I applied for a job that I felt really good about and I didnt get it. I found out cos I was talking to a fellow creative and they said they just got hired by the place and I felt my guts being twisted into soup.

Cue all the inane self-loathing and bringing up of all my inadequacies of my past, present ANNNNDD FUTUUUREEEE.

I honestly hate myself very much sometimes.

Anyway, I cant draw personal art for the LIFE OF ME but I have serious art cravings. I draw other people stuff better than my own. Maybe I should open commissions, small ones? Or trades?

I honestly dont know. Im sad about myself, my therapy session is too far ahead in the date and Im just.....urgh.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31336524/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31336524/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31336524/

https://www.patreon.com/reika_fox

I am officially on Patreon!

In my bid to get sustainable income to support my little family and buy baby essentials for my little girl, I finally buckled down and made a Patreon (cos baby stuff is expensive omg!!). It's small for now, but I strive to make it grow and provide more content that people will enjoy!

Become my patron and you will receive goodies like early access to artwork, WIPs, an art blog (behind the scenes look at how I do my work) and at one tier, a headshot sketch of your OC (or any other character or OC you'd like) monthly! It's like a guaranteed commission slot for that type of art, and then some :D

Any and all support is deeply appreciated, as the money will be used to help keep my little family afloat (and this busy fox mama sane lol!). And if you decide to become my Patron, you have my utmost thanks!!! 💗❤️💗❤️

Thanks for looking peeps, and take care <333

UPDATE- Slot taken. Thanks everyone ❤️

*****

Hei peeps! I'm in need of some funds but can't really do too much so I opening for *ONE* full traditional portrait, partial body but shaded background similar to these examples below:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30670608/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30540894/

It will be thigh-up with a floral background, or mainly floral elements with a background included. Price starts at USD$150 for single character (I can do two characters as well, starting at $200). It will be done on 7x10 inch thick watercolor paper. Shipping will be an additional $10 cos I'm not in the USA and shipping will cost a little extra for me.

It's NOT first come, first serve...you can reply below with your ref(refs if two characters) and I will note who gets the slot.

I hope to open for these every month, one or two depending on how I can cope with an infant to care for

Thanks everyone ❤️❤️❤️

Hei guys

I apologize for being away from FA for a bit. I having trouble catching up with multiple sites, feel like I'm being pulled in multiple different directions at once. I'm pretty stretched out too in real life-- cos I recently had my baby girl in November 2018. I love my sweet little sprout with my entire heart, but man it's been rough tryna put myself back together mentally and physically.

Since I've decided to work full time at home freelancing, I'm gonna do my best to get back here too, opening for commissions and stuff cos I need the cash. Aahaha...baby stuff is expensive!

Will try to reply to Notes from friends here asap, but FA really does have a tiring Note system that drains me some. I prefer Twitter, it's much easier. I'm so sorry if I haven't replied to your Notes in a while too, I really am tryna get used to it more ;_; Not trying to ignore anyone, truly.

Hope ya'll are doing good tho!

Hei guys...

Im super sorry I havent been checking in here much, replying to comments and notes and such....Im not very good at taking care of myself sometimes and don't realize it when Im heading for a relapse. I feel better for a bit, think things are okay them BAM where the fuck did that wall come from

I have not been feeling at all well for a long while, two months going now. It's this Masters course Im taking and it has leeched me of much joy, motivation, spirit and inspiration. Im not the only one. Many of my cohorts have become ill, very depressed and bitter about it. I'd leave, but this course almost guarantees me a job. So I really do need it.

Good thing is I graduate in May and hope I get a job so I can get my life back on track.

I am not the best version of myself right now and I can't manage much here. If you really need to contact me, best get on my Twitter cos it really is easier for me to interact there than here. I sound allright in my tweets but actually my head space isnt very good. Just tryina' keep myself intact however I can.

I haven't drawn or written anything substantial either in forever and that depresses me because I really want to.

So yeah....I'm sorry. Im reaaally sorry :( For not replying, commenting, answering Twitter DMs and notes. I do feel horrible, and will do my best to come around once Im a bit better.

Owh, and in other news, I'm pregnant huhu. Expecting me kid around November if all goes well.

Take care peeps!

Hei peeps~ I know I havent been as active on here & Im sorry about that, but I do peep in here every once in a while! Im doing my final semester for my Masters course and it's been overwhelming and downright exhausting at times. I have a backlog of art I need to post up here soonish as well!

I'm still working/writing "This War of Ours" cos goddam Im obsessed with it, wont lie. Doing a good bit of art with it too so I'm hoping to share those soon too!

Take care peeps!

I mean it, thank you, all those who commented, faved and took the time out of your own busy lives to read my writings and talk to me about it

I write because I can't help it, I have stories I want to share and if I didnt write them I can't consider my life fulfilled. The same as drawing, but I feel more intensely about writing because it's what I've done since I was little.

I hope to keep going, to keep sharing. And seeing people coming along and liking what they read- even if I honestly don't think my stories are as cool or whatever- did more for my sense of self than I can express.

"This War of Ours" is meant to be a story of hope, of going on despite the fact that the world can be a terrible and unfair place. It tells a story from the perspective of people who arent exactly powerful, but will try to make the world a better place anyway. Writing it keeps my spirits, it makes me feel better. I know there will be a time I might get demotivated, bored or discouraged to keep writing it....but I want to keep trying.

You guys have been a big help in keeping me motivated and believing. So really, I thank you. I'm very grateful

Would people be interested? XD

I've been writing a lot lately thanks to the inspiration of some of my favourite artists  jayelleanderson  phantom.berserkr  sonichomeboy and  wielder. They helped me crack open my writing insecurities and now I'm actually gonna give it more of a go to practice.

It's always been a dream of mine to publish a story. I have so many stories and yet I....never finish them. The thought worried me. I know I'm not getting any younger, and that I will have to start somewhere even if the stories aren't as good or up to par. In my head, it doesn't really matter. If just one or two people enjoy what I write I would consider that a lovely thing and be happy!

I just need to start somewhere. I always had a hard time keeping motivated unless I shared and showed it. I also just wanna exercise my writing and have fun with this story, and just write where ever it takes me.

It's called "This War of Ours" and it is about an anthro collie mix (called Ferals in the story) trying to survive in a world torn by war and conflict. She comes upon a wounded human man named Varian Cross and takes him in. While the story's main theme centers on their dynamic, there are larger forces at work that make survival all the harder for them, and whether they want it or not they are caught and trapped in the middle of it all.

That's a basic run-down, and I've already written Chapters 1 and 2 (hahaha). I'm seriously not sure if I want to finish it or not, we shall see, but I just felt like I wanted to share and try out my luck with writing. As I said, gotta start somewhere!

Thanks for reading all <3
Much love,
Reiks

Full body flat colour chibis! NOT FIRST COME FIRST SERVE~! Please read the instructions given in the submission below:

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/25813351
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/25813351
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/25813351

Need to raise funds for le boring adult stuff such as bills, groceries etc hurr

Samples are as below:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25813214/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25813145/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25813101/

Im now 28.

I doubt I'll ever change. Even when Im 50 I will probably still be addicted to art, cute borbs, flowers, crystals and all that good jazz.

If anything I just feel more tired x'D Not wiser, just a whole lotta tired.

Got me red velvet cheese cake from the fam and a lovely trinket from my mate <3

Will try to uhh, art when I can. Im drowning in work but I will try to squeeze in what I can or I'll go crazy.

My love peeps <3
~Reiks

AND IM SO SORRY I TOOK FOREVER TO GET BACK HGHANN

I was so surprised by the responses and you all are so nice about it I just didnt know how to respond plsimsosorry

I am a terrible decision maker as well x.x I cant be trusted to choose because in the end I might say yes to everything ahhhh

I will go through them and give a note when I make a decision yea

Thanks again so much peeps, for your time and attention ;_;

...cos holy shit I'm going insane.

If any of you follow my Twitter, you will know that I'm taking a Masters course in Uni and I swear it has done me a whole lot of SHIT. I learn a lot from my lectures (HOW NOT TO BE LIKE THEM) and the work placement I'm attached to is pretty damn toxic cos they don't want us to be there.

It's been a shitstorm.

So....I want to buy art, to treat myself. I feel like it's a long time coming. I have a few funds saved and nothing quite makes me feel better than art.

My budget is only USD $50, and I don't mind simple flat colour sketches, chibi or whatnot. I want art of my characters below:

Riordan - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24466580/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23845164/

Mae - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23894620/

Grayson - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21510716/

Haven and Xanatos - Will give refs if asked cos there's few of them.

And others, depending on your style.

So if you're open/can recommend anyone who is, please do reply in a comment below. I'm happy to browse.

Thanks so much peeps. It's a dark time, but I'm determined to do my best to stay up and strong.

A brief update on myself here. I know I hardly ever come to FA much, but rest assured I do lurk about ^^'

Art-wise, I have a bit of a plateful. Will be making time to get more art done, as I hardly ever have the energy and time to draw beyond just sketches these days. Been AGES since I did a full colour personal piece. The latest, full colour pic took the wind out of my sails (tho it was worth it) and I won't be doing those kinds for commissions in a while (unless I need cash, cos you know, I love cash).

So please bear with me as I get myself sorted out with it all! I also have a nasty research proposal for my Masters course I need finished cos my last one was flatly rejected. WOWWEEE.

Until then, hope you guys are doing well <33 Pls take care peeps!

Cos I am curious on how people approach on deciding which would be their primary fursona and why, and how a secondary/or alternative fursonas comes about.

Reika (red kitsune) is my primary sona and I want it to remain that way. That's why I make species variants of her (even with different names, they have the same core personality). Though I always wondered whether I should just sort them as alternative sonas or something. Each variant has a more heightened characteristic than the ground Red Kitsune form. Like, Lune (civet Reika) is more powerhungry and controlling. Reiks (even if she doesnt look it) is actually a control freak with a dominant streak, but its more heightened in Lune.

Gimme your thoughts <3 I'm happy to hear what you think

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23918193/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23918193/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23918193/

Chibi bunny bases $10 for both <3 Payment via PayPal.

They are all in transparent .PNG files, inside a zip folder, but I can send them as full saperate files via email too if you'd prefer that.

No hair, tail, wings, other alternates, but you are free to add them to the original lineart as you wish! You can use them for adoptable, YCHs etc

Comment on the link/or here to claim ^^

Would really appreciate sharing or spreading the word of these to anyone who might be interested. I worked hard on them and they were harder to make than I originally thought huhu

Thanks for looking peeps! <3

Sorry for the inactivity here peeps :'(

....I a rather spritely in Twitter of late though. Most of my recent art, mostly graphite illustrations, are posted there. So if you wanna see those, you can check them out there. I might update here sooner or later ^^'

I still lurk, though I find it hard to keep up with two sites sometimes x.x

Life update includes a SEVERE FRUSTRATING EVIL artblock and I recently recovered from a pretty bad cold that lasted longer than it should. I'm okay now, but my inability to draw a proper muzzle or anything decent for that matter is infuriating.

Owh, and my baby sister got married It was a small, sweet and modest affair but still hgghhnnnnn it's my little sis goddam it. I don't know how to handle the feels. I've been watching over her for so long (we're very close) and to see her in her white dress and off with her man just MAKES ME FEEL SO OLD AND HAPPY.

And I have a few new watchers as well, goodness thank you all for taking the time to check out my work and watching; I'm inactive but I do put out a few things once in a while *tries not to disappoint* Still, thank you, it really doesn't go unappreciated

I made a new character too yis. He is my current avatar. My grace puppy. I love him to bits. Slowly, very slowly working on a ref sheet of him. You know I love a character when I actually put out an effort to make a ref sheet of him.

Love and peace peeps,
Reiksreiks

[Edit: Learnt a few things, thanks to some knowledgeable peeps. Thanks!]

Heh, it finally happened.

So a tracer's has been tracing my chibi work and trying to sell them off as YCH's. PROFITING WHUT

If anyone wants evidence, I can privately note and explain things there better.

Person has been reported. Let's leave it at that. Apparently I hear this isn't the first time.

Now, really. If peeps had JUST APPROACHED ME POLITELY I actually would have given some leeway. I get that sometimes its hard to draw things. I actually don't mind helping, though I obviously wouldn't be your coach who holds your hand or anything. But trying to PROFIT off things without permission, without credit is not cool .

Young artists who are tracing/referencing work~ please give credit. Intimidating as it sounds, you could even try to approach the artists who inspires you so. Even if there isn't much response, atleast they'll respect you for actually making an honest effort. If you just nab off their work without credit or permission ESPECIALLY FOR PROFIT, don't expect them to think highly of you afterwards.

Thanks so much to the peeps who gave me a heads up. Really, really appreciate it

As the title says, I've reached a point where I realized that I will always be busy with real life distractions (family, home, university etc) and that I need a real work over in the time management department...

I'm not proud of my commission backlog and I really am working towards finishing it. I realized I was also a bit of a perfectionist and took long lengths of time and effort to get whatever perceived imperfection right. This wasn't just art, but with University as well. I was determined to be one of the top student teachers (my Masters is in Teaching) and I worked my ass off on my school placement.

Didn't take long for me to burn out and at one point I was sobbing in front of my coursemates and supervisor (urgh). That was when I told myself I needed to be less of a nitpick and to learn to manage my time better.

I'm doing better now, atleast I realized what I was doing wrong.

My school placement is over but I have non-stop lectures til May 18th before semester break and a research thesis to come up with. It isn't fun D'x

Art wise, I have a few small personal projects done and while I'm still working on my backlog, whatever new commissions I'll be opening will mostly be sketches, just to keep the finance coming in. Most of my updates are on Twitter anyhow so you can pop in there for any latest stuff :)

Annnddd that's it for now. *oozes into a puddle*

Love, Reiks

....and I am arting yes. Slowly.

Most of what I have done are doodles and sketches while I only put on Twitter. I'm also working on commissions.

I'm on a short break from school work and university but I still have assignments to do. I'm also taking some time for some self-care, cos cheesy as it sounds I do need it :/

While I'm more active on Twitter, lately I haven't been as active as well. Social media and online stuff can overwhelm me at times, hence why I'm not exactly the fastest replier. I will get to replying to notes however, though I apologise if I had been late with those

Overall, really I'm doing okay. Not looking forward to not work at school but that's how it is. Hopefully I can get some good work done by the end of this holiday.

Hope you guys are doing allright tho. I miss you all and wish I had more energy to keep up more actively with things here <3

Peace,
Reiks

My grandfather passed this Monday, in the early hours of the morn.

Since then, funeral rites have taken all week. Family has gathered in my parents home for the first time in FOREVER. We keep our distance from one another most of the time, but now with grandfather's death, we have assembled, and bonded a little. It has been good, but also exhausting.

Coupled with school and university work, I didn't have much energy or inspiration for art. I've got one big commission flat coloured and others with a sketch in mind tho, so will do my best to get at those asap.

This is my first death ever. I'm not sure how to feel. My grandfather was distant to us, kept to himself and never really said much to me or his other grandkids. Part of me is kind of angry at him. He....made my grandmother and mom real miserable at times, and I felt like I hated him then. Hated for what he did to my grandmother, stressed my mother out, caused rifts to happen in family.

But.....I want to forgive him. Let go of the hurt, the anger. While naturally, as a granddaughter I loved him. And I'm sure in his own way, he loved me. Though he showed so little of it. And call me greedy all you'd like, but I wished that he had atleast said that he did--that he loved me.

Now that he's gone I'll never get that chance.

I have more bad memories of him than good, memories that infuriate me to the core. But the good ones I want to hold onto, to help me forgive. It's been a strange struggle. At one point I feel like screaming, "Now you won't make my mother suffer your difficult ways anymore" and at the same time I'm like, "How I wish we could have had a healthy relationship. One with ice cream and conversations, life advice, laughs, love."

As I write, I'm a little shaky and teary. I don't know why I'm writing something so personal. Started out as just an update journal, but I ended up writing what didnt know I truly felt, and it needed out. So I just let it flow.

I'm grieving in my own way I guess. I will need time to heal from the loss, as well as to ease my lingering hurt, as well as to forgive.

I'm thankful for my family, friends but also for my online peeps (here and on Twitter) for a place I can be my silly furry-loving self.

Hope everyone's been doing allright. School holidays are coming up soon, so I hope to use that time for working on art proper.

Love and peace,
Reiks

So I started the Teaching Work Attachment in schools as a part of my Masters coursework and will be doing so until April.

So far:

1) I nearly scrapped my car on the curb because of lack of sleep

2) Stuffed my face with two large fries and a Quarter Pounder at McDonalds to drown the recollection of cringey attempts at "fun" teaching teenagers (I sang in class what?)

3) Did nothing but sleep after JUST 1.5 hours with loud, boisterous teenagers

4) Get my emotions get trampled on because I do like my students but also feel like I'm at odds with them

5) Feel that all that pedagogical meh I learnt in lectures can really/WILL fly out the window the moment you enter a class

6) Learnt that sticking to lesson plans isn't exactly my strength

....and the list goes on.

I'm pretty much swamped. Hence the inactivity. But I'll check in here every once in a bit, I'm too much furry trash to stay away x'D

Sooo...yeah...update :D Hope you're doing okay everyone <3

Hei peeps!

Well, having a look at my PayPal account makes me weep. I had payment issues with the bank about my car (they threatened to repo it because the system said I didn't pay. Which I did, just the system registered it late). I managed to solve it but it took a good chunk of cash.

So I will be opening for Chibi Sketch commissions on Twitter only. It's easier for me to manage things there to be honest~faster and more convenient. For now, Twitter only~ I will open here once I am less in a packed schedule maybe. We'll see how it goes!

It won't be a lot. Heck, I'm just gonna open for two slots or so. Just enough for food and other uni supplies

I just don't feel comfortable asking the hubs for finance help all the time. It makes me feel less anxious about money if I know I got some earned on my own in case of emergencies. I didn't want to open really, but real life has it's demands.

So if you're on Twitter, and you follow me, you can get a slot there, as limited as it may be because that's really all I can manage right now huhu ^^'

Love,
Reiks

Turns out comments were disabled on my last journal. Was typing on my touchscreen phone so it must have accidentally ticked the disable comments box.

Oh well. So uhh, yeah. You can comment or what not, because I do love hearing from you guys! I do miss y'all. Online stuff helps me disconnect from the shitfest that real life can be.

Just thought I'd pop in to say I'm not dead and that though art is slow, esp commissions, it's still ongoing. Just slow. Please don't hate me :'D

Also, I love Pokebeans.

heartshearts
Reiks

SO YAH.

I'm not dead nor will I ever really leave FA and art. I just have my time devoured by long classes, assignments and other boring real life stuff.

While I ain't never gonna forget my commissions (I'm still working on them, tho at a slower pace, given my schedule and not to overwork myself) I doubt I will be making large personal pieces much. Chibis maybe but big full personal pieces? Heh. I barely have energy for that nowadays.

It's okay tho.

I'm a graduate student now and being at the current stage of life that I am now I just cannot keep up with the vigorous, gurgling sweet energy of undergrads. I feel so old next to them lol HOW DO I YOUNG AGAIN HURR

I actually wanted to open for small sketch coms (because I like earning and also because I need food) but I thought against it.

So yap. Life update. Hope you peeps are doing swell!

Hearts,
Reiks