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General | Posted a month agohaha wowie, that last journal x3... so it blew the expectation out of the water, bout 10ik more than I though and potentially then some, still working on it!
thats all, it's officially a novel, should be about 7,000 more words and it should be ready for uncorrected proof publication
thats all, it's officially a novel, should be about 7,000 more words and it should be ready for uncorrected proof publication
22,284 words
General | Posted 5 months agowith 10,000 or more to go.
biiiiiiiiig story coming in soon"tm".
biiiiiiiiig story coming in soon"tm".
where on earth have I been? goodness huuuuuge updates!
General | Posted 9 months agowill have tldr at the end, hue.
first and foremost, happy new year everyone!
still kinda sorta been here, but have been extremely busy! but with what? well...
Short answer: wedding, commissions, VA/Writing, figuring things out through a self-journey, My transness.
First lets start with the biggest life update:
On Thursday, February 12th, 2025, I got married to the beautiful love of my life. I'm still reeling from it as I feel many amazing and odd emotions from it all (stuff that is normal from what I've been told). It's... wonderful, I'm very happy I can take a full foot forward into a new chapter of my life with my wonderful husband... from dating for 4 years, engaged for 2 of them, and now married... I look forward to spending the rest of my life with them!
Commissions: well, whenever I have a *public* one that I've finished, I tend to upload here, usually. I've found myself not quite uploading super small and short ones, but hey thats fine and dandy x3, this includes written work, and, as of October, Voice acting things. Now will I be uploading my VA stuff here? hmm... prooooobably not? as I'm just the voice of these big projects I'm being paid to, and collaborating within.
Where can you find these? well... twitter and other peoples things! once uploaded ofc lol... now it will more than likely not be a frequent thing (big shocker how I upload maybe 3 banger storys a year these days it seems.) but thats fine... will my activity pick up? honestly... maybe! since getting married, I'll more than likely be a stay-at-home wife, and thus will be having more time to focus on things for side money soooo... hey, be sure to look out for those... speaking of which...
Writing: Well, I've been practicing, got myself a few tutors thanks to my friends being amazing people, and have learnt new skills, such as more solid tense, structure, paragraph formation, descriptions, subject focus, and soooooo much more... The next upload will be a *huge* thing (looking like 30+ pages and around 20k words so... hooowee, be sure to look out for that, hopefully before the year ends...haha...ah...fuck.)
V/A work: So I found out people like my voice, and I can do things with it that are... well, professionally put, desired, unprofessionally put, makes most subs melt like the horny lil sluts they are (lovingly phrased ofc <3). So I've been figuring out my ranges, pitches, capabilities, and so on...
My self-journey: for the past few years, I've been going through a lot of... bluntly put, emotional and mental turmoil... some of which has been understood by others, some of which has not... some of which had even been manipulated and shaped by bad actors that lead me to saying or doing things I may not have wanted to do, or wouldn't do today. Some hate me for some of these actions, some pity me, some shun... people are going to do what they want to do, and thats fine, I get it. People are going to say what they're going to say, I get it, hell some are even going to lie. Have I said some awful things about people? yes, most definitely, I've said numerous things out of pain towards people that these days I don't even think about nor remember. Should I have done everything I have? no, ofcourse not, we've all said and done things that have left us with some form of regret or another, we're all only humans, and we're all going to make mistakes.
through the past 15 years, I've seen, gone through, and experienced many, many, maaaany things in life that, frankly have left me to be the me I am today. yet, I'm ok with it. I'm growing past it, I'm learning to forgive people, and most importantly, forgive myself. I'm learning to move on from transgressions done against me, and learning to let them go bit by bit, it's been a very tough journey, and my husband has helped me grow through a LOT of it, he's done what thousands of others havn't, failed to, or would never dreamed of... and I'm so happy to have him...
I have learnt to forgive myself for my past. I have learnt to forgive most others who have willingly, and gleefully hurt me in the past. And I have learnt that it is ok to forgive, and not forget. It's ok to forgive people, and not let them back in your life. It's ok to forgive people, and understand that they're not going to be different, and It's ok to move past all of that and experience new things. And it's ok if others don't forgive me for things I have done. We are all people trying to figure things out in this world, and that's a beautiful thing.
I'm learning to cope through trauma's and abuse I have gone through in the past, some things that made me hardened towards other, more brutal to people who have hurt me. I should never have been as harsh as I was to some people. And I'm glad I've learnt this, there are more mature ways to handle being hurt by people, there are better coping mechanisms in getting past those who lie and attempt to harm you, and there is peace in forgiving people who blindly follow them. It is beautiful.
The reason I typed all that: because I felt the need to share what I've learnt, and to put in practice the biggest one, moving on and not looking back. I am at peace with my past, and I plan to make my future beautiful. I'm saying what I'm saying because I plan to never think upon the actions of others from my past again. a lot has healed, and honestly, I'm happy with learning this, because now I won't be chained by it further.
Will everyone be happy for it? nah, I can imagine some folks getting bitter about it, and that is fine, I feel no way towards it this way or that, my goal isn't to change anyone's minds, explain, nor apologize for anything, it's simply to say I'm moving on, and that I am happy. <3
and finally, my transness: So, This is mostly something I've only told close friends, people I care for and well, not something I really talk about, but going on the previous topic of moving on, being open, and growing freely, I will go ahead and just spit it out. I have been trans for... about 13 years. Redsy having multiple sex's was not just some sexualize thing, it's more... how I see myself, how I feel inside. I realize that I cannot have both sex's, I've come to terms with that, and frankly, I've even found happiness in the body I have... I do not identify as the sex I was given at birth, I've not done so for a very long time, yet I've never really made it a big deal either, and I'm fine with that. I don't actually plan to publicly bring it up again, but I did want to share a bit of it... the biggest reason I didn't for the longest time, was because when I first came out to some trans friends back in the super early 2010's, I was laughed at, and mocked for it. The mocked me for what I felt inside, and for what I wanted. They laughed at me, and even got others to join in to do the same, it was... painful, and re-established a growing feeling of lack of trust in others for personal things, some of which I hinted at prior in this journal.
But thats ok, well, what they did wasn't ok no, but I'm ok, because I've learnt to move past it, that not everyone is like that. I've began to understand that, just because someone follows small patterns from people who have devastated and fucked me up, doesn't mean they are the same person... and it's ok to gently, and diplomatically discuss with them why I felt hurt, or why something is wrong, or well...whatever, ya'll get what I mean. Regardless, I am a human bean, and I plan to grow.
"so... whats next you cringe ass naynaybaby?": well! with the big update of being married to a wonderful man thats helped heal scars I thought were unhealable, looking into myself and growing, and even moving forward; this is whats next for the redsy.
1) more creative things. Writing, VA work, secret help for some games, etc.
2) be the best damn wife I can be!
3) enjoy my life to the fullest as I believe it to be, under my own ideals.
4) branch out
Thank ya'll for reading, I hope this will be a wonderful year to you all, I know many of you are hella stressed from recent political things, I am too.
Tldr that I promised before:
1) I got married!
2) I'm working on things (and trying to break from procrastination)
3) I write gudder now, and vocalize for paid naughties.
4) I suffer from ptsd, have for a while, and have been getting the proper help I needed to get past it.
5) I did some soul searching, got better, and am generally happier now.
6) I learnt some things on how to be a better person!
7) I'm trans
8) moving on and living everything to the fullest!
Thank you all for your time, I hope the month has been wonderful for you all, much love from a recently wedded wife
Redsy
first and foremost, happy new year everyone!
still kinda sorta been here, but have been extremely busy! but with what? well...
Short answer: wedding, commissions, VA/Writing, figuring things out through a self-journey, My transness.
First lets start with the biggest life update:
On Thursday, February 12th, 2025, I got married to the beautiful love of my life. I'm still reeling from it as I feel many amazing and odd emotions from it all (stuff that is normal from what I've been told). It's... wonderful, I'm very happy I can take a full foot forward into a new chapter of my life with my wonderful husband... from dating for 4 years, engaged for 2 of them, and now married... I look forward to spending the rest of my life with them!
Commissions: well, whenever I have a *public* one that I've finished, I tend to upload here, usually. I've found myself not quite uploading super small and short ones, but hey thats fine and dandy x3, this includes written work, and, as of October, Voice acting things. Now will I be uploading my VA stuff here? hmm... prooooobably not? as I'm just the voice of these big projects I'm being paid to, and collaborating within.
Where can you find these? well... twitter and other peoples things! once uploaded ofc lol... now it will more than likely not be a frequent thing (big shocker how I upload maybe 3 banger storys a year these days it seems.) but thats fine... will my activity pick up? honestly... maybe! since getting married, I'll more than likely be a stay-at-home wife, and thus will be having more time to focus on things for side money soooo... hey, be sure to look out for those... speaking of which...
Writing: Well, I've been practicing, got myself a few tutors thanks to my friends being amazing people, and have learnt new skills, such as more solid tense, structure, paragraph formation, descriptions, subject focus, and soooooo much more... The next upload will be a *huge* thing (looking like 30+ pages and around 20k words so... hooowee, be sure to look out for that, hopefully before the year ends...haha...ah...fuck.)
V/A work: So I found out people like my voice, and I can do things with it that are... well, professionally put, desired, unprofessionally put, makes most subs melt like the horny lil sluts they are (lovingly phrased ofc <3). So I've been figuring out my ranges, pitches, capabilities, and so on...
My self-journey: for the past few years, I've been going through a lot of... bluntly put, emotional and mental turmoil... some of which has been understood by others, some of which has not... some of which had even been manipulated and shaped by bad actors that lead me to saying or doing things I may not have wanted to do, or wouldn't do today. Some hate me for some of these actions, some pity me, some shun... people are going to do what they want to do, and thats fine, I get it. People are going to say what they're going to say, I get it, hell some are even going to lie. Have I said some awful things about people? yes, most definitely, I've said numerous things out of pain towards people that these days I don't even think about nor remember. Should I have done everything I have? no, ofcourse not, we've all said and done things that have left us with some form of regret or another, we're all only humans, and we're all going to make mistakes.
through the past 15 years, I've seen, gone through, and experienced many, many, maaaany things in life that, frankly have left me to be the me I am today. yet, I'm ok with it. I'm growing past it, I'm learning to forgive people, and most importantly, forgive myself. I'm learning to move on from transgressions done against me, and learning to let them go bit by bit, it's been a very tough journey, and my husband has helped me grow through a LOT of it, he's done what thousands of others havn't, failed to, or would never dreamed of... and I'm so happy to have him...
I have learnt to forgive myself for my past. I have learnt to forgive most others who have willingly, and gleefully hurt me in the past. And I have learnt that it is ok to forgive, and not forget. It's ok to forgive people, and not let them back in your life. It's ok to forgive people, and understand that they're not going to be different, and It's ok to move past all of that and experience new things. And it's ok if others don't forgive me for things I have done. We are all people trying to figure things out in this world, and that's a beautiful thing.
I'm learning to cope through trauma's and abuse I have gone through in the past, some things that made me hardened towards other, more brutal to people who have hurt me. I should never have been as harsh as I was to some people. And I'm glad I've learnt this, there are more mature ways to handle being hurt by people, there are better coping mechanisms in getting past those who lie and attempt to harm you, and there is peace in forgiving people who blindly follow them. It is beautiful.
The reason I typed all that: because I felt the need to share what I've learnt, and to put in practice the biggest one, moving on and not looking back. I am at peace with my past, and I plan to make my future beautiful. I'm saying what I'm saying because I plan to never think upon the actions of others from my past again. a lot has healed, and honestly, I'm happy with learning this, because now I won't be chained by it further.
Will everyone be happy for it? nah, I can imagine some folks getting bitter about it, and that is fine, I feel no way towards it this way or that, my goal isn't to change anyone's minds, explain, nor apologize for anything, it's simply to say I'm moving on, and that I am happy. <3
and finally, my transness: So, This is mostly something I've only told close friends, people I care for and well, not something I really talk about, but going on the previous topic of moving on, being open, and growing freely, I will go ahead and just spit it out. I have been trans for... about 13 years. Redsy having multiple sex's was not just some sexualize thing, it's more... how I see myself, how I feel inside. I realize that I cannot have both sex's, I've come to terms with that, and frankly, I've even found happiness in the body I have... I do not identify as the sex I was given at birth, I've not done so for a very long time, yet I've never really made it a big deal either, and I'm fine with that. I don't actually plan to publicly bring it up again, but I did want to share a bit of it... the biggest reason I didn't for the longest time, was because when I first came out to some trans friends back in the super early 2010's, I was laughed at, and mocked for it. The mocked me for what I felt inside, and for what I wanted. They laughed at me, and even got others to join in to do the same, it was... painful, and re-established a growing feeling of lack of trust in others for personal things, some of which I hinted at prior in this journal.
But thats ok, well, what they did wasn't ok no, but I'm ok, because I've learnt to move past it, that not everyone is like that. I've began to understand that, just because someone follows small patterns from people who have devastated and fucked me up, doesn't mean they are the same person... and it's ok to gently, and diplomatically discuss with them why I felt hurt, or why something is wrong, or well...whatever, ya'll get what I mean. Regardless, I am a human bean, and I plan to grow.
"so... whats next you cringe ass naynaybaby?": well! with the big update of being married to a wonderful man thats helped heal scars I thought were unhealable, looking into myself and growing, and even moving forward; this is whats next for the redsy.
1) more creative things. Writing, VA work, secret help for some games, etc.
2) be the best damn wife I can be!
3) enjoy my life to the fullest as I believe it to be, under my own ideals.
4) branch out
Thank ya'll for reading, I hope this will be a wonderful year to you all, I know many of you are hella stressed from recent political things, I am too.
Tldr that I promised before:
1) I got married!
2) I'm working on things (and trying to break from procrastination)
3) I write gudder now, and vocalize for paid naughties.
4) I suffer from ptsd, have for a while, and have been getting the proper help I needed to get past it.
5) I did some soul searching, got better, and am generally happier now.
6) I learnt some things on how to be a better person!
7) I'm trans
8) moving on and living everything to the fullest!
Thank you all for your time, I hope the month has been wonderful for you all, much love from a recently wedded wife
Redsy
commission stuff
General | Posted 5 years agohi there! it has been a loooong time since I've taken commissions, and with recent trades kicking me back into high gear, I feel comfortable getting back into the business of things. So, to cut to the point.
1) I will only be taking 3 commission slots at a time, I learnt the hard way from taking way too many last time x'D
2) This journal will be pinned as my Trello/to-do list of sorts
3) I charge 40-60$ for every 7-8 pages.
a) This price can and may become variable on how complicated and long the story may get.
b) you can remain anonymous!
c) I may charge extra on what the subject matter of the story will be.
d) I will need to charge extra for "non-upload" storys.
e) everything is variable, and potentially negotiable to a point.
4) Contact my telegram/discord for details! I prefer this over notes! (and hey, always looking to meet new people, and make new friends :3c)
5) when I'm full, I will right a journal stating that commissions are closed, and they will not be opened again until all commissions have been finished.
6) I hold the right to say no to any commission idea
1) I will only be taking 3 commission slots at a time, I learnt the hard way from taking way too many last time x'D
2) This journal will be pinned as my Trello/to-do list of sorts
3) I charge 40-60$ for every 7-8 pages.
a) This price can and may become variable on how complicated and long the story may get.
b) you can remain anonymous!
c) I may charge extra on what the subject matter of the story will be.
d) I will need to charge extra for "non-upload" storys.
e) everything is variable, and potentially negotiable to a point.
4) Contact my telegram/discord for details! I prefer this over notes! (and hey, always looking to meet new people, and make new friends :3c)
5) when I'm full, I will right a journal stating that commissions are closed, and they will not be opened again until all commissions have been finished.
6) I hold the right to say no to any commission idea
