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General | Posted 13 years agoWhelp, I came within an inch of getting fired today. Park has a zero tolerance policy of texting while operating the ride ( particularly, that you can't ), and the guy working with me today was texting. A mechanic reported the incident, but mixed up who was who and said that I'd been the one texting. I came so close to being fired on the spot, it took half an hour to figure out that they had the wrong guy...I'm still quite shaken up about it.
So I had to pick up some paperwork today
General | Posted 13 years agoThis paperwork happened to be my High School Diploma. I'm so damn happy about that, just wanted to share. :3
Obligatory AC spam
General | Posted 13 years agoWell, like every critter who got their butt to Anthrocon this year, I might as well post a journal about the adventures.
The weekend was, to put it simply, everything I could've asked for. Every day brought new opportunity, new socialization, and new realizations.
There were at least 20 times where I unintentionally bumped into someone I knew and had conversation with them. It was quite nice to actually put names to faces, plus a few of the folks I ran into I'd been wanting to meet for ages. So there was much hugs and much fun.
The entire con, I had an explicable urge to go and wander all on my own all over the con. The compulsion paid off a few times, I ended up getting a nice conbadge from Rivercoon ( in my gallery. I really recommend his art! ) and ran into a local CT fur who may have given me a promising new lead into employment prospects.
I think the only gripe I could've had was that the GPS messed up our trip back and we had to go through NYC and got fleeced for almost a full gas tank in tolls. Ah well, the con itself was worth it, and I hope to again sometime in the coming years.
The weekend was, to put it simply, everything I could've asked for. Every day brought new opportunity, new socialization, and new realizations.
There were at least 20 times where I unintentionally bumped into someone I knew and had conversation with them. It was quite nice to actually put names to faces, plus a few of the folks I ran into I'd been wanting to meet for ages. So there was much hugs and much fun.
The entire con, I had an explicable urge to go and wander all on my own all over the con. The compulsion paid off a few times, I ended up getting a nice conbadge from Rivercoon ( in my gallery. I really recommend his art! ) and ran into a local CT fur who may have given me a promising new lead into employment prospects.
I think the only gripe I could've had was that the GPS messed up our trip back and we had to go through NYC and got fleeced for almost a full gas tank in tolls. Ah well, the con itself was worth it, and I hope to again sometime in the coming years.
One journey ends, one life begins
General | Posted 13 years agoNo, this is not a depressing journal at all. To be blunt...I made it.
Didn't think I would, to be honest. With everything on my head the past few weeks I cracked, fell, and damn near lost my mind. But today, a lot of that comes off my shoulders.
I had two of my three finals today. I'm pretty sure I did well on t hem both, including the class I need to graduate. So...that's it. School...is over, pretty much. Tomorrow's final is psychology, and I have that almost entirely memorized, plus I test well.
All of my planning for Anthrocon is done, now it's just the eager wait. Tomorrow I go and check my work schedule for after the con, because they hadn't announced it when I went in to work last Sunday ( Yeah, they didn't have the schedule ready more than a week in advance, kinda sucks, but a wage is a wage and I like the work. ).
So...I should stop spamming all of your notifications with my random up and down emotions sometime soon...maybe start filling them with submissions instead.
*waves and does a little bow for all* Thanks for everything.
Didn't think I would, to be honest. With everything on my head the past few weeks I cracked, fell, and damn near lost my mind. But today, a lot of that comes off my shoulders.
I had two of my three finals today. I'm pretty sure I did well on t hem both, including the class I need to graduate. So...that's it. School...is over, pretty much. Tomorrow's final is psychology, and I have that almost entirely memorized, plus I test well.
All of my planning for Anthrocon is done, now it's just the eager wait. Tomorrow I go and check my work schedule for after the con, because they hadn't announced it when I went in to work last Sunday ( Yeah, they didn't have the schedule ready more than a week in advance, kinda sucks, but a wage is a wage and I like the work. ).
So...I should stop spamming all of your notifications with my random up and down emotions sometime soon...maybe start filling them with submissions instead.
*waves and does a little bow for all* Thanks for everything.
Alone
General | Posted 13 years agoI really don't know what to write anymore. Never thought anyone could so utterly flay out my mind, not like this anyone. Not someone I barely know, either. But...fuck, I'm just so sick of this. Getting punished for an imagined slight, pressured by my folks and the world all around me...I don't even look to the future anymore. The tunnel seems to be getting longer, right here at the very end...and I don't know who to turn to. I mean, there's plenty of folks offering support, but, real, lasting help? That's not quite the same, much as I appreciate the offers of support I've gotten.
I don't even have the energy to get out of bed anymore....the thought of eating makes me ill. It's like there's this wall all around me, and try as I might, I can't climb over or break through. I'm just on automatic, trying to rebuild the sense of meaning and purpose I thought I'd come to know. Guess I still have a lot of growing up to do.
Just wish the road had a few less land mines for me.
I don't even have the energy to get out of bed anymore....the thought of eating makes me ill. It's like there's this wall all around me, and try as I might, I can't climb over or break through. I'm just on automatic, trying to rebuild the sense of meaning and purpose I thought I'd come to know. Guess I still have a lot of growing up to do.
Just wish the road had a few less land mines for me.
Settling dust
General | Posted 13 years agoWell, for one, I got a good night's sleep last night for the first time in I don't know how long, to be honest. And yeah, the grammar in that sentence was rather lax. Anyway, it's been one hell of a week, and I'm still trying to make sense of it all.
Had to do a crap ton of financial stuff this week, long term plans that'll affect my life for years to come. Naturally...there's a lot of room to doubt myself when it comes to something that long term. It's the longest term I've ever really planned ahead for something that was totally within my own control.
Pissed off a few people as well. Won't claim to be right or wrong in each case, but shit happens, eh?
I don't know, I just feel like I'm growing up a bit too quickly, compared to the past year or two. I was always eager to take steps towards independence, but it might just be too quick for me right now. That or I'm just a bit too out of it to make sense of things.
Ah well, Anthrocon is just a few days away, so here's to lasting until then. Anyone who wants to bop/hug/say hi to me there, send me a note or such.
Had to do a crap ton of financial stuff this week, long term plans that'll affect my life for years to come. Naturally...there's a lot of room to doubt myself when it comes to something that long term. It's the longest term I've ever really planned ahead for something that was totally within my own control.
Pissed off a few people as well. Won't claim to be right or wrong in each case, but shit happens, eh?
I don't know, I just feel like I'm growing up a bit too quickly, compared to the past year or two. I was always eager to take steps towards independence, but it might just be too quick for me right now. That or I'm just a bit too out of it to make sense of things.
Ah well, Anthrocon is just a few days away, so here's to lasting until then. Anyone who wants to bop/hug/say hi to me there, send me a note or such.
runningrunningrunningrunningrunningrunningrunningrunning
General | Posted 13 years agoOkay, let's break the day down bit by bit.
Up at 6, in school for 7 ish. First came the rat dissection...of all the luck, I got the only pregnant rat. So I ended up extracting ten little baby rats from this mother, to my fascination and the disgust of the entire class. They flipped all the more when I pulled out every organ I could so I could get a look at EVERYTHING, think one girl almost threw up watching me work. hehe...I feel evil. >:3
School got out around 1 for me, then I got a lift to work. They called me in for a special event, so I picked up my paycheck and put another three hours on the books. Easy work, the event wasn't even that big, I spent half the time sitting and waiting for riders.
After work ended around 5, got picked up by the folks and we all went to buffet for dinner. I nommed a LOT of sushi...first thing I'd really eaten all day, not counting some fries in school.
Lastly, I attended my first fire department meeting, had a blast. Finally got home around 9:15.
So in essence, the day has been me doing the title of the journal. And for once...it actually feels kinda nice.
Up at 6, in school for 7 ish. First came the rat dissection...of all the luck, I got the only pregnant rat. So I ended up extracting ten little baby rats from this mother, to my fascination and the disgust of the entire class. They flipped all the more when I pulled out every organ I could so I could get a look at EVERYTHING, think one girl almost threw up watching me work. hehe...I feel evil. >:3
School got out around 1 for me, then I got a lift to work. They called me in for a special event, so I picked up my paycheck and put another three hours on the books. Easy work, the event wasn't even that big, I spent half the time sitting and waiting for riders.
After work ended around 5, got picked up by the folks and we all went to buffet for dinner. I nommed a LOT of sushi...first thing I'd really eaten all day, not counting some fries in school.
Lastly, I attended my first fire department meeting, had a blast. Finally got home around 9:15.
So in essence, the day has been me doing the title of the journal. And for once...it actually feels kinda nice.
Meet and Party and Ponderings
General | Posted 13 years agoDoesn't quite feel any different, having a birthday come and go. Especially a big one. But I digress, life must go on and celebrating these things isn't really my own forte. I'd rather not celebrate, or if I had to, celebrate with two or three close friends.
That was not the case this time. My gift to myself, thanks to a lucky schedule lineup, was to celebrate at the Connecticut Furmeet. It was glorious, and I shared some epic cupcakes. They were NOT spiked, much to a few people's disappointment. Odd, but not kidding. The times were great, as were the jokes, and we seemed to have left just in time to miss the approaching rain.
The entire last month has left me pondering, quite a bit. I'd love notes with perspective on this, from observers. You know, if you want to.
The last month was probably the single most stressful month of my entire life, to date. I watched myself spiral from a very cheerful, laid back person, to a bitter nervous wreck in just about three and a half weeks. I saw tests taken, employment grow serious, school pick up instead of winding down, among other things...and I came out of it with a new understanding. I will never again take days off for granted...because those are what I lacked, and those are needed to keep my sane.
Now that I'm kind of recharged, I need to reorganize my schedule. Once graduation hits, it's a 'hit the ground running' plan. I need to finish my EMT in June or else I won't be able to get up the call volume needed for college in the fall...plus I need my license ASAP. Work'll take over where school was, for the most part...which will be a benefit, because it'll give me more time with my boyfriend. That's kind of been bugging me...it's been tough to have a lot of face to face time with him when we're poking out the one block a week we can be together for a while.
Now, I should get some sleep soon, I have a total of 11 hours of work tomorrow and I am real tired. Wish everyone the best!
That was not the case this time. My gift to myself, thanks to a lucky schedule lineup, was to celebrate at the Connecticut Furmeet. It was glorious, and I shared some epic cupcakes. They were NOT spiked, much to a few people's disappointment. Odd, but not kidding. The times were great, as were the jokes, and we seemed to have left just in time to miss the approaching rain.
The entire last month has left me pondering, quite a bit. I'd love notes with perspective on this, from observers. You know, if you want to.
The last month was probably the single most stressful month of my entire life, to date. I watched myself spiral from a very cheerful, laid back person, to a bitter nervous wreck in just about three and a half weeks. I saw tests taken, employment grow serious, school pick up instead of winding down, among other things...and I came out of it with a new understanding. I will never again take days off for granted...because those are what I lacked, and those are needed to keep my sane.
Now that I'm kind of recharged, I need to reorganize my schedule. Once graduation hits, it's a 'hit the ground running' plan. I need to finish my EMT in June or else I won't be able to get up the call volume needed for college in the fall...plus I need my license ASAP. Work'll take over where school was, for the most part...which will be a benefit, because it'll give me more time with my boyfriend. That's kind of been bugging me...it's been tough to have a lot of face to face time with him when we're poking out the one block a week we can be together for a while.
Now, I should get some sleep soon, I have a total of 11 hours of work tomorrow and I am real tired. Wish everyone the best!
In sickness and in Health
General | Posted 13 years agoWhlep, home from school today. Stomach bug, I think. Can't so much as sit up without nearly upchucking...common tums, kick in. Anyway, lemme see, how've things been...
Frustrating few days, that's for sure. Finally sleeping soundly again, but the waking hours can be tough. Least I'm soon to be able to relax and celebrate, especially for Friday. Furmeet and birthday party all wrapped up into one. It's going to be a fun night, that's for sure.
Anthrocon'll be coming up soon, gotta keep that in mind. Heh, I'm really bad at communicating my feelings like this, aren't I? And I found a new chainmail project, I'm going to try messing around with it soon so I can actually produce some real work. ^^
Frustrating few days, that's for sure. Finally sleeping soundly again, but the waking hours can be tough. Least I'm soon to be able to relax and celebrate, especially for Friday. Furmeet and birthday party all wrapped up into one. It's going to be a fun night, that's for sure.
Anthrocon'll be coming up soon, gotta keep that in mind. Heh, I'm really bad at communicating my feelings like this, aren't I? And I found a new chainmail project, I'm going to try messing around with it soon so I can actually produce some real work. ^^
Good and bad
General | Posted 13 years agoThe trip was a mitigated disaster. There was a dog bite, a car break down, all three of us got heat exhaustion, no sleep...bluh, I feel like a complete idiot for how badly I feel I screwed things up for my friends, my guests.
However, it's not all bad. We went kayaking, had good food, then we went back home. Now, cooling off in the Air Conditioning, we're going to spend the rest of the time here relaxing. Here's hoping I don't somehow mess this up too.
However, it's not all bad. We went kayaking, had good food, then we went back home. Now, cooling off in the Air Conditioning, we're going to spend the rest of the time here relaxing. Here's hoping I don't somehow mess this up too.
Camping
General | Posted 13 years agoWell, I'm going to be off camping for the weekend with Faelan and Arlene. Hopefully I don't get murdered by notifications on Monday ._.
9 out of 10 day
General | Posted 13 years agoOkay, today is officially one of my better days.
First off, I picked up my paycheck. Kinda nice to not see half of it get taken away for uniform deductions. Socked it away in the bank for AC, 'cause I'm going to need it for sure then!
Speaking of Anthrocon, my folks decided to ambush me with an early birthday gift. They covered my registration! I know they don't like the fandom, but I guess that's how they're deciding to show that they either trust me, want me to be happy, or might've lost it a bit. I'm liking to think the first two, of course. So with that taken care of, and with enough saved up for gas and food...all bills for Anthrocon are set. Hell, my psychology teacher is even going to let me take the final exam for his class on a different date so I can go! *dances and squeaks*
On a slightly more serious note, I did manage to compile a list of every symptom of my psychological problems. It's 20 items long. ._. But! From the symptoms, I can work back to the root causes, and possibly figure out my own problems through introspection. If I can do that...then maybe I can kick this depression to the curb, for good. If not, then I at least learned something about myself.
Lemme see, what else. The folks took the camper up to the campground for the weekend, and my boyfriend and a friend of mine are heading up their tomorrow. Weekend of time to spend with the both of them, glad for that. Very glad for that. It'll be a great vacation after this rather hellish month.
I have no idea what else to say, and this isn't the first time, so...huzzah for random!
First off, I picked up my paycheck. Kinda nice to not see half of it get taken away for uniform deductions. Socked it away in the bank for AC, 'cause I'm going to need it for sure then!
Speaking of Anthrocon, my folks decided to ambush me with an early birthday gift. They covered my registration! I know they don't like the fandom, but I guess that's how they're deciding to show that they either trust me, want me to be happy, or might've lost it a bit. I'm liking to think the first two, of course. So with that taken care of, and with enough saved up for gas and food...all bills for Anthrocon are set. Hell, my psychology teacher is even going to let me take the final exam for his class on a different date so I can go! *dances and squeaks*
On a slightly more serious note, I did manage to compile a list of every symptom of my psychological problems. It's 20 items long. ._. But! From the symptoms, I can work back to the root causes, and possibly figure out my own problems through introspection. If I can do that...then maybe I can kick this depression to the curb, for good. If not, then I at least learned something about myself.
Lemme see, what else. The folks took the camper up to the campground for the weekend, and my boyfriend and a friend of mine are heading up their tomorrow. Weekend of time to spend with the both of them, glad for that. Very glad for that. It'll be a great vacation after this rather hellish month.
I have no idea what else to say, and this isn't the first time, so...huzzah for random!
Camping trip ( Warning: Rant )
General | Posted 13 years agoSo I'm going on a camping trip this weekend. Friends and family and such, all's happy. Just...I honestly HATE the planning aspect. And it's not even that there's a whole bunch of planning to be done, it's that when the folks do the planning ( which is almost always ) they forget that I actually do have a mature, responsible brain. So they bombard me with question after question like I'm five years old, expecting me to magically have the answers. It's driving me up a wall! I'm not even camping with them, technically, I've got a tent and I'm not going to be on the same site...bluh, frustrations.
First world problems, eh?
First world problems, eh?
Day off
General | Posted 13 years agoWell, I skipped classes today. I just couldn't get myself out of bed this morning, took me three hours to summon the energy to wake up. Now that I am, I'm kinda mellow about the whole deal.
Yeah, I know skipping classes is bad and such, but damn I needed a day to myself. I haven't had a day to relax since May 6th! Some people might be able to handle that but damn I can't. So I'm taking today off.
Kinda funny that it's easier for me to justify this to a bunch of folks on the internet than to my own brain, but oh well. It helps a bit. Maybe I'll work on another poem or something while I recuperate.
Yeah, I know skipping classes is bad and such, but damn I needed a day to myself. I haven't had a day to relax since May 6th! Some people might be able to handle that but damn I can't. So I'm taking today off.
Kinda funny that it's easier for me to justify this to a bunch of folks on the internet than to my own brain, but oh well. It helps a bit. Maybe I'll work on another poem or something while I recuperate.
Request for advice
General | Posted 13 years agoWeighing my options. My depression's rearing its ugly head to the point that I have to fend off ideations on an almost daily basis, despite this being the happiest time in my life thus far.
I want to see a doctor or a psychologist, but I'm scared to take medication again and I think the stress could give my mother a nervous breakdown. I just don't know what to do. You guys have any ideas?
I want to see a doctor or a psychologist, but I'm scared to take medication again and I think the stress could give my mother a nervous breakdown. I just don't know what to do. You guys have any ideas?
Internet oddity
General | Posted 13 years agoOkay, I find this deeply deeply ironic. I lost internet for 22 hours, not even a full day, and I come back to almost 50 messages here, and 2 on my Facebook. Suffice to say, FA is more interesting :p
Test Results
General | Posted 13 years agoJust got the call with my test results.
I passed four of the six, ironically I didn't fail the station I thought I had. In either case, I need to go back for a retest soon.
I passed four of the six, ironically I didn't fail the station I thought I had. In either case, I need to go back for a retest soon.
Tests complete!
General | Posted 13 years agoWhelp, just got home from my EMT Psychomotor tests, which are the practicals where all the skills get demonstrated. Three hours where I was too dead tired to be nervous, and I think I aced five of the six stations. I don't get the results for another few days...but damn do I feel confident.
And pain. Mild pain. Now...if you'll all excuse me, I'm going to lay down with a heating pack... >_>
And pain. Mild pain. Now...if you'll all excuse me, I'm going to lay down with a heating pack... >_>
Random Haiku and plans
General | Posted 13 years agoTwirl about in fun
the tail just out of your reach
chase it endlessly.
Anyway, busy week ahead. Tomorrow is my PPD skin test ( to make sure I don't have tuberculosis ), then I get that read on Friday. EMT tests are coming up Saturday...bit nervous for that, but I'll take it one step at a time.
the tail just out of your reach
chase it endlessly.
Anyway, busy week ahead. Tomorrow is my PPD skin test ( to make sure I don't have tuberculosis ), then I get that read on Friday. EMT tests are coming up Saturday...bit nervous for that, but I'll take it one step at a time.
Creative mode, activate!
General | Posted 13 years agoWell, it's late at night, I'm tired and somewhat bored. Must be time to wiggle around and ramble about life to a bunch of people on the internet!
So I seem to be getting back into writing poems, excited about that. Like most artists, I'm never satisfied with my own work, even when I can find nothing to make it "better" in my own eyes. Always fascinates me, that little phenominon. Ah well, I'll figure it out eventually.
Story writing, ah, story writing. How I need to get back into thee as well. I need fresh ideas, challenges...maybe I'll do vignettes. If anyone'd be kind enough to shoot an idea my way, I'd be glad to give it a shot.
Hrm...break to wiggle. *wiggle*
Back to reality, my big chainmail project is still a bit delayed...need my nails to grow in properly before I can ruin them again. Might mess with smaller projects if I can get hold of extra rings.
Lastly, music. Ah music...how I love thee. Listening to you, wailing until my voice is hoarse to random songs...I shall master thee. I found some vocal exercises that I'm going to start doing, start improving this voice o' mine.
And...there. End rambling. Bring in the metal songs: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L8Ui0ltKNQE&feature=related
So I seem to be getting back into writing poems, excited about that. Like most artists, I'm never satisfied with my own work, even when I can find nothing to make it "better" in my own eyes. Always fascinates me, that little phenominon. Ah well, I'll figure it out eventually.
Story writing, ah, story writing. How I need to get back into thee as well. I need fresh ideas, challenges...maybe I'll do vignettes. If anyone'd be kind enough to shoot an idea my way, I'd be glad to give it a shot.
Hrm...break to wiggle. *wiggle*
Back to reality, my big chainmail project is still a bit delayed...need my nails to grow in properly before I can ruin them again. Might mess with smaller projects if I can get hold of extra rings.
Lastly, music. Ah music...how I love thee. Listening to you, wailing until my voice is hoarse to random songs...I shall master thee. I found some vocal exercises that I'm going to start doing, start improving this voice o' mine.
And...there. End rambling. Bring in the metal songs: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L8Ui0ltKNQE&feature=related
First day of work
General | Posted 13 years agoWell, today was my first day of paid labor at the local amusement park. Six hours of lifting heavy rubber rafts. It was a blast, the guests had fun, I had fun, I got exercise and earned money. whoot!
Squee, *wiggle*, yay
General | Posted 13 years agoAs of Tonight, my EMT-B class has concluded and I have passed. All that is left is passing my State Practical and National Registry Written Test. I'm excited as all hell.
The first hurdle is over and done, now comes the rest.
*squeals happily and pouncesnugs anyone who reads and/or comments*
The first hurdle is over and done, now comes the rest.
*squeals happily and pouncesnugs anyone who reads and/or comments*
Improvement and Anticipation
General | Posted 13 years agoLast time I did a journal, I was really down, to the point that I didn't even know how to make it through the day. Now things feel much better, and I have a bunch of people who I've thanked for their help with things.
So now for something a little less serious, I'm getting back onto my chainmail projects...should hopefully finish this long overdue one in a few days.
Lastly, epic cover: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSLPH9d-jsI
So now for something a little less serious, I'm getting back onto my chainmail projects...should hopefully finish this long overdue one in a few days.
Lastly, epic cover: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSLPH9d-jsI
All about me meme ( why not, eh? )
General | Posted 13 years agoALL | ABOUT | ME
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- Name: Tyler, Renoch, Ren
- Single or taken: Happily Taken
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: June 1st
- Sign: Gemini, I suppose? I don't track that stuff
- Hair color: Brown/dirty blond
- Eye color: brown
- Height: 6'2"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Gay dragon
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S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Old Spice
- What are you listening to right now?: One Truth - Globus
- Who is the last person that called you?: A close friend in need
- How many buddies are online right now?: I don't know, maybe 20?
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F A V O R I T E S
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- Animal: Draco Volans
- Color: Green
- Drink: Irish Breakfast Tea
- Element: Air
- Food: Seafood, omnomnom
- Game: I'm not sure, maybe Command & Conquer?
- Movie: Star Wars: A New Hope
- Song: Take Me Away - Globus
- Subjects in school: Physics, History, Digital Design
- # Stargate SG-1
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath?: Yes, my dog?
- Smoked?: No, I've seen what can happen
- Bungee jumped?: Nope, but want to
- Made yourself throw up?: Nope
- Skinny dipped?: Not yet.
- Ever been in love?: Been? I am, and couldn't be happier for it.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yeah, I have.
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Yes, yes I have...and more ;3
- Cried when someone died?: Yes.
- Lied: I'm not proud of it, but a lot.
- Fallen for your best friend?: No, but I like to tease him
- Used someone?: Yes.
- Done something you regret?: Sometimes I think I have more to regret than to be proud of >_>
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: Green T-shirt with a dragon head, jeans.
- Desktop picture: A black screen with an invalid Windows notice in the bottom right ._.
- CD in player: F.E.A.R. Game Disk
- DVD in player: See above.
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L A S T | P E R S O N
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- You touched: My mother
- Hugged: My mother
- You kissed: My mate
- You IMed: A fox friend
- Talk to online: A civet friend
- You sexed it up with: My mate
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A R E | Y O U
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- Understanding?: I give it my all to wrap my head around things.
- Open-minded?: You have to reaaally try to find something I don't accept.
- Arrogant?: No one's ever told me I am...so no idea.
- Insecure?: Quite often, almost daily.
- Random?: I'm predictably random...there's a method to it
- Hungry?: Not really.
- Smart?: People tell me I am, so I guess.
- Moody?: Occasionally
- Organized?: Ohgod no.
- Shy?: Very, very...I am easily discomforted by a crowd or strangers.
- Difficult?: Sometimes.
- Bored easily?: No, I spend a lot of time with my imagination.
- Entertained easily?: Eh, depends on my mood.
- Obsessed?: With a few things.
- Lazy?: Ohgod yes. *lazes in sun*
- Angry?: I don't show it...but half the time I'm bubbled with anger, directed at many things.
- Happy?: Maybe. I prefer contentment and the fulfillment of a purpose.
- Hyper?: Rarely. I'm mellow, if playful.
- Trusting?: No, almost never. I've got nothing to hide anymore, but it's hard for me to trust almost anyone.
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R A N D O M
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- In the morning I: Kick my alarm clock
- Love is: Warm snugglings with the love of my life
- I dream about: Flying through the skies with emerald wings.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Whether or not they wear glasses.
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W H O
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- Makes you laugh the most: Absurd, perfectly timed jokes
- Makes you smile: Talking with my mate.
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Define funny feeling, I guess.
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D O | Y O U | E V E R
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Every night.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Not really, though I've wished I was genderless before.
- Wish you were younger?: No, wished I was older
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Yes.
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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Three times, each with the death of a pet.
- Of Cd's I own: Half a dozen, a dozen?
- Of scars on my body: On my scalp, from a dog bite
- Of bones I've broken: Haven't broken any
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- Name: Tyler, Renoch, Ren
- Single or taken: Happily Taken
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: June 1st
- Sign: Gemini, I suppose? I don't track that stuff
- Hair color: Brown/dirty blond
- Eye color: brown
- Height: 6'2"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Gay dragon
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S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Old Spice
- What are you listening to right now?: One Truth - Globus
- Who is the last person that called you?: A close friend in need
- How many buddies are online right now?: I don't know, maybe 20?
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F A V O R I T E S
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- Animal: Draco Volans
- Color: Green
- Drink: Irish Breakfast Tea
- Element: Air
- Food: Seafood, omnomnom
- Game: I'm not sure, maybe Command & Conquer?
- Movie: Star Wars: A New Hope
- Song: Take Me Away - Globus
- Subjects in school: Physics, History, Digital Design
- # Stargate SG-1
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath?: Yes, my dog?
- Smoked?: No, I've seen what can happen
- Bungee jumped?: Nope, but want to
- Made yourself throw up?: Nope
- Skinny dipped?: Not yet.
- Ever been in love?: Been? I am, and couldn't be happier for it.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yeah, I have.
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Yes, yes I have...and more ;3
- Cried when someone died?: Yes.
- Lied: I'm not proud of it, but a lot.
- Fallen for your best friend?: No, but I like to tease him
- Used someone?: Yes.
- Done something you regret?: Sometimes I think I have more to regret than to be proud of >_>
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: Green T-shirt with a dragon head, jeans.
- Desktop picture: A black screen with an invalid Windows notice in the bottom right ._.
- CD in player: F.E.A.R. Game Disk
- DVD in player: See above.
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L A S T | P E R S O N
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- You touched: My mother
- Hugged: My mother
- You kissed: My mate
- You IMed: A fox friend
- Talk to online: A civet friend
- You sexed it up with: My mate
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A R E | Y O U
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- Understanding?: I give it my all to wrap my head around things.
- Open-minded?: You have to reaaally try to find something I don't accept.
- Arrogant?: No one's ever told me I am...so no idea.
- Insecure?: Quite often, almost daily.
- Random?: I'm predictably random...there's a method to it
- Hungry?: Not really.
- Smart?: People tell me I am, so I guess.
- Moody?: Occasionally
- Organized?: Ohgod no.
- Shy?: Very, very...I am easily discomforted by a crowd or strangers.
- Difficult?: Sometimes.
- Bored easily?: No, I spend a lot of time with my imagination.
- Entertained easily?: Eh, depends on my mood.
- Obsessed?: With a few things.
- Lazy?: Ohgod yes. *lazes in sun*
- Angry?: I don't show it...but half the time I'm bubbled with anger, directed at many things.
- Happy?: Maybe. I prefer contentment and the fulfillment of a purpose.
- Hyper?: Rarely. I'm mellow, if playful.
- Trusting?: No, almost never. I've got nothing to hide anymore, but it's hard for me to trust almost anyone.
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R A N D O M
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- In the morning I: Kick my alarm clock
- Love is: Warm snugglings with the love of my life
- I dream about: Flying through the skies with emerald wings.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Whether or not they wear glasses.
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W H O
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- Makes you laugh the most: Absurd, perfectly timed jokes
- Makes you smile: Talking with my mate.
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Define funny feeling, I guess.
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D O | Y O U | E V E R
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Every night.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Not really, though I've wished I was genderless before.
- Wish you were younger?: No, wished I was older
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Yes.
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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Three times, each with the death of a pet.
- Of Cd's I own: Half a dozen, a dozen?
- Of scars on my body: On my scalp, from a dog bite
- Of bones I've broken: Haven't broken any
Tired
General | Posted 13 years agoGuess it kinda figures my first journal would be kind of depressing, eh? It's a funny thing...how just a few minutes and the look on a few people's faces can nearly destroy one's passion for things.
Eh, I don't know what to say. I'm going to a furmeet tomorrow, time with the boyfriend tomorrow, both of which I'm eagerly awaiting and slightly dreading. Everything just seems...different. Simpler. Bit less bright.
Heh, I feel a bit like a fool writing this, but...I just want to scream it out, and so I suppose I'll let it out here, where I can at least delete the journal if I want. Anyway, going to cut this ramble short...should try and get some sleep, before I keel over.
Eh, I don't know what to say. I'm going to a furmeet tomorrow, time with the boyfriend tomorrow, both of which I'm eagerly awaiting and slightly dreading. Everything just seems...different. Simpler. Bit less bright.
Heh, I feel a bit like a fool writing this, but...I just want to scream it out, and so I suppose I'll let it out here, where I can at least delete the journal if I want. Anyway, going to cut this ramble short...should try and get some sleep, before I keel over.
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