I'm going to just share this journal for  veedway

She's in a lot of trouble, if any of you out of the kindness of your hearts could chip in that would be really appreciated. :( https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9589536/

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Their stuff is gorgeous, prices are reasonable, anthros, quads, and deserves so much more love~

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Hey folks.. I apologize for the random journal but I just wanna ask for help in some way.

Anyone who knows me knows I constantly yearn to be a woman, and I’ve had several friends tell me the ups and downs of being as such.

But lately all I can think about is being transformed into a dragon or argonian female and feeling my chest swell heavily into my shirt as my hips engorge and I feel my tail stretch out on a firm bum..

I’d be so happy, and how much I want to feel life in my tummy as it’s bloated with eggs <3 I want to be loved on, held and kissed. I want to be called beautiful, feel attractive and hear my darling hatchlings call me mother.

I want to be able to wear dresses without feeling awkward and be able to look in the mirror down my scales about and see those rapturing slitted eyes staring back.

I guess.. does anyone have some advice to help alleviate this pain? Am I crazy?
I’ve been trying to doodle and write stories but it only helps a little, I don’t have the art talent to craft my own body on paper., sometimes makes it worse.
I even have a story I wrote myself and an artist I commissioned to make it a comic soon so I can’t wait for that.

I don’t know.. I’m sorry if this came off a bit rambly. I’m sitting here with my stomach in a knot, a dizzy head and a heartbeat I can feel in my throat. I wanted to reach out to anyone.. ;.=.;

Thanks..
- Kevin

P.S. I’ll try to start uploading some stuff soon, depression and procrastinations been holding me down. I have a year+ worth of art to share.

Hey all, just posting this here for  jademoontail who could use some help, and if you like eggs and stories about them you can see some more of it here too.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25079349/

Happy spooky day or candy fill my belly stomach day x3

I hope you all have a good day dressing up and enjoying yourselves on the one day us furries can get away with it, getting fat or having fun at parties or at home~

Not much for me today unfortunately, I'm working D: BUT I am hoping to get a fursuit slot with Skypro soon for my angel dragon Redwood :)

Sadly not as thin as I'd like to be at this point ;_; I also apologize for the lack of uploads, I have a year+ of stuff and I've been too busy, lazy or depressed to submit stuff.

Hello everyone,

I'm sorry if this is a bit out of the blue. I just want someone to vent to and really don't have anyone right now. It's been a few days since I got home from the con and it's pretty much back to life as usual with me.

With my Hatchday only a few days away now, and having a lot more free time at work than I'm used to I've had a lot of time to just reflect and think. I'll be turning 29 and.. honestly I'm really afraid of hitting 30. It just feels like that big milestone where you need to have gotten your life together and you won't be looked at the same again being out of that young adult age group.

Maybe I'm overthinking it but I haven't done a lot with myself since graduating high school, I've held jobs and currently have a good one even if it devours my time. But there are so many things about myself I want to be better at.. I'm still single, I want to practice my art again, I want to learn how to cook and live on my own. (Yeah I still live with my folks, New England rent is very high)

But most of all I want to spend more time with my friends, these wonderful people and even newer acquaintances I've met and I struggle to stay in touch. I hold no ill will towards people or fear its just I don't send the messages and even when I do I tend to struggle to keep a conversation going going leading to awkward silence or like I want something/only care about one topic.

Anyone who knows me reading this tonight, know I care about you and even if we haven't talked in so long I still want to hold that friendship. Staying in touch shouldn't be a part time job, it's the thought of them and the desire to always be thinking of them that matters most. But to all those people who I've ignored or been distant with.. all I can say is I'm so very sorry.

I really wish I had someone here with me, to push me to greater heights and keep me motivated. Because at the end of the night when I shut my rig off I am completely alone. I want to be a better person and I want to help everyone I know be happy in their own lives while finding a purpose in my own.

I'm not getting any younger, I want to enjoy my life instead of getting these bouts of depression or curling up to sleep when the boredom hits. In time I hope to find my own home, get a fursuit and.. really establish a fursona for myself because as of right now I don't really feel I have one. I am and always will be a dragon at heart, but being unable to draw or know what I want makes that design process even harder.

Maybe it's something I worry too much about, but I'd really like it. Not to mention my occasional wants to look down my body and see a girls lithe form there.

Anyway, I know this turned into a rambley mess so I appreciate each and every one of you who read this. Have a wonderful night to you all and keep a smile on even when things look dark especially nowadays.

-Renlu/Kevin

I'm here and registered after some hotel trouble

I want to meet and say hi to everyone but even being here last year I'm so shy ;.=.; I hope I'm not annoying folks saying hello or taking pics.

I really wish I had my own suit and felt confident, one of those. I can't wait to get my angel dragon Redwood made into a suit by Skypro or a femme suit, doesn't need breasts just femme eyes and a lithe body would be hot.

On a side note, quite a few japanese suiters here, their amazing and unique designs can be seen. One girl had some lovely hips.

Can I be a dragon now? And have a girlfriend? And be thinner, and be better at artwork? And be able to give my friends everything they deserve?

Sorry.. life's been going by day to day and I just feel like I'm either not doing anything with it or wanting things I can't have.

This is a vent journal.. also holy shit it's been a whole year since I've uploaded anything. I have a lot of artwork I need to share as well as a handful of stories I wanna write. I'll get to it soon, I promise. Thank you all for watching me for one reason or another despite none of my stuff being original content

Happy Halloween everyone, I hope all of you had a good day whether you worked or went out and had some fun :)

On a side note, this coming weekend likely I will be doing a massive dump of pictures Ive been getting and not posting. I just haven't had the motivation to do it all. Spending most of the my time working or playing Dark Souls 3.

Hello everyone :)

For those who don't know I will be going to Anthrocon this year, I'll be driving to Pennsylvania this coming Wednesday. I have a green and blue wolfragon I'll be wearing.
As for room mates I will be staying with:
 triggernyar
 ZeriZenovka

I hope to see folks around :D we're gonna try to be around Thursday-Saturday and heading home Sunday.

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Also, for the sake of a friend of mine I will taking a fursuit head with me to be sold.
The head is a grump angel dragon who needs a home. It's high quality material, very comfortable to wear and is in great condition. It comes with a tail, my friend is attempting to make paws in time.

Pics:
- http://i.imgur.com/WlwBkCo.jpg

Price is $500, though you may make offers. All funds will be going to  ~Irina~ for living quarters and future fursuit funds.
I will be keeping the head and other things in our hotel room during the con. If you're interested please text me at 603-769-7161 and we can arrange an exchange at the con -or- note me or Irina on FA and it will be prepared for delivery ASAP.

Thank you very much!

Hey all, just a signal boost for my daughter  Caelthunderwing http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7654588/

Hello all, my daughter  caelthunderwing needs help. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7615536/

She wants to come to Anthrocon but needs a ride for later this June. I could probably do it but it would be out of the way and a bit difficult for me.. if anyone lives in the Michigan area and is going to Anthrocon please help her out. Hell even if you just give her a ride I can send you payment on Paypal or something, more information if someone agrees to that.

AC is on June 30th, I hope to be driving down there on the 29th. Thanks

Hey all, I've been wanting to write this for a little bit now and I just feel up to it right now. This journal might be a little rambley but here goes..

I recently got my copy of Dark Souls 3, for those who don't know the souls games are a collection of difficult dark fantasy rpgs that are notorious for being hard and requiring the player to "git gud" as I hear on the internet a lot. (fuck you guys :P )

I loved -and- have beaten Demons Souls, Dark Souls 1 and Bloodborne, Dark Souls 2 while fun here and there had poor level design (windmill elevator up to bowsers castle?) was bug ridden and liked to have enemies outnumber the player a lot and have "hyper armor" compared to older games.

Anyway beside the point, I am now nearing the end of the game. I have to say I am disappointed so far.. and there are a number of things that annoy me. I'm probably going to get criticized for these.
For the record I am a quality build (str/dex) in medium armor using sword+board, very basic.

1. The Enemies:
From improved the AI and aggression of the enemies in this release and while I can understand it should make for a more exciting romp through the game since you never know what the enemies are going to do it also makes them very hard to deal with especially if you're a ranged character.

I've not had much fun at all dealing with these enemies, perhaps I just suck but I always felt combat in souls games is a dance between you and your foe watching their motions and learning their pattern so future encounters become easier. In this game they are so erratic that it just becomes kill them before they kill you. (or just get good at parrying..which I'm not)

2. The Level Design:
This is one I have mixed feelings on, some of the areas feel well thought out and have a maze like design that wraps back in on itself. Other areas feel like they just jammed the area with tons of enemies to slow you down just to prolong gameplay. An area like the High Wall of Lothric compared to something like the Demon Ruins or Catacombs. I began expecting ambushes, item ganks and mobs and it started becoming a recurring trend where I spent more time thinking about where the enemies were going to come from then just exploring the level.

3. Linear and Short:
This is a minor nitpick, however I can't help but say something. The other games had a more grandiose feel letting you explore freely and find paths in the direction you wanted to go, some might start linear but lead into the open paths and DS2 had freedom early on. This one has been linear the whole way, go here or go back here and get an item so you can go this way.
The only time the game seemed to offer a choice was between two lords of cinder and you basically just chose to go up or go down.

The game also has felt very short with the enemy cramped areas making the level feel longer that it actually is. I noticed it a lot more when I was just running past everything on other characters and grabbing loot and essentials. On top of that there aren't many bosses in this game compared to prior titles, perhaps DLC will change that eventually but still.. I don't have anything against linear games but I'm sure folks who know what "Final Hallway" is will agree with me.

4. Covenants:
Again, very minor nitpick here but covenants almost feel useless to join in this game right now. I can also note the blue sentinel covenant and the darkmoon blade covenant are the exact same thing and share rewards so why do they -both- exist? Hell, you cant invade the world of a sinner anymore. Tying this covenant to the Way of Blue again was a terrible idea.
The Sunbros are back, but while no true invasion covenant exists the others are pretty much all pvp related and seem very strange or lazily implemented like comparing the Farron Wolves to the Aldrich Faithful, they do the same thing but in different areas.

5. Dragon Form:
WHY DID YOU NOT MAKE THIS LOOK AWESOME FROM!?!? I WANT TO BE A DRAGON NOT A SICKLY LOOKING DEER! SKAMUYELSHWNCLAFWSHED (X3)
Seriously though, why does this look awful, I loved the DS1 design and the DS2 one was -okay-, though wish you could hide the armor.
Frankly I wish they had done the Bloodborne thing where you transform and could wear armor too but I understand that would make balancing issues cause "why not be a dragon?" it would need a downside.
-EDIT- Also the dragon gets its own little side quest, even more reason to make players want it.


Ending Thoughts
Those are my main complaints, in general the game still has the classic combat, they opened up a lot of builds and while the game lacks poise as of this posting it's still really not that bad. I like the boss fights a lot, the weapon arts are unique, From tried hard to limit Twinking and the password system is awesome.
While magic needs some buffs I think generally speaking its a decent game.

I just feel currently this is the weakest Souls game in the series, and yet everyone I know is saying this is the best one yet and I really don't understand how you're not having fun. Other people will tell me the difficulty is what the game is supposed to be based around, and I can't help but think.. yes they're hard but I think what they initially wanted was a world where you felt alone in a tense dangerous world overcoming the odds in front of you through wit and skill.

But also you should be enjoying the adventure, the exploration, the feeling of finding your path and.. I'm not getting any of that. Every area just feels like a slog and I'm likely to set the game down once I beat it.

So what are your thoughts on this game so far? Have you played it? Do you think I'm just seeing things wrong? I don't really know.. Ive gone back to Bloodborne since DS3 came out and have had a lot more fun with that in a few hours than days on Dark Souls 3. But.. I'm also the guy who doesn't like Monster Hunter 4 or Final Fantasy 14 A Realm Reborn so.. maybe I just see things in a different light.

(TL;DR: I'm not having fun with the game for various reasons, are you?)

Anyway, thank you for reading!
Feel free to leave comments below and have a great day!

My two friends Al and Irina are celebrating their anniversary but could use a little financial help, in addition she is holding a raffle to give presents to whoever wins. Please consider helping them out and you might get some prizes too :)

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19422369/

Following my most recent upload I have a bit of an announcement to make. I have long been torn on my fursona Renlu and what to do with him, my character has remained unchanged since I was 17, and with my hatchday coming in a few months I think it's time I really evolved him to be more like the person I want to be, and reflect the way my personality has developed over time through my years on Gaiaonline, Secondlife and Furaffinity. Therefore I would like to announce..

*** "I am now a Flammie!" <3 ***

My main fursona is now a white floof-dragon from the mana video game series, certainly keeping with who I am and everything you all know about me but with a new coat of paint! (fur)

Description:
Name: Renlu "Ren"
Age: -dragon years- (27 as a human)
Gender: -varies-
Species: Flammie
Height: 6'0
Weight: 265 lbs
Powers:
- Healing Light
- Invisibility
- Protective Shield
- Polymorph
- Fire Breath

I hope to see you all around! <3

Hey all, my friend  ~Irina~ is in some financial trouble and in danger of losing her apartment. She's taking commissions and is a good cheap artist. Please she would appreciate any help you could give. Thank you!

Hey all,  triggernyar is looking for a D&D (3.5/pathfinder) group to play with, as a player. If you know anyone or wanna DM he'd very much appreciate it. Heck get a game going if you're seeking as well!

Hello all, this is just a journal I've been meaning to type for quite a bit I've just been either lazy or busy.. pretty standard on most things Ive been wanting to do lately >.=.>; (including uploading more stuff)

Anyway, so let's talk Monster Hunter. I picked up 4U when it came out after being really excited for it having played and enjoyed the demo. For a bit of history now this is my first handheld MH, I did play Freedom Unite but didn't get overly far due to the PSP's awful camera design having to use the D-pad which I wasn't a fan of but I enjoyed my time in it regardless.

I played and got to Alatreon in the original Tri and am in the area of early G-rank in MH3U for my Wii. I loved the 3U games because they were my introduction to monster hunter and I had folks to play with and had a blast every time I picked up my classic controller. I switched up my weapons regularly not really sticking to one in particular and everything was great until all of us sorta started weening off it over time. I do miss the game and swimming even though I think I'm in the 5% of people who enjoyed fighting in the water..

Fast Forward to 4U.. I recently completed the games "story" and defeated *spoiler* Shagaru Magala *end spoiler* The mounting mechanic is interesting but generally is something I don't actively try to do, after a while it just became stale to me and I would have rather'd just drop a trap.
Anyway.. that's not my biggest complaint with this game. Other than playing on a handheld (I have the 3DS XL with the circle pad pro -just- for the camera) I cannot find myself actually enjoying this game.
I have tried over and over again, picking it up alone and with friends to enjoy the game. The first bits were fun trying out the new weapons but now.. everything just feels different. I really can't quite place exactly what it is that feels off but I'm not having as much fun with the actual game as I did the demo.

- My general complaints range from the 50 base defense being removed from 3U so it just feels like everything hits much harder in this game, I've even started fighting monsters like I'm playing Dark Souls assuming their attacks will 1-3 shot me and sometimes that's actually the case.
- The monsters feel more aggressive than they need to be, in 3U you would get into a dance with the monster feeling out the rhythm of their attacks and countering when you could. Other times you would predict where they would go and plan accordingly.
In this one I feel like I spend more time running away, rolling and blocking than I do actually attacking, and did I mention how much damage they do? The monsters even combo their attacks now, which can lead to chain strikes or you having to abuse your invincibility frames when laying prone to avoid getting chained. If you need to rely on something like that it almost feels like it's just bad game design.

- The armor sets in the game feel really weak compared to the older games, the skills on them are quite awful unslotted and I found myself really struggling to get a good armor set. I started with lagombi and eventually grinded myself high rank tetsucabra and slotted in just so I could get defense up (L) because it felt like I was getting trucked by anything I tried to fight, this is with armor spheres.
I understand your hunter obtained more mobility by learning to climb and jump and mount but.. the new weapon attacks don't feel like they justify the speed and aggression the monsters now possess. (I haven't gotten far enough for wystones or anything so..nothing to say there)

And here's why I want to make this journal, I feel the game is more difficult than before and it's just not as much fun to play.. one friend quit the game entirely. Meanwhile I have other friends who say it doesn't feel any different than other monster hunters and the folks they play with agree so am I just crazy? I consider myself an above average hunter, I know how to make decent armor sets and I've done some miraculous things on 3U.

But when I come over to 4U, I just feel like an absolute scrub and I just can't seem to shake that feeling where instead of having fun I'm only caring about not dieing and not sucking. I only use S+S now because it's what I feel comfortable with feeling anything with some speed or using lance to block is just going to get my ass handed to me.. My mindset could be a thing but so many little things stand out while I play and hunt that I can't help but think about it.

Anyway thank you for taking the time to read this rambley journal, leave a comment below if you have thoughts on the game or myself, thanks :)

Hi all :) My friend  ~Irina~ has been struggling lately to pay some bills amongst other things, she would really and truly appreciate you looking into this YCH right here or even tips!
She's a fantastic artist, give her a chance and I'm sure you will not be disappointed!

-> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17799821/

Hi everyone.. I've been wanting to write this journal for a little bit but have just been unable to really get myself to write but I wanted to put this out as a way to reach out to everyone who watches me.

Current Events:
I just got home from the San Japan anime convention in San Antonio, Texas with my friend  triggernyar and we had a really good time during the almost week I was down there. There were some furries at the convention and I'm such a cave dragon I rarely even get to go do anything due to work or financial issues. But the second day of the con I ended up talking to some pleasant folks in the dealers room who had fursuit partials for sale. I did end up getting one.. a green and white with blue addon wolf dragon named Liam who had cushioned pawpads and wore him around the remainder of the con.

I can not even describe to you the feelings that ran through my heart and mind while I was like that. Its an indescribable feeling of joy and feeling like something you're not. I felt no qualms about acting how I normally don't, and just being out in public like that. Being at a con already feels like an escape but in suit at a con was the closest thing to a life I will never have.
Now as for the suit itself, I left it at Trigger's house because both of my parents are anti fur and I didnt want to bring it home and get an earful of it. Honestly none of my real life friends know I'm a furry and there arent any around here making me feel really alone.. but I'll get to that later.

Angel Dragons:
Now while at the con I met this adorable girl named  Tiny1Badger who was cosplaying as "Cherry Blossom" and at the time I didn't know what an angel dragon was until later. However once I got home and looked them up, they are quite an established open species and I have completely fallen in love with them. Utterly and totally, so I've been working towards not only designing a form for myself but also have been getting back my desire to draw and even begin the rough start towards an eventual fursuit. I know that sounds extreme but the moment I saw her I felt my heart heave, and since then its only gotten stronger. If you guys wanna check out what angel dragons are, use these links below, I just wanted to share ^.=.^
- http://www.dutchangeldragons.com/
- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ahqkfqtc1No

Life:
So now I just want to vent a little and I apologize if this is a little rambley.. I'm 27 years old and I still live with my folks. I have few friends and none of them know I'm a furry, and I work a full time mon-fri (with sats) from 3-11:30. On top of that all my friends are always busy, my online friends have felt grumpy or distant and on top of that I'm single and not the most social person either so I've been feeling more alone than ever..
The con trip has been haunting me since I got back, being surrounded by people that think like I do, other furries, so much kindness and love and coming home to nothing like this, it's been really hard on me. I want to reach out to people more, I want to push myself to draw, play my guitar, and work on my fursuit. But more than anything I want to move out of this house and find people to be around who I can enjoy my life with. I'm not getting any younger and yet I'm not finding any fun or happiness in my life right now, even as a D&D player the sessions I've been in always end abruptly and I can't seem to find a group.

Anyway.. I don't wanna come off like I'm depressed or emo or anything like that, I'm just frustrated at this feeling of being stuck. And while I do have a good bit of money to throw around I'm also afraid to really take those first steps of moving out and doing these things without someone to turn to. I really feel alone, more than anything I just wish I could shed my skin and be the dragon I truly am and go for a flight amidst the cool summer clouds.

So now my question to you guys, do you know or do you yourself know anyone I could turn to for fursuit building advice, art tips or general character design so I can begin working towards my angel dragon fursona -or- assistance with evolving my dragon self into a new design because I feel it's about that time as well.

Thanks you for taking the time to read this..
-Renlu/Kevin

So yeah today is my hatchday, I turn 27 as a human and as a dragon. Thank you all for the watches and I hope I've been at least partially entertaining.

I do hope to eventually start up my own art again and be good enough to post my own here for ya'll sometime. For the time being though you all need to give me things because you watch my tail~ ^.=.^

I am working today though ._.; damn mandatory Saturdays..

Heya guys.. I just need to vent a little today.. this might be a little rambly and not overly structured but I need to reach out to people who arent in my inner circle.

So I'm 26, I still live with folks of which hate the fact I'm a fur and have desires to be a female. I am a dragon fur and love transformation and lots of things probably noted through my FA commissions.

However what I wanna talk about today is the fact that lately as of the past year in particular I have been very badly wanting to become a bird. A full blooded feathered avian, of most noteworthy a chocobo from the Final Fantasy series.

I want to bring this up because it's really become more of a problem than I've ever felt before, I think about it constantly daydreaming, writing or roleplaying with friends who are in the mood. But recently the rps have been dieing down and even the mention of a "hey birdie" in Skype is enough to turn my stomach into a knot and the lustful grip to take over my mind with hazed thoughts and whimpering..

Even at work I'm having constant arousal and hardons thinking about it.. On Final Fantasy 14 I care for all the FC's chocobos, wear my newly aquired chocobosuit with my hair recolored to yellow and brown with a chocobo tattoo, my room has chocobo walls and flooring and I call Jaeger my own bird my baby. Does this qualify as an obsession? I'm just not sure what to do to sate these wants, they've gotten so bad it's all I can say I want or speak about sometimes.

So my question to you guys.. what should I do? What can I do? Art can certainly help sate some of it, as can roleplay, but god damn..I want to be a bird.. what do you guys do when your lust and desire for something becomes too strong to contain? Do you have the same problems I do? Or is it just because my imagination is too vivid that I am able to picture the entirety of a transformation, to get a beak, feel feathers fluffing in under my clothes.. and the life I would live and how I'd feel in my mind?

That's all.. thank you for reading, if you think I'm nuts then I will accept that but I just needed to vent a little bit..sorry. (end)

P.S. I have wanted a fursuit, but my living conditions and monetary reasons prevent that. Also I can write but I'm only just starting to draw again, investing in a tablet and trying to find a means for anatomy practice.

I felt like posting this journal sitting around having a lot of free time to think tonight, I've had several nagging wants for commissions lately and I can't really settle on which I particularly want not to mention a bit in the financial department. Regardless I figure since I have a decent amount of watchers (maybe 25% of those read journals x3) could get some intake on stuff.

Current List of Wants/Completed:

-Human me into Flammie (done)

-Human me into a Chocobo (-in progress-)

-Human me into a fat female Charizard

-Human me into a Renamon via Digivolution error

-Human me into male feral dragon (adult if possible)

-Human me into Sylveon via Pokemon Amie

-General showoff art of any of my forms, list which

That's it! Lemme know what you guys think.

Nyear folks: just posting a journal for my dear Trigger since a lot of his friends watch me. He moved a couple weeks ago and the landlord hadnt properly prepared the new place for the incoming family, the movers broke his computer desk as well as the new place not being cleaned or having internet.

He's been living quietly in his new place waiting for a new desk to arrive and to get internet going in his house again. He'll be back as soon as possible, with best luck being this week or early next and he wanted all of his friends to know.

Thank you for reading, he misses you all and sends his love ^.=.^