Just recently I hit day 500 of my HRT regiment and a lot has changed since the first day. I am no longer with the partner that I started this journey with. I am not upset with her, nor do I feel any animosity toward her. She is straight, as much as she tried to see more than just my gender. I guess that means that she respects me and truly does see me as female now. After more than a year I was finally ally able to find a person who can not only see me as truly female but likes me for who I am. I have also started a new career and am on my way to legally changing my name and gender marker. Soon the me that existed for 32 years will be nothing but a memory. There is plenty of pain that goes with some of those memories, but I need that pain to see how good my life is now. I am truly happy with the decision to transition and am ready to take it to the next steps.

There is no going back now, only forward.

So I guess this is a good enough reason to start things off. For some of you this may be a shock, since I have not been honest with who I was, especially to myself. But, after a long time, a lot of depression and anxiety, I have finally spoken with my partner about what has been going on inside me. The level of my nervousness building up to that point was causing me to loose sleep and my heart was constantly racing as I tried to figure out how to tell her. So I guess it is time I tell you too. I was born male but I am transgender female. My current partner, coming up on 14 years together, is cisfemale and who I thought was straight, not only accepts me, but we found out through what she said, is actually pansexual. The weight that has been lifted off of my heart makes me feel like anything is possible. I could not be happier then I am now. This however is not the end, it is only the beginning, as several hours of talking and lots of crying can show that we have a long way to go, but we are doing this together as my partner is now my fiance. I will try to post my journey on here so that I can look back and see how far I have come.

Welcome to day 1 of the new me.

Hiromi "Hiro"