Sorry I kinda just... blew up on you all .___.
ok, it's 5 in the morning where I am, Imma go get some sleep since I gotta get up in about 4 hours ._."""

To watch the people you love fall apart.

My mother has been through years of suffering- abuse, abandonment, and even a stalker who might STILL be looking for her after over 2 decades.

My girlfriend, who's been abandoned by everyone and may be stuck back with her abusive parents. Every time she complains about money, being hungry(when she's not permitted to eat certain things or there's not enough food in the shelter due to being overpopulated), or even being tired after work the staff at the shelter she's at will just tell her to get over it, power through it, she can do it... this sounds good in theory, but in reality, this really isn't the thing you tell someone who's unmedicated,depressed, anxious... afraid.

My sister who's father is a druggie who's been in jail 10 times, and had to listen to the same woman that physically and mentally abused our mother verbally abuse her and use racial slurs against her and her family, talking to and about her like she was some mindless monster despite the fact that she's a little ten-year-old girl with ADD(no medication mind you) and developing depression.

It's hard to watch those normally happy(or at least neutral?) people crumble and scream and cry.

I want to be there.

I want to be the replacement for their awful families that up and left them. That hit them. That, in one of their cases, sexually assaulted them. They told them they have no future, that they were stupid, dramatic, fat when they were 36 pounds UNDERweight... I want to take all of that a way.

And I feel that way for anyone who's been through this sort of thing, I want to help them too... but it hits you so much harder when you've lived with the victims. When you see them break down in front of you.

I can't help them. That's why I made the GoFundMe, because I figured that, ya know, SOMEONE had to see it!

I don't have a job nor a way to get there if I had one.

I try to be their rock, but it's hard to be when I myself am not mentally stable. I try to be optimistic, but you know what?
Sometimes you can't be. SOMETIMES it makes things worse for others... or on yourself.
I want nothing more than for them to be happy...

I honestly shouldn't be the one in pain, as I DO have a place to stay unlike them(granted, it IS with the people who constantly berate my mother and yell at me frequently, but still, I'm grateful for what I've got) yet I find myself constantly complaining to no one in particular-and yet everyone in the world at the same time across a computer screen. Huh.

I've been gone for months... And I KNOW that this is wrong to do JUST as I got back, but... My family really REALLY needs some help.

http://www.gofundme.com/z2j3z7yb3

Wow, holy moly has it really been 5 months??? O-O
jeeeeeeeze o_______o""""

I sincerely apologize ono'

How're y'all doin? o-o'

owo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DHmQPn1cuJk

^me after 5 minutes of browsing

What? You didn't know I was gone? Ok ._.

Just finished watching Warning Sign; a movie from 1985 about a biological weapon gone wrong.

I actually highly recommend it. There are a few little things I find kill the submersion- i.e. How the person immune happens to be immune- but nonetheless the movie is actually still well made, especially for the time.

3.5 stars, would watch again. :I


...What? You don't care? I know ._. I'm mostly writing this down so I don't forget about it .-.

Who else has watched it? :I It's a pretty good movie >w< And I don't really enjoy movies too often. ._.

DO NOT Only feed your dog bread
Reasoning:
1. Your dog is NOT getting many if any nutrients from bread.

2. It can clog up their digestive tract.

3. The preservatives are hazardous.
Besides that, how would you feel if you only had bread to eat? How would your body react? Think about that.

DO NOT Only feed your dog vegetables and fruit

Reasoning:
1. Dogs/their digestive tracts are intolerant to many fruits and veggies, including grapes/raisins, persimmons, peaches, plums(The seeds specifically, for peaches and persimmons as well), avocados, onions, and citrus fruits(specifically the oils on the skin).

2. These foods do not contain all of the nutrition they need.

3. YOUR DOG SHOULD NOT BE CONSUMING MUCH SUGAR.


DO NOT give your dogs fat from meat.

...Does this even need explaining? It's fat. It has NO nutritional value. And lots of salt assuming it's some you prepared for human consumption.

DO NOT give your dog raw eggs, meat, or fish.
All three contain parasites and diseases!

DO NOT give your dog poultry bones.
They splinter, possibly choking your dog.

Recently, we've had alot of dogs at the shelter brought in with malnutrition. All of the mentioned above were issues we had.

-edit- And someone else disappointed me with a message they sent about what they fed their pet :I And Yes, I let them know :I


Want to make homemade meals for you dog? Power to you, but do your homework! Get ingredients that have the nutrients they need.

Healthy dog food recipes to try and adjust:

http://allrecipes.com/recipe/homemade-dog-food/ (Not the best, VEGGIES SHOULD BE PUREED OR CUT UP.)

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Buddys.....r_results_p1i3
(IMPORTANT: DO NOT INCLUDE THE GARLIC. Although not deadly in small amounts, it is NOT healthy! )

Healthy treat recipes:

Liver:

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Liver-.....ts&evt19=1 (DO NOT FEED THIS TO YOUR DOG RAW DUE TO THE YEAST and watch out for the baby food/pet food, it may contain garlic or avocado!! And Possibly cut out the powdered milk.)

Beef:
http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Good-D.....l.aspx?evt19=1 (Cut out the brown sugar, and rather than using the beef bouillon cubes, use beef broth. )

Misc.:
http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Pet-Co.....l.aspx?evt19=1 (Perishable, keep in fridge. add pureed beef/chicken, or broth.)

Personal Favorite, edible for humans too:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Hx69YNHrVU (Maybe cut out the caramel and instead add beef broth if you're not worried about eating them yourself ((Unless you like beef flavored biscuits. )) )

I wanna know some good places to eat- I love trying new foods/places. It doesn't matter where they are (Although it'd be nice to know if they were close), I want to know the place, the dish you had, and why I should try it.

And don't you dare say McDonald's, Burger King, Subway,etc... I want places that are lesser known, or unique places. Not fast food.
Like... When I was in Washington D.C., I wanted to eat at a restaurant exclusive to there, and what did my friends want to eat?

TACO BELL.
DAMN.
TACO.
BELL.

I'm at 98 watches, and 1882 page views. >w<
I appreciate all of you <3

ok, first thing you think of when you think of me/my page/my artwork, GO *designing a character based on other's opinions*

I'll be able to do digital artwork again >W< Yisssss

So I was struggling with coming up with a last name for my characters for a short story- their names being Altair, Cyrus, and Noone.
I ask my mom for a last name and what does she say?

Mcdoogle..
Yes.
God I love her X'D

Anyway, I need last names that have to do with time/eternity.

Any recommendations?

Stolen from


Name: Bri
Nickname: Bri-Bri, B, Darby, Catwolf, Kittydog, Squirrel, Mutt, E, Eclipse, I have so many nicknames. x_x
Location: An obscure town in TN
Age: 17
Height: 5'3
Zodiac sign: Leo
Any pets: Several rats >w> And I now count the critters at the shelter as my pets until they are adopted. Because I don't like referring to them as "Those animals at the shelter". Poor babus.
Favorite thing about yourself: Ability to key in on how an animal feels
Worst habit: Constantly trying to change myself ._." Even though, at the end of the day, it's not able to be done, nor is it really... All that important. At all.
Fun fact: I share random facts at random times. Like did you know sea otters hold hands to keep from drifting away? AIN'T THAT CUUUUTE?

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: Female
Sexual preference: Homosexual
Romantic preference: Homoromantic
"Kinsey Scale" score: 6 (Gonna leave this link here- http://vistriai.com/kinseyscaletest/)
Relationship status: Single
Myers/Briggs type: INFP. I...think .____.
Hogwarts house: Hufflepuff

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Night owl. I just plum don't sleep. *taking this at 1:34 AM*
Bath or shower: Shower. Baths are gross-
First thought in the morning: "God I'm tired"
Last thought before falling asleep at night: "What can I do to improve myself?" Or "God that was dumb"

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: Student, and as of yesterday I work as a volunteer at the local shelter.
What do you do well: Comfort animals. Yes.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Working as a pet groomer and part time trainer.

Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: Nope
Smoke: Nope
Do Drugs: Not unless my prescribed pills count :I
Exercise: I wish I would-
Have a go-to comfort food: Brownies and cheesecake
Have a nervous habit: Twitching my foot, biting my fingers/lips, picking at my face, humming, teeth grinding, the list goes on.

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): I really just... don't care ._.
In Others: I'm not overly keen on favoring physical qualities, but if I had to pick one I'd say eyes. I guess ._.
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): I'm keen on how others feel
Food: Sweets. I could eat all kinds of sweets- pastries, cakes, brownies, cookies, candies, Frozen goods...
Drink: Coffee.
Animal: oh you know those cute little creatures. You know. All of them.
Artist/Band/Group: Pentatonix >W<
Author/Poet: John Steinbeck and Dan Brown.
TV Show: Hell's Kitchen and Hotel Hell
Actor/Actress: I don't even know the names of any actors .___.
Blogger: ...Idon'thaveaclue, I don't really follow bloggers ._____.

Yis o3o
I should be asleep, it's midnight-

They let me go ahead and start volunteer work!! OWO

First, my mother and I socialized with two feral kitties named Pioneer and Professor. Pioneer was purring and poor little Professor just hid his face ;3;

Second, we went to the cat room and played with them =w= I made the mistake of wearing black clothes and, of course, a pure white cat(Spock) sat on my lap :I Of course.

Then we played with the dogs; I wish I could've taken two of the dogs- Binx and another one that Imma just call Charlie because I have no clue what his name is >3> They were SO sweet <3

Then we walked two little dogs; a little Jack Russel mix that was just a ball of energy and love and a little chihuahua mix that was ignored by most ;n;

And I volunteer again tomorrow c:

Schedule for tomorrow:

Feral kitties, cat room, Big dogs, walk, little dogs, walk.

and it's my birthday >w<
I'm SUPER excited, not even gonna try to hide that >w>
I'll be old enough to volunteer at the local shelter owo

1.Ever been given an engagement ring?

No

2. Longest relationship?

Six months.

3. Last gift you received?

My laptop actually-

4. Ever dropped a mobile phone?

Yes >_>

5. When's the last time you worked out?

While school was in x_x

6. Thing(s) you spend a lot of money on?

Video games ._." It's an awful addiction-

7. Last food you ate?

Some spongebob gummies. Because they were there.

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?

Attitude.

9. One favorite song?

Is That Alright by Ashestoashesjc

10. Where do you live?

TN

11. High school attended:

I've been to three different ones now .___.

12. Cell phone provider:

I don't have a cell phone.

13. Favorite Shop.

2nd & Charles or Gamestop

14. Longest job:

*cough* Never had one, unless you count caring for my animals ._. Which has been since I was... 5? Maybe even younger ._.

15. Do you own a pair of dice?

Yes, no clue where they are .___.

16. Do you prank call people?:

Nope

17. Last wedding you attended?:

Never been to one

18. First friend you'd call if you won the lottery:
 nightsoul345



19. Last time you saw your best friend(s):

"Saw"? Uh,...Month or two ago...?

20. Favorite fast food Restaurant:

Bojangles ewe

21. Biggest lie you've ever told?

I forgive you. (To a certain person, usually I mean that when I say it)

22. Blondes or Brunette?

Blondes >w<

23. What is the number you call most often?

I don't really call anyone-

24. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST JOB?

Never had an actual job ;///; Yet -3-

25. What were you doing before filling out this survey?

Literally nothing. .____.

26. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?

I wouldn't.

27. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?

I am bored. ._.

28. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?

My kindness , which is what I worry about coming through so-

29. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?

Continue not caring ._.

30. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?

None, I don't think kids are a good plan for me-

31. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?

I actually do .-."

32. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?

Oh hell no X'D

33. WHEN DID YOU LOSE YOUR VIRGINITY?
Still virgin, quite proud of that .-.

34. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

I try to be friends with anyone ._."

35. DO LOOKS MATTER?

To others.

36. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?

Walking, ranting

37. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?

My grandmother's house

38. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?

I'd like to say no, but yes I do.

39. DO YOU USE SARCASM?

Nnnnnoooooo....

40. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?

A what .___.

41. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?

Bri, Squirrel, Darby, Red, Redwood, E, Eclipse, C-48, Kitty Dog, Catwolf, Cielo, Sky, Bri-Bri, B, Mutt, the list goes ON and ON and ON

42. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM

Coffee or Cookie Dough >W<

43. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?

All four are trying to come in x_x

44. CAN YOU COOK?

Yes owo

45. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?

I don't-

46. BEST DATE YOU'VE EVER BEEN ON?

....Uh-

47. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:

This morning

48. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:

Any canned food

49. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:

Does caring for my animals count? That's a 24/hour job :I

50. FAVOURITE MOVIE(S)?

Felide, Arashi No Yoru Ni

51. CAN YOU SING?

I wish I could

52. LAST FIGHT?

A month ago or so

53.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT:

Laptop and ds

54. FAVORITE ITEM:

Laptop

55. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:

Laptop X'D

56. DO YOU SMOKE?

No

57. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?

With

58. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?

No one except a pile of stuffed animals :I

59. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?

I'd like to think they can

60. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?

Never so far ._.

61. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:

YESSSSS

62 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?

Practically any way, I looooove eggs owo

63. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:

...what do you mean "Do I believe in it"?

64. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:

Some sort of spam from Texas

65. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED?:

I have no clue that was two years ago

66. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:

None ._.

67. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:

Pink (ene), red, and white striped shirt that is entirely too large and black shorts.

68. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:

Nope-

69. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?

They're handy ._.

70. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?:

Spring or fall >w<

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?

1:30 PM ._.

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:

It's cold .w.

73. LAST TIME A COPPER GAVE YOU A TICKET?:

Never- least not yet

74. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:

Cool, I guess


75. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?

....Nothing. Literally nothing.

76. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE:

Either a dog trainer or groomer

77. WHAT'S YOUR BIGGEST REGRET?
Letting faults in my personality and mind affect others

78: HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

Yes

79.ARE YOU SMILING?:

No

80: DO YOU PREFER TO SMILE WITH A TOOTHY GRIN OR A CLOSED MOUTH?

Toothy I guess?

81. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?

Yes

82. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD IT BE?

Australia, although it's hot ^^"

83. DO YOU HAVE A HIGH SEX-DRIVE?

Not in particular? ._.

84. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:

Yes, I swear I almost always do though-

85. NIGHT OR DAY?

Night

86. PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?

Used to play base clarinet, guitar, and keyboard


87. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:

No

88. DO YOU HAVE SISTERS/BROTHERS?

Yep

89. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO JAIL?

Nope

90. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE IN PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?

Yes indeed

91. FAVORITE SPORT?

*bursts into laughter*

92. YOUR HAIR COLOR ?

Brown

93. YOUR EYE COLOR ?

Hazel, although they change between Hazel and brown

94. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?

Yep

95. YOU LIKE SUSHI?

Never tried it ._.

96. LAST THING YOU WATCHED:

Mega Shark vs Mecha Shark or some shiet like that

97. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?

Halloween

98. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?

Oh hell yes ;-;

99. STRANGEST PLACE HAD SEX?

N/A, Virgin-

100. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?

....I have no plans. What so ever. I need rl friends. ._.

IT'S BY
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This'll be on my profile soon enough, but for now:

Skype: Note me yours
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Neopets: Kittygirlx(I made it when I was 5, give me a break)

Mweor: RedwoodMutt

Charahub: RedwoodMutt

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