Ahhhh I'm super scared!!
I'm trying to find someone who knows about it or has had it?

I'm over 2y on T now and my endo appointment is in 5 days... and I'm afraid he will probably talk to me about having hysto done soon and it just scares the shit out of me.

Idc about fertility that much nor about surgeries, I'm just worried about if there's a physical difference after it?? I've read that sometimes it can lead to vaginal prolapse ?????????????? and also what if someday, imagine, something really bad happens and I must stop taking T. I guess it would be like being menopausic but ughhhhhhhh??? I'm a person who thinks aLOT about the "what if" (sometimes, i admit, pretty absurdly) and dude idk what if there's a fuckin war or something or an apocalypsis FOR REAL THO? At least I wouldn't get my period (that could happen without hysto done............?) hahaaa......... but idk I'm just like. Stop.

So my levels rn are abit over average and probs he will make me get the shots in longer intervals, and with hysto those ranges could be even longer and that would be really nice?? BUT DAM N.

TL;DR- Risks and whatever. 0 contact with anyone that has had it done. Scared as shit. Someone with info?

Shit! I'm the worst to make decisions like this but I WANNA DO THE GORETOBER THING!!!!
I'm planning on doing them for me and also add lil YCH poses if someone is interested.
Though. Dude I'm the worst really idk if I will do it. Hopefully.



ANYWAY. Look I've been spending some time on a trip to see my partner. We've met personally for the first time and lemme say, what an awesome time to be alive. I learned a lot because his mom is super super nice and knows a ton of things, and also idk, they all were awesome and received me so openly. We went on some roadtrips to see some places around the island and UGHHH it was so precious!!!!

We had so much fun, I'm so happy. We've learned a lot together in this very little time. I wasn't expecting to spend much money but in the end I spent a little more than was intended. Damn! But it's okay, it was full worth. He's a cutie precious cinnamon roll, SO PURE!!!
Ahhhh *sigh.
We had some nice silly adventures, if you wanna call it that way. One of them involving the airport and thinking the plane was a day before it was. OOPS. xD

I just wanted to tell a lil bit about myself. I also had the opportunity to speak English for the /almost/ first time. Like, I did it once before but it's always been some kinda horrible experience. But I did it!!! Two times in a day. I'm so proud of myself for it!!! Idk if you could understand, I've just been many years trying to speak it but it's VERY scary to me. Aaaaaah!


About the goretober again... well I'll be uploading some doodles for the ychs. That's all I guess.
Uff. That's all. I don't wanna write a book or something here haha. It's too much text already.
Hope you ppls have a nice night. <3 Going to sleep now.... u<u

I know this is super dumb but expect a journal tonight about how things have been these last two weeks!!!!!!!! Also replies to the last journal and etcetc :__



Also
I can't believe what happened in the last of Mr. Robot.

[Spoiler]














_{I can't believe the gay™ is canon.
He said it.
I cried inside. Very loud. Shock.}

..., be great? Does that question even make sense? Sorry.
I mean, for you, what are the points that make someone be a really nice artist? Is it only their art that you judge? Is it also the quantity? Their progress over time? Maybe being more technical instead of too informal with people. Or on the contrary.

I have this problem, guys. I'm not a good artist, I will never be able to live out of this. I do love drawing, the art... It, no doubt, is a great part of my life. But I haven't got the capacity to be social enough, nor constant. I get tired of people, not individually, but the act of engaging into conversations that must keep going forever. Am I a shit of an artist if I can't reply a note right away? Or am I that bad because the time I take to finish a piece is illogically long?

There was a time when I was, like, okay. I used to talk more to people over here. I do have in my heart some people I met here. And most people know I'm no new to the site with this account, for that matter. But they know I've changed a lot. And as you may imagine I don't enjoy the situation, it brings nothing good to either of us.

I want answers. What do you people most hate about this. And what does "good artist" mean to you as a customer and/or artist.

This is sort of a rage I guess. I'd appreciate that if someone has something not-respectful to say, they don't say it. I just don't feel that well at all.

Yo!
Spent some time cleaning stuff and relaxing in general. Let it be a week and not only 2 days of cleaning lmaoo

Anyway!!!
Long story short, I'm getting back to digital finally as you've seen! I have one digital commission left to do, and then I will open some slots, be digital or traditional.
Also the traditional stuff I've already finished will be shipped about mid september, when I'm back after a lil trip! I'll make a journal by then so people who've commissioned them can contact me for addresses.
Also I'm v happy at my current reference!!!! Ren is so sesy omg I cant even I'm in love with my own characters sobssssssss.

Ahhh. I'm currently doing good as my mood is not so bad. Also summer is ending and hopefully this terrible heat goes with it. Ewww.
Can't wait for spoopy halloween.

> >!!! Do yuo guys like the spooks??? ALSO HAVE YOU SEEN MR ROBOT LATELY??

Oh and just for the lolz I guess, I'm Rentham on CuriousCat if someone wanna ask something, I'm just so bored sometimes I really appreciate questions over there.

I've just realised how much I've improved in traditional in just a few pics I'm shocked tbh :_U

Just spent 2 full days to clean my bedroom (woooo i have my bedroom again)
I've ran away a bit from other responsibilities with this
Now, returning to what I have to do already!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Guys guys guys look at this
I've got the laptop??? I thought it was impossible but it's here ;-;
I'm still installing drivers and programs but dude I WANT TO DRAW ALREADY
But cant right now. Also will keep doing the traditional stuff I have to do <3

I'll upload a photo soon I think.................. and and thank you so much for helping me (and actually hope you keep helping me bc I've only paid like the 20% of it lmao)
Also
lemme reply the notes tomorrow I'm SUPER TIRED (sorry i cant sleep much I sleep on the couch)

BUT ANYWAY
I'm feeling pretty well today apart of that.
It's cool.

Also. ALSO. LooK AT THIS, MORE GIVEAWAYS!!!! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20737502/ Pokemon Go timeeeeee~~~~~~

Imma smooch everyone's face.
Also mrkawauso is a cutie

Eyy! Check muh frand geonita, she's new on FA and crafts super cute earrings, necklaces, pendants...
To get a lil amount of watchers to begin with, she's making a giveaway :}!! Check the journal here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7727700/

Also if you wanna welcome her on the site it would be cool. Be aware that she's still leaning the language, so don't be so hard with her :P

Hey there.

I'd appreciate if you read this journal www.furaffinity.net/journal/7708311

This person is in a bad situation, and needs to move out of home because of his anti LGBT abusive parents.
I hope any of you can help and ask him for a commission or something.
It would make me so happy to know a trans sibling is in a safe place.

I'll be doing a Pokemon YCH pose to auction soon.
I've been playing lots of Pokemon Go lately. I never was a pokemon kid even tho I liked them, but I'm learning a lot from this one and dude are they fun.

Hopefully I can boost a bit my savings with this as well, since I've realized I can't buy the laptop by months, so will have to get the full amount of cash first.

Im still open for commissions here -> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7685975/

Thank you for reading.

Hey guys.
I appreciate so much the interest I've received for my commissions so far. I wanted to say that Im super thankful and kinda proud because I'm a very inconstant and slow artist and still I've done a few commissions in two weeks and I dunno. I know it's not much compared to others but it really is for me.

I guess this actually may be asking for too much but signal boost and/or donations are super appreciated and the commissions are PWYW starting from the mentioned base price.
I'm still fucked up and considering that 15$ (14$ with the PayPal fees) are even less euros I think it's understandable to accept tips xD. That or in some time I will raise a bit the price.

They're permanently open if someone's interested.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7685975/


Thank you so much.

Heeeello there guys.

Well gotta be quick, my computer is dead, and the only way I can get a new one is offering traditional commissions by now.

The information is the following:
-I'm learning to paint in traditional and my practise with this method is very little, so I can't really do complex poses, that's why I'm only offering icons or waist-up pieces.
-The pieces are fairly small, and I dont plan on sending them right now, though in some time I will do, so don't worry your pics would be safe in my sketchbook meanwhile.
-I'm up for icons of feetsies or whatever SFW limb you want lmao u:
-PLease have in count I cant scan the pieces right now, so my method to pass them are via photo. Though, I take my time editing them as well as my phone lets me.

-PWYW starting from the following prices:
-10$ each icon, 15$ each waist-up, via Paypal. (USD) Address: toraxmecanico[at]gmail.com
-I guess if someone's feeling extra generous, donations to that address would be greatly appreciated... <3

Please send me a note or leave a comment to claim a slot. No limit by now.
Also please consider sharing this, it's kinda urgent.

List (not in order):
- Ic. (finished)
- Wu. (finished)
- Wu. (finished)
- Wu. (finished)
- Wu. Wu. (finished)
- Wu. (finished)
- Wu. (Finished)


Goal: 140/650

(Edit 10th July: I've found a laptop I like, though Im not sure how much my mom will need to make the initial payment and it seems like a decent amount so I'll just set the complete price as the goal and keep it there, and let u guys know when I get it. Goal in Euros.
(Edit 21st July: The laptop I'm interested in doesn't have stock rn so Im waiting for it to be available.
(Edit 25th July: I've been seeing how financing works in said page and I'm not sure If I'll be able to buy it that way, so probably I'll have to save the full amount of cash first then get it. I'm not very positive about this.
(Edit 29th July: Anyway I tried to make it that way and hopefully it will work. Gotta wait a few days to know. I've turned on the old comp some times and it just reboots or bluescreens randomly. I'm positive about saving my archives tho.


Many thanks ;<;

We're still at my parents by now. There's no place for my computer bc of all the stuff laying around andtbhI'mnotevensureitworks.
I've been working a whole week in a job that gave me 20$. It's been ridiculous. That's how well things are going.

Will update this journal as things happen.
Sorry for the inconveniences everyone. I'm a shit v:

Edit (18th June)
Nothing new by now. Looking forward to find a job soon or jumping into the void.
Edit (24th June)
My computer is now mx. Bluescreen so Im prerry much fucked up forever until I win the lottery or get a fucking job.
Edit (6th Jul)
Trying to find a way to buy a laptop. Also practising my traditional. Maybe I can offer some trad comms to try to pay a ffirst part of a computer.

We have to move tomorrow from this apartment, pretty urgently. Will stay at my parents'.
I can't use my computer there but as soon as we can find another apartment I'll be back.

We've had to deal with changes and lots of travels, seeking for a new place... Can't wait to finally settle somewhere. I hate this mood of constantly stress and uncertainty...
See ya guys, very soon hopefully.

Sooooo Imma paste it here because I'm hella bad at words.
Coming from @Outputt; 'I really think if you have the time today, if we can scoot around on FA favouriting, commenting and +watching as many lovely people as we can.
So many people have been down in the dumps and hit hard so I think it'd be a lovely attempt to raise people's spirits again :D
Who's with me?'
I think it's a really good idea. Since I'm not really that active here, yanno, I'd honestly love to give some more attention to the comments side of FA. Comments make people smile most of the time.

──

Changin the subject- you can find me on FurryNetwork, Weasyl and Furiffic as the same name as here. I'm slowly adding stuff to the galleries.

──

And for the last point, small life update; my PC still works hella weird so I've tried to not to give it an excessive use. Though, sooner or later I'll have to go back to drawing, and don't worry please, it will be soon. I promise. But also I'll try to find a way to update some components in the near future. It's very probable that we'll have to move soon, too, but by now it's uncertain.

Have a nice night y'all.

Hey there.
Although the PC is working again, I still spend some time a day hunting dragons and so.
If someone plays and wanna hunt w/ me, feel free to note me and we'll exchange friend codes and blahblah v:

_{Idc about your RC but it would be nice to have someone with special G-rank tbh cus damn do I love to beat some Gogmazios' ass}

My PC died yesterday in the morning after some days acting extra weird.
Honestly I know nothing about these things, so I have no idea what's wrong.
Imma try to at least discover what's happened (even tho I googled it and says too many different things), or ask somewhere, in a store or smth.
Though, if it needs any change or something, I won't be able to get anything until I get a job.

If someone wants to help I will explain the symptoms. (edit: explained in the comments)

Edit (Mon 25 April):
All components moved to a bigger box, now its much easier to manipulate and dismount them. Tested with a friend's power unit and seems to work fine. Gotta buy a new one in a few hours, since they're pretty cheap.
>New power unit coming next friday.

Edit (Fri 29 April):
All working but PC fans acting kinda weird ¿?¿? I'll see how it goes tomorrow.

Edit [Sat 30 April]:
Apparently it's running okay right now. Still under observation but looks better and less noisy today.
Many thanks to Dark_Fox_Okajima for their good help!!

Edit [Thu 05 May]:
So I haven't been running it for too much but at least it's working.
Will be working asap! <3

INFO http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/rentham/

A full body pic, not gory this time please. Comment to claim
25$ per character, up to 3 characters

^{I'd really love to draw something cute/romantic. Like snuggles or kisses or just someone in undies¿? (I love undies) But that's up to you ofc.
Going to sleep now, checking this within a few hours}

Thank you so much


Closed!

I just found this interesting video and thought it would be good to share it.

Please watch it full, as the first second can be kinda confusing for some people. ??
I think it's really useful, and it's easier to calculate prices that way for someone who needs to pay heir bills with art, be it drawn, crafting, music...



It would be cool if you leave an opinion and share the video with people who could use it. I love to know what you guys on FA think of this stuff.

I've been considering changing my prices, cause in the end I always end spending much more time than expected in my stuff. It looks like every drawing takes more time than the previous. Not immediately, tho, but will do it, I need to find a price rate that is fair to me.

Yeeee!!!
Sooooooooo I'm finally here with mah ol frund (and now roommate)  demonligth and it's like super late already and gonna spend my first night here but wowie!!
Idk what to say, it's amazing to be away from bad vibes, it's liberating.
Still kinda afraid of some stuff but I guess that goes away with time. I just don't know how to adult responsably with other people yet (?)

Anyway. Wish us some luck........ and ughhhhhh I cant wait to draw again!! ♥

Hey! Well, first if all, thanks to the new people following my gallery.

Gotta talk about this though:
This year doesn't seem to start as well as I hoped. Things are... pretty weird and tense at my parents' home.
Not gonna get into many details but a friend just moved to our town and I have this opportunity to move with them for a while.
Have my life a bit cleaned up and also my lungs from cigarette smoke lmao. Haha actually yeah, it's gonna be sort of a vacation time from this toxic place where goals and schedules are impossible to achieve.
Will try to accomplish some stuff I've been trying for a long time, will eat properly, that kind of stuff. Exercise, work daily without illogical pressures.
Even, if everything turns out well, could find a job or something and we could actually be independant people lmao.

Damn do I want it to happen already...

Since Christmas, more or less, I've been having a strong cold that was later diagnosed as a pharyngitis, treated twice without any good results. Tomorrow is doctors day and see what happens.
Plus, this place's electrical current is fucked up and is breaking all my stuff with the power shutdowns. So hopefully its only the wifi antenna what's not working properly, because there's no chance to get a new computer.

I'll move, hopefully, early within this next week.
Comments and notes will be replied then, and will keep working on the commissions.

Sorry for the inconveniences and probably for all the typos, because phone and 4am, ya know.

Hope everyone can have fun and be happy wherever they are.
Try to enjoy these holidays as much as possible! Love ya guys.

I spent my night working since I've been busy painting my parent's bedroom's ceiling the last days, aaaand some stuff had to be done before Christmas so there I go.
More artsies incoming next days, but I'll take a full break tomorrow mkay.

Be safe and hug the blankets and gifts in case you get them.

Commissions
 andriassch's open for commissions!
He accepts almost any theme, and will work hard and carefully on it. Give him space, and he'll give you sum good arts back ♥♥!
 ddfur's open for commissions!
He's new on FA, but not in the art communities. Check out his Twitter or Tumblr, on his artist's info section, and see the beauties he can create in some very different styles~

YCH/Adopts
 takufoxy's YCH auction is open!
She's holding a cute winter auction to get some money for Christmas gifts! 0:


I'll be adding and removing people from this list, and will normally be the featured Journal. (Unless there's a new one, which will be on the main page for a relevant time)
Come back and check it every now and then, maybe there's something of your interest!^^

There we go! It's Holidays time. Some like it, some don't- but it's here!
I wish everyone to have at least a decent time!
2016 is coming -unlike winter in my country lmao-, and hopefully it's much better than 2015.

Anyway, I have some stuff for you, if you're interested!! Keep reading, please~...!

So, first of all, now that the option of featured Journals is available, I'd like to have a permanent journal making some publi of ppl I follow who have sales, open for commissions, stuff like that.
Sometimes it's hard to sell commissions, and it's always good to help people. So it would be cool if you check it every once in a while, maybe it's of your interest.

That being said, the first ppl to be featured there will be- my precious tetebro, who just opened for commishes and is feeling downhearted for the lack of customers.
He's willing to draw almost anything, you can just ask him.
→And mah friend ddfur, who's new on FA, and his commissions are open, too. Check his gallery, he has some interesting styles, and is also willing to draw almost anything. And dicks.

Next, some of you seem to like our new icons, I made them animated as a test, to see how they'd look. I'll offer them along with the static ones. Check my commissions tag for more info. Please, don't forget to always read the ToS/C section.

Finally, and this is only in Spanish, sorry!...
Abrí un ask.fm para responder dudas sobre mi experiencia como trans masculino. La cuenta es TheCordyceps, y mientras la pregunta esté planteada con respeto, la voy a responder. El anon está activado.
De veras me gustaría poder ayudar a las personas que se estén planteando su identidad, y/o que vayan a dar el paso... o simplemente a cualquiera con dudas. Los vídeos se me dan fatal pero igual puedo hacer algo con preguntas directas de esta forma. Nunca está mal una persona más que ayude.

Also, I'll be off without doubt from 23rd to 25th, and from 30th to January 2st, all days mentioned included. Probably be here to wish a happy new years and stuff, though.