his kidneys were moving into stage 3 failure... and now he would need more medications that would just make him suffer. We tried everything, thinking maybe it was just a infection. the vet gave us a 7-day antibiotic, and we pretended thats what we needed.
Day four of antibiotics... he was RUNNING through the house, stealing out kittens toys, going crazy and acting 7 years younger.
7 years younger...
We have video of him just letting loose. You can hear us crying it in, because as happy as we were to see him so energetic... we also knew what his life would go back to. He was happy, we didnt force him to stay with us too long, but we worried that rather than going back to being our old man... he would go back to being sick and weak.
And he did.. two days after the antibiotic, basically when it finally fully left his system, he didnt want to move, didnt want company... didnt want MY company. For those who knew Dabjai, that last one would be horribly telling of his condition. We talked for 3 hours... read articles... everything.
All of them agreed on one thing: If you think its time, its likely time.
It.. was time...
Sept 28th 2023 was the worst day of my life to date. Breakups happen, houses burn down, family dies, all of that matters. But Dabjai has been with me though... most of that.. been my companion always. I would cry and he was in my lap, i would wake up to a cold nose, and he was burrowing to lay agienst my chest for the night...
He was a fact of my life. And now that fact is gone. Midnight and i said good by, it was very very peacful. And we came home and spend the next 3 days in tears basically living in bed.
Its almost a month now, Midnight and I wear a vial of his fur around our necks, and he sits with Zuse my first feline companion. I walk by the room he napped in and i go to lean into tease him... I walk intot he kitchen and open the blinds on the doors for him to have better access to sunlight. Hell, i even "go to be" early and sit on the sofa and read.. all waiting for him.
I am more worried when i don't do these things, but... Thats healing. Sorry for rambling, i think i just needed to say it.
Pokemon Go! JOIN BLUE TEAM!!!
Posted 9 years agoYOU!!!! (i dont know you, its still applicable)
What team on pokemon go?
Say blue
Be blue
you want to be blue
i will keep spamming you until you respond damnit
blue
blue
blue
blue right?
you want to be blue
you KNOW you want blue
its so blue you cant understand how blue it is until your blue too
BLUE~!
So much blue!
Join blue!!!!
What team on pokemon go?
Say blue
Be blue
you want to be blue
i will keep spamming you until you respond damnit
blue
blue
blue
blue right?
you want to be blue
you KNOW you want blue
its so blue you cant understand how blue it is until your blue too
BLUE~!
So much blue!
Join blue!!!!
Question about My Feral from
Posted 9 years agoWould any one be interested in how she became prideless? About her family? I kind of want to try my had at writing again, and i think it would be neat to do it about them, but i am unsure is there is interest.
Age + 1= 29
Posted 10 years agoOy, so it's that time of year where I age again. One year closer to gay death, and what's worse, one year from gay death XD. Anyway, that's a thing, much love to people like 
midnightsnow who have made this year great.
midnightsnow who have made this year great.Those Sad moments that make it hard to...
Posted 10 years ago... Keep reading a book the second time. Volle by Kyell Gold is a great book, one of my favorite furry reads. But, i have only ever been able to read it once. Because there is a moment when you meet some one fantastic, and than plot happens, and bad things. For me, it actually makes the whole time with the characters in question just bitter sweet. I have read to that point again (forgot it was there) and than just had to stop.
Now, let me be clear, this is a FANTASTIC book! For some of Kyell's early stuff, I adore it! And i have read most of his books, even others in the same series more than one, but this one sadly hits me a bit to hard. There are a few books I have read that have done this to me, another example is Super-Toys Last All Summer Long by Brian Aldiss, the basis of which the movie A.I. is based on. Its just such a tragic ending...
So, here I am debating if i want to power though it, or if i want to find something else for light reading. I would like to point out, this isnt the only thing i am surrently reading, i am also starting Midnight Tides and War of Honor, and in the middle of The Elenium, and a reread of Children of Steel and the other books in that series. So it snot like i am lacking things to read. But still... Maybe i should confront the roadblock if you will, even if it will bring a few tears?
Now, let me be clear, this is a FANTASTIC book! For some of Kyell's early stuff, I adore it! And i have read most of his books, even others in the same series more than one, but this one sadly hits me a bit to hard. There are a few books I have read that have done this to me, another example is Super-Toys Last All Summer Long by Brian Aldiss, the basis of which the movie A.I. is based on. Its just such a tragic ending...
So, here I am debating if i want to power though it, or if i want to find something else for light reading. I would like to point out, this isnt the only thing i am surrently reading, i am also starting Midnight Tides and War of Honor, and in the middle of The Elenium, and a reread of Children of Steel and the other books in that series. So it snot like i am lacking things to read. But still... Maybe i should confront the roadblock if you will, even if it will bring a few tears?
So my mother in law...
Posted 10 years agoJust found one of the copies of our marriage certificate in the back of our car while visiting. We have been marred for some time now now (Colorado is super trendy that way). We didn't tell her <.< >.>
So that was a thing, a lot of happy crying, explaining why we didn't tell her (SUPER RELIGIOUS) and all of that. We were planning on having the wedding at a later date, but why not take care of the tax stuffs early on? So, thats a thing.
So that was a thing, a lot of happy crying, explaining why we didn't tell her (SUPER RELIGIOUS) and all of that. We were planning on having the wedding at a later date, but why not take care of the tax stuffs early on? So, thats a thing.
So i finally took the kink test.
Posted 10 years agoI answered truthfully and everything, i am shocked it didn't show me as more of a switch, but these are just preferences, not hard limits.
== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
99% Degradation Receiver
99% Submissive
98% Bondage Receiver
95% Experimentalist
95% Pet
90% Ageplayer
90% Exhibitionist
90% Non-monogamist
90% Primal (Prey)
87% Little girl/boy
79% Masochist
79% Slave
69% Brat
64% Voyeur
27% Switch
17% Sadist
14% Daddy/Mommy
12% Master/Mistress
12% Primal (Predator)
11% Bondage Giver
11% Brat Tamer
11% Dominant
11% Owner
8% Vanilla
1% All-Rounder
0% Degradation Giver
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=384364
== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
99% Degradation Receiver
99% Submissive
98% Bondage Receiver
95% Experimentalist
95% Pet
90% Ageplayer
90% Exhibitionist
90% Non-monogamist
90% Primal (Prey)
87% Little girl/boy
79% Masochist
79% Slave
69% Brat
64% Voyeur
27% Switch
17% Sadist
14% Daddy/Mommy
12% Master/Mistress
12% Primal (Predator)
11% Bondage Giver
11% Brat Tamer
11% Dominant
11% Owner
8% Vanilla
1% All-Rounder
0% Degradation Giver
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=384364
Re dids mah profileies.
Posted 10 years agoOk, so, I suck at social networking, or most social stuff, hell the only facebook/myspace/frendface account I ever had is for my LARP character. But i am trying this, so here is an update: Things are fantastic, my snowie and i are going on our 4th year, happily married and doing wells.
Our boyfriend moved in at the end of january and the house feels like a home again, we're about oh... just under three years with him give or take a few months.
My dear cat (dabjai) is doing fantastic and is fat (the vet wants him at 15 pounds, he is at 13). The ferrets (Gibson, flute, Takamine) Are great, gibson is 9 years old now, thats super old for a ferret.
And currently, I am chilling, watching mash and dealing with a sinus infection. That god for insurance!
Umm so.. blong liek things.. test.. stuff.. end now time.
Our boyfriend moved in at the end of january and the house feels like a home again, we're about oh... just under three years with him give or take a few months.
My dear cat (dabjai) is doing fantastic and is fat (the vet wants him at 15 pounds, he is at 13). The ferrets (Gibson, flute, Takamine) Are great, gibson is 9 years old now, thats super old for a ferret.
And currently, I am chilling, watching mash and dealing with a sinus infection. That god for insurance!
Umm so.. blong liek things.. test.. stuff.. end now time.
Todays lesson is as follows:
Posted 11 years agoOne must be for ever drunken: that is the sole question of importance.
If you would not feel the horrible burden of Time that bruises your shoulders and bends you to the earth,
you must be drunken without cease.
But how?
With wine,
with poetry,
with virtue,
with what you please.
But be drunken.
And if sometimes, on the steps of a palace,
on the green grass by a moat,
or in the dull loneliness of your chamber,
you should waken up,
your intoxication already lessened or gone,
ask of the wind,
of the wave,
of the star,
of the bird,
of the timepiece;
ask of all that flees,
all that sighs,
all that revolves,
all that sings,
all that speaks,
ask of these the hour;
and wind and wave and star and bird and timepiece will answer you:
“It is the hour to be drunken!
Lest you be the martyred slaves of Time,
intoxicate yourselves,
be drunken without cease!
With wine,
with poetry,
with virtue,
or with what you will.”
--Intoxication by Charles Baudelaire
If you would not feel the horrible burden of Time that bruises your shoulders and bends you to the earth,
you must be drunken without cease.
But how?
With wine,
with poetry,
with virtue,
with what you please.
But be drunken.
And if sometimes, on the steps of a palace,
on the green grass by a moat,
or in the dull loneliness of your chamber,
you should waken up,
your intoxication already lessened or gone,
ask of the wind,
of the wave,
of the star,
of the bird,
of the timepiece;
ask of all that flees,
all that sighs,
all that revolves,
all that sings,
all that speaks,
ask of these the hour;
and wind and wave and star and bird and timepiece will answer you:
“It is the hour to be drunken!
Lest you be the martyred slaves of Time,
intoxicate yourselves,
be drunken without cease!
With wine,
with poetry,
with virtue,
or with what you will.”
--Intoxication by Charles Baudelaire
My Partner is being FINED at work for being gay...
Posted 11 years ago(TL;DR at bottom)
So, we were going over our budget, making plans for our trips this summer, and debating if we wanted to do another con this year or not, when we saw this very odd thing on the pat stub. It read "Medical Imputed Inc" that was odd, as well both he and i are covered under his insurance, and are paying fees for that. Humm, one must google!
And we find this: (it is very wall of text however)
http://www.hrc.org/resources/entry/.....rtner-benefits
So, we're being RETAXED because there happens to be two penis's in our relationship that work. i was floored, this year alone we have paid over 3,000$ in this fee. I don't know why it never jumped out at me before, but i mean, what the fucking hell? he is already going to his HR department first thing monday, and if there is no change than we may be going to the ACLU to try and get something done at work for this.
A bit more reading and i found some companies pay this fee (which many say is discrimination for same sex partners, duh) and it isnt an issue. However, a multi-billion dollar pharmaceutical company apparently cant do the same. Now to make it clear, this fee is ONLY to same sex couples that have BOTH partners making over what can be conceited a legal dependent (over 4300ish a year i think), and not in all states. If one of us had a vajay-jay, even in the same situation, this FINE (tax) WOULDN'T be placed on us. Now, we're getting by, not asking for money, just ranting about how fucked this is.
TL;DR: Being fined for making sure same sex partner has insurance, the fuck?
So, we were going over our budget, making plans for our trips this summer, and debating if we wanted to do another con this year or not, when we saw this very odd thing on the pat stub. It read "Medical Imputed Inc" that was odd, as well both he and i are covered under his insurance, and are paying fees for that. Humm, one must google!
And we find this: (it is very wall of text however)
http://www.hrc.org/resources/entry/.....rtner-benefits
So, we're being RETAXED because there happens to be two penis's in our relationship that work. i was floored, this year alone we have paid over 3,000$ in this fee. I don't know why it never jumped out at me before, but i mean, what the fucking hell? he is already going to his HR department first thing monday, and if there is no change than we may be going to the ACLU to try and get something done at work for this.
A bit more reading and i found some companies pay this fee (which many say is discrimination for same sex partners, duh) and it isnt an issue. However, a multi-billion dollar pharmaceutical company apparently cant do the same. Now to make it clear, this fee is ONLY to same sex couples that have BOTH partners making over what can be conceited a legal dependent (over 4300ish a year i think), and not in all states. If one of us had a vajay-jay, even in the same situation, this FINE (tax) WOULDN'T be placed on us. Now, we're getting by, not asking for money, just ranting about how fucked this is.
TL;DR: Being fined for making sure same sex partner has insurance, the fuck?
Best Reason for Health Insurance.
Posted 12 years agoYet again an FA exodus.
Posted 12 years agoHere is my view on what was said about the artist in question: Dont know him, dont watch him as far as i know. Dont care because the person claiming they were raped didnt go tot he cops. This post here shows my view about how i feel about people in that situation: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2086730/
Old lions are old
Posted 12 years agoI am now 27, I am ageing at the stupidly fast rate of one physical year a year... Where is my shift anti aging drugs!!
Pokemon X and Y Skiny pokemon get!
Posted 12 years agoBut its not the greatest, not the worst, i got a shiny Kakuna on my X version, just starting it to get the mega stones, and boom, a shiny, 20 min into game play XD. At-least its not completly lameXD
Death in the family (Pet)
Posted 12 years agoWe lost one of our Ferrets today, lymphoma claimed him... Fedner, our little Derf (was never smart enough to master the letter P) Curled up to sleep this afternoon and didnt wake back up... Th other 3 seem not to notice yet, and Midnight and I are down. Fender was my first ferret (no he isnt names after the FA mascot, all of our ferrets are names after instruments)
He will be missed, and we love him dearly...
He will be missed, and we love him dearly...
RF 2013
Posted 12 years ago midnightsnow and I will be at RainFurrest 2013, should be fun, if you want to meet up, chill, drink, chat, or eat some soft of food substance with us, just pop he or I a note.Kind of excited for this trip, i get to see some friends i haven't in a while, and we booked a table at the space needle for our anniversary dinner, should be nice.
Any way, see you there!
RMFC 2013
Posted 12 years agoWill be at RMFC 2013 with my mate and some friend, you want to get together, party, few drinks, chat or just hang out, let me know!
A long time coming...
Posted 12 years agoSo, for the last few years, every now and than, i would think about changing my fursona to a lion, it would bounce around my head every new months, but i shrugged it off. After about 5 years, i talked to midnight, and he said maybe it was coming up over and over for a reason, and i should give it serious thought. So, i spent a month talking to just him about it, and than i spoke to some friends privately whose opinions i respected.
Oddly, i found that their opinions where much different than i expected. But two said almost the same thing, that really opened my eyes: I am not the 15 year old that chose to be a snow leopard any more. Move over, i changed so much over the last 3 years i moved here, i wasn't the same snow leopard that moved here.
I never took species change well for people, i always assumed it was something on a whim, and always just kind of shrugged it off. If it lasted a year, i took it seriously. My fursona, totem, what ever you want to call it, is a reflection of me, and if it isn't who i am any more, than i should let it evolve with me.
So, lioness here i am. Same me, new look, new out look.
Oddly enough, i feel more comfortable when thinking of my fursona, feel more fitted. Its nice.
Oddly, i found that their opinions where much different than i expected. But two said almost the same thing, that really opened my eyes: I am not the 15 year old that chose to be a snow leopard any more. Move over, i changed so much over the last 3 years i moved here, i wasn't the same snow leopard that moved here.
I never took species change well for people, i always assumed it was something on a whim, and always just kind of shrugged it off. If it lasted a year, i took it seriously. My fursona, totem, what ever you want to call it, is a reflection of me, and if it isn't who i am any more, than i should let it evolve with me.
So, lioness here i am. Same me, new look, new out look.
Oddly enough, i feel more comfortable when thinking of my fursona, feel more fitted. Its nice.
Kyma free sketch
Posted 12 years agoFc 2013
Posted 13 years agoSee you guys there!
Fc 2013
Posted 13 years agoSee you guys there!
Emergency, please help.
Posted 13 years ago*-*-*-*UPDATE*-*-*-*
Thank you every one, we now have enough to deal with everything! Dabjai is not at his usual vet, and in VERY good hands. He should be home in a few days. Thank you all for your support and help.
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Dabjai, my wonderful, fantastic cat is very ill... We had to take him to the emergency clinic tonight because of a bladder and bowel obstruction. i take very good care of my cat, he is like my son.
But the treatment is... not cheep, and we need about 2,000 in total for everything. we have 1100 right now, enough to get the ball rolling. But the vets wont do anything on payments... If you are able and willing, please send a donation to: realiskat[a]gmail.com though paypal... please help me bring my little boy home...
Thank you every one, we now have enough to deal with everything! Dabjai is not at his usual vet, and in VERY good hands. He should be home in a few days. Thank you all for your support and help.
*-*-*-*
Dabjai, my wonderful, fantastic cat is very ill... We had to take him to the emergency clinic tonight because of a bladder and bowel obstruction. i take very good care of my cat, he is like my son.
But the treatment is... not cheep, and we need about 2,000 in total for everything. we have 1100 right now, enough to get the ball rolling. But the vets wont do anything on payments... If you are able and willing, please send a donation to: realiskat[a]gmail.com though paypal... please help me bring my little boy home...
FUCKING YES!
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.imdb.com/title/tt1731141/
YES YES YES YES YES
-happy nude kitty dance-
Dont know why i am excited, read the book!
YES YES YES YES YES
-happy nude kitty dance-
Dont know why i am excited, read the book!
IM, SL and E-Mail account issues.
Posted 14 years agoIf i have been acting fully for the last few hours or maybe a day, i just learned that an idot got my PW and was "having some fun" with my friends lists. Please contact me if you had an odd encounter and we can figure it out.
Thank you,
Realis
P.S.
All PWs are changed, and what not.
Thank you,
Realis
P.S.
All PWs are changed, and what not.
And now i am 25.
Posted 14 years agoSo for once in a while, i am excited that i am getting older, mostly cause i have a metric ton of friends coming over saterday to celibrate with me! but yes, i am now 5 years away form gay death.
later.
later.
