just to hide my first wall-of-text unless somebody actively wants to dig for it.

Tucking this away here because presumably nobody is going to be forced to read this and I am overtly conscious about not being a bothersome nuisance, but since you're here it must mean that you care and I appreciate that you care to read the words of little ol' me. Goodness knows I'm quick to dismiss the oh-so lengthy ramblings of others. I'll SQUEEZE into this first paragraph right away that back in high school I was often called "obnoxious," if you could believe that. I used to be so open about telling everybody new things in video games and such that I've experienced. So I kinda learned to keep things to myself unless I'm certainly in the company of those who wish to hear about it. Though I think that has been a detriment because I hide away a significant portion of my life to people who may be interested in getting to know me and had made conscious choices to be more open when it pertains, but I digress!!!

Some things about me. Well, this is hard, I've rewritten this part because I still have so much of a self-filter and don't want to come off like I have a big ego. I'm a flawed person, I'm trying to better myself in 3d modeling, game programming, and music. 3d modeling is easier to stay focused on, for sure, because I can really stay focused on a project through to the end. I've grown more confident and have more self-esteem than I used to, but I still find it terribly terribly difficult to meet people and forge relationships. Apart from my 3d work that I get here-and-there, I have a really cushy part-time "jobby job" that is so flexible around my erratic schedule that I am going to keep doing it for as long as possible.

I'd feel a lot better about opening up if someone asks a question.