Theres something fundamentally wrong with that statement.

Take off my clothes please.

Fuck I'm horny.

AAAAANYWAYS

SO I'm back in school. This semester Instead of painting I've got Ceramics and Sculpture.
I am not good at either. Like, I can't make a fuckin' cylinder on the throwing wheel. Although I'm happy with my wire great danes. Anybody want them when I get my portfolio back?
I'm looking forward to bronze casting though.
Right now I should be working on english, but thats lame. Lets talk about penis.
PenisPenisPenisPenis is Amaaaaaaaazing

I really have to pee.
I'm for some reason giddy. I need sleep. I'm going to sleep during English and Art History.

More important: I have no fucking clue where I want to finish my bachelors degree. I originally wanted to move to Calgary to go to ACAD, but now... I'm thinking of opening up to other places. Maybe the University of Alberta... if I can get in... and get roommates...  tenshisirius is moving to Vancouver, I'm wondering if I should go there, to like... the Emily Carr institute. Or east? FUCK I ARE CONFUZZLED. I don't know if I'd be able to find roommates in Calgary. In Vancouver I'd be sharing a loft, east I'd probably be living with one of my cousins (who is fun and wanted to go to a Tiesto show with me).

Back to penis now. Put a dick in my mouth. Now.

I think sleep would be good but it's not going to happen. As for the title... I was listening to "I Hate My Life" by Youth Brigade. Not actually in the song, but what the fuuuck.

I NEED SOME FUCKING CUDDLES

Yeah, I'm fine.

Don't worry about that last post, I'm doing better I'm pretty sure.

It's probably for the best anyway, maybe I'll find a cute local boy who will read comic books with me and watch Battlestar Galactica with me :3

I'm back in Red Deer safely, didn't die on the ... ... 7+ hour drive.

Being single also gives me the absolute freedom to do with myself whatever I want...
So, after  tenshisirius has her way with me, I'm thinking I'm gonna butcher my hair.
Comment if you don't want to see me shave the sides off and dye the rest bright pink.

Also.
Free art offer is still up!
I need to get betters at my furries!

And all I can say is... Happy. Fucking. New Year.
Lets see, I spent the night alone in my basement watching cartoons.

But I guess the best part of this year so far requires a bit of a backstory. This also accounts for a bit of my emotional troubles in 2008.

Basically, I got into my first relationship with another man. Back in September. I dunno, I thought we hit it off really well, but we never really "confirmed" anything outright. Which would be why I never mentioned it here, or to any of my real life friends. He lived an hour and a half away, so it was a little tricky seeing each other. In the five months we were "dating", I only saw him 4 times. But then in about November, whenever we tried to do something, it always ended up getting canceled, due to weather, work, school, whatever. And then in December... we talked about a third of the amount that we did before. Then... we started talking after three days of not talking, and I mention doing something when I get back to Red Deer. And after like... half an hour of silence... it was just... ended.

I'm not angry, I'm not uber sad...
I just can't get it through my head that my first gay relationship.... was killed by distance.
Two. Fucking. Hours.
I still want to be friends with the guy... I dunno, is it just denial right now and then in a few days I'll end up with a bottle of pills and a 40 of vodka?

So I guess.... I'm fucking single again... I hate that. I hate being alone. When I'm alone I'm left to the mercy of my thoughts... which apparently hate me.
Just like the universe.

*sigh*

Merry Christmas/Chanukah/other beliefs holidays to all!

The main reason I'm posting this is because for the past few days, I've been feeling a lot better than my last journal. I guess it really was just the shock of seeing everyone, maybe some withdrawal from the prozac, and it was also my first time being around smoking and drugs in a really long time (I hadn't had a smoke since October, but now thats changed. Same with a drink), and drugs I just... I've seen to many of my friends throw their lives over to drugs, I've seen what they can do to people. I don't like them and I never want to do them again.

But away from that subject, it only depresses me.

All you need to know is yes I'm still alive, and unfortunately for the world I'm probably gonna be alive for a while.

SO GET READY WORLD! I'M ABOUT TO FUCK YOU IN THE ASS!
HARDCORE!

My macbook finally came in with Logic preloaded onto it, so expect to be hearing some more music from me in the near future.

PS: I'm bored, anybody want me to draw something for them/do an art trade?

Ok.
So here I am, back in my hometown. I'm visiting all of the friends I left, seeing my family, I just learned that my mom has a contact within Image comics (at least, I think it is), I should be happy.

But I'm not
I'm feeling the worst I've felt in years. I sit here, wishing that I didn't have to exist. When I woke up this morning, no one was home. The first thing that comes to my mind?
I have a box cutter in the next room. Maybe I could use it.
Obviously not to open boxes.
It seems as if that little voice in the depths of my consciousness has either gone on vacation or is sick of all my bullshit. The feeling that its not my time yet, that I've got something I'm supposed to do, it's not there.
There's just... emptiness.

I don't know why I'm feeling like this, I should be happy, I've missed my friends and family so much. I don't understand it. I have my pills back, but now I'm wondering if the withdrawal is just starting to hit me now because of the length it takes for them to work. But then there's also the things going on in my life that are tearing my brain and emotions apart. I'm so confused, I don't know what to do with myself, I don't know if I'm making the right choices, I don't even understand myself.

It's like I'm living inside a strangers body, watching him fuck himself over and over again.

I can't eat, I can't sleep, I've been trying to lose myself in music but its not working like it used to, it just depresses me more because I feel that I will never be able to make anything worthwhile like that. My parents have a bunch of bottles of whiskey, sometimes I feel like downing them to drown out myself and replace it with something else. Other times I feel like downing them with a few bottles of pills.

I'm not even fucking 20 yet, am I really meant to die now? Without ever having truly loved someone? Without making a difference in someone's life?

I don't understand what is going on in my life. I can't ask for help, and at times I feel as if nobody would ever be able to help me. I feel disconnected from the world, like I'm floating in the ether, not able to meaningfully connect with anyone, even the people I love. It's like there's a gap between me and everyone else.

I honestly don't know if this is the worst I've ever felt in my life. It feels like it is.
Maybe I do need to go the psychiatrist...

Its true

---

For my drawing class, I had to write a report on an artist, talk about their background, and most importantly their art. According to the sheet, it was to gain a better understanding of the (art) world around us, and of our own work. I have to agree with that statement :P

We were given a list of possible candidates. I looked through this, and other than the illustrator who did the plates for Dante's Divine Comedy (which I bought a FULL copy of for 20$, thats three books, combined with amazing engravings) I saw the only other name I recognized on the list: Egon Schiele

Egon Schiele was an expressionist/Jugenstil painter from the early 20th century. His distorted forms really struck me, and I have been in love with his art ever since I saw it back in high school. I chose to do my project on him

FUN FACT: Schiele was born EXACTLY a century before me. Same date, just one hundred years earlier.
I found that fun.

But other artists who have influenced me:
Francis Bacon - His grotesque paintings are absolutely beautiful. I saw an interview with him, he was a very interesting person.

Salvador Dali - Yeah yeah yeah, everyone says Dali. But he is an amazing painter. His handling of his medium is amazing, and the subject matter is astounding as well. Plus, his paranoiac method intrigues me.

Jamie Hewlitt - Ever since I first heard and saw The Gorillaz, I was in love with both the music and their design. And then I found out about Tank Girl, and came in my panties. Booga is the hott shit yo. Also, look up his designer dildos.

That Guy Who Did Illustrations For Dr. Hunter S. Thompson - They blow my mind. He should get awards. And many a blow-jay.

And Last, but definitely not least,

YOU

Seriously, I probably would still be trying to become a rockstar (and probably would have ended up like Ian Curtis :c) if I hadn't stumbled upon my first bit of furry art. I wouldn't have been inspired to try to take my art to the next level if it wasn't for you mofos. BIG HUGS ALL AROUND

That probably sounds so cliche and lame, BUT I DONT GIVE A FLYING FUCK!

If you haven't heard of some of these artists, I suggest looking them up

Now.

THERES NO MEME THIS TIME!!!

Yeah. Big surprise, eh?
Theres a free art giveaway at the bottom, but if you get through the long stuff, thanks for reading

Well, a little update on my life. I'm 95% moved into my new house, all I've got to do is move my food over and buy a bed. I'm happy here, I actually LIKE the people I live with.

Emotion-wise... I'm not doing well. I can't shake this feeling of inadequacy, I always feel like I'll never amount to anything, my art sucks, my music is at a complete standstill, it really gets me down.
I'm not sure if its just because I haven't taken my pills in... nearly a week, or if its just the truth
I'm thinking its mostly just the truth.
Like... I just don't know...
Sometimes I think about suicide, but there's so much I want to do in life... and I'm not even through my first semester of fucking college.
It's a strange juxtaposition, the feeling of complete obsolescence, combined with the feeling that -I haven't done enough-. Like.. I feel I'm meant for something more.

That feeling is the only thing that keeps me going nowadays. Most of my friend from my hometown aren't able to talk to me, and the few people I've met on FA... I don't know.. I just have an extremely hard time talking to them. It's not that theres anything wrong with them, I enjoy talking to me, but I feel... that I'm not good enough.
That feeling again.
It's fucking me over.

I really wish I could talk to people.

I know I write a lot of these emo journals, I'm really sorry for spamming you're inbox's with them
But if you read them... *Hugs*

I'm having trouble getting my creative juices flowing... I really am clueless on how to draw anything furry, or comic-esque.
I dunno... if anybody wants some free art of no guaranteed quality or deadline, just like, comment or note me.
Tips would be appreciated
Also, would anyone like to see any of the stuff I've been working on this semester?

Thanks for reading if you did,
And big hugs for everyone.

Well, schools going good, got B-'s in my drawing and design class and a B in my painting class. No clue what my Music Theory mark is (yeah, I'm taking a music theory class. I want to do some performance art). I dropped my english class because... well because I skipped the midterm and didn't hand anything in. That class just got me down, I'm not good at writing essays, I'm more of a spontaneous thought writer (I'm debating putting some examples up, should I?)
I hate my roommates except for the middle eastern (he's cool). The other two are racist bigots who still think its high school AND WON'T DO THE FUCKING DISHES AND STAY UP ALL NIGHT PARTYING WHILE I'M TRYING TO SLEEP BECAUSE I HAVE CLASS IN THE MORNING. They make a lot of racist comment about the other roommate when he's not around. And erase the penises I draw on our message board thing on our door.
Luckily I'm moving in with my best friend and her family. They will now become my surrogate family ;D.
Plus they're barely charging me anything for rent.

Emotionally, I'm fine... which is a surprise to me.
Also, painting while naked and sleep deprived is fun.

AND NOW THE LONG POINTLESS MEME!

stolen from  gator3k

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Usually I just get everything wet... I can't stand the feeling of only one part of me being wet and the rest dry. After that, I usually try to get all the paint, graphite, ink, and seme- I mean... more ink off my hands.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
I have two favorite hoodies, one is black (like my soul ;D) with Romanesque design on the back (in dark gray, almost not visible)
the other is navy blue with a crackled "33" on it. I stole it from my brother-in-law who if he wasn't my brother-in-law I would think about doing him but he's my brother-in-law

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yeah, I'm moving in with her!

4. Do you plan outfits?
No, I just grab clothing. Clothing that tends to match. (I mean, almost all of my clothing is black)
Right now I'm wearing yellow/black plaid pants with a black shirt with a yellow Gogol Bordello print on it.
I got to see them live it was ORGASMIC

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Unshowered.

6. What’s the craziest thing you've ever done in your life?
Drove while on salvia (mushroom/acid trip in the span of 10-20 minutes)
I thought I was flying through Edmonton and I was Spiderman

7. Who was the last person you kissed?
THE GIRL I'M MOVING IN WITH. Yes... I like kissing so... I kissed her... it was... awkward.

8. Person before that?
NOT TELLING >.>

10. What are you craving right now?
Dick.
and Poutine.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
My aunt's house. She likes cabbage.
I don't.

12. Do you make prank calls?
I tried once after eating 3 caffeine pills. Nobody answered so I got distracted by canned ham.

13. Ever hooked up with some one out of state?
... I don't live in the states...
But I also don't "hook up"
It's relationship all the way for me
It's because I listen to The Cure I think...

14. Do you sleep with any stuff animals?
No :c
There's a big stuffed panda I want at the local Toys 'R Us that I desire..

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
What the fuck is the taco song?
I only dance to hardcore techno, trance, punk, or industrial

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Hahaha no

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Both.

18. Do you like anyone right now?
Yeah.

19. What do you think of crickets?
THEY HAVE INTERESTING INSIDES!
*is probably criminally insane*

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Baby, I AM a celebrity
I think I saw Jhonen Vasquez in a comic book store once. Seriously, it looked EXACTLY like him
Also, I used to be on talking terms with D.R.C., until a while ago and we just sorta stopped talking.
He sent me a picture of his penis.
It was nice.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
only with fries and gravy
Poutine is the god of all foods

22. What are you listening to right now?
Dr. Steel, Journey (YES I LISTEN TO JOURNEY SHUT UP), Pansy Division, and The Psychedelic Furs

25. Would you go sky diving?
HELL NO
I'm afraid of heights

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
I don't think he would want to go anywhere with me...

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
NO
Potatoes are a valuable resource.

28. Is there anything sparkly on you?
... My glasses are shiny...

30. Do you rent movies often?
OMG way too much. I have a problem. I used to work at a movie store so I got into the habit,

31. Who sits behind you in your math class?
In high school, I normally sat in the back, but occasionally there were gangsta-wannabes behind me that threw stuff at me.
I stopped taking math at grade 11

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
I doubt it

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Eaan probably to play videogames and possible Kaila to take some photos for a painting I need to do

36. Brown or white egg?
Sorry, I don't eat eggs

38. Ever been on a train?
Yes. Lots if you include LRT's

39. Ever told someone you loved them?
Yeah. I told that one girlfriend that I had that I loved her. Then went on this site and looked at gay furry porn. I feel bad.

40. Do you have a cell phone?
Yes. I get free texting.
If you wanna text me, just note me for my number ;D

43. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
SHE BETTER BE GETTING HER SWEET ASS BACK HER WITH MY ASIAN

44. Ever had cream puffs?
Ew no

45. Ever had Breaded Shrimp?
I think. I don't eat seafood though

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes. That part with the dog FUCKING TRAUMATIZED ME

47. What was the last question you asked?
You got a mic? (to this guy that wants to start a death metal band and I said I'll play bass with him as long as I can be LOUD)

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Mr. Hyde - Chronicles of the BeastMan
The Dresden Dolls - No, Virginia
Dr. Steel- Dr. Steel

49. What is/was your bus number for school?
My mom drove me to school until I got my license. She worked at the school I went to and then I got my license and switched schools and drove to school because I'm a fuckin' bad ass mofo
*blasts Freezepop while driving to school, and The Scissor Sisters while driving away*

50. *Insert random generic question here*
Why yes Mr. Steven's, I do lie about my sexuality to give blood.

51. Is your hair curly?
Unfortunately yes.
I want Edward Scissorhands hair

52. Last time you cried?
Um... OH when I saw Brokeback Mountain last month. I got a little teary eyed. A teacher at my school was in that movie

53. Ever walked into a wall?
Yes

54. Ever walked UP a wall?
Yes actually, I am quite the fan of Parkour

55. Have you ever bought anything from PacSun?
Pacman?

56. Favorite time of the year?
Summer

58. Favorite color(s)?
Purple and Orange

60. Do you have any tattoos?
I want them :c

61. Who was the last person you held hands with?
Best friend

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
I don't have a TV

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
MS Paint

64. Why was your default picture taken?
BECAUSE I OWN AN OFFICIOUS SEEING EYE BITCH T-SHIRT

65. Do you like your life right now?
It's... ok

66. How do you feel about 'love'?
I want it.
Badly.

67. What is your favorite animal?
Pandas and Kangaroos
Dogs and Mice/Rats are up there too

69. Do you have good vision?
*Big emo glasses*
Nope, and its just getting worse

70. Can you hula hoop?
... I ... don't know

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I dunno.
I guess I need a boyfriend first.
I know I wouldn't be able to forgive someone if they cheated on me with the toaster

72. Do you have a job?
Nope ;D

74. What are you wearing?
Plaid pants and a Gogol Bordello t-shirt

75. What does your hair look like?
Curly and horrible, with a blond streak in it

76. Ever climbed out a window?
Yes, to do graffiti. I didn't want my mom to catch me

77. Can you handle the truth?
I hope to think so. Maybe if the media would stop lying to me.

78. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Hellraiser and Nasferatu

79. How often do you talk on the phone?
Occaisonally

80. What's the longest you talked to someone on the phone?
Nearly an hour.

81. Do you hate/dislike more than 3 people?
Yes.

83. Are you sarcastic?
Sometimes

84. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.

85. Do looks matter?
No. Er... I guess not what everyone else thinks about "looks" appeals to me.
I find a nerdy guy FUCKING HOT.

86. Do you use chapstick?
nope

87. Are you too forgiving?
Possibly

88. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Yes. A belt, and two t-shirts. Some of my (girl) pants were possibly gotten from there too.

89. Do you own a gun?
No, I don't believe in guns. Too impersonal >:D

90. Have you made a prank phone call?
Once

91. Have you ever been in a castle?
Yes actually, there's a beautiful castle in Toronto

92. Do you like your hair?
NO

93. Do you like yourself?
Not really...

95. Are you more pissed off, upset, or happy most of the time?
Upset

96. When was the last time you talked on MSN
Right now.

99. What are you doing today?
Videogames and reference photos.

100. Tag 5 people:
Nah :P
Do it if you want.

stolen from teh  frisby

001. Name → Tyler *sigh* MY FIRST NAME IS A LAST NAME D:
002. Nickname(s) → Sylas, Sven, I've got lots
003. Status → Groggy and hungry
004. Zodiac sign → Gemini
005. Male or female → *checks* uhhh... man
006. Elementary → A lonely hell hole with almost no friends
007. Middle School → got a few more 'friends'
008. High School → same as above two, but with people who decided it would be fun to light me on fire
009. Smart → A bit. I'm just not good at math or writing essays

010. Hair color → Brown with a blonde streak in it
011. Long or short →Short, I cut my hair for the first time in like a few years a while ago
012. Loud or Quiet → Sober: veeery quiet and shy, Drunk: Loud and friendly
013. Sweats or Jeans → Plaid pants plz

014. Phone or Camera → Oldschool camera plz
015. Health freak → HAHAHAHAHA I live off Kraft Dinner and noodles, hell naw
016. Drink or Smoke? → Yes and yes, but both under severe moderation
017. Do you have a crush on someone? yup, as always
018. Eating or Drinking → umm... they go good together
019. Piercings → nothing yet
020. Tattoos → same as piercings

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing → nothing
024. First best friend → Jonah
025. First award → High Achievers award (got for getting over 85% in all classes) I USED to be super smart
026. First crush → before puberty: girl in my class (I was a confused child D:) Middle school: a dude in my class. High school: The infamous (well, to people that know me in real life) track 9, Michael, the trombone player in band class
027. First pet → A dog named Jessie, I miss her soooo fucking much
028. First big vacation → Newfoundland. Which is where my parents are from. I got to see Great Big Sea live....
030. First big birthday → Nope.

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating → Nothing, debating making bacon...
050. Drinking → same as above
052. I'm about to → put clothes on and go to class
053. Listening to → The Smiths
054. Plans for today → Go to classes

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? → Nope
059. Want to get married? → maybe, although I don't really believe in it...
060. Careers – I want to be a comic book artist, maybe with some gallery work...

WHICH IS BETTER ON GUYS?

068. Lips or eyes → eye's
070. Shorter or taller? → taller, but it doesn't really matter
072. Romantic or spontaneous → both >..>
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → ... my sense of "nice" probably isn't like everyone else
074. Sensitive or loud → sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
077. Troublemaker or hesitant → hesitant....

HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts → I lost a retainer once
081. Ran away from home → nope, wanted to though,
084. Broken someone's heart → nah, she fucked her ex and got back with him three days after I broke up with her
085. Been arrested → no, but gotten close to
087. Cried when someone died → I cried when the dog died in I Am Legend

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → Nope, I'm a hopeless faggot with no future
090. Miracles → No
091. Love at first sight → No. Lust at first sight on the other hand....
092. Heaven → No
093. Santa Claus → who wouldn't want to believe in a big man that sneaks into your house once a year?
094. Sex on the first date → naw, I'm not really into that. First date with a dude, got really close to it though >.>
095. Kiss on the first date → Technically I've only been on one first date. We made out for nearly 5 hours on my bed. So yes plz

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yeah
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → no, I'm jobless, broke, hate my roommates, hate myself, I'm not happy with life.
099. Do you believe in God → Only in an animistic sense
100. Post as 100 truths and tag: nope >:3

I wasn't tagged by anyone, I just stole it from  mitsuro
he has an awesome avatar >.>

I'm doing this to unwind after spending... 3 hours on a still life and half an hour stippling. Personally, I prefer gestural mass shading rather than stippling. Much more chaotic :D

Characters:
Sylas Aesop (aka Tyler aka The Stocking Boy) ... meaning these are my actual responses.
Trubsinn (The original kangaroo character)
aaaand introducing:
Samantha (The wall)

How old are you?
Sylas: "I'm... 19"
Trubsinn: "Like fuck if I know..."
Samantha: "I'm not telling you dickwad. A lady never reveals her age"


What's your eye color?
Sylas: "Brown unfortunately, just like almost everyone else" *sighs"
Trubsinn: "... I haven't seen my eyes in like... years. It's all this damn hats fault. Too bad I super-glued it to my head..."
Samantha: "... I'm a WALL. DO WALLS HAVE FUCKING EYES?!"

What's your height?
Sylas: "Like... 5"10' or something.... I'm not good with measurement
Trubsinn: "Probably like, 6'4" or 6'5""
Samantha: "Nine feet."

Do you have any bad habits?
Sylas: "sociophobia, and scratching my nose. And... I have a tendency to shake. Smoking and drinking are pretty fun."
Trubsinn: "Drug addiction, abuse, and no regard for my own personal safety. Also, I chew my nails"
Samantha: "I talk to Sylas. He thinks he's insane"


What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
Sylas: "Bubblegum" *is still a child at heart... oh wait.. theres no heart left in him*
Trubsinn: "Anything without nuts."
Samantha: "... Do I look like I have a digestion system?"

Have you killed anyone?
Sylas: "Could have. No drugs for me anymore."
Trubsinn: "... No comment"
Samantha: "Well... there was this one time.."


Do you hate anyone?
Sylas: "Not overly. My roommates piss the hell out of me though."
Trubsinn: "I hate EVERYTHING. I just hate some things less."
Samantha: "Whats hate?"

Do you love anyone?
Sylas: "Wouldn't know"
Trubsinn: "Gave up on that emotion long ago."
Samantha: "God damn living things and their emotions..."

What is your job?
Sylas: "Right now unemployed, hoping to sell some art soon"
Trubsinn: "Looking to start a band... so... Musician I guess..."
Samantha: "Professional wall"

Boy or Girl:
Sylas: "Boy!"
Trubsinn: "Undecided *glares*"
Samantha: "Uh... neither."

What do you do to relax?
Sylas: Play videogames, doodle, watch old, black and white movies."
Trubsinn: "Heroin"
Samantha: ".... ... ..."

Any hidden talents no-one knows about you?
Sylas: *puts leg behind head* "I used to be able to do the human pretzle"
Trubsinn: "I can count to ten!"
Samantha: "I can move ever so slightly when nobody is looking..."


What do you think of your creator?
Sylas: I am the creator!... I suck
Trubsinn and Samantha: "We agree! he sucks!"

What color is your hair (or scales)?
Sylas: "Black and white, with brown ... ... um... head hair?"
Trubsinn: "Brown fur, I dye my hair so much I forget it's original colour. Right now its purple"
Samantha: "... Right now I'm painted a wonderful turquoise"

Now I tag: Whoever the fuck wants to do this <3

Note: Samantha actually is the wall.
I talk to her when I'm bored/want to fuck with people. >.>

Tagged by Sir  frisby

Alright ghouls and spooks here are the rules for this halloween meme/quiz thing :P :
1. You must tag atleast 3 other people.
2. You CANT retag someone >.< because thats just silly >.>;
3. You must tell the person you tagged that you tagged them :P

Thats all! Ready? Right.... on we go.

1. What does Halloween mean to you?
Halloween means a time where I'm not called a fag for dressing only in black, wearing make-up, and watching old horror movies. It was my favorite holiday when I still had a zest for life.
As a child, my role models were Beetlejuice, The Addams Family, and Elvira. I guess from birth I was a weirdo. Also, I thought that to make a baby, you had to have sex with someone of the same gender (IE: Two men having sex = Baby boy)

I was a gay weirdo from the start!

2. What is the best song that would sum up Halloween for you? (If you cant figure out one song make up a list of five maximum o.o)
1- Every Day is Halloween - Ministry
2- The Addams Family Theme Song (<3)
3- Horny in a Hearse - The Nekromantix
4- Anything by Creature Feature <3

3. Whats the worse thing to happen to you on Halloween?
Almost every halloween it snowed. imagine trying to fit a costume over a snowsuit. a few years it was too cold to go outside T.T

4. Whats the worse candy that you've ever gotten on a trick or treating raid?
Anything with nuts

5. What movies do you think make up for the best all night spooktacular Halloween video marathon?
(as with Sir Frisby, I am a horror aficionado so here's several:
1) 13 Ghosts (original)
2) House on Haunted Hill (original)
3) Die! Die! My Darling!
4) Night of The Living Dead (any of them, I've seen them all, original, 90s remake, and 3-D with Sid Haig)
5) Dead-Alive (A MASTERPIECE IN MY MIND!)

6. What movie would you never ever want to miss seeing at Halloween?
I have so many horror movies, its always a new selection for me.

7. Do you like to listen to Halloween themed music during October?
um... I listen to goth music, horrorpunk, psychobilly, and similar music. Does that count?

8. Now for something completely different. Do you believe in ghosts?
Not in a oooh spooky ghosts will haunt you way. More as a spiritual residue left by the life and/or death of a person/people

9. If you answered yes have you ever seen, heard, or felt a ghost?
Nothing more than homemade Ouija boards

10. What about other things that go bump in the night?
I go werewolf hunting almost every full moon

11. Tell me about something that scared you during Halloween.
I had a dream that zombies were going to fucking eat me.
I was 8
I was terrified

12. Where is the scariest place you've been on Halloween?
Middle of the forest behind my house. At least one person has gone missing in that forest

Well thats it for now kiddies... join us next Halloween season for more spooktacular questions into the horrors that creep and crawl inside your skin.

Zombies(tagged peoples :P):  yuki72  xxpeekabooxx  vollita

Dear  frisby

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it When you put cuffs on me Under a state of trance and I saw you Ignore Bill Clinton. I'm sure you're Ashamed enough to understand That Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning Your memories from the military service to you, but I'll keep Your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I Get sick when I think of starting your new life as a clone.

In pain,
Tyler


I changed the answer on the last one slightly because it MADE NO SENSE

I would totally sign an emotional letter with "In pain,"
Because life is an eternal dark abyss that's full of conformists and nazi bastards *takes drag of clove cigarette*

In Sylas-related news, I'm DJing for the halloween party that the Visual Arts Society is hosting, and if I do a good job, I might be offered a job at the campus bar for DJing on friday nights haha. All I need to do is get a costume... I'm thinking of basing it off of Alex from A Clockwork Orange
My storyboard project for drawing class disturbed a lot of people :D

meme stolen from  bigwolfbebad

I Fear…

[ ] the dark
[X] staying single forever
[X] being a parent
[X] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[X] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 5

[X] being touched
[XXXX] fire
[ ] deep water
[X] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[X] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 10

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[ ] clowns
[X] dolls - Porcelin ones at least
[ ] large crowds of people
[X] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists - Hospitals in general
[X] tornadoes

Total so far: 17

[X] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[X] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[X] growing up

Total so far: 26

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[x] throwing up
[x] falling in love
[ ] super secret
[x] the past
[x] being hated
[ ] Being fat
[x] being skinny

Total : 34

I'm a nervous wreck

Well, so far college is going good, really getting some much needed practice. Been really missing my friend, but I'm finally starting to open up to people enough to say hello. Right at the moment, I'm talking to someone, possibly might be getting some work as a comic artist for someone. Very unlikely, but still, possible work is better than sitting in my dorm masturbating. Wait... it might not be... but oh well. Scratch that, I can't get the work, its super-mainstream style comic art, and I have NO experience with that

Some pointers or help would be much appreciated in that area haha.

In other news, does anyone have any links where I would be able to sell my artwork, I need some spare cash to buy por- I mean... food.

In other other news, English class sucks big hairy woman-balls (don't ask... I just typed without thinking...)

In worldly-er news, I'm pretty pumped to vote for the first time. Although, I'm very worried that the Conservatives will win a majority government... and If my knowledge of Mr. Stephen Harpers stance on gay rights is correct... He's going to try to get rid of gay marriage in Canada.

If that happens, I'm taking action. I don't care if I'm just some fucking faggy nobody, I'm doing something. Most likely a hungerstrike.

I am an ANGRY HOMO

AND I WILL KILL YOU

but not you guys
you all get the loves <3

Because 20 is for pussies
I'm bored waiting for my art history class to start

yoinked from  gator3k

1. How old will you be in five years?
23 HOLY FUCK OH NOES D:

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
Nobody
I'm a lonely bastard D:

3. How tall are you?
Near 6 feet I believe, probably like 5 feet 10 inches i think

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
I'm debating going to the slaughterhouse to do some sketches if I can get in
I can't wait till we start doing some life drawing >.>

5. What's the last movie you saw?
Heathers
Fuck that movie made me lol

6. Who was the last person you called?
 tenshisirius shes one of my best friends

7. Who was the last person to call you?
my mommy >.>

8. What was the last text message you received?
 kentam telling me he is sore from working out

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
I don't get voicemail

10. Do you prefer to call or text?
Text, though I have no objection to being called as long as im not in class or touching myself

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Attempting to sleep after touching myself profusely

12. Are your parents married/divorced?
They're still married

13. When did you last see your mom?
Last friday when she helped me move in

14. What color are your eyes?
Brown, but due to the meds they put me on, it's more pupil than iris (coincidentally I have a hard time seeing in the dark)

15. What time did you wake up today?
7 am

16. What are you wearing right now?
Tightish black-grey jeans, long-sleeve heavy-red shirt with thumbholes, armbands, and a ... low cut neck i think its called

17. What is your favorite Christmas song?
Cantique de Noel

18. Where is your favorite place to be?
I... don't know

19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
Fort McMurray, my home-town

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
I really want to go to paris,
But I also want to go to Romania

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
Dead, Dying, Struggling to get a job, Starving, or insane from eating paint to survive

22. Do you tan or burn?
Tan ;D

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Zombies o.o
... and snakes
24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
I Love Lucy, I fucking LOVE that show XD

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
I don't own any, but I think theres two

26. How big is your bed?
Single, but I fit me and said friend above on it

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
Laptop I stole from my sister

28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
I wear mah boxors normally. I don't really sleep naked because the first (and last time) i did it my mom came in to wake me up XD.

29. What color are your sheets?
Black
like my soul ;_;
... and possibly my lungs

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
four

31. What is your favorite season?
Autumn because I like the weather, it doesn't rain much, and theres halloween, when I can do what ever the fuck I want and not get called a freak as much ;D

32. What is your second favorite season?
um... Summer I guess, but it really sucks when you only own black clothes so it gets -really-hot

33. What do you like about Winter?
Theres no bugs. Thats it. It could get to -50 degrees celsius in Fort McMurray

34. What do you like about the summer?
I can has tan!

35. What do you like about winter?
...

36. How many states/provinces have you lived in?
1, lived in this province my entire life

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?
Fort McMurray, Calgary, and now Red Deer, all in Alberta

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Shoes, preferrebly my creepers (they have 1 inch platforms so I feel taller ;D)
or my giant punk boots

39. Are you a social person?
Hell no! I'm shy as hell, it takes me a long time to even get the courage to talk to somebody over the internet

40. What was the last thing you ate?
Cheese Sammich ;D

41. What is your favorite restaurant?
Pizza

42. What is your favorite ice cream?
Bubble gum *is a child at heart I guess >.>*

43. What is your favorite dessert?
POPSICLES! (I swear, all the awesome foods look like dicks. hot dogs, popsicles, burritos, It's the divine maker(s) telling us all to be gay!)

44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
Chicken noodle >..>

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
I hate peanut butter and any kind of nuts
I used to tell people that I was allergic to them XD

46. Do you like Chinese food?
At times

47. Do you like coffee?
Too bitter

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
I drink apple juice ;D

49. What do you drink in the morning?
Usually a pepsi or an energy drink.
I can't drink milk, it hate the taste

50. Do you sleep alone?
yes T.T
I hate sleeping alone

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
curled up into a ball when i sleep alone, and i have a tendency to wrap myself around anyone thats sleeping next to me

52. Do you know how to play poker?
nope :D

53. Do you like to cuddle?
YESH!

54. Have you ever been to Canada?
I LIVE HERE

55. Do you have an addictive personality?
YES. I get addicted to like everything, I'm already starting to become an alcoholic (if the definition of an alcoholic is someone who drinks to forget their problems)
but surprisingly, I don't crave smoking
I only do it when I'm stressed usually o.o

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
At home
I literally have no money
all I have is groceries

57. Do you look forward to your birthday?
No, I don't really have any friends here, so nobody to celebrate it with. Unless I go back to Fort Mac for my birthday... But other than that no.
Every day is just a day closer to dying *isn't in that great of a mood*

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Not personally
But DJ Qualls and me share a birthday

59. Do you want kids?
No, I despise children after the age of four. maybe if they went straight from four to being 14, then maybe I would want one. But if I ever got the misfortune to have the sexy times with a female *shudder* I would want a daughter
So I can condition her to be the most punk girl ever!!! She'd have tank girl haircuts forever >;3

60. Do you speak any other languages?
I speak english, and want to learn spanish, french (just so you non-canadians know, its NOT required XP), and russian
I also used to speak Japanese like a japanese child
I also would love to learn sign language, I feel so bad whenever I see a deaf/mute person and they cant communicate without the aid of someone

61. Have you ever gotten stitches?
Nope

62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Well, I was "in one" in a staged car accident for Students Against Drinking and Driving. I died on the operating table D:

63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Ocean, I miss it so much (my newphie blood calls to me...)

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
window

65. Do you know how to drive stick?
No, I can barely drive XD
I don't know how the hell I even got my liscense

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Comic books, cds, literature (I found a giant book of Edgar Allen Poe's short stories and poems for like 12 bucks), and poutine

67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
I have once worn a necklace 24 hours. It broke
I was sad T.T

68. What is your favorite TV show?
I Love Lucy, the original Scooby Doo, The Addam's Family, The Twilight Zone

69. Can you roll your tongue?
yesh :P

70. Who is the funniest person you know?
My drugged out semi-nudist friend who woke me up once by breaking into my house and doing the silence of the lambs pose whilst whispering my name

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
I wish D:

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This) by The Eurythmics

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
I have some hand-me-downs that I kept because they were my current size now and I got them when I was like 8

74. What red object is closest to you right now?
The Red on my bondage bear's gay pride flag

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
yeah, because i walk around while doing it

76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
I haven't had a closet in years

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
A big bear, so I could die giving it a hug.
Bees terrify me o.o

78. Do you flirt a lot?
No, I don't even think I've EVER flirted

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Sweet and Sour

80. What is your favorite food?
Pizza

81. Can you change the oil on a car?
Nope :D *is useless*

82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
No, I don't speed unless its 3 am in the morning and im trying to drive with my feet

83. Have you ever run out of gas?
nope

84. What is your usual bedtime?
It varies a lot

85. What was the last book you read?
Working on the E. A. Poe book I mentioned before, and a book on werewolves because I loves them

86. Do you read the newspaper?
Nope

87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
No, but I buy Rue Morgue almost every month

89. Do you watch soap operas?
XD waaay to boring and lame for me

90. Do you dance in the car?
Yes, theres a video of it somewhere on the internet

91. What radio station did you last listen to?
I don't listen to the radio

92. Who do you have in a picture frame near you?
No picture frames ;D

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
My locker comb. and how many drinks I owe someone

94. What is your favorite candle scent?
Raspberry, and my fav incence is a tie between this spiritual guide stuff, and cannabis (it smells so good >..>)

95. What is your favorite board game?
... I dont know

97. When was the last time you attended church?
I went for my sisters wedding like years ago. The first time I almost had to go to church, I faked illness XD

98. Who was your favorite teacher in high school?
Mr Eddy, my band teacher
I miss him and his skullet ;_;

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
2 days i think

100. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
A girl I met on tuesday who bought me around 9 rounds of drinks
It was kareoke night at the campus bar
I did Why Do You Love Me by Garbage and Parklife by Blur
people clapped @.@

I can't sleep
My orientation is tomorrow, hurray for first year of college *puts on party hat*"
Moved into my dorm room on friday, finally got internet hooked up today (and damn there were a lot of submissions o.o)
One of my roommates still hasn't moved in yet, but one moved in today and the other had already been living there for a week.
I have no clue what the newer one is like, but the other one is pretty cool, took me to a nightclub and a country bar (which was a little scary... and they didnt have any faggy drinks D:)
I bought the first season of I Love Lucy on DVD, god damn I love that show.
And some awesome t-shirts I found at the Value Village here.
I'm gonna start making some iron-on transfer t-shirts
Because I'm bad-ass like that
Also, I have a Kung Fu Panda poster in my room
I need to post more art up, start hacking away at all the sketches I intended to finish
I fuckin' love rice


... This is what happens when I can't sleep...
I send my appy-polly-loggies

Well, tomorrow I'm heading down to Red Deer
I move into my dorm on Friday
I'm nervous and excited at the same time, I have no clue what my roommates are going to be like, it's my first year out of my parents house, first year of college, lots of firsts
I'm going to miss my friends a lot, but I hope to visit them lots ( kentam  vollita  tenshisirius I Love youu<3)

But its for the best, I can't stand that horrid horrid place. I'm hoping to not have a crack dealer as a neighbour for a long time.
I'm hoping for the best.

Today... I realized... I have a LOT of clothes. And because of these clothes, I missed the ice cream truck D:<

There is at least one person on your watch list that wants to fuck the hell out of you.

So lets play the Fuck or Pass game.

The rules are simple.

If you want to fuck the person who posts this, send him or her a NOTE saying only "Id Fuck You." But you have to post this in your journal in exchange.
same with the pass just say pass


God damn memes... and their fun-ness
I'm honestly curious >..>

Okay, so ACTUAL NEWS:
I'm moving in 9 days *rejoices*
I got my scanner and tablet working. I'm working on an older sketch currently,
and you will finally get to see my own personal take on Panda me

At least its better than heroin

Stolen from  kinkycoyote
He's awesome ;D

Level 1
(X) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar (I smoke slim cigars because I'm a fag.. and they come in cherry <3)
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex (Never meant it though. I was dared to and given 5 bucks... I would really like to mean it at least once though >.>)
SO FAR: 3

Level 2
( ) Are / Been In Love (I fucking hate being alone)
(X) Dumped someone (I had a girlfriend. I broke up with her... 2 months after joining this site. We'd been together 9 months. 3 months after that I told her I was gay. She wasn't surprised)
(X) Been In A Fist Fight (I'm a violent, emotional, angry person.)
SO FAR: 5

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person (Yeah, I've only had two crushes on people that were younger than me. ANd I've had sooo many crushes)
(x) Skipped Class (Both in K-12, back when I stopped caring and was debating suicide once again. I've done it lots, I skipped religion class for an entire semester, damn catholic school)
(... 0.5?) Slept With A Co-worker (we shared a bed? I'm still a virgin)
( ) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Furaffinity Friends
( ) Been To Paris (I want to sooo bad though)
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 9

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi (I didn't like it, I really really really hate seafood)
(x) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit (I mostly go to jazz concerts, so theres no mosh pits. I went to a Walls of Jehrico concert once, and was at the edge of the pit and almost got kicked in the face, and my first time actually in the pit was at Warped during the Horrorpops. There was a guy that I totally wanted to do in there)
SO FAR: 13

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers (Thats how my drug abuse started. I was in constant pain because of a tumor I had in my leg. I got it removed when I was 12. I still took the pills)
(X) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have (This is the story of my life. Sometimes I wonder If I'm meant just to be alone for eternity)
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By (You'd be surprised at how many things look like penis.)
(X) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 17

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party (I like tea, but my tremors are way to bad to drink it. One of the musicians I love has a video of herself fully dressed in a bathtub having a tea party singing poetry about ending her life)
(X) Flown A Kite
(X) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (What the hell is mudding?)
(X) Played Dress Up (Still do, me and my friends wear each others clothes all the time.)
SO FAR: 20

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(X) Gone Sledding
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School (Almost everyday. I have a hard time falling asleep)
SO far: 25

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(X) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake (I love snakes!)
SO FAR: 27

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled (I react violently/hilariously I believe)
(X) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood (I have a hard time understanding myself, so I bet most people don't understand me either)
SO FAR: 21

Level 12
( ) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School (really, I was a good kid. I just... expected I was going to die by the time I was 17 so I decided "Fuck The World")
(X) Had Detention (once for skipping class, the other for telling my religion teacher to fuck off I don't give a shit about any of this)
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 22

Level 13
(X) Had / Have Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (with a girl that had a crush on me)
(X) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 23

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look (I still do. I think I'm ugly as hell)
(X) Witnessed A Crime (XD)
(X) Pole Danced (not seriously, but out of boredom)
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 27

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud (even worse: I lost my sandals in muskeg)
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean (The Caribbean is very nice)
( ) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 27

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep (I do it all the time. Loneliness gets to me)
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
(X) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke (Rock band counts in my mind... LAst time I did it, I was wasted, rolling around on the floor singing the beastie boys and Ok Go
(X) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 32

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't (drugs)
(X) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(X) Kissed In The Rain (said girlfriend)
SO FAR: 35

Level 18
(X) Written A Letter To Santa Claus (I CANT BELIEVE THEY LIED TO ME LIKE THAT)
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(X) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere (Parking lot)
SO FAR: 39

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party (I've never been to a party)
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
( ) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 40

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(X) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
(X) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 42

Level 21
(X) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes (I live in somewhat-Northern-Canada, its kinda hard to not have that happen at least once)
( ) Kicked A Fish (... What?)
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes (I cross dressed as a woman for a friends photoshoot. I looked like a hairy russian woman.)
( ) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 44

Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs (I was going to be the screamer for a funk-screamo band)
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 46

Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(X) Had/Been In A Tree House
(X) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone (When I was a wee lad)
SO FAR: 49

Level 24
(X) Believed In Ghosts
(X) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes (not at the same time, But I go through shoes quickly, especially when I skateboarded)
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 51

Level 25
( ) Played Chinese Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger (people are strange)
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused (depends on what it is.)
SO FAR: 53

Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
( ) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
( ) Cried So Hard You Laughed (I've cried hard enough to hyperventilate though)
SO FAR: 54

Level 27
(X) Mooned/Flashed Someone (Accidentally)
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
( ) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name (I forgot one of my close friends names. I'm bad with remembering things)
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 57

Level 28
( ) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling (its fun)
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 58

Level 29
(x) Been Used
( ) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 61

Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
(x) Got five dollars or less worth of gas (thats impossible now with the price of gas though)
TOTAL: 63


Wow... 63

*jubilation*

Well... during my month without a general fix of furry porn and interaction, (due to depression, and a lack of alcohol and nicotine I debated doing heroin to forget my depression o.O) I moved to Calgary (largest city in my province) for a month and took an art course.
Did a lot of stuff, finally did some near nude figure studies.

Moved back, got uber depressed again.

Went back to Calgary again for Vans Warped Tour yesterday, camped out in the fuckin parking lot with a shit load of crust punks. It was absolutely amazing!
Got to see the Horrorpops, 3 Oh 3, Family Force Five, GBH (oh fuck they were good, my ears are still ringing)

Saw -a lot- of guys there I would have totally banged.

Unfortunately, I am very horny for some reason.

My face is sunburnt. I must go apply the lotion to my skin!

Well, in less than a week, I'm moving to Calgary for a summer course down at the Alberta College of Art and Design, and honestly, I'm pretty scared. I only know one person in Calgary, and he's like super busy trying to get into Technical School or something (damn engineers). Not to mention I'm going to be broke as hell. I said goodbye to one of my friends yesterday. You never really know how much you love someone until you say goodbye.

Well, I finally graduated my paranoid loner self out of high school, went to the ceremony and shit, was pretty boring since I didn't really know anyone. For the Grand March (where grads walk down with dates and shit in suits and dresses) I went down with said friend from above. She had entirely blue hair, I have a blue streak in my hair (taken as school spirit), we were both in suits (mine was pinstripe with a purple vest). We got introduced not as dates (cuz eww girls) but as Arch Nemesis.

We are the coolest kids in school.
Err... were for me.

Emotionally, I'm still pretty fucking shitty, I'm paranoid, depressive, compulsive (I took a handful of pills without barely even noticing it), all that lame shit that makes people wonder why I'm still alive.

... I can't wait to get the fuck out of this town, but I'm really gonna miss my friends. They were the only people I could trust, and thats including my parents.
If you read this, ILU <3

I'm gonna do two

got dis from  frisby

Leave me a comment and i will...

1) tell you why i friended you.

2)associate ya with something(song/color/photo/image)

3)tell you something i like about you

4)ask something i've always wanted to know about you.

5) in return(if you want), you can post this in your journal.


aaaand this one about bears... I don't remember where I got it.. I've seen it around

1) Do you like your bears young or old?
A few years older, I tend to not get along with people my age

2) What type of facial hair (Goatee, beard, mustache, none)?
Goatee or short beard
Yes to side-burns and mutton chops as well, but right now I have them.

3) Fat or muscled?
Fat, or fat and muscled

4) Tall or short?
I prefer taller, but I seriously don't care

5) Favorite body part (Ass, stomach, chest, etc.)?
Umm... ass and neck (I have an obsession with collar bones... theyre so pretty)

6) Country/Rural/Cowboy type or City/Urban/White Collar type?
um... Urban... I don't think a gothy guy could really get with a rural guy...
... A punk would be even better...

7) Do you like your bear to be a top, bottom, or versatile?
umm... versatile
*still has the damn v-card*

8) Do you like them shy or bold?
I'm HORRIBLY shy.. so... a little tiny bit bold.

9) Do you have any sort of uniform or suit fetish for bears (Cop, Military, Business Man, etc)?
Well, I prefer a guy in 80s hardcore attire, but I do not mind a fine dressed man.

10) What kind of cock do you like on your bear (Small, fat, long, etc.)?
... I... don't... know?

11) Do you prefer your bear to use dirty talk or loving talk while having sex?
Well... preferebly loving...

12) Do you like your bear to call you "boy"?
Well, I still am young in body... but.. preferebly not

13) Do you like your bear to call you "son"?
First time I heard someone say that I honestly laughed and was like "wtf?"
... I was 16.
No.

14) Does your bear smoke (Pipe, cigar, etc)?
Well, I kinda find smoking a turn on... but I really don't like it. Which is why I'm trying to acquire herbal cigarettes.

Got back from Edmonton yet again... Went there for my ex-girlfriends (we're tight) graduation. Also went to a gay pride parade... first time I've ever been to one, it was fun. I ended up standing RIGHT next to an internet friend... but didn't realize it until after.

We also went to New City, a goth club. Met some cool people, got felt up

Oh... and had absinthe...

... Trees wanted to hug me


In other news my internet is being a dick and I sent my laptop to be fixed.

Well, last weekend I went to Edmonton for a Coheed and Cambria concert. The opener was a band from Vancouver called Baroness... THEY FUCKING SUCKED. It was an attempt at progressive metal... and I emphasize attempt. Seriously, just because you can shred and change tempo 9 times in a song thats 13 minutes long doesn't make you progressive. It makes you a fuckass. Especially if you don't say A WORD to the crowd. It took them like 10 minutes just to friggen tune their guitars. Jesus, even I know better than that, tune BEFORE. And I've only played like... 3 gigs, 2 of which were jazz.

I want that hour of my life back. We're writing a song about how much we hate Baroness for my band.

But Coheed.... WAS FUCKING AMAZING. They had a theremin solo in their encore. Not to mention we got noticed by the bartender because we were the rowdiest guys there (I have hair somewhat similar to Claudio Sanchez's, and we were climbing on the bar and on each others shoulders and shit).

Now I'm hoping to convince my parents to fund an excursion to a nearby city so I can see Left Spine Down (has former members of Front Line Assembly in it) for my birthday.

Hurray final stretch of school.

... And I've decided to make an attempt at rap music hahaha.

Well, I'm going on a band trip tomorrow, I hope its going to be fun. I won't be online for a while because of said trip, so that kinda sucks. *prepares for flood of submissions*

Art-wise, I'm thinking of posting some pictures of art that I've recently done, stuff thats not furry, but like my attempt at fine art. The main two I want to put pictures of up are a large portrait of Gandhi (its near as tall as my legs) and a portrait of Maila Nurmi (Vampira). Other than that, I seriously wish my scanner or tablet would work.

Music wise, I'm pretty much concentrating on only two bands (an Indie/punk drum and bass band in the vein of Death From Above 1979) and a gypsy punk band, which I'm learning violin for. I might also be providing the vocals (and if I have my way, it will be through a megaphone). Unfortunately I SERIOUSLY FUCKING SUCK AT LYRICS. (btw frisby you still up for that collab thing?)

I saw this around. In my life, nothings really been happening. I decided to learn russian. I am working on my Cryllic alphabet as we speak. Also, we are going on a school band trip. And I got put in a room with a guy I HAVE A HUGE FUCKIN CRUSH thing on. I wonder how thats going to go

Rules: Go to Google and search the phrase. Tag 3 friends. Please be mature and use you REAL 1st name...

Use the first thing that comes up that makes sense.

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:
A: "Tyler needs someone to ride with" .. yes... I do lol

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
A: "Tyler looks like a factory of spare body parts blew up." ... ...

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search:
A: "TYLER SAYS. I hate school! My life is like a stroll on the beach...as near to the edge as I can go." ... wtf?

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
A: "Tyler wants to use this chaos to change history so that "God’s middle children" will have some historical significance, <continue fight club quote>" mmm such a good movie!!!

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
A: "Tyler does some flexing on cam." mm yeah you want to see these nonexistant muscles

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
A: "TYLER HATES SKINNY JEANS" MY DICK NEEDS TO BREATH!

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search:
A: " Tyler asks if Spock will be joining them" ...

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search:
A: " tyler goes to hollister." OH GOD PLEASE STOP ME!

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search:
A: "Tyler likes long walks on the beach. He also likes to wear Umbro soccer shorts"

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search:
A: "Tyler eats a blended Big Mac." ... *vomits*

Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search:
A: "Tyler wears your clothes" This one was a bitch because apparantly theres a clothing company called Tyler Wear

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search
A: "Tyler was arrested and convicted--and originally sentenced to death--in connection with the death of a 13-year-old white boy," ... fucking white kids... hate them all...


Yeah... btw I now hate Liv Tyler. because of her it was a bitch to look shit up lol

I tag:.... ...  frisby .. because I don't know his real name