So, just an update- my laptop fried itself. It's going to cost way too much money to fix, but I gotta get it fixed anyways. I was smart enough to move my most important story projects over to Google docs, but I still lost a few previews for commissions I was getting ready to send out. I'm now sharing my Dad's laptop, so I need to re-write what I lost, and things will be a little slow for a couple weeks. Emphasis on little; I still want to get shit done.

God bless,
-Renard

Just wanted to get rid of the previous journal. I'm slowly getting better; got hit by a nasty bout of flu, but, gonna be much more productive now. Gotta keep busy; it'll keep my mind off things.

God bless,
-Renard

We put my dog down early. She was in pain.

I'm not going to beat around the bush. It is a very likely possibility I will be putting my dog down on Saturday. She's 15 years old, now, and she's... sick. She's dying.

It's not that I don't love her. I do. But I've also been watching her slowly decay for about two years, now. I want to see her at peace.

Needless to say, I'm going to need some time to recoup. Just a few days. If she has to go, I'll need the weekend, but by Tuesday, I'll be back to work. I've had a long time to prepare for this one, and I've had scares over her before.

If this is goodbye, Lemon, I'll miss you. You were fat, lazy, and sometimes temperamental, but you were there for me for 15 years. You never met anyone you didn't like, and I love you.

God bless,
-Renard

So, a question for everyone, what would you think about me hosting streams?

Now, I don't draw, I don't play video games, but, as you all know, I DO write, and I can set up a writing Stream on Google Docs. Ya'll can chat, make comments, see how I make up a commission- what do you think? Would anyone be interested?

God bless,
-Renard

Hey.

I know it's been a while. I'm sorry. The truth is, I've... not had the best week. Month.

My new job was eating away at me. The hours were long and what I was actually doing, while not physically demanding, was something I was ill-suited for. It was essentially a call center job, trying to sell without actually selling anything. If that confuses you, or you think that sounds awfully duplicitous, congratulations, I'm right there with you. -.- I stuck with it, though, because it was good pay and the company was good to me.

Then I had my breakdown. I just left work one day, went to the gym, and started crying without really knowing why. I just shut down. It was a bout of depression with the worst sense of timing.

Then I was fired.

Yeah. True, I didn't even like my job anymore, and flirted with the idea of quitting, but being out right fired, thrown out, is... well, it doesn't do anything for the ego.

And that's where I am now. My schedule has freed up considerably, so I'll be able to get things done much more quickly, but I still just need a day or two to recover and pick up the pieces of my shattered self-esteem. Thank you all, especially my commissioners, for your patience.

Thanks and God bless,
-Renard

Hey all.

So, I've got some new watchers, which is nice, but I see you may have come across my page because of  palamanidominion777. While I'm glad to have you here, I'm sorry for the trouble- this person took my story setting's name without my permission or knowledge. I don't really care about that, so much, but when I found out that he was leaving shouts on lots of people's pages linking back to my page, I asked him to stop.

So, that's pretty much it! It's not me, I didn't ask him to do it, and I'm sorry for any inconvenience it may have caused.

God bless,
-Renard

Just a notification- I will be coming to Megaplex! But I will not be able to be there on Friday. Saturday or Sunday, I'm free as a bird, though! Just look for the guy with a vest and tie and the best hair ever~ I'd love to talk!

God Bless, and see y'all there,
-Renard

I'm baaaack!

 nocturne and I had a great time. :3 I'm rested up and rarin' to go, so let's get those story commissions out- I'll be posting two that I finished over vacation tomorrow!

God bless,
-Renard

Just a quick update I forgot to set up- I am on vacation in Hershey, PA, hanging with some asshole named  nocturne. We have to share a room, but he keeps getting stuck in the door >:C

Anyways! I will keep writing, and get more out as I can.

God bless,
-Renard

Hey, everyone.

So... yeah. I kind of dropped the ball on commissions. I've been getting some pokes about them, three in one day, so, I think I better let everyone know what's going on:

First of all, my new job. Actually... the job's pretty much it. I'm in training, now. Several weeks, six days each, 12 hour shifts- 8 am to 8 pm. I have just enough energy to crawl into bed each night and clack a few words out on my keyboard before I pass out. The job looks very promising, they just don't fuck around with training.

Now.

I really wanted this to be a surprise, but, since people have been asking, I figured I'd better let people know- a lot of my commissions have been taking place in the Palamani Dominion, the setting of the muscle growth story series I've been working on that you can start here and I am just tickled that you all have let me flesh out (get it?) the story world by filling in parts of the lore and history. To show my appreciation, at the end of the series, I'm going to celebrate by featuring every Palamanized (Palamanian?) character in a great, big collage picture by  eda So! If you want your character Palamanized, come up with a plot and throw it at me as a commission, and I'll add you to the picture.

Thank you so much you guys- if you have any questions or concerns, please let me know.

God bless,
-Renard

Hey everyone!

I want to apologize for the delay in commissions- Sunday was my birthday, thank you all for the well wishes, by the by; and this past week, I've been campaigning for a new job at a software company called Softrock, which I was officially hired for yesterday, so, go me! It's a pretty nice gig, but the hours are a touch long. I'll be able to finish all the commissions, (all 12 stories, thank you all!) All but one of you have received your first few pages, and all but one of you has given me details on what you want, so please, if you have any concerns, let me know. I have a few free days left, so I'll be doing as much work as I can for the stories I've gotten payment for.

And secondly, I've been hitting the gym a lot. Those that know me know that I really want to get beefy, just like practically all the characters I come up with. :B I'm starting to see some results, and I'm a little curious if anyone would like to see progress pics. It'd be a nice motivator for me, and a good way to keep on track. Let me know!

God bless,
-Renard

Just a quick update that my birthday's next week, June 14th. It'll be the first birthday I haven't worked on in... Christ, five years?

Anyways, I'll be out of town that day, but hopefully I should be staying on track with commissions. I'm writing them as fast as I can!

And I mean, if anyone wanted to do anything off-the-cuff like for my birthday, then you can be my best friend??
You know. Just saying.

God bless,
-Renard

Honest question: I've been rethinking my payment model. I notice that charging by the page can become problematic- if the story is dialogue heavy, it might result in eating up pages, and thus, costing you more. Contrawise, if there's not a lot of dialogue, then a lot more words fit on one page, and then I'm getting less.

So I'm thinking of charging by word count. By my best estimate, I average about 500 words a page. So, say, $3 for every 500 words, which would cost the same as my $3 a page price. What do you think? Stick with page count, or switch to word count?

Also, I'm still open if anyone else is interested- thank y'all for your patronage, those who have commissioned me. I'm still getting them out quick as I can!

God Bless,
-Renard

First of all, I'm happy to see people were glad to have Strength of a Thousand Men back- even to go so far as to want to be a part of it! Thank you all for your support and patronage, I'm tickled ya'll like my writing so much.

So, right now, I just wanted to update my Commission Queue- I've never been this busy, but I absolutely love it. Hope to get more stories out fast! I'm only doing story commissions, and I charge by the page- $3 a page.

1)  genialgroucho 2 Ten Page stories (One complete, Second pending)
2)  exatron 1 10-Page story (Paid, Half-complete)
3)  ianthegecko 2 stories (Writing previews, not paid)
4)  aether718 1 story (writing preview, not paid)
5)  muscledragonwolf18 2 stories (Writing previews, not paid)
6)  luprand 1 story (details pending, not paid)

I'll stay open for a couple more slots- give me more story ideas! Keep me goin', I'm on a writing high.

Take care and God bless,
-Renard

Just for the people that have commissioned me- a little update.

There's been a bit of a delay- I had to run out to St. Augustine to a museum I interned at, so that took up a whole day, and I also had a small accident at work; I passed out from heat exhaustion (I work at Didney Worl for those not in the know) and hit my head. There's no major or permanent damage, but I still have some headaches, so I'm going to try and recover from that before I try to tackle the story commissions. Sorry, again, but I hope to have more out soon once my head doesn't feel like there's an axe lodged in it.

God bless,
-Renard

So, serious, honest question- I want to see if anyone would be interested in supporting a patreon for my stories. It's basically to see if I can make a living off the stories I write for this site. What I would offer is-

-Early looks at Rough Drafts
-Cameos in Stories
-Raffles for gift stories

Please, be honest! You're not going to hurt my feelings if you honestly don't want to subscribe to something like that- or if you have other ideas about what I could offer. But please please please give me some feedback.

Thanks and God bless,
-Renard

Now that I've got time to kill before work at Disney starts ramping up and I'm all settled in after graduating, I will be working on story commissions! The list, if I'm not mistaken, follows thusly-

1.  nocturne (with an extremely overdue commission)
2.  genialgroucho
3.  bear1
4.  aether718
5.  exatron

And I should have the first few pages for all of 'em out by this week. As for Strength of a Thousand Men, it has not been forgotten, but will be on hold for a while yet, because the illustrator, the illustrious  eda is travelling. But hopefully, we can bring you something soon!

Finally, to all those that wished me well during my burn out phase and graduation, thank you very, very much.

God bless,
-Renard

Yes, you read that right.

I'll be walking tomorrow for my Bachelor's Degree. Majored in History, Minor in Art History and English. No Cum Laude, which was my ultimate goal, but I am graduating with honors- as a member of Phi Alpha Theta, an Honor Society for Historians, and a member of Sigma Tau Delta, the Honor Society with the unfortunate abbreviation for Writers.

I'm not entirely sure how I feel right now.

Wish me luck!

God bless,
-Renard

Hey, everyone.

I make no secret that I'm a christian. I'm just not a very good one, sometimes. Or at least, I don't think I am. I keep meaning to pray, but how can I when part of me actively resents what God supposedly has ordained for my life right now? Bah.

I've been very quiet- and when I do talk, I'm sporadic. I'm sorry about that, truly, I am. I haven't forgotten my commissions, (because I really do need the money) but I've just... hit burn out.

Part of that not being a very good christian thing stems from the fact that I have been doing something I know isn't morally right- but it was helping a friend out of a jam, AND he was going to pay me for it; quite handsomely I might add. Don't fret, it's nothing illegal, I'm not stealing anything, no one's dying or in any way harmed. I promised I wouldn't expand on it, but let's just say it involves writing. We all have our prices, no? Mine was one born out of desperation because with no job (while I'm at school, at least. I still go back to work for Disney in summer) I had no other way to make money. My burn out comes from a lot of stuff. I'm just... so tired, all of the time. I'm graduating in two weeks time and I should be happy- but I'm not. Make of that what you will. Might have something to do with the $53k I owe in student loans becaaaaaause private schools are expensive and most of my grants were taken away from me when I was fired from my job at school for not showing up to meetings I WAS NEVER TOLD ABOUT and was never GIVEN ANY WARNING about- seriously, without having one conversation, or write-up, or ANY disciplinary action taken against me, they straight up fired me, and they didn't even tell me about THAT until I got back to school from Winter break. Because life's a bitch.

Not to mention I was "removed" from my position as an RA last year NOT because my work was unsatisfactory, but because they "wanted to give someone else a chance"- someone, presumably, that isn't drowning in their own debt before they get their fucking diploma- because, again, fuck me.

And finally, my best friend, my dearest, most reliable friend, the person I loved as a brother, stabbed me in the fucking back, treated me like shit, and then kicked me to the curb- but NOT before he fleeced money from me like a fucking loan shark by pretending everything was happiness and sunshine and then LITERALLY THE DAY after he got his FUCKING money, he told me to fuck off. Some of you know who I'm talking about, don't say anything- I want to vent, not ruin someone's precious reputation, no matter how satisfying it would be.

I should've vented about all of this a LONG fucking time ago, because most of this happened months back- but I've been bottling it all up, because that's what you do, right? It's what you're expected to do, keep calm and carry on, but now I'm staring down the barrel of the rest of my life, and right now, it doesn't look so hot. I'm lonely, and feel twice my age.

If it weren't for the company of the friends I have left, like  nocturne and  lunostophiles I would've gone mad a long-ass time ago.

And I started cutting myself. I've only done it a couple of times- but I've done it. So. Yeah. There's that.

I'm... just so tired.

God bless,
-Renard

Hey everyone- thank you so far for all those that showed interest in commissions; so far my list is as such:

1-  genialgroucho (Paid in advance)
2-  bear1 (Pre-writing)
3-  aether718 (Pre-writing)
4-  exatron (Waiting on further details)

Now, the only thing holding me up so far is school. It's my very -last- semester, so I gotta tie a few more projects up. I have raised enough money to pay off my car accident, (again, thank you all very much) but I'm willing to take on one or two more commissions if anyone's interested!

Thanks, and God bless,
-William

So, first of all, -thank- you to the people that commissioned me! You're on my list, and I appreciate it a bunch. I've got enough commissions to cover the funds (hopefully) and enough to keep me busy.

Also I'm totally procrastinating and just wanted to do this because I haven't done one for a while. Also I have a project to finish but I don't wanna :D


RULES :
1. Pick one of your Fursona's.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your Fursona.
3. Tag at least four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal

1. What is your name?
Renard De Fleureaux III

2. Do you know why you were named that?
I was named after my father, who was named after his father- hence, the third.

3. Single or taken?
I am single.

4. Have any abilities or powers?
Does... strength count? *flexes oversized bicep* Also I'm a pretty good writer! Sometimes. When inspiration hits. Maybe. Does looking good in a suit counts? Yeah. Yeah, it totally counts.

5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
Don't hate.

6. What's your eye color?
One blue, one green.

7. How about hair color?
Dirty Blonde

8. Have you got any family members?
My parents! I'm an only child.

9. Oh? How about pets?
One very old beagle.

10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
The crushing fear that we may be alone in the universe, facing a farce of an existence without meaning. *coughs* I- I mean. When people cut me off on the highway. Yeah.

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
Writing! And working out. Video games, too.

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
Yes. Never on purpose, though.

13. Ever… killed anyone before?
Once, just to watch him die. I'm kidding. I did it because he cut me off on the highway :D

14. What kind of animal are you?
A BEAST IN THE GYM, HU-AH *FLEXES* oh. Uh- I'm a lolf. Half lion, half wolf.

15. Name your worst habits.
I obsess over things very easily- I find a show I like, I will -not- stop talking about it for weeks. Also I worry a lot.

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
A few people!

17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Bisexual

18. Do you go to school?
I'm almost ready to graduate!

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
Yes. There needs to be a Renard De Fleureaux IV like, yesterday.

20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
Well, duh. People love me! *flexes* ...right?

21. What are you most afraid of?
I'm terrified of ending up alone, or being a failure.

22. What do you usually wear?
Polos, button-down shirts, vests, and jeans.

23. What's one food that tempts you?
Oh, God. So many. Popcorn, anything strawberry-flavored, Italian, Chinese...

24. Am I annoying you?
Depends, are you going to keep asking that question.

25. Well, it's still not over!
I'll try to hold back my shock and dismay.

26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?
Broke Middle class with high class aspirations.

27. How many friends do you have?
Few, but they're keepers.

28. What are your thoughts on pie?
I only like my grandmother's strawberry rhubarb pie. And mom's pumpkin pie.

30. Favorite drink?
Protein shakes! ... No, I lie, they all taste like shit :D But Strawberry milkshakes count, right?

31. What's your favorite place?
There's this field outside my aunt's farm- you can't see anything. No farms, no power lines, completely untouched. No one but me and God. In lieu of that, Disney World.

32. Are you interested in anyone~?
Uh. Anyone's who interested in me. And who wouldn't be? Hahapleaseimlonely.

33. That was a stupid question.
Depends, were you asking for you? ;D

34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
Either or! Maybe a lake, but only up North.

35. What's your type?
I actually really like intelligence. Someone I can debate with, but can also have fun and geek over stuff with. If we're talking body types though, I -really- have a thing for muscular guys, and classical beauties for women.

36. Any fetishes?
The fuck do you think? *flexesmuscleseverywhere*

37. Seme or uke?
After consulting google, uh... seme, I guess.

38. Camping or indoors?
Uh does camping have air conditioning? No? Then what the hell do you think? Joking aside, I do like camping every once in a while.

39. Tag People!
 nocturne  luprand tag, bitches!

So. Yeah.

I crashed my car :D

First off, I'm fine, the car's mostly fine, everyone else is fine (I hit a construction barrier, not another car) but the -actual- fine- that's not fine.

So, I've got... $53k in student loans because fuck me, so a ticket that'll jack up the insurance.... that's not good.

For all intents and purposes, there are people far worse off than me right now- even the crash itself, I got -really- lucky, because it could've been astronomically worse. But that doesn't negate the fact that I need to pay the state money I don't have.

So, I'm re-opening for story commissions, $3 a page. Ya'll have seen my work, and you know I do good stuff. Any amount is going straight to paying off the ticket, and it'll be greatly appreciated.

Thanks, everyone!
God bless,
-Renard

Quick, who's jumping ship? I want to start my betting pool on who comes back first.

Seriously though, I understand this is a big deal, but I think the drama is very pre-emptive. Nothing's happened yet, so far as I know. Right now, it just looks like the people who bitch and moan about the elections and claim that if a person they don't like gets elected, they're moving to Canada.

That's all folks, God bless and such,
-Renard

So, yeah. If anyone saw the poll comments, it was kind of a slaughter. Muscle, all the way.

With that in mind, I am going to combine my deep abiding love for fantasy to give you a rolling, Conan-esque epic chock full of beef and musclefurs. It's going to be a lot like Academic Growth, cut up into chapters, audience participation, all that jazz. Instead of sticking with one artist, though, a few have shown interest for this project, so while I already have one main artist, the ever-awesome  eda, expect a few other artists to tackle a chapter or two.

I'm very excited about this, and if anyone has any questions, I'll be glad to field them- and, if there are any more artists out there that would like to be a part of this, please, let me know! You will be paid- I'm not looking for requests. XD

Thanks for the interest, everyone! Hope to give ya'll a show.
God bless,
-Renard