I know I haven't really shown any sign of it recently but I am alive. Just busy and stressed and a bunch of stuff on my shoulders so yeah.

Im up for a couple, please?

May everyone lease spread the word of  Notkastar in a journa;. He really does need to be seen. lease if you would take some time out of your day and spread the word about this rising artist. I believe he can be greater than he already is.

 Notkastar is an amazing artist that deserves so many more watchers! Please go watch and support him ^w^

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:51338114 Spread the word!

Happy Halloween everyone! I hope you all have a great day (and night) and receive many sweets and spooks. Stay safe and again; Happy Halloween!

147 watchers?!?!! So close to 150!!!!! I haven't looked at my watcher count in a while and was shocked to see this high a number! Now I don't go looking for watchers and I don't want them all because I just like my own person bubble of friends and peeps but wow! Thanks you guys ^w^

thanks for everyone's ideas and support!

So Im trying to draw again, but it hurts. I always get depressed when I see someone elses art and then I try and draw or I draw and then I see it. It just makes me depressed.

I'm going to still practice drawing and I'm also going to write. Just love drawing to much to let it go.

I love all of you. Thank you all so much for all you do

Anyone? I have a new oc I need drawn

https://www.twitch.tv/redpandaakai Join if ya want. No mic

I've decided I'm better suited as a writer than a drawer. I cant really think of shapes and lines very well, but I love making up stories. So I'm a writer

After watching Pete's Dragon me and my mom sat in the car and cried our eyes out. The movie is so heart wrenching! I loved the movie...but all the tears!!! QwQ

YAY MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY OF THE YEAR!!!

So I am at the beginning of my school year and I already have homework, Marching Band, and Art. But now My bitch of a band director is making us do more and play even more difficult pieces. I try to do art and stuff...but all of this is too much. If I could... I would grow wings and fly away.

Hey so I'm closing trades and as for the ones I owe I'm working on those. Please be patient as I am currently busy.

I hurt another friend by accident... this is why I don't have friends... I go too far...
I deserve to be alone...

This guy needs money to get a new computer and any amount will help! PASS THE WORD!!!!
Link-> https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7745401/

Just to get me back into drawing and stuff I'm open to doing trades. So note me if you want to. I'll be glad to do it. No NSFW

I'm at a standstill atm and I'm trying to figure out stuff. I feel like I move forward, only to go back. It's like I finally learned a new skill, but now I'm back to where I started. It's like I'm a rubber band and I go farther and farther and then I snap back to where I was. IDK if it's Artist block or I simply don't have motivation, but right now when I try to draw and practice, I end up in tears. I sometimes ask myself "Will I ever be good?" and "Will I ever reach the level of other artists?" I know to practice and keep going. But art has seemed to hurt me a lot. After I started drawing I frequently get depressed. Art has sometimes made me think of quitting. I just feel like I'm no good. "Then why would 103 people watch you?" a friend asked me. I know some of them are people who I watched who watched back to be nice and some watched to get watchers. I know that most watched cause they like my art (at least I hope they do) but I honestly feel like it's like a pitty watch. I'm not paranoid cause someone who watched me and I noted them saying hi, they said, "Look, I watched because you are beginning and I just felt sorry for you." Gosh I want to cry right now but then I would achieve nothing. I sometimes ask "Do I have a place here?" IDK this is all just going on in my head nd I needed to write it out. If you read this then I'm sorry for wasting your time with my shit. I have been told by many people that I have potential... I hope they are right.

I HAVE REACHED 100 WATCHERS AND I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!! THANKS TO  RamPie FOR BEING MY 100th WATCHER!!!!! Thank you guys so much for your support! You are all special to me! I hope to see more of you guys ^w^

 SEADROW 's Situation has gotten worse. HE NEEDS HELP!!!!! Please help him! If you cant physically help please create a journal spreading the word.
Here's the link to his journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7689123/

HELP HIM!!!!

I had one of the Best Birthdays today and I just absolutely loved it. Got an Akai handmade Plushie today from a friend and am now hugging it and never letting go. I had so much fun!