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Posted 2 years agoI do most of my cool stuff on Twitter, over at kusfatass come say hi there it's way more fun
A lot more active on Twitter these days!
Posted 3 years agoA journal title you're probably pretty used to these days. But yes, you can find me over at its_the_ku for general stuff, or kusfatass if you want mostly vorny shit and art. Hope to see you all there~
Birthday, and that time a month ago I was almost dead.
Posted 5 years agoWell, it's that time of year again. 33, I'm older. So happy.
Anyway! On to the main point of the journal.
As some people, mostly those on DIscord/Telegram are doubtless aware, I went AWOL about 5 weeks ago, and while I'm more or less back now, I've had one hell of a month-and-a-bit.
At the end of October I went in for a surgical operation to improve my quality of life. It was an incredibly low risk operation, I was meant to go under the knife, wake up a few hours later, mill about in a hospital bed for a few days and be on my way.
Obviously, that didn't happen. Apparently I started bleeding from multiple unknown locations in my guts, and they had to wake me up just so I could sign waivers for exploratory surgery, which meant they'd be almost tearing me in half to get at my squishy insides and find the bleeding. I was put in a medically induced coma for 3 days while they took me apart to find out where I was bleeding, and from what I heard/read I had one foot in the grave.
3 days later and I wake up in the ICU surrounded by people, my mum, and I got tubes fucking everywhere. Whatever they'd done to me, they'd made it work, and while I was still in a lot of trouble, my vitals were very strong for somebody who'd been through what I'd been through.
So, then began 4 days of being fussed over in the ICU. Being poked and prodded and rolled over for tests and vomiting bile on orderlies. Having blood pumped into me and getting all my nourishment from bags of water. I'll tell you what, when you're in a state like that, and the nurses finally allow you to have ice chips to nibble on, it's like fucking ambrosia.
I should also mention that through all of this, I can't sleep at all. The drugs I was put on had me hallucinating constantly, completely unable to sleep, as closing my eyes just put me in another world, a world where sleep apparently wasn't real. These hallucinations would eventually devolve into screaming terrors that would torment me for nights on end. Fun. Really put me off the idea of doing harder drugs down the line.
Glossing over a lot of details, I was eventually well enough to be moved from the ICU into something the surgical recovery ward, and eventually administration. There I sat for a week, unable to move under my own power, needing assistance to get in and out of bed, needing walkers to get around, and needing the nursing staff to wash me (At least for the first day or two) and it got old, fast. When you're in hospital and you're in dire straits, you know you need to be there, and you don't complain. But when you're feeling better, and nobody is coming to see you or test you (Outside of medication and checking vitals) you start to stress the fuck out, and want to go home.
Well, eventually I did go home. I needed a cane and given how uneven the area around where my little outdoor room thingy is, it was pretty hairy, but I made it.
Aaaand that's when shit got bad. The next day I started to ache, a lot. All over. I'd been coughing for a while and that was starting to send pangs of sharp pain through these sore points all over my torso. They'd come and go over the days, but there'd always be a nasty spot that caused a lot of pain. Now, given what I'd been through, I knew this was normal, and I confirmed it with my surgeon when I visited him for a checkup. By this time, my right upper arm and part of my upper right chest were starting to feel sore. A similar pain to having worked out, but localized.
That pain started to get really bad, really fast. two days later and it was so bad, and my cough had gotten so severe, that I couldn't move my arm at all, and each cough rocked my body hard enough that it felt like I was being stabbed in my right side. I was screaming in pain.
Thankfully, my half sister is a nurse, and I live with her. She checked on me that night and when she saw me in the state I was in, she called an ambulance. It was the right move. When they showed up the EMT took my vitals and they were fucked. So in my room I was hooked up to Oxygen, given an IV of fluids, and stabilized before taken to the ambulance and then to Hospital (A different one this time, a public one. Closer to where I live). From there I went to the ER and I was once again poked and prodded and put through scans and ultrasounds and all that.
Turns out I have pneumonia, which is both quite bad and quite easy to deal with, and a blood clot in my neck. Not a fun place for a clot to be. It was cutting off blood from flowing into parts of my body and that's what caused the pain.
After that I was shipped to the respiratory ward and put in a room with a guy named Glen, who was on palliative care. If you don't know what that is, it's basically "You're going to die soon" care. He was a really nice guy and I hope he's still holding up.
I was put on antibiotics and blood thinners, and I started to get a little better. My arm regained movement over the next few days. I was also informed that I would need to be on this medicine for a long time, and I'd need to be able to administer a twice daily injection of blood thinners myself. I'll tell you what, I'm good with needles, I don't mind watching at all. But doing it myself? That mental block that says DON'T STAB YOURSELF is strong in me. And it took me a long time to learn it. The nurse was so patient over the few days it took to practice. But eventually I got it. Only to be told I was getting switched to pills the next day. Fuck.
Anyway, that's the truncated version. A lot of wild shit happened in those hospitals but I don't have the energy to write that novel. I hope that clears up what's been going on with me over last while for those interested.
I've been home for over a week and I'm doing a LOT better. I have to wear a compression sleeve to keep my blood flowing the right way, and I'm still weak as fuck, and have trouble walking that far, but I'm improving, finally. After all this fucking time.
Cheers!
Anyway! On to the main point of the journal.
As some people, mostly those on DIscord/Telegram are doubtless aware, I went AWOL about 5 weeks ago, and while I'm more or less back now, I've had one hell of a month-and-a-bit.
At the end of October I went in for a surgical operation to improve my quality of life. It was an incredibly low risk operation, I was meant to go under the knife, wake up a few hours later, mill about in a hospital bed for a few days and be on my way.
Obviously, that didn't happen. Apparently I started bleeding from multiple unknown locations in my guts, and they had to wake me up just so I could sign waivers for exploratory surgery, which meant they'd be almost tearing me in half to get at my squishy insides and find the bleeding. I was put in a medically induced coma for 3 days while they took me apart to find out where I was bleeding, and from what I heard/read I had one foot in the grave.
3 days later and I wake up in the ICU surrounded by people, my mum, and I got tubes fucking everywhere. Whatever they'd done to me, they'd made it work, and while I was still in a lot of trouble, my vitals were very strong for somebody who'd been through what I'd been through.
So, then began 4 days of being fussed over in the ICU. Being poked and prodded and rolled over for tests and vomiting bile on orderlies. Having blood pumped into me and getting all my nourishment from bags of water. I'll tell you what, when you're in a state like that, and the nurses finally allow you to have ice chips to nibble on, it's like fucking ambrosia.
I should also mention that through all of this, I can't sleep at all. The drugs I was put on had me hallucinating constantly, completely unable to sleep, as closing my eyes just put me in another world, a world where sleep apparently wasn't real. These hallucinations would eventually devolve into screaming terrors that would torment me for nights on end. Fun. Really put me off the idea of doing harder drugs down the line.
Glossing over a lot of details, I was eventually well enough to be moved from the ICU into something the surgical recovery ward, and eventually administration. There I sat for a week, unable to move under my own power, needing assistance to get in and out of bed, needing walkers to get around, and needing the nursing staff to wash me (At least for the first day or two) and it got old, fast. When you're in hospital and you're in dire straits, you know you need to be there, and you don't complain. But when you're feeling better, and nobody is coming to see you or test you (Outside of medication and checking vitals) you start to stress the fuck out, and want to go home.
Well, eventually I did go home. I needed a cane and given how uneven the area around where my little outdoor room thingy is, it was pretty hairy, but I made it.
Aaaand that's when shit got bad. The next day I started to ache, a lot. All over. I'd been coughing for a while and that was starting to send pangs of sharp pain through these sore points all over my torso. They'd come and go over the days, but there'd always be a nasty spot that caused a lot of pain. Now, given what I'd been through, I knew this was normal, and I confirmed it with my surgeon when I visited him for a checkup. By this time, my right upper arm and part of my upper right chest were starting to feel sore. A similar pain to having worked out, but localized.
That pain started to get really bad, really fast. two days later and it was so bad, and my cough had gotten so severe, that I couldn't move my arm at all, and each cough rocked my body hard enough that it felt like I was being stabbed in my right side. I was screaming in pain.
Thankfully, my half sister is a nurse, and I live with her. She checked on me that night and when she saw me in the state I was in, she called an ambulance. It was the right move. When they showed up the EMT took my vitals and they were fucked. So in my room I was hooked up to Oxygen, given an IV of fluids, and stabilized before taken to the ambulance and then to Hospital (A different one this time, a public one. Closer to where I live). From there I went to the ER and I was once again poked and prodded and put through scans and ultrasounds and all that.
Turns out I have pneumonia, which is both quite bad and quite easy to deal with, and a blood clot in my neck. Not a fun place for a clot to be. It was cutting off blood from flowing into parts of my body and that's what caused the pain.
After that I was shipped to the respiratory ward and put in a room with a guy named Glen, who was on palliative care. If you don't know what that is, it's basically "You're going to die soon" care. He was a really nice guy and I hope he's still holding up.
I was put on antibiotics and blood thinners, and I started to get a little better. My arm regained movement over the next few days. I was also informed that I would need to be on this medicine for a long time, and I'd need to be able to administer a twice daily injection of blood thinners myself. I'll tell you what, I'm good with needles, I don't mind watching at all. But doing it myself? That mental block that says DON'T STAB YOURSELF is strong in me. And it took me a long time to learn it. The nurse was so patient over the few days it took to practice. But eventually I got it. Only to be told I was getting switched to pills the next day. Fuck.
Anyway, that's the truncated version. A lot of wild shit happened in those hospitals but I don't have the energy to write that novel. I hope that clears up what's been going on with me over last while for those interested.
I've been home for over a week and I'm doing a LOT better. I have to wear a compression sleeve to keep my blood flowing the right way, and I'm still weak as fuck, and have trouble walking that far, but I'm improving, finally. After all this fucking time.
Cheers!
Aaaaaand I'm old(er)
Posted 6 years agoI hate the linear passage of time.
The end of ponies, and I'm having ALL of the emotions (Rant)
Posted 6 years agoExcept for the comics, that are continuing. And the planned CGI movie... and god knows what G5 will bring, though I heard it's going to be more focused on adventure arcs, and not on slice of life, which bums me out. AND OH GOD THE PORN.
Fair warning, this is long, and it's going to be gloomy.
Aaaaaaanyway... my mood isn't great. Despite having somewhat lost some interest in the show, with a lot of the wonderful writers that made the early (And even mid) seasons amazing rotating out, aaaaand falling out of reading tons of fanfics, keeping on top of fan content, Deep down I still had... fuck, still have, such a deep emotional connection to the show.
Which I didn't always. In fact, for the first couple of years I was HARD on the contrarian bandwagon. Fucking hated ponies. For absolutely no good reason. I was just a moody Twentysomething who hated people having fun.
But then... https://derpicdn.net/img/view/2012/9/23/104934.jpg I saw this picture. I have no idea what about it did something, but it started applying pressure to that switch that would flip from HATE to LOVE. Sooo maybe I started looking at some more pony porn, well before I'd seen anything of the show, but that lewdness started to open my mind a little.
And then I met
Superglue I don't talk about him much, because I don't like parading relationships about, but we've been together for just shy of six years.
He's a decent bit younger than me, and he was FULL into ponies. And when we were chatting on Skype and stuff he confessed to me that he was into MLP. I rolled my eyes but I'd been having that interest growing in me for some time (In total private) so when he insisted on at least showing me some fan content, I yielded.
Fucking hell, it was so good. I don't remember everything he showed me, but things like Picture Perfect Pony and Epic Wub Time blew my mind.
Sooo then he visited, and he wanted to actually watch the show with me, since I'd yet to actually see any episodes. I complained, but bargained that I'd watch some shows if he watched some horror movies with me (He is a very easily scared boy <3)
So he visited me for the first time, and we cuddled and watched pony. All of it. All the way up to the current mid season 3. I was fucking hooked. I was enchanted by the characters and enthralled by the world. I wanted more. And so I rewatched it over and over. I catapulted myself into the fandom full force. I RP'd ponies, I read ponies, I watched fan stuff, I chatted about it with people who shared my passion.
I'd missed the initial explosion of the fandom (By the time I was in it, the Twilicorn drama was already a thing) and that may be one of the reasons I lingered a lot longer than many other people. Even Superglue lost interest, which devastated me, since I loved chatting pone with him above anybody else.
Now, I'm not going to sit here and tell you that the show held it's quality until the end. I may be obsessed with ponies, but my passion can turn harshly on things that make me mad. And pone definitely made me mad some times, with some stunningly poor episodes, and even lackluster seasons. I have a lot of contempt for some of the content creators that made a huge dramatic deal about leaving the fandom (Looking at you Bronycurious. You insipid cunt), but hold a special place of hatred in my heart for people who loved the show every bit as much as me, but nowadays try to distance themselves from it, as if they never really cared. I'm not here to tell people to love a fandom forever, but own that you did in the past.
So... eventually I did start getting lax with reading the comics (I'm now years behind) and I'd let half a season of the show slip by without me watching before I rushed to catch up. I stopped staying up for livestreams. Part of me was getting really frustrated with some of the weak story lines the show was trotting out, culminating in the theatrical release of the MLP Movie which was fucking abysmal. It became clear that the show had to end, and part of me is sad it didn't end on a high note.
Because boy, I am not thrilled with this finale.
The whole premise of the season; Twilight taking the throne, just sat so poorly with me.
The best of pony was when Twilight wasn't the main character, but instead one of six (Spike doesn't count. Ever). She was an amazing catalyst to bring us into this amazing world with these wonderful characters. But starting with Season 4, when she was a princess, she became the focal point. Not saying she was there in every episode, but it became really ordinary. Twilight learning to be a princess. Twilight saving the day. It felt so... predictable. Especially when the Remane 5 started to conclude their story arcs and complete the development that began early in the show.
It had been making me feel bitter for a long, long time. As much as I loved the show, world and characters it was very clear that it was taking a direction that I was unhappy with. They got my attention again when they introduced Starlight Glimmer, and made her a really important character, but that didn't last, and she quickly became subordinate to Twilight. Everything must be funneled into Twilight Sparkle: Main Character.
I love Twi, well, loved. She's an incredible character who has grown so much, and so well. But anybody who argues that she became the Main character is talking out of their ass. And so she became a symbol of a growing frustration I had with the show. Even though what happened in the finale was telegraphed for ages (I also believe it was Lauren Faust's original intention as well) I had hoped it would not be the case. It doesn't help that she was mid tier on my list of Best Pones.
I was not ready for fully alicornified Twilight (Or chad Spike, Eww), and it hit me like a punch in the gut. Not because it didn't make sense, but because it was a symbol of everything that had been making me ache for the last couple of years. The chat on the stream seemed to disagree, so I'm glad for them! But for me, I dunno, it hurt. It hurt more seeing older versions of all the characters I loved come on screen. I think that was the worst part of it. Because it made me realize that one of the worst fan tropes was going to come true. Princess Twilight the immortal Alicorn will watch her friends die. (Meghan Mccarthy you fucking promised that wouldn't happen!) It's such a shitty, overused trope that people just wrote fic after fic about, animations and artwork for fucking YEARS. And I always turned my nose up at it. I knew the producers stance on it, and I knew that... what a bad ending for the show that would be. Build this franchise on the shoulders of a group of 6 friends, To have it end this way just feels wrong.
You know that feeling when a Celebrity or Personality you are fond of (But don't personally know) dies? How you get that weird, numbing ache in your chest? Is that just me? I got that way after TotalBiscuit died, someone I had never and would never have met, but who had a huge impact on my life. Well, I got that feeling now. I didn't end up crying, which I really thought I would, but I feel that numb ache. Even with it ending in a way that bothered me greatly, I still wish it wasn't over. One last episode, one last movie (Not counting EQG) to tell me that things will be okay, and that these characters I love will be friends forever.
But that's the silly want of someone who knows better.
The ending was... ultimately fine. It wasn't the ending I wanted, but it gave me these complex feelings of sorrowful happiness and mourning. A bad show with a bad ending wouldn't do that.
So even though I hate seeing Twilight towering over her aging friends, and I hate how she is above the Remane 5, and has been for years, and I hate so, so much... I loved it. for the more than 6 years of me being in this fandom, I loved every minute of it, and I'll keep on loving it through the comics, potential movies, and fuck me, even whatever nightmare Gen5 will probably be.
Aaaaand if you're reading this, and you're a pone, or pone adjacent, or just a curious friend or follower, then I love you for reading this, as a friend.
Because Friendship is Magic <3
Fair warning, this is long, and it's going to be gloomy.
Aaaaaaanyway... my mood isn't great. Despite having somewhat lost some interest in the show, with a lot of the wonderful writers that made the early (And even mid) seasons amazing rotating out, aaaaand falling out of reading tons of fanfics, keeping on top of fan content, Deep down I still had... fuck, still have, such a deep emotional connection to the show.
Which I didn't always. In fact, for the first couple of years I was HARD on the contrarian bandwagon. Fucking hated ponies. For absolutely no good reason. I was just a moody Twentysomething who hated people having fun.
But then... https://derpicdn.net/img/view/2012/9/23/104934.jpg I saw this picture. I have no idea what about it did something, but it started applying pressure to that switch that would flip from HATE to LOVE. Sooo maybe I started looking at some more pony porn, well before I'd seen anything of the show, but that lewdness started to open my mind a little.
And then I met
Superglue I don't talk about him much, because I don't like parading relationships about, but we've been together for just shy of six years. He's a decent bit younger than me, and he was FULL into ponies. And when we were chatting on Skype and stuff he confessed to me that he was into MLP. I rolled my eyes but I'd been having that interest growing in me for some time (In total private) so when he insisted on at least showing me some fan content, I yielded.
Fucking hell, it was so good. I don't remember everything he showed me, but things like Picture Perfect Pony and Epic Wub Time blew my mind.
Sooo then he visited, and he wanted to actually watch the show with me, since I'd yet to actually see any episodes. I complained, but bargained that I'd watch some shows if he watched some horror movies with me (He is a very easily scared boy <3)
So he visited me for the first time, and we cuddled and watched pony. All of it. All the way up to the current mid season 3. I was fucking hooked. I was enchanted by the characters and enthralled by the world. I wanted more. And so I rewatched it over and over. I catapulted myself into the fandom full force. I RP'd ponies, I read ponies, I watched fan stuff, I chatted about it with people who shared my passion.
I'd missed the initial explosion of the fandom (By the time I was in it, the Twilicorn drama was already a thing) and that may be one of the reasons I lingered a lot longer than many other people. Even Superglue lost interest, which devastated me, since I loved chatting pone with him above anybody else.
Now, I'm not going to sit here and tell you that the show held it's quality until the end. I may be obsessed with ponies, but my passion can turn harshly on things that make me mad. And pone definitely made me mad some times, with some stunningly poor episodes, and even lackluster seasons. I have a lot of contempt for some of the content creators that made a huge dramatic deal about leaving the fandom (Looking at you Bronycurious. You insipid cunt), but hold a special place of hatred in my heart for people who loved the show every bit as much as me, but nowadays try to distance themselves from it, as if they never really cared. I'm not here to tell people to love a fandom forever, but own that you did in the past.
So... eventually I did start getting lax with reading the comics (I'm now years behind) and I'd let half a season of the show slip by without me watching before I rushed to catch up. I stopped staying up for livestreams. Part of me was getting really frustrated with some of the weak story lines the show was trotting out, culminating in the theatrical release of the MLP Movie which was fucking abysmal. It became clear that the show had to end, and part of me is sad it didn't end on a high note.
Because boy, I am not thrilled with this finale.
The whole premise of the season; Twilight taking the throne, just sat so poorly with me.
The best of pony was when Twilight wasn't the main character, but instead one of six (Spike doesn't count. Ever). She was an amazing catalyst to bring us into this amazing world with these wonderful characters. But starting with Season 4, when she was a princess, she became the focal point. Not saying she was there in every episode, but it became really ordinary. Twilight learning to be a princess. Twilight saving the day. It felt so... predictable. Especially when the Remane 5 started to conclude their story arcs and complete the development that began early in the show.
It had been making me feel bitter for a long, long time. As much as I loved the show, world and characters it was very clear that it was taking a direction that I was unhappy with. They got my attention again when they introduced Starlight Glimmer, and made her a really important character, but that didn't last, and she quickly became subordinate to Twilight. Everything must be funneled into Twilight Sparkle: Main Character.
I love Twi, well, loved. She's an incredible character who has grown so much, and so well. But anybody who argues that she became the Main character is talking out of their ass. And so she became a symbol of a growing frustration I had with the show. Even though what happened in the finale was telegraphed for ages (I also believe it was Lauren Faust's original intention as well) I had hoped it would not be the case. It doesn't help that she was mid tier on my list of Best Pones.
I was not ready for fully alicornified Twilight (Or chad Spike, Eww), and it hit me like a punch in the gut. Not because it didn't make sense, but because it was a symbol of everything that had been making me ache for the last couple of years. The chat on the stream seemed to disagree, so I'm glad for them! But for me, I dunno, it hurt. It hurt more seeing older versions of all the characters I loved come on screen. I think that was the worst part of it. Because it made me realize that one of the worst fan tropes was going to come true. Princess Twilight the immortal Alicorn will watch her friends die. (Meghan Mccarthy you fucking promised that wouldn't happen!) It's such a shitty, overused trope that people just wrote fic after fic about, animations and artwork for fucking YEARS. And I always turned my nose up at it. I knew the producers stance on it, and I knew that... what a bad ending for the show that would be. Build this franchise on the shoulders of a group of 6 friends, To have it end this way just feels wrong.
You know that feeling when a Celebrity or Personality you are fond of (But don't personally know) dies? How you get that weird, numbing ache in your chest? Is that just me? I got that way after TotalBiscuit died, someone I had never and would never have met, but who had a huge impact on my life. Well, I got that feeling now. I didn't end up crying, which I really thought I would, but I feel that numb ache. Even with it ending in a way that bothered me greatly, I still wish it wasn't over. One last episode, one last movie (Not counting EQG) to tell me that things will be okay, and that these characters I love will be friends forever.
But that's the silly want of someone who knows better.
The ending was... ultimately fine. It wasn't the ending I wanted, but it gave me these complex feelings of sorrowful happiness and mourning. A bad show with a bad ending wouldn't do that.
So even though I hate seeing Twilight towering over her aging friends, and I hate how she is above the Remane 5, and has been for years, and I hate so, so much... I loved it. for the more than 6 years of me being in this fandom, I loved every minute of it, and I'll keep on loving it through the comics, potential movies, and fuck me, even whatever nightmare Gen5 will probably be.
Aaaaand if you're reading this, and you're a pone, or pone adjacent, or just a curious friend or follower, then I love you for reading this, as a friend.
Because Friendship is Magic <3
IT'S ALL FUCKING OVER.
Posted 6 years agoI just noticed FA nuked, and is continuing to nuke year old Submission notifications.
Last time I counted, I had 236850.
I am now down to a literally vile 36936.
I fucking quit.
Last time I counted, I had 236850.
I am now down to a literally vile 36936.
I fucking quit.
Please for god's sake, go buy Journey.
Posted 6 years agoI normally don't make call to actions publicly that often. Not for games.
But fuck, if you never played Journey because you never had a PS3 or PS4, it's on the Epic Game Store for 5 bucks on sale.
It's one of the most enthralling, emotional experiences I've had in a game over the past 10 years, and if you enjoy having feelings, do yourself a favour and buy the game. You couldn't possibly regret it for 5 bucks.
Edit: Four comments across 2 platforms I posted this, all bitching about the epic game store. Jesus fuck, people.
But fuck, if you never played Journey because you never had a PS3 or PS4, it's on the Epic Game Store for 5 bucks on sale.
It's one of the most enthralling, emotional experiences I've had in a game over the past 10 years, and if you enjoy having feelings, do yourself a favour and buy the game. You couldn't possibly regret it for 5 bucks.
Edit: Four comments across 2 platforms I posted this, all bitching about the epic game store. Jesus fuck, people.
Why are Kobolds a thing?
Posted 6 years agoI mean they cute as hell, but I've noticed a serious uptick in cutebolds and I wanna know why.
Explain.
Explain.
Sobble or die.
Posted 6 years agoGrookey goes down the toilet.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Posted 7 years agoHey guess what, the Furry Fandom is still alive and largely a lot of fun, filled with a bunch of cool people!
People like YOU!
Maybe.
If you're not cool then please leave.
But yeah, I hope your 2019 is better than your 2018 <3
People like YOU!
Maybe.
If you're not cool then please leave.
But yeah, I hope your 2019 is better than your 2018 <3
Birthday!
Posted 7 years agoThat's it. No cringe or anything.
I'm 31, I'm a big boy now.
I'm 31, I'm a big boy now.
So about the "Toxic Furry Fandom" discussion, and that video
Posted 7 years agoIn case you didn't see or hear about it, a video by 
kothorix. I came by it after it was signal boosted by 
Jasonafex.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDa9w_XoP7Y here it is, it's just over half an hour, and it's probably worth a watch, especially if you've been in the fandom for a long time. I feel it's going to be relevant to every furry in some capacity fairly soon.
So I'm going to assume you just watched the video now, or previously watched it. Or maybe just had the same sentiment all along. I'm going to be referencing a lot of points made in the video without specifically quoting them, so either watch the video, or just try and figure it out.
I'm extremely torn, because there is a good deal of merit to many of the claims Kothorix makes, but I can't help but feel on the flip side, it feels like a bit of a dummy spit because of some 'unpleasantness' that was unearthed about a small community of unbelievably depraved furries taking their fetishes off the internet, and making them very, very real (If you don't know what I'm talking about, maybe that's for the best)
Truth be told, most of the complains leveled at the fandom are just general problems with subcultures seen through a furry lens.
As someone who frequented websites that are not exclusively furry, but very sexual in nature, believe me when I say that people seeking and maybe even grooming people who sneak onto the website is not just a furry problem.
And then there's the excessive 'degeneracy' I see people bitch about. How sexual furries are and...yeah, he's not wrong. I think the claim that hit closest to home was when he talked about how some furries just don't know how to carry on a conversation that doesn't involve sex or fetishes. That hit exceptionally hard not because I know a LOT of people like that, but because I can be guilty of that as well.
Now don't get me wrong, I have no problem having friends who are mostly there for light lewdings. I love (some of) you guys <3 But I do need to work on myself a bit. Sexiness is easy to fall back onto when you have nothing else to say, but let's all make sure that when someone makes clear they're not feeling like lewding, that we aren't left with nothing to say/do, yeah?
That one stings especially bad because just yesterday I drove a long, LONG time friend away and didn't even realize it until I'd been blocked. I won't lie, I'm still really rattled over it, and I suspect it was for the above reason. Gotta know when to turn off being turned on, ya know?
Anyway, I have to admit that a great deal of the video while not wrong exactly, is definitely overblowing issues that while very real, and definitely a problem, should not be used to drag down the fandom as a whole. STDs, Real acts of zoophilia and the aformentioned child grooming are fucking serious claims, and need more than anecdotes and guesses at statistics.
Oh and fursuiters are attention whores I guess? How awful...
Okay, that's my take on many of the subjects of the video. To be honest, I think it's pretty weak to slam the Furry fandom at large for the actions of a few. Everything mentioned above is real, and is a problem. And as furries I think we could do a better job of dealing with it, and rooting it out when we find it. But I'm not shouldering any of the blame or guilt because some sick fuck scraped a flattened possum off the highway and rubbed his dick on it. Got it?
Right, I'm getting to what I think this shit is really about. Politics and Image.
It's no secret that the furry fandom is pretty left leaning. Just about every sexually liberated community is. I'd put a reasonable sum of money that the majority of furries have faced persecution driven by some level of social conservatism. It's little wonder that most of us lean left, and just as unsurprising that we have a large group of people on the authoritarian left. Not to say that right-wing furries don't exist, because oh boy do they ever. We also have a very, very large community of 'anti-SJWs' to oppose the previously mentioned far leftists.
And boy do these assholes ruin social media for the rest of us. You'd think that every furry was either a rabid, freedom hating SJW who wants to oppress all cis white men, or an alt-right neo nazi Gamergater who wants to oppress everyone who ISN'T a cis white man. Both of these groups can fuck RIGHT off.
I'll give Kothorix this, without reservation. The Hugboxing on both sides is absolutely disgusting, and these unbelievably vocal minorities have demonized the other side so badly that it gives all the furries in between one of the worst reputations we've ever had. As bickering, childish, sensitive pricks. And I hate to say it, but this video is not going to help with that.
Because it's becoming cool to hate furries again. Even with positive 'mainstream' coverage from old media, like CNN's recent piece on furries https://edition.cnn.com/2018/11/14/.....ure/index.html there is a group of people, let's avoid naming names and say it's certain elements of the YouTube drama community that have decided it's been long enough. Bronies took the heat off of furries for a while, but we're back in the crosshairs, baby!
And I think that's why this video happened. That's why our ENORMOUS fandom just got pilloried by a furry who wants out, because of the disgusting behaviour of a minority.
So yeah, it's an interesting video, and it is worth a watch. I won't deny we could do a better job of cleaning our act up, but on the whole, bless the fandom, and I love you all.
You degenerate freaks <3
kothorix. I came by it after it was signal boosted by 
Jasonafex.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDa9w_XoP7Y here it is, it's just over half an hour, and it's probably worth a watch, especially if you've been in the fandom for a long time. I feel it's going to be relevant to every furry in some capacity fairly soon.
So I'm going to assume you just watched the video now, or previously watched it. Or maybe just had the same sentiment all along. I'm going to be referencing a lot of points made in the video without specifically quoting them, so either watch the video, or just try and figure it out.
I'm extremely torn, because there is a good deal of merit to many of the claims Kothorix makes, but I can't help but feel on the flip side, it feels like a bit of a dummy spit because of some 'unpleasantness' that was unearthed about a small community of unbelievably depraved furries taking their fetishes off the internet, and making them very, very real (If you don't know what I'm talking about, maybe that's for the best)
Truth be told, most of the complains leveled at the fandom are just general problems with subcultures seen through a furry lens.
As someone who frequented websites that are not exclusively furry, but very sexual in nature, believe me when I say that people seeking and maybe even grooming people who sneak onto the website is not just a furry problem.
And then there's the excessive 'degeneracy' I see people bitch about. How sexual furries are and...yeah, he's not wrong. I think the claim that hit closest to home was when he talked about how some furries just don't know how to carry on a conversation that doesn't involve sex or fetishes. That hit exceptionally hard not because I know a LOT of people like that, but because I can be guilty of that as well.
Now don't get me wrong, I have no problem having friends who are mostly there for light lewdings. I love (some of) you guys <3 But I do need to work on myself a bit. Sexiness is easy to fall back onto when you have nothing else to say, but let's all make sure that when someone makes clear they're not feeling like lewding, that we aren't left with nothing to say/do, yeah?
That one stings especially bad because just yesterday I drove a long, LONG time friend away and didn't even realize it until I'd been blocked. I won't lie, I'm still really rattled over it, and I suspect it was for the above reason. Gotta know when to turn off being turned on, ya know?
Anyway, I have to admit that a great deal of the video while not wrong exactly, is definitely overblowing issues that while very real, and definitely a problem, should not be used to drag down the fandom as a whole. STDs, Real acts of zoophilia and the aformentioned child grooming are fucking serious claims, and need more than anecdotes and guesses at statistics.
Oh and fursuiters are attention whores I guess? How awful...
Okay, that's my take on many of the subjects of the video. To be honest, I think it's pretty weak to slam the Furry fandom at large for the actions of a few. Everything mentioned above is real, and is a problem. And as furries I think we could do a better job of dealing with it, and rooting it out when we find it. But I'm not shouldering any of the blame or guilt because some sick fuck scraped a flattened possum off the highway and rubbed his dick on it. Got it?
Right, I'm getting to what I think this shit is really about. Politics and Image.
It's no secret that the furry fandom is pretty left leaning. Just about every sexually liberated community is. I'd put a reasonable sum of money that the majority of furries have faced persecution driven by some level of social conservatism. It's little wonder that most of us lean left, and just as unsurprising that we have a large group of people on the authoritarian left. Not to say that right-wing furries don't exist, because oh boy do they ever. We also have a very, very large community of 'anti-SJWs' to oppose the previously mentioned far leftists.
And boy do these assholes ruin social media for the rest of us. You'd think that every furry was either a rabid, freedom hating SJW who wants to oppress all cis white men, or an alt-right neo nazi Gamergater who wants to oppress everyone who ISN'T a cis white man. Both of these groups can fuck RIGHT off.
I'll give Kothorix this, without reservation. The Hugboxing on both sides is absolutely disgusting, and these unbelievably vocal minorities have demonized the other side so badly that it gives all the furries in between one of the worst reputations we've ever had. As bickering, childish, sensitive pricks. And I hate to say it, but this video is not going to help with that.
Because it's becoming cool to hate furries again. Even with positive 'mainstream' coverage from old media, like CNN's recent piece on furries https://edition.cnn.com/2018/11/14/.....ure/index.html there is a group of people, let's avoid naming names and say it's certain elements of the YouTube drama community that have decided it's been long enough. Bronies took the heat off of furries for a while, but we're back in the crosshairs, baby!
And I think that's why this video happened. That's why our ENORMOUS fandom just got pilloried by a furry who wants out, because of the disgusting behaviour of a minority.
So yeah, it's an interesting video, and it is worth a watch. I won't deny we could do a better job of cleaning our act up, but on the whole, bless the fandom, and I love you all.
You degenerate freaks <3
Monster Hunter...again!
Posted 7 years agoSo yeah, got it on steam this time. Anybody wanna do this? :v
BOY I SURE HAVE BEEN POSTING A LOT OF TITS LATELY.
Posted 7 years agoNot saying it's gonna stop. Just an observation.
Hey hey, who's getting Monster Hunter World on PS4? ;3
Posted 8 years agoFeel free to add me on PSN, I'm Dark_Reiku.
MHW will pretty much be my life from here on out, so let me know and we can fight some big sexy wyverns together, oh, and poke me if you want my Discord, to game or to chill ~<3
MHW will pretty much be my life from here on out, so let me know and we can fight some big sexy wyverns together, oh, and poke me if you want my Discord, to game or to chill ~<3
Well fuck me, I'm Thirty
Posted 8 years agoAnd I'm officially retiring my cringy Birthday announcement!
Now please excuse me while I have an existential crisis about entering my fourth Decade.
Now please excuse me while I have an existential crisis about entering my fourth Decade.
A heads up to any Xcom 2 players out there.
Posted 9 years agoThe Long War 2 mod has been released, for free.
If you need any excuse to pick Xcom 2 up again, now's the time!
If you need any excuse to pick Xcom 2 up again, now's the time!
29 years since the world got awesome!
Posted 9 years agoMeans it's my birthday ;v
And it's been like, 2 journals between last years and this years. Fuck my life!
And it's been like, 2 journals between last years and this years. Fuck my life!
Blame Sky Guide for Trump.
Posted 9 years agoThat is all!
Just a daily reminder that FT is a preybitch
Posted 9 years agoIn case, as unlikely as it is, than anyone has forgotten, 
fataltragedy2004 is food.
It doesn't matter if you're pred, or prey, or not even a vore, FT is YOUR food, so go give him a lick! He's delicious!
fataltragedy2004 is food. It doesn't matter if you're pred, or prey, or not even a vore, FT is YOUR food, so go give him a lick! He's delicious!
28 years since the world got awesome
Posted 10 years agoIt's my birthday ;V I'm still doing these.
I kinda dread it now.
Love you all~
I kinda dread it now.
Love you all~
X-Com 2
Posted 10 years agoHappy New Years to all of you, Happy Anniversary to me!
Posted 11 years agoALso I learned that :superglue: is a god damned pansy.
He couldn't even finish the God's Not Dead drinking game. Boo!
He couldn't even finish the God's Not Dead drinking game. Boo!
27 years since the world got awesome!
Posted 11 years agoYes, I am STILL doing these. I'm doubling down!
Just hope I end up joining the 27 club ;V
Just hope I end up joining the 27 club ;V
Hard Vore Simulator 2015
Posted 11 years agoErr...I mean Depth.
The Game
Buy it.
No, seriously. After the Evolve Alpha which had me fapping furiously, while crying for my (boyfriends) wallet come Feb, since both Bloodborne AND Evolve drop (And maybe some other stuff, I'm not sure) and waiting for next year, Depth seems primed to scratch my itch for some time.
http://store.steampowered.com/app/274940/ I highly recommend it!
if you're too lazy to click the link and read what the games about, or watch the trailer, here's the rundown: It's 4 v 2 co-op/counter-op, 4 players play as scuba divers following around an adorable robot named S.T.E.V.E while it breaks open chests in underwater maps, gaining you loot while you can spend on buying better weapons.
The other two players are giant fucking sharks. The sharks have to work together to take out the divers before Steve breaks open all the chests and heads back to base. And while the hunters get more powerful as they upgrade their weaponry, the sharks can evolve (Subtle!) new perks that make them more efficient killers.
Each team has 30 lives and whoever gets wiped out first wins, or if Steve gets back to base, the divers win.
It's fun as hell, and if anyone gets it, let me know, I'd love to play it with some people!
Also, encourage fataltragedy2004 to get it. I could really use some willing sharkbait while I plunder the bottom of the ocean.
The Game
Buy it.
No, seriously. After the Evolve Alpha which had me fapping furiously, while crying for my (boyfriends) wallet come Feb, since both Bloodborne AND Evolve drop (And maybe some other stuff, I'm not sure) and waiting for next year, Depth seems primed to scratch my itch for some time.
http://store.steampowered.com/app/274940/ I highly recommend it!
if you're too lazy to click the link and read what the games about, or watch the trailer, here's the rundown: It's 4 v 2 co-op/counter-op, 4 players play as scuba divers following around an adorable robot named S.T.E.V.E while it breaks open chests in underwater maps, gaining you loot while you can spend on buying better weapons.
The other two players are giant fucking sharks. The sharks have to work together to take out the divers before Steve breaks open all the chests and heads back to base. And while the hunters get more powerful as they upgrade their weaponry, the sharks can evolve (Subtle!) new perks that make them more efficient killers.
Each team has 30 lives and whoever gets wiped out first wins, or if Steve gets back to base, the divers win.
It's fun as hell, and if anyone gets it, let me know, I'd love to play it with some people!
Also, encourage
fataltragedy2004 to get it. I could really use some willing sharkbait while I plunder the bottom of the ocean.
