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To Dragoneer
Posted a year agoWish we could have spoken but I was too intimidated to reach out. Seeing your faves and likes was always encouraging since I draw some weird squeaky stuff heh
Rest well Dragoneer, thanks for everything you've done for the fandom
Rest well Dragoneer, thanks for everything you've done for the fandom
Art flood incoming - commissions I got
Posted 3 years agoJust fyi, gonna be mass uploading some commissions I've gotten for myself over the recent years. I've been pretty bad at forgetting to post them even tho I like them all so much.
I'll probably do it late at night
I'll probably do it late at night
It's been a while
Posted 5 years agoI've been quiet for so long and I wanna update y'all on what's been going on with me. I apologize if this text feels disjointed and all over the place. I'm just spilling out how I feel.
So back in March I lost my job because my stupid boss wanted to preemptively save some money when the world went to shit. I know this because the lead dev recently told me they never had a dip in clients or work. In fact, he told me they had too much work and were really overworking everyone else. So you know what they did? They hired two more people while I was laid off. Oh btw, the other guy they laid off and I had seniority over the other devs that they didn't lay off lmao
I was terrified when I lost my job. I have a lot of student loan debt, a car payment, rent, food, everything. Felt like it was over. Idk what "it" was, but life or something was over. I thought me and my bf would have to split up just to survive. All these thoughts ran through my head. Despite all this, something in me sparked. This drive to draw and create and learn. I started a comic, I was learning Game Maker 2 language, I had started a new commission batch. I was ready to turn things around because it was now or never and I had all the time in the world to really push myself to make art as a career work for myself. I'd wake up happy and refreshed. Ready to sit down and get to working on my comic and personal arts. Chat with friends and stream. But things soon changed.
Literally the afternoon right after my commissions opened, about a month and a half after I was laid off, I got an email from my boss asking if I wanted to do some freelance work. My savings was getting pretty low but I still managed to pay all my bills and debts. But... I was scared. What was I going to do? I had nobody to fall back on. I don't live with my parents. I was 700 miles away from my family. So I gave in and took on the freelance. I've worked shit jobs at a factory and retail before this dev job. I do what I have to do to survive. I knew despite working freelance shit for them, they would still overwork me. I'd stay up all night and not sleep just to meet their deadlines. A friend of mine even jumped in to help me one night I stayed up for 48 hours because I had to get something done. I can't thank you enough Ilya. You've been my best bro for such a long time now and you really saved my ass that night. I'll always be grateful for all you've done for me.
This freelance overworking shit went on for like a month or so, and I was losing my patience with them. I started to psyche myself up to start art again and I kid you not, the day I started a logo project for a couple of friends - my boss offered me my job back. At this point I started to believe I lived in a simulation. From offering me freelance the day I open commissions and now offering my old job back the day I start a project for my friends. This is some Twilight Zone shit. But how could I say no? It's stable income whereas art never has been. So I ended up wrapping up the paid commissions and went back to work. Keep in mind, I still haven't gotten any of my unemployment payments for 4 months at this point. All that time I'd call and call unemployment offices every day trying to get through to someone, like the legions of others who lost their jobs.
I thought moving to a new place would help make me feel happier because I'd be saving money but that was short lived. Shit's just been the same. Overworked, always stressed, and absolutely no desire to draw. I don't even really want to play video games. I literally just veg out and watch videos after work. Don't even have the mental energy to make myself cook food or exercise. I've been broken so many times every opportunity I had to make art work for me, that I just can't bring myself to draw like I used to. Part of me thinks that this is just how my life is meant to be. Not everyone "makes it". It's hard to accept but I don't know. I hate how much stress my job gives me. I hate that it does this to me in my own home since I work remotely. I hate how they hired two people after getting rid of me and never even said a damn thing about it. I hate the constant daily microaggressions that I just have to deal with or risk losing my job again. I hate how I'm stuck in this endless loop of having to just dissociate and work work work.
I fantasize about quitting and hope things work out for the best but I know I'll end up back in retail or a factory. I hate going to sleep because that just means I have to wake up to a bunch of fake ass people who just smile and laugh at anything someone says. Sometimes I think about seeing a therapist or going on meds, but then I realize that's just more bills to pay. I do have OCD and have picked up grinding my teeth in stupid patterns (I haven't chewed gum in years because it usually triggers it). I wish it were just the weird breathing, swallowing, or finger touching patterns like it usually manifests.
I'm so sorry for letting people down. I've been pushing myself to draw and get back into some semblance of a groove. Felt the need to get this off of my chest. I owe it to all the people who've supported me over the years. Usually I'm very private or withdrawn about my personal life but I just really needed to let it all out.
I love drawing more than any hobby or activity. Tf and pool toys reignited my love for drawing. Made me take art more seriously and was my muse. Seeing myself like this, without the drive or will to draw because my job has squeezed all the creative energy from me probably hurts the most. I refuse to let those assholes take it away from me and I promise to kick things back up even if I have to quit my job and risk everything. Every day I'm not living for myself is one day wasted and closer to the end. I cannot spend the rest of my life like this, filled with regrets. Not nearly enough weird lewd tf squeaks out there and I need to fix that.
Thank you all for sticking by me. Thank you to my small circle of friends who've been there for me through all this. And especially thank you to my boyfriend Yuudai for always being there for me for when I've felt hopeless and at my worst. To pick up the pieces when I fall apart.
I love you all so much ❤🎈
❤❤
❤❤
So back in March I lost my job because my stupid boss wanted to preemptively save some money when the world went to shit. I know this because the lead dev recently told me they never had a dip in clients or work. In fact, he told me they had too much work and were really overworking everyone else. So you know what they did? They hired two more people while I was laid off. Oh btw, the other guy they laid off and I had seniority over the other devs that they didn't lay off lmao
I was terrified when I lost my job. I have a lot of student loan debt, a car payment, rent, food, everything. Felt like it was over. Idk what "it" was, but life or something was over. I thought me and my bf would have to split up just to survive. All these thoughts ran through my head. Despite all this, something in me sparked. This drive to draw and create and learn. I started a comic, I was learning Game Maker 2 language, I had started a new commission batch. I was ready to turn things around because it was now or never and I had all the time in the world to really push myself to make art as a career work for myself. I'd wake up happy and refreshed. Ready to sit down and get to working on my comic and personal arts. Chat with friends and stream. But things soon changed.
Literally the afternoon right after my commissions opened, about a month and a half after I was laid off, I got an email from my boss asking if I wanted to do some freelance work. My savings was getting pretty low but I still managed to pay all my bills and debts. But... I was scared. What was I going to do? I had nobody to fall back on. I don't live with my parents. I was 700 miles away from my family. So I gave in and took on the freelance. I've worked shit jobs at a factory and retail before this dev job. I do what I have to do to survive. I knew despite working freelance shit for them, they would still overwork me. I'd stay up all night and not sleep just to meet their deadlines. A friend of mine even jumped in to help me one night I stayed up for 48 hours because I had to get something done. I can't thank you enough Ilya. You've been my best bro for such a long time now and you really saved my ass that night. I'll always be grateful for all you've done for me.
This freelance overworking shit went on for like a month or so, and I was losing my patience with them. I started to psyche myself up to start art again and I kid you not, the day I started a logo project for a couple of friends - my boss offered me my job back. At this point I started to believe I lived in a simulation. From offering me freelance the day I open commissions and now offering my old job back the day I start a project for my friends. This is some Twilight Zone shit. But how could I say no? It's stable income whereas art never has been. So I ended up wrapping up the paid commissions and went back to work. Keep in mind, I still haven't gotten any of my unemployment payments for 4 months at this point. All that time I'd call and call unemployment offices every day trying to get through to someone, like the legions of others who lost their jobs.
I thought moving to a new place would help make me feel happier because I'd be saving money but that was short lived. Shit's just been the same. Overworked, always stressed, and absolutely no desire to draw. I don't even really want to play video games. I literally just veg out and watch videos after work. Don't even have the mental energy to make myself cook food or exercise. I've been broken so many times every opportunity I had to make art work for me, that I just can't bring myself to draw like I used to. Part of me thinks that this is just how my life is meant to be. Not everyone "makes it". It's hard to accept but I don't know. I hate how much stress my job gives me. I hate that it does this to me in my own home since I work remotely. I hate how they hired two people after getting rid of me and never even said a damn thing about it. I hate the constant daily microaggressions that I just have to deal with or risk losing my job again. I hate how I'm stuck in this endless loop of having to just dissociate and work work work.
I fantasize about quitting and hope things work out for the best but I know I'll end up back in retail or a factory. I hate going to sleep because that just means I have to wake up to a bunch of fake ass people who just smile and laugh at anything someone says. Sometimes I think about seeing a therapist or going on meds, but then I realize that's just more bills to pay. I do have OCD and have picked up grinding my teeth in stupid patterns (I haven't chewed gum in years because it usually triggers it). I wish it were just the weird breathing, swallowing, or finger touching patterns like it usually manifests.
I'm so sorry for letting people down. I've been pushing myself to draw and get back into some semblance of a groove. Felt the need to get this off of my chest. I owe it to all the people who've supported me over the years. Usually I'm very private or withdrawn about my personal life but I just really needed to let it all out.
I love drawing more than any hobby or activity. Tf and pool toys reignited my love for drawing. Made me take art more seriously and was my muse. Seeing myself like this, without the drive or will to draw because my job has squeezed all the creative energy from me probably hurts the most. I refuse to let those assholes take it away from me and I promise to kick things back up even if I have to quit my job and risk everything. Every day I'm not living for myself is one day wasted and closer to the end. I cannot spend the rest of my life like this, filled with regrets. Not nearly enough weird lewd tf squeaks out there and I need to fix that.
Thank you all for sticking by me. Thank you to my small circle of friends who've been there for me through all this. And especially thank you to my boyfriend Yuudai for always being there for me for when I've felt hopeless and at my worst. To pick up the pieces when I fall apart.
I love you all so much ❤🎈
❤❤
❤❤Chosen Commission Slots!
Posted 5 years agoHere's my queue!
https://trello.com/b/4Onzek1l/rems-commissions
I will be doing these in batches of 3, so you won't have to pay until your turn comes up and I'll contact you ^^ Thanks again to all who applied! TONS of great ideas!!
https://trello.com/b/4Onzek1l/rems-commissions
I will be doing these in batches of 3, so you won't have to pay until your turn comes up and I'll contact you ^^ Thanks again to all who applied! TONS of great ideas!!
Wing-It Commissions OPEN!
Posted 5 years agoHey everyone! I'm opening applications for wing-it commissions!
Pinups:
$70 for a single character
+$50 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Sequences:
3 panels only -- Basically in the same realm as https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36237541/
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
Terms of Service:
https://goo.gl/HmUxm7
Commission Application:
https://forms.gle/tyPXPc52MbFaQoFP7
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Thanks!!
Pinups:
$70 for a single character
+$50 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Sequences:
3 panels only -- Basically in the same realm as https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36237541/
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
Terms of Service:
https://goo.gl/HmUxm7
Commission Application:
https://forms.gle/tyPXPc52MbFaQoFP7
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Thanks!!
Commission status Trello Board!
Posted 6 years agoJust wanted to remind everyone that I have a trello to see the status of your commission! I'm halfway through the list!!
Please reach out if you have any questions! ❤️🎈
https://trello.com/b/4Onzek1l/rems-commissions
Please reach out if you have any questions! ❤️🎈
https://trello.com/b/4Onzek1l/rems-commissions
Chosen Commission Slots!
Posted 6 years agohttps://trello.com/b/4Onzek1l/rems-commissions
Thanks for the TONS of apps! So excited for each of these ideas omg
Thanks for the TONS of apps! So excited for each of these ideas omg
Chosen Commission Slots!
Posted 7 years agoWing-It Commissions OPEN!
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone! I'm opening applications for wing-it commissions! Examples are basically everything I've been posting recently.
Prices:
$50 for a single character
+$35 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
These will only have the simple flat/gradient colored backgrounds.
Terms of Service:
https://goo.gl/HmUxm7
Commission Application:
https://goo.gl/forms/MC3OrZJHDxixUS7e2
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Please be aware depending on the amount of applications I get, I probably won't be able to finish all commissions before the holidays!
Thanks!!
Prices:
$50 for a single character
+$35 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
These will only have the simple flat/gradient colored backgrounds.
Terms of Service:
https://goo.gl/HmUxm7
Commission Application:
https://goo.gl/forms/MC3OrZJHDxixUS7e2
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Please be aware depending on the amount of applications I get, I probably won't be able to finish all commissions before the holidays!
Thanks!!
Chosen Commission Slots!
Posted 7 years agoHere's my chosen commission spots!
Will be sending out invoices in a bit. Thanks to all those who applied!
https://trello.com/b/4Onzek1l/commissions
Will be sending out invoices in a bit. Thanks to all those who applied!
https://trello.com/b/4Onzek1l/commissions
Wing-It Commissions OPEN!
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone! I'm opening applications for wing-it commissions! Examples are basically everything I've been posting recently.
Prices:
$50 for a single character
+$35 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
These will only have the simple flat/gradient colored backgrounds.
Terms of Service:
https://goo.gl/HmUxm7
Commission Application:
https://goo.gl/forms/MWqGOkGSIvVvXrtr2
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Thanks!!
Prices:
$50 for a single character
+$35 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
These will only have the simple flat/gradient colored backgrounds.
Terms of Service:
https://goo.gl/HmUxm7
Commission Application:
https://goo.gl/forms/MWqGOkGSIvVvXrtr2
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Thanks!!
Chosen Commission Slots!
Posted 7 years agoFinal Reminder: Wing-It Commissions OPEN!
Posted 7 years agoJust a final reminder that I'm open for wing-its! Looking for some gay boi stuff~
Prices:
$50 for a single character
+$35 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
These will only have the simple flat/gradient colored backgrounds.
Terms of Service:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
Commission Application:
https://goo.gl/forms/XcYRPDNc5k2UxyyF3
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Thanks!!
Prices:
$50 for a single character
+$35 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
These will only have the simple flat/gradient colored backgrounds.
Terms of Service:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
Commission Application:
https://goo.gl/forms/XcYRPDNc5k2UxyyF3
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Thanks!!
Wing-It Commissions OPEN!
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone! I'm opening applications for wing-it commissions! Examples are basically everything I've been posting recently.
Prices:
$50 for a single character
+$35 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
These will only have the simple flat/gradient colored backgrounds.
Terms of Service:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
Commission Application:
https://goo.gl/forms/XcYRPDNc5k2UxyyF3
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Thanks!!
Prices:
$50 for a single character
+$35 for the second
-$5 discount off the total price if you include Rem or any of my characters in your picture somehow! Even as undies, condom, catsuit, etc!
Wings, complex patterns, clothes are extra.
These will only have the simple flat/gradient colored backgrounds.
Terms of Service:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing
Commission Application:
https://goo.gl/forms/XcYRPDNc5k2UxyyF3
Any questions or comments please send me a note!
Thanks!!
Chosen Commission Spots!!
Posted 7 years agoHey all! Here are the spots for this time around!
Since this is a large list, I will be doing them in batches of 5. Please keep an eye out for an email from me :3
--- Batch 1 ---
1. kotakun
2. ArosLuther
3. Huskier
4. Frosty Bright
5. Domino
--- Batch 2 ---
6. Yourfurryotaku
7. ThatOneSergal
8. nviom
9. Hans
10. Cypher
--- Batch 3 ---
11. Eon
12. Hedoro
13. Tuton
14. Nomidae
15. Kogey
--- Batch 4 ---
16. Tarru
17. MAXXimizer
18. Overzen
19. Leonandrenei
20. Blackjackaught
Thanks everyone for applying!
Since this is a large list, I will be doing them in batches of 5. Please keep an eye out for an email from me :3
--- Batch 1 ---
1. kotakun
2. ArosLuther
3. Huskier
4. Frosty Bright
5. Domino
--- Batch 2 ---
6. Yourfurryotaku
7. ThatOneSergal
8. nviom
9. Hans
10. Cypher
--- Batch 3 ---
11. Eon
12. Hedoro
13. Tuton
14. Nomidae
15. Kogey
--- Batch 4 ---
16. Tarru
17. MAXXimizer
18. Overzen
19. Leonandrenei
20. Blackjackaught
Thanks everyone for applying!
Commissions - OPEN (Reminder)
Posted 7 years agoJust a reminder that collab wing-it commission apps are open! ❤️🎈
I'm drawing them and my bf yuudai is coloring them~
Starting at $40 for one character and $65 for two :3
Closing tonight at 8pm EDT
https://goo.gl/forms/1DP1SXlEIiF645Dq2
Check my gallery for examples!
I'm drawing them and my bf
yuudai is coloring them~Starting at $40 for one character and $65 for two :3
Closing tonight at 8pm EDT
https://goo.gl/forms/1DP1SXlEIiF645Dq2
Check my gallery for examples!
Commissions - OPEN
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone! Gonna open up for collab wing-it comms with my bf yuudai again! I'm doing the drawing and he will be doing the colors~
If you're interested please fill out the form below! ❤️🎈
https://goo.gl/forms/OupONm0AVAnA6aOz2
Gonna leave them open until Sunday May 13th at 8pm EDT
Any questions please ask :3
Thanks!!
yuudai again! I'm doing the drawing and he will be doing the colors~If you're interested please fill out the form below! ❤️🎈
https://goo.gl/forms/OupONm0AVAnA6aOz2
Gonna leave them open until Sunday May 13th at 8pm EDT
Any questions please ask :3
Thanks!!
Demitri012 is holding a free raffle!
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone! Sooooo 
demitri012 is holding a free raffle for a fully illustrated image of your character with a character of their own! Dimitri has a very unique style and paints absolutely beautiful backgrounds. I really think they deserve more attention for the quality of work they produce tbh. This is definitely a great opportunity to get some very nice art!!
Check it out!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8686754/
demitri012 is holding a free raffle for a fully illustrated image of your character with a character of their own! Dimitri has a very unique style and paints absolutely beautiful backgrounds. I really think they deserve more attention for the quality of work they produce tbh. This is definitely a great opportunity to get some very nice art!!Check it out!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8686754/
Chosen Commission Spots!!
Posted 7 years ago1. The Vens - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/thevens/
2. Eon - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/thegraywo1f/
3. Wescube - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/wescube/
4. Redderingo - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/redderingo/
5. Dizfoley - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dizfoley/
6. Mana - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/manakir/
7. Tuton - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/tuton/
I'll be reaching out via email in a bit! Thank you to all those who sent in apps! I'm very sorry if yours wan't chosen! I don't want to weigh myself down with too much work ^^;
2. Eon - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/thegraywo1f/
3. Wescube - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/wescube/
4. Redderingo - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/redderingo/
5. Dizfoley - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dizfoley/
6. Mana - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/manakir/
7. Tuton - https://www.furaffinity.net/user/tuton/
I'll be reaching out via email in a bit! Thank you to all those who sent in apps! I'm very sorry if yours wan't chosen! I don't want to weigh myself down with too much work ^^;
Commissions - OPEN
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone! I'm gonna be doing collab wing-it commissions with my boyfriend yuudai! I will be drawing the image and he will color it~
Examples of his stuff!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26119959/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26237817/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26749060/
Starting at $40!
+ $25 per additional character (if they are in the same picture)
I also offer a $5 discount for Rem if you wanna use my sona in your pic!
If you'd like a commission from me please fill out an application!
https://goo.gl/forms/EHIoP5fgkPUUZ2KG2
Please be sure to read my Terms of service:
https://goo.gl/aA45R5
I’ll leave applications open until Saturday, March 31st 8:00pm Eastern Standard Time. Then I will close applications and announce the ones I choose later that day.
Any questions? Send me a PM/Note!
I look forward to hearing all your ideas!
yuudai! I will be drawing the image and he will color it~Examples of his stuff!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26119959/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26237817/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26749060/
Starting at $40!
+ $25 per additional character (if they are in the same picture)
I also offer a $5 discount for Rem if you wanna use my sona in your pic!
If you'd like a commission from me please fill out an application!
https://goo.gl/forms/EHIoP5fgkPUUZ2KG2
Please be sure to read my Terms of service:
https://goo.gl/aA45R5
I’ll leave applications open until Saturday, March 31st 8:00pm Eastern Standard Time. Then I will close applications and announce the ones I choose later that day.
Any questions? Send me a PM/Note!
I look forward to hearing all your ideas!
